#everytime i have a ramleela thought it upsets me sm but like | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

theladyfae · 4 months

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once again thinking about how ram says 'leela jaisi koi nahin' like it's being punched out of him. he yells at god about it. lists her virtues and hates himself so much for it that you know he resents her too. for daring to love him and listen to him and give him the chance he asked for and let him drag her down because deep down he fears he does have that infernal trait in his blood and that he will end up hurting her irrevocably despite how hard he works not to. and then later when its clear they couldnt undoom themselves, that it was foolish to even try, that it wasnt ever going to be sustainable when he can't even break free of the role he's been assigned enough to reciprocate in the way she deserves, he sings along to the chant in ram chahe leela as if their love is the biggest joke of all, because at that point it is.

#everytime i have a ramleela thought it upsets me sm but like #leela can continue to give everything but he fears he cannot compare and so he just won't try anymore. and that is his failing #and he Knows it too but he just chooses to love her from a distance because ?!?!??!?!? ram rajadi eating u is not enough i need to #grind ur bones into flour as well #the MISCOMMUNICATION they dont hate each other they know that ofc they do but they dont show their love for e/o in the same way #leela would do anything she's raging she's antagonising everyone as much as she can but ram just sits back and lets himself become passive #goliyon ki raasleela ram leela #ramleela #ram rajadi #leela sanera #faera's

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