#everytime someone likes a post from the jealous series and follows me

[screamin-abt-haikyuu]

I find it funny how thousands of people followed me because of the jealous series, probably expecting more content of their favs, only to see me 99.99% of the time be like:

I'm sorry in my defence I wrote it in my bio

[midnightswithdearkatytspb]

VelvetCardiganBucky’s Recommendations 2021: Week 8 | February 14th –February 20th

Welcome to week 8 of my recommendations, if you would like to be featured on a future list, I follow the hashtag #ktkvcbreadinglist, message me, tag me in your future works, or reblog this post and link to your story, one-shot, Masterlist, writing challenge, etc.

Be aware some if not most stories and writers on this list are meant to be consumed by an audience of those 18+. My blog is also an 18+ blog.

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My Masterlist

My Fic Rec List of Mafia/Mob Bucky/Sebastian & Steve/Chris/Andy

Stuff I Posted This Week:

Dr. Darcy Lewis Playlist — Dr. Lewis – Astrophysics, Hacker, Music and Dog Lover, Nerd, and Hero

Bucky Barnes

(Mini) Series:

Man of the House 🐈 Pt. 3 by @literate-lamb » Sam Wilson x Fem!Reader & Dark!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader — A racket in the attic leads to a discovery of old memories. Your dissatisfaction leads you to a forgettable night. | First of all, my bad on not seeing that this had been updated, I’m so bummed I didn’t see this sooner. Second of all, this sent chills all over my body. The smut in this was so good and so it was just the right amount of thrilling/scary. I can’t wait to see what happens next!

Run To You Ch.3 🪙 Ch. 4 🪙 Ch. 5 🪙 Ch. 6 by @bestofbucky » Mob!Bucky Barnes x Reader — Mob boss Bucky Barnes hires you to be his bodyguard. | Everytime I see this story updated I get excited, and I also love how the reader is not a damsel. (Feb 18. Ch. 6) Oh my gosh that was intense but so good, thank you for making me laugh at the end. I felt like it was just what we needed! I can’t wait to see how things go!

Watch Out For The Quiet Ones by @eurynome827 » College AU Jock!Bucky x Reader — Bucky doesn’t keep it a secret that he slept with you, but he tells everyone you had a great night, that’s a lie, you faked it. Upset you tell the truth, he’s dead set on making things right with you. | This was straight to the point hot. It was almost like you could have read it in a coming of age book or seen it in a movie, with our the detailed smut scene having been in it. I would read it just for the smut alone but read it for the plot in a whole.

Watch Out For The Quiet Ones: 2 by @eurynome827 » Collece AU Sub/Jock!Bucky Barnes x Reader — A continuation from part one, but this time Bucky is back to make up for neglecting what could be the jealous reader and she has a creative way for him to do that. | I’m not usually into reading stories where Bucky is a Sub unless it’s Stucky x Reader, but this was just so good.

One-Shots:

Birthday Briefing by @drabblewithfrannybarnes » Bucky Barnes x Reader » You want your birthday gifts and you want it now. It just happens to benefit Bucky. | Carly did so good and I really loved it.

Gods and Monsters by @sweeterthanthis » Winter Soldier!Bucky Barnes x Reader — After being kidnapped you wake strapped to a table, next thing you know you’re just an offering for the “masterpiece,” to be bred. | This one shot made me sad but in a good way if that makes sense. You want to comfort Bucky so badly while beating up every Hydra agent while at it. Thank you Lau for the beautiful piece!

The Setup by @justagirlinafandomworld » FireFighter!Bucky Barnes x Reader — Still heartbroken from your last relationship, romance and relationships are far off from your radar. But your friend has taken it upon herself to set you up on a surprise blind date. God only knows where it can go from there. | I had Sebastian from The Little Mermaid singing Kiss The Girl in my head by the end of reading this. I absolutely adored this fluffy piece of writing and would definitely recommend it to anyone who is just in need of something sweet.

Alpinee Has Logged Off by @iraot » Bucky Barnes x Reader — Bucky had been neglecting his girlfriend lately and playing video games with his pals, he needs to make it up to her. | Pure smut, really good smut.

Lost Without You by @angrythingstarlight » Mafia!Bucky Barnes x Reader — Bucky Barnes would be lost with you. You’re his everything and he plans on spending Valentine’s Day proving it to you. | It’s so fluffy, that I’m not crying, you are!

All Dressed In White by @angrythingstarlight » Dark!Mafia Bucky Barnes x Reader — You were going to marry someone else, Bucky won’t let that happen. You belong to him now and forever. Till Death Do You Part. | This is so beautifully written, I almost felt as if I was actually watching it on my TV not reading it. It’s Dark and the smut is oh so juicy.

Lee Bodecker

Drabbles:

New Contract by @fuel-joy » Dark!Lee Bodecker x Reader — Reader just wants to get signed to a new agency but Producer Lee Bodecker just doesn’t want to make it easy for you. | This was short and really good! The end was also a surprise.

Chris Evans

Headcanons:

Dodger’s Day Out by @nony-bear » Chris Evans x Reader ft. Dodger Evans — You and Chris take Dodger to the dog park on a cold winter day. | It’s so fluffy and it has Dodger in it! What more could you ask for?

Steve Rogers

(Mini) Series:

The Riverter by @pagesoflauren » Steve Rogers x Reader — After escaping Hydra, you assist Dr. Erskine in helping Steve Rogers become Captain America. When Erskine is assassinated, you think your WWII career is over. Unfortunately, the SSR and Hydra are not done with you yet. | I really should have gone to bed, but instead I decided to binge read the four chapters and I can’t wait to find out just what Hydra is really up to. Lauren you really are an amazing writer!

One-Shots:

No Scrubs by @the-iceni-bitch » Steve Rogers x Fem!Reader — You try to keep Steve from dying of boredom at an Avengers charity gala. | Reader is badass? Check. Funny Thor? Check. Really good smut that you wish didn’t end? Check and check.

Andy Barber

One-Shots:

Just for Mrs Barber by @donutloverxo » Andy Barber x Reader — Your husband buys you kinky gifts (and a whole ass house) for your anniversary/valentines. | Fluffy and smutty just the way I like it. Thank you for the Valentine’s Day treat Berry! 💗

Stucky

(Mini) Series:

Caged, Bruised and Broken Ch. 3 by @river-soul » Dark!Stucky x Reader — A lonely scientist who is currently working on trying to find a breakthrough with Erskine’s serum catches the eye of Steve and Bucky, who are looking for the perfect wife. They’ll make her love them, whether she wants to or not. [Noncon, breeding, violence, psychological distress and explicit sex. 18+ only.] | This chapter had me in tears for some reason, even while the smut was so damn good. I can’t tell you how many emotions I go through while reading this series and it’s only 3 chapters in. READ IT!

One-Shots:

Sweet as Honey and Wine by @angrythingstarlight » Dark!Steve Rogers x Reader x Dark!Bucky Barnes — You’re the sweetest valentine anyone could ever ask for. Steve can’t wait to gift you to Bucky. His best pal deserves a treat. | Let me just say, what you think is going to happen doesn’t happen. I don’t want to confuse you too much but this is just too good not to read. The smut was also short and sweet!

Divided We Fall by @navybrat817 » Dark!Steve Rogers x Reader x Dark!Bucky Barnes — You sided with Steve Rogers during The Accords and sympathized with Bucky Barnes. When you found out they left Tony for dead in Siberia, you realize you didn’t know the super soldiers as well as you thought. And you had no idea that they planned to keep you by their side…forever. | All I’m just going to say is that very ending you don’t see coming and the smut in this is very good.

Little Minx by @saiyanprincessswanie » Dark!Steve Rogers x Reader x Darkish!Bucky Barnes — Dark!Steve drugs the reader with sex pollen and has his way with her multiple times. Bucky finds out what Steve is doing and tries to convince him that it is wrong. But, once Steve shows Bucky how good the reader is during drugged sex he can’t help but have his way with her too. | I would have to say very hot, and definitely a good way to end the day.

Thick As Thieves by @angrythingstarlight » Mafia!Bucky Barnes x Reader x Mafia!Steve Rogers — The only thing the Mafia hates as much as snitches are thieves. And you’re planning on stealing from Bucky and Steve, what happens if you get caught? | I did not see that coming, also the smut was just so good. *chefs kiss* (I can’t link this so..)

Misc.

One-Shots:

Loyalty by @navybrat817 » Dark!Andy Barber x Reader x Darkish!Bucky Barnes — Loyalty is something you’ve learned to both loathe and appreciate. | I really appreciate it when I’m reading something and it gives me chills and this did it. The smut is good but the connection between reader and Bucky makes this so good. I’m hoping for maybe a second part, if there isn’t, that’s okay.

[onf-headcanons]

ONF IN PSYCHO PASS AU (PART 3)

Setting : angst, murder (influenced mass murder), futuristic society, you can read the introduction post prior reading this AU headcanon (for a better understanding cos some keywords will be slightly difficult for non anime audiences)

And warning long post and shipping hinting (I wont write it over explicit but if you are anime audience you can get the hint of which character I based so its suggestive should you integrated anime counterpart to ONF couterpart) if you are uncomfortable with that just kindly ignore it. Only adding it not just because to follow original series but also for the AU/headcanon storyline conflict purposes

Below is the known situation when the story starts in Yuto's POV

Yuto - Inspector

Changyoon - Inspector

Hyojin - Enforcer former Inspector

Jaeyoung - Enforcer

Minkyun - Analyst

Seungjun & Minseok - dead

And again sorry if its messy (Cos mainly I just want this AU to exist and making it to a birthday gift for myself XD)

The whole structure is followed the anime,but I will skip filler/solo case episodes and fast paced-ify to focus on main storyline. Also I will tweak my words/wordings to a more simpler format so that I wont cause you all headache.

1-6

(loosely based on episode 9)

Due to recent events, Hyojin felt that Yuto need to get an upgrade on his skills of being an Inspector. He has good hunch but he still needs a proper profiling skills. Yuto mentioned that he did get to learn profiling skills on his training but both his seniors felt it is not enough because of his inexperience.

Even though a bit apologetic, Changyoon agrees with Hyojin that Yuto need to catch up to obtain veteran skills as soon as possible. (He only joined 8 months ago) . They both have the same person in mind who could help.

It is off day for Yuto, so Hyojin arranged them two to go visit a former professor of training academy.

The former professor is nice enough to agree on giving Yuto a crash course in profiling and extra tips for observant skills. Back in office, Changyoon advises Yuto that he better be careful and Yuto has to keep his own stance when approaching with people like their professor.

"One must have their own clarity so that their hue does not get clouded by others easily." Changyoon says to Yuto with a stern look. Yuto understands Changyoon's points.

And since they got their young culprit for previous case, CID tries to interrogate her. Changyoon and Jaeyoung tried to talk with the young girl during Hyojin and Yuto's absence but fruitless.

But when Yuto goes into the room to give it a try, the girl starts to open her mouth but not confessing or revealing details. Instead she made a request while looking at the one way mirror behind Yuto.

"That man with red hair, he is your dog isn't it?" the girl's choice of word made Yuto uncomfortable. "I will only speak to him alone if you allow me to, no cameras, no writings and no one behind the mirror."

That request was bizarre, the whole CID understands the risk of doing that as well. Jaeyoung also offers to step up and increase the interrogation with a bit of violence, but being rejected by Yuto. "She has kept quiet for that long and you think suddenly change interrogation tactic after request was made will let her mouth loose? I don't think so." Yuto tries to convinceJaeyoung.

Minkyun is worried, not about Hyojin's interrogation skills, but should there is something deeper, he is worried that Hyojin might get caught up into it. The only thing that can save CID and Hyojin from trouble was digital record of what happen in the room, be it video or audio.

Hyojin only pats Minkyun's shoulder and gives him a reassuring smile. And then gives Changyoon and Yuto both a nod before heading out the monitor room.

"Don't get clouded and played by the criminal, Hyojin." Changyoon blurts out his concern before Hyojin's presence exits entirely from the space the team was in.

Hyojin unplugs the surveillance camera and to let the young criminal feels assured, Hyojin brought in a few piece of papers and tape to tape up the one way mirror so that those who are behind it could not see what is happening inside.

Outside/behind the one way mirror, Changyoon is letting out sighs of regret of letting Hyojin going in alone and without any record to be left. Is not that he does not trust him, but since the system views Hyojin as delusional, how much of Hyojin they can trust without going against the system? He is worried to the extent he is rubbing his stomach due to gastric. Yuto notices that but Changyoon brushes him off and endure it alone.

Meanwhile Jaeyoung and Minkyun agreed that tech department should come up with a mini audio recorder that wont gain suspicions

Back in the interrogation room, Hyojin finally sits in front of the girl who is smiling eerily towards him. Hyojin did not back off, but he is not with his bright persona and his tone is cold as he speaks, "So, I heard you wish to talk to me? "

The girl leans forward, still smiling while contemplating at Hyojin's face. "Yes, I have been dying to see you in person." she whispers. "If I remembers precisely, Hyojin? Am I right?"

Hyojin's hunch starts to alert him, he does not like this. He clearly understood immediately that the girl is trying to get on the upper hand for the interaction. But he persuaded himself that his name might have been leaked during the process of catching their culprit, could be his colleague or Changyoon calling him and the girl heard it, happens occasionally.

But he quickly adjusted his mentality. He raises an eyebrow and leans closer towards the girl, "So you go through all the length just to get caught and meet me? I don't think I have that kind of charisma though..."

The girl lifts her hand and rest a side of her cheek on her knuckles/back of her hand, her eyes were still locked with Hyojin's. " You underestimated yourself, mister." she hisses. "And no, I let myself got caught because I still wanted to live."

Hyojin is not a fool and by that phrase, he can tell there is someone behind the young criminal from her words. And this smart minor, is trying to seek refuge from CID/Bureau. What kind of existence behind her, so frightening that even a murderer with a grotesque MO felt intimidated? Or was it because she is still a kid?

"Now that is rude," the girl breaks of the silence, "To go off into your own train of thoughts while ignoring a young lady in front of you."

Hyojin knew he is busted but he still kept his cool and poker face. He was an Inspector/detective before though. "My bad." Hyojin apologies while mirroring her posture and smiles at her fondly. "So why do you even wanted to see me anyways? "

"That's because I heard a lot about you. To the extent that my ears are going to bleed." she replies. "It was boring listening to it, while I do hope he talk about himself more."

Hyojin raises a corner of his lip and mutters. "Are you sure it's fine for you to drop hints like that?"

The girl only laughs and pushes her upper body backwards, her back comes contact to the back rest of the chair she is sitting. "That is to make sure you are paying attention."

"So how is he like?" Hyojin asks with a interested expression.

The young girl's smiles broaden as she thinks of the said person. "Brilliant. smart and handsome. " Her smile vanishes as she continues, "But my instincts tells me that you definitely wouldn't want to get to his bad side."

"Is he your partner in crime? " Hyojin asks and the girl shakes her head.

"More like a consultant or a middle person. "

"How did you come in contact with such dangerous existence?" Hyojin tries to sound as concerned as possible. "Is it group?"

The girl shakes her head again and starts to tell her story how she met her consultant for crime at school. He approached her during her own free time drawing in the art classroom. (This part you can follow anime where Makishima interacts with the young girl)

"Why are you betraying him now?" Hyojin asks after he listened.

"I put all the pieces together and I figured out that, you, could be his weakness." She smiles at Hyojin again. "Its a woman's instinct and I am pretty accurate for most of the times." She winks at Hyojin while at it.

"How so? Was it something he said about me?" Hyojin tries to sound that he is intrigued.

"The context since its vague. For most of the times, he goes Hyojin once said blah blah blah... or Hyojin once did blah blah.." the girl mentions " But I can tell that he cares about you a whole lot."

"He tried to tell me some stories in one go everytime he monitors me doing my work but I could not focus to all of it because I was busy cutting up my artwork, I only remembered how he laughed when he said you are a red-hair maniac." the girl recalls. "And that is how I recognized you."

"Did he showed you a picture of me?" Hyojin chuckles

"No, " she retorts, "He said you will never lost your love towards dying your hair red. Never once he met someone in his whole life has such obsession with dying their hair red. Should the two of meet again, he is confident to recognise you instantly."

Hyojin could not help feeling confused, his circle was not large and once he has turned into Enforcer, his ties were all cut and he is living in seclusion/under confinement by the system. So who is this someone who seems to know about him in a personal level?

Noticed that Hyojin is perplexed, the girl suddenly laughs.

"Oh dear, could it be you don't even know who he is???" She laughs while hitting the table lightly with her fist. "Oh my, what drama is this!"

"Looks like you got a fan, mister! An obsessed one." She exclaims while giggling at her thoughts. "Awwww....I feel very much sorry for him now. I was being slightly jealous but now...hahahahah"

This does not make any sense to Hyojin at all. There are so many criminals out there but this criminal mastermind admires a plain Enforcer like him with 0 notable committed crime, to the extent of executing a psycho hazard?

Hyojin decided to drop the act and asks the girl in a straight face who the hell is the person who told the girl about himself

The girl still finds the whole situation amusing , nearly laugh her heart out. She catches her breath while Hyojin patiently waits for his answer.

"I will tell you his name, he calls himself J-US." She wipes the tears rolling from her eyes due to laughing too much. "Does it ring any bell?" the girl questions Hyojin.

No it doesn't. But Hyojin regains his cool.

"I met a lot of people in my life, it will take some time eventually." Hyojin shrugs his shoulder.

"You'd better," the girl inhales before she tells Hyojin. "Poor him if you never remembers."

The girl then ends the topic by telling Hyojin that she will cooperate about her MO/crime. But what she told Hyojin in that room, is only for him exclusively.

"I don't think anyone will believe you if you told them that you got a fan." The girl's smile is back to the eerie vibe just like the moment when Hyojin comes into the room.

Hyojin leaves the room, closes the door and frowns as he goes into his train of thoughts again...

Who is this J-US?

Is the girl even telling the truth?? They never talked about the possibility of a mastermind in front of her so why did she and why can she see through CID's concern, found a perfect timing to prove the existence of a criminal mastermind?

And why she deliberately shared about this J-US to Hyojin only and purposely does not want it to be recorded?

Did she and the criminal mastermind behind wanted CID to break and having distrust amongst themselves? (If so its a smart move considering Changyoon's attitude towards Hyojin)

And should Hyojin told Changyoon about this J-US, will Changyon believe in him? Hyojin's hunch told him no.

And the most important point of all,

DOES THIS J-US ACTUALLY HAVE ANY THING TO DO WITH THE TERROR ATTACK FROM 2 YEARS AGO??

To be continued at part 4

[queenmaracasandlove]

Love Of  My Life Series - Joe Mazzello x F!Reader - How They Met

Word Count: 2400

Summary: Y/N works on a new Netflix project with Joe Mazzello but is deeply annoyed by him.

Warnings: Mention of alcohol

A/N: The ‘Love Of My Life Series’ will be a series of short One Shots featuring members of the BohRhap Cast x Reader. Although you will be able to read them indepedently, they will all follow the ‘same couple’ if that makes sense. They are not aimed at being very long and I will try to post one a week at least ! Hope you enjoy it. 

MASTERLIST

It was her first important job and the last thing she wanted was for the experience to be ruined by a stupid fellow actor. Working for Netflix was quite a big deal. If the show was successful it would be a big step in her career and she knew it. Unfortunately someone was particularly getting on her nerves, Joe Mazzello. Unlike her he was used to big productions and had been in the business for so long. But to her, he just acted as if  he was somehow entitled to take more space than the others. He loved to have a laugh between takes when all that she wanted was to go over her lines and notes before the camera started rolling again. 

She did not have a lot of scenes together in the episode that they were filming and still, she always found herself at hair and makeup as the same time as him and even though he needed much less work than she did, they often finished at the same time. She thought it was mainly because he was always joking around and that made her even more upset. To be completely honest she were also a little jealous of the way he was able to seem so at ease with everything, so relaxed. She wished she felt the same but unfortunately it was not the case right now and all she wanted was some peace. 

‘Could you please turn the music down?’ she asked

‘Excuse me. Did you just talked to me?’ He joked, looking at you

She frowned, what was he playing at again? She was definitely not in the mood. She did not want to be rude but the music was preventing her from focusing on the script. Usually he played stuff that she did not know but today it was like he was playing all her favourite songs and she could not help but singing all the songs in her head. 

‘Yes, sorry. I was just wondering if you could…’

‘You don’t like it?’ he asked, before you could even finish your sentence

‘No it’s just… I’m trying to…’

‘Learn your lines. Come on Y/N, I’m starting to wonder if you are not learning all the roles just in case.’

She pinched her lips. She was just doing her job, there was nothing wrong with it. She had worked so hard for this and she was completely terrified. 

‘Sorry Y/N I was just…’ he started

‘Joking’ she said, being the one finishing the sentence this time, ‘Yes I know. I’ve realised you did that a lot’

‘Do you have a problem with me?’ he asked. He did not seem angry, mostly saddened. 

‘No’ she simply answered

‘Great. So happy we could talk’

That was the end of the exchange and he came out of the caravan before her. After this they rarely were in the same place at the same time. Days passed and things felt a little better. She always needed time to adapt but mostly to trust herself with what she were doing. She always felt out of place and not good enough. But time was the greatest helper and the good comments from the team had lightened Sher mood. She was more comfortable with her character and everybody who was working on the project. Everybody except Joe. He did not annoy her half as much as he did at first. In fact, he was just quite cold with you.

To be honest she knew it was your fault. She had not been the nicest to him. Over the last weeks she had paid more attention to him, not only to things that had annoyed her at first but to the rest. She was actually quite impressed with his acting and could see he was very into it, she also noticed how he was deeply interested in the directing aspect of it. And she had to admit, some of his jokes were not as bad as she might have thought. But it was too late now, he rarely even looked at her when she was not in the same scene and barely ever talked to her. 

Tonight was one of the cast member’s birthday and they all had been invited. She thought that it would be the perfect occasion to relax even more and enjoy the experience while she could, maybe even apologize to Joe. She was never good at knowing what to wear but she had picked one of your favourite dress, a little sexy and very pretty, the type that made her feel empowered. She hoped that her feet would manage the high heels for the night and got off the taxi that had arrived in front of the restaurant. Her eyes looked for some of your colleagues but she quickly realised that she was early, as per usual. 

She went towards the bar and ordered a drink. As she was getting yourself on one of the stool, she looked at the door to see Joe coming in. She gave him a timid smile as he was looking in her direction. He seemed to hesitate but eventually made his way towards her. He did not seem especially pleased to see her and her gaze focused back on her drink. 

‘Hi Y/N’ his cold voice uttered

‘Good Evening Joe’ she answered, trying to sound as warm as possible

He ordered a drink and for what seemed to be eternity there was an awkward silence between the two of them. She was thinking about what to say, how to apologize about the other day, say something nice or find a completely neutral subject. But before she could open her mouth, a group of people entered the restaurant and shouted both of their names. She had been saved from this uneasiness. 

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The party was great. The meal was delicious and the drinks numerous. Presents had been opened and it was now time to dance. She felt really good and the inhibition had been replaced by confidence, due in part, to intoxication. She  laughed as her and her colleagues were moving on some of the best 80s tracks, her favourite type of music to dance to. Joe was dancing across the dancefloor and she could see that he was looking at her from time to time. She walked in his direction and extended her arm, an invitation to dance with her and maybe a peace offering.

He grabbed her hand and her body suddenly felt even warmer than it already was. His eyes were still fixed on her. She started dancing again and he followed her. Finally he started to smile and she relaxed a little bit. She did not what to say, maybe her gesture would be enough for him to understand that she was sorry. She was not great with words, but he probably had figured that out already. She tried to smile as he was starting to be goofy again. His dance moves were, interesting to say the least. 

‘Can I offer you a drink?’ 

The tip of his nose brushed her ear as he came closer to deliver those words. She shivered and agreed. They both walked towards the bar where the music was not as loud. They were both short of breath after the dancing. He ordered the drinks without even looking at Y/N. She was surprised to see that he had chosen your favourite drink. 

‘How did you know?’ she asked

‘You drank the same thing all night’ he smiled

‘Are you stalking me or something?’

She had said that in a tone that was much more reproachful that what she intended. A frown replaced the smile on his face and she felt stupid all over again. Before she could say anything he grabbed his fresh drink and walked back towards the others. 

‘Joe! Wait!’ she called him

‘What Y/N? What have I done wrong this time?’

‘Nothing… I just wanted to say sorry. I know I’ve behaved like a selfish brat’

He looked at her, surprised. She was kind of expecting an answer but nothing came, making the moment even more awkward than it already was. At first she felt like she was about to apologize even more before she noticed how he was trying to repress a smile.

‘Are you enjoying this?’ she asked

‘I don’t know what you’re talking about Y/N.’ He said with a smile testifying of the contrary ‘But apology accepted.’ 

‘Good’ she sharply said

‘I feel like I should apologize for always upsetting you but it’s not like I’m doing it on purpose’ he said playfully 

She did not how to react. It was not so much that he was upsetting her but the way he always unsettled her. He was standing right here, probably waiting for an answer. Clearly, she was not the kind of person who liked to lose an argument and he seemed to know it. 

‘You are not upsetting me’ you tried, not very convincing

‘Really. Why are you giving me the silent treatment everytime you see me?’ 

‘As if you had not been avoiding me !’ she retorted

‘What do you mean?’ he asked with confidence

‘Since I asked you turn the music down you always stand on the opposite side of the room or go somewhere else or…’

‘How did you notice? Are you stalking me?’

She rolled her eyes. He was clearly teasing her and yet…

‘What do you mean I noticed?’ she realised ‘So you were doing it on purpose. I was right’

‘Y/N…’ he softly said ‘For someone who always wants to be attentive to every detail, you are not very perceptive’

‘So you just did so to annoy me?’

‘Not really’ he sighed

‘Then what?’

‘Let’s talk about it when you’re less drunk alright. Your clearly too intoxicated if you’re not able to understand what I am trying to say’ he reckoned

And because she thought he was probably right, she followed him as he was joining the others. For the first time in a while she did not try to have the last word.

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She had spent the whole Sunday in her room, trying to get over the massive headache that alcohol had left her with. She only vaguely remembered what had happened after her fourth cocktails. While reading her script for the following day, she had noticed that she would be sharing a scene with Joe. She knew that she had apologised but the end of the exchange was a blur although you did not if this was caused by the alcohol or the lack of comprehension of what he was trying to say. 

She had thought about him most of the day. Sometimes she found herself thinking that although his dance moves were not always great, he knew how to move. She also thought about how a simple white shirt looked great on him. How he was always teasing her but was never mean. She had arrived early on set and could not help but be saddened by the fact that he was not in the hair and make-up caravan with her. She almost regretted putting on the playlist that she had made (yes,she had made a playlist while fighting the urge to sleep the previous afternoon) with the songs she remembered him sing when they were both getting ready a few weeks ago. It now felt suddenly ridiculous but as she was grabbing her phone she saw him getting inside. 

‘Morning everybody’ he simply said

Everybody answered and he almost did not look at her. It seemed stupid to her but Y/N felt a little hurt by this behaviour. She almost said something but he seemed to be captivated by something on his phone so she decided let it go. It was time to go on set and she found herself looking in Joe’s direction very often. They were playing in the same scene but everytime the director said cut he would be doing something on his own, looking at the script or his phone. Without realising she was talking louder than usual, asking questions in the open so maybe he would hear her. But at the end of the day he still had not talked to her. 

She was now worried and felt completely stupid. She was supposed to focus on work and not on some dumb guy who was teasing her all the time. As she was on the way to the caravan that she was sharing she suddenly froze and started walking in the opposite direction. She was more determined than ever. She kept reading all the names on the caravan’s doors before finding the one she was looking for. She knocked with determination and waited for an answer but nobody came. She looked at the window and saw that there was light inside. 

‘Joe. Are you here?’ you asked ‘Please, it’s Y/N’

A few minutes later he opened the door and all her confidence disappeared as quickly as it had came. He looked at her  and started smirking and she instantly knew that she was right. 

‘You were trying to impress me’ she said

Everything she had done today, the music, the loudliness, the urge to talk to him, it was exactly how he had behaved with her before she finally made him stop. But now she wished she hadn’t.

‘That might be a little strong. Let’s say I was trying to get your attention’ he admitted

She would usually have felt happy because she had found the answer, she had had the last word. But something in her stomach still felt weird. But it was not anxiety or anger, it was something different. 

‘But why?’ she said 

‘Why did you try to get my attention all day?’ he enquired, leaning on the ‘you’

She looked down and bit her lips before her gaze crossed his again. And she smiled. She did not know why Joe Mazzello would be interested in her but she definitely was not able to say he annoyed him anymore, on the contrary. And for the second time since she had met him she did not know what to say and was left voiceless. 

‘Are you free tonight?’

[kittymama01]

Bioshock Infinite (SPOILERS)

So, I want to talk about the Bioshock series.  It’s honestly one of my favorite game series yet, with the settings, the music, the plots, and characters.  And the plasmids!

Though, the third and last game of the series, is not one of my favorites due to the story they tried to pull off.  There are so many theories on how the story works or how it doesn’t work.  Here’s my take on it.  Throw it out.  Just throw it out.  Because they didn’t pull this story off, they just succeeded in creating a mindfuck.

So, for the first Bioshock game, the story is pretty simple.  There’s a city underwater that was created by a guy named Andrew Ryan. The fact that this city was a success, lead him and others into madness due to power. But, the biggest reason the city, Rapture, fell to ruin is because of the discovery of slugs filled with a powerful substance that gave healing abilities. Leading to plasmids, Little Sisters and Big Daddies. They called this stuff Adam and it's addicting stuff, which made all the citizens addicted and go insane. The whole setting is so creepy and the first time I played it, I was pretty scared. It's also just unsettling knowing you're underwater the whole time and that parts of the city are collapsing and being filled up with water. How did this game not get the horror genre stamp...?

So, pretty simple idea: you arrive in Rapture, a man named Atlas helps you out, and your goal is to kill Andrew Ryan. But, wait- what's this? You're actually from this city and you were created to be a slave and do what ever you're told to do with just the saying: "Would You Kindly"??? Well shit. Honestly, thinking about it- it doesn't 100 percent work...? Yet it does. Especially since Atlas is not Atlas, but a ruthless rival of Andrew Ryan, Frank Fontaine. He needed some way to get Ryan so, he had a slave created. Andrew was well aware of your true purpose, which gave us that infamous quote:

"A Man Chooses. A Slave Obeys."

Pretty deep stuff.

So, there are three endings to this game. Which are mostly caused by: Killing or Saving the Little Sisters. Or just not doing shit to them at all. I'm someone who always saves the Little Sisters, no matter what. I don't care what anyone says, they're only children- I can't kill children!! I always feel bad killing the Big Daddies though. They're fucking awesome and they honestly don't care about anything around them unless: it involves harm to Little Sisters or themselves. So, I rescue the girls which gives me the ending of getting the fuck out of the city with not all the girls, only a few (I'm guessing the girls that went with him are the only ones who really trusted him). He adopted them and they all got to grow up. Which almost makes me cry everytime I watch it because... It pulls my heart strings 😭♥️

So, for the second game (YES, I am talking about all the games so that I can make a point about Infinite, please just bare with me and thank you for reading), the plot is pretty simple. Andrew Ryan and Frank Fontaine are dead, the character you played as in the first game (Jack) is seen as a God (okay, no surprise there), and Rapture remains in ruins. You now play as a FUCKING BIG DADDY HELL YES!!! Who has a strong connection with one Little Sister. Your goal: save her from her insane mother. Once again, you can either Kill or Spare the Little Sisters. I always save them, which leads to the heart string pulling pure ending 😭

Now... Bioshock Infinite.

So, fun fact, I didn't know about the Bioshock series until this game came out. So, this is actually the first game I played. I didn't get far though because when I got the game, it came with a DLC of the first game. I was like: "Well, shit, I should check this out first". And here we are. So, the first and second games' stories are pretty straight forward, right? Well, not this one. The setting is now a city in the sky. The sky. As if being underwater wasn't bad enough, sure let's do the sky next. I felt a little sick whenever I walked around this city 🤢. You follow a character named Booker DeWitt and, honestly, this character is pretty dope but, of course, this game ruins him for me (a little). He's sent to Columbia, the sky city, to find a girl. He found out that this city is the home of a bizarre, scary, white people cult. Run by a madman called Comstock. And apparently, you were expected to show up due to a tattoo on your hand. A prophecy, ooooo~. So, you end up finding the girl, I guess she has powers, she's your partner, everyone is after you and I guess you go into different... Worlds. Different versions of your world... Ha ha... Cool- no. No, it's not cool for me. It's so far off from the first two games, just- WUT. Oh, and guess what, it gets fucking better! Booker and Comstock are the same person. Because of the war, Booker either does a baptism or he doesn't do a baptism, either way it fucks up the universes and how the Hell did Booker end up in the game's universe in the first place? Also, his super power sidekick who he was sent to save is his daughter that he sold to himself as Comstock because why not... Why not pull that move...

Infinite's storyline is so over the top and confusing that it just doesn't work... You can try to tell me ways of how the story works, but I'm sorry. The whole thing just doesn't work for me. If it works for you, good for you. It doesn't for me, especially after the first two games. Here's a version I came up with that maybe could have worked better? Maybe...?

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A man named Zachary Comstock was a rival of Andrew Ryan and was jealous of his success with Rapture. He finds a way to get people to build a city in the sky to beat the success of Rapture, this city being Columbia. Zachary is seen like a God, simply because of what he and his scientists have pulled off. His daughter, Elizabeth, is basically the black sheep of the family and sent a message to: who she hoped was Jack, the man who killed Andrew Ryan. Instead, the message reached Booker DeWitt, a private detective. Comstock found out about Elizabeth's secret message and did his research on Booker DeWitt. He had the city be aware of his arrival and thus, causing everyone to go against him. He and Elizabeth find each other, fighting against the madness of Columbia. There will be options leading up to either a good or bad ending. The bad ending being involved with Booker and Elizabeth's death. The good ending being Elizabeth and Booker escaping, Booker adopts Elizabeth and happy ever after.

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That is how much I love the series that I would go as far as to think of a storyline that's simple and not involve all this other universe bullshit.

I will probably still play this game just for gameplay reasons, which is not terrible honestly. The controls work well, the plasmids are badass and having the ability to move around in the city with that claw weapon is a lot of fun. Also, the twin scientists are very interesting characters but, of course, they're also involved in this multi universe horseshit. They could have just been two weirdos that helped out with the creation of plasmids and tried to help out Booker and Elizabeth against Comstock. But, they weren't even real from the looks of it, adding to the mindfuck of the storyline. Yikes...

And that is my post about Bioshock Infinite. If you reached this point, thank you for reading. I highly recommend this game series. Bye bye!

[incorrectborhapmobau]

On The Job {Part One}

Paring: Famine x Athena

Word Count: 2,2251

A/N: Okay, first part of a six part series. Bare with me while I try to figure out how to post fics. (Please have mercy because I cannot seem figure out how to put in a 'Read More' link 😖)

The first time Famine kisses Margaret is a couple months after she had started performing at the bar, and well before she and War started dating. It was during a job where he needed a date and who better than their lovely singer who had already helped them with some small jobs in the past. Their job is simple: go the opening of an art museum and make a deal with the owner of the building for access of the basement levels for storage in exchange for partial cut of the profit. An easy job really, but Famine was distracted from the beginning before they even had arrived to the opening ceremony.

If you ask him, he will place the blame on his ‘date’ for why it took him longer than anticipated to convince Mister Goulding on why the Horsemen should have access to the building. He would list his reason in this order: the first being that her dress was for too tight and the color too complimentary to her skin, the second reason is that her laugh is far too pretty and she needs to stay silent while they are together or he would not be able to focus, and finally the third being that Betty had done Margaret’s makeup too well because everytime she talks he is imaging smearing the red lipstick across her lips with his thumb to see the stain on his skin.

Even as he drove them to the opening ceremony, Famine kept on stealing glances to the exposed skin of her legs that kept crossing and uncrossing as they sat in silence. (He swears up and down she was doing it on purpose.) Nothing good was playing on the radio so they kept it off, but he wishes he had kept it playing so it did not feel as awkward as it really was. It only went downhill from there.

When they had arrived and parked, Famine wanted nothing more than to wrap his arm around her waist press her close to him as they walked, but settled on tucking her hand into his arm. The warmth of her hand shocked him and made him feel a bit silly because he is supposed to thinking of how he is going to persuade Mister Goulding. The problem is, you see, he can only think of how soft her hand had felt when he grabbed it initially. He can also smell her perfume which, just from smell, he can tell is a name brand knock off, but it does wonders for her and he wants nothing more than to bury his face into her neck to breathe it in.

Inside it was worse because he can see some of the guests, both male and female, watching them as they passed to congratulate to curator and Goulding, and it made him wish the room was devoid of people leaving only her and him together in the museum, job be damned. He would deal the consequences later, but Famine took in a deep breath (her perfume still making him dizzy from its sweet fragrance) and kept them walking forward until they reached the men of the hour.

“Would you mind grabbing a couples drinks, dear?” Famine asks sweetly after initiating conversation with Goulding and Mister Wrenning. He smiles when she nods her head, but is immediately saddened when her hands leaves his arm already missing its warmth. “I’ll have whatever you’ll be drinking tonight.”

“How are you able to focus with her around?” Goulding asks once Margaret leaves them to deliberate on how much of a cut he would be getting from the Horsemen.

“With great difficulty, Mister Goulding,” Famine answers honestly and the tone of his voice turns to steel as he speaks. “But I am afraid she is spoken for.”

At the bar Margaret asks for two gin and tonics with a sprig of mint in one and one without since she knows Famine hates mint. How? She does not know since it is a nice herb and flavour. She glances around the room while waiting for her order, analyzing everyone in the room just they were doing the same to her. An arm leaning against the bar next to her followed by an unfamiliar face crowds her.

“May I help you?”

The stranger laughs at her query. “No need to be hostile, doll. Just came over to ask your name.”

She narrows her eyes at him. “I am afraid only my date may know my name, since he is the one who brought me here.”

“Which one is he? Maybe he won’t mind if I ask for a dance.”

“You don’t understand, he can be a very jealous man,” she says with a faux pout, her voice dropping into a childlike tone. “I was only sent over for drinks while he talks with Mister Goulding.”

It takes everything in her to not lurch away from the handing touching briefly over her cheek. Those drinks can be ready now, they should be ready now, but the bartender is busy making two martinis. She does flinch slightly at the feel of his skin. It is too rough, at least Famine and the boys knew how to take care of their skin after a job.

“What’s your name again?”

“Ouch that one does hurt, kitten.”

Margaret pushes his hand from her face. “That is not my name, now leave me alone.”

The man chuckles, moving closer. “Easy now, doll. I just want to know your name.”

Her hand slides to her clutch, ready to use whatever Betty had put in there as a weapon, even if it was a tube of lipstick. “And I said no. Now if you excuse, my drinks are ready and I need to get back to my date.”

The gin and tonics are cold in her hands as she walks back to where she saw Famine with Goulding and Wrenning over by the grand piano that is currently being played. She can still feel that man’s gaze on her neck as she hands Famine is drink (without the mint) and putting her arm through his as she listened to the men talk business. She has no problem being eye candy for a night as long as her date will be able to understand what is most likely going to happen later. Just to be safe, Margaret slides one of her rings onto her wedding finger.

“And I’m telling you, Lucifer won’t pay you three quarters cut,” Famine explains tensely to Goulding. “You get a quarter and full protection of the Horsemen. I personally will see that our best is put on the team.”

Goulding just laughs at the counter offer. “Then tell Lucifer that he needs to see me himself instead of sending little boys to do his work.” Margaret can feel Famine stiffen and she glares at the building’s owner. “What my husband is saying, Mister Goulding, is that you are being a fool if you believe you’ll get a better deal than that.”

“I’m sorry, I don’t remember you being apart of this conversation, woman.”

“I also don’t remember you being in charge of this business transaction,” she spits. “You came to the Horsemen for a deal and they have given you one. We make a large capital with what we want to run through this building and even a quarter cut is more than you have ever dreamed of seeing. Now if you excuse us, we will have a few dances while you deliberate your choices.”

Famine lets himself be pulled away by her steel enforced words and soft hands as she leads them into a simple four step waltz. Surrounded by the other couples dancing, he loses himself to the piano and distracts himself by giving her a smile. Holding her close they spin, he also laughs because he accidentally steps on her foot.

“Sorry.”

She giggles at him and they continue to dance until Mister Goulding interrupts by tapping Famine’s shoulder. He finishes the deal while refusing to look Margaret in the eyes the entire conversation. When the two men shake hands, she feels proud as Famine escorts her so they can actually look at the art pieces displayed in the different halls. More than once they are laughing at the different couples finding a dark corner for a quick shag before returning back to the party. They were looking at Claude Monet’s The Water Lily Pond, her hand tucked into his elbow once more when this time Famine feels her freeze up and sees her no longer gazing at the art piece.

“Peggy, is something wrong?” He glances where she is looking and see a man approaching them with a tumbler of whiskey in his hand. “Hey look at me -- Margaret look at me please. What’s wrong?”

She has a twinkling panic in her eyes when she looks up at Famine. Famine has always seen her with strong confidence and pride, he has yet to see her nervous of even scared. “He was at the bar.”

“So this is your date then, kitten?”

Famine’s blood boils at this stranger’s words. Kitten? His arm drops to go around her waist and presses her close, just how he has wanted to all night but not like this. His hand is spread across her hip and waist in a show of dominance. He presses his nose into her hair and cannot help but let out a deep noise at the smell of her perfume, finally finally finally being able to smell it on her instead of coming from her.

“Who is this, dear?” Famine’s voice is low and his breath is puffing against her neck.

Margaret is glad he is holding her because she feels as if her knees will buckle. This is new. This is very new. “This is,” she lets out a breath to stable herself. “This is just someone I met at the bar earlier.”

The man looks offended. “And here I thought we were friends, kitten.”

“Don’t call her that,” he snaps at the stranger. “I don’t remember giving you permission to call her that.”

“Easy now,” says the stranger raising his hands in a mock surrender. “She did warn me that you’re a jealous type.”

“Did she now?” God even dark playfulness of his question makes her want to fold into him and stay there. “Did she also tell you want I do for a living?”

The man raises an eyebrow. “Why? Should I recognize you?”

“Darling, we can go,” Margaret says, pulling Famine’s attention back to her by pressing her hand to his cheek. “I’m tired and my feet hurt. Please.”

Famine looks at her gently and smiles, his hand coming up to hold her cheek as well. “Of course, petal.”

They had just began walking back to main hall where the reception is being held when the man stopped them again, an arrogant smirk playing on his lips and it made Margaret want to curl in on herself. She is going to bathe for a long time when she gets back to her apartment supplied by the Horsemen.

“How about two hundred?”

Famine moves so fast from her hold, a flurry of fabrics, that she sees the stranger hit the marble floor before hearing the sound of him being hit. He spits on the man, stepping on his hand with the heel of his shoe, and before she can react, Famine pulls out his Browning High-Power. On the side of the barrel is the horns and horse skull of the Horsemen engraved and being flashed in the strangers eyes as Famine squats down with his foot still on the man’s hand.

“You know who I am now, right?”

Margaret can barely hear him as he speaks, her breath caught in her throat and her hand resting on her chest feeling the elevated beat of her heart. She can see the man nod and Famine smiles, pressing his shoe harder to the ground.

“Good that’s good,” Famine praises. He presses the nozzle of his Browning against the man’s ear, releasing the safety with a soft click. “Now, if I hear you ever bother her again, or any woman at all -- if I hear any unsavory word about at all -- your scrawny licentious ass will find itself in my chair in Hell. My brothers haven’t had fun in a while so believe me when I say that it will be painful. Do you understand? Now say you’re sorry.”

The man on the ground is crying. His nose is running as he nods his head slowly and blubbers out an apology to Margaret without looking at her. When Famine lets him up, not bothering to help, the man walks away quickly towards the reception hall where music can faintly be heard with the sound of laughter and some conversation.

“Are you alri-”

Famine groans deeply when he feels her kiss him. His arms wrapping around her tightly holding her there. A hand gripping her waist and the other cradling the back of her head not caring about how much time was spent to make it look the way it did. The feeling of her nails scratching against his cheeks when she tries to pull him closer makes him shudder and the hand in her hair tightens.

“Thank you,” she whispers once she pulls away from him. She wipes gently at her lips trying to fix her lipstick and hands him a handkerchief. “I’ll be in the car.”

@prettiewittie @deakydeakydeaky @borhap-socials

[primvera]

My HoriKane Headcanon (?)

Yeah, I’ve started the rabbit hole and fallen into TouRabu hell lately (games and anime series), I really need to write down some headcanon about my OTP (maybe soon I will write down some oneshot/drabble, do not know yet, I need more historical information about these two beautiful swords, these cutiepies). I really like Katsugeki but more I watch about Tourabu and Horikane and I noticed that Katsugeki!Horikane is a little OOC (Kane has period in that anime from ep 2 till ep 13) maybe, but I really like the way they portraied these two ANGST YAS THANK U UFOTABLE LAST EPISODE APART HANAMARU WAS TOO HAPPY. Soooo, I began to think about something (Disclaimer: maybe these hc are far to obvious but I needed to write down something and sorry for my English italian is my first language)

Since Horikawa (btw how the fuck is he strong in the game?! He’s like terminator, stealing all MVP point to the cool and strong Kane-san) is older than Kane-san, I imagine that Kane’s attitude of being the cool one is kinda sort of showing Hori his value but he fails everytime and Hori saves the day in the citadel to make him sorta proud of his junior do not need this bc Horimama is so proud of his Kane-san.

Imagine the first time Kane and Hori met at the Citadel. Hori is so happy that the second he sees Kane’s figure he literally throw himself on him and hugs him before Kane manage open his mouth to speak. He hugs him so tight and tears stream down his cheecks. Kane hugs him back, really happy that the first thing he saw when he became a Touken Danshi is his partner he also is crying and Okitagumi are there to witness and later make fun of Izumi

He doesn’t know about Hori being missing in the ocean, he eventually finds out (maybe Yasu? Kasen? Nah, Manba-chan is more likely), Kane becomes super attentive about his partner (well, the fluff is needed sometimes) and he feels a little guilty bc he returned in Hijikata’s hometown brought by Tetsunosuke to became a memento. Horikawa notices this and he dosen’t tell anything to him, a little bit bc he enjoys Kane being a dork and a obvious one, a little more bc he really missed Kane and so he wants to spend every minute in the citadel with him.

Kane is a little jealous of the Kunihiro bros. They literally steal his waifu from him. But he knows that family is important. Horikawa notices his jealousy and likes to tease him about this. (yeah Hori is a little bitch but we love him right?)

If Kane or Hori get injured, both of them stay at the other one side till the recovery is complete. Kane is fucking worried when Hori get damaged, like *mom mode on* but he is really clumsy and in the end he fuck up everything (he is the youngest sword after all).

On the battlefield they are the strongest uchigata/wakizashi couple, Kane and Hori are equally strong. Their double sword attack is something that every new sword that enters their part wish to see since their teamwork is so famous.

I really want to write down a one-shot where Kane’s hair get cut by an enemy or by a random samurai that exchange Kane for a Shinsengumi member during the Bakumatsu period. Maybe Kane get caught and to humiliate him they cut off his fabulous dark long hair I wish I had his hair gosh. The only long bangs standing is the little braid on his right side (the one that Hori makes everytime he goes on a mission, i mean COME ON IT MUST BE HIM THAT BRAID THAT ONE). Btw, Shinsengumi Fam + Mutsu (MutsuIzu is my brotp) comes to rescue the pretty princess him and bring him back to the citadel. Now here I imagine Kane to be a little shocked (he’s a sword and he knows about the horror and the violence of the war but he’s become human just recently so...) and to fake his shock, but Hori knows him to well (they’re together since Kane’s birth afterall) and try to make him to puor out his feelings, really fluffy moments to follow ofc. So ANGST WITH HAPPY ENDING EVERYONE! (do not tell me I am an horrible person LOL). Guilty pleasure bc short-haired!Kane-san is so fucking hot JESUS CHRIST. This fanart (which is not mine so credit to the artist, really beautiful, I really love it) is where all started. Thanks to this, my love Kane-san has exploded and things escaleted quickly XD (PS: If someone has a better idea on how Kane’s hair gets cut off plz feel free to steal his hc and write down some angsty fanfic about this plz)

Hori is the only one that make Kane do what he want. He knows his soft spot and weakness and more important he know how to fuck him in every sense

Howl’s Moving Castle Au! where Hori is Sophie and Howl is Kane. Yagen is a sassy Markl (thanks to @shinemizuki for Yagen’s role in this au) and Mutsu...well, irdk yet.. Suliman’s dog maybe LOL

For tonight, it’s all folks!

See you next fangirl freak out post :*

[ask-svt-hearteu]

“to all admins (who are so beautiful it is sO UNFAIR) : it’s me!!! sofia ahaha and im sending this a lil early because i wont be home for christmas (:p) and i’d like to thank all of you because i can’t send over gifts due to the ocean. damned water. somewhere in december, i think on the 14th??? i will have known this blog for 5 months ! which isn’t that long but im looking forward to spending many more weeks and months on this wonderful blog. all the admins are so, so friendly, nice, amazing, interesting, beautiful, etc etc. thank you for talking to me ! thank you for being here for me during the tough times! thank you for your advice, thank you for your jokes, your rants, your posts, your everything. this blog has given me as much joy as seventeen does. really! i’m so happy i stumbled upon this blessing of a blog when i was still a baby carat and needed more knowledge. 

but please, you guys, get enough rest okay? i heard that someone (like joshua’s wife cough) doesnt get enough sleep and i swear im flying over. all of you are humans and you need rest. you all are in school and you need rest from school (which can be a pain lets be honest) and a break from writing. remember, we, as your readers and fans, care more about your health than how fast you answer our asks. we want you all to be happy and we wish we could give you back the happiness youve given us with this blog. i hope that in 2018, the blog will earn many,many more followers, the admins will make many more friends, and get more supporters (ok but i still dont understand why and how people send hate to the admins?? like fuck you man, these people work so hard arghhh don’t send them hate just because you’re pathetic and lonely and deprived of love and all the good things in life. Legit everytime I see a post about a hater i want to throw a pan at the shithole who hated on these amazing creatures. @jun @minghao @hoshi @scoups jom let’s go beat up the haters im bringing my frying pan and my sunat knife y’ALL BETTER WATCH OUT LATER KENA I SUNAT YOU) drink water, not alcohol : okay sO YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT A HUMAN IS ALLOWED TO BE A TALENTED WRITER, PRETTY ENOUGH TO BE A MODEL AND BE A SINGER ????? JESS IDC WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE G O R G E O U S YOU’RE SO QR3UBFD-BGQIF and you’re so talented and friendly and n i c e. You’RE SO HARDWORKING AS WELL YOU’RE IN YOUR LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL AND STILL WRITE ON THIS BLOG AS OFTEN AS YOU CAN (it really touched me when i told you me and my best friend were fighting and you sent me tons of dino pics and tagged me in pictures of him. that really cheered me up , thank you :D) i think you’re the first admin i started to talking to hahahaha and even though im really annoying you still talked to me? like ?? i heard that you’re in your last year of high school and i wish you the best of luck !!! do only what you want to do. Don’t stress about choosing the right college/uni or the right course, just do what you want to. Please take your time with the blog, college tends to stress writers out and whenever you feel stressed rEST PLEASE. pls make many many new friends in college and have a better diet than ramen 24/7 which doesnt sound too bad but that’s a lot of sodium. i hope everything goes well for you but remember if anything goes wrong or u just wanna talk im here! love youuu bb. 10:10 : ok sERI. WE REALLY NEED TO FIND TIME TO TALK because whenever i text you you’re in class and whenever you text me im about to sleep (damn these timezones) sighh. it’s okay if i ever have kids, i’ll sell them and buy a plane ticket to meet you. okay when i first started talking to you i was really impressed because you’re really..tough? like i really people with thick skin and people who don’t give a shit about what other say and tbh i’m trying to be more like that. people like that are so cool !! and ur so pretty and cool sighh im so jealous (you have vv nice lips dONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY I JUST THINK THEY’RE VV PRETTY oR dO I) also you’re really smart ! like you’ve gotten full marks for a test like woah hoshi is so lucky. i hope you remain thick skinned and brush the haters away, but it’s okay to feel bad once in a while, you’re only being human. but you can talk to me any time you feel down or u just wanna talk or rant or vent. i hope you don’t stress about school, please take a break if you have to (i dont want you to go away i want you to get the rest you deserve)anyways i love you ! my name is soonyoung, call me soon : APA KHABAR MY MALAYSIAN FREN ahaha im soooo happy i met you on tumblr. *ur the aesthetic queen* . i hope that we meet in person soon or one day because we live in the same country and won’t it be cool to see each other? we should have a photoshoot together. speaking of photoshoot im very happy to have a model sensei to teach me how to pose. also ur one hell of a sweetheart. you always share fandom things with me and i tend to fangirl in the middle of tesco or class because of you. hmm if seventeen ever come back to malaysia we should meet at their concert, given both of us are going. i’d really love to know more about you lmao you’re so interesting and you’re really patient with me!!! which is reallly nice. okay bb let’s find a date when both of us are free and leggo have some fun. i hope you don’t ever have to feel sad. well actually i think sadness is vital to humans so maybe anger. i hope you’ll continue to be very peaceful and freak out w carats and kpop fans across the glose and i hope that one day you’ll see naega hosh up close and p e r so nal. ilysm bb xxx my i geddit because wo ai ni so ur my love heh : hello my wife /name twin ish / dancer girl / jun’s / blessing to thie world. oh my god we need to talk moreeeee. ur so funny and we’re so alike (like we both swear like pigs) but we’re different because you’re so good at dancing! heck, whenever i dance i blind people from a 5 kilometre radius. all the other admins say you could dance my i with jun and i am sHOOK BECAUSE ho l ee s h i et also do you know what i would give to see you dance with jun? i’d give up all my memes. yeah, that’s right. my knowledge of all memes and vines and fre sh a vacado. apart from your dancing skills, you’re very, very pretty. i can’t believe you think you’re ugly , sweet jisoos, you’re have… the beauty of all the sunsets in the world. you’re actually really nice (stop protesting) because you’ve listened to me rant about all the damn drama in my life and you gave me advice. and you’ve never lost your patience with me. jeez i love youuuu !!! you’ve laughed with me and sent me dino pics to make my heart explode and you were there when i did something really stupid on kakaotalk. sighhh good times amirite? well we can still talk on tumblr. i hope you continue being yourself, the amazing person you are. xx love you to bits. seventeenteenteen : i survived. you havent killed me yet. i have stuck to dino faithfully. well actually, my first bias for like, a week, was memesol but then dinosaur found his way into my heart. i know y’all are busy and it may be hard but please rest. please don’t read mean comments, please love yourselves, please eat well. please do anything that would make you happy. each and every one of you are so, so important to me and i hope all of you are healthy. the8 please rest, i hope you get better soon. scoups, i hope that fever is gone. dino, i hope you find someone that makes you really really happy and i hope you wake up with a smile on your face each day and i hope people will stop prying into your personal life because you deserve to find someone you love and you deserve to be able to love that person without hate. i hope all of you don;t feel pressured to keep away from relationships because of selfish “fans” and i hope all of you will be happy. @josh @hoshi @jun you guys, please take care of your aegis. @josh wish ur gf luck for college, @hoshi stop killing these girls w ur visuals and @jun im waiting for u and sophia’s dance duet. i love all of you with all my heart <3333 thank you for a wonderful 5 months, i hope many more will come. love, sofia xx add on : i wrote this note before jonghyun killed himself and i’d just like to say this to everyone. the admins and the readers ; please ask for help. you are not alone. people are here for you. mental illness is not and will never be a light topic. suicide is never the answer. i know it’s hard but you need to stay, because we need you. i need you. it doesnt matter if we are close friends or complete strangers : you are so important. you are strong and brave and kind and smart and beautiful and you can get through this. you have people willing to listen. if somehow the whole world refuses to listen, im here. there are people around you who care deeply about you and please, stay. if any of you feel sad about the recent tragedy, take a break from tumblr, okay? i love all of you and please, stay safe. — sofiafabulousphan”

Admin Jess: Sofia, bb T^T I honestly can’t express how much your words mean to me. I love you so so much thank you for everything. I honestly won’t deny, it’s hard. I think it will always be difficult to a certain degree to run this blog. Not that I don’t love every second of it believe me, I just (LMAO LEAVE IT TO ME TO START TEARING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF TYPING THIS) I’ve never wanted to do something I wanted to just because I can.  I don’t run this blog expecting anything in return. I do it because I genuinely love, love the happiness it brings other people, because I love seventeen and I love doing it all. If I didn’t love it with all my heart I don’t think I would have held up this long. You’re right, it’s my last year of high school. My hardest year because I decided to take a multitude of difficult classes. I have cried tears over so many classes (I’m crying writing this response omfg PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER JESS), I have had plenty of mental breakdowns, a lot of crying whenever someone simply asks me if I’m ok or suggests I get more sleep. I have been an emotional wreck all year. It is my fault though, I did decide to take challenging courses this school year, but one can only run on four hours of sleep everyday for so long and not be emotional I guess. AND I WAS TERRIFIED. I was so scared that in the course of this year, through all the difficult hours of studying and finishing homework at 2/3am in the morning before having to wake up at 6am and walk to school by 7am, that I wouldn’t have the time or effort to do just the one thing I wanted to do the most in the world. I only had one real hobby I loved doing and it was running this blog (again hella emotional and dramatic sorry it’s like one am here when I’m writing this). So I forgo sleep to get everything done. It’s not healthy but in my mind, if I gave up on this blog for one day, that one day might turn into two days, which would turn into a month, and then I’d never be able to do anything ever again just because I kept pushing it off, treating it as if it didn’t mean the world to me when it so very dearly does. OK I’M RAMBLING ABOUT MYSELF NO ONE CARES JESS AHEM,,, My point is, I sacrificed sleep for school and this blog not because I was forced to, but because if I slept, this feeling of guilt when I woke up in the morning, a feeling of “ahh I could have done more, I could have been better” would permeate my mind for who knows how long. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone. I hate disappointing people. So to hear you say this blog and all the stuff we do on it makes you happy? It makes me think maybe I’m not such a big disappointment after all, and maybe if I keep working hard, I can continue making more people happier, and that’s all I really want. True, with college approaching, I can’t make any guarantees. I anticipate not being able to do anything at all, and that idea is scary too and makes me want to work even harder now while I still can. I will definitely try to get more rest though??? I mean no one likes a sleep-deprived me at 3am lmao, I may seem nice but at 3am I’m bawling my eyes out over homework and cursing at my posters and pictures of Seventeen and school and textbooks in like three different languages (it’s not pretty lol). So yes rest? Idk what that is... but I’ll try??? fjnvksjn? I think I recall when you first sent in an ask, I’m not too sure but honestly the blog is about as old as you’ve been here so thank you for being one of our first supporters (did you have a book with a flower icon hmm trying to recall)! The hate I think will always be a thing I’m sure, I just don’t know how to deal with it T-T I am very naturally a sensitive human bean, what can I say... LMAO I’M NOT GORGEOUS THOUGH it’s called filters, lighting, angles, and makeup. The only reason I look anywhere near decent is because I use a combination of those things to hide all my flaws LMAO. As for singing, I’m not super? I can sing a pitch correctly I suppose? I can sing a chromatic scale? Idk if that qualifies as good singing (I can definitely sing svt songs in broken Korean shamelessly no matter where I go though). I’m really not that good, but I’m not awful like a dying seal or smth. I don’t even think I’m a talented writer, I just try my best I guess. I do sincerely try my hardest. YOU’RE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL I 117% would listen to you rant or scream about anything and I’m just super grateful you don’t think I’m annoying lsnfdnvd. OF COURSE I THINK YOU AND CHAN ARE THE CUTEST (or you and Jongdae pick your poison;) and of course I sent all those Channie pics omfg, I’m always here if you need it^~^ Thank you for all your kind words love (AND IMMA PRETEND YOU DIDN’T CALL ME JOSHUA’S WIFE BC MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT KDFJNVKSBBDIBI I’LL CALL YOU CHAN’S WIFE ISTG I WILL) make sure to take care of yourself and you’re always welcome to come talk to me bb :)

Admin Meagan:  aaaHHHHHHH, really appreciate you Sofia ✨😩 Gosh, can't believe you wrote us sub a long essay AHAHAHAH. Also, SUNAT KAU AHAHAHAHAHAHAH (Non-Malaysians  wouldn't understand lmao) But yeeeee, thank you so so much baby for taking the time to send this ask in <3 It's been amazing knowing you and gosh you are such a sweetheart! Also, Chinese New Year is soon, let's go out together ;)) Cafe hopping at SS15 maybe? Hehe. I want my postcard AHAHA and to spend time with you of course!! <3 You are such a bright individual and Chan loves you hella lots. Thank you for always sending us such encouraging messages and for being a good pal really. But for reals, you mean a lot to me and gosh I can't wait to meet you. Also I not model material lah AHAHAH, only a certain days ;) but yess!! A photoshoot would be amazing haha, I can try to teach you some tips lmao. And yes, thank you for caring about our mental health. January hasn't been the best month for me, honestly it's been horrible but stuff like this really warms up my heart yah know. So yes, really really appreciate you man. Keep being so spunky and loveable. Take care, stay safe and I hope we get to meet each other soon ❤️

Admin Seri: SERIously SERIously, you have no idea how much this warmed my heart. ahh i so wish we could find a better time to talk, i’ll work on that :’) i’m not very good at expressing my feeling through words! and for that mianhae mianhae. in fact, that’s one very VERY COOL thing about you!!! expression your feelings isn’t the easiest and hey, use those feelings to brush for those haters. as you know love, other people’s opinions don’t effect me BUT THERE’S NOTHING WRONG with being affected! just know, those people are irrelivant, and once you realize they can’t do a single fucking thing to you unless you let them, it gets a bit better <3 but GIRL i remember you from the VERY being!!! i can’t believe you stuck around this long , you’ve seen all the changes, how much we’ve grown, it’s seriously amazing. becoming an admin (sure as hell didn’t know it back then) was definitely my HIGHLIGHT of twenty seventeen. there’s not a day that goes by where i regret it, not at all, even when our inbox is loaded or when i have writers block. and you being here along that journey warms my heart so so much! i’m not kidding sometimes i find myself in the middle of the night looking through all the comments or reblogs and GOSH i just see every single sweet sweet message you leave. AND OH MY GOD I’M ALREADY FOR SURE GONNA VISIT AJVBELJNGR IM ALREADY PLANNING TO ONE DAY TO SEE MEAGAN SO LIKE DUHHHH WE COULD MEET UP!!! just augh i’m super super grateful for you message jinja jinja ily~~~ <333 !!! {p.s. i totally wrote bodyguard reader! Chan thinking of you, ngl}

Admin Soph: As much as I love you and as much as you’re my ai. DONT GIVE UP YOUR MEMES FOR ME WTAF. MAN I LOVE YA BUT MEMES ARE IMPORTANT XD. And you might only be disappointed after watching me dance with Jun. Ah I wish we could talk more too :””) We get along so well and Im fucking positive were soulmates just looking at how similar we are XD. Ah im not really good at things like this. Im really speechless because damn boi I love ya and you took the time to write all this for us :””). Youre an angel sent from the heavens. AND ME PRETTY??? NUUUUUUUU.Just like what Jess said, filters and lighting exists. Im only cute tho (char). But youre more prettier than me love. Both inside and outside. You're as beautiful as the northern lights. And like the northern lights, you light up my dark days :””). We dont talk much but we always check up on each other man. Goddamn I love ya. I hope we can make more stupid but fun memories together ^^. And I will literally hug the shit outta you when we meet. Also can we like talk about how much we appreciate ya? You’re always in our inbox sending adorable and heartwarming asks to both Svt and us. I remember telling you that your asks about the admins literally brightens our day. How you're little “I hope the admins stay safe” means so much to us. I really hope you only experience happiness for the rest of your life. You’re a person I really appreciate and love. AS MUCH AS I LOVE JUN. HELL YEAH I SAID IT. hAHHAH Dont be afraid to come to me if you have any problem. I will always be here to talk to you and help you love ^^. Please take care of yourself too. DonT FUCKING SKIP MEALS. GET A LOT OF SLEEP OR IM GETTING CHAN AND JONGDAE. Ah im sorry if I didnt say a lot. I want to say a lot but I literally dont know what to say :””). I WILL MESSAGE YOU A LONG AS MESSAGE ON YOUR BDAY OR SOMETHING. I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY TO YOU GADBSVF ASNMK. For now, I love you and take care of yourself. You are loved by a lot and I hope your life gets filled with happiness and joy. Im also always here if you ever need to talk ^^