"The light grew brighter and brighter. One could not help but be drawn inexorably towards it."
This is the last card of the 22 major arcana for Mirror Arcana. And I'm really glad to finish on this one. I feel like it was the one to do now.
Thanks for all your support 💖
This piece is about my struggle with perfectionism and how policing my behaviors never works.
The mannerisms that I try to mask always seem to burst through. When I was younger, many times I would catch my family, my teachers, my peers -everyone- watching me as I even performed the most mundane performed tasks…and they’d be laughing. More often than not, I’d be teased, which naturally led to my defending myself. Often times, I was met with calls of being oversensitive or dramatic and my feelings about the experience would be immediately invalidated which led to this set of behavioral rules I started developing around five years old.
More on that to come, probably as I finish the detailing on the ground. Stayed tuned <3