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Lust Vs Love

A woman called ‘A’ is unsure whether she could fall in love again, if she could feel vulnerable and let other enters her life. If there’s no failure, how would you grow. She wants to fall in love, but she is afraid if her past will haunt her down. Will there be any setback, I mean there’s always setback for anything in life? There’s a price to pay in everything you do, in their words there’s consequences to every decision you made. She is scared and overthinker, she need assurance as she is surrounded herself with lust. She won’t blame anyone for it, she can only blame herself for making such decision. She need failure then she will grow.

She has many things that rushing into her mind now, so many things and she hate that fact that she is overthinking, and she remember overthinking will only make things worse and the only thing she could do is fight it off. Don’t think so much about it. It is on her, will she be able to control herself, will she able to keep her mind to herself. She knows that her loyalty will be tested for sure.

She tells herself that she cannot be in confine space whether it is just between the walls. If she is in the public, she can behave herself, be civilized and with RBF expression on her facial expression. Her lifestyle is very toxic that she wouldn’t want to settle down for less. It made her feel that she doesn’t know what she wants. She is taking things on her pace. She is not rushing on getting married, having kids whereby most of her family, her friends, her colleague are already settling down while she is not going to settled down for less. She doesn’t want to become desperate or anything. She doesn’t have what it takes to be in relationship as many things will be tested, especially her loyalty.

Will she be able to do so?

 P.S This is the story that I wanna write yet I get affected by it as it’s basically about me and it make me overthink on things now.