#caxasy ask

[caxasy]

i feel like im posting a bunch of bullshit rn in between the rounds i do when im writing this long angsty caleb thing LMAO enjoy the miniature thingys for him before i post the freak beast.

[caxasy]

Your writing is soooo yummy omg i have been looking for male reader fics for WEEKS and i'm sosososo glad i found your blog YOU WRITE SO GOOD???? it's everything i needed, wanted and more THANK YOU soo much for your work <333

AWWWWWWW thank u so much for your kind words TT.TT (im on desktop rn i would add emojis but i cant LMAO)

i hope i can keep writing for you and giving you some more good male reader content !!! thank u so much for this kind message, i rlly appreciate it anon :333

[caxasy]

I wonder, Is Y/N a constant like MC and the boys in every other universe? Is he a like the rest of the them who exists infinitely? Or is he a being that only exists in one or VERY few universes? A 1 in a billion or more universes type of person.

If the other universes were to meet him, how would it go? Would they wonder who this mysterious person is and why he seems to feel so right? Like he was supposed to exist in their universe too but never did, only in that one and a few others.

This is my take on the “Do you think we’re ___ in every other universe?” thing but the opposite. “We’re together in this universe, but who knows if we are in the others. But to me, that’s what makes this one all the more precious.”

Heh. Wouldn’t it be funny if Y/N was like this super rare legendary pokemon that only appears at a 00000.01% rate

omgggg i have thought about this beause i was thinking of writing an actual lads Lis x male reader x mc basc a reverse harem n everything and this was smth i thought abtttttt because each possibility (him exisiting vs not exisiting in other timelines) would be sooooo good and provide so much potential !!!

lowkey i love thinking about it, but i'm way to indecisive to pick one, so basically i'll probably never write the lis x male reader x mc fic if i can't choose one LMAO

also it would be very funny if he were like a rare pokemon" because now all the lis and mc are like "uhm idk whats going on but PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE STAY IN MY LIFE" and i like that idea a LOT

[caxasy]

Forgive me father for I am about to yap 🙏. I just wanted to talk about my thought process when it came to the ask I sent for Caleb. I don't play the game but I love seeing the memes and art from the fandom. One thing I've seen is seeing male players talk about being judged/attacked (for lack of a better term) for playing LADS. Most of the arguments I see being "This is an otome game" or "the boys aren't gay" seeing those comments I thought "Why don't I take these comments and use them as the basis for an angst scenario. And bringing China's LGBT censorship gave me the idea of "What if because of how they were raised what if Caleb was repressed and didn't know he also had an attraction to men". I also took from my own experience from when I was in the closet and seeing other guys interact with each other and sort of based Caleb in this scenario off that behavior. His environment taught him to have an aversion to anything queer so instead lingering on any complicated feelings he could have for male reader he clung to the one person that gave him a sense of normalcy with what he was feeling, mc. For people who know me at first glance or at a superficial level I very much lean into comedy and it may make me seem a lil childish but my creativity allows me to think on uncomfortable topics with the grace they deserve and lead to create apparently really enjoyable ideas!

Tldr: Instead of doing a funny teehee haha like I usually do, I wanted to think more critically of what could be an enjoyable LADS fic idea ╮⁠(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠╭

It's the INFP in me.

yap is always welcome dont fret (id also put the praying hand emoji but im currently on desktop so </3)

i wanna really quickly address a point you brought up, about male players/men playing lads and the way the community treats that. not really talking specifically about what you said, but something pertaining to it. this ask actually gives me an opportunity to say something that i lowk have been wanting to sayyyy omg. anyway onto my point. (i’m also not directly addressing you when i’m writing this, i’m speaking just more so generally/whoever reads this) as far as i know, the lads community doesn’t ostracize the men who plays lads, i mean i haven’t seen it and i’d rather nto immediately assume that all fem players would be mean and say these things LOL. but i do know a lot of fem players complain about seeing men ask for the game to be gay, or for there to be a male mc. and i understand where they are coming from, to an extent. this is, i think probably since mystic messenger, the most in depth lore driven otome game that has come out in a while WITH also really stunning graphics, designs, art, etc. so i can understand the frustration of; why can’t we have this one good thing for ourselves?

but what i don’t get is spinning the narrative so aggressively to say “the love interests aren’t gay!!!” which i get why they are saying that, it is an otome game, the love interests are men and the mc is a woman lmao, but the way i see so many fem players drive that point so deeply and so repeatedly is kind of overkill? i want to phrase this carefully so i’m cleaerly understood, but sometimes it can come across angry that male reader/male players even exist in the space, ykwim? like why are you playing my heterosexual otome game, this isn’t a space for you….when it’s like, queer people are going to be in every space known ot man, since queer people exist in literally every community. obviously this is NOT all lads fem players, it’s just some of the ones ive seen on the internet that talk about male players in the fandom are so angry ? and hostile. and obviously, if male players are making spaces uncomfortable, where the only example i could think of is insisting and constantly asking for there be an official, playable male mc (i don’t agree with that sentiment btw), then fem players have the right to tell that individual, hey this is not the place for that, this is not the space for that etc.

but generally speaking, queer people can be apart of any community and exist in it, peacefully and non-maliciously ofc as anyone should, and it shouldn’t be a problem? again im not saying that all fem lads players are rude and want male players to jump off a cliff LMAO i am NOT saying that. i just think, wasting energy on telling the nonmalicious male players to get out of the fandom/this is not the space for us is seriously … a waste of energy as i said LOL anyway now IM THE ONE YAPPING, it was just something i’ve been thinking about because i’ve seen so many tiktoks as of late really driving that point “the love interests aren’t gay!!!” so aggressively to male players….

like we are all here to admire the pretty pixelated men, why are we all over generalizing and fighting each other T.T

also your thought processing in creating that idea and ask is truly something so interesting and smth i love doing too, like applying real life situation and reactions and possibly creating fic ideas with that. because, obviously, instances like that truly do happen and i think showing that experience through fanfictoin can seriously open the minds of anyone who reads said fanfics. it’s also super humane of a response of what you’re describing, making the fanfiction even more dimensional and relatable.

ok yap session over, sorry. also if i phrased anything oddly or i came across in a weird way, please just lmk and i’ll try clarifying what i mean since i dont think im completely articulate rn (runnin on no sleep + brain fried from doing my humongous assignment through the night)

[caxasy]

“Me, my wife, and the 4 men who wants her (and also me probably)” - reader at 3am, tired as hell because mephisto wont leave their fucking window and also definitely sure Caleb and/or Xavier broke in their house already

(This was made with the thought that reader and mc are already married and the boys are the toxic ex-situationships who wont leave them alone)

this is actually so funny to think about and I LOVE IT (im a harem fiend tbh ... as long as the harem is surrounded around the reader LMAOO)

imagining the lis being so desperate to just be in their lives but reader is v much like "no thank u pls stop bothering my wife now" and the lis jus "🥺 can 🥺we 🥺at 🥺least🥺 be 🥺near 🥺you 🥺" like LOSERS .... i love it #grovellingmen #ilovethis

[caxasy]

Sorry about the back to back anons my goat but have you heard the song “Please don’t..” by kwill? Cus like im REALLY having this stupid brainrot ab Caleb x unrequited love reader and reader x mc just like in the song.. where literally almost everybody thinks Caleb wants mc when in actuality he wants reader so fucking bad. gaghheg.. WAITER!! MORE LLS SUFFERING PLS!!

But still pls ignore this if you want bc this thought just came randomly

ong i knew the title sounded familiar its LTR IN MY LIKED SONGS ANON HOW DID U KNOWWWW tbf i havent listened in so long / read the eng translation but .... YOU ARE COOKING that soynds like such a good idea i kind of love ittttt 🤭 who knows might just have to write it (if someone says caleb x reader, angst, unrequited love in the same sentence its basically like throwing gasoline onto a fire, I EAT HAT TYPE OF SHIT UPPP)

also do NAWT apologize for sending more stuff into my inbox guys i loveeeee getting the notifs and reading everything, feels like im in a fun big groupchat or smth LOL

[caxasy]

Oh now im curious ab the “moth to a flame” one in your wips

Does that mean the lls are yearning for mc while she’s with y/n? I wonder if the boys harbor ill feelings towards him or not lolol

to be honest...i was thinking LMAOOAO mc basically cheating on the lis with reader, the one she actually wants. ("all your friends say hes the one. his love for you is true. but does he know you call me when he sleeps? does he know the pictures that you keep?" etcetc) so yeah...cheater mc x reader, unreq love lis x mc

RJWBRKABKEA SORRY TO MAKE HER BE THE CHEATER BUT I SUPPORT WOMENS WRONGS AND RIGHTS 😭🙏

i also just want readers to WIN and not be the ones in ANGST for once, hence hes the one shes picking/loving more than the lis....lis are always winning mannn 😒 they always either get the hottie reader or baddie mc, like no imma make the two hotties get together and the lis b in crippling angst ‼️‼️ i havent thought that far into how the lis would feel abt reader, it could be they #hate him or lowk also #want him .... smth for me to ponder more hehe 🤭

a very rough idea since i just kept listening to the song on repeat at work for like two hours but idk i kinda like it ?? lmk ur thoughts loll

[caxasy]

dedaah wanted Caleb be hurt so like.... So like but like.... Yeah I too am confused😕😔

literally me bro TT.TT like i dont wanna b sympathetic to someone RUDE and MEAN...but.....its caleb UGH

[caxasy]

Undecided romantic ending? *AND* Subtle Zayne x m!reader? PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!

nooo bc i ltr do NOT like when readers go back to the character/love interest after said character/love interests says the most vile shit to them .... so i was like, i love caleb, but hes bein real mean.....i should make the reader get w someone NOT mean .... but also i love caleb A LOT. a lot a lot hence undecided romantic endinng bc I MYSELF AM CONFLICTED

but its ltr been so fun to write, i cant wait to publish it !!! this req of urs was ltr top tierrrrrr

[caxasy]

HI OMG ive been looking at ur account for a bit and i love ur stuff!! good lads x male reader is so hard to find🤕

KEEP WRITING PLS YOURE SO TALENTED🙏🙏

(also a part 2 of the caleb fic would be amazing icl)

-@sunflw3rbouquet

omg hihihiiiii :33 im so happy youve been enjoying my lads contenttt 🥺 it means sm to get messages like thisss ugh tytytyyyyy

I APPRECIATE YOUR KIND WORDS SM !!! HOU DONT EVEN KNOWWW 🖤

also yesss i will be writing a part 2 for that caleb fic...but first imma post this other super duper long and angsty caleb fic ive been working on that i hope will also be yummy for yall 😋

[caxasy]

OUHHH lowkey want them to hate readers ass but also kinda want him? Yk really complicated feelings n shit..

I esp wanna see Caleb’s bc he’s super close with reader and mc so hes gonna have a HARD time,,,,&:&;&

But they could just really hate his guts and reader’s like living his best life with his pretty girlfriend LMAOOO

seeee like i havent even thought too much into the individual lis reactions bc its such a rough draft/idea but i looverleoveloveloveeee thinking abt it noww omg :3 and ur right caleb might jus combust from his dilemma there LMAO

talkin abt this wip in the general ltr has me like this tho

[caxasy]

Hi I think I may have sent my very long angsty (sorta) Caleb brain rot rant. I just wanted to say thank you for giving us such good Caleb content! I really love how you write him it inspired me to make my very long ask lmao! Keep up the phenomenal work! 👍

i saw it and i was literally thinking whoever this is, is cooking. the idea is soooosooooo good and has sm angst potential WHICH I LOVE I LOVE ANGST SO BAD !!! ill b super excited to write it, ty for sending me that omg. i hope i do it justice when i get around to writing/publishing it....i also imagine itll b really long bc i love fleshing out angst into the thousands word thresehold, so it may take a while BUT I WILL WRITE IT it made me so :3 reading it

ty for the kind words and req ugh tytytytYTY

[caxasy]

I'm trying to understand the lore of LADS but I'm still a little confused, which tbf I don't actually play the game 😅 but I sorta got obsessed after promising myself I wouldn't once I read your stuff. So I wanted to ask what got you into LADS and what do you think of the story so far?

(i also have no idea what is going on in the lore LMAO well ik the main story lore but when you put together all of mcs relationships w the LIs and the myths, i start getting a lil confused bc omg so many timelines ughhhh)

what got me into lads was acc a friend of a friend playing the game, telling my friend who told me that its actually fun + hot sexy otome men, and basically from there i was sold. i kinda knew abt it beforeee, like rlly rlly early days of its release but i wasnt in my otome game phase anymore so i kinda ignored it (the ads on tiktok r so freaky too, i was a past-retired freak so it wasnt appealing to me then LOL)

the story is acc very interesting to me, but also a tad overwhelming 🙂‍↕️ only because there is so much lore. learning all about the relationships and timelines is kind of been like hovering over me, waiting for me to pay attention to it when in reality im trying to act like ik whats going on whwn i REALLY dont. thats kind of why i gravitate towards caxasy (caleb xavier n sylus) is because their lore is way more comprehensive to me and more so straight forward (alrhough i admit i am still trying to learn more about xaviers....) i plan on one day seriously sitting down and delving into zayne and rafayels but until then im kinda in the dark with those two </3

TLDR bc omg i didnt realize i lowk went on a tangent : i think the games story line is really good and engaging, esp when it comes to the interactions w the lis and i cant wait for any new updates on the main story line. that being said, lore of it all is kind of intimidating and im still yet to understand it all