#giggles. stella & catnip

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Mmmmmmm angst. Any kind of angst..... i want to hurt emotionally so bad oh my god i want to see mc get really hurt or something idk n then felix just losing his shit???? We simply just dont stop hurting him huh? I have so many ideas and scenarios but most of them dont make sense bc my mc is all over the place bc i am too but like,,,,,, the classic spell backfires.... or mc n felix go out idk to the market or something n they get lost n separated in the woods n bc astrea or however its spelled is a different world it has different creatures n lets say theres a huge monster in the forest idk like....i just want angst i haven't seen much of it in the fandom and honestly? A crime. omg arguments.... maybe mc n felix get into an argument n say some fucked up shit to eachother n they're too caught up in the moment to realize or apologize,,,,,,,,,,,, there are endless possibilities if ur willing to hurt the characters

— felix after mc injures themself

note from nia: i am willing to hurt them. i am a girlboss of the people. but also i can't do angst without my comfort please god. ((also felix sort of losing his shit over mc getting hurt comes later in an intended rime angst woopsies //nvm guys i just checked it's calm it's tame))

mc trying a new spell alone that felix said they would have to be careful about since it calls for a lot of precision and focus

of course he trusted they'd be able to get it eventually but it wasn't exactly the most beginner, or even novice-friendly thing to cast

just wanted to make sure they were safe smh </3

but he had been helping and keeping them safe for so long that they wanted to surprise him

it backfired . quickly

"mc! we're back, i found the novel we had been—mc?"

the books in his arms fall and he yells their name again, tripping his way over to them past the scattered pages and notebooks on the floor

he grabs their face and checks for a pulse, his hands shaking and vision getting blurry

all he can think of is holding rime's body the same way before he died and he feels his stomach churn

"no no no please, please you can't- i can't lose you like this. i can't do this again,"

he barely remembers what happened after calling for anisa and sage . only the blood on his hands as he held theirs

it's okay guys after a few of days falling in and out of conscience they wake up :heart_eyes: he's never been so relieved

checks their temperature and injuries etc. etc. and hugs them lightly

but omg...you're telling me strong emotions and traumatic events can make people emotionally unstable especially when it revolves around someone they love...? no way

"what were you thinking? why did you try to do that?"

. . .ok. what happened to hello? how are you? my name is?

"i just wanted to surprise you," "well you definitely succeeded in that sense. you can't imagine the surprise i felt when i walked in and saw you bleeding out on the floor in the middle of a mess of books and debris. i told you we should wait."

they can tell he's tired, agitated. but they still (rightfully) feel the need to at least try and defend themself, "i thought i could do it, felix"

he just scoffs a little, exasperated, "obviously you couldn't."

mc isn't usually, if ever, on the receiving end of his snarky replies. and to have it happen now? uncalled for.

"don't use that tone with me. i had good intentions and you know it. what am i going to do when we have to fight someone stronger, when we face the lord of shadows? i need to get better faster and i thought—i thought i had to try."

"you won't get to face him if you injure yourself before it even happens. you have to know your limits and be responsible even when i'm not watching—"

"be responsible? that's funny coming from you. and i didn't even ask to be here! i didn't ask for all of this—this magical, dangerous, bullshit with assholes and monsters and an antagonist literally called the Lord of Shadows. you know that better than anyone."

and they're right.

felix knows full well that their presence in astraea was his doing. his mistake. and they're still healing and been nothing but good for him but he's frustrated and confused and he doesn't know why but suddenly

"really? well i apologize, mc. then i'm sure you'll be glad to know i wish i succeeded with bringing back rime instead of you."

. . .

the room is silent enough you'd hear a pin drop from outside

the anger in his eyes dissipates, turning into realization and regret "mc, i—"

"that was low, felix. but if you really feel that way then fine. leave."

"please, i didn't mean—" "leave."

he realizes they're serious when they turn away and refuse to look at him. another mistake to add to his ever-growing list

he finds himself back in his room and he feels like the guilt is going to Eat him alive

he can't focus on any research, any spells, anything that sage and anisa are saying during their meetings

everytime he'd walk by the novels he had gotten for the both of them he felt like the biggest asshole in the world. he had to move them to a bookshelf away from his line of sight

sage and anisa are appointed the duty of checking in on mc which is how they find out what happened

both are probably upset at felix themselves but try to reassure them that "he'll come back around and apologize eventually."

he doesn't

not because he doesn't want to. but because he doesn't know how, or if they even want to see him. he finds himself wanting to laugh at the pattern of him being scared and ruining things

when mc is finally feeling better enough to walk around and try to get into a rhythm of things. the tension in the air could be cut with a dull butter knife

they refuse to make eye contact and keep conversations short

sage and anisa have to watch like . :person_standing:. because they realize it isn't up to them to fix it, but dear god when are those two going to realize they're both upset and scared and want to talk to each other. what if i want to go into the kitchen without purposely clanking the spoons while reaching for one to fill the silence. what about My feelings,

they probably get fed up eventually and corner felix, telling him to either go talk and apologize or they'll reorganize and hide all of his things (that wasn't the one reason he went, it was just his breaking point and concrete excuse)

he finds them in their room and his throat feels dry . neither speak for at least 5 seconds before mc finally says "well? did you need something?"

"i'm sorry." ..very quick but okay. mc raises an eyebrow like ?? was that it??

"i'm sorry for what i said, truly. i shouldn't have gotten so upset, especially after you had just woken up. i don't—" he flinches as he remembers what he said. "i don't wish i had brought rime that day. i was frustrated and chose to say something i knew would be terrible, but i didn't mean it. and you don't have to believe or forgive me but i hope you know...how much you mean to me. my fear isn't a good excuse for how i treated you. i'm sorry, mc."

:/ :( </3 ough

he thinks they aren't going to say anything for a moment. he doesn't realize they're looking at him because his eyes are closed and his head is hanging towards the ground

"i forgive you." his head immediately shoots up . gonna snap his own neck

"i—" "but i swear if you ever try that shit on me again i'm giving stella your darkest clothes covered in catnip."

he thinks he's going to cry. he wants to laugh and also maybe cry and he's never felt so relieved to hear a terrible threat to his existence

"and i'm sorry for trying the spell without you. i didn't think it'd go so badly." "no, no you don't have to apologize. i'm the one who messed up," "felix i literally messed up the spell. Literally. i'm sorry for worrying you and getting hurt. and you're in no position to reject my apology right now unless you want me to be upset again."

he really does laugh this time and he's just :( so glad they're finally speaking and joking again

smh.. little nerds maybe if they did this earlier anisa wouldn't have a headache from them and sage complaining about them

"so what is this i hear about new books you bought?"