#cj alone with my thoughts

[cj-versary]

Happy 3rd Birthday to Alone With My Thoughts!!!!

[cosmically-kissed]

Day 2‼️‼️

Speed paint below (flash warning)

[feathered-cat]

Day 2 - Astral

[blu00u]

brotherly comfort at midnight :]

Day 2 of Jashtober: Astral!!!

they are siblings your honor

(note: please don't tag as jashipping, I like to see them as good friends in a sibling way)

[misternibbs]

tell me that I still have stars in my eyes

(jashzine art! read under cut to find link to twt post :3)

EYYYYYYYY JASHZINE IS OUT BAHBAY THAT'S RIGHT. HOLY FUCKING JASHBALLS. I'LL LINK IT WHEN I FIND THE POST FOR IT ON HERE BUT UNTIL THEN HERE'S THE TWITTER POST yyyeeeeEEEEAHHHHHHH CHAT WOOOOOOO

in all seriousness I feel so honoured to be featured alongside some really, REALLY TALENTED PEOPLE. LIKE HOLY BALLS. MY ART DOESN'T NEARLY COMPARE TO . EVERYONE ELSE'S DUDE LIKE. OUGHHHHHHHH FUCK EVERYONE'S SO FUCKIN TALENTED AND TOTALLY TUBULAR I CAN'T. honestly I shouldn't be here, think I walked into the wrong building. I suck balls this art fucking. I fucking loathe this piece anyways here's the progress

(^^^^ alt colour version. should've gone with this everypony we were ROBBED it fits the song more. Aughhhhhh)

and before you get on my ass for his body type being so fucking wrong here's a doodle I did around the time I was working on this with a more correct body type. I unironically think it's better (plus you get closeup on face)

again, please check out the jashzine, AND FOLLOW !!! FOLLOW THE ARTISTS !!!! WHO DID THE ART !!!!!! PLEASE THEY'RE SO SO SO SO COOL AND TALENTED OH MY GOD PLEASSSEEEEEEEE thanks for reading this btw comment "teapot" down below if you reached this point in the video hhahah fucking . kill me

[charamuscadmango]

Day 5 Angel

[sneeb-canons]

Headcanon #500:

Mind is afraid that when he distances himself from or above the others, that he will be too far gone to come back down. That when his paranoia gets the best of him, he'll shut everyone else out and then be completely alone with no way back to where he was before.

Heart is afraid that if Mind is right, with the idea that what he does isn't genuine, that he's being manipulative without realizing it. Then therefore being Whole without himself there is the better option. That he'd be thrown out because his ideas would then be "not worth it" or even "vile"

Soul is afraid that no matter what he does or how good things will be, they'll always eventually split up again or even end up worse. Even then he has no clue what he's supposed to do or be during everything, and so because of that he'll never be whole. Or worse that he'll never really "feel" whole.

[six-six-cicada]

This will be my final entry,

I'm tired, I'm done, I'm empty.

My spirit's all but left me.

The end of the universe doesn't impress me.

[actuallylorelaigilmore]

realized this morning while crying in bed that i've needed a break from my life for a long time now and i'm the only member of my family who can't have a proper one so that was a pretty existentially depressing moment

[tblsomedoodles]

i had. an idea.

so. here me out.

This would be for the canon, non-seer Clara that would be, in fact, raised by Donnie. instead of the really sad version i had been on the fence about, i have this!

Clara lives. She gets to the end like with Mikey, Leo, and CJ. She is, in fact, sent through the time portal with CJ. but when she went through it, it went a bit wonky, sending her a year further back then she should have. And right into the middle of Big Mama's office.

So Clara, knowing from stories, that Big Mama had a habit of throwing people into arenas, decides the best course of action is to make herself too valuable for Big Mama to do so.

So she makes Big Mama think she's a Doom Prophet. She knows enough about the future (her past) to pull it off. Big Mama, wanting that knowledge, decides to keep her close as her assistant, doing so by having Clara sign a mystic contract.

Clara plays along, though she really doesn't have much say in the matter. It was either this or the arena and she wouldn't be able to stop an apocalypse from there. She's also not quite ready to face those younger versions of her father and uncles so pretending to be the exceptionally loyal but silent assistant to Big Mama worked out best at the time. (even if both her and Big Mama knew it was a farce. Clara will insult/make faces/be a general annoyance to Big Mama whenever there's no one else in the room. The only think keeping her safe is the fact that Big Mama thinks she's a seer and, thus, too valuable to just get rid of.(there also might be something in the contract keeping her from harm. i'll have to think on that.))

But yeah, Clara accidentally ending up as Big Mama's Assistant anyone?

[synthshenanigans]

is this where u got ur username from. chonny jash solmwit

Whaaat? Noooooooo, why would I ever base my username on some random nerds music? Nah, no, never. Not at all

That's crazy, that's such a crazy idea. I would NEVER do something like that

[terri-theslime13]

Made some fanart for Alone With My thoughts cause I listened to Covered in Discontent for the first time the other day and it spoke to me :3

I haven't gotten artistic inspiration like this for a long time, so thanks Chonny, I really like the song

[love-3-crimes]

THEY CANCELED CLASSES AGAIN NOOOO GET ME OUT OF THIS DORM

(^^ is surprised as if its not supposed to be -13º F tomorrow)

[teriri-sayes]

Reactions to The Light's Chapter 445

Brief summary: Cale to the rescue. And suffering.

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I was expecting an action chapter, but got angst and pain. 😭 CJS was indeed tortured, and his thoughts while in pain were sad.

If the worst pain you feel every time you get hurt is not the physical pain, but the psychological one. Then Choi Jung Soo might have opened his mouth. When he realized that all his relatives and family members were dead. The pain Choi Jung Soo felt was so deep and great that he still couldn't fathom it. But when he was really dying. 'I saved him.' No, not that he saved him, but whatever. You saved Kim Rok Soo then, didn't you? “…Fools.” You don't understand. That was the first time Choi Jung Soo tried to change fate. But would he kneel down after feeling that pain dozens of times? He couldn't kneel. It would be a betrayal of what he had done in the past. The least Choi Jung Soo could do was bow his head because of this pain. “…You're stubborn.” “Yes, I am, and I know it.”

CJS didn't regret dying to save KRS. 😭😭😭

Meanwhile, Sound of the Wind began exclaiming that the divine item she smelled must be destroyed because it was disgusting. She was referring to the divine item that took the form of a music box with a rotating eye sculpture that Hitelis had.

And this alarmed Cale, realizing that CJS was in danger from that divine item.

Cale studied his body, suppressing the urgency. If it's bad, if it's urgent. Because I will use all my powers, ancient power or the others. Lee Soo Hyuk and Choi Jung Soo. The Chaos God Cult. These bastards, I can't leave them alone. Unlike the coolness of the atmosphere around him, Cale's eyes flared up. Seeing this, Sui Khan's expression also slowly hardened. 'What happened?' Something must have happened that he didn't recognize. 'Kim Rok Soo- no, Cale, his eyes have gone crazy?' Kim Rok Soo, the newbie and weakest, the one who always rushed in without fail with eyes rolled back. Seeing those eyes, team leader Sui Khan unknowingly put his hand on his sword sheath. I have to do something.

Angry and anxious Cale. 😭 On the other hand, Sui's accident radar must be going wild when he saw Cale's crazed look.

The divine item's effect was like something out of a cosmic horror genre. A music box that played when the victim's blood was dropped in the closed eye centerpiece. As "music" played when the centerpiece opened its eye, the victim would feel the gazes of tens of thousands of eyes staring at them while feeling a maddening chaos.

Choi Jung Soo felt his mind becoming overwhelmed with chaos. He felt like something big was going to happen if this continued. He felt like he was about to reach an end worse than death. But, 'You're late, you punk!' He felt goosebumps all over his body. ♩♬♪. It wasn't the goosebumps he felt at the beginning of this music, the goosebumps from the tens of thousands of piercing eyes. A familiar feeling. This power was wilder than usual. Something vaguely similar, but different from the chaotic horror. This one was filled with an aura of domination. '…You punk!' Kim Rok Soo. Cale. A friend had come.

Cale finally arrived! And he's super angry! DA + Chaotic Terror skill when he has yet to enter the prison. But for CJS, he was relieved that his "friend" had come to save him. 🥰

Ending Remarks I did not expect the suffering today. 😭 Next chapter would be Cale probably beating up Hitelis for what she did to CJS. I guess Cale would run wild to the point of destroying the entire castle.

[angelpuns]

More thoughts about Todd Au:

I think Leo didn't get his mask til Post S2 ( cause he got it from Splinter ). Also his whole thing during the movie is that he's like ' I'm definitely not ready for this responsibility cause how am I supposed to keep my brothers safe??' And Splinter, who is finally starting to see Leo as his son is like ' ah you'll be fine ' ( spoiler, he was not fine )

Anyway his reaction to the movie is also v different. When CJ yells at him, its not really a stubborn sort of reaction of ' I told them I couldn't be the leader' he just literally starts sobbing. I think there's more of a focus on like Leo's feelings of doubt. Which he's never really doubted himself before this, since Todd has always been so supportive of him, but since Splinter is so different, and this is such a different kind of responsibility, its like the most stressful thing he's ever been through

Anyway here's some doodles:

Also some Post Horrors ideas :) idk what's gonna happen during the movie just yet but I miiiiight keep him in there. Like haha you're finally accepting your full family ( Splinter included ) and now you're alone :)

[urautismdiagnosis-wistie]

what even is this old salty meow meow & old mossy hop pop

one (1) person (edit: 4 people by the time I finished making the post) said they wanted my calico jack and ranger marsh doodles and while I dont feel like giving full context I just wanna say that AAAAUUUUGGHHHKKKJJHHHGHH I LOVE THEMMMM ans also thoughts about regrets about life choices, isolation, and changing the way you live to allow others in your life and be happier

Idk if they're like Really Good Friends or what

(Also cj is a gremlin to people who aren't younger than him, he plays up this (mischievious) wet meow meow ahh persona cuz hes lonely as hell ) (also marsh is just dealing with this feral stray cat who forced himself into his life and he's just questioning his life choices while he was already having a mid life crisis)

Also cj is NOT a "poor old sweet meow meow" hes filled with trauma LMSO and marsh is just thr most autistic old guy ever

Kwazii imemdiatly had a flashback to his childhood and understood what cj was doing (charming up marsh) purely based off of his VIBES while standing silently ... he's not judging but like??? Srsly tweaks DAD out of all people??? They're actually both 50s. Marsh is just there like well ill be damned by meomi if I don't admit this is just my life now mo

More under cut

Cjs ex (they divorced amicably) found marsh eith this feral cat man at the 7/11 gas station... She has her theories.

He knows what he's doing....

Marsh is so tired bro, but this is his first time having like an actual friend 💀 like one he can connect with emotionally yk?

This guy is legit just a stray cat that decided to enter fr (his dead wife told him to get a grip and quit being such a loner in his dreams. They talk every Tuesday night and he heard her voice on the wind.... HES NOT CRAZY YOU ARE)

I will annoy you until you're so annoyed you love me. Because bro u look so sad being stubborn and alone, and if u keep only talking to wild animals ur gonna end up like me :3 also dang bro u make some good mac n cheesecan I have some

Hess shyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and also doesn't know how to be vulnerable or express his needs-

To clarify whats happening here: cats (and alot of other species) mostly just do lil groom links to the face (like a mom to their child) or on the top of thr hand (super romantic, trust) but since cj was in the amazon for like nearly a decade or wtv hes kinda just lost normal people understanding lol... still a very kind and patient soul but damn if he isn't annoying when he wants to be

Two bros chilling on the front porch in the morning (doing that old man silent stare into the sky) less than 5 inches apart cuz theyre not g-

If u made it this far like congrats I guess if u guys want me to be insane more often lmk ig

... ok but funny joke I made is just "oh me oh my meomi" I think thats great anyways cringe is dead and I am free but pls don't judge me still 💀

If yall want to know more of my thoughts on them lmk ig???