#dazai did it all for sskk like?? ok??? wth?????? this is not possible i am dreaming i am insane this is insane

[themistas]

i just think that shin soukoku gaining awareness in the beast universe could lead to , who knows, them looking for each other in the different universes that dazai mentioned (or whatever they are, i spedrun (spedran? speedran?) through beast and can only recall the Absolute Angst and Absolute Fate (all by DazaiTM) of it), and perhaps even further

in some random universe abilities are dead and atsushi, after having a moderately decent life in some random orphanage, is busy filing out his taxes, but there's this gloomy taxes agent that won't stop staring and eventually goes up to him (pulls him into a corner, muffling his startled scream with a hand, threatening to kill him -- romances always start this way)

'stop screaming it's just me. the guy who's been going after you in every universe. not to kill you, no. to unite the way dazai wanted us to. oh dazai is WHAT in your universe? that does not matter. yes. your violin teacher wants us to unite. why you? i don't know... maybe you fucking died as a vampire in my universe??? oh, you're sorry?? that's not gonna bring you back!!'

akutagawa does not exist in this universe, did everything he could to save gin from a drunk driver when they were teenagers (and in the universe where he lives, well -- atsushi doesn't learn about him until he's fifty-seven) (and in the universe where he learns about him much earlier, they never get along, and they only interact for six months) (and in another budding universe, akutagawa bumps into him when he's five. and he never really pays it any mind, until he once again bumps into a guy at the cemetery, staring at his best friend's grave, gone too soon and forever remembered) (he could not stop the driver this time, was away with a friend and can never shake off the guilt, the despair that reside in his heart)

it's a little sudden, it's not at all what atsushi planned to do on a sunday -- but after all this world lacks akutagawa, a very strange angry man who will not lean away from his front door, who's way too convinced 'he's the one' to go look for another Him. and his world lacks atsushi, had him become a vampire then promptly pass away.

how did that happen -- akutagawa will only tell if atsushi agrees to come with him, but atsushi isn't stupid, and if he closes his eyes -- he thinks he can imagine it, him pushing akutagawa out of the way; him being in the way, rather than him (for his live means a lot, to ppl and - him) -- buying akutagawa time, each and every time, so that he can live on and carry their goal on his broad back

it's silly: he doesn't know him, might just never do, not in the way the Real atsushi did -- but this atsushi has nothing to care about, not much apart from taxes at least -- and this akutagawa has the guy from the grocery store being an amazing chef in his universe, so amazing he won't mind buying dinner to a copy-paste (yet so familiar, yet so alike his atsushi) of his partner

it's an easy yes, an easy pact sealed by shaken hands -- it's a trip into another universe, and through fights and disgruntled confessions (through kindness and wordless exchanges) they learn to see the other from another universe, learn to understand what the other went through

through grief and a not-a-violin-teacher dazai, through caught-but-cured vampirism and badly hidden, eventually confessed love they learn to coexist, and the world is saved and all is well once again, the world balanced by their explosive chemistry

ps. though atsushi dies in a few universes to save akutagawa, akutagawa dies like a hundred times saving atsushi. i have decided so and i know it to be true in my heart