#everyone around me & also a random personality test: you're autistic

[c0smicfern]

i say i'm just like harry du bois, but, apparently, i'm actually just like *checks notes* will byers, tina belcher, and viktor hargreeves.

[parallaxia]

list form rant about the guy everyone in the squadron hates

skinnyfat 5'8 dude

seems mid 20s but refuses to tell people his exact age

weird wavering muppet trаnny voice (not a trаnny but is the exact type of guy who would become one)

when you first meet him you think everyone's bullying him for just being kinda autistic, after you've known him for a bit you realize it's actually because of the following reasons

extremely incompetent and lazy but acts like he's holding the entire shop together

almost openly believes he's better than everyone else

has attempted to give orders and punishments to other airmen before (he is a SrA), no he's not even a team lead or anything, I loudly told him he was "acting like a jackass" for doing this yesterday while we were 3 feet away from a TSgt who pretended not to hear me

one time I mentioned in passing to someone at work that I had carried a Glock when I was a civilian and he decided to loudly interject that if he ever found out someone around him was carrying a gun he would kill them "in self defense."

seems to think hating rich people is a personality trait, but also comes from a more privileged background than most of us

was in charge of a snack fund we have for like two months, ran it into the ground, acted like he was fixing it the entire time. the sergeants are so addicted to their little sausage biscuits and coffees in the morning and got so mad about the state of the snacks that they ORDERED him to hand the reigns to someone else which is hilarious. legally ordered to relinquish the snacks.

often noticeably doesn't wear deodorant and had to be told by his team lead to start brushing his teeth, once showed up to work after a PT test without having showered

recently failed a room inspection so badly that our TSgt (same one who ignored me yelling and cursing at him yesterday) is like, assigned to babysit him about cleaning his room now

constantly volunteers to do things and then loudly bitches about doing them the entire time he's doing them + begs random people to help him

claims to have a "triple degree", no one knows what this means

I don't know how to explain his fashion sense but it's extremely funny

Constantly telling people killjoy reddit facts that are also usually wrong like "Easter comes from Ishtar"

Threw a huge loud fit about someone putting a CD drive on his desk today even though he constantly puts shit on other people's desks and takes their chairs or messes with other stuff in their workspaces, has placed random trash on my desk specifically multiple times

Tries to be in on in-jokes he doesn't get and it doesn't work

One time he pointed a NERF gun at a black SSgt so the SSgt was jokingly like "pointing a gun at an unarmed black man, I see how it is 😔" and now he randomly says slightly racist stuff to the SSgt all the time because he thinks it's some kind of cool bro military in-joke they have and the SSgt just laughs at how insane and cringe he is every time which he mistakes for laughing with him at whatever the fuck he thinks the punchline is here

The other day I was so busy in the morning that after almost an hour of working I still hadn't had time to grab caffeine and I was fucking delirious. Anyway I started sort of frantically looking for a certain thing at one point on a workbench that MY team is in charge of and suddenly this guy, who isn't on my team, appears out of nowhere and starts sqwuaking "STOP TOUCHING THAT DON'T TOUCH THAT DON'T TOUCH ANYTHING!!!!!!!! THIS IS VERY DELICATE!!!!!!" and I said "nothing on this table is delicate" because nothing on that table is delicate and he's like "PLEASE JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR JUST STOP TOUCHING STUFF!!!!!!!!" so I said "oh my god shut the fuck up" and I still have literally no idea what he was freaking out about.

[tittyinfinity]

Ok this is kind of a personal post but I'm putting it here in case anyone else relates

ADHD/autism related

Kinda long

Things that should have pushed me to get autism & adhd diagnoses a lot sooner:

Multiple stims throughout my whole life, but I've held onto one specific stim since childhood which is tapping things in a very specific pattern

Every social interaction is like a test that I have to "study" for – practicing every interaction in my head, thinking of all the possible things they could say and how I should respond without looking weird; closely paying attention to a person's each movement and tone of voice change in order to figure out which script to switch to; mirroring people because I don't know which social cues are acceptable to which people

Weird kid of every friend group that people only pretended to like because sometimes I was funny – always hearing that people are talking behind my back, boys making fun of me to my face while admitting to having a crush on me but not pursuing it because their friends would make fun of them

Embracing being ~*rAnDoM!!*~ as a preteen and doing things like yelling nonsense in the hallways with my other (now also diagnosed autistic) friend and wearing things that specifically pissed the other kids off

Oh so everyone else doesn't feel existential dread whenever they have to do one task? You're telling me people can have the motivation to complete a task before the very last minute when it's an immediate threat??

I'm really good at paying attention in class! All I need are my color coded pens of different thicknesses and my multiple colors of highlighters so that I can picture it in my mind (holy SHIT I had like 10-15 writing utensils on me at all times)

Wow I'm so so smart and at the top of my class!! ......oh I was just really good at standardized testing. Oh. Wow. I'm not smart outside of school. Shit.

HOW do people not feel emotion SO INTENSELY I just don't understand how people can just be OKAY WITH THINGS

"They overreact every time they get upset" "they're a crybaby" "it's not that big of a deal" yeah those were actually full on meltdowns! Yeah maybe it wasn't normal for me to be screaming and groveling over "minor" things!

I am walking out of this job right now because all of the noises and sounds are Too Much and I am having a panic attack at my desk. This must be because of the panic attack disorder I was diagnosed with

I can FEEL noises. Why can I feel them. Especially mouth noises. I grew up I a family with vocal/tongue/throat stims and I've had to wear headphones or put my head under a pillow bc while they can't help it, I also can't help that I have a physical response to it and it makes me want to explode. Repetitive noises and certain tones also drive me INSANE

No matter what you are not going to make me eat certain textures

Can't wear a bra or normal underwear without being aware of it all day bc it's all I can feel

Okay I'm going to start this task now. I mean now. Okay now. How about at 3. Oh it's 3:02, how about 3:30. Okay 4.

I am SO OBSESSED with this one thing that my entire life is going to revolve around it until it wears off for the next thing

Why do I feel like I'm so much further behind all the other adults at my age??? How have I not figured it out yet???

"The kid who asks too many questions" (especially at church)

I'm not going to follow this rule if it's not logical to do so

Having to fake a smile and engage in small talk with someone I don't know well makes me physically angry. Like not just annoyed. I want to explode and I want everything to explode with me

On that note: customer service jobs are worse than hell

I got so distracted with what I was doing that I've been doing the wrong thing this whole time

How many times can a person walk into one of their old classrooms and sit there before realizing they're not in that grade anymore

I've been talking to this person for an hour and just realized that I know them

I introduced myself to this person and they said we have met many times before

I can vividly remember every time I've missed a social cue and keep it stored in my brain so I can reference it for future situations. Also thinking about it makes me want to die

The same song/phrase has been on a loop in my head for a week straight now

Not everyone thinks in patterns and numbers specifically??

Nobody Fucking Tell Me What To Do

I very much also need people to tell me what to do because I fucking forget

(This stresses me out very much)

Idk if this has anything to do with it, but drugs affect me differently than others. My pain medication makes me energized and focused while making others drowsy. I can function and focus better after smoking weed. The only thing that fucks me up is alcohol, but anything else I've ever tried has made me feel more "normal" while everyone else around me is having a great time (I won't touch hard drugs because of this – I'd get addicted to meth or heroin extremely easily)

Apparently hypermobility can be an adhd thing? I got the record for the sit-and-reach test at all my schools and have always been able to touch the ground flat handed without bending my legs or stretching. I can also put my legs behind my head.

If I go through a major life or routine change I am fucking useless and mentally strained until I adapt to it

Me and my cats are Same

Half of my day is spent looking for objects I've misplaced

Well I'm on this website and that's a symptom too

[b-blushes]

Hi, I hope you're having a good day!! I hope I'm not taking up too much of your time but I have a question..what does fibromyalgia feel like? I'm wondering because for years the later it gets the more achy my body will get and whenever it happens I feel miserable :( I don't know if this says anything but the pain radiates mostly in my shoulder blades, both arms, both legs, sometimes chest, neck and back (usually my upper body aches way worse and it keeps me up at night) thank you for your time💛

hi! hope you’re having a good day too! i’ll chat about my experience with fibromyalgia under the cut in case people want to avoid it (as I’m talking about symptoms which some people might find upsetting) or in case it gets long (: (lets be honest it will probably be long, i am not brief! :P )

For me there are a lot of feels. The pain part of it is like a painful throbbing ache i think, but how i describe it to myself is ‘feeling like the inside of my bones is corrupted’. My pain tends to feel centred around my joints and radiate outwards but that’s just how the physical sensation of pain feels to me. Like, it just kind of *feels* like something has gone wrong inside my bones and that it makes a Bad Pain, even though the cause of my pain is dysregulation of pain signals, not a problem in my actual bones. I don’t want to spread misinformation - I’ve had lots of tests and my experiencing that pain as coming from inside my bones doesn’t mean that that’s what the pain ‘is’, if that makes sense? It’s just how i would describe my experience of it. (To the knowledge of me and my doctors, there’s nothing wrong with my bones! I do have joint hypermobility though which aggravates my chronic pain/causes a different type of pain sometimes.) I think the experience of fibromyalgia pain is different for different people though, and can also differ for the same person (so one person has different types of fibromyalgia pain?) (e.g. burning, stabbing, aching, nerve, etc.). I’m not an expert on the condition in general though, I’m just familiar with it related to my own symptoms/diagnoses, and it’s kinda complicated as I have several diagnoses that potentially overlap in being able to explain symptoms (:For me the pain part isn’t necessarily tied to time of day, but there are certain things that tend to trigger it and certain times that tend to be worse than others. Other times though, it’s ‘random’ (so I can’t point to something that happened or that I did as a ‘cause’, it’s just a bad pain time.)Some other fibromyalgia feels for me are:- nausea- fatigue, both mental (like brain fog, not being able to concentrate/remember/think straight, trouble controlling emotions) and physical (like feeling like i have no energy to move, muscle fatigue like blurry vision because my eye muscles are too tired to focus my sight)- trouble sleeping (like not being able to fall asleep, waking up tired, pain stopping me from sleeping or waking me up in the night)- headaches- vestibular migraine- dizziness/vertigo

That’s not an exclusive list but a bunch of things I can remember right now (: Some of those might be more autistic things, hypermobility things, or anxiety/depression things too, or might just be any/all of those pairing up with the fibromyalgia and exacerbating each other (: (or even a different undiagnosed thing, i honestly don’t know at this point! :P)Whether or not you match with all/a lot of those though, fibromyalgia seems like it can be different for everyone and has a wide range of symptoms that you can potentially have (although you do need to meet the symptoms that are criteria for diagnosis). If you don’t experience it the same as me, that doesn’t mean you don’t have it, or similarly, if you do experience those symptoms it doesn’t necessarily mean that fibromyalgia is the cause of them - there are plenty of other conditions that could lead to similar feels, either alone or together with other conditions. Either way though, it sounds like you’re dealing with a lot and that it’s worth looking into and trying to get to the bottom of! I of course can’t say if it might be fibromyalgia for you or if it might be something different, but you do deserve to get help for whatever’s causing your symptoms and fibromyalgia might be something good to bring up to your doctors to be considered or ruled out (: I found the Arthritis UK website to have a lot of useful information on fibromyalgia (although it isn’t an arthritis condition) https://www.versusarthritis.org/about-arthritis/conditions/fibromyalgia/They have a really good booklet that you can download as a PDF too, if you think it might be handy to read more about it (: I hope you can get to the bottom of it soon and feel a bit better! If you do figure anything out or just want to check in or ask other things, please do send another ask! I’m happy to chat with you about it and to hear how you’re getting on! Hope today is going okay (: