#dirkroxysprite^2 kin

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hi! do you think i could get a dirkroxysprite^2 aesthetic? thank ya in advance!

done! please tell me if you would like anything changed!

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Aesthetic for dirkroxysprite^2

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A moodboard for dirkroxysprite^2! I hope you like it

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ah, i figured. that's alright. could i request a tarot reading for my dirkroxysprite^2 tl? all i know is I was created from rose's sprite, roxysprite, and dave's, dirksprite. I came into existence pretty late into the game, and I know i made it out to earth C. Roxy and Dirk made it out as separate people as well. (does that make sense? dirk, roxy, and me, dirkroxysprite^2, all existed on earth c) I also know i had a crush on John, and really cared about him. thank you so much in advance!

Hello Dirkroxysprite^2,

First off, I'm terribly sorry for my tardiness on replying to this one, life had unfortunately gotten in the way of things. Of course you can have a reading. 💜

Please mind the cut below:

Beginning

Page of Wands, Reversed:

The beginning of your existence, when you were first formed as Dirkroxysprite^2, was marked by a distinct lack of direction. Any desires or machinations that either party had in the works was halted completely.

There’s a strong sense of negativity associated with this card, along with a feeling of being caged. When you first came to be, it may not have been a catastrophic event, but it certainly wasn't welcome.

Middle

Death, reversed:

Death represents a major, life-altering change in your life. Reversed as it is here, Death indicates that you are afraid of this change, and are doggedly resisting it as a result.

It's likely this resistance stemmed mainly from your union. Things likely began to stagnate for you at this point in your timeline, as you refused to move forward and do what you needed to in order to continue.

Towards the End of your Timeline

Temperance, Reversed:

Temperance is all about balance. Reversed as it is, Temperance embodies the absolute lack of it.

This point of your life was likely defined by excess, living in extremes. You likely struggled to balance different aspects of your life, whether that be with one core issue of perhaps overindulgence, or many little issues swinging wildly out of control.

This card also implies a powerful, sharp focus on your part. However, you've forgotten something major in your quest for excellence.

You

The Lovers, Upright:

Not necessarily Romantic Love, this card represents 2 become one, a union rich with trust, confidence and strength.

Deep at your core, it's clear that Dirksprite and Roxysprite loved each other very much. Despite the obvious struggles that come with being sprited with another person, your friendship remained solid and unharmed. Unshakable, through whatever the game threw at you.

There is a difference, however, between being very good friends, and sharing a headspace with another person's every repressed thought, trauma, and insecurity. A struggle with this is natural, so I don't expect all the memories of yourself and your union to be good or easy. Just that your bond was stronger than all of that.

Challenges

Two of Pentacles, Upright:

This card represents balance, and the ability to adapt to change. It implies that rapid change has become your new norm, and that addressing and coping with these changes is essential.

You struggled with change, and you found it very difficult to strike a balance in the middle of the chaos. Considering the nature of spritehood, and the fact that you were, at best, 16(?) Years old, and at worst, less than 1: I don't find this all too shocking.

How you Faced Those Challenges

Ten of Swords, Reversed:

The Ten of Swords represents a betrayal that is deep and personal. Reversed as it is, the focus is shifted from the betrayal itself, to the recovery. The wounds are still fresh, but you understand that this needed to happen in order for you to move forward.

It's possible this betrayal came from yourself, one of your halves doing something unexpected because of the lack of harmony or balance. It's also possible the disharmony caused a betrayal by a friend (pushed by your action or inaction to lash out) or another party (an enemy noticing a weakness and exploiting it).

Regardless, this betrayal brought into sharp focus the balance you were lacking, and forced to to take action on it.

The End

The World, Reversed:

Near the end of your journey, when you were just a breath away from accomplishing everything you set out to do, at the last second something is standing in the way of success and celebration. Something has been left undone.

It's possible this overlooked issue had something to do with S'Burb, and you, being a sprite, may have been one of the few able to go back and correct it. This may have been what brought about your end. It's also possible that the end of your journey was simply your deathbed, and you left the world feeling both empty and heavy with unfinished business.

Your relationship with John

King of Pentacles, Reversed:

The King of Pentacles is a man of great worldly indulgence. Reversed as he is, it is a sign that you may have been indulging a touch too much. It indicates a tendency towards temptation, and sensuality, with a touch of greed.

With regard to our dear Jonathan Eggbutt, it's possible that you were indulging in his company. You mentioned a crush, it's possible he was unavailable in some way, (perhaps already dating someone) but you kept spoiling yourself with his company.

Another possibility is that John was the cause of your indulgences, and not the indulgence itself. He may have encouraged you to live more lavishly, and you took it to the extreme. Or perhaps you leaned on these worldly indulgences to cope with the fact(?) that he was preoccupied with someone else.

However, I must stress the nature of this card is negative. This relationship likely wasn't very good for you.

John's Relationship with You

Judgement, Upright:

Judgement is impartial, honest. It often signifies an honest evaluation of the self is needed. This self reflection will give rise to an awakening which will bring forth an entirely new way of life.

It's possible John found great comfort speaking with you about deep personal matters. John might have made a habit of bearing his soul to you, on lonely nights or bleak-seeming afternoons. If this were the case, it meant a great deal to him.

It's also possible he hid this deep self reflection from you, but that the crux of this contemplation had to do directly with you. Perhaps a sexuality, or gender crisis. Perhaps he was conflicted about an action you took in your timeline.

Five of Wands, Upright:

This card represents a battle between rivals, of an intense struggle for dominance. However, it implies that this battle is a show for power, to intimidate. There is no real threat in the struggle.

It's possible you may have been a little too eager to jump into verbal or physical battles to prove yourself. If this is the case, John easily saw through these displays.

It's also possible you may have enjoyed debating with John. Verbal (or perhaps physical) spars that may have looked to others like you took things too far, but John knew it was mostly for show.

Nine of Pentacles, Upright:

This is a lovely card, indicating a time of opulence and luxury after a period of hard work. There’s a great deal of satisfaction, and emotional stability in this card, and it's implied that the fruits of this particular labor are those that can be enjoyed over a lifetime.

You were a big part of what made Earth C wonderful to John. He enjoyed relishing in the rewards of this new world with you.

Advice

Six of Wands, Upright:

This card marks a journey from home initiated by past sorrows. You're leaving a painful place to explore an unknown with more promise.

You've suffered in your current situation. It's scary for to consider leaving, scary to venture into the unknown where the promise, the good is not guaranteed, but you owe it to yourself to take the risk.

You owe it to yourself to have an adventure. There is nothing good for you back there, and sometimes, the risk can be it's own reward.

Three of Pentacles, Upright:

Teamwork, collaboration, building. Several people of vastly varying backgrounds and skills working together to further a cause greater than them. Unity is easy, and progress is swift.

People want to hear what you have to say. They find value in your company, Dixy. They value what you say, what you think. But you have to do the same. You can do incredible things, if you reach out, spread the weight of the task. Give yourself the chance.

Ace of Swords, Reversed:

This is a card that has 2 main meanings. It can mean swift and brutal misuse of incredible power, (which I don't think applies here) or, it can mean you've overlooked a vital piece of information.

I've a similar theme in this reading, in the section 'Towards the End' and 'The End.' I'd recommend doing a little meditation to see if you can glean some more information on this.

As always, you would know better than I. These are your memories, not mine. If it doesn't feel right, it likely isn't. If any part of this reading doesn't strike a chord with you, I'd heartily recommend looking into the meaning of the card in question yourself. Tarot cards have many meanings, and another interpretation may make more sense to you. 💜

Thank you for your patience with this, I hope it’s helped you knock a few more memories loose.

Kind Regards,

🌹Mod Rose🌹