#donghyuckfanfic

[jjongchan98]

PAIN

You got out from the shower and got dressed. The morning, somehow, was oddly quiet that made you a little bit uneasy. You ate your breakfast like usual, just a simple sandwich would do. Finishing your early morning routine, you sat down on yor bed, starting to scroll down your twitter timeline.

Till your eyes caught a shocking news about your NCT 127 bias, Haechan.

You could not believe your eyes, blinking several time to make sure that this is really happening.

But it was still there ; “NCT Haechan was caught being in contact with sasaengs.”

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You spent up your entire day checking out about the rumour. The news had been circulating in twitter, creating a big issue between the fans. A lot of Haechan fans were posting their concerns, hoping that the whole rumour will just stay as one, but unfortunately, a bigger issue surfaced.

Some voice recordings were posted, one of them was a phone call recording. You tried to listen to them, but somehow your heart could not deny that it was not him. You were confused either to believe them or not. Some said the recordings was fabricated, that they were taken from the usual conversation in fansigning events. The phone call too, since the girl’s voice was retuned, she might have edited Haechan’s voice too.

Following the mess, some of the active fansites masternims cursed on him using their twitter, as if  they were claiming that they thought they have special spots in Hachan’s heart. And that they were disappointed with his behavior. After posting such things, they went into hiatus, or worse, closed down.

But fans were more rational. They took this as a way to swept away immature fans. Since the whole rumour was not clarified true by SM Entertaiment themselves, they stayed strong for Haechan. Together, they looked after each other, relaying their strength to keep supporting him. Let aside the ‘stupid fans’ nickname or whatsoever. Their strongest weapon right then, was believing, or in other word, having faith on Haechan.

This was when the whole kpop fandoms learned that some of the fansites masternim, no matter from which fandom they came from, were actually just like the other ‘sasaeng’ fans. It was just that they were accepted, since they provided us fans with hd pictures, since they were equipped with expensive and higher quality cameras to record the celebrities activities for the fans that would not be able to attend some events.

You follow the advices to not posting anything regarding the rumour, but instead joining others to post motivational words for Haechan. At this rate, the fans could only wish for the best, since they could not physically be with him. But judging from the bandwagon formed to bashed him, of course anonymously, online to bring him down, you know that this was a serious matter.

The issues continued for a few days, till finally, the girl who originally posted the rumour, stood up to tell everyone, that the rumour was totally FAKE. And yes, she only apologized online and vanished again just like that. She was just kidding around, but eventually it manage to shake the whole fandom, and the exaggerating rumours spread around, just like that. A painful mistake caused by a silly twitter post.

Some of the fans that stayed until the end could finally be at ease, although it took them their whole strength not to curse at the liar. (some of them already did). But still, the trouble was made. A lot of things happened in between. Loss of fans could not be stopped, but at least, everyone learnt a lesson. To not blindly believe in rumours.

Haechan, in the other hand, was obviously taken aback by the rumours. He might be shocked, receiving this kind of stress in his early career, in the age of 17, which was still too young to face such a rumour. His smile totally disappeared. He looked like hiding between the members in airports, not talking much in stages as he always did. At that time, you and other fans knew something. That the fandom had lose their sassy sunshine, Lee Donghyuck. Some of the fans cried, worrying about his condition. Even if they knew the members will always be there for him, but the effect of the whole mess on he himself was undeniable.

Would the sun shine back at his fullest?

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And the whole darkest era of the eclipse started. No more Haechan’s cute laugh. No more selca from him on the Instagram. He was even cut out from the entire official video updates from SM. Either the B-sides tracks MVs, or the behind the scenes videos. Completely out of EVERYTHING.

However, the fans were always tagged their official accounts with supporting messages for him, hoping that he would read them to know that a lot of people were actually there for him.

Months after, there was a picture of him smiling posted by a fansite. The whole fandom was so excited that they also cried, but this time, in eternal happiness. Thank God, the smiley Haechan was back. Getting closer to his 17th birthday, the fans were planning a surprise event at a certain concert, but sadly the event failed since the original idea was to sing birthday song during self-introduction. But there was no self-introduction by the artist. But anyway, everyone enjoyed seeing him at the concert, with his new magenta hair (yes, since it was a bit exposed why does they keep making him wear that beanie?).

NCT 127 geared up for their comeback with the title song Cherry Bomb and guess what? You were a proud mom seeing your son Haechan’s teaser photos, he nailed it. Even though everyone was expecting that he got more lines in the track, he ended up sing ‘if you’re happy and you know it clap your hands’, but still, you were crying like crazy at that iconic line (haha). You were grateful enough that he got a solo dance part, with that killer moves because once again, he nailed it.

At their comeback showcase, you watched them live with teary eyes. While tapping hearts and leaving various supporting comments, you realized how much he grew up. And his new style made him stood out the most. Seeing him shocked when realizing that the loud cheers were for him, you were deeply touched and sad since you know how much he deserved them, since he was a wonderful person. You wished he would think higher of himself.

You kept up to date with their comeback, watching the fluffy Haechan coming back little by little. Time heal the wound, you thought. Whether it was for him, or the fans themselves.

Going through the whole mess together, the fandom has been stronger. The new era of Cherry Bomb was like the new start for them. With high hopes to make NCT’s sytle of music acknowledged by the public listeners, NCTzens promoted hard everywhere, resulting NCT to get their first win on MCountdown.

You were so glad that you decided to have faith on Haechan that you stayed loyal to the end. No words could describe your feelings towards him. It was not like you want to date him or something. You was not more than just as a fan. You just want to protect him, just as if he was your little brother. You did not want to see him hurt. Not ever again. Deep down in your heart, you wished so that he stays safe forever and more important, to always be happy.

writer’s note : today marks the 1st year of Haechan with NCT, so this is a token of my gratitude towards him. please love him a lot ^^

[jjongchan98]

(HAECHAN ANGST) DATE

Haechan checks his reflection on the mirror. Suit. Check. White shirt. Check. Black hair. Check. There, he smiles. He wears everything that you like. He even asked the sylist to dyed his hair black. The hair colour that you thought suits him the most. Checking his watch, he has another 30 minutes before the date. Satisfied with his looks, he begin walking out of the dorm, to meet you. On his way meeting you, he bought a bouquet of red carnation . Smells nice, like your perfume. Just the thought of you make his heart flutters, and he smiles brightly. The weather today is just nice. Just the way it was during your first date. The fall breeze blows slowly and calmly that it somehow reminds him to how happy you were when he told you he loves you with all his heart. Your eyes shone brightly that he thought he was seeing shining diamonds in your eyes. 10 minutes until the time, his fasten his pace to make sure he’s not late for this important date. He remembers how sulky you looked back then, when he was an hour late, due to his packed schedule. He remembers hugging you tightly, whispering his regrets and apology to you. And how you cried a little while telling him you were not mad but you were just missing him so much that it hurt you thinking he forgot about the date. He don’t want you to cry anymore. Not after the countless cry you hide from him when he is not around. Not after what he did to you. He sighs. And now he is here. In front of you. Or to be more precise, in front of your grave. ………… You had been suffering with a strong fever. Living in an orphanage, you didn’t want to tell anyone that you were sick. You knew that the owner was having a bad time paying for everyone’s meals and school fees. So you just decided not to tell anyone. Even your dorm mates can’t tell how serious your fever was since you did well acting to hide your sickness. You just felt the urge of meeting Haechan. You missed his voice, and you are sure you would feel better just by meeting him. With high hopes, you dialed his number. But you were wrong. He did not even consider to meet you. Too busy, he said. He told you to eat good food and medicine and to make sure that you got enough fresh air. He told you that it was not that necessary for him to be there. That you were creating excuses to meet him. That you were being childish. Little did he knows that was your last phonecall. Little did he knows, that would be the last time he could hear your voice. Little did he knows, that it was his last chance to meet you, his love. And little did he knows, that the day after, he will receive a phone call, that will bring him a news that literally told him, that he was too late. ………………….. Haechan wipes away his tears. ‘This is not your fault’ , that you wrote in your letter for him, flashed into his mind. But he still could not forgive himself even it is already 7 years since you were gone. Not after he turned you down when you really need him. “y/n, it’s me. Is heaven really a good place to stay in? I hope you are enjoying your afterlife, dear.” He paused, taking a deep breath and continues. “I’m so sorry for not coming, for not being there for you.” Haechan is now sobbing, his guilt is taking over him. He spends about his next whole day talking to your gravestone, as if you are there, listening to him. When it is the time for him to go, he stroke your gravestone, already feeling hard to leave. “I will try my best, to be the best singer as you wished. I will never give up, no matter what. And I am going to be strong, because I want to be like you were. Even when I am alone. Rest well, y/n , I hope we will meet again, and this time, we will be together.” He slowly backs away from your grave, turns back and leave. And he will come again for sure.