#droptheedit

[dropthedemiurge]

And isn't it amazing and incredible in its existence when a self-destructive boy, left alone by everyone and turned into a burden, hiding the scorching fire of his pain behind the mask and a glass of whiskey, demands and pleads of help so earnestly, so openly, so needy, knowing he will be cared for?

Ray x Sand (Only Friends The Series, 2023)

[dropthedemiurge]

I think I haven't posted my mafia FirstKhao edit, that's very rude of me. Haven't done photomontage since SPN fandom, I actually enjoy it sometimes more than drawing xD It's a meditation and it was fun to turn blackwhite photo into colored one.

Also IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES! Let First and Khao star in some adult raw dark series and have lots of tattoos and piercings. Let's go.

[dropthedemiurge]

when i was born, my mother gave a gift to me called Grief, for many years unwanted kid like me read fairy tales and foolishly mistook that gift with Care because the vinyl records in our living room were playing gentle lullabies into my ears they drowned out man's yelling and the woman's cries i didn't know the mother's hands should not be cold i didn't know the bitter drinks in glasses smell like death not knowing any better, i grew up her perfect copy – the same dead look, dramatic outbursts and mourning of life i longed for love but how can one discover something never seen? it only grazed my heart in bathtubs, drawn by a path of pills the actress passed a cursed theatric play to only child – – the ghost of one, who danced with Death more often than with other people; her hugs were cold, awaited and familiar

tonight i take a cigarette and put it in between my bleeding lips unknown singer lights it up for me, and suddenly i'm hit – your flame feels warm your eyes see me your touch is nothing but a gift of Care so maybe if you sing the lullabies to me the Death will never interrupt us she won't dare

– Ray (Only Friends Series)