#goes without saying

[confusedmothboy]

im scared to ask how you feel about lottie as a character

i have a very complicated relationship with lottie and ive been DYINGGG to talking about her because shes more interesting than shauna can ever dream of being. SHE'S the complex female character we need more of.

okay so to preface: i have multiple scales for character appreciation in my mind. there's writing (how well they're characterized and their role as a narrative decive), personality (how much i would fw them as people), action defendability (self explanatory, how willing i am to ride for their defense), and treatment in the fandom (how contrarian i wanna be)

yall know how it is yapping under the cut

lottie. ohhh boy.

writing: oh no notes. 10/10 she is one of the most fascinating characters in the show. her setup and descent is so well done, and her motivations are beyond complex, like you have her trying to do the best for everyone, but also her whole "the wilderness will choose" mindset. she contrasts herself in the yummiest ways possible. her role in the story is absolutely the most relevant and important for the narrative to progress the way it does. as a character, shes's so well done it makes me wish that i could be objective about the whole thing

personality: unfortunately im not able to enjoy characters simply from a robot analysis objective scale. lottie's personality is -while interesting- absolutely INFURIATING to watch. i personally cant stand characters that i call "progress blockers". she repeatedly forces her belief system (deep psychosis) onto the rest of the team, at the expense of escape or actual rational thought. this is where i have to admit: i root for morally sound, logical characters especially in shows like this. "but you can't watch the cannibalism show and complain about the cannibalism" first off. who said im complaining about the cannibalism. im just complaining that shes tormenting my favs (ben, travis, akilah, nat). i do like that she plays a complicated role as the group's mediator, except her mind is so warped, she does an awful job at it (drugging travis, letting shauna beat her up, deluding her followers). i think that shows how much she cares for these people deep down, and i can respect that. more on that later in ther actions section.

actions: so lottie, like i mentioned earlier, has a really interesting internal conflict of wanting to do whats best for as many of the team as she can, while also not being against sacrificing them for the wilderness's mercy. she very much believes that the ends justify the means. however. i can't ever look past her scenes on doomcoming. and im hoping that the people who made it this far aren't illiterate fucking troglodytes who want to debate on what actually happened to travis that night. because it was s/a, actually, it was attempted gang rape and then attempted ritualistic murder. "you cant watch the murder show and hold it against the murderers" we all know damn well that thats not what was most upsetting about that scene, and im allowed to hold certain crimes over eachother in terms of severity. and quite frankly i just cant bring myself to like a character who engaged -ACTIVELY LED AND RATIONALIZED- in that. lottie's whole schtick is that she just doesnt fucking understand or respect boundaries, literally and metaphorically. moving on from doomcoming, she's weird and culty about shauna's baby, which shauna has full right to be freaked out and pissed about. she becomes the leader of the group in s2 and then can't make proper decisions. she lets shauna almost beat her to death instead of trying to mediate the situation rationally, setting up shauna's vengeful nature we see in s3. thats something i could talk about for hours, how shes partially responsible for the shauna we all know and hate. her drugging travis and akilah is a page straight out of misty's handbook, and i dont think i have to explain why it's wrong. her killing edwin?? denying them all escape, causing a chain reaction with shauna and tai also staying behind??? that elevated my blood pressure to a level dangerous to my health. i cannot stand progress blockers. yes, i know she thinks everything she does is right. that doesn't make me (a rational bystander) like her actions any more. again, there are rational people in the show, so im just gravitated towards them sorry guys.

fandom: lottie has two types of people rooting for her in the fandom. theres the "omg my lord and savior she can do no wrong" group and the "omg crazy ass schizo mental illness queen" group and neither of them get her. she's flawed. but her flaws shouldn't all be attributed to dehumanizing conversations about her mental illness. let's not forget that she was a 17 year old going cold turkey on antipsychotics after living the last decade on them, in a situation that's beyond stressful, mind you. no fucking wonder she turned out that way. whatever. i feel like there arent a lot of her fans who recognize the absolute gray nuance in her character. or maybe im just on tiktok too much and everyone on there is fucking rotted beyond belief.

conclusion: i love her. i hate her. im neutral. she scares me. i blame her for all the problems out there and she's doing her best. that's the point

guh

[questwithambition]

March

Read

I wasn't put on this earth for love - by August Lamm

To Live a Textured Life - by Chloé Williams

Why you need a "WTF Notebook"

Ludic's Guide To Getting Software Engineering Jobs — Ludicity

You Think You're Not That Ambitious. Are You Dead Wrong About That?

The obelisk gate, NK Jemisin

Everything is Tuberculosis, John Green

Watched:

How to be less nice - AskPolly, read live by FKA Twigs and Minnie Driver

Flow (at the cinema)

Went to:

Peak District (Chee Dale)

The sky, the earth and all between launch event, Architects, Here at Outernet

Three park runs (and a new PB!)

[ravvestiges]

I love sucking huge cock as much as everyone else, but honestly having a smaller dick in my mouth makes me just as horny if not more.

There’s no struggle to fit, I can have it in my mouth for so much longer before needing a break, and it’s so much easier to keep my teeth away.

And fuck- being able to use all my best techniques is so much fun. Pushing my tongue against the most sensitive parts and tightening my throat around it for so much longer before gagging always makes them buck their hips and whine for me~

Playing with anyone with a tiny cock is so fucking intoxicating, I always get so goddamn dommy and commanding when I do~

[nina-ya]

Shit man I might have to take this person up on this

[xalodaxa]

Shadowban is lifted 🎉

[writingwife-83]

I just wanna say that yes I’m in multi chapter mode but I want to be in one shots mode. And if you’re a fanfic writer you’ll get that feeling.

[funstyle]

big lizard in my backyard > sex pistols discography

[moonstruckme]

omg no way that’s so pretty!!!!! I’m honoured u thought of me hehe <3 ugh I’m always going to be an advocate for crochet, you should definitely give it a go if you have time!! it can be so so fun <3 you’ve just gotta get past the initial stage of not knowing what the heck is going on 😭 and I’m not sure about the rug yet! I’m thinking I might do a sort of pixel design like this where I’ll crochet a square for each square in the design. but I haven’t decided yet! ily mwah xx

Ahhh okay maybe I'll give it another try soon :) My roomie has all the supplies so I'm sure she'd let me borrow when she's between projects sometime. The rug look sososo cute! Do you have a space for it? I feel like it'd be a little silly (in a pos/fun way) to have him looking up at you all the time haha. Also, a new theme??? I love it god it's so cool ! We <3 lorde

[bandzboy]

genuinely if riize has a pink comeback i will cheer

[tanjir0se]

new chap of Kiss the Devil coming out todayyyyyy Akaren girlies lets fucking gooooo

[switchelsweets]

Apparently I am an “angst magnet” and ppl write lots of hurt/comfort fic about me. Consider this your invitation to write lots of hurt/comfort fic about me 👉👈

Another quiz for if you were a fictional character how would your fandom treat you (if you think your life is too boring to have a fandom just think of yourself as living the domestic!au of some sci-fi or fantasy)

reblog with your results

[rita-roquette]

How to block mute silence eradicate blow up into smithereens every bo*tom L stan till there's not a single one left plz..

[lostpagesoftheforgottenworld]

[carladuquette]

Aus aktuellem Anlass.

GEHT WÄHLEN am Sonntag (falls ihr es nicht schon getan habt)- idealerweise eine Partei, die sich für Frauenrechte stark macht und nicht ⬆️ sowas 🤮

Fun fact am Weltfrauentag: in Deutschland kriminalisierte der Bundestag die Vergewaltigung in der Ehe erst 1997. Einige prominente Politiker stimmten dagegen, wollten also, dass Ehemänner ihre Frauen weiter legal vergewaltigen können.

Einer von denen, die gegen die Kriminalisierung stimmten: Friedrich Merz. 

[dorothylarouge]

[mammalidentifier]

Well, that’s length-wise rather than height-wise, but yes! That would be the giant river otter (Pteronura brasiliensis), fellow countrymen of mine!

In fact, saying they’re 170 cm (5’7”) from head to tail is lowballing it a little. Some individuals as long as 180 cm (5’11”) have been recorded! Which is longer than I am tall 😔

You might have noticed that giant otters have a bit of a big cat-like look about themselves. That’s the origin of their name in Brazilian Portuguese, ariranha, which is a term from the Tupi-Guarani language and means “river jaguar”. And, just like ground jaguars, giant otters are apex predators as well: they mainly eat fish, but will hunt anything from snakes, turtles and even small caimans if given the opportunity!

Besides their size, giant otters have other traits that set them apart from their smaller cousins. For one, unlike most mustelids, they’re social animals who live in familial groups of up to twenty individuals, which whom they communicate constantly through a variety of different noises. Also, unlike other species of otter, whose tails are thick at the base and pointy at the end, giant otters’ tails also start out with a thick base, but they end up flat, which helps propel them through the water. The interesting thing about it, however, it’s that it’s not flat in an horizontal way, like the tails of other semiaquatic mammals such as beavers and platypuses. It’s flat vertically, not unlike the tail of a newt!

Source of the 2nd image: @resgateariranha on Instagram