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I see @eponymous-rose doing these sometimes and I've always thought it was so much fun, so here's a Day in the Life of a clinical Associate Professor™. For reference, I've been seeing patients & teaching at my current university since finishing my residency almost a decade (!!!!!) ago.

9:30 - 10:00 - Precious precious office hours, spent answering emails from students, colleagues, and a guest speaker from a national organization I'm trying to coordinate an event for in two weeks. Everything's lined up except the venue (all our regular lecture halls are booked), and of course we discover this just outside his window to refund his airline tickets. Rats.

10:00 - 12:00 - Clinical lab! I'm coursemaster for two complex lecture/lab courses in the spring (protip: never let admin do this to you), so right now I spend most of my week in the classroom. Friday AMs are my advanced procedures lab, & today the students are doing intradermal and subcutaneous injections of the forearm and eyelid. This course can be really scary for them, so I go to a lot of effort to get them mentally and emotionally prepped, practicing approach and needle manipulation, etc. All of them do wonderfully, and even after cleanup and taking the biohazard bag down to disposal, I'm out on time.

12:00-1:00 - Guest faculty candidate lecture! Our full-time faculty has been down by about five people for a few years, and we also have three more of our remaining full-timers out on medical leave until late February, so we are hurting for help. This applicant gives a phenomenal talk on diversity and optometric scope across the several continents she's taught in over the last twenty years. It's an extraordinary talk and I honestly learn more geography than I expected.

1:00 - 2:30 - Lecture! Advanced procedures lecture to the third-year class, usually the only barrier between them and their weekend. I really like today's lecture and it goes well, and even the chronic dozers in the side seats stay awake.

2:30 - 2:45 - Intended to be an interview/tour with the faculty applicant, except here comes the first wrench. Just as she gets to my office, the colleague delivering the speaker lets me know she's having tech trouble with her Zoom-in guest lecturer and also there's a very upset student in the hall outside the classroom. I go down with her right away; student is okay, just got some very bad news, and when I'm sure they're settled with their friends & support system I help the colleague with the tech.

2:45-3:10 - Tour finally happens! The students we encounter are chipper and cheerful (not always the case in practical season!).

3:10-4:00 - Meeting with my clinic coordinator to prep for next week's practicals. My other big course this semester caps with a high-stakes clinical entrance exam; in essence, the students must perform a complete, independent eye examination from start to finish, and they can't enter clinic with "real" patients until they pass. The setup & scheduling for this practical (which runs over three weeks) is probably the most complicated logistical nightmare of my year. However, my coordinator is amazing, and within the hour she has a detailed list of both her tasks and mine and will report back as each prep step is done.

4:00-5:00 - Desperately trying to finish this schedule, answer my most urgent calls from patients, and finish some time-sensitive grading. Another colleague comes by and asks what I thought of the guest speaker, and when I say I didn't get much time in my interview with her, she suggests I tag along to the faculty dinner with her tonight at 5:45. A fantastic idea! I'll just wear what I have on, yeah?

The faculty dinner is at a five-star steakhouse. I'm wearing scrubs and a pullover.

It's okay, I have time to make it home and change! I can make it!

5:15 - I accidentally overwrite 90% of my completed schedule with an old, mostly blank copy, and don't realize it until after saving multiple times (I was on a different tab in the spreadsheet).

5:15 - 5:45 - Meticulously recreate the schedule as quickly as I can. I've already emailed out some assignments to the students, so I can't start over from scratch (which would have honestly been faster). Finally finish & send out the details to needed parties.

5:45 - 6:35 - race home, feed the dog, change into slacks and my favorite blazer, race out to the steakhouse.

6:35 - 8:30 - I arrive just before the salads come out, hallelujah! I have the best steak I've ever eaten in my life, as well as have a fantastic conversation with the candidate and the other faculty. The time honestly flies by, and when I realize what time it is I'm feeling very guilty about leaving the dog. Still, I'm sure she'll be a fantastic fit for the program, and it's honestly a relief to have my questions about some of her experience answered.

8:50 - home at last, at last!

8:51 - I discover my fly has been unzipped all night.

8:52 - 9:00 - I indulge in paroxysms of shame until I rationalize that the restaurant was incredibly dim, I was sitting the whole time, and my undies are also black. It's fine. It's fine. It's fine.

9:00 - now - hot bath, a book of poetry, and a double bourbon. After today, I feel like I've earned it.

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G1 >>💰 Curso Dominando o Drop Funciona? WALALCE RESENDE

Uh oh, bom? Meu nome é Luis e cá eu preciso apresentar uma auditoria totalidade sobre o Curso Mastering Drop.

Realiza levante trabalho de estratégia? E mais, vale a pena a especulação? Estas e diferentes respostas que vos darei nos próximos momentos.

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O que é o Curso de Dominando Drop?

O Curso de Mastering Drop é uma preparação web feita por Wallace Resende que instrui uma vez que fazer um negócio em irrefutavelmente o protótipo de terceirização zero.

Ou seja, não faz diferença na hipótese de nunca ter feito um negócio na web, ou na hipótese de não ter a mais nebulosa teoria de uma vez que funciona o drop.

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Tudo considerado, o Mastering Drop Course irá ajudá-lo a fazer a sua loja sem qualquer preparação e escalá-la para depreender resultados extremamente surpreendentes.

O curso está totalmente na web e você pode ir às aulas de qualquer lugar e sempre que quiser.

Através deste protótipo, vários brasileiros descobriram uma vez que se transformar em termos orçamentários.

As pessoas convencionais começaram a lucrar milhões através da web.

Porquê funciona o curso de Dominando Drop?

O curso de Mastering Drop é um MBA genuíno para os indivíduos que precisam trabalhar com outsourcing. Ao prepará-lo, você se aproxima um pouco a pouco da melhor maneira de se beneficiar deste mercado.

Tudo o que é problemático, no que diz saudação à terceirização, está disponível no curso. O método mais eficiente para escolher itens, uma vez que montar a sua loja, promover em Anúncios Faciais, utilizar os melhores aparelhos, e assim por diante.

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Cá em ordinário vou discutir tudo o que está disponível no Mastering Drop e você pode perceber uma vez que o curso está realmente terminado.

O que você vai aprender no curso de Dominando Drop?

O Curso de Mastering Drop tem realmente uma grande quantidade de substância. Desta forma, respire fundo e olhe para tudo o que você vai admitir nos próximos dias:

Compreender uma vez que funciona o outsourcing e as suas ideias fundamentais.

Porquê montar a sua loja e fazer a sua estrutura.

Conhecendo a temporada Shopify.

Configurando e acrescentando todos os aumentos para mecanizar o procedimento.

Ajustando a superfície da sua loja, aplicações e porta de parcelamento.

Porquê fazer uma página de negócios e um logotipo para a sua loja.

Encontrar potenciais fornecedores e itens.

Produzir o seu superintendente de negócios, transferir e investigar esforços.

Analisando resultados, fazendo multidões e racionalizando esforços.

Preços de itens: folhas de cômputo para ajudar e organizar o seu negócio.

Porquê ajudar a sua loja.

Descarregar documentos, gravações e gifs para fazer continuar os seus itens.

Profissionalizar a sua loja.

Há uma visão significativa sobre a totalidade disto que você aprenderá. O Wallace não lhe mostrará, hipoteticamente, uma vez que fazer isso.

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Não, ele fará praticamente tudo o que ele educar. Você vai vê-lo fazendo isso e você pode simplesmente segui-lo.

Essencialmente, você será guiado em cada momento e em cada progressão para se beneficiar da terceirização.

Acessando o Curso de Drop Realmente Funciona?

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Muito muito, você definitivamente sabe muito sobre o Curso de Mastering Drop, mas agora é uma grande oportunidade para saber o mais significativo: a estratégia realmente funciona?

Há somente um único método para chegar a esta solução: dissecar as consequências dos subestudos de Wallace.

Os indivíduos que se encontravam numa situação semelhante à de trazer numerário da pinga?

Isto é o mais significativo, uma vez que, sabendo isto, você pode supor que terá a opção de obter resultados uma vez que eles.

E mais, muito, cá só tenho notícias edificantes para lhe dar. O curso de Mastering Drop tem alguns tributos que indicam que a estratégia funciona.

Há impressões digitais e mais impressões de substitutos que fazem um grande número de dólares com pinga.

E mais, olha, não estou a discutir uma sentimento do dedo de um pacto em lado nenhum.

Estou discutindo a cobrança em um número enorme de reais (6 dígitos), uma vez que deveria ser óbvio nas fotos.

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No momento em que você vê estes resultados genuínos, é praticamente inconcebível não se visualizar em uma estado semelhante. Você abre o seu telefone e vê os ajustes altos dessa forma.

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Estes números são a prova. Prova sólida de que com o Curso de Mastering Drop é concebível fazer um negócio de resultados praticamente inconcebíveis.

Estes indivíduos, que tiraram estas impressões, não têm zero de invulgar.

Eles somente seguiram uma técnica, pouco a pouco.

Assim, em meio mês, eles puderam ver esses números entrando em seus saldos financeiros.

No caso de estarem a considerar ter estes resultados da mesma forma, sugiro que se registem.

Para isso, você pode tocar no apanhado por ordinário que o levará à página de preparação solene.

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Acessando o Curso de Drop Value

Quando você percebe que o Curso de Mastering Drop realmente funciona, é normal que você atire contemplando a união.

Ou por outra, assim, temos que discutir o favor de nos transformarmos em um substituto desta preparação.

Na hipótese de que você tenha visto o dispêndio de diferentes cursos, ou de tutorias sobre o objecto, você pode se surpreender com o dispêndio do curso de Mastering Drop.

Você não terá que contribuir com um grande número de dólares para se relacionar. Não é zero disso.

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O dispêndio deste curso, que está tornando um número tão grande de indivíduos ricos, é de somente 297 reais.

Ou por outra, você pode, em qualquer caso, introduzir em 12x de 28,94.

Ou seja, praticamente falando, o seu empreendimento ficará aquém do que um genuíno por dia.

Você pode se juntar com cartão de cobrança, boleto bancário, Paypal e remunerar diretamente através da Hotmart.

Vale a pena entrar no Hotmart?

Somente por entender que o Curso de Mastering Drop custa significativamente menos do que alguns outros preparativos, você já poderia ver que ele é justificado, apesar de todo o problema.

No entanto, certamente, em todos os casos é ótimo fazer um revista sensato.

Desta forma, você pode se ajustar à sua escolha facilmente e sem precipitação.

No caso de ter chegado até cá, considerarei que pode colocar essa soma – seja em numerário real ou em partes.

Desta forma, o ponto que eu preciso contemplar cá é o seu potencial de favor, ou seja, a chegada que você terá na sua especulação.

O seu empreendimento será de 297 reais ou 28 reais mês a mês. Ou por outra, o seu potencial de favor? É grande.

Para que você tenha uma idéia, eu farei uma enumeração moderada.

A idéia de que através da terceirização você pode ter um favor líquido de 2.000 reais a cada mês.

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Agora mesmo, em um mês você acabou de restabelecer seu empreendimento e ganhou praticamente 10x mais do que pagou.

Isto é extremamente inovador, já que a maioria das organizações tem uma taxa de rentabilidade muito maior.

A maioria dos estabelecimentos leva 36 ou quatro anos, por exemplo.

Ou por outra, o interrogatório é: com o curso de Mastering Drop, os subestudantes estão adquirindo significativamente mais de 2 milénio a cada mês.

Assim, o seu potencial de retorno é enorme. Obviamente, o curso não cumprirá sua responsabilidade por você.

Seja uma vez que for, caso você esteja ansioso para se comprometer e executar, os resultados virão.

Colocando estes dados “sobre a mesa”, posso manifestar que o Curso de Mastering Drop é justificado, apesar de todo o problema.

Ou por outra, no caso de você precisar debutar a trazer numerário com pinga, sugiro que você se junte a ele batendo a globo por ordinário.

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Para quem é o Dominando Drop?

Em suma, o Mastering Drop é um curso para si?

Para ajudá-lo a encontrar essa resposta, não há zero melhor do que provar em que perfis esta preparação está focada.

O Mastering Drop foi feito para:

Quem precisa de trazer numerário para a web, mas sente-se perdido e não faz teoria por onde debutar.

Você precisa ter um salário eminente mês a mês com um negócio de ordinário risco.

Quem precisa de ter resultados uma vez que os substitutos do curso de Mastering Drop.

Aqueles que estão a partir de agora trazendo numerário com queda, no entanto, precisam deslindar quão proporcional o negócio e depreender resultados significativamente mais proeminentes.

Caso você tenha se reconhecido com uma secção desses perfis, nesse momento o curso de Mastering Drop é para você.

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Tem Garantia?

Estes são dados significativos. O curso de Mastering Drop tem uma garantia ilimitada de 7 dias.

Porquê realizar esse trabalho de garantia? É simples.

Durante 7 dias, posteriormente a sua compra, você suplente a opção de recuar da sua compra, e recebe a quantia contribuída de volta.

Esta garantia elimina os seus perigos.

Eu afirmo isso, pois permite que você chegue ao curso, estude o material e verifique se é para você.

No caso de não estar satisfeito, não terá perdido um dólar.

As Vantagens do Mastering Drop do Curso

Eu poderia permanecer cá, referindo-me a algumas circunstâncias favoráveis para me tornar um substituto do curso Wallace Resende.

Seja uma vez que for, aceito genuinamente que esse núcleo é significativo. Assim, vou revelar-vos os dois pontos extraordinários de interesse desta preparação.

Método Direcionado

O Curso de Mastering Drop é uma lição instrucional com início, núcleo e termo.

Podemos manifestar que quase o leva a tentar informações. Uma vez que cada progressão foi destinada a guiá-lo para os resultados.

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Por que razão ele é significativo?

Uma vez que dessa forma você aumenta drasticamente as suas chances de obter resultados. É praticamente inconcebível não tentar a substância.

Ou por outra, muito progressivamente problemático, é não ter resultados ao empregar o Curso de Mastering Drop.

Também a forma uma vez que o curso não é aquele negócio de uma grande quantidade de aulas hipotéticas. De forma alguma.

As aulas são práticas REAIS.

Sem Segredos (Realmente)

Outra extraordinária margem de manobra do Curso de Mastering Drop é que ele não cobre zero.

Sem nenhum rufo, sem lenga, você perceberá o que funciona e uma vez que fazê-lo.

Wallace lhe revelará tudo o que ele faz – sem esconder zero.

Desde uma vez que deslindar fornecedores até metodologias de negociação. Tudo será desvelado.

Porquê juntar-se ao Dominating Drop?

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Eu poderia permanecer cá revelando a você milénio e uma razões para você se tornar um substituto do Curso Dominando Drop.

Em todo o caso, sinceramente, não estou cá para isso.

Estou cá para te educar e ajudar-te a aterrar numa escolha superior.

E mais, para essa mesma explicação, tenho que mencionar o principal e que tem qualquer tipo de efeito.

No ponto em que você está começando, ou ainda não tem resultados, tudo o que você precisa é de uma maneira.

Um guia, um guia, alguém para lhe revelar uma vez que chegar onde você precisa.

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[loquaciousquark]

So the first years in my program had their white coat ceremony tonight--basically, they get their short medical coats that they’ll wear when in clinic and a small lapel pin with the school’s seal is pinned to their collar. They asked me to do the pinning tonight as the Methods coursemaster for second year, which I was happy to do.

It’s funny--I’ve been teaching at the school since 2016, and I’ve been to every graduation and about half the white coat ceremonies since I came on faculty. And over the years, seeing the students walk across the stage and be all happy has become less and less exciting over time--not that I’m not happy for them, because I am! But it’s a very general like, oh, nice, cool job, next? sort of happiness, unless it’s a student I have a particular connection with.

But man, I tell you what--seeing emotional, proud parents in the audience? Gets me every. Single. Time. It’s just a white coat ceremony! It’s about as important as an elementary school graduation in the grand scheme of things. But when one girl’s name was called and I saw a dad stand up in the audience (with obvs not the most expensive clothes in the audience) to take a picture of her with just the biggest grin on his face, I almost started crying on the stage.

Every time, man. Augh.

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so i have just completed an extremely intensive four-day course on medical simulations that, while fascinating, has been mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting, and i’m also really struggling with the guilt of leaving basically every coursemaster duty i have to a coworker during those days despite her repeated reassurances because i know exactly how much work she took on for basically no reward or acknowledgement aside from my thanks

and

i just got the most preposterous email from a student basically telling one of the most seasoned teachers on our faculty, another excellent teacher i work very closely with, and me that we have to privately tutor her (for money, which is already against our contracts) to get her practical skills up to par. (i can’t even articulate how insane this is. like, homegirl, you’re late to every lab, you don’t read or bring your manual, you sit in the back of the classroom on your phone during every lecture and demo and then ask the most basic questions we spent twenty minutes covering during the demo you ignored. so, no. you do not get to sit here in a 1500 word email defining the concepts of “i do, we do, you do” as a teaching strategy to us like we’re children, especially as that is literally the entire structure of our lab and you constantly refuse our help when we come to your lane and ask how you’re doing)

(she also specifically says in this email that our student tutors, who are hand-selected by faculty from the top of each class, aren’t good enough for her because they won’t be the ones grading her on practicals, so it has to be one of us full time faculty members for at least an hour at a time so she can basically go through the entire practical and get point by point feedback so she can get good scores on her exams, and holy mother of the sweet baby Jesus i know go out of my way to defend millennials when people call us entitled but this is the most entitled email i have ever received)

(plus even if i did have an hour to spare in my week you best believe i’m not going to be spending it watching someone doing literally the most basic skills we teach in the entire program, i’m not joking, these are the things you graduate and then never do again because the techs do them forever after, because they are zero skill, 100% procedure, no interpretation or thought process required beyond rote memorization. oh my God! what are you going to do in the fall when you have to turn on your brain and solve actual problems and diagnose live pathology in real time? what are you going to do when you start seeing patients by yourself? are you going to pay a faculty member to sit in there for three hours then too so you can get feedback skill by skill for the rest of your life? we’re two weeks in and she’s already saying things like her tuition is so expensive that the student tutors aren’t good enough for it. y’know, it’s funny, there are 40 other people in your class and somehow they are all managing to not demand the faculty turn into private paid tutors for a single student, and instead are a) asking questions in lab & getting help & correction where they need/want it, and b) buckling down and practicing until they get it right, amazing!!!)

(if your tuition is that important to you how about you show up on time to my lab)

FORGIVE ME THIS IS NOT WHY I STARTED THIS POST

I was GOING to say that despite all of this i managed to get almost every major thing done this week that i needed to, and the only things i need to do next week are email out a few things and print a few things, and then we’re back on track in as normal a routine as things can be right now. only then i got that email and boy i’m steamed

but y’know what, hamlet’s here & cute and it’s supposed to be a lovely weekend and i’ve got functioning a/c at the end of the day, so NO MORE COMPLAINING, ONLY REST AND RELAXATION UNTIL MONDAY

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE

[loquaciousquark]

Hey, all, I’m probably not going to be around much for a few months aside from queues & TM posts.

Work stress has taken over my life in a way it never has before. A very long story short, my closest coworker (both friend-wise and workload-wise) took another job that began at the end of April. While she knew from November she was going to take this job, she did not inform administration until the very final contractual required moment of 30 days out. This means there has been no chance for admin to be looking for long-term qualified candidates to replace her position, since to get hired on at the school even on a temporary faculty basis takes about six-eight weeks.

(She told me about this job in November, but made me promise at the time not to tell anyone because she was going to tell them soon. Then, as schedules were being planned out for this summer and her time was being allotted under the assumption she would be there, she deliberately said nothing and made me answer the emails so she wouldn’t be “lying.” I have known this hell has been coming for me for five months and haven’t been able to do anything about it because I gave her my word.)

In addition, while not her fault, three other administrative support employees and two other faculty members have left/will be leaving in less than a month as well. One employee’s family member died unexpectedly, one employee was grossly incompetent (although I can’t remember the last time we actually fired someone for that), and the other faculty members are leaving for really good jobs elsewhere. Just very unfortunate timing that means we are all spread excruciatingly thin for now.

This all comes at a time where I am actively beginning that Service Director position for the primary care clinic on top of everything else. This position, while I think a great fit for me, what else I teach in the school, and how I plan/organize/relate to the students, has come at a terrible time because it in and of itself is a massive amount of work, especially getting it off the ground. If I’m going to implement all these new policies and changes I’ve been dreaming of for years, I need to do it at the beginning of my tenure--to try and keep everything going the way it has been and change later once everything calms down would be infinitely more work at that time & have a bunch more pushback from both the students and the faculty I now lead as part of this clinic, many of which have decades of seniority on me.

I’m doing the work of two-and-a-half full-time faculty right now. I do still really love this job, but right now I can’t handle it.

I’m grinding my teeth at night and clenching my jaw during the day. My dentist suddenly wants me to get a bite plate when before a few months ago, I’d never ground my teeth in my life. I’m getting excruciating stress/tension headaches almost every other day from how tight every muscle of my face and neck is. I’ve gained over ten pounds in the last two months from eating like crap because anything that requires more than two steps of prep is mentally, physically, and emotionally impossible, which has the added effect of making me want to cry every time I look in a mirror and see my stomach so far away from my mental “normal,” because I was already seven pounds or so more than I wanted to be. I’m only getting three or four hours of sleep a night despite melatonin because my mind is just reciting checklist after checklist of things I need to do to keep all my sudden responsibilities on track.

I saw my psychiatrist today (which in and of itself was overwhelming--I thought until I was leaving for the appointment that today was my annual physical, and it wasn’t until I was checking the auto-filled address that I realized it was in the wrong building for that. Turns out I’d independently scheduled both the psych follow-up & the physical within a few days of each other, and I’d missed the text appointment reminders for the physical because the psych ones were more recent. I have never straight up no-showed an appointment in my life before this.)

I only had about thirty minutes with her, but part of the problem is that I haven’t taken my meds regularly in over a month because even such a little thing was too difficult. I’m going to try to start back on that, but...

I told her it doesn’t feel like I’m trying to keep plates spinning in the air. It feels like I have them all under control at the moment, they’re just excruciatingly heavy. The only way I’ve been handling this sudden pressure of doing basically two and a half jobs with no margin for error in any of them is being ruthlessly, relentlessly organized. Which is fine, except that I can feel how that changes my personality when I have to go so hard and regimented, and I hate how it feels to have both no margin and no grace.

I had a student the other day email me about a flight she booked for a Memorial Day vacation at 6pm on a Friday, not thinking about how clinic does not always end on the dot at 5pm. We (both students and faculty) are required to stay until the patient’s exam is complete. Sometimes that’s at five. Sometimes that’s at 6:30. On rare occasions I’ve stayed until 9pm in clinical care because that’s what was needed at the time for that patient.

She wanted to get out of clinic with an excused absence. We require three weeks’ minimum notice because when a student leaves without coverage, we have to reschedule all the patients they were meant to see. Her schedule was fully booked, and I had to say no, because right now I have nothing left to try to find an alternative for her. I hate saying no to students, especially when it’s something I truly could help them solve with some investment on my part, but right now--I’m sorry, but I can’t. Why on earth did you schedule a flight for 6pm on a day you have clinic until 5, especially when the airport is a 20-minute drive from the school even without traffic? I can’t fix this for you, not right now. You have to show up to clinic or find your own coverage. I don’t care how you do it, but someone has to be there, and I don’t have anything left in me to help you figure out how to do it.

My mom listens to a guy who sometimes talks about how you have to have a margin in your life to manage your stress. A margin in your work helps you enjoy your leisure time; if you don’t have that margin, even scheduled play feels stressful because you have work playing through your head the whole time.

I’m out of margin. I’m ten feet over the line in every direction I’m so out of margin, and I am constantly being asked by students and other faculty, “How are you doing now that the person who you shared 90% of your work life with is gone? Who’s going to help take over [year-long highly-intensive Methods course] now that Dr. So-and-So is gone? Who’s going to help you teach it since we all know what a gigantic course it is and how it’s always required two people to run full-time, and now you’re down to one who’s also taken on a bunch of other responsibilities at the exact same time?”

and they’re laughing when they say it. and i’m laughing when i tell them the truth, which is “no one.” and we all laugh together and inside my head i am ripping apart under the pressure.

Even if they hire someone by August, it’s not going to mean any relief until September due to onboarding, and even then it won’t be what I really need. This woman I worked with and I had both taught this course together for years, and before that we’d both taken it as students. We knew how it ran inside and out. We knew what the responsibilities were. We had the workload divided evenly and didn’t have to consult over every decision that was made--it just got done. Even if they do hire someone at lightning speed, I still have to train them. I have to show them where the group drive is on the faculty intranet. I have to teach them how it’s organized. I have to show them how to upload quizzes and how to grade them and how to edit the Excel practical documents and the timeframe we expect the grades back and why our grading standards are the way they are and what to say to guest graders and guest lab instructors and show them where the file folders are kept and where the .docx’s are kept and the way things are sorted and how the tests are written and how to extensively edit a PDF file and give them the contact information for faculty IT support (which still ends up being me half the time) and the manual printer and the woman who orders office supplies and the woman who orders clinical equipment and the man who orders building maintenance supplies and when you go to one and not the other and how electronic testing works and how to grade it and how to upload a document with all the specific little requirements the program wants to make sure it imports correctly and how to deal with the errors this program will inevitably throw back because it’s niche software for a niche school and that means it’ll never be user friendly.

It took me almost two years to really feel comfortable being co-coursemaster for this course because it is so unbelievably massive. Even if they hire someone by August, I still won’t have a full-time coursemaster pulling their weight until 2021.

The other metaphor I used with my psychiatrist is that I’m holding on to a cliff’s edge with my fingertips. Right now, I’ve got a pretty decent grip, but that doesn’t change the fact that if you put another pound on my back it might pull me right off the rock.

I don’t see practical relief coming any time soon. “What can we do to help? We want you to know you are very supported right now. You let us know what you need.” What can you do? Hire someone tomorrow who already knows how our computer system works, who can troubleshoot their own IT, who can look at a list of tasks that need to happen to get this Methods course fully ready every single semester of every single year and do them without any handholding from me. Hire someone with as much attention to detail as I’ve had to have because it’s the right way to do the damn job. Hire someone I won’t have to clean up after because to them “the cart in the closet” is the same thing as “the specific place on the labeled closet shelf where the equipment belongs.”

I’m clenching my teeth so hard they’re hurting, so I guess I have to stop. If you see me in-game somewhere, believe me, it’s not because I’ve caught up. It’s because I haven’t and I can’t bear thinking about how much I still have to do.