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This is the Nugget of Friendship.

It is not given lightly. Yet I give it to you.

Yes. I mean YOU.

Now shoo.

Pass on the Nugget of Friendship

Much appreciated my friend.

Allow me to send it on to my b r o s.

@bigbrain411

@the-ultimate-puppteer

@spiritoflife22-blog

@oxyotl

[feifei-nor]

｡:❁ 𝒯𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓃𝒶𝓇𝒾 ❁:｡

“ Don't be afraid to make mistakes “

Dividers by: @sylusz and @hyuneskkami

Tighnari in heat - @oni-gori

NSFW // pretty much what the titel says

Perfect match - @contentloadingandstuff

NSFW // Tighnari x tighnarian!reader

[whumpty-dumpty]

I saw this whump alphabet by @contentloadingandstuff and was looking through my own tags for whump words. I didn't have any for the letters X and Y so I thought maybe there are German whump words I could use. So I asked ChatGPT and look what it suggested 😂😂:

My favourites are

1. Xylophone accident

6. Knock-kneed fall

8. Xylit suffocation

And

3. Yoga accident

5. Ytong crash

7. Yucca cut injury

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I really hope John MiHoyo won't ban me for this...

(Edit: fixed a mistake)

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What would you like to see in Equals III?

Since Equals isn't really meant to be a proper narrative like Mortuarius (if anybody still remembers it - by the way, a remake from ground up is in the works), I'm very open to requests when it comes to topics and interactions. I think it would have more potential as a sort of AU for me to write in. So, comment down below or throw your ideas into the asks - as always, I will look into each one.

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Progress update for Equals IV

The event plan, as well as certain scenes are done and let me tell you - this will be something unlike what I've ever written before. A step higher that "The Fox and the Hare", two steps higher than Yoimiya's Dark Days fic. I think that, to maintain whatever is left of the decorum, I will refrain from including detailed descriptions of what happens to Reader/Factorial in the final cut. I believe graphic descriptions are important to conveying just how evil his treatment was, but they are not by any means obligatory. That's why I will post a "clean" version of Equals when it's done; the content will still be there, but exact descriptions will be skipped so you don't have to read them. If there is any interest - I'm not sure how I would feel if there were any - I will post the uncensored version separately for anybody to read at their own discretion.

Whichever version you will decide to read when the time comes, know that it is whump and first - it's not for everyone, second - you won't have to read part IV to get the story as it's purpose is to show a slice of Reader's/Factorial's life. You can just let your imagination do the work instead.

Whatever the case, Equals IV is cooking and turning into quite a poisonous brew.

[oxyotl]

@contentloadingandstuff @strwbmei

online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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BIRTHDAY!

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Another year has passed under the mark of sadness, struggle, depression, and low self esteem. Things haven't gotten better, they've gotten worse. Even despite many valiant efforts, I remain weak. For now.

But!

Today is a special day. One when I get to eat good food, drink alcohol, get money because nobody knows what my interests are (not that I'm complaining) and eat a single slice of my birthday cake, as I can't take much sweets without feeling nauseus.

Speaking of cake, here's how mine looks like today.

I don't know who the original art belongs to, as I didn't check it. I just wanted a nice art of Shinobu, and here it is. Beautiful. Even though the Shinobu inclusion on contentloadingandstuff is fairly small, she's still the best. Masked girls 4ever.

I got money. It's too much to just spend it on what makes me happy, so I will have to buy something actually valuable and keep it for a rainy day.

But regardless, I wish myself a few things - to pass my finals with at least crawling colors, to be a little happier when I celebrate my birthday next time, and hopefully find a woman who won't emotionally gut me this time.

And, first and foremost, so I have the opportunity to be here and celebrate it again next year.

Thank you for being with me for the second time! It's hard to believe this blog is already two years old...

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Ideas Poll

Basically, what it says on the tin - I have ideas, I'll focus on the one that you pick. I thought that, since due to university I haven't been able to write that much, I would do this to give you something in return for being patient with my posting schedule - or lack thereof.

To the option that wins I will dedicate more time. That doesn't mean the rest is going into the trash, of course!

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Reading time 📖

It's not often I share my hobbies outside of writing but, since it's fairly quiet as I work on multiple fics simultaneously, I might as well.

As you see, I've bought myself two works - the controversial "Lolita" by Vladimir Nabokov in English and "Maus" by Art Spiegelman, which is the more controversial text. I'll explain why shortly.

Let's start with "Lolita" since it's easier to talk about. I bought this book after listening to the video analysis by the creator Horses (link to the video here) to develop my own opinion about it. The book is both a memoir and statement for the judge written by the protagonist, convicted of abducting and assaulting a twelve year old girl - the titular "lolita". It has been misinterpreted as praise or glorification of pedophilic tendencies, but it is - just as "Crime And Punishment" by Fiodor Dostojewski but without the retribution - an analysis of a criminal's mind.

I'm looking forward to the lecture of Humbert Humbert's attempt to justify his behaviour to the world, the opposite of what I feel towards "Maus".

My payment of the 80 zł ( around 20$, 19€ or 16£) I spent on this collection of comics was a reluctant one. The premise is harmless enough (for lack of a better term). This set of comics describes the life and experiences of the author's father during the Holocaust, with a twist - here, the characters are portrayed as animals based on their ethnicity. The Jews are mice, and the Germans - cats. Simple idea of predator and prey, of the murder and the victim. But there are also other nationalities. Americans are noble dogs, the Swedes are reindeer, the Gypsies are moths, the British are fish (though I'm not sure why) and their southern neighbours are - as comedic tradition dictates - frogs.

What about the Poles then? They are swine.

What's more, the book's antipolonism shows time and time again. Poles are portrayed as antisemitic, cooperative towards the German occupants, impulsive, violent and cruel. There is little positive mention of them, and Spiegelman himself admitted that his father had little good to say about his countrymen and did nothing to give the nation justice. The incidents of wartime and post-war antisemitism are not portrayed as single crimes punishable by law, but as ordinary and acceptable occurrences.

Normally I enjoy delving into the annals of the second world war's horrific history, but unlike the other books I've read so far, this one seems to be written with a political intent, debatable as it is. Maus seems to share the same contemptible niche in Polish culture as Neighbours and Golden Harvest, alongside all of the other detestable excuses of historical journalism by Jan T. Gross. What these works share is their - subliminal or not - distrust and borderline disgust towards Poles as a nation. I am planning to review both books when I'm done with them here on the blog (regardless of whether there is any interest in it), so I will save my "ammunition", as they say, for then. I will however mention that the nation is, in terms of Righteous Amongst The Nations awards, the leader with exactly 7177 awards granted, the Netherlands second in with 5910. This is telling just by itself, doesn't it? Regardless, every experience is valuable, even if the author's intentions are questionable.

Again, I know this is far more serious than my usual content, consisting of silly x reader fics, but I find them interesting enough to mention. I hope you don't mind!

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Joaquin Phoenix? Heath Ledger? Maybe Cesar Romero? Nah. Only one man may be the original Joker.

There hasn't been a post in some time now, for which I'm sorry. I have just moved to the capital yesterday and settled into my own flat for my studies, beginning in a few days. It's been a little hectic, and writing is what takes the hit as a result... Still, I miss talking to you folks, so I'll open the inbox.

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Finds: Trash Can Chongyun

What I discovered while getting back home. Behold.

A dirty bus stop and an even more filthy trash can, with a sticker of the Cryo exorcist slapped on.

My first question was obviously why? My first answer - out of malice. Somebody dislikes the game and decides to show it by doing this. But it wouldn't make sense, would it? Buying a sticker and an even more expensive delivery just to stick it to a garbage can. Perhaps the person got a hold of this sticker from their sibling or somebody and, to spite them, decided to place the character "where they belong". This brings another question of whether this person wasn't familiar or interested in Genshin Impact itself and just did this specifically to mess with their sibling, or decides that, if they like the game, then it must be stupid.

Chances are it's one of the above. But what about a more positive reason?

Maybe the person just bought the stickers in bulk and didn't know what to do with this one. Maybe it was just a random desire to slap it on, perhaps hoping that someone will notice. And so I did.

This gave me an idea for a sticker/piece of art/in-game emote with a chibi Chongyun in either a) a trash can with his head poking out, the lid on top of it, chonky hands gripping the edge and those puppy eyes on his face or b) Chongyun sitting on the floor, legs spread, leaning against hands placed together between them with the trash can kis on his head and crying. It would be cute both ways, I'm not going to lie.

To sweeten this for all fans of my boy Chongyun, here's a picture of Socks looking majestically sleepy after devastating my desk, toppling over my Lipton, scattering my sister's Cheetos all over the room and now sitting on Lego without batting an eyelid.

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An Important Notice About Asks

Hello, everybody!

The asks on contentloadingandstuff are somewhat renowned for being many. Very many. How many exactly? Take a look.

Now, when I opened my asks back in summer of last year, a kind soul asked me if I was alright after getting a hundred asks, because if they were in my place, they would be freaking out about how to get them all done. I told them that I was alright. After almost a whole year I can definetely say that I am, in fact, not alright.

Recently, as you might have picked up on in my non-fic posts, I have been suffering the worst case of writer's block yet, coupled with a hissy and agressive impostor syndrome.

Why am I writing this when I should be doing asks? Look at this, you're making OC content while two hundred people are waiting for their fics to be done. These kinds of statements rummage around in my mind on a daily basis, wearing me out and making me stress about something that, in theory, should be fun.

So I decided to start anew. To refresh my thoughts, stop dwelling on the same ideas for months on end, and primarily - stop stressing about getting things written. To give the kind of attention I provide for each fic for every one of the 221 ideas, I would have to be here for ages to come. I would have to make content, not write.

And so, I will give myself a Tabula Rasa - a clean slate. As axious as it will leave me, I will need to drop the backlog of asks to catch my breath and hopefully climb out of my writing depression.

I don't want any of you wonderful people taking this to heart, alright? Your ideas are good, they are perfectly valid, but looking at the same selection of WIPs and stressing about getting them done is draining for me.

Hopefully, this will help lift off the pressure and expectations I have imposed upon myself and help me find more motivation to write, as the content loop I have created for myself has more than exhausted me.

And so, a new season of asks is now open. Ask for anything, everything, or nothing - whichever you prefer, dear reader. If you want to be as precise as possible, you can include the format you think would be best for your idea (refer to this poll for the format types). Here are the rules too, so you don't have to make a thorough investigation of the blog to find them.

As usual, thank you for putting up with me! You're wonderful!

[oxyotl]

Ispkant

…sigh

Wait how would I pronounce that? “Is-can’t”?

@contentloadingandstuff @strwbmei

YOUR DRAGON NAME

last two letters of your first name

middle two letters of your last name

first two letters of your mother’s name

last letter of your father’s name

mine would be Urlelan. Reblog and tag this with yours!

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Out of all the genshin girls, which of them do you think are the easiest to overstimulate?

There's plenty of candidates for sure. Ganyu, who sometimes comes just from putting it in, or Nilou, who's endurance isn't that great and just a bit too much clit rubbing will get her squirming in your hands. Still, I think Sara will top the charts.

She's a tough woman ready for tough challenges, but gentleness and pleasure? That's where she's completely vulnerable. Fingering, eating her out or fucking her, even as gently as possible, will end with Sara gripping the bedsheets as her body overloads with sensations, screaming at you to both stop and go faster, go harder. It's even more intense when you hold her still, be it with your strong arms or some rope. Stripped of control, all she can do is moan, whine, tremble and lock her legs around you as you bury yourself deep in her folds. Sara tends to cry then - but those are tears of absolute satisfaction.

(I hope I'm doing this right lol)

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First day at my new university and boy, I can tell that after just a few weeks all that will be left of me - a wet, worn out rag of a person.