#dont come for me kokoro is my fav

[t4tchreon]

dead meme but this is my take on it

[hinamie]

oh my god ok so i know im late I didn't talk about it because it happened during one of my Offline Eras but . but listen ok lisn the new former vandal album sent me THROUgh the FUCKINNG ROOF to be fair i knew it would like i joked about going upstairs to listen to it and cry when it dropped but i didn't think that every fucking song would hit me so hard in the kokoro it made me wail because I too have immense religious guilt ANYWAY im gonna rant incoherently and at length now hope u all missed me

ok first of all gotta shout out the fuckin album title i knew it was gonna be devastating when I saw it . fuckin. divine interference????? music for god's playthings indeed i eat that shit up i was like yoooooo hes also got a bone to pick with jesus go off bestie <333

so former vandal are artists visionaries kings so ofc tracklist is all mythology n religion-inspired (lazarus/goliath/ouroboros etc) and i think its so cool that theyre all in caps until u get to the end and the final song is denial and it's in lowercase and maybe its simple but i was like ART. ARTTTTTT. and it made me go back and look at the tracklist of their previous album and I realized that the whole thing was about vices and unhealthy coping with an overwhelming and forsaken existence but then the final song was Get Right (still my go-to comfort song to this day tbh tbh tbh) and it's like an acknowledgement that ok maybe none of this is the answer and something has to change anyway wrong album oops back 2 divine interference

i made a point of listening to the songs that hadnt been released as singles first so the first song i listened to was Lazarus and tbh probably my fav song on the album maybe tied with parables and maaaaybe even icarian. BUT LAZARUS SLAPS SOS SOSOOSO HARD god the theme of not knowing how to leave something behind even when it's bad for you,,, both criticizing but also mirroring the actual story of lazarus in the lyrics being like "wow kinda fucked up of god for resurrecting u without ur consent" but also acknowledging that he himself is guilty of holding onto the things that kill him.,,, GOD ITS SO FUCKING G GOOD I FDFGSADFGDG

salt also !!! BANGER not quite up there with the likes of lazarus but it gets bonus points because a. i lov the idea of starting to recognize that you're coming into yourself n an identity apart from your vices n traumas and b. for having two of the most RAW lines in the entire album imo which is reaaallly saying something: "now that everything's bright I guess I'm fine/but there's an art in the dark that took years to refine" and "the spark of divine intervention/that I'm still terrified I've left behind" (ALBUM TITLE DROP ALBUM TITLE DROP) god these two just dont miss and i love it but i am far too neurodivergent to contain myself they need to give me a break pls i am v i b r a t i n g

ok gonna move into the Chill(tm) tracks I think with goliath as well as shame/rotten I vibe more with the lyrics than the actual songs because i prefer my angsty alt pop to be Upbeat thank u very much but can i just say. the lyrics of these two songs ESPECIALLY SHAME/ROTTEN LIKE ok first of all i love the tonal shift halfway through that manages not to make them feel like completely different songs it's just jarring enough like there's been an acceptance of sorts,, like omg same i too am like 'god i feel like the scum of the earth might as well own it a bit',, "the fear of god/the need for blame" fuckin bullseye ow,, "I starve to feed the parts of me/far from who i oughta be/tell me are you proud of me yet?" FUCKIN BULLSEYE OWW

I know i just said i prefer my angst upbeat but crocodile tears (very upbeat very rock wuaw) is probably my least favourite track if i had to pick but it does have a lyrical BANGER of an opening verse ("holding the hand that's holding me under" g o d) i think i just don't dig the overall melody too much and find the ending a bit repetitive fr my tastes,, who knows though it took a while and many re-listens for ouroboros to grow on me maybe this'll b a similar story ,, but then again ouroboros had the advantage of echoing mine own mental health and self-destructive behaviours shdgj

ok so i was crying from the beginning right but the songs that made me ugly bawl were growing pains (very similar vibes to get right but in a "i know that i'm healing" way rather than a "i need to heal" way) and denial,, but starting w growing pains,, my god idk What they did with the mic/vocals after the bridge but it felt like the music was being injected directly into my ears secret direct path 2 my bloodstream god I hadnt felt chills like that in such a long time and idk just the whole Mood of the song having been hurting for so long and only now starting to recognize the damage you've done but also appreciate the progress youv made,,, i have so so many emotions but DENIAL (its funny saying it in caps bc its the only track in lowercase getit getit) oh my god ths going straight on the list of Songs That Make Me Think About My Relationship With My Dad but also Songs That Make Me Emo About All The People I've Grown Apart From and i think its so powerful to frame a personal transition away from faith as growing apart from an old friend and missing them despite any hard feelings holy shit though holy shit . the first listen by this point i had already been emotionally devastated by the Whole Album so i was like ok surely ill get a break by the last song lol nope sorry i ended up crying so hard i think i gave myself a headache

I think I must have yelled about the songs that they released as singles when they dropped individually but it's been so long that i forget what i said but honestly parables and icarian are still just as good as when i heard them for the first time (when parables dropped i spilled my tea on my fucking notes bc i was vibing too hard),, I love parables' msg of accepting the lessons ur (traumatic) past taught u and how it shaped u as a person even if u recognize that that person is someone hurt and in need of healing and maybe that has to happen alone! and i know for a fact i've gushed about icarian (still one of the most gojocore songs Ever imho dont fight me on this) but now looking at it in the context of the rest of the album i love that it's first cause it really frames the whole icarus thing of having flown too close to the sun or to god and getting burned and that pain essentially being the catalyst for the entire Journey tht the rest of the album outlines (obsessed w the fact that the next song is jaded like fr having these two songs one after the other is literally "fucked around/found out" gsfhjsh)

but all that being said not to b dramatic but this album destroyed me it rearranged something deep in my soul and i don't know who i was before it but i probably wont ever be the same :) i literally love these two so much im so appreciative of them its so rare to feel so Seen by a piece of media so to have an entire album hit so incredibly close to home for me and slap while doing so????? i feel so lucky . this entire album feels like taking the first step to address years of hurt and self destruction it feels like losing a friend it feels like finding yourself and i just . i love it so much

[kokorosfanfics]

im not quite sure if the requests are open, cause it does not say, so im gonna send a request. heres my request, can i get some headcannons where nagitos s/o wants to paint his nails ? yes, im aware, that sounds a bit weird. so i understand if you arent comfortable or dont want to do it. you can just go on by my request if you wanna !

have a hopeful day !

That’s not weird at all! I know plenty of guys who paint their nails. I even painted a guys nails once! And I’m actually very lenient with the rules, but they’re kinda vague so I should probably update them. -Mod Kokoro

Nagito with an S/O who wants to paint his nails!

*Is kind of surprised at first.

*You?? Want to paint his nails? 

*”Aww, S/o, you shouldn’t waste nail polish on trash like me!”

*”You’re not trash now tell me what color you want!”

*He decides on a royal blue.

*”Wow, S/o! You’re really good at this, I think nail art might be your second Ultimate! Think of all the hope you must have, with (Your talent) and nail art!”

*You offer to do some cool designs on his nails.

*”Sure! Do whatever you want!”

*His nails are glittery, and have rhinestones all over them.

*You ask him what he thinks.

*He loves it, because this a work of art YOU did, and he promises to treasure it forever.

*Once his nails dry, he hugs you super tight. Oh and, everyone gets to hear how “S/o is truly a symbol of hope! Just look at my nails!”

*He asks if he can do your nails

*Your nails are (Fav colour) with sparkles and rhinestones. 

*He’s going to ask Mahiru to photograph pictures of you two’s hands.

*You’re the reason why Nagito now loves nail art, and whenever his nails come undone, he ALWAYS asks you to redo them.

*Nail art is now an official couple bonding moment for you two.

[getpegged]

omg so here r some of my fav harohapi cards (doing 2 each 1 idolized one not)

Fav Misaki cards

The Other Me

Ok so first off this card literally makes me teary eyed!! she’s so pretty and she’s so happy and everything is just right in the world with her and her fursuit !! I dont like the idolized version as much but it’s still v cute!!! 

Sewing Together

OK THIS ONE I JUST ADORE?? Michelles outfit is literally so cute!! her little scrunchie her shoes!! and the background is cluttered with stuff but it’s got a really nice fun vibe to it yknow !!!? everything on this card is so detailed down to the fabrics and soles of the shoes and i think that’s just so beautiful

Fav Kanon Cards

Ever-Shining Sun

Sleepy stretching Kanon and aya as a whole plus!!! the energy just has this “wow go us...now lets take a nap” energy type deal and i really adore that, the way the sunlight is shining on them in what i assume is a dark library is just so comforting to me? also!! kanon is literally sparkling like omg... <3 the idolized version is adorable to but this card just feels so cute.

One Step Forward

Ok so let me start off with this was my FIRST and i mean FIRST bandori card i ever got from a gacha so im heavily bias here!! the unidolized version is very cute but i’ve always just loved the circus set!! the elephant, cat(?) and lion are all very cute!!! never cared much for the card itself ngl. just holds a very soft place in my heart and I needed an excuse to put it here!! cuz it means a lot 2 me :) 

Fav Kaoru Cards

HaroHapi Thief

I have this card!! it was one of my dream cards and let me tell you the rush of happiness this card gave me!!! kanon being held by kaoru is just so cute, like.. kanon really went O////O emote and I just adore everyones phantom thief outfits ^_^ 

The Star of the Show Appears!

I really do not know what to tell you other than I am just in love with kaoru this card perfectly depicts her in every way it possibly can you can FEEL her horse girl energy, you can feel her saying shake spear to you like, please marry me also the way the background horse and bird are so detailed is so beautiful? not to mention all the glitter on her suit!!! . 

Fav Hagumi Cards

I’ll Teach You!

underrated girls sleeping on eachother . this proves they are best friends!! to be honest hagumi was a hard one because unlike the others i quite prefer her idolized versions compared to unidolized!! i dont have anything to add really they’re just cute n hagumi is too!! 

Matching with Himari

This was a really hard one bc i love love love hagumis cards that are idolized and this is no exception!! its just the fave of them all i can currently find!! ^__^ i love the little hearts flowers and notes etc. all around chisato and hagu also her little bear shoe.. and hat... “come on this way!!!” like a child first going to a mall . i think thats how id describe this card and i think thats just adorable. 

Fav Kokoro Cards

Racing With Mr. Fishy!

This ones probably a suprise!! but omg the little michelle fish and the way her hair is done just makes me feel warm and happy inside!! I don’t have much to say other than she’s just purely adorable. and the fish!!!!!! omg the fish!!!!

Welcome Everyone!

THE BUNNY HAT THE DETAILED BACKGROUND THE OUTFIT EVERYTHGIN I JUST omg... shes so cute shes so adorable!!!! ^__^ very cluttered again but I think thats just a theme in harohapi!!! i dont have much to say other than cute!!! ^_^

anyways thank u for reading if u read all this i probably wont do another post like this for awhile i just wanted to talk abt harohapi to be honest!!