#creator babble

[highrob]

missing this specific kali era₊˚౨ৎ˚˚ ༘ ೀ⋆｡

also, made a playlist of all her discography + unreleased songs, give it a listen<3 !!!!

[hihereami]

For those already feeling "hey why would you ruin the ending" regarding TMA 2 announcement... we literally Do Not Know if we'll meet the same Jon and Martin we said good-bye to. It could be them in a parallel universe, it can be a prequel, it can be a sequel where they fit more mentor-like figures to another main characters...

The possibilities are endless and if it feels for you like it's gonna be awful, it's perfectly okay if you don't listen to it! The original TMA won't be ruined. We can keep that! That's ours already!

[blinkpen]

hmmm self motivational rambling yaaa

i will survive, i have such a passionate and surreal character-driven story to finish sculpting and share and i don't even want to get stupid rich off it, i don't want the kinds of algorithmic fame an investor would demand as a goal, i don't want the eyes on me specifically or whats the biggest household name starpower i can attach to myself, so much as i want the story to exist and finally be as concrete an expression it can be that exists outside of myself, as someone whose strange brain struggles to communicate outside the vehicle of their art, and feels outright alien at times, but in spite of it all, wants to have at least this method of interaction, and maybe even to be understood

i don't want it to exist just to eventually pump out merch and expanded universes and more merch and more of itself for its own sake,

i value the integrity of my work and what it has to say for itself, and i want to remain a recluse to a degree, like bill watterson, an inspiration in this regard

i want my work to inspire emotions and thoughts and self reflection, i want the horror to unsettle, but the resolutions to satisfy, i want it to tear into some and bring healing to others who might not have even known they needed it, to inspire other people to understand the strange, and inspire the strange to survive should that fail, and survive as kindly as we can manage, if we can manage it

but also survival can require throwing hands and we're not going to lie and pretend it doesn't bc this is written for Actual grown ups

another thing i want is to actually respect the intelligence and free will of my audience to form their own opinions; and of course, hope they recognize when i gave them these discussions about these characters and their actions intentionally, that some situations have ambiguity for a reason (another aspect of why i'd like to remain a recluse in a way is to avoid being treated as a combat summon in overheated headcanon battles, when a situation was clearly left ambiguous/up to the audience to sit n digest on purpose

bc it is indeed a whole lot about these characters and how they think and behave and navigate the nigh-apocalyptic obstacles they regularly face over the span of two particular characters' lives from basically the day they met onward, because there was, in fact, no era of their life boring enough to just skip or get reduced to flashback

so we dont see years of hardened characters with a hint of a soft side hidden away and then we learn why they're like that. i mean we get that for some, but largely, we are watching the hardening process (or the universe sure trying its absolute gosh darn fatherpegging best in that regard) happen in real time.

until you have to start worrying Which random ambiguously malevolent force of the week is going to be the camel's spine-breaking straw, possibly when they aren't even the biggest threat this quarter but entirely by chance of showing up when the wrong fucking character was in the wrong fucking mood for whatever Effect that creature has to cause havoc, and that's it

what would normally be the angsty backstory, be The story we watch unfold in real time. really getting the feel for the characters as multifaceted and carved into the shape they are by their experiences, vs just kind of popping out of the ground ready to fill the role they're in for the roster. like entire dynamics change and shift. characters have their opinions changed (or don't). some characters yoyo in some intentionally insufferable but believable ways. some you will be doomed to watch only ever get worse. not all of them! but some. and some aren't so much doomed to only ever get worse, but you'll probably start threatening to burn my house by the end if they don't catch a fucking break already, and the right when it seems like its time to get the flamethrower,

oh shit

a kitkat bar! just for them! fuck yeah [bites into it horizontal like its a square cookie to the absolute horror on onlookers]

yknow. stuff like that

also becoming friends and possibly making out with whatever the hot fresh minty hell this Thing is (her name is Mulu, and if applebee's existed in the setting, she'd love going there entirely because she'd like the imaginary bug conjured in her mind in response to hearing the name, and why yes, she would share a cup of sugar and/or Gender with you)

[cleflink]

Do you ever get a comment on your fanwork that you just want to roll around in like a sun-drenched field because it makes you so happy to know your stuff makes people happy?

Much love to those amazing people who leave comments on fic/art. It means a lot.

[4lph4kidz]

something that irks me quite a bit is when people disavow the shitty stuff in homestuck by saying the only good thing about it is the fandom instead of engaging with the source material critically. i think it is really sidestepping the issue. like i get it, i get that such hostility has been encouraged by the author's antagonistic creative persona and absolutely incoporated into the work itself but i personally do actually like the source material for what it is despite being incredibly critical of it and the author's writing choices. idk. trying to pull this misunderstood ass version of death of the author by acting like the material's only worth lies in being raw material for a fandom to feed upon and repurpose into its objectively better form, and just overall lionizing the fan community rubs me the wrong way

[faeymouse]

Getting through the Kickass Video Essay of the Week is always dangerous because it makes me desperately want to make video essays myself, except I wouldn’t know Adobe After Effects if you slapped me across the face with it, YouTube terrifies me as anything except something I consume, and all my actual best thinking is done via Tumblr afterthought tags because in my head I imagine it’s sorta like glancing sidelong at the camera and adding additional context to any given moment or thought like I’m in the Emperor’s New Groove

also I genuinely do hyperfixate so it would be niche topics I can’t imagine anyone else on the planet finding entertaining (except me) like, “Is the Grid It’s Own Character?”; “Are Programs Posthuman?”; “How Kevin Flynn Destroys the Sublime”; “Why Tron Legacy is a Horror Movie”; “The Grid and the Closet” and it analyzes how, symbolically, a dude constantly leaving his heterosexual day life to live within a neon-lit fever dream where traditional procreation is literally unheard of and everyone wears skin-tight body suits and stilettos and oscillate between high-octane performance and nightclubs, and he’s unable to talk about this double life to others outside of this place, might be construed as possibly a lil LGBT+ (would this make CLU a physical manifestation of Flynn’s own fear of his homosexuality?); over an hour of me going through Scars 1 and 2 screenshot by screenshot and it’s titled something like “WATCH TRON UPRISINF” in all misspelled caps where it’s painfully obvious I have no background in Film Theory but by god that’s not about to stop me,

and idk something like “Identity in Tron” where I cheekily compare Tron Identity and the Uprising episode “Identity” that have nothing in common other then a fixation on identity discs and like what are those? Halo symbolism? The soul? Are programs angels? (insert here about previous scholarship on this bc I *know* somebody’s talked about this somewhere already) Are programs without discs fallen angels? Is Tron Identity purgatory? Is Query on the level of a User with how easily he manipulates information on a program’s disc? Does the Grid have its own disc somewhere??? Where’s the MCP’s disc?? Why is there a pawn shop in Argon; do programs really buy and sell used goods, and is this due to an ever shrinking amount of space/memory on the Grid? Is currency on the Grid held within the disc? Does this mean programs are their own currency? Is this capitalism or communism if the means of production (the programs) are also the currency? If a program steals another program’s disc and learns all their secrets, could the disc-less program not just take the thief program’ s disc and use it as their own, since it technically holds all their memories now? What happens when a program’s disc runs out of space; do they all intermittently explode in a giant cloud of amnesia like Cass does? If seeing Tron’s face was enough to momentarily snap Beck out of his amnesia via the power of friendship, does this hint at the possibility that programs may not need discs at all?

and so on so forth until my brain finds something else to chew into infinite nothingness

[batmanfruitloops]

Figured it would also be good to clarify some details about Fluffy and I, just so it's out there.

I go by Sarsee, Dexter, or "Sars" and "Dex" to be short, and I accept being called by any pronouns, although I mostly use she/her.

my favorite color is orange

I say some very random and unhinged things without realizing often, so if I say something odd, please call me out and I'll remove said thing

I associate a lot of my memories with smells, so people, places, and situations are typically accompanied by a smell when I recall them

Fluffy uses she/her pronouns, but to be clear, neither of us are offended by misgendering on accident :)

Fluffy's favorite color is purple

Fluffy is currently an animation student

Fluffy has ADHD, autism, and PTSD, so it affects how she interacts with others, but she's totally fine talking to others if approached first

Hope this is a helpful little info post,

-Sarsee

[frosty-tian]

Random Rambling/Thoughts.:

Kind of related to my last rant about representation in media, m’ pal Nuke brought up a good point as well.

While it’s good to normalise having representation in fandoms and pointing out/educating about racism, there’s another thing that can be done, and arguably better.

Look, consume and spread word on works about non-white individuals/cultures, made by non-white creators (preferably outside of America because so many medias are Americanised, no offence).

Because not only there’s a chance you’re learning about different cultures (and if you’re a fellow creator, you could slowly pick up information on how to incorporate said cultures into your works), but most importantly, supporting and encouraging these creators to make more work and help them make a living!

At least, that’s my point of view/thoughts.

[discovi]

WHAT'S THE POINT OF BEING RICH WHEN YOU WAKE UP ALONE WHATS THE POINT OF GOING HOME WHEN THERE AIN'T NO BODY NEAR FUCK THAT

[moondust-bard]

My icy cold take of the day is that the United States’ rules regarding the disabled and their government-issued benefits are outdated, problematic, and only perpetuate the disability to poverty pipeline. A person’s basic needs being met should not hinge on their ability to work all day. Also, marriage equality— disabled people would love some. I could go on and on about this topic, but I’ll leave off for now.

Sincerely, a disabled person trying to acquire freelance work while abiding by the government’s rules.

[dumbbullet]

my dearest friend and her husband have decided to gift me with their unwanted gaming PC, which means that after several months, I will finally have the opportunity to play the funny dnd game all the kids are talking about... maybe... if i feel like it.

[anemoflower]

Not feeling valentines day feelings atm

[blinkpen]

that old meme of a kid looking so excited to be drifting in their little kid car and theres like a comical zoom in on their face? is me feelign the Fixation Mind Fungus finally switch lanes off CharZoe and onto DemPaiStone with the same momentum

[sailorstarr-chan4]

For the first time since 2020, I am feeling the urge to read InuKag fics again???

This all started in June when I FINALLY read the iconic "Freak Attraction" by our esteemed @artistefish (which is PHENOMENAL AND AMAZING BTW PLEASE GO READ IT), but then, just now, I saw that the Smut Queen herself, @keichanz had posted new smut...... 👀👀👀

Aaaaaand suddenly I went hunting for other smutty oneshots to add to my "Marked for Later" fics. For the first time in AGES. Like. Um. Holy shit????

[Ramblings about my "Inuyasha history post-2020" below cut. Tl;dr: I'm lowkey Shook that my love for Inuyasha and InuKag fics is finally, slowly coming back 🥹💕]

Here's the rundown: 2020 happened. I went into quarantine with my parents. I was determined to finally devour a BUNCH of Inuyasha fics I kept meaning to read, and at first I did with great gusto..... but..... as April 2020 crept along, my interest began to wane and depression seized a hold of me.

Then Yashahime was announced. The fandom imploded. I felt nothing. No interest, no worries, no intrigue. NOTHING. It would've scared me if I was capable of feeling it.

Oh eventually, I felt a mild amusement at all of the squabbling and ship wars and all that nonsense (and spawned a whole fucking series of memes as a result lmaooooo). But my love for the fandom/fics had more or less snuffed out. Which sucked for a number of reasons, not least of which were "shit, most of my WIPs are for this fandom fuckfuckfuckfuck" LMAO 🙃

Depressing shit aside, I dove back HARD into the Disney fanfic side of things, on top of other anime titles and old fandoms like Harry Potter. I moved on to other fandoms, partially due to feeling embittered at the Inuyasha fandom for already making my depression over my lack of interest EVEN WORSE with all the in-fighting over Yashahime (which btw, for the record, is NOT a particularly bad show. It's not a GOOD show, per se, I don't have any strong feelings for it either way, but it's NOT the Antichrist™ like fans were making it out to be, sheesh >.> It's just another mediocre sequel for a classic-but-not-particularly-amazing-original-series. Shocking, I know. Moving on)

The only thing keeping me sane about Inuyasha was watching it with my fiancé, from Nov. 2020-Sept. 2021. His delightful commentary breathed life into the series like you wouldn't BELIEVE lmao 🤣

Eventually.... I felt the desire to write again. But it was HARD. 😭

After Shameless was completed in April of 2020, I felt.... empty of Inuyasha fic writing. By a miracle, I managed to update my Big Three WIPs (An Unexpected Encounter -> June 2020; Inuyasha: Prince of Thieves -> July 2020 & Sept. 2022; and Shards of the Sea -> June 2021 & Sept. 2022), but the gaps between updates kept widening, and I only worked on them because they were already partially written/published. I even ended up archiving older ficlets into Tied Together and Bonds Across Time, but had to resist the urge to delete everything and start afresh SEVERAL times since 2021 (which, coincidentally, was around the time the fandom was tearing itself apart over Yashahime bullshit and by bullshit I mean innocuous junk people were losing their goddamn minds over ugh.... 😒)

The handful of other fics I punched out for other fandoms were small, and only posted briefly in the summers of 2020 and 2022.

The latter summer was thanks to my first InuKag written smut in 2 years: Sinful Symphonies.

So, yay! Finally getting a feel for writing again, both for Inuyasha and in general! But I still felt utterly detached from other Inuyasha fics, not because of the writers (are you KIDDING me, half of the reason it was hard to distance myself from the fandom was because of the AMAZING TALENT in this fandom ugggghhh 😭), but because of my personal, complicated feelings with the fandom and series as a whole.

But then I binge-watched the series by myself this May. And finally, decided to buckle down and read Freak Attraction, which I have been meaning to read LONG before 2020, and thus, it became my first Inuyasha bookmarked fic on AO3 in almost 3 years, and first "new" Inuyasha fave as whole since August 2021.

My last Inuyasha bookmarked fic on AO3 was on Nov. 1, 2020 (on ff.net, I read two small MirSan smut fics in August 2021, but these are outliers; I really could not bring myself to read more than those -.-).

My last InuKag bookmarked smut on AO3 was April 7, 2020.

My last REVIEWS I left for an Inuyasha fic (besides the aforementioned fics) were from June-August 2021 for a couple of updated faves (namely Keichanz's Iconic You Rescued Me, which was a ROLLERCOASTER OF FEELS, LEMME TELL YOU).

And now. NOW. AT LAST. THREE WHOLE YEARS after 2020 sucked the joy of Inuyasha fandom/fic from me.... I want to try again. I want to read more again.

Even if it's only a little bit, I would like to find joy here again. 🥺💕

[appri-dot]

Having a fandom isn't a bad thing, it's uniquely incredible. The problem is theres this strange force that somehow shapes fandoms to be painfully identical and samey to eachother where it's a detrimental to the media

[faeymouse]

Please, please, I need the Sean “Ay, I’m bein’ gay ova here!” shirt immediately. I have never needed an article of clothing faster in my life