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mroig

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well....there was a possum sleeping on my trash when i attempted to take it down to the curb just now. i woke it up, it said ¨< at me, and then burrowed under the rotten garbage it had turned into a nest. so....i took it to the curb. hope it enjoys its new life on tour ig

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today in: real, actual text messages from my mother

she wants to quit nursing and become internet famous, and i have been doing my best to help her because i feel like it might be the right call

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i'm taking cursed doodle requests on twattr again (8/24)

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mannnn. the future sucks

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last year i had a very small dinner party and i was describing one of my health issues as "it feels like someone shoved a navel orange up my ass" and my partner without pause said "oh, THAT'S where i left it" complete with forehead smack

this is why after 13 years together i am more in love than ever

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partner just came in to visit me as i crouch here all emotionally disordered and in pain, gave me the sweetest and nice scented kiss, and said maybe after i get my 500 xrays done on monday we can go to the korean grocery and i can finally make my fave recipes again and maybe try 1 or 2 new ones like i was watching in my videos because they take EBT there and that is one type of currency i kinda sorta have right now and. yeah.

i can never give up. i am too loved

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"CREATE"

sheesh, tumblr... that's kind of a lot of pressure. meanwhile on twatter i'm just

see also

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"migraine ate my day" to the tune of "moon's haunted"

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today was like

5am wake up for no reason

8am hour+ long invasive and painful medical procedure

boring fucking adult errands/business

quick nap

call doctor for results 3 full fucking times, wait on hold, no one is available. they close.

have several violent bodily functions

cook 2 fucjking dinners because both were gonna go bad

desperately try to skeleton

clean things because immunosuppressant drug works

cling desperately to my online friends as we careen off the burning cliffs of twitter

realize i am the stinkiest creature and i need to bathe again

don't

sit here and pet this catte

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nothing like telling an ssdi paralegal "i'm going to die. i will be homeless and dead by then" and having them reply "you should call social security about that"

and it's not that my conditions aren't disabling. it's that legally, i have to be in treatment by very specific specialist doctors for 6 months continuously before the possibility will even be considered.

and that is the point. the point is that i am supposed to be dead by then. problem Solved.

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summer is OVER

brace ur buttholes for GOURD SEASON

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i feel kind of sorry for the people fleeing one socmed site for another only to be endlessly greeted by posts on all of them explaining just how much whatever site you are currently on is unusable, immoral, and will permanently destroy your mental health and finances

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i am groggy beyond comprehension. hopefully my sleeping issues will abate soon. also hoping a soak will help whatever the fuck i did to my back/neck/shoulder 2 days ago. hence last night's wakening.

in other news, i (barely) survived trip to korean grocery last night, got all the stuff i need to make goodfood nicefood spicyfood. amusing thing about that grocery, which i realized i have been going to for 10 years now: every trip the clerk will tell me something i brought up is "too expensive" and make me go get a cheaper one.

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hmm. day 2 of new med, and i do indeed feel quite a bit better! although the fuckin insomnia side effects are real, and i would love to stop having a bodily function long enough to wash a dish or fold a shirt.

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i spent 3 hours at the doctor today. yeah. yup. that was. a lot. and i get to go back 8am monday mcfucking morning for another moderately invasive procedure that takes like a fucking hour+. set a new record for amount of times i've had my blood pressure taken. weirdly enough when you're in enough pain, your heart kind of wants to explode? who knewwww

but!!! i have the weekend to have skeleton dissociation time! and maybe play some xbox and eat cold meat and breath wildfire smoke.