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WILL WOOD IS SOMEHOE ALL 5 OF MY TOP ARTISTS THIS WEEK 😭😭😭

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Got a new phone. I now have .5 and a phone number.

But one of the things I don't have is @nayomi247 's number BECAUSE SHES NOT TEXTING ME BACK ON SNAP.

And I know damn well she's either writing or on this app. What a freaking nerd

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NAYOMI WONT GIVE ME MY FUCKING PROHRAM BACK

@nayomi247 I HATE YOUUUU >:(

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Pov nayomi has notifications on and sees this

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Masculine urge to go on a rant about everything I love about every single Will Wood song and every single difference between the live songs and non-live songs. The differences in emotions and just asiskqjqyahsjqsuvsgahahoa

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"My mom's not abusive or anything. BUUUT-"

I say right before explain how my mother used to (and still does) gaslight me, manipulate me, force me to depend on her and love her, how she used to punish my siblings and I for shit KIDS DO when we WERE KIDS, how she would punish us for doing this out of our control, and she would deny my feelings, how she indirectly taught me how to be a terrible person and now (unfortunatly) I catch myself doing stuff she used to do to me, spoiled me, CHILDHOOD OBESITY, would buy me nice things and then use that to get her way, does the bare minimum and asks for praises and rewards, never showed me how to express myself properly, force me to do things I wasn't comfortable with (nothing sexual, just things that would trigger me), laugh at my feelings, laughing at my weaknesses, laughing at my failures till I had social anxiety and am genuinely so scared of messing up or having a terrible first impression, indirectly taught me how to codependent instead of independant, shamed me for expressing myself, never taught me how to cook or clean or do anything I need to do.

But it's alright because she tells me she loves me instead of apologizing 🤭☺️

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SUNNY FROM IF WAHHH I LOVE HIMMM

I LOVE HIMMMMM RAHHHGGH

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I think screaming cicada days as loud as I can would heal me.

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PRAISE THE LORD

THIS BITCH I HATE IS OUT OF SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF YEAR

THIS MUST BE A SIGN TO CONVERT BACK TO THE LORD

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5 below has the absolute best care bear stuff ever. +it's cheap.

I get most my stuff from 5 below.

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Do you think it's a coincidence you've never seen me and a vampire in the same room?

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Having both Cicada Days and Cicada Days Live is so healing. I love hearing the difference in emotions in each of them.

Like in the live one when Will's screaming "let all my red flags fade to white , yah I give up" I sounds genuinely done. And when he says "I'll only take what I gave okay ill pack my stuff" sounds like he's ready for things to finally be done. And when he says "and here at the end of days my God what have I done" sounds like he reflecting and regretting everything.

Contrast to the non-live one, when he says "let all my red flags fade to white yeah I give up" he sounds angry. "I'll only take what I gave okay I'll pack my stuff" he sounds like he just doing what people tell him too. "Here at the end of days my God what have I done" It's like he's asking someone during an argument why, trying to find reason in what's happened to him and why he's being treated these ways.

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Had a vision while half asleep on my way home from the movies.

A Broadway singer who listens to heavy metal falls in love with a metal singer who listens to Broadway

(it's totally not because i have a mixed genre playlist)

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Imma be real, when I google "How the fuck do I lose weight" and a skinny person with no proof of ever being my size tells me that a fuck ton of push-ups and a smoothie will make me look like them, I'm not gunna believe it.

But when a slightly chubbier person and proof of being my size tells me a fuck ton of push ups and smoothie will help me look like them, I'm gunna do a fuck ton of push ups and drink a smoothie

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I WAS GUNNA POST SOMETHING BUT I FORGOT WHAT I WAS GINNA SAY

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