#did i ever mention i'm a certified idiot

[obsessivefangirl]

YOU'RE AWESOME

YOU'RE SUPER TALENTED

YOU'RE WONDERFUL

YOU'RE ONE OF THE NICEST PEOPLE EVER

YOU'RE AMAZING

YOUR STORIES ARE AMAZING

YOUR CHARACTERS ARE AMAZING

ALSO YOUR HEADER IS REALLY CUTE I NEVER MENTIONED THAT BUT YEAH

YOU'RE REALLY FUNNY

YOU REALLY LIKE THE SKELEBROS WHICH IS. THAT'S WHAT GOT ME INTO THE FANDOM IN THE FIRST PLACE AND WE HAVE A LOT OF THE SAME IDEAS FOR THEM AND THAT'S REALLY COOL AND NEAT >:D

SPEAKING OF CHARACTERS WISP IS. AMAZING. HE'S SO WELL-THOUGHT OUT AND A BAB AND HE'S NOT PERFECT BUT HE TRIES AND HE LOVES HIS BRO SO MUCH AND IT'S SO CUTE AND HGHGHGHH EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM, MAKES SENSE, LIKE HOW HE SHOWS AFFECTION AND STUFF BECAUSE OF HIS BACKSTORY AND JHSGDHJDSDSJGHSDH I COULD RAMBLE ABOUT THAT FOR A LONG TIME

ANGECO IS!!!!!!!!!!! BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS, E HDSGHDSJGDJHDSGSJGSJHHGHGHHGHGH

AND AND AND DOGGO AS, RESULT AND HIS STORY MAKES SO MUCH SENSE AND THE, GRIEF HE'S GOING THROUGH

THE WHOLE FECKIN CONCEPT OF SSYSD IT'S SO GOOD AND. SAD

YOU WRITE THE BEST ANGST

AND THE BEST FLUFF

YOU'VE MADE ME GIFTFICS AND THAT'S RIDICULOUS BECAUSE YOU DID NOT HAVE TO AND I LOVE THEM

SPEAKING OF YOU WROTE MY OWN AU

I'M STILL???????????? TRYING TO FATHOM THAT TO THIS DAY BTW LIKE, YOU DID NOT HAVE TO AND IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME

AND, AND THEY'RE SO CUTE IN THAT FIC TOO YOU CAPTURED THEM SO WELL AND HGHGGNGHGHGHGHGHHG

YOU DID NOT HAVE TO MAKE ME THAT ONE BIRTHDAY GIFTFIC EITHER BUT I WAS DUMB AND DIDN'T TELL YOU ABOUT MY BDAY BEFOREHAND BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY BECAUSE YOU'RE JUST!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU'RE SO SO KIND

YOU PUT UP WITH ME

YOU PUT UP WITH ME TALKING TOO MUCH ABOUT MY OWN AUS AND IDEAS

YOU PUT UP WITH THE FACT I'M A CERTIFIED IDIOT

YOU HAVE GREAT MUSIC TASTE

I LOVE YOUR. TAKES ON THINGS DHDHJGHSHHG I CAN'T, WORD PROPERLY HERE BUT YEAH

YOU DON'T LIKE PICKLES BUT I AM WILLING TO FORGIVE YOU ON THAT

DID I FECKIN MENTION THAT THIS FIC EXISTS: https://archiveofourown.org/works/43315656

AND YOU'VE WANTED TO TALK ABOUT MY AU TOO BEFORE LIKE YOU'RE, ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN IT AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY

AND EVEN. THE WARRIORS THING THAT I MENTIONED, EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT SURE IF YOU KNOW ABOUT WARRIORS OR IF YOU LIKE OR ANYTHING, YOU STILL LISTENED TO MY IDEA!!!!!

YOU LIKE KOMODO DRAGONS AND I THINK THEY'RE COOL TOO

I DONT KNOW YOUR FASHION SENSE BUT I THINK IT'S COOL

YOUR DRAWING STYLE IS???????? SO CUTE?????????????????????????? WAIT NO HOW HAVE I NEVER MENTIONED THAT EVER

YOU MAKE ME LAUGH A LOT

THERE WAS LIKE. ONE DRAWING YOU MADE AND SHOWED ME AND IT WAS FUNNY DGHFGGHGHGHGHG

WAIT NO THERE'S BEEN LIKE TWO FUNNY ONES

PROBABLY MORE ACTUALLY BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER GOOD

YOU HAVE CATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHICH IS AUTOMATIC PLUS IN MY BOOK >:DDD

I LOVE SEEING YOUR ASKS IN MY INBOX

I LOVE WHEN YOU GIVE ME STUFF BUT *YOU DO NOT HAVE TO, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF FIRST!!!!!!*

YOU LIKE TRUE CRIME LIKE I DO

YOU LIKE CREEPY THINGS

YOU LIKE HORRORTALE!!!!!!!!!!!! WHICH IS GREAT BECAUSE IT'S MY FAVORITE AU AND IT'S SO UNDERRATED IMO AND IT'S GREAT AND YOU'RE GREAT

YOU DON'T MIND THAT I'M. TOO LOUD OR TALK TOO MUCH AND STUFF

I LOVE TALKING TO YOU CAUSE YOU'RE FUN TO TALK TO AND JUST. ONE OF MY BESTEST FRIENDS EVER AND I LOVE YOU

YOU'D MAKE ME ROMANCE GIFTFICS JUST TO MAKE ME HAPPY EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT YOUR THING AND THAT MEANS A LOT TO ME LIKE. MORE THAN I COULD PUT IN WORDS

YOU'RE SO SWEET AND THOUGHTFUL AND SUPPORTIVE!!!!!!!

THE WHOLE CONVERSATION WITH YOU ABOUT THE MIDNIGHT THING AND WHETHER OR NOT IT WAS ACTUALLY THE NEXT DAY AND ME BEING A DUMMY AND, MY EPIPHANY ME ABOUT IT WAS GENUINELY ONE OF THE MOST HILARIOUS THINGS AND WEIRDLY ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT'S HAPPENED BECAUSE I CAN JUST LAUGH AT MYSELF AND YOU GET TO TOO

YOUR FEEDBACK MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY AND YOU MAKE ME REALLY HAPPY WHEN YOU'RE HAPPY AND JDFGHDGJHGSJH

I JUST LOVE YOU A WHOLE LOT AND YOU DESERVE A LOT MORE COMPLIMENTS THAN THIS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ALSO JUST. YOUR COMMENTS ALWAYS MAKE MY DAY AND NIGHT WHEN I SEE THEM. AND THIS COMMENT ALONE THAT YOU LEFT ON DRAWN TOGETHER MADE MY ENTIRE DAY TODAY:

Rereading this and. Ouaghhhhhh

Angeco doesn't realize how he gives in his own way, and he's just so. Determined to make his brobet happy

AND HOW WISP CHECKS UP ON HIM?!!! He's so loving and protective...

Not to mention how worried he is because of his strange acting fjfbfbhhhg

And how when Angeco stiffens he falters and respects his boundaries but also is just. Really :(

And noooooooooooooooo Angeco self consciousness :(((( he's just. Baby.

Wisp is such a sappy loser <3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'M NOOOOOTTTT

OUAGHHHHHH WHY DID YOU DO THIS I DON'T DESERVE IT 😭😭😭

[semimedieval]

the 1.0 gang reacts to: ghost tozi

aka: the sequence so drawn-out and dramatic that even at the time we called it a soap opera

this went so long that i have to put it under a cut for my own sanity

Spark reached out and tried to touch his hand, but it fell through the ash like it was water. Tears stung her eyes. Some sad bitter anger stung her heart. She had loved Tozi and Chuji had stolen him all to herself.

certified freak behavior. the man is still dead.

Obsidian nodded, but he was less certain inside. Did he want Tozi back? What if Chuji would love Tozi now? He pushed his selfishness aside; he would go along with what made Chuji happy.

FURTHER freak behavior. but at least coming from what is a fairly realistic if deeply selfish concern. Then he hits us with this.

Obsidian nodded, then took a deep breath. Approaching Tozi, he forced a smile. "I'm truly happy you're back, and I'm sorry for being so shallow when it came to you. I was jealous but now I see that there was no reason to be. And now I hope we can be... friends." Part of him wanted to mention Chuji, but he would say that later, he told himself.

I honestly think now that the move is HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT in the sense that like, he would not Directly Acknowledge his dislike of tozi in that he would (correctly) assume everyone has bigger things to worry about. in 2.0 i have him say

Obsidian, who had been standing a few feet back, stepped forward. “Tozi, there is not a time in my life where I would have said no,” he said quietly. “We love you - all of us, unquestioningly, unconditionally. Of course we want you back.”  Tozi’s mouth twitched up in a small, hesitant smile. “I have a feeling you and I could get along better this time,” he said cheerily,

which is a much more true and accurate reflection of the way i picture obsidian's attitude towards tozi. he is sOOO catholically repentant about ever thinking a single negative thought toward the man. but the good news is that now THIS happens -

Spark felt anger consume her heart. Tozi should love HER. No! Chuji was her friend. "Spark?" Quartz asked gently. She looked from Spark to Obsidian, confused. Spark quickly looked away from the two. "What? Oh, sorry. Just thinking about.....dinner! Yes, thats it" she said unconvincingly. "Okay..." Quartz muttered in confusion. She felt a sudden urge to punch something, and ran outside. What was going on? Why did she feel like of her brother and her best friend she was the only person truly happy?! This wasn't fair! What was going on?! Spark felt like a complete idiot, only caring for her own emotions. She sprinted out of the cave. "Quartz?" Guilt gnawed at her stomach. Quartz sat down. Her mind was changed forever -- she did NOT want to fall in love. Look at Obsidian. Spark found Quartz at the base of her favorite tree, and wrapped her arm around her. "Nothing's right," Quartz whispered.

This is probably the strongest fucking case for QUARTZ IS GAY in the entire original text. You cannot honestly tell me that quartz is "feeling a sudden urge to punch something" and running outside because she feels confused about why spark is unhappy. She can tell spark's feelings for tozi are resurfacing and she feels ~THREATENED~ by a dead man. Tozi Allpine: Romantically menacing the greythorne siblings, even from beyond the grave, since 1202. reallymakesyouthink.com. also this is the first time quartz gets to be upset about something interpersonal that isn't obsidian being a dick to her in the entire roleplay. growth!

but speaking of romantically menacing the greythorne siblings beyond the grave -

Tozi............... walked\floated into the boys corridor and while doing so asked Obsidian to join him in a conversation. Obsidian nodded. They had things to discuss, for sure. "Obsidian, Tell me. Why was Chuji so upset after your little spy trip?"* he narrowed his eyes "If you have mistreated her..." "I have not!" he exclaimed indignantly. He hadn't expected this. "I don't know why Chuji was upset. I had no right to be spying, but I would never dream of harming her." "I guess she was upset because she trusted me not to do anything like that, and I betrayed that trust," he added after thinking for a while. Tozi's silence was worrying. Tozi put a hand on his forehead "I'm sorry." he muttered. He inhaled deeply "I got overwhelmed. I love Chuji very much, I don't want her broken in front of me." "I can see that," Obsidian forced himself to say. "And you have a right to do so, as I see now. She will be happy.... with... you." Awkward silence passed. "So, I'll see you around..." Obsidian muttered and ran from the room. As he reached the stream where he had talked to Chuji that day, he lay down in the grass and the forest went dark... One thing for sure -- Tozi was not going to be his rival anymore. He would talk, he would eat, he wouldn't be distant, he wouldn't be cold, and Tozi could love Chuji and Chuji could love Tozi and she would be happy and so would everyone else. He hoped. And then maybe he'd get over Chuji and he'd be happy too. If he had this time of reflection in the woods.

*[i can only assume he means three pages in the roleplay where obsidian tries to listen in on what chuji and tozi are talking about in the woods and fails because crystal is preventing a small flood]

First of all: Obsidian is just like me for real. "I am going to go in the woods and stare at a river until I feel better about this lifechanging loss that I have decided is happening in my head without consulting anyone first." Second of all: Augustine should really have found a more materially real thing for Tozi to confront Obsidian over but what do you know. Thirdly: ough. Obsidian's "Oh! I guess I get to self-sacrifice about this!!!" instinct still kind of hits. The fucking Greythorne Family Self-Sacrifice Disease. Themes and narratives! I know i'm reading too deeply into this source material but god the fucking DYNAMICS it spawned.... the gang and i were so smart.

and meanwhile, at quartz and spark and obsidian city:

"Hey there. I'm sorry....about everything. You're my best friend Quartz." she spoke. "No problem," she smiled. "I like Tozi....but I let that get in the way of my friends." she put her head in her hands "Thanks for forgiving me." A small smile escaped from her lips. "If only Charlie were here, he would be heartbroken." Quartz laughed. Obsidian came out of the building and sat behind them. "And I love Chuji, but I won't let it get into the way of their happiness. Not this time. Not ever. I've gotten a second chance, and I'm making use of it." Spark whipped around and started blushing heavily. "Don't tell anyone I like Tozi...." she pushed a stubborn piece of hair behind her ear awkwardly. "I would hate it if he or Chuji found out." Obsidian smiled. "Don't worry, you're safe. We live together, it's time to trust each other." Spark took a thankful breath. "Thanks. I owe you one." She looked at Obsidian "Maybe you should talk to Chuji. You can't assume she's given up on you just because she's glad Tozi's back. Maybe it's all a big misunderstanding, y'know?" He raised his eyebrows. "I want both to be happy, and they seem happy enough. Besides... I'm scared."

i really do like the richer and more complicated character dynamics that we're developing as we grow as writers over the course of Extranei Summer, and specifically the less expected interactions people are having. my thoughts on this are

a) spark apologizes to quartz without specifying what she's apologizing for, indicating this subtextual understanding that something about her feelings for tozi "gets in the way" of her friendship with quartz. the heterosexual explanation i guess is that her jealousy of chuji gets in the way of the group dynamic and that makes quartz sad. but while that is a heterosexual explanation, it is not a particularly good or compelling one

b) spark and obsidian are friends :)

c) chuji and obsidian have a mutual complete absence of emotional intelligence or knowledge of how to behave in relationships. i don't know if this should be as much the case because while chuji and tozi had a complicated ~best friends since the womb~ "hes my one true love hes my brother hes my best friend" type relationship where normal dating rules didn't apply AT ALL, the same was not exactly true for obsidian and silva - at least was shaping into something not true, the transition from 'best friends running around together' to 'i will bring her flowers at the midsummer dance.' what i'm saying is that, despite all evidence to the contrary, obsidian has more game than chuji. but it's still a race to the bottom don’t get me wrong.

d) obsidian is a profound reflection of my fears about relationships at the time. just check this out:

Obsidian laid back and stared at the sky, which had cleared rather quickly after the storm. Glancing over at Chuji, he knew he couldn't do it. There were no consequences to fighting battles except death or injury. Unlike talking to Chuji.

king, death and injury are ALSO bad. death is worse, one would argue, than having a difficult conversation with your partner. but i realize this takes not being 14 to realize.

i also realize now that while in 2.0 i had chuji and obsidian resolve this question at the stream, thus imbuing obsidian with more emotional intelligence and maturity than i had at the beginning -

Chuji smiled her soft, private smile and turned to Obsidian; her white shoes squelched slightly in the rain-wet earth as she made her way toward him. “Obsidian,” she asked softly. “Do you want Tozi reborn?”  “Of course I do,” he replied. “I was telling nothing but the truth back there.” He looked down at the ground, but then glanced back up to meet her eyes. “I regret our rivalry every day; when he talked to me, I thought I would get the chance to say that. Instead, well -”  “Did he say something to you?”  “He only - he didn’t say anything mean, I think it was a misunderstanding. I’ll talk to him later, when he has more strength. But what I mean is that - if you’d be happier with him, now that he’s back -”  “Obsidian,” said Chuji with a startled laugh. “That wasn’t even - please don’t worry about that. I love you for you and as you and always - will have always, Tozi or not.”  “And - you’re happy with me?” 

- and it is not a BAD SCENE necessarily, just a scene that suffers from the disease of "quartz has to witness every important conversation between chuji and obsidian so that we the audience understand it's happening - this isn't actually true to 1.0, where obsidian stays guessing about What He And Chuji Are until fuucking uh. their date at the gulf. which...... i am actually adding to the list of things i like better in 1.0 than in 2.0. for all that obsidian DOES need to develop a sense of risktaking and emotional resilience if his and chuji's relationship lasting into marriage is to hold ANY believability, it makes perfect sense that "so are we breaking up now that your dead boyfriend is getting resurrected?" would be a weird and difficult question to ask!!

meanwhile, quartz and spark's resolution is as follows:

Spark stretched and glanced at Tozi. He was a kind and amazing friend, so what if he didn't like her? He'd always have a place in her heart no matter what happened. If he wanted to be with Chuji she was fine with that. His happiness was her happiness. Her lips curled into smile. Quartz took Spark's hand, enjoying the sunlight.

look at these kids and everything they're not talking about. you love to see it, or possibly hate to see it.

and let it be remarked that quartz is so fucking gay.

enough so that when i reread the rps in 20 fucking 13 i saw as much. reallymakesyouthink.com

[alfrcdodiaz]

hahaha funny story,,, so i accidentally deleted this

[emonaculate]

Skater boy! Yuji Headcanons

❥ AU: Modern!AU

❥ Genre: Fluff

❥ Rating: Anyone can read

❥ Pairings: Skater!Yuji x Black!Reader

❥ Warnings: Mentions of injuries, mentions of mental health, HAPPY RELATIONSHIPS, Profanity

❥ Author Note: My baby deserves the most love and it hurts so bad that he's not real since he's my ideal type oml.

Yuji Itadori is a certified skater Boi . He's always looking for a new platform to ride on

Ironically the actual ground is the last place this mf wants to skate

Never backs down from a challenge and thats often the reason why

"I dare you to hit a kick flip off that lady's wheelchair."

"What?! No way. She could get hurt."

"I'll give you twenty bucks."

"Yeah still no that's horrible, 'Bara. I can't believe you think I'm stupid enough to-"

"And Y/n's baby pictures."

"Say less."

One potential law suit later

"NOBARA WHY WOULD YOU ENCOURAGE HIM."

"That bitch had it coming for rolling over my shoes."

"And Megumi why didn't you stop him??"

"...I was curious to see if he could do it."

Has a really large collection of boards

Various ones with different scratches and scrapes. He remembers each and every story of how he got them.

All of his boards come from the various places his older brother Sukuna has been.

Despite what the older will claim, every time he leaves his little brother, he actively searches out more boards to add to Yuji's collection.

"HOW THE HELL DID YOU MANAGE TO GET THE TONY HAWK TO SIGN IT?"

"Is that someone important? I just bumped into him and he gave me the board."

The only thing that takes up Yuji's mind more than skating is you.

His first interaction is definitely a memorable one..

It ended with him breaking his arm in seven places

"Hey, Yuji.. Have you ever tried to do the 900?"

"Yeah, gave myself a concussion tho."

"....what about off a deep freezer?"

"Dude... that sounds cool as fuck."

"No lets not do that, first of all, where are you gonna get a fucking deep freezer from?"

"Megumi, shut up. Stop trying to ruin our fun."

"You're just saying that because you bet that he couldn't do it."

"Really? You bet against me? Wow, I though we were friends."

"Hush, I do think you can do it. Don't worry. Let's meet at the skate park tonight."

The skate park that night was more crowded than it had ever been before.

Bets being placed left and right.

Just when everything seemed to be going just right and in Yuji's favor.

He saw you, standing beside Nobara.

A tall curly headed girl with the biggest smile he had ever seen. Skin practically glowing in the moon light. The cute little band t-shirt and jeans that hugged all your curves made his brain short-circuit.

Needless to say, Yuji in fact could not do it.

Despite the intense pain he was feeling, all he could do was focus on your panicked face as you tried to keep him from passing out.

Even when in the hospital getting lectured and cursed out by Sukuna all he thought about was your dimpled cheeks and beautiful smile.

As soon as he was allowed to return to school, he sought you out immediately.

"Hey, I'm Itadori Yuji."

"Yeah I remember you, I'm Y/n L/n."

"I wanted to tell you, I thought you were really pretty."

"I think you're pretty too."

Puppy love at it's finest.

The perfect himbo is your boyfriend and honestly its amazing

Expect study dates where he gives up half way through just to stare at you

"Yuji babe, focus on your work."

"Stop being so pretty then."

"You're such a dork."

"Mm but i'm your dork."

90s throwback Karaoke sessions because he loves your voice and the music

Late night facetime because he's corny.

"It's 2 am, what do you want?"

"I wanted to look at you before I go to sleep."

Cue you cheesing like an idiot

Doesn't really call you any nicknames since he loves saying your name so much

Sometimes will slip up and call you angel or angelface.

Mainly when he does something stupid and get hurt

"Yuji why the fuck is your lip busted."

"Sorry angelface, I lost my footing and wiped out. I did manage to miss hitting a family of swans."

You've become so used to his injuries, you started to carry around first aid kits and band aids.

It was supposed to make him be more careful but jokes on you he loves hello kitty band aids.

Wears them until you tell him he can take them off.

Often comes out of no where and gives you the most breath taking kisses

Loves seeing how thrown off you get

Makes it a game to see who can sneak the most kisses in during the day.

You both make your friend group sick asf

"I hate you both sometimes."

"For once, I agree with Nobara."

He definitely gives you his clothes because he loves seeing you in them

MATCHING SHOES

Don't play with him, yall definitely are twinning

He might be a skater but shoes creased? He never heard of it

Always clean asf

Definitely let you design one of his boards, hardly ever uses it because he doesn't want to ruin it.

Wants to teach you moves but doesn't want to see you get hurt

You are not allowed to skate without him

Not because he owns you or anything, he just really gets nervous that you'd get injured. its okay if he hurts himself but not you. You are not allowed to get hurt at all.

SHOPPING DATES

He will definitely will carry all of your bags. Not up for debate.

Honestly just loves spending time with you doesn't matter what you're doing. He just likes being included.

Definitely does a self care day with you.

Paints your nails only if you promise to do his.

Helped you wash your hair once and you both agreed never again

"Hey babe... does your hair normally turn yellow after getting washed?"

"...No. No it doesn't."

Fool accidentally bleached your hair.

After getting you to calm down and promise not to kill him, he took you to a real hair salon to get it fixed

SUKUNA PAID, definitely was not aware tho so don't mention it

That's how you ended up with matching pink hair.

"You know, your roots are dark again maybe we should wash it again."

"Fuck no."

Surprisingly does not do any drugs??

It's ironic really. He has no history of trying anything.

However if you ever wanna get high, IYKYK

The type of boyfriend that will lick or bite you out of no where.

Its actually so strange

Mid conversation he'll space out and next thing you know he's biting your shoulder. hand. cheek. anything.

You just get used to it.

HIS HANDS ARE ALWAYS ON YOU

whether his hands are on yours, your ass or back. He has to touch you.

Definitely slaps your ass out of nowhere.

Its usually playful but stings like hell

It becomes a game if you smack his.

"Hey, Y/n, have you seen my jacket- AH."

"Pay back is a bitch... Why are you smiling like that?"

"You're right, it is a bitch."

"Chill Yuji. I was just playing. STOP. NO."

You will never win rip lmaooo

While he never waits to tell you how he feels about you, talking about his feelings and mental state is very rare but he does trust that if he needs you, you'll be there.

Has a habit of placing kisses all over your face before kissing your lips if you guys have been around each other for a long time.

Demands victory kisses if he does a move right and doesn't get hurt

He is a caffeine addict.

Doesn't really need it but likes how it taste??

Drinks sugary frappuccinos and dark ass sodas

Still has the clearest skin ever so its really not fair :(

If you guys ever get into an argument buckle up, you arent sleeping until you two make up. He refuses to go to bed angry at you.

"Yuji go home. I mean it."

"I understand you're angry and that's fine but I'm not leaving until you say you aren't mad and love me."

"You're being childish leave me alone."

"Call it what you want, I'm not leaving. So we'll both just sit here looking goofy."

After you finally realize that fool isn't going to cave and somehow end up sitting in his lap. You give up.

"I love you and i'm not mad anymore."

"What? I couldn't hear you."

"I love you and i'm not mad anymore."

"That's what I thought, good night Y/n."

"...can you stay the night?"

"I was waiting for you to ask."

He spends more time at your place than his own.

Once freaked Sukuna out because he didn't return for damn near a month.

Please give older brother Sukuna a raise, he didn't ask for this shit.

Will def talk about you to anyone who listens. Even the girls that hit on him

"You're so cute, Itadori."

"Thank you, but my girlfriend is cuter. Look."

Proceeds to flip through his snapchat saved memories to show pictures of you.

Damn you could have just said you weren't interested shawty.

Hardly gets into fights but definitely has fought an ex of yours for having a slick mouth.

"What the fuck did you say about her?"

Definitely the type that needs to be held back from fighting when anger. Sukuna is so proud.

"Yuji its not worth it."

"Yeah that loser is ugly anyways."

"Thats right listen to the little emo bitch and home depot lesbian."

One brutal ass beating later...

"So I expect this from Nobara but Megumi... Again?"

"My hand slipped."

"Yeah right into that dude's face."

"In all honesty, I have no idea why I'm here. I'm an innocent bystander."

"Nobara you stomped on his back after he was down."

" I dont recall such a thing."

"We have it on tape."

"Moment of amnesia, like I said. I don't recall."

"...And what about you, Yuji."

"I only regret not knocking out more of his teeth. I'd do it all again."

So what he was suspended?

He gets time to plan more dates and play games at home.

In summary, Itadori is crazy about you and anyone with eyes can see that.

[quilleth]

Blorbo Bingo for your favorite MXTX character? :D

>:3 This is a tie between Xie Lian and Shang Qinghua (i know. you're so shocked by this information) so I did both xD Idk what to think about some of the categories but still xD

Xie Lian

Explanations and Shang Qinghua bingo under the cut because otherwise this is going to be very long and that will bother me lol

May be feral: my good dude spent an entire book going feral and burnt down a capital. like...he may have gotten over that but the potential's there xD

Can do no wrong: so a lot of the crimes were like...kind of orchestrated by someone else pulling the strings. but also Xie Lian should get to go ape shit if he wants. he's dealt with people and the heavens for 800 years.

Actually the Favorite: mine and also many characters in the book. this is not a good thing for him xD

Cryptid: the gods on his return "the fuck?! he's still around?!"

The adult in the room: specifically when around Feng Xin and Mu Qing xD

Accidental father figure: he saw Banyue and little Pei as humans and went oh these are my children now. and Lang Qianqiu. And then also took over taking care of Lang Ying

In desperate need of therapy: are they really an MXTX character if they aren't? (ok maybe some side characters don't, but not in TGCF!)

Angst machine: i'm once again just going to point to the entirety of book 4 and also anything with Jun Wu

Eats out of the garbage: this is basically just canon xD

Honorable mention: certified himbo. Xie Lian's not dumb of ass enough to actually be a himbo but he's close xD

And Shang Qinghua

May be feral: he did orchestrate the immortal alliance conference thing, and kicked lgj's ass. and successfully worked as a spy for at least a couple decades. like sure most of it was because of the system threatening to kill him again, but still!

Started out as a joke character: me at first: teehee hamster man is funny. after reading more: oh no...oh shit..i'm attached. aside from the fact i was already a little biased going in because i saw fanart of moshang before i read the book and went "yesss! the Height Difference, idiots to lovers rep we deserve" :3

Can do no wrong: he's a gremlin and i support him. also customer service and admin people should get to go ape shit every now and then. as a treat. yes i'm biased

bastard (affectionate): see above

pathetic meow meow, a soggy rat: i can't explain this one except that he's very sad and very pathetic

in desperate need of therapy: he needs some serious help with self worth, and the anxiety, and the everything from his first life/ family. and also to be blanket burritoed and given cookies and cocoa

angst machine: listen. he's funny and amusing on the surface but everything with his family and giving up on everything he wanted just to scrape by a living, and having no friends, and the (erroneous but he didn't know that at first) knowledge that the person he's closest too was going to kill him. again. like...please. i will cry

a muse sent by the gods: i have had so many fic ideas over the last year and written so much and that hasn't happened in a long time!

it's not their blood, i promise: see may be feral

relate to them maybe a little too much: oh look that one is a cynical, anxious MESS of a human being that has no idea how to be around other people because his parents fucked him up. mood. also living the height difference lifestyle ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

Chihuahua energy: he is shaking in his little booties because someone looked at him and now he's spiralling wondering what weird thing he did. or a demon threatened to eat him. or both.

honorable mention: eats out of the garbage. like...the boxes of instant ramen aren't garbage, but they're certainly not healthy xD has he had a decent meal ever in either main sv events or as an adult in his first life? possibly but not often!

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Please review anon's warnings before continuing.

note: I am not a mental health professional. I'm not aware of every aspect of your life. I may say something that isn't applicable in your situation. And, finally, reminder that I too am a human being with a past. Be respectful and mindful of that.

tw: su*c*de, sh, bad body image

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hi wiyllt

im tired. exhausted. drained. i feel crazy and obsessive. i got my academic results a few days ago and wow i havent cried like that in forever. in forEVER. i bawled, lowkey wailed about them. the worst part is theyre objectively really fucking good marks. 96% is not a joke. i am just so disappointed in myself for them. worst part is school's plastered the toppers faces up LITERALLY every corridor, completely forgetting the fact that there was a student who committed su*c*de just two weeks ago, after failing their exams.

ive been so depressed its affecting everything. i feel everything in every way possible. i feel doomed with my friendships, with my relationship, my future, everything. i hate myself like this. last month i got back into my sh habit and everythings going downhill so fast. i want to feel okay again. bad body image has been plaguing my mind and ive been binging on food since last month. ive been crying so much and been just such a mess in school and at home. i am so fuckign depressed i dont even know at this point.

did i mention i havent gotten my period in twenty fucking days.

I'm going to address this bottom to top.

Your period is affected by many things, both physical and mental health. My period is always late when I'm stressed. When I was at the height of my depression, my period came about every 40 days. I thought I was lucky. No. I was fucked up. Your body pours its finite resources for what it perceives as a threat first before going back to its usual routine programming. Sometimes your cycle jumps even when you're perfectly healthy. In nature, there will be outliers and that applies to ovulation too. Just happens. Track your cycle and see a gynecologist if there is a pattern.

To break your self-harm habit, you must remove your tools from your presence. They must be thrown away or difficult to get to. The first step to breaking a habit is making it not easy to do. The second is redirection, preferably to a healthier place such as creation. But I'm not an idiot and I know it is human to simply just pick a differemt self-destructive habit. Believe me, there are many ways to hurt yourself and ruin your life. You must draw a line at this. Do not cross it. Every time you want to do it, write down every reason you want to do it. Burn, rip, mangle the paper. Destroy it until it's unreadable. Keep writing. You better have millions of reasons and none of them will ever justify you doing something like that to yourself. None. Remember this next time and every time you want to do it thereafter.

Yeah, I'm telling you to give up. This, specifically.

Yes, you will still make bad decisions. Yes, life is still gonna suck ass. Yes, you will treat yourself like shit in other ways.

I did.

I don't know anyone who can just stop being depressed. You won't suddenly become a born-again human unaffected by their past (idk, maybe you're an alien, not sure how their biology works, I'll do some probing and report back). Even now I catch myself in moments where I slip back into old habits and thought processes.

You are responsible for yourself. You are responsibile for the bad choices you have made and will make. I know that is not fun. That is not what we want to do. Hell, I have no idea if a certified therapist / psychologist / psychiatrist will agree with me on this, but I'm gonna give it to you straight - the one who has to deal with the consequences of what you do is you.

I spent a lot of time blaming anything and everything, especially life for dealing me shit cards. I didn't ask to be born. I didn't ask for two decades of emotional and physical abuse. But I did what I did. I did fucked up shit. Things will fall apart. You will cry and bleed trying to put it all back together and it might be in vain. You will wonder, when does it get better?

It gets better when you take a moment and ask yourself, "What do I want?"

Not, what are the impossible expectations I have for myself right now? Not, what does everyone else want me to be? Not, here's all the things that are wrong with me and reasons I cannot achieve anything of substance or value. Shut those up for a second. You said, "i want to feel okay again." You can't feel how you felt in the past and anyway, by now, you've glamorized it to something better than it was. Plus, "to feel okay" is a bit vague. Also it kinda gives off meh energy (sorry, but it kinda does). You need something specific.

"I want to repair my relationship with (insert here)."

This can be anything. People, food, school, etc, but you need to focus on one thing at a time. You need to prioritize what it is that is most important to you right now. Don't set a bar for where you want to be at a certain time. Only focus on improvement. Some things may fall to the wayside and that's okay. You can't do everything. When you feel like you're in a good place with one thing, move on to something else. Go back and check on it periodically and search for minor improvements.

It sounds nice, but it might not look pretty while you're doing it. Life is life. There will be setbacks. Every situation, aak yourself, "What is the best version of myself I can be right now?" Not what was or will be, but right now. That might be something great or that might be getting into bed and going to sleep. Sometimes it be like that. Do one more thing than you would if you were feeling just a teensy bit better.

"I'm going to bed instead of studying, but I will set up my desk so it's ready for me in the morning."

"I'll eat one less today. I'm still gonna eat it."

"I'm gonna cry right now. I'll do something about it after. But first I'm gonna cry."

Little by little decision, you can more forward to a place you are more satisfied with. There will always be hardships. Always. But you can control how you react to them and how you deal with them. It might feel like you can't but that's because you need to direct your focus on specifics - what you can do rather than what is out of your control. To be the best version of yourself is to actively understand that you will not always make the perfect decision. It gets better. It gets worse. You are a different person each time. You learn from your past. Do the best that you can right now. Prioritize yourself. Live this life as if there is only one.

Time doesn't come back.

Be mindful of the past and the future, but don't forget to live right now. You'll miss important stuff.