#feels like old tunblr tbh

[jessiesjaded]

It's been really nice making x files stuff and having people reblog with interesting or sweet or funny tags, sometimes even meta or a link to a fic, feels really good to actually have people like. Engage with stuff I spent time on ♡♡♡

[reduceduranium]

If I can't be seen, then I might as well be nothing.

Once again, Im back with a long ass vent/ little thing where I'm screaming into the void.

Gog, I miss my old account. I loved that thing, but if I didn't accidentally delete it cause of the awful tunblr glitch, then I wouldn't have my gimmick blogs or my personal ones.

I had several posts talking about my wish to be seen by as many people as possible through any way possible. One of those ways being kms on a stream like many deaths that are remembered and seen as a big deal online. That is probably the ideal way for me to die. But I'll have to make it to at least 18 to start streaming. And people would have to know about my streaming.

At one point, the way of seeking attention I was using was being a whore.

And now I'm doing that via my slenderblogs

I think that I might start fighting people or just hurting someone else or myself. Which will be easy.

I mean I already have several people in this very household that hate me and are willing to hit me first. I'm fucking set.

Taking a break rq

my partners. I love them. They're the best. <3

I'm worried I don't love them as much as they need, though. I'm worried they might start to realize that themselves, lmao. :[

If they leave, that their choice. I would understand that.

My darling ash is an amazing person who supports me and makes me feel better by just existing around me or even just talking/texting. I wish I could go to my old school to stay with them so we could see each other in person every day. Fuck I would love that. But if I did stay in that school, I would probably kill myself.

My beloved Benji is creative and fun to be around, and tbh equally as great to talk too, and they live an entirely different state. Which I can handle. Sometimes I think he only agreed to date me cause I asked, and not cause they actually love me or anything like that.

anyways, back to my original thingy

Fuck me dude I can't think of what I was gonna write here.

Uhmmmm, I can't stand not being able to do anything I want.

Anyways I'm tempted to go outside and walk till I don't feel like killing myself. :/

I will probably get in trouble for that, though, and I don't feel like dealing with being yelled at or anything.

[travosti]

I feel like the old days when i was on tunblr in 2015 and would pose like this and tbh i still feel cute

[cadreformed]

Does anyone else ever just feel so *tired* of how aggressive tunblr can be, cuz like i as a 27 year old will not be engadging in any nuanced conversations on here because the platform just isnt made for it and tbh i know its my anxiety but i have nightmares about getting hate for fc use acrossed all my blogs so often its stupid. Like its stupid i have so many things more important than an fc and yet AND YET

[brightmalcolm]

hi, i am the anon who asked "what happened?" it just, i am not in the states right now so i can't watch the latest eps. i try to keep track through tunblr and so but all the things about this ep confuse me. so can you tell me what ACTUALLY happened please 🥺

ofc! I’ll do my best to break it down, but there was a lot going on lol. Also idk what country you’re in, but maybe try checking the website flixtor to see if you can access it there? They have the new episode posted. 

Malcolm gets called to the precinct by Gil and finds out that Eve killed herself by jumping into the Hudson. Ofc, Malcolm doesn’t believe she actually killed herself, especially when he finds out she has been dead two weeks and that was when she had left a voicemail breaking up with him.

He convinces the team to open up a case on Eve’s death and when he goes to tell his mother what happened, she’s with Endicott and already knows Eve is dead. When Endicott leaves, Malcolm tells her Eve didn’t kill herself and the two of them go to confront Martin about what he knows about Endicott.

Ainsley is ALREADY at Martin’s cell confronting him about Endicott bc she has always been suspicious of him based on her research into his company. Martin basically confirms what he told Malcolm about Sophie to the rest of the fam and then tells them all to stop looking in to it.

This part is confusing tbh but Malcolm figures out Endicott used an assiasian to kill Eve, so Gil uses one of his contacts who knows contract killers and that guy tells them a woman is planning to assassinate some random tech dude on behalf of Endicott (?) that day. This is when Malcolm stabs the dude in grand central station; he figures out the assassin is the one who remains totally calm during the entire ordeal.

They arrest her and Malcolm tries to get info on Endicott, but Endicott uses his ~connections~ to get the charges aganist her dropped and she goes off to work for the CIA or something.

Malcolm goes to Eve’s apartment to look for clues, gets all Sad while lying in her bed, and notices holes in her ceiling where cameras are. Turns out, a man had been squatting in the apartment above hers and spying on Eve for months.

While that’s happening, Ainsley is following Endicott at a restaurant. He invites her to his table and basically tells her that he can make her wildest dreams as a reporter come true and all that shit and we don’t see her actual response to the offer.

Dani, JT, and Malcolm use the security footage in Eve’s lobby to look for possible suspects, and Malcolm recognizes a man entering the building as Martin’s new guard, who he saw when he visited his father earlier. They put two and two together and rush over to Claremount, where Martin is being strangled by the guard (who tells him “you shouldn’t have told your family about Mr. Endicott). Martin is about to pass out but Malcolm screams “Dad, no!” from behind the door and this makes Martin go Beast Mode (tm). He not only gets the man off him, he gets him to the ground and starts gorging out his eyes in WAY too much graphic detail.

WHILE EVERYTHING IS GOING TO HELL Gil is over at Jessica’s house getting drunk and reminiscing about the good old days. We found out that Gil actually wasn’t married when he arrested Martin, meaning he meet Jackie AFTER he meet Jessica. Apparently he and Jessica had feelings for each other back then but didn’t fully act on them bc Trauma and some “but we’re from too different worlds” cliches. Jessica is really moody bc of Martin pointing out that she’s now two for two re dating serial killers and feels like she doesn’t deserve love. Gil tells her “you’ve always been good enough” and they kiss and it’s sweet but also NOT NOW YOUR SON IS MAKING BAD CHOICES!!!

Malcolm freaks out in the conference room and destroys the Murder Board, Dani is VERY concerned. Malcolm has been hallucinating Eve all episodes and being very depressed and angry about her death and wants to do something about it. So he goes to visit Martin’s “guard” in the hospital.

Cut to a flashback of Endicott leading Martin into his nice room at Claremount. He basically tells Martin do NOT fuck with me or I will ruin ur life and also have sex with Jessica by she is truly The MILF.

And then...Malcolm is sitting at home drinking, being depressed about Eve and hallucinating her. Suddenly, ESU breaks down his door, Gil and co come in and arrest him for the guards murder bc Edrisa found Malcolm’s DNA under his fingernails. Yikes. End of Episode.