#daddy cillian lmfao

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Hi I’m cillian Murphy open ur dm girl daddy is here

This is so fucking funny lmfao

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text 📱 cillian & jude.

Discord text thread featuring: cillian & @judetaylorhq

When: december 28th

Mentions: @claudiafernandez96

Description: cillian and jude decide to go on their first official date! cillian asks what jude would have done differently. they discuss the claudia situation. 

Trigger Warnings: drugs, relapse, addiction, angst

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

what are you up to later doofus?

Cillian

whole lotta sitting on my ass. you wanna do something?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

yes

Cillian

awesome, i could get out for a bit. you have something in mind?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

just getting you out of the house for a while, honestly.

lets go on a date

Cillian

a date? like a date date?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

yes.

Cillian

like to get food and stuff?

do i have to dress nice?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

nice enough? nothing too crazy.

it's like you've never been on a date before, lmfao

Cillian

dude the last time i was on like a date was high school and all i cared about was getting into her pants

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

some things never change i guess

Cillian

😏 i can do the date thing. it’s gonna take me like 30 minutes to shower. but i can look nice.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

just shower and try to put on some pants. it's just dinner.

Cillian

no no no this is our first date. you wanna go on a date, we’re going on a date

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

damn. we did this all backwards.

i mean you live with me, and now we're going on a date

Cillian

it’s very us

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i guess it is..

Cillian

would you have preferred if things had happened differently?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

some things.

Cillian

like what? aside from the obvious thing that resulted in the use of crutches.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i don't think i should say.

Cillian

???

is it gonna ruin our date if you tell me?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

probably.

Cillian

now i’m just gonna think about it all night.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.BOTYesterday at 5:27 PM

it's about her.

i would have told her to fuck off

i would have made sure she never dug her claws into you.

Cillian

i know this probably isn’t what you want to hear

but i don’t think there’s anything you could have done.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

clearly. i mean i couldn't stop you from fucking her while you claimed to be in love with me.

but i would have done something to at least try.

Cillian

what? what would you have done? handcuffed us together? never let me out of your sight? never dated her in the first place?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i don't know cillian.

i wouldn't have let her into my life.

Cillian

jude.

you couldn’t have known.

would you really erase her? entirely?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

she's brought nothing positive into my life.

i know you're in love with her.

so just make sure i know before you decide to like...leave me or whatever. i don't want to be blindsided.

Cillian

jesus fucking christ, jude.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i'm not stupid, cillian.

i know the day you finally freak out about this, she's the first call you make.

Cillian

we’re never gonna get passed this are we? you’re always gonna feel this way. like i’m gonna drop you at a moment’s notice.

what do i have to do?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i don't know.

there's nothing you can do.

Cillian

so... what then?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i don't know. okay? i don't have an answer. i just know that...this is how i feel now. i mean we've been together for like two weeks and you already tried to like...what? kill yourself or whatever the fuck last week was.

and she was right there by your side, encouraging it.

Cillian

i fucked up. i just... i love you so much that it actually terrifies me. and i didn’t call claudia because i’m in love with her. i called her because i wanted to be reckless and i knew she wouldn’t stop me.

i shouldn’t have done it. it was fucked up and i’m sorry and if i could take it back i fucking would. but i can’t.

and i’m not like... asking you to feel differently about it, like i get it. but i don’t know what to do.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i know.

i believe you. i just can't get it out of my head

Cillian

if you want to stop seeing her... i mean if that’s what i need to do, i’ll do it. for you.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

no.

i'm not going to make that decision for you, just because i'm insecure

Cillian

i just hate feeling like this.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i won't bring it up again.

Cillian

so we’re just gonna ignore it?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

Well what should we do about it?

You're going to keep seeing Claudia and I'm going to keep hating her.

Cillian

i don't know.

but i don't like being in the middle.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

There's no middle. There's you and her. And you and me. Two different things.

Cillian

there's us, and that's what matters to me. more than anything else. you and me.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

Me too.

Cillian

i love you.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

love you too, cil.

a little later...

Cillian

if you wanna skip the date, i get it.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

what? are you bailing on me, because i made reservations dude

there's no way i'm taking my gran on a date again

Cillian

wow, reservations??? this all feels so official.

you taking me somewhere nice?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

it's nice enough, i can't take you to a fancy place

we wouldn't know what to order all the stuff is in french at those places

we'd STARVE

Cillian

i wouldn’t be able to appreciate it anyways. i survived on little more than churros, monster, and cool ranch doritos for most of high school.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i'm aware.

this place serves fries, so it's really not that fancy.

Cillian

i can fuck with that

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i want to do that thing where you get a doggy bag. it always seems so grown up and fancy

Cillian

okay but will they wrap it up in foil in the shape of a swan? bc that feels sophisticated.

like pinkies out sophisticated.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

damn i hope so. we can ask

Cillian

i will purposely not finish my meal if it means i get a foil swan

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

we could just order a bunch of food

Cillian

hell yes

let's go on dates every night

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

you know i have to pay our rent too right?

i'm a sugar daddy on a budget, cil

Cillian

ugh. i hate that that title isn't even inaccurate.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

well..

most daddies aren't bottoms.

Cillian

i am physically cringing rn and it has everything to do with you using the word 'daddy'

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

sugar....bro?

Cillian

...better

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i think we should stick to boyfriend.

Cillian

i think that's probably best

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

will you wear the dorky sweater i bought for you?

Cillian

it's the nicest thing i own, so yes