#evie rereads iwbft

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‘The pen. I need to take the pen and sign my name and sign my life away.’ The new contract would have fucking killed them. I think Rowan would keep at it like he is, absolutely miserable, and just become this robotic shell of a man making his way through the shows and the interviews and everything, Lister’s alcoholism only would have gotten worse, and Jimmy is a toss up of whether he’d be so stressed that his body would make him stop or if he’d actually kill himself from the pressure. Anyway. They’re 19 year olds.

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Eats drywall

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Will someone please hug Lister? He is hugging Jimmy every other scene someone please hug this boy

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There really is no other narrator quite like Angel Rahimi

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“But Jimmy’s my favourite because he feels so real. You can tell he gets a little nervous at events like this. His voice shakes a bit in interviews and when they accept awards. He tries his best to smile even when he’s not totally comfortable. He’s more complex than Rowan or Lister, or maybe I just understand him better, and I relate to him, the way he tries his best even when he feels awkward and smiles even when he’s not okay.” Angel talking about relating to Jimmy is something that can be so personal

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Starting a collection I call: give The Ark Oscar’s

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Owgh. Pain. ITS! ABOUT! HIS GRANDMA!!!!!!!

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Something about Rowan’s “but we’re gods Jimmy, what’s better than that?” vs Angel at The Ark concert “Rowan wanders, nodding, starring down the crowd. He knows they are kings of the world.”

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Why annotate my copy of iwbft when I can post all of my thoughts along with whole paragraphs from the book on tumblr

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OH GOD! ITS LISTER WHO BRINGS UP RUNNING AWAY IN THE BATHROOM!!!

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Angel “I’m probably queer but I’ve got The Ark to think about so I don’t have the time to figure that out” Rahimi

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Ok first chapter thoughts:

I think it’s genius to have Angel’s first chapter before Jimmy’s because you get to see the idolized, famous, iconic Ark thorough the fan’s lense before you get to see Jimmy trying not to have a panic attack in the car before an award show. I don’t think it would’ve had the same effect the other way round with seeing Jimmy and reading his internal monologue and then seeing Angel idolize him. Also I really like how the first chapter ends “I lean over her shoulder and look at the photo. There they are. Our boys. The Ark. Blurry, pixelated smudges, half blocked by huge bodyguards in dark suits. Rowan is leading them, Jimmy in the middle, Lister behind. They seem connected. Like the Beatles on Abbey Road, or a group of toddlers holding hands in a preschool trip to the park.” And I am going to pick that apart a bit cause I adore analyzing stuff. Firstly, I think the first sighting of The Ark in the entire book being a horribly blurry picture probably taken off someone’s phone in an excited frenzy says a lot about how no one sees The Ark as who they are, and only see them as these gods, to use Rowan’s own words. I’d also like to say that I know they always stand Rowan, Jimmy, Lister, but the way that it’s phrased even in the first chapter in Angel’s perspective there’s a slight distance but between Rowan-and-Jimmy, and Lister in the phrasing. Rowan is leading, Jimmy is in the middle. And Lister is behind. Also first of many Beatles references.

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‘You don’t have to…like me back,’ he says, and his voice breaks but I can’t tell whether he’s laughing or trying not to cry. ‘But please don’t hate me.’

! God

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HE MADE SOME POINTS!!!!! The entire book Jimmy and Rowan have been showing how little they trust Lister like he can’t see it!!! Like he isn’t aware that his two best friends don’t trust him!!! And also!! He’s right!! They are just the same as him!!

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Something about ‘god, please, please help me, please let me be happy—’ as he’s having a panic attack and then the next day he blows out his birthday candles and wishes for what he always does, to be happy

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“Are you angry at me?” “Do you just have sex with people to make them like you?” “Why did you tell Rowan and not me?” “Neither of you get it. It’s different for me. You can Rowan have each other but you have to see that it’s different for me. Being Lister Bird.” “Why else would anyone want to be around me? I’m Lister Bird. Why else would anyone want to be around me other than to get with me?” So many shots were fired in this scene. ‘Are you angry with me’ really gets me. Jimmy’s so pissed for Lister and worried for him and Lister’s first thought I’d that Jimmy is mad at him.