#changbing imagine

[tinyarsonist]

Love, Love

"For you? In a heartbeat."

Summary: You live your past and future when a one-night stand with Changbin turns into an unplanned pregnancy.

TW: NonIdol!Changbin, Fem!Reader, strangers x lovers, pregnancy, mentions of alcohol, implied pregnancy sex, blow job, cunnilingus, pet names (bunny, bin, mommy, daddy)(but not in the way you think I swear), let me know if I missed anything!

MDNI 18+ ONLY

Past in italics. Future in bold. Rest in present.

This wasn’t how it was supposed to happen.

You scream as you feel another rip of pain flash through you. The doctors and nurses crowded around you, encouraging you to keep going. That it’ll all be worth it. Everything you ever dreamed of, waiting to be wrapped up in a blanket and handed off to be cradled in your arms. But that’s the thing--this isn’t what you dreamed of.

Changbin was supposed to be the one by your side. Holding your hand, and trying to keep up a strong appearance for your sake while freaking out all the same on the inside. He was supposed to be your rock.

But he wasn’t here.

You grip the hospital bed bar and yell out again in pain. You somehow knew that you were still nowhere near where you were supposed to be.

Physically. Mentally. Spiritually. Whatever you wanted to call it. 

You weren’t ready.

“I don’t know how I’m going to do this,” You whispered. Changbin sat close to you on the bed. Both of you were looking at that little blue stick that would forever change your lives. It was supposed to be just for one night. One night where the two of you forgot about the rest of the world. Heavy drinking, flirting with strangers at a club. No stress about work, family, or friends. The only thing that mattered was what happened on the same sheets you were sitting on. That was the plan, and the two of you conveniently found one another to forget about life with.

The night was one of the best nights you’ve ever had. Since the two of you had the notion of never seeing each other ever again; there was no reservation when you led him out of the bar and into your apartment. As soon as the door closed, Changbin pushed you against the wall and stripped you of your clothes all in one go. As he was preoccupied with you, you unbuckled his belt and freed his erection from its restraint. Essentially, being pushed on your knees, your lips instantly wrapped around him as he held your head in place and thrusted.

As he laid your head against the wall, he wasted no time in using you to chase his own pleasure. You relaxed your throat as much as you could, tears welling in your eyes from the slight sting but relishing in every movement. Changbin loved the way your makeup ran down your face. Nothing but moans and the sloppy sounds of your mouth echoing around the room. “That’s it. All the way, bunny.”

The rest of the night was history.

When you started feeling off a couple of weeks after, you decided to take a test, just to be on the safe side. Nothing could’ve prepared you for the result on the tiny pregnancy test window.

“How are ‘you going to do this’?” Changbin took his eyes off the test to stare at your profile. It wasn’t exactly the way he imagined his life to take. To be honest it scared him when he got your call, saying you needed to speak with him about something urgently, after not contacting him again after that night. “What do you mean?”

“Well… I’m keeping it…” You look up and turn to meet his gaze. “You don’t have to be around for it--I know that’s asking a lot. A-and I don't expect money or anything, but I did want you to know. It felt like you needed to know and--”

You stopped your rambling as his hand lightly covered yours as you held onto the test. “You're not doing this alone,” he grumbled despite his gentle caress. “I want to make this clear--it's our baby. I'm with you every step of the way.”

Your shoulder relaxed in relief as the two of you shared this moment together. The grip of the test in your hand slightly tightening. 

You howled as another contraction rips through you, your hands finding the sidebars of the hospital bed and clutching on so tightly your knuckles turned white. A nurse dabbed a wet cloth on your face as your body fell back into bed, trying to regain some form of strength for the next round.

“I can't do this. I can't do this,” you sobbed to yourself as the nurse kept trying to calm you down.

“You're almost there,” she cooed. “Your husband will--”

“He's not---agghhh!” You lurch forward as another wave rips through you. Your hair was plastered across your face from the sweat of being in labor for half the day. “He's not my husband!”

By your second trimester, you and Changbin were essentially conjoined at the hip. He meant about being there every step of the way. 

Changbin gave you no room to argue when he mentioned he was moving into your apartment and out of his shared apartment with Chan and Jisung. “How else am I supposed to help you?”

Every middle of the night craving for olives with strawberry ice cream, Changbin got up from your shared bed with no complaints to run to the nearest convenience store. Which was so often enough, that the store owner always hid the items for you whenever they were running low.

“Remind me to send Mr. Kim a fruit basket,” you said with a mouthful of olives as your spoon held a glob of strawberry ice cream. Changbin sat next to you on the couch as the late-night show glow filled the dark living room. He laid his head on your shoulder and snuggled against you. His eyes rested from the lack of sleep, but still forced himself to stay up in case you needed anything else.

“Don't. That kid of his, Seungmin, will probably eat it all before he could even find it.” Changbin grumbled. Chuckling, you placed your cheek on the top of his head as you took a bite of your snack.

Changbin smiled warmly as he felt you move closer to him. He pried open his eyes and placed a hand on your growing belly, remembering when you would fight him at first whenever he would do so. But now? Now, it felt weird to not have him holding you in some form.

“Do you think it'll be a boy or a girl?” 

“If you want to know the sex, we can always ask the doctor.” You chuckle as Changbin shook his head and sits up a bit so he could look at you. His hand never moving from its rightful place on your belly. 

“Absolutely not! Then it won't be a surprise!”

“I think having this baby is enough of a surprise as is.”

The two of you laugh at your comment and Changbin can't help but bring you closer. You rested your cheek against his chest as his other arm wrapped around your shoulders. Changbin giggled as you still somehow managed to take another bite of your ice cream while still in his snug hold. The TV continued playing on. Soon a skit of an unplanned pregnancy played, all characters frantically running around trying to organize a shot-gun wedding.

“Do…do you think we should get married?”

Changbin stiffened at your question. But not for the reason you thought. He toyed around with the idea for some time. Tension between his family was a bit rough ever since he told them the news, especially between his father and him. Not only that--he couldn’t help but feel this tug to you now that the two of you agreed to be in this partnership together. Everything felt right. Like he belonged. It would’ve been easier to propose; to him, his family, and the child you two were bringing into this world.

But would it be for you?

“I don’t want you marrying me, because you have to.”

Your head shot up. Did that mean he’s thought about it? Did that mean this relationship was more than platonic just for the baby’s sake? Your heart pounded at the closeness of you two. “But you would…you would marry me if I wanted to?”

Changbin lowered his head a bit so his lips could hover just above yours. 

“Only if you wanted to.”

Fear set in Changbin’s heart as he ran through the airport. He got your multiple voicemails. Each becoming more and more panicked than the last, as soon as his plane touched down. The baby wasn’t due for another week. He thought he had more time.

Changbin was cursing himself under his breath as he pushed past the crowd. Scolding himself for taking on that account when he should’ve been with you. “It’ll be fine she said,” Changbin flagged down a cab. “You’ll have time, she said.”

He knew it was unfair to blame you. You couldn’t control the weather, let alone when you went into labor.

When the cab came to a standstill due to bump-to-bumper traffic, Changbin wasted no time rushing out of the vehicle and booking it towards the hospital. Dodging any incoming cars that were trying to beat the traffic. He was sweating by the time he reached the front desk, desperately asking what room you were in. “Room 325,” the station nurse said. Watching as he frantically ran towards the direction she pointed in.

Finally reaching your door, Changbin’s hand hesitated before pulling down on the handle.

This was it. The past 8 months were drawing to a close. Where did that leave the two of you? Would you want him out of the apartment by the time the baby’s sleeping schedule was set? Did all the late-night talks and surprise breakfast-in-bed mornings come to an end?

Changbin didn’t have time to let his thoughts spiral out of control as the nurse inside the room opened the door for him. “Oh,” she jumped a bit at his presence. “Are you the husband?”

“I’m not…” Changbin stopped himself and just nodded. The nurse gave him a smile before opening the door to let him through. Offering her congratulations before leaving the three of you alone.

You sat on the hospital bed, swaddling this new love you brought into the world close to your chest. Your back slightly turned away from Changbin as he took small steps toward you, his face dropping a bit.

“I missed it?”

You turn your head slightly and smile at him. “You’re here.”

“Of course,” Changbin sat next to you on the bed. His arm wrapped around you and pulled you to lean back into his chest. His head pressed against yours as he closed his eyes. Just having you in his arms was enough to chase the fears away. “Pretty sure I caused a car crash on the way over, but I didn’t want to miss it.”

“You’re here now, that’s all that matters.” You shifted a bit to reveal the tiny figure in your arms. Changbin’s eyes widen as he stares down at your shared creation. They instantly softened as love filled his entire body. “Would you like to meet your daughter?”

Having the little one in his arms for the first time was nerve-racking. Once his gaze locked on the sleeping babe, his confidence filled a bit. He felt your head rest on his shoulder as the two of you stared in awe. “We made this,” his voice was but a whisper. At this moment Changbin knew what he wanted. He didn’t want this to end. The three of you were meant to live out your lives together, and he didn’t want to let go of that. “I--”

You already knew where this was going. You felt it too. Everything was set perfectly, despite the both of your run-down expressions. But you wouldn’t have it any other way. You cut him off with a gentle kiss. When the two of you parted the words flowed out of your mouth without any thought. 

“Marry me?”

Changbin’s forehead pressed against yours; “In a heartbeat.” 

“I’m serious, Bin!” You laugh as the two of you attempted to put together a nursery room in your spare bedroom. Changbin was getting frustrated trying to put the cradle together. How in the hell was this long stick supposed to fit in this pocket?! “You’re reading the direction wrong! Here let me help.”

“Ah, ah!” Changbin playfully slapped your hand away. “Let Daddy take care of it.”

You knew he didn’t mean it in that way, but you couldn’t help but feel the heat spread throughout your body. “You can’t say things like that…”

Nothing could happen. You were about ready to pop. Feet swelling up so much, Changbin had to give them a massage every day after work just so you were able to walk. Despite all of that, Changbin put down the piece he was holding and gave you a knowing look. “Oh?” He grinned. “Why is that, bunny?”

He leaned in close enough to guide you to lie down gently on the floor. Soft kisses were placed on your neck and collarbone. Careful to not put any pressure on your belly. You sighed happily at the attention. Guess it’s true what they say about the raging hormones. “You’d really have sex with a pregnant lady?”

“With you? In a heartbeat.”

“Told you we’d have a girl,” Changbin smiled as he held your daughter in his arms. Taking in everything he could to forever grave this memory in his head. As if it would be that easy to forget this day; the birth of his daughter and engagement to you.

“Guess I lost that bet,” you laugh. Your fingers gently caress her cheek. “Look, she has your dimple!”

Your daughter cooed in her sleep, showing off that famous indent on her cheek. Already showing off the Seo smile. Changbin grinned; “What should we name her?”

“We gotta hurry,” Changbin said breathlessly as he stripped off his shirt and crawled on the bed towards you. You laid on your satin sheets, already naked and ready for the taking. “My girl is already questioning where I ran off to. She’ll get suspicious soon.”

“You know,” you moan as his lips latch onto your nipple. “We wouldn’t have to keep up this charade if you just--”

You couldn’t finish your thought as his hand slotted itself between your legs. Wasting no time in playing with your folds, as he usually does, and inserts two fingers to stretch you out. His pace was almost relentless, his hand covering your mouth as your moans started to get louder and louder. “Hush, bunny.”

The four years since the birth of your daughter have only spurred on your sex life with Changbin. Even though you knew he had another woman close to his heart. But you had to admit, there was something exciting about sneaking away for a quickie.

Changbin released his hold on your mouth and lowered himself down to your pussy. “Always so pretty,” he breathed against you. His lips instantly found your clit and kissed you in every way that you liked. That was the bright side to your getaways; he never wasted time on getting the job done.

“Bin, I’m--” 

Before you could finish, your sentence and your orgasm. A loud knock banged on your bedroom door. Hearing the voice muffled behind the door made you both groan. “Your other woman is requesting your presence,” you teased.

“Yea, yea.” Changbin pulled his fingers out of you and kissed you deeply before getting up to wash his hands quickly. You pulled the sheets over your naked body as he opened the door, revealing your adorable daughter holding a stuffed pink bunny. A pink bow dawned on her head as she looked up at Changbin. “Daddy, I wanna play dress up!”

“You wanna play dress up?” Changbin grinned as he picked her up and gave a peck on her cheek. “Okay, okay. Let’s go play. Say night to Mommy.”

You blow a kiss at your daughter as Changbin looks at you. The softness when looking at your daughter was replaced with a much darker expression as his eyes laid back on you. “You don’t do anything without me. Daddy will be back to play with you later.”

The question of naming your daughter hung in the room. Despite the many months of having time to plan, that seemed to be the only thing the two of you didn’t think about. The pink decorations hanging in the hospital hallway caught your attention before bringing it back to your new bundle of joy.

“Aera,” you smile. Changbin kissed Aera on her tiny head before placing one on your cheek. It was sweet seeing you get into the holiday spirit.

“Aera it is. Happy Valentine, bunny.”

“Happy Valentine, Bin.”

Note: This was made on the spot, so sorry if it isn't great 😭 I really wanted to post something for Valentine Day though and Changbin was the first one to come to mind. Guess I got bit by the love bug today 🩷

Aera is a Korean name that can roughly be translated/meaning to "Love"

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[daceydeath]

Hierarchy (Part 9)

Heirachy: a system, especially in a society or organization, in which people are organized into different levels of importance from highest to lowest.

Pairing: Mafia Changbin x Reader Word Count: 6.7k Genre: Mafia AU, friends to lovers, slow burn Warnings: 18+, Minors DNI, swearing, mafia violence, death threats, guns, dubious intentions, criminal activity, guns, blood, fighting

🚨Trigger Warning: Attempted Assault of a sexual nature does occur in the chapter against the reader. If you are at all sensitive to this topic I would suggest that you skip this chapter entirely. I am happy to tell you what happens in the chapter via message so you don't miss any of the story so that you can avoid any content that may cause you any form of upset, trauma or pain. Caution is advised.

You have always been utterly uninteresting, safely boring as close. You had a normal job, normal friends and the sweetest bestie on the planet but now everything is upside down and that best friend of yours is far more dangerous than you could have ever imagined.

All Changbin could hear was the blood rushing in his ears after you told him you had been with Felix, you had said you had kissed him but he knew Felix and you were close so he was sure you actually meant you had let him fuck you. He wasn't sure what whether he was angry or hurt and he wasn't sure if it was by you or by Felix but either way Felix was going to pay for it. Slamming the meeting room door open the noise from it bouncing off the wall surprising not only Felix but Chan, Minho and Hyunjin who were talking about other business while Felix frowned his phone to his ear.

"Changbin!" Chan yelled noticing how furious and deathly calm he looked.

"You are fucking dead" he growled lowly ignoring Chan completely as he crossed the room faster than they obviously expected except Felix who hadn't moved but had hung up the phone.

"Binnie, man I can explain it's not whatever you are thinking" Felix explained calmly raising his hands in surrender.

"You fucked my girl you cunt, you fucked her right under my nose you fucking bastard" he glared icily the veins on his neck straining against his skin. "You took advantage of her you piece of shit" Changbin was still the picture of cold calmness as he pulled his hand gun and at point blank range aimed between the younger mans eyes.

The whole house had heard the commotion at this point because the others came running to see what the fuck was going on except Han who already knew and had high tailed it outside to where he knew you had gone with Changbin not too long ago. Hyunjin say nervously wide eyed as Jeongin and Seungmin stood behind the couches at a good distance and even Minho looked apprehensive. He could feel the palpable fear rolling off his crew it had been a long time since he had played the enforcer roll but it was still as much a part of him as you were.

"Woah, woah, lets maybe talk about this for more than a few seconds" Chan demanded his authority over the others obvious as no one else moved "What are we talking about here?".

"The night we brought her here this piece of shit fucked her" he accused eerily quietly raising his eyebrow to Felix to challenge him on it.

"Felix did you?" Chan rounded on the younger one.

"No boss" Felix quipped quickly his eyes not leaving Changbin's

"Then what the fuck is going on?" Chan snarled looking between the two.

"I'm going to kill Felix that's what is going on" he ground out the rage still flowing in his blood like poison.

"Go on then" Felix egged him on eyes hard as he watched his best friends eyes burn "She wouldn't ever forgive you if you did she would be out of here and your life forever, but still take your shot man". The room stopped even Chan was holding his breath waiting for him to make his decision.

"Princess?" he called jogging around the gardens looking for where ever you might have stopped with Changbin finding you whimpering as you walked back from the hedge maze, tear stains on your face and shirt.

"Hannie?" you croaked meeting his eyes with your watery ones. "I fucked up"

"Oh princess" he soothed pulling you into his arms to hold you for a moment "we need to get you back inside your two boys are going to kill each other if we don't".

"Did you just hug me?" you spluttered looking at him in slight shock.

"Well yeah, course were friends so I can hug you like Lix can" he grinned looking like at excited child which made you feel slightly better that you had made your cute walk with Bin into a shit show. "But I mean it they are going to kill each other if we don't get back, the big guy is very good at killing people".

"What do you mean?" you muttered as you followed him back to the house in a much more direct way than you had first wandered.

"Didn't he tell you? before all of us were together he was the enforcer he did all the killing because he is good at it, just shuts himself off, no humanity just a killing machine. That changed when Hyun and I came in and together took over for him but he still takes people out whenever Chan asks" he shrugged like he was telling you the upcoming weather forecast not that Bin could murder on command.

"Fuck" you mumbled as you reached the french doors that led into the kitchen, the house was deathly silent which worried you but Han just squeezed your hand and continued towards the meeting room effectively dragging you there. As soon as you entered your heart leapt into your throat Bin was standing only a few feet from Lix with a gun pointing at him while Lix just stared back, the others watching on in silence.

"Just shoot him already big guy or put it down no one cares which one of you has the bigger dick, especially since our princess couldn't verify that anyway" Han groaned plopping down on the couch and putting his feet up like he was watching a movie.

"What did you just say?" he growled again not even bothering to look at Han.

"I said our princess wouldn't be able to confirm which dick is bigger, because she doesn't. I would know I walked in on them and I would have asked to join in if there was any real fun to be had" he sighed dramatically like it was all a giant joke "Isn't that right princess?"

"Changbin?" you whispered since the air that had been punched out of your lungs by the sight in front of you making it impossible for you to be able to actually speak Felix's eyes flicked to you momentarily, Bin did something to the gun that made it click and your brain shut down sending you into autopilot. You strode across the room and put yourself between them Bin's gun touching your chest instead.

"If you want to kill Lix you kill me first" you snapped fear and anger mingling and mixing in your blood. Bin lowered his gun in a heartbeat his eyes changing rapidly from rage to horror before filling with tears.

"Doll" he gasped dropping the pistol to the floor which Chan dived to get before anyone changed their minds.

"Seo Changbin you are a fucking arsehole" you continued voice shaking "I kissed Felix, I started it he asked me a dozen times if I was sure" you swallowed hard knowing you were airing this in front of everyone "You hadn't told me you loved me, you hadn't don anything but yell at me, telling me you killed people and I was fucking terrified, Felix did nothing wrong so you want to take this out on someone then take it out on me not him. I won't let you hurt my friend or yours" no one said anything until Felix stood from behind you.

"Bubs never, ever stand in front of a gun without its safety on again! You scared the shit out of me just now" He exhaled his hand on your shoulder squeezing comfortingly.

"Sorry Felix" you mumbled "I should just let him shoot you next time?" the adrenaline in your system keeping you from crumbling.

"He wasn't going to shoot me" Felix sighed.

"Well not fatally anyway" Changbin grumbled making Felix look horrified "Hey I wasn't going to actually kill you unless you admitted to it"

"Fucking dramatic arseholes" Minho groaned pinching his nose, the others instantly relaxing.

"That was incredibly dangerous though little one, Lix is right never walk in front of a loaded gun" Chan scolded you. You didn't answer, you couldn't not when you just saw the man who swore to keep you safe turn into the very thing you feared most in that moment. Instead you just fled out of the meeting room blindly and up to the room that you had been given locking the door behind you so that no one could get in.

The day slowly passed and you hadn't answered when Changbin pleaded with you to let him in or when Felix came to check on you apologizing through the door, you had totally ignored Chan and Minho too when they asked you to come out to eat something it was only when your phone started ringing did you realize that Changbin was probably camped outside your door calling you repeatedly which just made you turn your phone to silent determined to not give him the time of day. Mrs Choi had knocked to deliver you some dinner to your room shooing Changbin or whoever was in the hallway away while she made sure you took the food.

Falling asleep after dinner meant you were awake again by three in the morning you could hear what you assumed to be Changbin snoring on the other side of your door and when you checked your phone you had multiple messages from each of them Hyunjin checking if you needed anything but made no attempt to coax you out, Jeongin begged you to come out just to stop the constant whining from Changbin but you only really read the single line message that had been sent by Han

"He's in love with you he just wants to protect that love"

You read it over and over again, you hadn't stopped to really think about the whole scenario you were too terrified that your boyfriend had pointed a gun at another friend and you had tried to stop it from escalating. You didn't think about the gun, you knew Changbin wasn't going to hurt you, but you never thought that violence between them would happen either. Maybe this was a mistake, maybe although you did love him that wasn't enough for you to not have to worry you would set him off and someone else would have to pay the consequences. If you hadn't run out of tears already you would have broken down when the realization that you would have to walk away from two men you loved and the friends of theirs that you had grown fond of, maybe moving to another city would do or maybe your would have to move back to a rural town and find away to survive. There was no other answer your tired mind could come up with.

When morning finally came around you looked terrible but you hoped a hot shower and make up could at least mask some of the obvious signs that you were broken, even if the feeling did compliment the whole cover of a family emergency. You dressed yourself for work in your standard pencil skirt suit and fixed yourself up before slowly opening the door and after double checking that the coast was clear quietly making your way down stairs.

"She has every right to be angry, hurt, terrified or all of the above" you heard Minho grumble as you made your way towards the kitchen.

"I know" Changbin groaned frustratedly "I fucked it up on a massive fucking scale I know that, but I can't change it now can I?" he sounded annoyed and tired which made you feel nervous.

"No you can't and if she wants to leave after this is done you have to let her" Chan snapped "both of you" his words were harsh and he sounded aggravated which caused even more panic to fly through your system.

"Or we could just let her collect her thoughts" Jeongin suggested softly you could almost picture the soothing expression on his face "You, Felix and probably Chan scared her yesterday and that probably has shaken her more than anything she has been through so far".

"He has a point" Hyunjin interjected "she was scared of bad guys who were trying to hurt the both of you and yesterday you two became the bad guys when you decided that airing your dirty laundry needed to be done in front of all of us".

"She would be so embarrassed that we all know she made out with Lix, let alone that she had to admit it" Minho finished "Which was super fucking stupid on your part by the way".

"I know" you heard Felix sighed he sounded almost as defeated as you felt and if you hadn't been so scared of the anger in the room or how much you were sure leaving was the best idea you would have run in to comfort him "We fucked everything up".

You took a deep breath to center yourself before you silently entered the kitchen surprising them as you easily walked past them all wordlessly made yourself a coffee.

"Doll?" Changbin questioned hopefully, but you ignored him hoping they would all get the hint that you were going to remain silent.

"Bubs?" Felix sighed and you ignored him too just pouring milk into your coffee before turning back towards the door.

"Baby, please" Changbin tried again his hand reaching for your arm making you flinch away slightly his eyes widening.

"Please don't touch me" you almost whimpered your voice scratchy from not yet being used as you stepped back from him.

"Doll, you can't be afraid of me, it's me" he mumbled looking genuinely pained by your reaction.

"Don't, please, just don't I can't deal with this right now" you whispered you were almost as scared now as you had been the very first night you had been brought to the company with him, your brave knight in shining armor who would move mountains to protect you. But now you had seen what he could be right in front of you it frightened you, but it terrified you more to know you still wanted him regardless. His arm dropped in defeat as you scurried out of the kitchen to sit somewhere else in the house until the time came for you to leave. No one in the kitchen spoke, Felix hung his head while Hyunjin sighed in sadness, the others looking between each other for some sort of idea of what to say.

"How do we make this plan work if she is too scared to even speak" Minho mused not really ready to face the seemingly obvious pain that was going to come from ending this whole mess.

"I'll be right back" Han shrugged leaving them after he had managed to stay silent through everything so far.

"Whatever Han, we have to think how to reorganize things if she is going to not be able to go through with this" Jeongin nodded trying to come up with a new plan.

"There you are princess" Han smiled brightly if not slightly insanely at you coming over to sit on the staircase with you "you still going to be able to do this?"

"I just want this over with Han" you admitted quietly sipping the coffee you had made yourself.

"I saw you read my message" he continued smiling.

"I did I read it a lot of times to be honest" you admitted putting your mug down beside you "I know he loves me but it's one thing for me to know it's a whole other thing for me to see it".

"He scared you that badly after everything you have been through since you got here? I thought you were tougher than that?" he teased sweetly almost gently.

"I was scared he would hurt Felix, I was scared he would get hurt, I was scared of what you guys do" you explained chewing your lip "But I'm terrified that I am alright with it, that I might be able to love him regardless of the pain and chaos he might inflict of others". You looked at Han who far too pleased with your admission and it just clicked that maybe the fear was a sign that you should run but that you didn't have to.

"Love is meant to frighten you princess that's what makes it fun" He grinned giddily.

"Has anyone told you lately you're actually very philosophical for a madman?" you sighed checking your phone and standing up.

"Not today but I'm glad you noticed princess" he waggled his eyebrows at you suggestively making you snort. "Let's go get the big guy it's time to be that bad arse mafia queen you are meant to be" his eyes sparked as he led you back to the kitchen where the others were still trying to figure out how to make this work for you.

"Changbin, we need to leave I can't be late the first day back to work" You announced to the group breaking your silence with them.

"Are you sure little one?" Chan questioned cautiously "We don't have to do this you can stay here another day if that would help".

"I want this over with Chan" you smiled as believably as possible at him "I want to go back to having a normal life".

"Are you sure you want that?" Bin asked you softly still aware you were upset since you used his name and not a nickname but you totally missed the inference he was making to you about whether you wanted the life you had before of the life you could have with him.

"Yes" you nodded noting the pained expression on some of their faces but you didn't understand the reason for it other than you were about to put yourself in danger.

"Let's go baby" he whispered leaving the kitchen quickly as you hurried to keep up with him scooping up your shoes on the way past the staircase.

Changbin drove silently for the first few minutes he seemed to be struggling to find the words to tell you he was sorry or what he was thinking when it all went wrong yesterday but you didn't mind you were still trying to figure out what you wanted to say back.

"Binnie" you finally squeaked "Are you all sure I'll be ok today?" you tried to keep your voice even so you didn't worry him more than he already was.

"Baby you will be fine" he breathed out seeming to relax slightly "We are all either nearby or watching, there are guys inside to help you and you have our numbers to call us if you need to" he soothed tentatively reached his hand over to put on your thigh, which you allowed you were still having too many emotions to think about the incident yesterday.

"Binnie, we will need to talk about what happened but I can't right now it's too much" you whispered looking down at his hand cautiously putting your own on top of it "But I need you to play my boyfriend today so that I can get through this bit".

"I am your boyfriend baby, I don't need to pretend" he smiled you turned to watch him as he continued to watch the road his lips quirking up when he felt your gaze on him. "When we pull up I will go round to open your door, the whole point of this is to draw attention, women will notice a gentleman helping his girl from the car and kissing her goodbye, men will notice the car either way there are a lot of witnesses who will remember your arrival if anything was to happen". You nodded understanding that

He pulled up in front of your office a just slightly before when you would normally arrive, getting out to walk his way around the car to help you out of your side. You could see the businessmen all taking looks at the cars some younger ones even stopping to get a proper look at it. Letting go of your hand he helped you into your blazer then pulled you to him to kiss you goodbye, it was supposed to be a peck but Bin poured his love into his kiss showing you exactly how he felt.

"I'll pick you up for lunch baby" he smirked noticing your slightly flushed face "Now be brave baby you have work to do".

Walking through the lobby you noticed the guy Seungmin had planted standing next to the desk you assumed that it gave him the best scope for the room but either way you knew where he was. You met a few of the usual interns at the elevators and took them up together chatting and talking about everyone's weekends before you got to your floor. Your desk looked exactly like it did the day you had left over a week ago with the exception of a neat stack of files that the director was going to need for his meetings today, you flicked through quickly to make sure they matched the diary and noticed that the appointment before lunch was Mr A which made blanch slightly.

"Good Morning miss" a friendly voice spoke from behind you.

"Oh good morning" you chirped politely turning around to come face to face with another of Seungmin's men making you smile in relief "Have you been interning long?".

"My second week miss but I'm hoping to learn from you, everyone says you are the most valuable of the assistants here" he smiled looking at the files on your desk.

"Well that is kind of them, has anyone shown you how preparing files for the meetings is done? I have some here that I can show you with" you moved around your desk and gestured for him to follow. "All that needs to be done is that you double check that the correct file has been matched to the correct appointment. As you can see here Director Kim has an appointment with Mr Park at ten this morning and then another with Mr A at eleven" flipping open the file you moved your finger to show him pretend points while he nodded knowingly.

"I'll let the boss know" he whispered as he continued to follow along with your fake instructions.

"Have you been assigned a mentor yet?" you quirked your eyebrow at him.

"Not yet miss" he answered continuing to play the part of a clueless intern.

"I'll find one for you then come back to my desk in an hour and I'll have figured something out for you" he nodded making himself quickly scarce as Director Kim walked into the office eyes pinpointing you instantly.

"Good morning my dear, I'm so glad you are back with me" he purred attempting to take your hand which you filled with the files you were holding.

"Morning Director, I hope you had a lovely weekend, these are this mornings appointments and I can bring you your morning coffee if you like" you smiled politely staying on the opposite side of the desk from him.

"Yes my dear, could you arrange that for me now" he grinned looking at his files. You swallowed hard and nodded your head waiting for him to move to his office before moving from the spot you were in. You made your way to the the kitchen area to prepare his coffee hoping that you looked normal and not like you were trying to hide how disgusted and panicked you were.

"Miss?" another young man's voice turned your attention towards the other side of the kitchen, you recognized him as Seungmin's other insider.

"Good morning" you smiled relieved.

"I am around all day if you need assistance, or any memos to be passed between the departments" he continued to smile at you.

"Thank you, I sent a memo out with another intern I assume that you will have seen it too?" you asked trying to keep us the ruse.

"Yes miss, there is no need to worry we are both here" he nodded goodbye and left you to finish making coffee.

You took your time making the coffee trying to wait until the director was on a phone call or when someone else was in his office but you realized it would look strange if you didn't behave normally so you had to suck it up and pretend you were the girl you were a month ago when there was no fear, no threat and no boyfriend in the mafia. Walking the tray to the door you knocked once before letting yourself in, you purposely left the door open as you delivered the coffee and a pastry. Before anything could be said his phone rang making him look slightly annoyed before you took your leave quickly shutting the door behind you. If this was all you would have to do for the rest of the work day you could definately do that.

The rest of the morning at least ran smoothly despite your planted intern not being able to return to you, you had passed a dozen calls to the Director meaning you spent no time with him and when his first appointment arrived you were quite happy to go down a retrieve him from the ground floor waiting area, you were growing more confident that the day would run smoothly, until you noticed that both of Suengmin's people had been asked to assist other team members just before the appointment you had been dreading was due to start.

Mr A, or Mingi as you learned was his real name from Chan, had entered the office just before his 'appointment' with Director Kim he never waited like any of the legitimate clients did in the lounge which normally annoyed you but under the current circumstances you were pleased that you didn't have to be alone with him while you brought him upstairs to the offices. You had tried your hardest to not feel frightened instead channeling all the anger you possibly could into acting out that your were completely normal as so far it seemed to be working as Mingi passed your desk he smirked at you and winked making you raise your eyebrow and turn away from him which you knew he could be offended by but you didn't care in ninety minutes you would be back with Binnie and hopefully Mingi would be very far away from you. You heard the door close and turned back to your desk looking for your phone just in case you needed it to update Bin or the others about what was going on. Your desk phone chimed letting you know that you were required by Director Kim, feeling the bile rise in your throat you took a deep breath picking up your phone, notepad and pen and going into his office, nothing was going to happen after all you had two back ups in your office and one downstairs you would be fine.

"There you are pet" your boss purred smiling as you stepped into his office.

"Apologies, Director" you smiled knowing that it probably didn't reach your eyes so you lowered your head to cover it.

"No need for that my dearest, Mr A and I just need you to take a few notes regarding his file, please sit" he gestured for you to sit beside Mr A  on the lounge suit that he often used for meetings. Your blood ran cold as you sat realizing too slowly that you were now in the furthest spot from the door.

"Your assistant is very beautiful, Kim, are you sure you still want to do this the risk has increased" Mingi smirked his voice making your skin crawl as he lent closer to you inspecting you face and chest. He raised his hand to move a lock of hair that had come lose from your hair pin. You tried your hardest not to flinch not wanting to show how disgusted you felt.

"She is isn't she, that is why I was willing to risk so much" Kim smirked in return his eyes racking over your form making you feel dread as you tried to subtly unlock your phone to get help.

"No phones" Mingi snapped nastily snatching the device from you and making you shrink back from him.

"Now now there is no need for any annoyance Mr A, she is a very good girl" Kim leered at you his eyes seeming to zero in on you thighs which made you shuffle back into the seat further.

"I understand but my associates have not been so happy with this arrangement now that they know who she is" Mingi sighed leaning back on the chair watching you closely as your face continued to pale. You knew you were in huge trouble now and the only hope was that Felix could see what was happening on the cameras or that Seungmin's guys would realize you were missing. " They can't see you I had the camera disabled sweetheart, and that little intern they planted yesterday has been dealt with for the moment".

"What" you gasped horrified that perhaps you were totally alone now.

"Why does that matter, once she's carrying my child her pathetic little criminal boyfriend wont want her anyway" Kim grinned disgustingly making you try to make for the door as fast as you could. But Mingi was faster than you, catching your waist before you could even get half way to the door.

"No! Don't touch me!" you struggled against him uselessly for a moment before understanding that he was far too strong for a simply struggling to work now that your back was pressed against his chest.

"Now, now none of this, its time you behave yourself and let my uncle fuck that baby into you" he growled into your ear, his hands sliding down to your hips. You wanted to vomit but you knew you had to keep your head to get yourself out into the main part of the office. You were frozen as his hands traveled lower down your legs pulling the fabric of the skirt up until it reached almost the top of your thighs. "I can't wait to watch your pretty little pussy take my uncle's cock, maybe he will even let me fuck you afterwards since you caused us so much trouble".

"Don't please don't" you sobbed as Mingi manhandled you over to the desk pulling your skirt all the way up to your waist to expose your underwear. You grit your teeth knowing you needed to keep you head, you had to get out now no matter the cost. Mingi moved to the side of you groping your arse roughly as he grinned sadistically.

"Come on uncle, I want to see a show after everything we have put up with to get her here" he sneered down at your now tear streaked face. You could hear a belt buckle being undone and knew it was now or never.

"Fuck you Mingi" you snapped viciously yanking your arm closer to your face and biting down on his hand until you could taste blood. Mingi swore letting go of you for a moment which you used to smack him as violently as you could in the abdomen with the heaviest thing you could reach on the desk before pushing yourself up and running to wrench open the door and fleeing blindly as you attempted to get your skirt down your legs.

"You little bitch" Mingi shouted after you "I'll fucking kill you".

You had lost one shoe in the struggle in the office so you slipped out of your remaining shoe and ran as fast as you could to the stairs, with Mingi following you you were never going to be able to wait for the lift he would catch you and you would rather fall down a flight of stairs then let that happen.

"FUCK" Felix yelled as his screens started blacking out in certain sections of your office, hitting speed dial Changbin picked up instantly.

"Bin you need to get in there now something is wrong" he instructed before hanging up and dialing Chan who was on standby near your office with Han and Minho.

"Felix?" Chan answered quickly.

"I'm losing screens Mingi knows were watching" he explained rapidly "They must have made that we were inside the office".

"Were leaving now" Chan called to the others before speaking to him again "Bin?".

"I called him first" Felix swallowed hard before hanging up.

"What's happening?" Jeongin asked walking into the meeting room to see what Felix was so angry about.

"They know we have eyes inside we need Seungmin to contact his guys I've sent the others already" Felix growled trying to reinstate his connection to your office's security feed.

"On it, she'll be fine though man she's tough" Jeongin tried to calm his brother while calling Seungmin to explain.

Changbin had arrived at your building to find people milling around everywhere after an apparent 'evacuation drill' that no one had known was happening. He figured out quickly that you were not among the others from your floor so you must still be inside which in all honesty made him start to panic. Seungmin arrived a moment later a look of thunderous anger splashed across his face.

"My guys have just located one of my guys inside, we need to get in there" He snarled his eyes burning.

"Chan and the others will be here in a few should we start looking from the ground up or split up" he growled making his way through the employees to the main doors where they entered despite the regular securities protests.

"I still have two guys inside so they better have sorted this out" Seungmin barked in reply now looking almost as worried as angry.

"Where is the third one anyway?" he asked pulling his gun and stalking further into the building.

"Half dead. They put two in him but only hit one lung and his stomach" Seungmin answered looking desolate.

"Fuck, at least he's alive which is far more than what Mingi will be after this" he growled his anger growing with each step they took through the empty lobby. The lift doors dinged and opened revealing the security guard plant and Director Kim who was being led away towards the back entrance to the car park giving hushed instructions he thought would help him.

"Bin keep your cool we need to find your girl first" Seungmin hissed keeping his own weapon concealed behind him as they passed.

"I want to take my time with that piece of shit" he muttered savagely.

You continued through the stair wells hoping that you could somehow beat Mingi to either the ground floor or to somewhere you could lock yourself in until someone discovered you. He was still screaming threats at you from the floor above and his yells were getting closer but each exit you came across was either locked or empty of people so you kept going. You were physically exhausted making it down eleven floors worth of stairs already still hearing Mingi as he rattled door handles and slamming open doors looking for you somewhere above you. That was until you opened the 8th floor and almost fell into Hyunjin's arms making him lower his gun instantly and hold you tight as you began to cry hysterically into his suit jacket finally feeling like you could breathe again.

"Got her" he announced sounding relieved before he noticed how wrecked you looked, your skirt hitched so far up your legs that there was no way you had done it yourself to ease your running and the red marks and blood smeared on your arms. "8th NOW" he snapped heatedly his voice tightening in anger.

"Hyunjin" you garbled out between your body wracking sobs your legs giving way as he bundled you onto his left side in case he still needed to use his weapon.

"Shh princess I'll kill anyone who isn't ours that walks through that door" he soothed as best he could his hand hesitating to help you adjust your clothing as you shook in his arms.

"Hyunjin where is our kitten?" Minho called from the other side of the room making his way towards you as Hyunjin continued to slowly move you back from the door to keep more distance between any potential danger. You were not paying much attention to anything outside the sound of their voices.

"Princess can you hold onto Minho for me? It will be easier to keep you safe that way" his voice was still tight but he was trying to be gentle with you, you nodded letting go of his jacket and letting Minho bundle you up in his jacket and pull you against him. His suit jacket was long enough to cover more of your legs which were still almost completely bare but you couldn't even fix it you were too overwhelmed and emotional to even do that. Banging and yelling started coming from the other side of the stairwell door making you cling even tighter to Minho your knuckles tuning white with how tightly you were gripping his shirt.

"Mingi" you gasped pointing at the door frantically as Chan arrived taking in your messy hair and near catatonic state, he quickly stepped into your field of vision so that you would focus on him slowly approaching you to stroke your hear smoothing it down slightly.

"Hi there little one, your'e safe now" Chan soothed "Bin where the fuck are you?" he asked trying to not sound aggressive into what you realized were ear pieces they were wearing. The stairway door flew open and you hid in Minho's chest rather than see Mingi's face again but instead of his threats you heard the opposite.

"Move and I will make you wish for a quick death cunt" Bin's voice cold and ruthless filtered to your ears.

"Binnie?" you hiccuped, tears still pouring down your face, he stepped over Mingi both Chan and Hyunjin taking over from him, Chan's gun in his face as Hyunjin zip tied his hands behind his back. The blood dripping from his wrist and the pained groan that he emitted made Hyunjin realize why you had blood on your shirt sleeve. Binnie just left them to it not seeming to care as he wrapped both his arms around you and cradled you against his chest.

"I'm here baby, I've got you" he murmured into your hair as he ran his hands over Minho's suit jacket trying to sooth the obvious fear and pain from you.

"Can we go home now?" you whimpered sounding less hysterical than when you had found Hyunjin but still far too panicked and breathy for him to be comfortable moving you yet.

"Did you lose your shoes doll?" Bin whispered looking down at your feet pointedly hoping to get you slightly calmer before he took you to the car. You nodded concentrating hard on his face as you turned to look at him.

"They took my phone" you rasped your throat sore from the crying.

"That alright baby, one of the kids will get it back from you" he spoke carefully as your body started sagging against him your breathing getting lighter again. "I'm going to carry you baby. We need to get you down to the car and away from here alright?" His question was difficult for you to concentrate on so you simply nodded as he moved slowly to lift you up so you were nestled against his chest.

" Minho cover us?" He looked towards his brother who nodded sharply as the tree of you made your way towards the lift. You didn't really notice anything other than the heat radiating off his body as he held you close to him until he opened the passenger door of his car, and he and Minho helped you to get in mutely letting him put your seat belt on you, Minho held your hand while Bin get into the car and got himself situated.

"Look after her Bin, I'll call the doc to treat her when you get home" Minho sighed looking worried for you.

"You know I will" he nodded starting the car and driving away from your office. "I'm sorry for everything baby doll, I'm sorry for yesterday, I'm sorry for today, I'm sorry for this whole stupid plan and I'm sorry that I fuck everything I touch up"

"I love you Bin" you sniffled gripping his hand tightly.

A/N: This chapter was heavier than the others but I think it's necessary for the plot. I appreciate all your comments, reblogs or likes they mean so much to me and keep me writing. Special shout out to @christopher-bangnaldoskzz for helping a bitch out xx

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[twinklix]

idk if your requests are currently open but i just think that sex with changb!n would be so good and rough at the same time, like his thrusts would start painfully slow but would later pick up an animalistic pace, hitting your sweet spot each. 👏🏻 fucking. 👏🏻 time. 👏🏻 making sure he's balls deep inside you while whispering praises on your ear, as he continued with his movements — his hands rubbing your clit while the other pinches your nipples turning you into a moaning mess underneath him. the overstimulation would drive you crazy and will have your legs shaking as pleasure takes over your entire body, his tongue dancing with yours as he rammed his cock inside you not stopping until you reach your nth orgasm for the night.

I'm sorry for the word vomit. Can I be 👻 anon? Hehehe 🤭

Rough Dom!Changbin x Reader | wc 800

an: welcome 👻 anon !!! 🤍 sorry this is so rushed but i might do a better longer version or a follow up bc i loved what u wrote in ur request sm !!

warnings: smut, dirty talk, established relationship. implied unprotected sex (thats a nono), petnames (baby, angel, beautiful), overstimulation. not edited!!!

18+ MDNI

but yes!!! omg imagine~

I think he’d start slow and soft, wanting to take care of you and savour your body and touch.. but the man only has so much control when it comes to you…

“fuck..so beautiful…” he’d breathe out as he undresses you slowly, kissing down your body as each beautiful inch is exposed to his hungry eyes.

A while later (after two intense orgasms on both his fingers and tongue) he finally lined his length up with your entrance, kissing you deeply as he slid in slowly, trying desperately to minimise the sting his thickness always caused.

Your combined noises went from one mouth to the other as he filled you up torturously slow. His mouth left yours finally only to latch onto your neck and collarbones. Lightly biting and kissing red marks into your soft skin.

“b-binnie..please move” you’d whimper out, desperate. He’d only reward you with a chuckle muffled into your skin before he finally moves. His hips pulling out just as slow as they pushed in.

Soon he was thrusting into you. Slow and deep. His kisses and bites didn’t stop. It all felt good. So good.

But you wanted more.

“Binnie faster” it left almost as a choke, desperation, annoyance and pleasure all seeping out of the words.

Another chuckle escaped him as he finally unattached himself from your neck, looking down at you as he kept thrusting. Slow.

“Does my baby want me to go faster?” God he wouldn’t be able to ignore the way your request made his cock twitch inside you. He’d thought about so much he wanted to do to you. So many ways he wanted to have you. But he always opted for being softer with you. But it sounds like you didn’t want that.

In your haze you managed to nod desperately. “please binnie i can take it!” Begs left your lips only spurring him on, breaking down all ounce of restraint he had left. A hum left his lips as he nodded. He offered no verbal answer, only leaning down to kiss you deeply as his hips pulled out again but this time they slammed back into you.

Amidst the kiss your eyes shot open and a yelp mingled between your lips. He drew his lips away as he looked down at you. One of his large arms reached to move your legs to rest comfortably on his shoulders as he looked down at you.

“I’ll give my baby what she wants” he finally spoke before beginning to thrust again. But this time was different. Hard and fast and his pace only grew with every thrust.

Your eyes rolled back, loud moans leaving your agape mouth in strings as his cock drilled in and out of your hole at a speed you’d never felt before. Plus his size and strength added to it all. His body almost enveloped yours in size as his muscles flexed as he used all of his godlike strength to fuck you.

And god he’d love seeing you like this. Fucked out and in so much pleasure all because of him. God it only egged him on more.

A veined hand reaches to your chest, squeezing and fondling your breasts as the room filled with the sound of skin slapping on skin from his harsh but heavenly abuse on your pussy.

“feel good angel?” He’d ask between grunts, a cocky smirk on his face. “this what you wanted?”All you could offer in response was a fast nod and a moan. Your hands gripping the sheets beneath you tightly as all thoughts abandon your mind.

A clench around his cock would break him out of his trance as he angled himself to perfectly hit that sweet spot deep inside you with every single thrust.

“Bin!” You’d manage to yelp out as your grip on the sheets tightened. He’d laugh as one of his hands reach between you to rub your bundle of nerves in quick sloppy circles.

“Come on beautiful. Cum on my cock. Show me how much you love me fucking you like this.” His words would push you over the edge, a scream leaving your mouth. His pace never faltering as he continues to slam in and out of you, toying with both your clit and nipples as he watched you with gritted teeth.

It would be the most intense orgasm you’d ever had, your body going almost limp as you came down.

When your brain comes back online you’d notice the sting of overstimulation burning your body up as you looked at your boyfriend. “Bin! too much!”.

A low laugh would come out of his chest as he leaned down to kiss you deeply. “you said you can take it baby, come on. Give me another”

[starlost-mochi-x]

imagine reader and changbin going out to get some icecream and the rain gets them soaked bc dindt seem that it was gonna rain at all, and they just go all the way home laughing their ass off all wet

awww this is like a scene from a movie <3

ice cream & rain - seo changbin

pairing: seo changbin x reader

summary: you and changbin get caught in the rain

genre: fluff, non-idol! au, crack, extremely fluffy, not proofread

a/n: comments, likes, reblogs appreciated <3

"Binnie, careful!"

All you get in response is a manic, high-pitched cackle from your boyfriend, who's currently skipping down the high street, narrowly avoiding poles and other mundane obstructions. He looks like a child; some onlookers glare at him, some look at him strangely, and one particular lady pulls her child away, as if Changbin is high on something dangerous and illicit.

It definitely looks like he is.

But you don't care; he's happy, and you're happy, and you laugh before running to catch up with him. Linking your hands together, you both make your way down the street, cheerful birdsong and the noises of the city swirling around both of you. Changbin slows down eventually to a walk, and his panting is audible as he leads you down a street to a familiar shop. Changbin bursts inside with a confident, self-satisfied smile, making the bell above the door jingle.

The ice creamery is filled with mismatched pastel furniture and pretty, sweet-themed decor lining the walls. The checkerboard tiles underfoot clack as you and Changbin make your way to the ice cream selections, pressing your hands to the glass like hungry children (which you both are, in a way).

The man who runs the shop tuts at you both, swatting your hands off the glass with a tea towel. He rolls his eyes playfully and walks away, and Changbin lets out another loud cackle. You and your boyfriend come here so often now that even the shop owner knows you. You smile at the familiarity of the situation, a pleasant warmth settling inside your stomach at the realisation.

"Which flavour do you want?" an excitable voice snaps you out of your thoughts. Changbin is grinning and his hands are back on the display glass. The shop owner mutters something about cleaning the glass with a haughty smile on his face, but Changbin doesn't seem to hear. He's looking at you expectantly, still grinning, eyes almost shining like the sunlight that's spilling into the little shop.

You pull an exaggerated thinking face and look back down at the assortment of colourful ice cream types and flavours. Changbin giggles and watches you with an adoring smile on your face as you pick out your favourite. He does the same and you both scuffle to pay, Changbin eventually winning and scanning his card. He smacks you lightly on the arm, whining about how 'it's my job to pay, not yours."

You put your hands up in surrender and both of you sit down, eating and laughing with each other. The sounds of your shared conversation echo and reverberate around the small space, and the sun seems to shine even brighter when Changbin offers you his hand to go home.

And then the sun disappears.

As soon as you and Changbin exit the shop, stomachs full of ice cream, the sky opens up and the clouds cluster together and suddenly you're both thrown into a midst of a storm, rain pouring down in heavy, drizzling sheets of frigid, almost numbing beads of nearly-frozen waterdrops. You shriek and Changbin flails, and for a moment you both stand there, the shock of the rain taking you both by complete and utter surprise.

Changbin breaks out of it first. Grabbing your hand, he tugs you down the street in a full-blown run before you both slow down quickly. Neither of you want to risk slipping, and even if you were both willing to run, the rain is so heavy that you can't possibly see. So you both half-jog, half-skip back down the street, shouting and laughing and shrieking at the frigidness of your current environment.

Blinking water out of your eyes, you glance at Changbin. His dark shirt is plastered to his body, face and hair slick with water. His mouth is wide open in a shriek as he accidentally splashes into a puddle, soaking him to his knees. He flaps his arms dramatically, his hand slipping and sliding against yours.

You laugh. He looks like a wet chicken.

He laughs too. Your eyelashes form wet, starlike points and you rub your fingers into them, trying to capture Changbin in your mind like a photo.

Your combined laughter swells and spills out of your bodies, seeping into the cracks of the pavement like the sheeting water. You can barely hear yourself, or him, over the thunderous din of the storm. But you couldn't care less, even if you're both soaked head to toe, and a while away from home. It's just you and Changbin in the middle of the street, in the freezing cold rain. Laughing and shrieking and flailing and being overdramatic. You scream as Changbin kicks water at you, and after you retaliate, it turns into a full-on splashing fight. You scream as a barrage of splashes come your way, wiping water out of your eyes before doing the same to your boyfriend. The sudden realisation of the consequences of your actions bring your happiness to a screeching halt. Grinning, you splash Changbin back before brushing the sensible, rational thought to the back of your mind, forgotten.

We're definitely going to get sick later.

a/n: i smiled so hard writing this

[moonflowerchanniesgirl]

Guiding Light

Pairing: Changbin x female reader (referred to by stage name Rosette )

Genre: angst, fluff, mature,slow, (fanboy)idol changbin + underground rapper reader, strangers to lovers

Warning: mentions of sexual harassment (not by any of the stray kids members) mention self-confidence issues, drinking, cursing, mention of suicidal thoughts, 

Summary: You’ve had multiple people reach out to you but never quite like this, by someone with a cute smile and the firmest arms you have ever seen. Could you get over past trauma about fame to step up to what Changbin thinks is your potential?

Word Count:12k

Authors note: this is not an accurate representation of stray kids but an interpretation based on an idea that stems from them. What can I say but this plot ran away from me and became this monster of a thing... enjoy?

 So I hold this little thing called dream in my hand  No matter how hard the world tries to push me down  I will stand

You finished the last line of your rap to thunderous applause and some drunk hollering. You quickly bow and send out a few finger hearts to the crowd before handing the microphone to Danny.

“Let’s give it up again for Rosette!” You heard Danny yell into the mike as you made your way to the tiny area backstage. Junnie is the only one standing there waiting for you with a water bottle. You grabbed it with a small whisper of thanks as you quickly gulped down the cold liquid. You quickly wanted to leave so that you could change out of your hoodie and sweatpants for some shorts and a T-shirt but Junnie grabbed your arm to hold you back. 

“There’s someone here asking to speak to you,” she whispered shouted into your ear to be heard over the booming music that picked up.

“Another recruiter?” You asked with a grimace. You had made quite a name for yourself in the underground rap scene and there were always recruiters coming around the club hoping to sign you to their agency. You hid from or directly turned all of them down ever since the incident four years ago. You thought that maybe they would have gotten the message by now but clearly…

“No he didn’t look like a usual recruiter, god knows they stick out like a sore thumb,” you had to nod to that. 

“A full suit in a club like this, I bet they’re sweating more than I am in this hoodie,” you said as you downed the last bit of water. “Maybe this one finally learned to dress for the occasion?”

“Maybe… but something was different about this dude, he didn’t seem creepy or pushy. I told him that he’d have to catch you after your set and he just said okay without arguing or bribing me to get you to go over.”

“Kinda sad that we’re so used to the other type of behavior that this one stands out,” you and Junnie both just looked at each other and sighed. It didn’t matter what agency the recruiters were from, most of them were downright awful. The ones from the big companies were snobby and forceful, always acting like they were doing you a favor while the ones from smaller companies often acted like thugs. The worst of them had gotten a lifetime ban from the club after getting thrown out by security.

“Well, he was by the bar if you want to talk to him, got a black t-shirt, black mask, and black baseball cap. I told Jaehan to keep an eye on him so it should be safe if you want to go see what he’s offering.”

“He sounds like he’s dressed like an assassin and you think that’s safe?” You raised your eyebrow at Junnie who just shrugged in response.

“Even if he was an assassin I’m sure that Jaehan could murder him before he touched a hair on your head. Besides who sends an assassin after an underground rapper?” You couldn’t help but agree with both of Junnie’s points. Jaehan was one of the bouncers in the club, he stood at an impressive six feet and had an aura that screamed don’t fuck with me. He was also one of the nicest men you’ve ever met and the two of you had a special bond after you exchanged cookie recipes. He was also the one that was in charge of making sure that obsessive recruiters didn’t get too all up in your face. 

“I guess I’ll go let him down gently,” you said as you put the hood of your hoodie up. You didn’t really want to go and have to talk to anyone but it was often less drama rejecting them on the first day they appeared. In your heart, you knew that they were just doing their jobs and you almost felt bad about how they had to spend their nights chasing after you instead of spending time with their families…if only most of them weren’t such assholes.

“Good luck!” Junnie said as she waved you off.

“Junnie fill you in?” Jaehan asked as you walked through the door that led back to the floor of the club. The noise of the music and people talking and shouting at each other hit you full blast and you had to take a few minutes to process what Jaehan asked.

“Yeah, mister dressed like an assassin waiting for me by the bar?” You stood on tiptoes to look over the sea of people toward where the bar was.

“Over by the end,” Jaehan pointed and you looked over in that direction.

“Oh wow,” you muttered under your breath as you spotted who Jaehan was pointing at. He was sitting away from you but you spotted the black hat and the black T-shirt that was stretched quite tightly across his rather broad back. Of course, the thing that made you mutter was not his broad back (although it was impressive) it was his upper arms that looked deliciously toned even in the moody club lighting.

“Close your mouth before you start drooling,” Jaehan said and you didn’t have to look to see the smirk on his face.

“Well now I know what Junnie meant when she said he didn’t look like the usual recruiters,” you said as you chose to ignore Jaehan’s comment.

“Yeah, he’s not a middle-aged dude in a suit that's for sure. Maybe he just wanted to shoot his shot and ask you out? He’s been shooing away all the girls that have approached him so far.”

“Probably not if he asked to speak to me through Junnie,” you answered as you got your arm thirsting under control. “Only the industry people do that since they think she manages me or something.”

“Make sense, you going to go talk to him?”

“Yeah, if he’s got the temperament Junnie thinks he has then it should be an easy letdown,” you sighed as you walked away knowing that at least Jaehan would be watching you the whole time in case you were wrong. You dodged the various drunk bodies around as you made your way toward the stranger. You saw that he had his head down and there was a dim light coming from what you guessed what his phone. You spotted the empty barstool next to him as you got closer and you quickly sat down beside him before he noticed your presence. From the corner of your eye, you saw that he looked up from his phone to look at you.

“I’m sorry that seat–” he didn’t finish his sentence as you turned to face him. A dyed brown fringe peeked out from under his hat, eyebrows raised in surprise and warm brown eyes were all that you could see that wasn’t covered up by the black mask on his face. 

“You wanted to speak to me?” You finally asked when it looked like he wasn’t going to continue talking. His eyes widened a bit before he sat up a bit straighter in his seat.

“Ah yes, Changbin, ah I mean my name is Seo Changbin, I’m a big fan of yours,” there wasn’t enough space for him to bow toward you so he did an awkward little lean down as a greeting.

“Nice to meet you Changbin-ssi,” you said as you tried to get a read of who he was. He seemed a little too nervous and too truthful about being your fan to be a recruiter. The moment you spoke his name his body jumped a bit and he raised his hand to rub the back of his head (giving you a delightful view of the flexing of his arm muscles). “You alright?” You asked as you leaned forward only for him to lean back away from you.

“Sorry, I’m just really nervous, ugh so uncool,” he said half to you and half to himself. You couldn’t help but giggle slightly at how cute he was. He was still wearing his mask but from his eye expression, you saw that he was smiling too.

“So why are you looking for me? Want an autograph?” 

“Yes, I mean no, I mean I would like one but that’s not the main reason…” Changbin trailed off and looked away toward all the bottles of alcohol on the wall. After a few seconds, he looked back at you with a much more serious expression on his face. “I was wondering if you would be willing to collab with me on a song?” His request caught you completely off guard and you could only stare at him as you processed what he asked. 

“Collab? You wanted to ask me for a collab?” You asked making sure of his request.

“Yeah is that alright?” 

“Of course oh my god, you had me thinking that you were from an entertainment company or something. Most people that ask for collabs contact me through my email or through one of my friends.” You found yourself relaxing once you found out that he wasn’t going to start blabbering about “how you could grow if you signed with us”. You had done a few collaborations before with other underground rappers or singers for their mixtapes but none of them had approached you the way Changbin had.

“I did send an email a few weeks ago but never got a reply,” you detected a hint of a whine in his voice and you had to actively hold back from cooing at him.

“I’m sorry, my filters might be messed up again.”

“Filters?”

“Yeah, I have a few filters on my email to weed out anything from any entertainment companies but sometimes it over filters. I have to tweak it again I guess.”

“You really dislike entertainment companies huh?”

“I just hate the mainstream music industry in general. Full of fake motherfuckers who are ready to break you down enough that you just become their puppet. They churn out singers, rappers, and idols one after the other based on their looks and not any actual skill. The ones with actual skill get pushed to the sideline too fucking often but all the contracts and penalties make it hard for them to get out.” You couldn’t help but let out the true bitterness you felt leak out onto your voice. You only realized how harsh you sounded when you saw Changbin slightly squirm in his seat. “Not the underground scene you know, we have our fair share of motherfuckers too but it's much more real here. You only have yourself and your skills here and that’s what I love about it. Anyway, are you a singer or a rapper?” You tried hard to switch your tone into a lighter one as you addressed Changbin.

“I uh, am mostly a rapper but I do sing too,” Changbin answered after a beat. You just chalked up the slight pause to nerves.

“Do you have another name you go by? Not to be rude but I haven't heard of anyone in the scene performing with the name Changbin.” You were friends with most of the more senior underground rappers and while you didn’t personally know a lot of the rappers that were new, you at least knew about them.

“I sometimes go by the name SpearB but ah, I’m not that quite known in the underground scene…I’m sort of working with a group but recently I’m making plans for a solo mixtape…” He trailed off and you quickly jumped in, in case he was feeling embarrassed. 

“That’s a pretty big step, ” you felt a soft spot for Changbin grow as you remembered what you were like when you released your first mixtape. “Has the group you're in performed here before?”

“We don’t usually perform in venues like this.”

You assumed that Changbin was talking about smaller open mics at bars as those were the ones you used to perform at because you made a name for yourself. “Well the next open mic here isn’t until next month but you should sign up if your mixtape is out by then. The crowd is a little rough but we get quite a few established rappers who come to give out pointers and scout for their proteges.” Changbin nodded at your suggestion but otherwise stayed silent. His head was slightly bowed down and he no longer looked you in the eyes. You pondered a bit at his sudden change in attitude. You wondered if you perhaps were being too patronizing or maybe he was still nervous? “So tell me about what you want to collab with me on. A song for your mixtape?” You asked to cut the sudden awkward silence in the air.

“Yes I’m releasing my first solo mixtape and there is a song that I’ve worked on for so long but I couldn’t quite figure out what was missing. I’ve tried changing the overall tempo a few times and adjusting the beats, inserting certain beats, and changing the key but it just felt lacking. That’s when I went back and listened to one of my favorite mixtapes, your My Rose Colored Dreams. I honestly thought at that moment if you worked on this song with me it would be perfect.” Changbin was suddenly much more animated as he talked about music. He was moving his hands around as he talked and you could tell that he was someone that took his music seriously.

“My Rose Colored Dreams is one of your favorite mixtapes?” You asked in a slightly teasing tone.

“Yeah, there is not a single skippable song on it and it is arranged in a way that the transition from song to song is coherent but not boring. The lyrics you wrote also, ah the lyrics, they’ve given me so much strength on days where I had a lot on my mind or when I was questioning things. I often had that mixtape on replay when I was working late at night because it gave me both encouragement and inspiration.” Instead of getting shy like you thought Changbin grew more assured of himself as he spoke about your music.

“That’s so sweet,” you said as you were unable to stop grinning at him.

“Uh yeah, so it would be such a great honor if you agreed on collabing with me. I made this section of this song in your image.” 

“Hmmm, exchange KakaoTalk with me and send me some of your work and I’ll tell you after I listen to what you got,” you couldn’t just agree because he was your fanboy. You had to assure him that his musical quality was as good as the way he praised you. You took out your phone and hand opened up the app to the add a friend screen. You handed the phone to Changbin so he could put on his KKT name.

“Thank you for even giving me this chance. I'll send you some stuff as soon as I get home to my laptop,” he said as he handed back your phone and got out his own to accept you.

“Dwaekki?“ You asked as you read his screen name aloud. His profile picture was of a vaguely familiar pink doll that looked both like a pig and a rabbit. You found it quite cute how unexpected the picture was in comparison to the man dressed in all black in front of you.

“Haha yeah it’s a nickname of sorts,” he said as he rubbed the back of his head. “I’m going home now to send you the music, please feel free to let me know what you think.”

“Will do!” And you meant it.

You went home that night after you spoke a bit more with Junnie and Jaehan about what Changbin wanted. After you finished your nighttime routine you plopped on your bed and opened the Kakao app to look at the files Changbin had sent you.

Dwaekki

This one is my Cypher which should showcase my different rap styles well. This is a song I worked on featuring my friend Chan called Streetlight. The song I want to collab with you is of a similar sound. Please let me know if you want some more examples of my work and please let me know what you think. 

You opened the first file and were pleasantly surprised by how strong his voice and his enunciation were. In fact, the whole thing was much more put together and of a higher quality than you had imagined it would be. This wasn’t the first track you had gotten from rappers starting out but it definitely was one of the most polished. There was nothing bad you could say about it from the tunes, the rapping, or the lyrics. From what you heard you could tell that everything had been recorded pretty professionally which made you wonder about Changbin. Perhaps he worked as a producer or sound engineer who was making the transition to being an artist himself?

You played the second file and from the first few seconds, you knew that you loved it. 

Rosette

Streetlight is beautiful  I’d love to hear what the track you want to work with me on is like if this is the vibe. Also, your friend Chan has a great voice 

Dwaekki

Yay, I’m so glad you liked it! Yeah, Chan Hyung has a nice voice but my singing voice is awesome too ;)

Rosette

I guess I’ll believe it when I hear it

Do you want to send me the file or do you want to do this in person? 

Dwaekki

I prefer working on music in person 

Rosette

Good, me too

Dwaekki

Are you free anytime during the next two days?

Rosette 

I’m at the club at night but mostly free during the day as long as it’s after 2 pm

Dwaekki

Perfect then how about 4 pm the day after tomorrow?

Rosette

Sounds good, text me the address of your studio or wherever you make music and I’ll be there.

Dwaekki

Alright sounds great, I look forward to working with you!

You were about to place your phone on the nightstand beside your bed and head to sleep when all of a sudden there came a flurry of notifications. 

Dwaekki

I’m sorry, I just remembered that my studio… Isn’t that great  Because  There’s construction going on next door  So we won’t be able to record anything there for a while 

Rosette

Oh, that’s too bad, could you bring your recording equipment to your house we could record from there?

Dwaekki

That wouldn’t really work I live with roommates and they’re pretty loud :-(

Rosette 

Well, we could record at my studio if you brought over what you needed.

Dwaekki

That sounds great! Can’t wait!

“Well this is it,” you said as you pushed open the door to your studio with Changbin walking in behind you. Instead of the all-black outfit, he was wearing an oversized green hoodie with baggy black pants. He looked both comfortable and adorable. The black mask he wore outside had been taken off when the two of you entered the building and you had finally gotten a good look at his face. His eyes and the rest of his facial features fitted nicely together and you found him to be quite handsome. You had met him outside and guided him to the floor where your studio was. You shared the space with two friends of yours but you were the one that used it most. They had signed to a small entertainment company as producers and they mostly worked at a studio there. “It’s not much but it gets the job done,” you said as you gestured around.  The engineering space wasn’t too big just enough to fit about three chairs and a small couch. You sat down on one of the chairs and then pointed to the chair next to you for Changbin. 

“It’s a nice space,” Changbin said as he got out his laptop from his black bag. You connected it with the system and the two of you waited for everything to boot up. “Did you record My Rose Colored Dreams here?”

“No, I recorded that in the closet where I used to live.”

“Wait really?” Changbin turned to look at you with his mouth wide open and you had to fight to keep yourself from grinning at his expression.

“Yep, in fact, you know the song Highway Melancholy?” Changbin nodded at your question. “There’s a siren sound—“

“Just before the bridge?” 

“Yeah, that one. That was an actual ambulance driving past my house and it was caught in the recording. It sounded surprisingly good so I kept it.” 

“That’s pretty amazing.”

“Music works in wonderful ways.”

“No I mean you, you’re pretty amazing. Literally making such a masterpiece in your closet.” Changbin’s expression was rather serious, so much so that you found yourself having to look away. 

“It’s pretty common. My first mixtape was also recorded in a closet; the only difference was that it was at my parent’s house.” You thought back to the night when you bought a cheap microphone with your pocket money and lined towels under the closet door to try and soundproof the area.

“I guess it really makes me appreciate what I have.”

“Yeah appreciate the things you have because they could easily be pulled away without notice,” you said almost on instinct. You noticed the heavy atmosphere developed and tried to bring both your focuses back on what you were meant to be doing. “Are you ready to show me the track?”

With some fiddling, Changbin opened up his files and pressed play. Once again you were impressed by the quality of what Changbin presented. It was a mid-tempo beat paired with a soft piano melody that was juxtaposed with Changbin’s harsh well-enunciated rap. The lyrics were heartfelt as he rapped about loneliness existing even in a crowd of people. The rap faded as the piano took front and center.

“There is where the chorus would be but I haven’t quite finished writing it out yet,” he said as he looked at you. You only nodded as you tried to map out possible things that would work with the current melody. “Here is where I have planned as your part but you're welcome to edit or arrange this track differently,” Changbin stared at you as he spoke and you tried your hardest to keep a blank expression, not giving him any hints on your thoughts of the song. There was another empty chorus and then the song faded out quite cleanly. You leaned back into your chair as you pondered what you heard. Changbin kept quiet but you could feel his gaze on you. Once you had your thoughts arranged in your head you spoke up.

“First of all I really do like the melody and I think your rap is great, but I think I understand what you meant when you said it felt like it was missing something. Even without a chorus and my part, it sounds… a bit empty.” You looked at Changbin who nodded at your comments.

“Exactly!  To be honest this track started with many more elements but it felt too messy so I started reducing sounds. Now it’s too empty but anything I try to add to it doesn’t sound quite right. Usually, I’d ask Chan or Jisung for advice but we always work together for the group and I want to present something complete to them. We’ve worked together so much that I wanted to try and polish my sound.”

“I understand, our sound is our identity and we need to find it to figure out who we are,” you said as you patted Changbin on the shoulder to try and cheer him up. 

“What was your process for the song unLuckyMoment?”

Changbin asked you rather suddenly. You had to think for a moment as you brought yourself back to the moment when you recorded it. 

“That song actually came together rather fast when I was just writing out my thoughts. I had just come out of one of the worst experiences of my life and I felt so lost. I forced myself to think of what happened as just being unlucky so that I could lessen the blame I placed on myself. The lyrics came first and then the melody just developed around that. I think that’s the way I work best, I try not to think too hard about it. If it works it will work and if it doesn’t then maybe it’s just an unlucky moment.” 

“That song gave me so much strength when I was struggling and I wanted this song to be able to have that effect for someone else,” he sighed as he leaned into the chair and crossed his arms.

“I think you’ve been thinking about it too hard. Has it gotten to the point that you just want to hurry up and finish this track instead of enjoying the process of trying to make it work?” He looked away from you and you knew that you hit the issue right on point. “Well lucky for you I’m here and we are going to have some fun with this project.”

“In what way?”

“Hmmm how about we add something drastically different to just play around with the song. I don’t know just say fuck it and add in a trombone and see what happens,” Changbin was silent at your suggestion and you wondered if maybe he was going to decline your idea. There were plenty of artists that took their music-making much more seriously than you did. Where they needed to get everything exactly right instead of enjoying the process. You were about to retract your suggestion and offer to let Changbin work on the song at his own pace when he suddenly spoke up.

“Is that why there’s a there is the sudden flute bit in Brilliant Blue Sky?” Changbin suddenly shouted and you had to grip your arm tightly to stop yourself from jumping up. “The first listen I found it super strange but after a few repeats I really thought that it fit in super well,” Changbin continued on without noticing how tense you had gotten. He’s complimenting you, you had to remind yourself as you willed yourself to calm back down before he noticed anything strange.

“Haha yeah, the song felt incomplete so I was thinking what sound reminded me of the sky and it hit me, of course, a flute.”

“Genius,” Changbin complimented you as you saw him open up the instrument tab.

“What about making the snare here louder?” Changbin asked and you held up your hand to high-five him.

“Exactly what I was thinking!” The two of you had been working on music for the past three hours just bouncing ideas off each other and having fun. The two of you were workshopping the third song on his album and you had been extremely impressed with how well the two of you communicated. You’d bring up the smallest thing and Changbin immediately had an idea or something to try. The way he played with words and music was unlike anyone else that you had worked with. His serious face, when he was concentrating, was also extremely handsome but you tried not to think too much about that. There was also something else that you discovered about Changbin that you found adorable. 

“You’re such a genius with this,” you told him with a grin already anticipating his reaction.

“Anggggg,” Changbin let out a slightly high-pitched whine as he squatted his hand in your general direction. 

“Cute,” you whispered under your breath and he seemed to ignore the comment or not hear you at all.

“How’s this?” He asked as he played you the part that the two of you had just tweaked.

“Perfect,” you replied just as another melody suddenly rang out. Changbin scrambled to grab his phone from his pocket.

“Yeah Hyung? I thought we didn’t have rehearsal until… ah they had to reschedule, okay I’ll be there in about thirty minutes. Okay bye Hyung,” Changbin hung up and looked at you rather apologetically. “I’m really sorry but something suddenly came up and I have to go.”

“It’s fine! I probably should prepare to head to the club soon anyway,” you said as you started to shut things down. “Send me a copy of what we worked on today and I’ll start working on my lyrics. I'll send you my recording and then you can put everything together?”

“Yeah that sounds amazing,” Changbin said with a light smile on his face. “Thanks so much for today, I learned a lot and had so much fun working with you.”

“Nah, don’t worry about it, I learned a lot from you too,” you watched as Changbin turned away from you and rubbed the back of his head. “You don’t take compliments too well do you?” You asked as you leaned in to get a better look at his face. There was a light blush on his face that you thought was so adorable.

“I can compliment myself well but when others do it…AH so embarrassing,” he said as he quickly packed his laptop away. “I’ll send you the file tonight.”

“Do you know anyone that works at JYP?” Junnie asked you as soon as you walked backstage. You thought for a moment but ended up shaking your head.

“No, I think I have some friends that made music for JYP groups but no one I know works there directly. Why?”

“My niece’s favorite member of Stray Kids is rumored to be coming out with a solo album soon and I wanted to see if I could get her a signed version for her birthday.” Junnie sighed dramatically as she collapsed onto the chair next to you.

“I could try asking around,” you said as you opened up your phone ready to text some friends. You owed Junnie quite a bit and had met her niece before, a very polite and really sweet kid. “Whose the one coming out with the album?”

“One of their main rappers, Changbin I think his name was,” Junnie replied while you froze at the name.

“Changbin?”

“Yeah Changbin, I remember because she always talks about him and there’s one section of their song where he says his name. Why?” She asked as she noticed how tightly you gripped your phone. You didn’t answer as you opened up Naver and typed into the search bar Stray Kids Changbin. You prayed that everything was a coincidence but when his picture loaded in you felt your whole body grow cold.

“He’s an idol,” you said more to yourself, just letting the words sink in.

“Yeah? His group is pretty popular too…”

“I’ve been working with an idol,” you had sent your recorded section to Changbin just three days ago. He had replied with multiple fire emojis, thanks, and the promise that he would put everything together for you to listen to before he put everything out. The two of you had been texting back and forth about music, your creative processes, and almost everything under the sun. Yesterday he warned you that he wouldn’t be able to text as much since he was busy preparing for something. You had thought he was talking about his mixtape but it turned out to be his official solo album.

“What are you talking about?”

“Remember that young rapper starting out I was talking to you about?”

“The one that you were impressed with and was working on a song for his first mixtape?” Junnie walked over to grab your hand as she clearly saw where this conversation was going.

“That was Changbin,” you could barely get his name out as you felt like throwing up. You wondered if the whole time he was just secretly laughing at you as you talked about his potential or places he could perform. 

“And he didn’t tell you…” You shook your head at her question. “Wait then the song that you were working on for him was for this solo album?”

“Fuck I can’t let that happen, I can’t, I can’t let my music go through his company…I,” You didn’t realize you were shaking until you felt Junnie’s hands on your shoulder stabilizing you. 

“You have his contact, tell you no and I’m sure he won’t put the song out without your permission. If he does, we will sue him for everything he is worth. Now breathe,” Junnie commanded and you breathed in and out deeply to get your nerves under control. Once you felt more in control of your body Junnie dropped her hands and you opened up the KKT app. 

Rosette

Don’t you dare publish that song with me in it

You were ready to move to block him, sure that he wouldn’t reply as he said he would be busy when his reply came. 

Dwaekki ??? What’s wrong? Did you not like the song anymore?

You breathed in harshly through your nose as you thought of how innocent he tried to sound.

Rosette

Idk Seo Changbin of Stray Kids, why don’t you tell me.

Dwaekki

…ah, I’m sorry.  I promise, I never meant to lie to you

Rosette

You really got me good, pretending to be my fan, pretending to be a rapper starting out Did your company plan to use me or did you think of this all on your own

Dwaekki

Wait! I never once lied about being your fan My company has nothing to do with this. Could we please meet up? It’s going to be easier to explain this in person

Rosette

There’s nothing for you to explain, good luck on your solo album but I want no part of it If you include my rap I will seek legal action. Goodbye.

You blocked him before he could get a chance to reply. “I fucking hate people,” you said as you hugged Junnie who gently patted you on the back.

“He came again today,” Junnie told you as she shut the door behind herself.

“Fuck, you’d think idols have more idol things to do,” you said as you sank into the chair willing it to just swallow you up. It had already been a week since you blocked Changbin and he had shown up every day trying to talk to you. Junnie and Jaehyun always stopped him at the entrance to forbid him from entering and every time he begged to let him in so that he could talk to you. 

“At least he always leaves politely,” Junnie said as she sat down in the chair next to you. “Any thoughts of maybe… you know…”

“Hearing him out?” You finished her question knowing full well what she wanted to ask. In fact, both her and Jaehyun tried to talk you into hearing him out before. “I can’t say after a whole week of him showing up that I’m not tempted to find out what he wants. But at the same time…the fact that he just straight up lied to me. Paired with the fact that he’s from the mainstream industry… I can’t bear it.” You thought about the time that the two of you spent together working on music together. Had all of that been lies just to get you to work on the song with him. To get to use your name like the others before him had tried to.

“It’s just every time we turn him away he looks closer and closer to crying. You know I’m usually good at reading people and I can’t help but think there’s more to this situation than meets the eye.” 

Junnies words kept replaying over and over in your head even as you exited through the back door of the building. It was just about 4 am and both your mind and soul were tired. You didn’t usually stay as late but these days you didn’t want to be alone as much. If you were alone you would start to analyze every little interaction you had with Changbin just trying to figure out what had been real and what had been fake. It was exhausting how much he stayed on your mind even though you only really met him twice. You thought back to all the times you were texting just before you went on stage where he spammed you with cheering emojis and the word FIGHTING.  Had they all been lies? You shook your head to clear your head as the cold early morning air hit you. 

“Rosette…” you heard his voice before you saw him and you felt yourself stiffen.

“What do you want?” You asked harshly as you turned to look at him. He was once again wearing all black this time in a black hoodie instead of a T-shirt. He had his mask on so you could only see his eyes. You realized what Junnie meant when you saw how bloodshot and red his eyes were, they were just barely holding back tears. 

“I know it is super creepy of me to wait for you like this but I really wanted to talk to you and explain everything,” he pleaded with you as he kept his distance, not taking any steps forward. You had a choice to make, run instead and get Jaehyun to drive him away, walk away and hope that he doesn’t follow you, or, actually, hear him out and maybe get some real answers. 

“There’s a cafe nearby and there shouldn’t be too many people at this time,” you said as you turned to walk to the cafe you mentioned. There were no footsteps following you so you turned back to ask, “are you coming or not?” The realization that you were giving him a chance finally sunk in as he quickly walked toward you. The walk to the cafe was silent as you led the way with Changbin behind you, you felt a little bit like a mother duck leading a stray duckling. The two of you entered the cafe and you found seats near the back. You both ordered an iced americano and then fell into an awkward silence once the waiter left. Changbin took off his mask and you noticed how haggard he looked with very noticeable dark eye bags. Once your drinks arrived the only sound of the clinking of ice as the two of you drank. Finally not able to handle the silence anymore you broke it first. “So what exactly is it that you want to say?” You asked as you fiddled with the straw.

“Right, um, first, I want to say sorry. I should have told you the truth from the beginning that I was an idol. I promise that I never meant to lie to you, things just got out of hand and I was too scared to correct things.”

“Scared?” You asked as you toyed around with the idea in your head. Changbin, scared of you? 

“Scared that you would hate me for it. The first day you told me about how much you hated people in the mainstream music industry and I thought that maybe if you knew me first… there was a chance you wouldn’t hate me even after I revealed everything. But then the more I got to know you the more I didn’t want to risk you hating me at all and… now we’re here.  I swear to my family that through the lies I never once lied to you about how I’m a fan of yours and respect you and your music so much. Everything about how much I enjoyed and took inspiration from your mixtape was the truth. We can call and ask Chan Hyung or Jisung if you want, they know how much I had your music on during our toughest moments,” he was rambling a little as he took his phone out and placed it before you. The desperation in his eyes really made you want to believe him but there was a part of you, the part that had been hurt by someone in the industry before, that was so cynical. 

“I’m guessing they’re members of your group so, of course, they would back up any story you told,” you said as you crossed your arms. You watched as Changbin seemed to deflate as your words sunk in.

“I guess you’re right, why would you trust them when you don’t even trust me. But please don’t think badly of Chan or Jisung because of me, they were never involved in this. Maybe I should have gone to Chan Hyung earlier, if he were the one in my position he would never have messed it up as much as I have. What can I do to win your trust back?”

“I don’t know, I promised myself to never get involved in the mainstream industry ever again. Even if I were to say forgive you there’s still no way that I would let you put anything to do with me out there.”

“Of course! I should have made it clear from the beginning but I would never ever ever publish your rap without your permission. I wanted to apologize and ask for forgiveness because I didn’t want you to hate me, not because I wanted to put the song out. If you want we can go to my dorm right now and I’ll delete the track right in front of you.” Changbin stood up ready to head out but you tugged on the sleeve of his hoodie to sit him back down again. 

“If you’re willing to go that far, I guess it isn’t fair for me to keep blaming you. I guess I never really asked you what group you were in either, I just sort of assumed,” perhaps part of the reason that you were so upset was that you had easily let your guard down for Changbin. He had won you over with his praise for your music and the way that he looked at you with sparkles in his eyes. “So you’re company had nothing to do with you finding me? I’ve had my fair share of agents wanting to use me as a hot search topic.”

“It was my idea from the start, I spoke to my manager about it and he sent you the email but you never replied. I didn’t tell anyone from the company when I went to find you and I only just told Chan Hyung what happened. He really let me know how stupid I was but neither of us has told the company yet so please don’t worry about the song.”

“Alright then, I’m choosing to trust you again,” Changbin perked up at what you said and you couldn’t help but smile at him. “Last chance,” you said with a small pout and he nodded his head feverishly. The two of you sat in a much more comfortable silence than when you first walked in, both of you in your heads just going over what was discussed. 

“Can I ask you something?” Changbin suddenly asked.

“Yeah sure.”

“Why is it that you hate the mainstream music industry so much?” It was an innocent question but you felt your grip tighten around your cup and you must have presented an ugly expression because Changbin suddenly spoke up again. “Nevermind you don’t have to answer that.”

“No, it’s just,” you didn’t want to speak of your disdain for the industry because it meant bringing up emotional scars that barely healed but at the same time you knew that as much as Changbin owed you an apology, you owed him an explanation. “It’s a long story,” you said as gently as you could to show that you weren’t angry.

“You don’t have to tell me anything that you don’t want to.”

“But you want to know don’t you?” You saw Changbin freeze before timidly nodding his head. “I released my first mixtape when I was sixteen. It was before I branded myself as Rosette when I didn’t really have any sense of identity yet. Looking back I don’t think it was any good but it was honest and experimental. Very teen angst,” you said with a smile as you remembered some of the songs you put out. “It caught the eye of a small entertainment company who sort of ambushed me outside of school. They promised me everything under the sun, how they would make me into the words next biggest rap star, how I would get to work with all my favorite artists, how I was an unpolished diamond, and how they saw so much potential in me. I of course fell for it, so young and naive,” you shook your head as you remembered how excited and pure-hearted you had been back then. Changbin stayed silent as he gave you the space and time to collect your thoughts and get to the next part of your story. “After that, I started training with them, I was really confused because all I wanted was to be a rapper but they were making me go to dancing classes and singing classes. They told me that even to do well in the industry I had to be good at everything. They started putting me with these other girls and styled us however they wanted. I wasn’t even allowed to wash my hair unless I had permission. The other girls all hated me because it was obvious that I wasn’t looking for the idol life, I just wanted to rap and make my own music. But they even tried to change the way I rapped. Be softer, be cuter, try rapping in a higher pitch voice they told me,” at this point in the story you realized how your voice was trembling. You felt a touch on your hand and looked up to see Changbin had reached over to place his hand over yours in a comforting manner. You took a few deep breaths to calm your nerves before you continued, “by the time I turned eighteen they took us to perform at clubs. It was practice for music shows they told us. By then I had completely changed myself to how they wanted, I rapped and sang and danced just as they had taught me. They styled us in short dresses that barely covered anything but we weren’t allowed to complain. I went on stage every day just hoping maybe the stage could collapse or the lights would just fall and kill me.” You felt Changbin’s grip on your hand tighten. You brought out your other hand to pat his hand. “I don’t think like that anymore,” you said as he loosened his grip just slightly.

“I just can’t imagine…” he said before trailing off. 

“Yeah I was at a dark place, but I still had hopes of making it you know, just like they said I would. Until one day I had enough, the company manager walked backstage and I told him that I couldn’t do this anymore. This wasn’t who I was and this wasn’t what they promised me. He sent everyone else away and told me that… he told me that I was stupid to believe them. That I was lucky they signed me at all because I didn’t have any talent but I was pretty so they gave me a chance.”

“That son of a bitch,” Changbin said under his breath but you heard him.

“He berated me and went on and on about how there were prettier more talented girls and that I was lucky they kept me around. He told me that if he wanted to he could send me to clients because that was clearly all that I was going to be good for.” You started trembling at the memory of how he had gotten up and in your face and sneered at you with his yellow stained teeth. 

“Can I hug you?” Changbin asked quietly. You looked at him in surprise. “I just really want to hug you right now,” he said and couldn’t but nod. He walked over to sit in the chair next to you and pulled you into a hug wrapping his arms around you. You felt his warmth and the steady rise and fall of his chest that helped you stay grounded. “What happened next?” He asked his voice right in by your ear.

“He was really angry but he told me that he was willing to forgive my foolishness if I let him…” you couldn’t finish the rest of your words but you knew Changbin understood as he gently patted you on the back of the head.

“That inhumane bastard.”

“He broke me down so much that I almost let him, but then Junnie walked in.”

“The owner of the club?”

“Yeah, she walked in and told him that everything he said was recorded and that if he didn’t dissolve my contract then and there she would present the evidence to the police. There never was any recording but she had heard him shouting at me from outside and decided to help me. She helped set me free but I wasn’t really free. I let his words sink in and get to me. I thought that I was worthless and talentless. I was so lost and afraid that I ended up just pouring everything I felt into music. That was how Rose Colored Dreams came to be. Everything was an outpouring of my darkest moment. I wasn’t going to ever put it out there but Junnie would come to check up on me and she encouraged me to put the music out there. If nothing else then as a closing chapter to that part of my life. I didn’t expect it to blow up the way it did.”

“Some the best art comes from when we hurt the most.”

“Yeah and with the success of it came more people coming to try and sign me. They came at me with the same praise in almost the same tone. How they would make me into a star and I couldn’t help but be afraid. I couldn’t bear to lose who I was anymore not when I just barely managed to pull myself together.” You heard a slight sniffle and you pulled away from the hug to see tears falling down Changbin’s face. “Oh god, why are you crying?” You used the sleeve of your hoodie to wipe the tears from his face. 

“I’m sorry I just never…I never knew,” Changbin turned away and used his arm to wipe at his face. You gently patted his head as he tried to get his tears under control.

“It’s all in the past now, to be honest, I have friends that work in the mainstream music industry and they are all doing fine. It’s easier to irrationally hate something than to admit that I’m scared he was right.” You looked around the cafe to make sure that no one was noticing what was going on in your corner. Fortunately, maybe due to the early time, no one was looking to see an idol crying and hugging you. You were glad that you had made partial peace with your past so that you weren’t crying as well. “Come one now, I didn’t mean to make you cry.”

“Fuck, I’m sorry,” Changbin said as he distanced himself and wiped at his own face. The two of you were silent for a few minutes as Changbin stopped crying. In a moment of wanting to comfort him, you grabbed his hand and squeezed it.

“I’m kinda touched you’d cry for me like this,” you said as you gently played with his finger. “I’ve spent so long crying alone that now I’m a bit numb to the whole thing.”

“Did he ever even get in trouble?” Changbin looked up and you saw how serious his expression was.

“As far as I know the company is now bankrupt, I tried contacting some of the other girls when I left but they told me it was their dream and they’d do anything they needed to. At some point I could have sued him but I really just wanted to leave this all behind me and not have my name tied to him,” you thought back to the time when you’d just cry when you heard his name.

“I just wish he got what he deserved,” Changbin looked away from you into the distance and you could almost see gears turning in his head as he thought. 

“Penny for your thoughts?”

“I just… I have an idea but I just still don’t know if it’s a good one or not,” he said, not yet looking at you. 

“An idea?” 

“You know what the best type of revenge is?” He asked as he turned to you and it almost looked like his eyes were shining.

“Not really?” You had no idea where he was going with his question. You let go of his hand and grabbed at your coffee with both hands suddenly feeling nervous.

“Success is the best type of revenge,” he spoke with such convention that you were almost immediately swayed until you realized what that meant.

“You can’t be serious?”

“You’re so talented and it’s obvious, you don’t need me to tell it to you, the crowd that comes to see you at the club and the listens you get on SoundCloud are proof enough. The underground scene is amazing but I would love to see you have official albums, and music videos, perform at music shows and be able to hold your own concerts. Then one day you’ll be everywhere and that asshole is going to see it and regret every single decision he’s ever made,” Changbin spoke with so much conviction that you could almost picture the look of despair on your former boss's face. It wasn’t that you never thought about getting back at him, it was just you never thought of the method Changbin mentioned. 

“I don’t know, I just still don't think I can properly trust the industry,” you spoke truthfully as you felt the fear tug at your heart. As appealing as the future Changbin drew up was, you knew that it was equally uncertain and full of danger.

“Why don’t you come to some of our Stray Kids rehearsals and practices? See how we interact with the JYP staff? We might be idols but we get a lot of freedom, especially with our music. I wouldn’t say things are perfect but it would show you a healthier company artist relationship. Then I can ask Chan hyung to ask some of the GOT7 Hyungs to talk to you about the agencies they joined. Most of them are now at smaller agencies and they get even more freedom about every aspect of music and creative direction,” Changbin spoke with a soft smile and a spark in his eyes.

“They’re just going to let a total stranger like me watch you guys?” You asked a little bit swayed but still plenty skeptical of his idea. 

“We can say that you’re there to help me with my album in the spare time between practice. I promise at the end of all this if you decide that you still don’t want any part of the mainstream industry, I’ll never bring any of this up again.” Changbin held one hand up while he placed the other on his chest in the classic swearing of an oath position. 

“I guess it wouldn’t hurt to just observe,” you said after thinking his suggestion through. There was no danger in just taking a look and then walking away, you thought to yourself.

“Lee Know Hyung are you ready to show your abs?”

“Yah Hwang Hyunjin, are you ready to be deep-fried?” Lee Know said almost two calmly as he stood up to chase after a half screaming half-laughing Hyunjin. You and Changbin made eye contact and you couldn’t help but shake your head at their antics. 

It had been four days since you first started “shadowing” Stray Kids. On the first day, Changbin introduced you to the members and most of the staff, and you were blown away by how many members of staff there were. There were two main managers with three helpers and then there were other staff members there depending on the activity for the day. You had given Changbin the okay to tell his members you were there to observe the workings of the mainstream music industry while most of the staff were told that you were there to help with Changbin’s new album when he had time to spare. It wasn’t too suspicious since details of his album were supposed to be finalized once they finished preparing for and performing this special stage for a music show. You were a bit surprised when you realized how busy he actually was and how much time he wasted trying to talk to you at the club when he should have been sleeping.

“It was all worth it now that I’ve at least managed to convince you to be here,” he said when you pointed out how you wished he had prioritized himself more.

“If you’re going to flirt can you do it when you’re alone?” Seungmin said with a grin before he ran away as Changbin chased him screaming.

You noticed that Changbin was much louder around his member. He also tended to act cute and put on a voice while the others pretended to gag. You enjoyed watching how the members interacted quite freely as they joked around and played with each other in the moments they weren’t practicing. You were surprised to see the managers and staff join in on the clowning around, with the members hugging the managers or jumping on them on more than one occasion. 

In fact, at this very moment, Felix has one manager in a bear hug as he questioned him about a kitten that the manager had adopted. “Bring the kitty and we can lock Hyunjin away so that it won’t affect his allergies,” Felix said as the manager struggled in vain. Hyunjin looked at Felix with an expression of betrayal which gave Lee Know the chance to finally catch him and then all that followed were the sounds of laughter mixed with one tortured scream.

“They’re so loud aren’t they?” Jeongin asked as he sat beside you and pointed his open bag of potato chips at you. You politely took one potato chip and couldn’t help but nod as an answer. “It’s like a zoo sometimes,” Jeongin said with a soft chuckle and eyes full of love. 

At first, you had asked that everyone pretend that you weren’t there at all but that plan quickly fell apart. The kids were much friendlier than you had thought idols would be (which to be fair you should have expected with how friendly Changbin was). After Changbin introduced everyone, four of them had surrounded you to talk about your music and how big fans they were and it took a couple of disgruntled mumbles from Lee Know to get them into position for practice. You had thought he was mad at you but then he wordlessly handed you a piece of chocolate as he ate one himself.

“Why did you give her chocolate when you said you only had one left when I asked?” Chan had asked as he crossed his arms. 

You had been about to offer the chocolate to Chan when Lee Know pointed at Chan and said, “because she didn’t spend five minutes talking and being distracted instead of getting into position like I asked.”

“Technically speaking she’s the distraction though,” as soon as the words were out of Han’s mouth both Felix and Changbin stood up.

“He’s just joking!”

“She’s not a distraction!”

They both shouted pretty much over each other before you had even had a chance to digest what Han said. When everything finally hit you, you were quick to move toward the door. You weren’t upset at being called a distraction but you didn’t want there to be tension in the group because of you, “I’m sorry maybe it’s better if I-“ you didn’t manage to finish the sentence before Chan moved to block you from the door. 

“Why don’t we all calm down a bit?” Chan had said as he gestured for both Felix and Changbin to sit back down. When they did Chan sighed as he explained, “look no one thinks you’re a distraction yeah?” All the boys nodded at his question, “Han was just trying to make a joke but he tends to get flustered when he’s nervous so it came out wrong”. You looked over to see that Han had his head down but you could see how red his face was. “He’s a fan of yours too but it takes him a while to approach new people,” Chan whispered in your ear to further explain the situation. “Now Felix and Binnie less yelling, yeah? I know everyone’s excited but we’re going to end up scaring her away and then Binnie will get upset,” He said the next part out loud and you couldn’t help but giggle at how loudly Changbin complained as Chan just shook his head. Everyone seemed to have calmed down and the tension in the room dissipated like it was never there. You were in a way a little jealous of the boys, they were clearly friendly with each other and got along. It was nothing like when you were with the girls and the interaction between everyone reflected that. 

Some of your favorite moments had been when you were with 3racha in the wee small hours of the morning, just watching as they organized and worked on tracks together. Besides the tracks that Changbin had worked on alone he also wanted to feature some 3racha tracks and as you watched them worked you’d chime in with some suggestions or ask them questions. The guys were truly allowed to work freely with their music and you really respected that. You also respected how well the staff truly treated them as one of their managers or helpers would often pop in to ask if they needed food or try to usher them home when it got too late. It was a level of support that you had never experienced before.

“So? What do you think?” Changbin asked as the two of you sat down at the JYP cafeteria to grab a late dinner while Chan needed the room to do his Vlive.

“I think you guys should totally rerecord Wow and put it on the album,” you replied with a laugh. You had managed to get them to play you the song after you heard them talking about it as a joke. In all honesty, you didn’t cringe as hard as they did but you did have a good laugh at their expressions more than the actual song. You thought the song was kinda cute, to be honest.

“That’s not what I was asking about,” Changbin whined and you couldn’t help but grin at how cute he looked. 

“I know, but I saw my chance and took it,” you replied playfully back. 

“You have been spending too much time around the boys,” he said with a shake of his head but a smile on his face. “Seriously though what do you think?”

“I think that I understand what you were trying to prove and that yeah my fear of working with a mainstream company has subsided a fair bit. I’m still not entirely sure that this is the route that I want to take though.” You were honest and serious with your thoughts as you told them to Changbin. You saw how well the managers and staff got along with the boys and how well they were being supported by all the different people in the company but you were never going to be as successful as Stray Kids. You were also not going to be an idol so you couldn’t be sure that you would get the same level of support or care. 

“I’ll ask Chan Hyung to introduce you to some of the Got7 Hyungs at different agencies and they can talk to you about what it’s like working there. There are two at more hip hop based companies so maybe that will fit you more.”

“Why are you being so nice to me?” You asked the question that had plagued your mind for a while now. There was no reason that you could see for Changbin to do as much as he did for you. You felt both guilty and curious about his reasons and today was finally the day that you could no longer hold the question in.

“I respect your music so I want to see you succeed as well as the fact that I like you,” he said simply as he took a bite of his chicken, so simply that it took you a few seconds to let what he said sink in.

“You like me?” You asked unsure if you heard him right. 

“Yeah, I don’t think I or the members have been particularly subtle about it,” he shrugged and you had to agree. The others often joked or cooed when Changbin got you food or a drink and there had been more than a few mentions of how Changbin would be upset if any of them upset you. 

“When you say like… you mean…” you trailed off not sure how exactly to ask the question but luckily for you, Changbin seemed to know exactly what you wanted to say.

“I mean I like you romantically, but first and foremost I like your music and your talent. I generally want you to be so famous that the person who hurt you will be crushed under the weight of his own anguish. I think I’ve always had a bit of a crush on you based on your music but you really stole my heart when I first saw you perform at the club. I didn’t know the full weight of my feeling until recently when I saw you smile as Jeongin told you some sort of joke and I wished that I could always see you smile like that,” Changbin’s expression was soft as he looked at you while he spoke. His eyes suddenly widened as he hurriedly added, “but I promise that I’m no way expecting anything in return! I don’t want you to think that I’m doing any of this to get you to date me!”

In all honesty, if you hadn’t spent so much time with Changbin and observing him maybe you would have been uncomfortable with the situation. It might have hit a little too close to home to your past experience but you now trusted Changbin. You saw how he treated you, how he reassured you, how he treated the staff and how he treated his members. There was no doubt in your mind that Changbin was a good person and that he meant what he said. There was also no doubt that you yourself might have developed slight feelings over the last few days. Still, you knew that a relationship at the moment was something that neither of you could handle. Your silence as you thought over how you were going to respond seemed to worry Changbin who suddenly spoke again.

“Look, I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable, if it makes things better you won’t even need to see me anymore I’ll ask Chan Hyung to help and then that will be it. I just wanted to let you since I didn’t want to lie to you about my feelings, I understand how this looks-”

“I trust you, Binnie,” you said as you gently cut him off. The look of worry on his face warped into a shy smile at how you used his nickname. “I trust you, and maybe when I’ve settled on what I’m doing in the future, I can take you out on a date as thanks?” 

His grin became a full-blown smile and you couldn’t help but think that no matter what you decided to do it would be alright as long as his smile was there to support you.

“I cannot believe I let you talk me into this,” you whined as the took a sip of your coffee. The makeup Unnie watched you like a hawk to make sure that you didn’t smudge your lipstick.

“You’ll be fine just do as we did in the camera rehearsal,” Changbin said as he walked over to give you a kiss on your forehead. He had to tiptoe due to the shoes that you were wearing and you heard the hair Unnies mutter under their breath about how he was going to mess up both your hair.

“Yeah but that was a rehearsal, this is going to contain an actual audience of your fans that will tear me apart if I mess this up for you.” You playfully pushed Changbin away as you pouted out your worries.

“Once the music comes on you are going to kill it besides I should be the one worried about your fans, every underground hiphop rapper has basically said they can’t believe you choose to work with me,” he pulled you into a back hug and you felt the security of his strong arms around you.

“Do the two of you really have to flirt so openly like this?” Your manager asked as Changbin’s manager (and the rest of the staff) nodded in agreement.

 “She just debuted a week ago and this is your first solo promotion, we really don’t need a scandal right now,” Changbin’s manager added and the nodding increased in speed all around.

“I don’t know I’ve seen the comments under the song teaser and there are quite a few people on both sides that ‘ship’ us,” you said as you and Changbin smiled at each other.

“She’s right, in fact, we might even double the views if we got caught I’d say.”

“Changbin no!” Both your managers shouted and the two of you couldn’t help but laugh. Changbin placed his chin on your shoulder and you couldn’t help but lean over and give him a quick little kiss. 

“I still can’t believe I let you talk me into performing this song though, why can’t you just stick to performing your title track?” You went back to whining after you pulled away from the kiss. 

“I can’t help but want to showcase my best b-side,” he replied as he let you go and the Unnie’s immediately came over to fix both the both of you up.

“I’m telling Channie and Hannie you said that,” you said as you stuck out your tongue at him.

“They’ll understand, I love the song with 3racha but there’s something special about the song I made with my girlfriend.”

My beloved streetlight shining on the darkest night Your kindness was my guiding light Thank you for showing me what love could be Thank you for loving me for me

[imaginesoftbinnie]

[0:55] Imagine sitting down in binnies lap while he works on some music and fall asleep on his chest nd when you wake up, you’re both in bed and it was his snores that took you out of your slumber

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binnie sitting down in your lap while you’re working on something and falling asleep on your chest. nd so when your finished you pick him up and cuddle in bed with him while on your phone, but then your phone falls and smacks him on the face, waking him from his slumber and all you guys can do about it is laugh

nd then he comes home with an skz pop socket the next day

[dreamescapeswriting]

[19:24] ~ Seo Changbin [M]

A/N: Yall can blame @spearb1108​ for making me a thirsty ass bitch

Word Count: 1K

Genre: Smut, its just pure smut

Changbins arms were pinned either side of you on the wall caging you against the inside of his grasp as he smirked down at you. 

"You're such a dirty girl aren't you?" You whimpered as his hand came into contact with your ass, he grabbed it roughly and began massaging the skin. He parted your legs with his knee and chuckled as you let out a whimper, you couldn't speak. You had his tie in your mouth tied tightly to act as a sort of gag for you, you'd been at a meal with him and the boys for his birthday and you'd done nothing but tease him. Running his hands up your thigh until he could feel that you had the thinnest piece of black underwear on, you'd been planning it for weeks. It was Changbins birthday so this was all for him, you loved the way he would get annoyed with you and lick his lip before biting it harshly.

"Look at you, practically begging for me to fuck you aren't you." You gave him pleading eyes begging him in silence to at least do something to you that would make you less needy for him. You knew that if you even tried to speak right now it would end badly for you, he wouldn't let you cum and so far nothing had been taken off the table for you yet he was still willing to let you cum. 

"Grind on it," He barked at you, you looked at him with wide eyes wondering what he meant until his knee came into contact with your panty covered dripping pussy - you were so wet the panties had no use even being there anymore but the grinding finally giving you some relief, you let out a long whine as you began grinding down against his clothed knee. He smirked watching as your eyes rolled back when you began rolling your hips on him, he rubbed harder against your clit letting you moan loudly against the tie in your mouth.

"You're lucky I'm in such a good mood tonight." He growled before sucking on your neck, you pushed the tie out of your mouth with your tongue so you could moan out his name properly when his hand dove into your panties. He wasted no time thrusting three fingers into your cunt smirking as he heard the sounds you were making, 

"You're so hot," He chuckled darkly before returning to your neck and sucking harshly on the skin that was exposed to him, his fingers inside of you were curling up inside of you to reach your g-spot with each rough thrust. 

"G-Gonna cum." You warned him looking into his eyes but he ripped his fingers out of you and pushed you down onto your hands and knees without a warning making you scrap the skin of your exposed knees but you didn't dare complain about it. He shoved the dress up to your midsection and gripped your hair in his fist and yanked your neck back so your back was arched deeply slamming himself inside of you. You let out a loud cry as your hands dug into the carpeted floor in front of you rolling your eyes back as you felt every detail of his shaft inside of you, he wasted no time letting you adjust to the angle though. After your constant teasing at the table, he was already on the brink of orgasm slamming in and out of you roughly while he sucked on your neck. 

"You're going to cry out my name for everyone on the street to hear," You nodded desperate for him to let you cum, after having the first one ripped away from you.

"F-Fuck you're like a fucking vice," He grumbled slapping you across the ass sure to leave a mark on your skin as you whimpered clenching around him when his hand came into contact with you.

"Who owns you?!" He growled feeling you getting closer with each thrust of his hips, 

"You are." You whimpered pathetically but it wasn't enough for him, he yanked your hair back burying himself deep inside of you and holding himself right against your g-spot, creating tiny hip thrusts.

"You are! Changin! You own me!" You yelled out eyes wide as you caught sight of the way you looked in the mirror in front of you, your tits were hanging out the top of your dress and he was licking his lips as he stared at you in the mirror. 

"You're going to cum when I tell you too or you're not going to cum at all, understood?!" You couldn't talk, you couldn't think of anything except the way he was thrusting in and out of you roughly. 

"Understood!?" He yelled loudly slapping you across the ass before shoving your chest to the ground and keeping your ass up in the air. 

"YES! Yes!" You cried out tears forming in your eyes from the intensity of the new angle looking at him in the mirror, he looked just as fucked out as you did.

"Good girl," He whispered thrusting in and out of you faster right before he groaned gripping onto your hips and pounding into you. 

"Cum right fucking now," He hissed at you feeling you clench around him, you whimpered feeling his thumb come in to contact with your clit rubbing you in circles, your orgasm ripped through your entire body. Your legs began to shake as white took over your vision, 

"CHANGBIN! F-Fuck! I'm cumming!" You screamed out rolling your hips back as he fucked into you holding you down as he felt you clenching around him, 

"Ugh..Ugh, shit," He groaned filling you up with some of his cum before pulling out and spilling onto your ass, the warm cum soothing the aching from his rough slaps previously. You began panting heavily not bothering to turn over, you didn't have the energy. 

"Good girl," He whispered standing up from the floor, he bent down to pick you up carrying you in the direction of the bathroom to run you a bath, praising you as much as he could.

A/N: So this sucked I’m sorry

Tagline: 

@snowy-meowl​ @jooniesdarlingdimples​ @kneel-begyourpardon​ @yunhoesss​ 

[gondom]

[1:48am]you look over at him, tears threatening to fall from your eyes. after all the two of you had been through, after all the chances you gave him, he still went to her. he stares back at you with a sad expression, fumbling with the zipper of his jacket, trying to think of something to say. you yearned for him to say something, anything, yet at the same time, you didn’t want him to say a thing.

“y/n i’m-“ you raise your hand signaling for him to stop.

“save it.” you finally spoke. barely getting the words out without choking on your tears. “i don’t need your explanation...” you turn and begin walking away from him, not wanting to be in his presence any longer, only to come to a halt from a hand around your arm.

“p-please..all of this is just a misunderstanding. an accident..” you scoff.

“an accident? you accidentally showed back up to her house? you accidentally kissed her? you accidentally cheated on me once again? yes, this is just one big accident.” you rip your arm away from his grasp and shake your head. “i really can’t do this anymore. you’ve hurt me too many times. i constantly give you another chance and you constantly hurt me...” sighing, he looks you in the eyes, trying to see if you’ll give him one more chance, but already knowing the answer, he looks down.

“y-y/n i love you” he looks back up and stares into your eyes again.

“no you don’t. you only love yourself.” you sigh and turn around, walking away once again.

“p-please...” his voice cracking as he calls out from behind you.

“leave me alone, minho.”

[ssin-ent]

[I've never done this before]

req" I'm leaving it to your imagination in the smut smut part but I just want the setting to be with a group friend and they're playing truth or dare and one of the friends (that would be me ) is teasing them she knows felix has the biggest crush on changbin he told her that a while ago and Changbin likes felix but he never really thought about him other than a friend but during the game things would get heated and after the game is over changbin would discover some new stuff about him hahaha

for the first time theres actually a bit of plot to justify the porn!

Enjoy!

Warnings: m x m, changlix, first time,changbin bottom, make out, gay awekening, blowjob,really cute but they're hot asf, top felix,voice kink,dry humping]

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Felix thanked his friends internally as he turns toward changbin.

" you can pick anyone as long as you do the dare" you say to Felix with a big smile.

The qhole room, exept maybe Changbin knew how big of crush f

Felix had on him. Felix put on show ,fully enjoying his moment despite feeling his heart missing a bit as he sat on Changbin's lap. But he felt a bit better to see the other being shyn mouth going dry yet his tongue darted to lick his lips as felix fully sat on him.

Not that it was a position he wasn't familiar with, they have always been close, Felix was the cuddly type and so was Changbin, but right now, with Felix' arms drapped around his neck, leaning to kiss him, Changbing is so fucking confused why he has never felt this way for a guy before yet,the way Felix is looking at him does something to him

The kiss his short, just a peck but Felix does his best to draw it out smiling widely as Changbin blushes, he doesn't know what to say, his brain going autopilot and the only way to hide his now prohiminent boner is to grip felix tighter as he starts to get off his lap .

"Whyy do you wanna go already?" he says, his confidence betrayed by the red of his face.

--

Well, this how Changbin ends up pinned to the bed, Felix overing him as he kisses him as if its the last time, changbin really hope it isn't. But while he is still processing what i's happening he gets lost in the way Felix' lips feel gainst his, how his hands roam over his body and seem to already know it by heart. WHen they part to look in each other'seyes there is a moment of silence butr they both smile, a mute approuval to continue.

Felix is throbbing againt Changbin , his heart thumping in his chest as they share rushed kisses. They're just grabbing at each other, biting on their lips, pulling on their hair, changbin marks his neck, before felix parts to take off their shirts.

From changbin's view, Felix sitting on top of him makes him think of the other riding him and godd how much changbin wants to feel him around his cock.

Felix just smiks down at him, aware of the suggestive position he is as he starts to roll his hips, their cocks rubbing together trough the fabric in a way that make changbin plead.

"What do you want" felix asks before Changbin answers a simple: " You"

"You have all of me already" felix smiles as he unbutons his pants to palm himself over his boxer better.

Changbin feels his mouth salivates, his eyes fixated on the bulge.

"You can have that too if you want' Felix says noticing the way he is looking at him pulling his cock out to tease him

"Get on your knees then, pretty"

Changbin is quite lost but complies anyway all he knows is that he wants to get his mouth on him, he tries to fake confidence, like he'd like it on himself, he tentatively licks up his cock , softly sucking on the tip.

He shouldn't like it that much, but the way his stomach turns as felix praises himin his sweet deep voice makes his cock twitch .

Felix encourages him" come on baby you can take more"

Now Changbin feels shy , he doesn't answer. Sruggling to make a coherent answer but felix reasurres him before he can even gather his thoughts and tell him he doesn't know how to.

'Awww let me show you then" he coos as he puts his hand in his hair to guide him.

"Take the tip in your mouth baby, just like that, take it slow" he murmurs as Changbin takes him deeper it before pulling out to lick at the gathering precum. He hums at the taste pleasantly surprised as he starts to bop in his head , enjoying the feeling in his mouth, the taste and Felix hand petting his hair,he gets a bit too enthusiats as he tries to take more in his throat, gaggging as the lenght threatens to hit the back of it.

" I said slowly, pretty don't take too much" felixs smiles and changbin could die rn, drown in his praises as he starts to bob his head slwoly, working the length with his mouth like he remembers his previous partners would do to him.

Its really sloppy, a lot of drool, but felix seems content with it he thinks he is so cute,trying to do well for him

Still Felix continues to pet his hair, praises him in hisnsweet depp voice that makes him shiver, so Changbin continus, using his hand and taking as much as he can take as he licks up and suck on what fits in his mouth, making felix groan deeply and changbin moans high his his throat looking up at felix expectantly.

So he does it again "You take it so well, youre going to make me come, fuck"

A final warning before felix cums ,he thrust in his mouth softly, chasing his eyes as tears gather in changbin's eyes who takes it so good for him.

And he sees how much changbin likes it,how he is thrusting agaisng his own hand, chaisng his own pleasure who cums soon after him as he is surprised by the sustance in his mouth, more cum dripping past his mouth , messing up his chin than anything else

Felix coos, seeing Changbin like that, hair a mess, his mouth dripping with his cum but looking up at him so sweetly with teary eyes, he tries to not think about it too much or he could cum again.

Chagbin says giggling timidly :

"Sorry I've never done that before "

"Don't worry I have a lot of things left to teach you about" Felix assures him

[hanjisungs-bigtittyg0thgf]

Girl first of all I hope you're not feeling pressured to respond to asks! Do what you want with em.

Second of all...the Ddaeng music video. Changbing just... His whole outfit. His demeanor. His ARMS.

Like just imagine him coming home from a long day of work you know you're not supposed to ask about, and he's just desperate to get his hands on you to remind himself what he does it all for. 😳

A lot of great Jisung moments in there too but Binnie literally made me a bit dizzy.

🎉

definitely! i know you guys won't get mad if i take a while and as a student, college comes first

ugh bestie don't even go there i'm already swerving for him 😩 no but fr he was a whole ass snack and i wouldn't mind being ravaged by him. want him to choke me out with those goddamn tree trunks 😩

gotta say though, jisung's rap was laced with something. got me shakin all that ass i don't have 🥴 second favorite song on the album (charmer is first)

[kachuwritings]

Caught in the moment [Halloween Special: Changbin's ending part 2]

a/n: Finally it is here. Changbin's Halloween Special ending part 2!! Obviously if you haven't read the Halloween special and Changbin's ending this part will start randomly somewhere in the middle, so I advise you to read those first. Links are down below. I hope you like it~

Halloween Special: main part | Changbin's ending pt. 1

Word count: 2.2k+

Genre: fluff, some heated scenes

As you were heading back from the drop tower to meet the others again, Changbin suddenly pulled you aside right before you came into view with the other members already waiting at the place you decided to meet up altogether before exiting the park.

“Huh, what was that for?” You asked him with a confused look on your face.

“I just-, let's not immediately spill the beans to the other members, okay? I don't really know how they’d react to us, you know.”

“Oh...sure. Are you embarrassed?”

“No!! That's not it, believe me!” Changbin exclaimed quickly. “Quite the opposite actually, but I want to proudly declare the news at the right time, and heading back from an amusement park is not really a convenient time, don't you think?”

You laughed and nodded your head in response. “But, I almost forgot, you haven't even officially asked me to be your partner yet.”

Changbin had wanted to reply to that but upon seeing your pout, he decided otherwise.

“Okay, wait here. Don't move. I'll be back before you can say supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.”

“You, what-" You couldn't even finish your sentence before Changbin had already stormed off.

A few minutes passed in which you were taking in the scenery around yourself, the attractions were still crowded with people trying to have a fun night full of Halloween excitement and spooks. The air had become even chiller and the breeze was still dancing around you, luckily you had thought of packing a warm hoodie in order not to freeze. You looked up and noticed you couldn't even see the stars due to the light pollution in the park, it made you somewhat sad since you had always loved peering up at the sky to watch the stars sparkle in the vastness of the universe.

“Hey dreamer, I'm back if you haven't noticed.” Changbin's chuckle abrasively pulled you from your thoughts, making you jump at his words and protectively clutch your chest with your hand.

“Holy alien babies did you scare me just now- what were you even doing all this time?”

Not until you'd taken a closer look at Changbin did you realize he had been hiding something behind his back. He didn't say anything and just chuckled.

“What are you hiding there?” You asked suspiciously.

He just raised an eyebrow and smirked in response.

“Binnie this is not funny. Tell me now-"

“Okay, okay.” He finally gave in. “Close your eyes, dummy.”

O-okay. You did what he instructed you to do and waited.

“Open now.”

After hearing his command to open your eyes again, you first didn’t see him anymore. Huh? Oh, you realized he was crouching down in front of you, resting his weight on one knee while the other was propped up, as if he was going to propose to you.

“Uhh, Changb-"

“Shh,” he silenced you before you could even get his name out. Okay.

“Dear y/n. I'm not quite Prince charming when it comes to romanticism but for you, I will try my best.”

He made a short pause as if to organize the words in his head before saying them aloud, and you excitedly awaited his impromptu speech.

“We've been friends for such a long time now, we’ve laughed together, we've cried together. We shared our worries and dreams, we joked and argued, we had our insiders and even flicked each other’s heads at times. But in my eyes, or rather, in my heart, you had always been more than simply a friend.”

His gaze averted from the ground upwards until he was staring right into your eyes. Then he took a deep breath.

“I had felt myself falling slowly but fully for you, my heart started to ache whenever I wasn't near you and it was longing to hold you, touch you, be close to you, whenever you were over at the dorms. Whenever we talked about topics involving love I got so anxious because I was afraid I'd accidentally expose myself and have you reject me-"

“Anyway,” he stopped himself from rambling on. “I finally had the courage to make a move and it seems like my feelings are being reciprocated.”

He gave you a shy smile and searched your face with his eyes for a sign of reciprocation, as if to make sure he wasn't imagining things.

“And so, here I am, on my knees in front of you, asking you to accept my proposal and officially become my partner.”

He finally pulled his hands from behind his back and with them, he held out one simple, yet beautiful, red rose for you.

Overwhelmed by his dramatic antics and overly emotional, you quickly grabbed the rose and pulled him up by the hands to wrap your arms around his neck and hug him tightly.

“Yes, Changbin, you dork. Of course, I want to be yours, as long as you’ll be mine.” You snickered and pressed a short and sweet kiss to his lips.

“But in all seriousness, this was beautiful and heartfelt. You might not believe it but I felt the same throughout the whole time and that's why I’ve tried to talk to you about relationships and love, to find out whether you might reciprocate my feelings or not.”

The both of you started laughing upon realizing how much time you could’ve spared if only one of you had been a little braver and confessed.

“We're dummies, aren't we?” Changbin sighed with a smile.

“Yes, yes. That we are.” You agreed.

After a few moments of comfortable silence between the two of you, Changbin was the first to open his mouth again.

“But now, I think we should really head back. We're already late and who knows, Chan might believe I've eaten you alive if we don't show up in the next minute.”

“Oops, you're right. Let's get back and act as if nothing happened, just for the time being.”

-

On the way home everyone was excitedly talking about the attractions they'd been on and shared their experiences. Woojin aced the shooting gallery, while Minho and Jisung had a heart attack in the haunted house and on the dark ride. You giggled at the thought of those two scaredy cats running around in sheer darkness, searching for an exit. Chan was having a fun time on the roller coaster or so he told, whereas Hyunjin and Felix decided to take it easy and admire Seoul by night on the Ferris wheel and the gyro tower. Seungmin was still behaving like an excited puppy from his swing ride adventure while Jeongin sat next to him with a smile as vibrant and bright as ten suns combined due to the sweet time he had on the carousel.

“You're really the baby here,” you giggled into Jeongin's direction.

Upon hearing your teasing words he got defensive and pouty. “Adults can enjoy carousels as well.”

“You're not an adult though,” Changbin snickered.

Everyone joined in on teasing Jeongin until Chan swiftly changed the topic in order to save the maknae from an overdose of blushing.

“So, uh...Changbin, y/n, how was your evening?”

Everyone peeked up at Chan asking you two the question. You were taken aback and so was Changbin. The both of you exchanged a brief look before you started off.

“It was amazing. I think I got the biggest adrenalin rush ever.”

“Same here. It was definitely an eventful evening I'll surely never forget.”

You lightly and secretly smacked his thigh upon hearing his slight suggestive tone. There were ooh's and ah’s coming from the other members. Luckily they didn't ask any further and went on talking about something else.

“What was that for?” Changbin whispered after leaning in to be closer to your ear.

“Do you want them to find out now?”

“Oh come on, I wasn't that obvious,” he stated defensively.

“Well...” you trailed off, grimacing at him.

“Okay, okay.” He gave in and retrieved right after making sure to lightly brush your ear with his lips and plant a feather-light kiss to your lobe.

You flinched in response, head shooting to your left only to see Changbin looking at you with a smirk playing around his lips. What a little shit.

Before you could think any further, you suddenly felt warmth on your hand until you realized Changbin had enclosed yours with his in secret. So now you were cramped in a van with eight other rowdy guys, holding hands in disguise. You kinda liked it though, you were with all the people you loved and had your special someone right next to you.

For the rest of the ride, you felt Changbin lazily drawing patterns either on the back of your hand with his thumb or on your thigh with his fingertips. You drifted off into your thoughts, letting the evening repeat itself in your mind and softly smiling to yourself until you reached the point were Changbin had pushed you against the back of the booth. You visibly gulped. Thinking about it now, you remembered how soft yet powerful his kisses had felt and how his lips made all the butterflies in your stomach go crazy. You remembered how willing and hungry his lips latched onto yours and how he pressed his body so close against yours, you could feel all of him.

Getting hot from all the steamy memories, you quickly shook your head and took a few slow and deep breaths. Just stay calm and don’t think about the boy with his inviting and awaiting lips right next to you.

“What's gotten into you?” You suddenly felt Changbin’s hot breath on your neck. This. Is. Not. Helping.

“N-nothing...” You stuttered.

“I don't believe you,” he sighed. “spill.”

“I- I just remembered tonight...and I remembered our kiss.” You responded in a hushed whisper so the others wouldn't hear.

“Oh, and what about our kiss did you remember? Did you like it?”

You didn't say anything and just blushed. What were you supposed to answer to that.

“I'm waiting-"

Hnng. Alright.

“Everything. I remembered everything. And yes, I liked it. I liked it a lot.”

You heard Changbin's low chuckle. “Good, because so did I. And I can't wait to continue on from where we stopped.”

Your breath hitched in your throat. So the promise to continue at the dorms had been legit and not just empty words.

-

“Y/n, Changbin? Are you going to join us for watching Bohemian Rhapsody?” Minho asked the two of you as soon as everyone had settled in the living room of the dorms.

“As tempting as it sounds, we'll have to ditch you guys. I’ve promised y/n to let them listen to the latest tracks I produced.”

“Exactly. Maybe, we'll join you after-" you added to Changbin’s white lie even though you wouldn't mind having him show you his newly produced songs. Now you had something different in mind though.

Changbin took you by the hand and led you to his room. As soon as he closed the door after you, he gently but assertively pushed you up against it, leaving you no time to adapt until you could already feel his lips nipping on yours. His kisses were hungry and eager, even more so than back in the amusement park. His tongue grazed your bottom lip, asking you for entrance, which you willingly allowed.

You felt his hands grabbing on to your hips while you let yours make a mess out of his hair. You still couldn't believe this was really happening. Changbin's body felt so hot against yours, making you gasp for air as his lips left yours to trail kisses up and down your neck. His teeth lightly nibbled on your sensitive flesh, as if to tease a moan to come out of your swollen lips.

Suddenly he stopped and lifted you up only to throw you on top of his bed a second later with him following swiftly after you. He hovered right above you before slowly sinking down and connecting your bodies through intensifying the amount of skin contact. His lips reconnected to yours and danced in a heated battle for domination. Your heartbeat sped up at the intensity of his kisses and you could feel his excitement pressing up against you. A hot wave ran through your body as you let yourself get lost in his touch. You weren't thinking about anything besides Changbin and his kisses in that given moment until-

“Oh my god, Hyung!” A strangled scream pulled you and Changbin out of your heated make out session. There, in the doorway, stood Felix looking mortified, to say the least. He went pale and silent, the awkwardness of the situation hitting him and embarrassment causing his cheeks to flush.

“Uhm-, I might go-" he stuttered before turning on his heels and disappearing from your sight.

Changbin and you looked at each other in confusion before you burst out laughing. Something about the situation was just too comical or maybe you were simply laughing to hide your own embarrassment, whatever it may have been, it was working.

“Bet he's already telling the others what kind of scene he's just witnessed.” You murmured.

“Definitely.” Changbin agreed. “Come on, let's clear up the situation and continue later on when everyone is aware of us probably not listening to my music together.”

“So you decided now is a good time to spill the beans?” You grinned and raised your eyebrows questioningly.

“I mean, there could be better times but I think we have some explaining to do before Chan gets to kill us.”

“Well, let's hurry up then.” You exclaimed and together hand in hand you left the room and headed for the living room to face the others.

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I've once seen a post that stated using comic sans to write increases creativity and makes for better writing. This is the first time I used comic sans in Word to write this and I feel like it's turned out better than my past works? I'm not quite sure but I'd love to hear your opinion on it.

- Kachu♡

[dreamescapeswriting]

[21:48] ~ Changbin [M]

Word Count: 2.8K 

A/N: @taestannie​ is a genius! Pointed something out to me and it just had to become a waiter AU for binnie boy 🥺💜 

Genre: Smut, waiter/waitress AU, friends to lovers

Friday night shifts were the worst possible shifts to be placed on and everybody knew that which is why everyone except for you, Changbin and a couple of others were the only ones waiting tables that night. The restaurant was overcrowded by people as it always was on a Friday night and you were already wanting to pull your hair out of your scalp and you'd only been on shift for ten minutes.

"Drinking game tonight?" Changbin asked as he watched you walking over to him at the bar, you nodded in agreement showing him the back of your notepad, you'd already started taking notes on the number of times you'd been told to smile. You and Changbin had been working there for the last year and you'd come up with a drinking game to do every Friday you locked up at night - you were the managers which meant you were in charge of locking up each night.

"Just you and me tonight though, everyone's leaving early. Felix has a date," You rolled your eyes when didn't Felix have a date? Changbin watched as you bent down in front of him to pick up one of the serving trays from his bar. You were wearing the usual black tight-fitted low cut top that the sleazy restaurant owner ordered that every girl wore on shift along with the tight pencil skirt that drove Changbin wild for you. Everything you ever did drove Changbin wild for you, he could never fully concentrate when you were on a shift together. 

"You okay there Changbin?" You giggled coming back up from the ground and making eye contact with him, he nodded his head and began making drinks from his notepad when you joined him on the other side of the bar.

"Do you know what table 45 said to his wife just now?" You whispered nodding your head over to the window seat where a couple were sitting together, he shook his head and you started laughing softly at what you’d heard them talking about. 

"They're taking their pick of the guys tonight and you caught her eye." He groaned at the thought of it, it wasn’t how he wanted to spend his night tonight. Everyone knew that couple, they came in every Friday to flirt with the waiters and waitresses, giving them huge tips and making sure they never shared them with anyone else. Always touching and flirting with people whenever they got the chance, you were sure they were trying to make a threeway happen. 

"Can't say I blame them, hot stuff." You joked winking at him before walking away with your tray of porn star cocktails, Changbin watched as you swung your hips from side to side a little extra than usual. You and Changbin would flirt...a lot...There was no secret that there was the sexual tension between you both but nothing ever happened as much as both of you wanted it to.

"Cat got your  tongue?" Chan - one of the other waiters - questioned when he watched Changbin watching you, he stuttered over his words spilling beer onto the tray he was holding. 

"W-What?! No, her?! We're just friends," Chan snorted at the younger waiter in front of him and shook his head, 

"Sure thing, and I’m a rapper" He said sarcastically as he walked away from Changbin while he went onto cleaning up the drinks he'd split all over the place. 

Towards the end of the night, it was starting to get so busy you and the other waiters were climbing over one another to get through the place. The place always got like this towards the end of the night, people would come here before they went on a night on the town since the drinks were cheaper and you could find friends there easier than in the packed out clubs.

"Can I start you off with some drinks tonight?" You questioned looking down at a group of girls who all looked disappointed that they didn't have a male server with them but instead they had you to deal with.

"Excuse me Y/n," You looked over your shoulder as you heard Changbin say your name. God, you'd give anything to hear him moan it just once, after a couple of seconds you realised you couldn't move thanks to the place being so packed full. He placed his hands on either side of your hips and pressed himself against you as he got by the table. You could feel every inch of him and it sent a pool to your core just thinking about him,

"Y-yeah, drinks?" You stuttered out trying to distract yourself from the need of wanting Changbin to take you into the back and fuck you until your voice ran out.

Changbin stood at the bar mixing drinks and you looked at your pad, you had a bunch of cocktails you weren't skilled enough to make and you knew he was. You walked over with a giant smile on your face and leant forward on the bar. Changbin tried to keep his eyes on you but it was hard when you were practically hanging out of your top for all to see, it only sent more blood rushing to his cock. He was concentrating so hard on not staring at your breasts all he'd heard you say is, 

"Sex on the beach and make me scream?" His eyes snapped to yours in horror and you frowned at him, 

"You're the only one decent enough at making them don't make me beg Binnie." You whined out running your fingers up and down his bicep as you gave him your best puppy dog eyes you could conjure up. Flirting with him was the best way to get your own way right now and you knew that too well,

"Yeah, s-sure. What table?" He stuttered out finally realising that you meant the cocktails and you weren't asking him to fuck you on the beach and make you scream.

"Table 12, be careful Binnie. I think they bite." You whispered in his ear moving away to go on the five-minute break that you had. You just needed to be away from him for five minutes, any longer around him and you'd be dying for him to bend you over the bar.

"Here you go ladies," Changbin said as he unloaded the drinks onto their table, they all smiled at him and began flirting heavily but its something he was used to after working her. He watched as you came out from the back of the kitchens adjusting your top and he bit his lip watching you closely. 

"Can I get you anything else?" He asked going back to his job and trying to ignore the raging hard-on he was getting under his apron, he thanked the lord that he had one otherwise everyone would know what was going on in his mind right now. You had no idea what you did to him with the simplest of things, you could say a word to him and have him hard for you. One-touch, one whisper, anything and he would be yours for you to take.

"Thanks, Binnie, I owe you." You said as he came back to the bar you were standing behind, he went to walk behind you when you back up into him thanks to another waitress walking in front. 

"Shit sorry," You whispered as you felt him against your ass, he was hard and it turned you on even more than you already were for him. You ignored the feeling and cleared your throat, 

"Last hour! Let's go!" You yelled clapping your hands together trying to get everyone on the move and into their places for final drink orders.

The shutters were pulled down and locked, you and Changbin were alone in the whole restaurant trying to close up everything. You’d finished counting out the tips before everyone left for their own nights and now you were counting up the register while Changbin stood behind his bar.

"The perks of being bar manager and manger," You looked up from the books in front of you and over to him while he spoke, he pulled out a bottle of tequila for you both and two small shot glasses smirking darkly as he knew you always had to take more shots than he did. 

"We can drink our sorrows away," He was overdramatizing everything while you counted up and cashed the money into the safe. Once it was done you walked over to the bar he was standing behind and took out your notepad. 

"You're going to be hammered," He whistled looking at all of the notes you had by everything you had to take a shot for, 

"Five for being told to smile, 6 for asking for my number, 10 for the sly ''accidental'' ass grab, 9 for the number of times a man has told me that my skirt fits me perfectly." You slammed the notepad down and waited for him to show you his pad but he didn’t,

"Not showing," He put it into his top pocket and you scoffed, 

"Erm, yes you are those are the rules. Give it to me." He shook his head at you tapping his pocket with the book inside and you blinked at him, 

"Come and get it," You stared at him from across the bar, he knew you would and you knew you would climb across that bar and get it from his hands if you had to. 

"Fine," He threw it down in front of you not wanting to risk you hurting yourself if you climbed over the bar and you sighed reading from his page. You didn’t see why he was hiding it, it was nothing, 

"Five shots? Five shots?!" You sounded offended and you were, here you were with 30 shots. 

"You're taking some of mine, I can't handle 30 on my own." You told him as he started making up the shots in front of you.

Five minutes later you were 15 shots in and starting to get a little giddy from the alcohol, you’d never been one to handle your drinks and neither had Changbin so they’d gone straight to your heads. 

"I have an idea, I saw it on a movie once and it looked like fun." Changbin watched as you pulled him over to one of the tables and laid down on top of it. 

"W-What are you doing?!" Blood rushed to his cock again as he watched you start to unbutton your shirt and reveal your black bra to him, it made his mouth run dry as he thought about you laying there like that for him, 

"Relax Binnie," You placed a lime into your mouth, salt on your chest and poured some of the shot onto your stomach waiting for him to catch onto what you wanted him to do. 

"Body shots? Really?" You nodded and he smirked at you, both of you too tipsy to care anymore and far too pent up to even care that you were just two flirty friends. 

"You asked for it Princess," The nickname sent a pool to your panties and your legs clamped together trying to ignore the pressing feeling of wanting him inside of you. He sucked the tequila from your belly button and then slowly licked the salt from your chest, coming up to your mouth and smirking as you proudly held the lime there for him. He licked his bottom lip before taking the lime out of your mouth with his lips before throwing it somewhere across the room. He grabbed your face and began to make out with you heavily on the table, your hands went into his hair bringing his face closer to yours. Tugging on the strands of his hair and he let out a low grunt of your name, that was all it took. You needed him.

"Want you." You whispered to him and he swallowed the lump that was forming in his throat nodding and looking at you as you shifted to the edge of the table spreading your legs open for him, it wasn't the most hygienic of places for this to happen but neither of you cared right now. You needed one another and you weren't going to waste time calling a taxi to take you home. Your shaky hands undid his belt and dropped his pants to the floor and he began kissing you again, he laid your back flat against the table gently, 

"C-Changbin," You whispered looking into his eyes as he pulled away from the kiss, his breathing was laboured and he looked at you as he slowly slipped two fingers into your heat, he didn't even give you a second to get used to it as he began to finger you. Your back arched off the table and you moaned out his name clenching around his fingers. He groaned watching you with lust in his eyes as you clenched around his fingers he just kept imagining what you would feel like around him, crying out his name whenever he'd hit that sweet spot of yours. 

"Good?" He chuckled adding another finger into your heat, your hands gripped onto the edges of the table as your toes curled as you felt him hitting your g-spot, 

"R-Really good Binnie!" You whimpered feeling overwhelmed with him finally taking you, it was everything you'd wanted and everything he’d always wanted/

"I want you though Binnie, all of you," You whispered seductively, he slipped his fingers out of you and began pumping himself in his hand to slick himself in your arousal as he watched you rub your clit for him.

“Need you Binnie,” You moaned out making eye contact with him as he pumped himself faster at the thought of being inside of you, the amount of times he’d done this in his apartment. Thinking about you while jerking himself off was unimaginable. 

"S-Shit, you're so fucking beautiful." He grunted lining himself up at your entrance, he looked at you asking for approval and you nodded as he slowly sank into you. 

"A-ah fuck," He grunted as your nails dug into his biceps, he sank all the way into you and held himself still as he felt your pussy clenching around him needly sucking him into you. 

"You're so tight," His comment made you whimper and he chuckled seeing you like this, you'd done nothing but tease and flirt all evening but now you were beneath him begging for him to move. The sounds you were making drove him wild and he slowly began thrusting into you, pulling you further off the edge of the table to angle himself deeper.

He hooked one of your legs over your shoulder and held you in place on the table thrusting roughly into you.

"Shit! Changbin!" You cried out hands desperate to hold back onto him to steady yourself from falling off the table. He kissed you passionately as he continued to fuck into you with small yet powerful thrusts. 

You knew you weren't going to last long, you'd dreamt of this moment happening for months and here it was. 

"I'm close Changbin," You moaned out to him and it only made him more animalistic, his hips began snapping in and out of you at an unspeakable pace that had your head spinning. You cried out his name as he took his thumb and began rubbing your sensitive clit, he wanted to feel you cum around him. 

"S-Shit!" You screamed feeling your high hitting you and pushing through you intensely, your legs shook as you came around him and he continued fucking into you. 

"I-I'm cumming!" You whimpered hips bucking so hard that the table was starting to shake and wobble beneath you both. Changbin grunted thrusting into you one last time and burying himself deep inside as he came into you filling you up as he moaned out your name.

You stay there for a couple of minutes with him still inside of you trying to catch your breath and come down from the highs. 

"Whoa," You whispered once you were both cleaned up and the table was cleaned. 

"That's all you have to say?" He chuckled coming over to you, your ass was pressed against the table as he wrapped his arm around you. 

"What do you want me to say? 'Thank God It's Friday?'" You stared at him and he shook his head at you softly placing a kiss on both cheeks before leaving one on your lips.

"No, I want you to say that you'll come home with me tonight." You nodded at him, 

"Then I'll go home with you tonight." You whispered to him leaning forward and giving him another kiss, 

"But first I have to delete the camera footage from the main office." You told him as you pointed up at the CCTV cameras in the restaurant. 

A/n: This was written last night so if there’s any mistakes I’m sorry but I love this and I loved the idea when @taestannie​ came to me with it and I just had to do this

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