#gonna go clean a whole tub of strawberries and eat them all at once right off the leaf

[dreamties]

Billy & Stu's Adventures in Puppy Care

18+ / NSFW Accounts Do Not Interact

A/n- I wrote this a few months ago...thought i'd finally share. sorta nervous about this :O

Word Count: 1858

description: Y/n spends the day as a sleepy, affection starved puppy with their favorite people.

ship: billy loomis / stu macher / reader

this is about SFW pet regression so don't be weird !! for the love of slasher movies, DONT. BE. WEIRD !!

Y/n comes home from work in the very early hours of the morning, exhausted to the bone and just wanting to curl up and sleep. They still had to shower off the day's grease and sweat, and start breakfast for everyone. Sleep would come...but not soon enough. They try to wipe the sleep out of their eyes as they head to the bathroom, they take a quick glance at their boys in the other room. Smiling at the sight of Billy and Stu cuddling into each other, Stu with his long arms wrapped around the smaller boy. They’re quick to scamper off to the bathroom, no matter how much they wanted to stay there and take in the gorgeous view of their beloveds so at peace. No matter how much they wanted to nestle their way in between them. Bask in their warmth.

Their shower is long, spending time stretching their limbs and properly grooming themselves. Lathering a sweet and calming lavender scented shampoo along their body. Taking too long under the shower head, making sure all the suds are washed off themself and none of it clings to the tub.

Next, is breakfast. They put up the hot water for coffee and tea. Put the bread in the toaster, sort through various items in the fridge, trying to find jam. Finally acquiring strawberry jam, and taking the butter out as well. They scramble eggs, and plate the food on three plastic dishes. They place everything at the table, finally heading off to their bedroom again to retrieve their boyfriends. They place gentle kisses to each of their foreheads, then shake them awake. Billy’s the first one up, pushing himself out of Stu’s grip- much to his begrudgement.

“Aww, c’mon! Just a little longer,” he whines.

They let out a tired chuckle, “You can cuddle more later, breakfasts ready.”

The three of them sit down, and begin to dig into the meal. Y/n gets up when they finally hear the kettle whistling, making everyone's morning beverage of choice. They sit back down, a hot mug of tea in their hands. They take a sip, slipping their tongue out as they accidentally burn it.

They shake it off, and give an apologetic look to Stu, “We’re out of your favorite, we’ll have to stop at the store tomorrow. You two don’t have work, right?”

Stu pouts and Billy answers, “Not today.”

They give a pleased smile, “Good. I’m off the rest of the weekend.”

Both of their eyes glimmer at the news- “What did you have in mind?”

“Really? I just wanna...destress for a bit. Work was awful last night.”

They both frown. “Is it your boss again?” Billy asks.

They nod.

“Y’know, we could always-” Stu begins.

They narrowed their eyes at him, “If you suggest to kill my boss again- I swear to god, Stu!”

He raises his hands up in defense, giggling and smiling. “I surrender, I surrender.”

Billy and Y/n can’t help but smile at his antics. The three of you finally finish up, dishes in the sink, coffee filters and old tea bags in the trash.

“The two of you mind cleaning the dishes?” They yawn out, rubbing at their eyes.

Billy leans against the edge of the sink, giving them a soft look, “No problem.”

“Thank you,” they sigh, slumping into Billy. Nuzzling their head against him, aching for attention.

He smiles down at them, curious- as realization slowly dawns his face. “What do you want, pup?”

They brighten at the name, continuing to nuzzle him. He brings his hands up, one to pet through their hair, the other tracing across their neck. “You want your collar?”

A few quick nods later, and moving the three of you to the bedroom- Y/n finds themselves kneeling on the ground awaiting the collar. Stu’s rummaging through piles, trying to remember where they stored the thing- it wasn’t often that their beloved found themselves in this regressed state, so they often misplaced the gear needed to keep things exciting and safe for Y/n.

Stu finally finds it, Y/n curiously sniffs at his hands, the item looking suspiciously different than usual. He pets their hair, guiding them to kneel back on the ground. He then leans down to put it around their neck- stepping back to admire their look. They turn their head to peer at Billy, showing off the pretty, red collar in the process. In big, curly letters the top of the pendant reads Y/n . Their shared apartment address is written at the bottom along with their wonderful owners' names.

“Does our little pup like their new collar?” Billy grins down at them, scratching the bottom of their chin. “Good, good baby.”

Y/n spent most of the day following their partners around as they did chores. From napping on the kitchen floor as they did the dishes to hiding in the laundry as they attempted to clean and fold it. Once or twice they go off to do their own thing- possibly planning other murders- where they leave them alone. It’s not all bad when that occurs, they find their doggy bed- a perfect fit for their size- in the living room. They rest in it’s comforting hold till their loved ones make their way back to them. They find themselves fluctuating between their regressed state of mind and not throughout the day, it finally settles to a consistent regressed state as the day comes to a close.

Billy grabs a red ceramic dog bowl from one of the bottom cupboards- it’s tucked away neatly, covered in a worn towel to prevent it’s breakage and protect it from dust. He hands the bowl to Stu, who pours a considerable amount of dry cereal into it. He moves to set it down, and Billy lets out a not entirely gentle, “Be careful.”

Stu rolls his eyes, “I’ve got it,” and places it on the ground, next to the edge of the counter. While he does that, Billy gets out bowls for them and milk from the fridge, placing two full bowls of milk and cereal on the table.

They sit down and begin to eat, idly chatting with each other. Billy tries not to laugh too hard from something moronic his boyfriend says. Sparing odd glances at their other partner, who's got their face right up against their bowl, while they happily munch up their kibble . Billy snickers, looking away from them. They were too cute and silly for their own good.

Y/n’s the first to finish up. Instead of waiting patiently for their owners, they crawl underneath the table, finding themselves next to Billy’s chair. Unbeknownst to him.

They nudge their head against his leg, achieving nothing but a small jolt of surprise.They let out a sharp whine when he doesn’t react immediately.

Billy looks underneath the table for a brief moment, “What’re you doing down there, Y/n?”

They keep rubbing at his leg. Stu, who has just finished, looks down to see what the commotion is. “Aww, they just want some love,” he grins. “C’mere.” He pats his lap, inviting them to him.

It was awkward trying to situate themself on Stu in a way that felt comfortable and puppy-like, but had little to no feelings of how non-regressed, human them would sit. They end up lying their head on his thigh, letting out a pleased noise as he pets their head.

“What kinda manners you teaching our little pup over there?” Billy teasingly remarks. He sighs, taking in the blissed out state of his partners, and how happy Stu seemed to be as he fulfilled their smallest desires. He quickly finds his way standing next to Stu’s spot.

“Let's take this to the bedroom,” he gestures away from the table. “You’ll be more comfortable, Y/n- and you.” He points a finger at Stu.

Stu chuckles, face falling slightly, and smiling nervously at Billy. “What? What’d I do?”

He smirks at him, having fun playing around with Stu, “You gonna be a good boy, too?”

“I’m not usually?”

Billy barks out a laugh, “You’re a fucking nuiscance.” It’s not said with malice, but an odd sense of affection. He glances down at Stu’s lap, noticing Y/n’s eyes drooping shut. “Looks like our baby’s getting tired.”

They perk up at the name, wide eyes staring up at Billy. The two boys chuckle. “Gonna carry em, okay?” Stu mentions, petting down their hair once more. They nuzzle against him at the idea. “You like that, huh?”

Eventually, Stu picks Y/n up, cradling them in his arms. He places them safely on the bed- though it takes as a second as they struggle with him, trying to stay wrapped in his nice, warm embrace. They whine as they’re finally left on the bed by themselves- Billy and Stu changing into proper bedroom attire. Billy’s in boxers and a white tee- while Stu has chosen quite a minimalistic approach. Boxers only. They try not to pay mind to Y/n’s whining too much, as they finally stop- dejectedly curling up on the mattress.

Stu’s quick to join them, as Billy lets out a sigh- “C’mere, baby.” They hurriedly uncurl themselves and kneel on the edge of the bed- looking up expectantly.

He places a small kiss on the top of their head, moving his hands slowly across their body- stopping at the edge of their top. He peels their clothes off, with ease and if practiced, till it’s nothing but bare skin. They press into him, thankful for his help. He kisses them again, and holds his hand against their head in a gentle manner. Hugging them close to himself. “It’s okay, love.”

Stu comes from behind pulling the two of you down with him. Y/n lets out a surprised squeak along with a series of giggles. They find themselves laying against his chest, while Billy’s over both of them, trying not to accidentally hurt Y/n. It’s warm in the middle of it, and they feel protected. Stu’s got an arm lazily playing with Billy’s hair, and the other hung around Y/n’s shoulders.

The three of them don’t stay in the position long. Comfortable? Yes. But no one, even their little pup, would want to stay the whole night like this. They needed- and deserved- a proper night of sleep. Especially after their long and tiring day of work, and having to deal with their hardass of a boss. (If he ended up missing or found dead within the following days...well, he had it coming.)

Y/n’s practically asleep when they try moving themselves around. They tuck their little puppy in first, peppering them with kisses and little reassurances. Then Stu climbs under, after sharing a quiet kiss with his boyfriend. Billy’s the last to get in- both boys curling their bodies in a way that allowed their pup to safely cocoon themselves in the middle. Their small bundle of love secured in their grasp. Billy whispers small “I love you”s, as sleep finally takes them in.

[multifandhoem]

water.

Ok so remember when I said to celebrate 200 followers I would make small drabbles or imagines based on fluids that continue the story fluids? Wellllll I did that (i did one) but now I already have 300 followers!!! Thank you so much for your support (and you can request if you want :)) But anyways, here is water, i have thoughts about syrup but it will probably take a bit :)

A/N: this is the second part to fluids.  

Genre: smut (?) maybe fluff 

Warnings: usage of water enema, humiliation, reader cries, anal stuff, spanking, hints of anal sex but no real anal sex, swearing, dom!Makki, dom!Mattsun, sub!reader, some MxM

Word count: 1759 

When you felt yourself slowly drifting away you tried squinting your eyes harder, a desperate attempt to stay in the peaceful slumber. Unfortunately, your bladder decided now would be a good time to act up, so you knew there was no going back from here. Your best hope would be going to the bathroom now and trying to continue sleeping right afterwards. Very begrudgingly you shimmied yourself out of the blankets and the arms of the boys around you, to sleepily tap into the bathroom, the slight burn between your legs constantly reminding you of the events that had occurred the evening before.

“Morning, princess.” Issei’s voice was even deeper in the morning. “No. Wanna sleep.” You were already nestled back in his arms, ready to close your eyes again, stomach warming up at his chuckle. “Sure thing, baby. Hiro’s going to be out for a while more, anyways.”

You hummed in content at the feeling of him slightly scratching your head, encouraging him to continue.

“You sore?” You let out a huff that could be understood as an affirmation and luckily, he got it, chuckling smugly.

“Issei- no. I’m sore!” Apparently, he didn’t get it, as his hand moved down, to cup your core through the boxers they had to lend you in his big hand.

“I’m not doing anything, princess, don’t worry. Just holding. It’ll be better I promise.” Maybe it was your imagination, but the sting really seemed to lessen a bit under the heat of his fingers, and contently you drifted off in a light snooze.

When you woke up again, much more willingly this time, Issei had disappeared from your side, leaving you and Hiro in bed. The strawberry blonde was still passed out cold and not against a bit more time in bed, you snuggled up closer to him and shut your eyes again, once you felt the warmth of his body.

You were absently tracing soft patterns on Hiro’s chest, when you heard someone, presumably Issei, reentering the room and sighing at the picture presented to him.

“Hey, I made breakfast for you.”

The bed dipped and you slowly blinked up at him. “What time is it?”

“Nearly noon.” Issei chuckled a bit, leaning down to press a soft kiss to your forehead before leaning over you to Hiro, shaking him slightly. Said man grumbled and tried turning around, away from the disturbance but was hindered by you clinging onto his arm.

“What time is it?” He still sounded incredibly tired, his voice deeper than usual and very raspy. “Nearly noon,” Issei repeated and also pressed a kiss on Hiro’s shoulder.

“Morning, Hiro.” You giggled at his sleepy expression, heaving yourself on top of him to press small kisses to his chest. “Morning, princess. You alright?” He stretched a bit, grabbing Issei’s hand while doing so to pull him towards you two.

“Yeah. Issei made breakfast.” He hummed at your answer, eyes closed again, with Issei tucked under one arm. “Well, we should stand up then.”

Nobody moved, making you all chuckle. It really was something you could get used to. Something about laying in their arms made you feel so soft and safe and secure.

“I love laying here, but I really need to pee. Princess…” You got the hint and rolled down, so Hiro could stretch one last time, press a kiss to both yours and Issei’s lips, and then scurry off to the bathroom.

“Let’s go eat.” Issei nudged you with his nose, snaking his arms around you to pull you up with him. He really went all out with breakfast, different kinds of bread, cereal, and fruits adorning the table. “Do you want some coffee?” He was already standing at the machine, but you were quick to push him to the side. “I’ll make one myself. You already did so much! Just sit down.” He smiled at you and followed your command, soon being accompanied by Hiro.

“You never made breakfast like this for me,” the latter complained jokingly, throwing you a thankful smile when you placed a cup of coffee in front of him and Issei.

“You never took two dicks at the same time.” Issei threw him a cheeky grin, before starting breakfast by taking two pancakes of the stack in the middle of the table.

It was later when you were lounging in Hiro’s bed and his hand softly caressed your upper thigh, that you realized what you had done. The pizza last evening and the extensive breakfast today, paired with a cup of coffee. It was bad. It wasn’t like you never took a dump at their place before, but it felt weird, knowing that presumably later they would put something up your ass again.

“What do you wanna do today, hm?” Issei had tucked himself under your arm and now pressed a small kiss to your collarbone with his words. You stiffened up a bit at that, emitting a chuckle from them.

“Still sore?” Hiro’s hand moved a bit up on your thigh.

“No- I- It’s not that. Just... like, I had to poop like an hour after breakfast, I don’t want it to be dirty!” You were speaking faster towards the end, but according to the grins they sported, they still understood you.

“We gotta clean you then, don’t we?” Mattsun sat up, letting your arm fall down onto your stomach, while he went rummaging in Hiro’s closet. “Come on, princess, up to the bathroom.” Hiro pushed you slightly, animating you to move.

What were they planning? They weren’t going to clean you with their fingers, right? That would be weird, wouldn’t it?

“Well, princess, this is a water enema. You fill it with water, and you can press here, and then the water will come out and flow into your butt. It’s a bit of a strange feeling, but it’s not hurtful in any way.” Issei threw you a reassuring smile during his explanation when he entered the bathroom with the small toy.

“In the best case you move around a bit with the water inside you, so it coats everything, but then you can go sit on the toilet or like kneel in the bathtub or whatever you’re comfortable with and then, well, I guess you know what happens then.” He grinned at you at the last part. You couldn’t stop the heat that slowly coated your cheeks at the thought of being in such a humiliating position in front of them. And when Hiro took a seat on the edge of the bathtub, patting his lap, you could not withhold your whimper.

“Go on princess.” Issei pushed you in his direction but you had felt the air shifting. They weren’t just helping you anymore. You were sure that this whole process would bring in more than just cleanliness.

“Dirty girl. You need to be cleaned by us, don’t you?” Another slap echoed through the bathroom. You whimpered again.

“Shh, princess, you’re gonna be good for us, aren’t you?” You nodded helplessly, looking up at Issei, who held your cheeks squished in one hand. After the next slap Hiro’s hand-dipped between your cheeks, carefully prodding at your puckered hole.

You hated yourself and your kinks at that moment. Who were you, getting turned on in that moment, bent over Hiro’s lap, waiting for him to pump water into your ass.

Hiro slightly lubed up your hole, before slowly pushing the water enema in. You moaned at the new feeling of fullness. It wasn’t comparable with the fullness yesterday, with fingers or toys, but a different kind. You felt the slight push at your stomach, felt that there was something moving in your ass.

“Good girl.” The praises went straight to your core.

“Think she can take more?” With wide eyes, you stared at Issei, who only threw you a wicked grin in response.

“Hmm, a bit, sure.” Hiro hummed thoughtfully, filling the enema up again, to push it inside your asshole the second time.

After the second enema, you really felt full. Nearly bursting. The push of Hiro’s legs against your stomach did nothing to help the situation and with small whimpers you tried to get away, to ease the pressure.

He let you stand up on wobbly feet, and you tried to hurry towards the toilet, but a hand stopped you. “Nuh uh, princess. Remember when you said you liked humiliation?” They grinned at the way your eyes went even wider.

Issei pushed you back towards the bathtub, pressing against your stomach slightly. It was nearly painful holding everything in, especially when you moved to climb over the edge of the tub.

“Can you leave the room, please?” You knew the possibilities were small, but this was already embarrassing enough. You were kneeling in their bathtub, ass filled with water, while they were towering over you, smirking at your misery.

“I think I can see your stomach bulging out.” They ignored your request completely.

“Come on, princess. Aren’t you excited about the fun we will have afterwards? You will be so clean. You just have to let go.” Tears were prickling in your eyes.

You wanted to let go as Issei said, you really did. But something, one last ounce of pride was holding you back, was refusing to let you squirt out water from your ass in front of the two attractive males.

It was when Issei leaned down, to press against your stomach when you had to let loose with a cry. You felt the water flowing out of your ass, not daring to look. You didn’t want to know what it looked like, it would make everything even more humiliating.

The tears were by now falling freely down your face, while water kept spraying out of you, slightly coating your knees before disappearing into the drain.

“Such a good girl for us. Getting so clean. You did great, princess.” After the flow had stopped, they took the showerhead, spraying the remaining water around until everything was gone, cleaning your legs and ass as well.

“It’s time for a reward, don’t you think?” You were wrapped in a fluffy towel, pressed against Issei, who softly wiped your tears.

“What do you think about a dick in your ass?” Hiro caressed your sides, planting a small kiss on your head. You nodded, not trusting yourself to answer. You never had one of them in your ass. Wasn’t that the goal you wanted to achieve when you asked them for help?

“Yeah? You like that? Then let’s go, princess.”

[lokis-amazing-fighting-skills]

Here’s a request from @disciplineyourmind-severuss of how Loki or Tom Hiddleston would react when you are stressed. I’ve decided to do both in this headcannons. So Loki first, then Tom.~ ((Also I’m really sorry for how long I’ve made you wait for this!!)) Love you much darling!~ 💕

Loki~

Loki is gonna be definitely annoying and annoyed with you in the fact that he can’t spend as much time with you as he wants and normally does.

He just gets super clingy and buggy when he does see you.

“Babe! Why have you not worshipped you God lately!? I’ve been dying to love you again love!”

He just grabs you and cuddles you into his arms and smooches you’re head when he sees how stressed you look and are.

He apologizes profusely for being a jerk in asking you why you haven’t been giving him attention.

Especially after you tell him why your so stressed and busy.

Loki makes you tea, coffee, hot cocoa, and hot cider whenever you want if you’re around. He makes sure to smooch your cheek and lips every 30 minutes minimum when he’s around you. He builds a blanket fort at the end of the day and cooks your favorite Italian or Chinese dish. (Whatever is your favorite meal really)

Then he pulls you into the fort, despite your protests, until you see a clone take over your work, school work, chores, etc.

You finally crash into his arms and let him love you and give you much needed attention.

Loki runs you a bath or hot shower depending on what you like.

Maybe even makes the shower extra steamy if you know what I mean! 😉 😈

Afterwards wraps you in a million blankets and just hugs you all night long.

The next morning he gives you breakfast in bed, with your favorite juice and waffles with whipped cream.

Lots of strawberries and him feeding them to you, definitely making you laugh a ton.

Loki does all the dishes and kisses your face a bunch and all over while you try to leave, and finally he lets you go only after you promise to come back to him that evening.

You have flowers delivered to your room and building at work/the office/your school room. You smile at the beautiful flowers.

The note was heart warming as well.

“My little flower, please have a wonderful day. Please don’t forget to bloom to your full potential.”

Tom~

Tom gets all blushing when you’re grumpy and stressed.

He feels bad because he’s not one to talk when he gets stressed, a lot, due to his own career.

But he just comforts you when you two are together and back home together.

“Dove? Are you home?.. You know what that means!” He comes running around the corner of the hallway and hugs you with all of his being, kisses your cheeks hello and just over all smooches you until your smiling again.

He grabs your bag off your shoulder and carries everything in your arms into the entryway and sets it down.

He hurries you back into one of the dinning room chairs and had your favorite takeout all hot and ready for you to devour waiting on the table.

“You deserve a break and a delicious meal with a delicious man.” Tom said and winked at you.

You laugh at his cheezy line and kiss him on the cheek and you both dig in.

Peter he has a whole spa night in the comfort of your home all planned out.

Has really nice smelling Rose and epsilon salt for the foot tub, a little foot scrubber, some nice strawberry lotion, and your favorite nail polish color waiting in the living room.

He preps you all up and starts to rub and scrub your feet, taking out all the pain on your feet throughout the day away.

You melt into his touch as your show plays in the background of the TV.

Once done, he will let you go shower and cleanup if you’d like.

He’ll of course follow if you so like, but if not he’ll always be a gentleman and wait for you to be done.

As you step out all clean, he made a bowl of buttery popcorn and has a nice movie ready to play so you two can fall asleep on the couch together.

Once he realizes that you’re asleep, he’ll gently lift you up and carry you to your room, no matter what.

He’ll gently tuck you into bed and wrap the blankets around you and hold you as he slowly falls asleep too.

Next morning he brings you coffee in bed and then waits patiently for you to get ready.

Once dressed, he’ll take you out to a restaurant for breakfast, before all of your busy schedule even starts and eats breakfast with you.

Afterwards, he kisses you goodbye with lots of hugs and kisses right in the parking lot of where you need to be again for you stressful day.

He send you the cutest texts through the day with lots of kissy and heart emojis.

You promise him to come back again in the evening for a “real” dinner as he put it. You happily accept and fly through your day with a hug smile.

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@disciplineyourmind-severuss

[bruhimaunicorn]

Memories and Minivans pt.1

Request for emo-girl5664! A/N : This is going to be a two parter or maybe even a couple more than two parts btw . I just couldn’t see putting the development of everything in this one .

Imagine getting pregnant by Norman, but after a fight he leaves . Only for him to see you five years later and meet his son for the very first time.

Small hands clung to you tiredly as your alarm screeched it’s way into your ears , causing you to yawn and whisper to your son “ It’s time to get up baby ” . The small blonde in your arms fidgits in annoyance before looking up to you with big blue eyes “ Can’t you just stay home mama ? We can just watch movies with Uncle Jake and Aunt Mary ” . You smile sadly down at him and shake your head no “ You know I can’t sweetie , mommy has to go to work ” . His lips form a frown “ I know , I just miss you when you’re gone ” . “ I miss you too Jackson , but I’ll hurry home just for you ok ? ” You offer in hopes he’ll stop frowning . He smiles and nods “ I’m gonna hold you to that mama ” . You smile and hold him tightly for a moment before taking the covers off of the two of you . You then slide off of your side of the bed as he does the same and you shove your phone into your waistband of your shorts . “ Hungry ? ” You ask him and he shrugs adorably. “ I could eat ” .

“ Can’t you always ” You tease and he lets out his precious laugh . You then walk to his side and he grabs your hand as the two of you exit your room and into the kitchen of your large apartment . You open the fridge as Jackson hugs your legs “ What do we feel like having this morning ? ” . Jackson takes a moment to think and let’s out a small squeal once he comes up with something “ Lets get muffins ! ” . You quickly check your phone to see if you have enough time and seeing that you do , you nod down at him “ Alright go get dressed and brush your teeth while mommy gets ready ” . He nods with a excited ’ yes mam ’ before running off to his room to do so . As soon as you hear his door slam , your brother Jake walks through your front door “ I came to steal some coffee ” . You laugh at him and gesture your hand towards the coffee machine “ Go ahead ” . He laughs as well and you move aside as he prepares your coffee maker .

“ What time are you dropping the kiddo off ? ” He asks once he’s finished with his task . “ Were gonna go get breakfast and we should be done by eight so probably by eight fifteen ” You reply . He nods , his kind smile on his face “ I think Jackson is giving Mary baby fever ” . You laugh “ You’re just now noticing ? She’s had baby fever since he was born ” . He laughs once again “ Yeah I know , but I think it’s gotten worse lately . She’s been talking about starting a family since last week ” . You shrug “ Well y'all have been married for five years now , don’t you think it’s time ? ” . He shrugs back at you “ Maybe ” . Shaking your head at him , you pull out your phone again to check the time “ I’ve got to get ready , Watch Jackson while I do will you ? ” . He nods and you return back to your room and grab a pair of clothes . You decided on a tan long sleeved shirt with a laced up front with a pair of light blue skinny jeans and step into your bathroom to start the shower . You then take a moment and wait for the shower to warm up and you stare at the mirror . Not at yourself , but at the pictures that surrounded it’s frame . It seemed like there were thousands , but you only stared at one .It was just a picture of you and a friend on the first day you started modeling , but it wasn’t the picture that caught your attention . It was the spot it was in .

It sat in the spot that you put the first picture you ever put on your mirror . It was of you and Norman . The picture was long gone , in a box somewhere you wish you could forget about , but it still always caught your attention . Every single day .

- seven years ago -

“ Oh my - Ahhhh ” You groaned as you devoured your ice cream cone , causing strangers to give you strange looks . But you ignored them all as you were too focused in the sensational thing that was ice cream . Norman although couldn’t keep his eyes off of you . You were so adorable in his eyes and the fact that you didn’t care what others thought of you made him smile . Usually , you were so scared of doing the wrong thing or making a mess , but right now you didn’t have a care in the world . Possibly due to just having dental surgery and not having come down from the high of the medication , but he’d take it .

“ What flavour is this again , Normy? ” You asked sloppily as you didn’t care to stop eating as you spoke , also due to the medication . “ Strawberry baby ” He laughs. “ Straw..Strawberry … I like it ” You say with almost child like wonder . “ Yes I know . It’s your favourite you know ? ” He hides his laughter then as you give him a confused look . “ No that’s not possible ; I’ve never had this flavour in my whole life ! ” You exclaim , staring strangely at the cold dessert. “ Baby you literally just had this yesterday ” He grins widely and you glare at him . “ Liar ! ” You accuse him , only to loose grip of your previous treat . Which flung directly into Norman’s face . You gasp at the loss of it and pout slightly “ Norman ! That’s mine ! ” .

Norman laughs as he attempts to clean off his face with the few napkins that resided on the table you two at “ I didn’t take it from you baby . You literally just threw it in my face ” . You shook your head “ No you took it ! And the proof is all over your face! ” . He sighs playfully at you and cleans up the rest of the mess you had made that had fallen from his face and onto the table “ I’ll get you another ” . You watch as he gets up from the table and throws away the napkins before walking back to the counter of the small ice cream shop . You notice as the guy behind the counter realizes who your boyfriend is , only for Norman to kindly talk to the guy . But you growing impatient , once again thanks to the very strong pain meds , you walk over to the cases of ice cream that sat in a freezer away from the display cases .Norman being too distracted to notice you had gotten up , didn’t even see you open one of the many purchasable pre packaged tubs of ice cream . You then sat right there on the floor and dug a single finger into the tub of strawberry ice cream. You suck the cream off of your finger just in time for Norman to turn around at the guys notice of you . “ Y/N ! Baby what are you doing - I’m so sorry she just had dental surgery and she’s pretty out of it ” He says as he rushes over to you . “ I found some more - Look ! ” You show Norman , proud of your find . He laughs at your almost innocent actions and helps you off of the floor . The guy behind the counter laugh slightly himself “ That’s ok . I actually love the strawberry here myself ” .

You gape at the guy and his love for the same thing “ It’s just amazing isn’t it ! ” . He laughs and nods at your very delirious state “ Yes it is ” . Norman then pulls out his wallet and pays for the tub of ice cream “ Thank you ” . You continue to eat out of the tub with your finger and at the sight of you , Norman could only think of one way to capture the moment . “ Would you mind ? ” Norman asks as he gestures his phone to him . The guy nods “ Not at all ” . Norman wraps his arm around your waist and smiles down at you as the guy takes the picture .

“ I love you , Y/N ”.

- Present -

Your heart ached for a moment as you remembered that day , but you shook your head to try and shake it . You tried to remind yourself that it had been too long ago to even think about him , but instead you just got undressed and got in the shower.

But the thought of the only man you could ever love remained in your thoughts .

——-

Once you had gotten dressed and gotten ready , you grabbed your purse and called for Jackson “ Are you ready Jackson ? ” . It took only a minute for him to rush into your room and grab your hand “ Yes mam ” . You smiled down at him “ Good cause I think those muffins are calling my name . What about you ? ” . He giggles and nods “ They’ve been calling my name and then some ” .You laughed at him and then proceeded to leave your apartment , only stopping to lock the door behind you . The two of you then went to the elevator and Jackson insisted on pushing the button which you let him and you two then left the building once the elevator made it to the bottom floor .

You two walked to the bakery considering you lived in New York and your apartment was close to everything it seemed , which you loved . Also it was just now summer and it felt incredible outside . Jackson seemed thrilled with the weather and eagerly skipped all the way to the bakery . On the way there you noticed people taking pictures of you and your son , but it wasn’t abnormal considering you were a model so you didn’t pay them any mind . Once you got to the bakery , Jackson insisted on opening the door for you as he was the little gentleman , but you knew he’d struggle . He attempted to tug on it and as you tried to help him he just shook his head and you smiled at him. But the door soon opened as someone was coming out of the bakery and you wouldn’t have even looked up from Jackson to see who it was , but they said your name . You quickly looked up after pulling Jackson away from the door and your breath caught in your throat . It was Lauren Cohan . “ Y/N ? ” She said again , her kind smile on her face but it quickly faded as she saw Jackson .

You put Jackson behind you slightly , not wanting Lauren to see his features and recognize whose features they belonged to , but as you saw her eyes double in size you knew she knew . Not wanting to talk about it , you walked passed her into the bakery . “ Who was that mommy ? ” Jackson asks as you get in line .

Swallowing harshly , you say “ A person from mommy’s past that she didn’t think she’d see again ” .

——-

After the incident at the bakery and getting your food , you rushed Jackson to Jake’s apartment . Which conveniently was in the same building as yours . Once you dropped him off you said your goodbyes and rushed to work . Your nerves were on edge the whole way there and you couldn’t stop thinking of the past .

- Five years ago -

“ You’re just always gone Norman . It’s like I only see you every couple of months ” You sigh as you explain the reason of your distance the past couple of days. You could see your reflection in the window as you stared down at the city below and you knew he was staring at you , you could feel it . You could hear him sigh now “ I know , but I can’t help it . You know it’s just part of the job ” . You nodded to yourself, you knew all to well . “ It just feels like I see you more on tv then in person ” . You could see Norman nodding in the reflection on the window “ Baby I know , trust me I know . I miss you all the time and don’t think you’re ever off my mind . I want to be here with you all the time and if I could I would ” . You felt yourself internally sigh if that was possible . The distance was killing you . After three years of dating , you thought nothing could tear the two of you apart . But lately it seemed distance actually could .

“ We’ve just got tonight left , let’s not spend it fighting ” He suggests , coming behind you and wrapping his arms around you . “ I can’t help it . I haven’t seen you in what ? four months and you only got two days for a break . I can just feel myself missing you already ” You whisper . He brings his lips to your bare shoulder and leaves a trail of kisses from it all the way to your neck “ I’m right here baby ” . You shake your head , your eyes closed “ It feels like your already gone ” . He stops kissing your neck as you finish and his eyebrows knit together “ What do you mean ? ” . “ Your visits get shorter and shorter . It’s starting to feel like your never here even when your here . Mingus and I miss you so much and he needs his father - ” before you could finish , Norman interrupts you . “ Don’t you think I know that , Y/N ” .

You could tell he was getting upset , which you didn’t intend on making him , but you couldn’t help but to tell him the truth . “ I’m just saying it’s hard enough on me , but imagine how he feels . I try my best to cheer him up most days, but sometimes he needs you and just you ” . Norman backs away from you and walks into the kitchen where he pours himself a drink . You turn to watch him and after he drinks what’s in the cup , he lowly says “ I know how much he misses me Y/N . I dont need a reminder ” . You chew on your bottom lip as you could sense the anger in his words . “ I just wish you could take more time off and see me and him more is all . You can’t be in and out of his life ” You say with a soft tone , trying to keep this from turning into a fight now . “ Y/N are you trying to tell me how to parent ? ” . You quickly shake your head no “ Of course not Norman , I’m saying my dad was in and out of my life and it cause such a distance between us and after awhile we never talked again . I just don’t want that for you and Mingus ” . The mention of your father in comparison to him makes Norman’s eyes darken .

Your father wasn’t a good father by any means and Norman knew every dark detail about him . To say that distance is why you stopped talking to your father wasn’t even the start of it . “ I am not your father . Don’t you dare compare me to him ” He seemingly growls . “ I wasn’t comparing you to - ” You start , but Norman stops you . “ Do i hit Mingus ? Do I neglect Mingus ? Do I make him believe he’s trash ? ” He yells , causing you to jump . You shook your head “ I wasn’t saying your like my father . I’m just trying to say - I mean it’s just I’m tired of never returned phone calls and texts that dont get answered until I’m asleep and maybe only video chatting for four minutes every couple of months if we’re lucky ! Can’t you just take some time off for maybe a week ! ” . He narrows his eyes at you “ Is that what it is ? What it all comes down to ? You dont think I’m trying hard enough to get time to see you ?! ” .

You shake your head “ No ! What it comes down to is that even Steven gets more time off if he just says it’s to spend time with his wife ! I just want to see you Norman for more than a day ! I can’t stand being away from you and it feels like now that distance is tearing us apart and it feels like you’re doing nothing to stop it !” . He glares as tears fill your eyes . You had told him what you had been feeling for so long and by the looks of it you couldnt be more wrong . “ I’m not doing anything to stop it?! What am I doing right now ! I’m missing work and slowing down production just to see you ! I took a non stop flight here and spent the whole flight dealing with crazy fans just to see you ! And I’m not doing anything ! ” . You felt tears spill down your face as he finished. You didn’t want to cry , but being around yelling always made you . Thanks to your father . Norman felt guilt hit his heart as he saw you cry, but couldn’t console your right now . He was already stressed out from the producers being on his ass about leaving for two days and from missing you so much and now from arguing with you .

He knew you were going through a rough time lately from dealing with the fact your father had sent you a letter in the mail and the letter had nothing nice to say, but he didn’t know you felt there was distance . And it hurt him that he didn’t see it . “ I’m so sorry it’s so difficult to come and see me Norman! I’m so sorry I’m such a pain in the ass to make time for ! ” You suddenly yell , catching Norman off guard . “ I didn’t say that ! ” . You shook your head “ See this is what I’m talking about ! This is what distance is doing to us ! Don’t you see that ! ” . “ The only thing I see is you yelling at me about distance I don’t even see! ” . It was quiet after that as you tried to whipe the tears from your face and compose yourself . But a single ring of his phone interrupted that silence . Norman curses and pulls his phone from his back pocket “ Hello ? ” . “ What - No I can’t come back right now ” He tells to the person on the other side of the phone . You could feel yourself growing angry . How could he not feel the distance when something like this happens ? “ I said I’d be back tomorrow - Why now what is so important ! ” He yells into the phone . “ Fine ! ” He yells and hangs up the phone .

Tears slid down your face once more as you knew he was about to leave . Norman turns to look at you with stressed eyes “ I have to go ” . You shook your head “ Of course you do ! ” . He rubs his face with his hand and sighs loudly “ Let’s just end this fight . I don’t want to leave like this ” . “ If you can’t see the distance you clearly don’t care that it’s there ”. He drops his hands from his face “ I don’t care ?! ” . You only stare back at him in response and he walks towards you till he’s towering over you “ How could you say that ? ” . You didn’t say anything once more and the two of you stare at each other with hurt in your eyes . After a moment of doing so , Norman whispers “ I have to go . Work needs me ” . “ Can’t you see that I need you ! ” You yell , your voice cracking as you do . He was about to say something when you hear his phone ringing again and he sighs “ I have to go. I’m sorry , Y/N ” . He grabs his bag from the floor by the couch and gives you a kiss to your forehead . He then heads for the door as your heart breaks into words “ You walk out that door then you choose work over me . And I wont be second place to it anymore ” .

Norman stops just before he gets to the door and turns around “ Don’t say that Y/N ” . You swallow harshly “ You can either stay here with me and we can make things right or you can walk out that door ” . Norman could feel his heart fall into his stomach . He could see that you needed him in your eyes , but there was no way he could get them to let him stay another night . “ Y/N I don’t have a choice ” He tries to tell you , but you just shook your head . “ You always have a choice , Norman ” . His phone rang once again and you watched for his next move .

And he lives to regret what he did next.

-Present -

Your heart ached as you thought of that night . You remembered how your heart shattered when he walked out the door . It was only three weeks later when you found out you were pregnant and you had tried to reach him , but he never answered . He didn’t want anything to do with you it seemed and after trying to let him know for four months , you gave up . And now you didn’t know what would happen if Norman found out about Jackson . You tried to not think about it throughout the day at work , but it was hard . Once you left work , you went home straight away . You just wanted to see jackson more than anything at the moment and as soon as you walked in your brothers apartment you hugged Jackson . He eagerly hugged you back and you held him close “ I missed you mama ” . You smiled at his words as you put the urge to cry at bay . “ Y/N ? ” Mary , Jakes wife , asks as she notices the look on your face . You only continued to hug Jackson . Hugging Jackson was like hugging Norman . It made you feel safe and ok even when things weren’t. “ Mama ? ” Jackson asks as he notices you’re not ok. Only then you pull back and you put on a smile for him “ I’m ok baby . I just missed you ” . He smiles before walking off to the living room to collect his toys .

“ Is everything ok ? ” Mary now asks as Jackson is out of hearing range . You shake your head no at her and she frowns before leading you to the kitchen. “ What happened ? ” She asks . You put your hand over your face “ I ran into Lauren at the bakery this morning . I had Jackson with me and she definitely knew who his father is ” . Mary puts her hand on your shoulder “ And why is that a bad thing ? Don’t you think Norman should know about Jackson ? Don’t you think it’s time ? ” . You shrugged “ I don’t know honestly . I tried so hard to tell him years ago about him and he couldn’t seem to be bothered for a minute by me . What if he’s like that about Jackson ? Do you know how awful that’d be if Norman wants nothing to do with him ? I’ll have to tell him one day about his father and he’ll be heartbroken . Or what if Norman tries to take him away from me ? There’s so much that could go wrong , Mary ” . She squeezes your shoulder “ I knew Norman , Y/N . If he finds out about Jackson he’ll want to meet him . He’d never turn his back on his son . And he won’t take him from you either . He can’t legally ” . You shake slightly as you try not to cry . Mary hugs you then and you cling onto her for support . “ Why don’t you stay the night ? We can watch movies with jackson ” . You sigh “ That sounds great right now . I’ll just go grab some clothes for us ” . She smiles at you and pulls away “ While you do that I’ll take jackson to the store and we’ll get snacks and some movies . It’ll give you some time for a well needed drink ” . You laugh “ That sounds great ” . You then tell jackson where you’re going and kiss his forehead before going to your apartment .

You unlock the door and shut it behind you before going to your cabinets . You search towards the back of them until you find a bottle of wine and you then grab a glass for it . You fill it half way before taking a much needed sip , but you couldn’t enjoy the moment for long before there was a knock at your door . You groaned internally before walking over to it . Without thinking , you swing the door open to reveal someone you really thought you’d never see again . Your eyes doubled in size as Norman stood before you . “ Is it true , Y/N ? ” He asks , his eyes filled with the same guilt you saw in his eyes the last time you saw him . You were at a loss for words which made him ask again . “ He’s my son isn’t he ? ” . You slowly shook your head yes “ But if you’re here to take him from me you have another thing coming cause I tried to tell you ! ” . He quickly shook his head no “ Y/N I’m not here to take him from you . I’m here to talk to you and if you’re alright with it to meet him ” . You chewed on your bottom lip as you thought it over “ We can talk , but I can’t promise you anything ” . He nods “ That’s something ” . You then hesitantly step aside and invite him in . You shut the door behind him and quietly ask “ Would you like a drink ? Cause I know I would . ” . “ Sure ” He tells you and follows you to the kitchen . “ I hope your ok with wine cause with a kid in the house that’s all I keep with alcohol in it ” You tell him as you grab another wine glass from the cabinet . “ I did the same with Mingus ” He tells you and you put the glass on the counter . “ How is Mingus? ” You ask curiously . You pour the wine until the glass is half way full and hand it to him . “ He’s pissed at me ” .

You raise your eyebrow as you grab your glass “ What’d you do ” . He looks down at his wine before he answers you “ He’s been mad at me for the past five years . You were like his best friend ” . Awkward tension arised and to avoid it you brought out your phone to text Mary . You asked her to keep Jackson for the night and explained the situation . You then slide your phone back into you pants . “ He misses you ” . You frown “ I miss him too , but I can’t be close to him . You’re his father ” . Norman gave you a guilty look once more and took a sip of his drink . “ So how are you even here right now ? Are you on a break from filming ? ” You asked , changing the subject . He shook his head “ No . I’m supposed to be there right now , but this is more important ” . You give him questionable look “ I never thought they’d let you take time off” . He gives a stern look to his glass “ They don’t have a choice . Not anymore ” . You take a sip of your wine as his words left an unspoken meaning . “ What about you ? How’s modeling ? ” He asks at the mention of his career . You peak up from your drink for a moment, avoiding his eyes “ It’s been good ” . Norman then chews on his bottom lip as he debates on telling you something “ On the way here I stopped and bought a magazine with you in it ” . “ Oh yeah ? ” You ask , still avoiding eye contact . You seemingly couldn’t bring yourself to look him in the eye . If you did all you’d want to do is fall apart.“ Yeah. It had a little interview with you in it and you talked about your life . I wanted to know how your life was now , but I literally only got your favourite color and what kind of dog you’d want if you’d ever get one ” He attempts to joke . The corner of your lip turns up in a semi smile" Yeah no one really wants to know about a models life unless your dating some scandalous man or woman and the only scandalous thing about my life is sometimes my son and I get like two dozen cupcakes and eat them all in one night “ .

He laughs at your version of scandalous. ” I remember we use to do that at one time . We’d go to that corner store and buy almost fifty dollars worth of junk “ Norman reminds you with a smile you’d only describe as hopeful . Your heart ached at the memory and you let your gaze fall to the floor . Norman could see that the memories of the past hurt you and he quickly changed the subject to avoid you from hurting any further ” What’s his name ? “ . You shut your eyes tightly at his question . Norman then puts his glass on the counter , causing you to look up ” Actually you just tell me when you feel comfortable enough . I can wait “ . You slowly nod ” Alright “ .

You could feel Norman’s eyes on you and the feeling made your heart beat rapidly , but you only shook the feeling .

——

” There’s more pictures of you in here now “ Norman observes as the two of you were now in your living room . You nod as you know that was his way of complementing your growth in loving yourself . Something that was very hard for you to do in years past . ” I’ve got more pictures in my bedroom and bathroom “ You tell him . He smiles ” I’m proud of you . I know how hard this has all been for you “ . Your eyebrows grow together ” How would you know ? “ . Norman’s smile quickly fades ” I didn’t mean - “ before he could finish you interrupt him. ” - No you said i know how hard this has been for you . How would you know ? “ . Norman parts his lips , but he’s at a loss for words . You wait for his answer , but soon you stand up and grab the now to empty wine glasses from the coffee table ” I’m going to put these away “ . You don’t wait for a response as you then walk to your kitchen .

Once you were out of sight , you put the glasses in the sink and press your palms on either side of it . You shut your eyes tightly as your heart begged you to go in there and throw yourself in his arms , but you wouldn’t grant it that . You were still so angry and so upset with Norman . You were most importantly heart broken . He left you . He walked out the door . Your hands gripped the edges of the counters out of stress . ” You have every right to hate me “ Norman tells you , causing you to jump . You look over you shoulder to where Norman now stands in the door way ” What “ . He gives you a sad look ” You hate me don’t you ? “ . You sigh and look back to the sink ” I don’t hate you Norman “ . ” I left you when I should’ve stayed . How could you not ? “ He asks . All at once you turn around so that your facing him. ” I can’t hate you . Don’t you think I’ve tried Norman? Don’t you think I’ve tried to hate you with everything in me ? But I can’t. Not then , not now . And it sucks “ You explain .

He only stares in response . ” I tried for months to get in touch with you after that night . Even before I found out I was pregnant. But you wouldn’t answer my calls or texts or any letters . So I gave up . I got through my pregnancy and with no help from you . I gave birth to our son without you by my side . I raised him without you . And all because you wouldn’t pick up the phone . Even when one of the reasons we fought that night was barely being able to talk to eachother and you still wouldn’t answer me . I wanted to hate you . But here you are in front of me and all I want to do is be held by you again “ . Norman steps towards you as you finish ” I didn’t answer your calls or texts or mail because I hurt you , Y/N . I hurt you and that was the one thing I promised you I wouldn’t do . And I broke that promise to you . And all I could think was that I was as bad as your father . You didn’t deserve to have any more hurt in your life and I told myself the only way to prevent that was to stay away from you . No matter how much I wanted to be with you . And there wasn’t- hasn’t been a day gone by that i didn’t miss you . Or love you . I dream about you , I look up every piece of news that comes up about you , I never miss an interview with you in it because just seeing you or reading about you makes me feel whole again . Just for the smallest of moments “ .

You swallow roughly as his words sink in . Here the man you love more than anything , besides your son , stood professing his endless love for you and all you could do was stare at him . ” Y/N “ , Norman starts as he walks towards you again , ” I don’t expect you to forgive me . And I dont expect you to take me back because I know I dont deserve you , but I just want you to know that if there is ever one thing that will always be true is that I will never leave you or our son . I will be his father - if you let me - and love him no matter what . You two will be my life no matter if you take me back or not . And I will stop and fly all the way back from Georgia if you so much as say you need bread “ .

You slowly looked into his eyes as he now towered over you . You saw the truth that resided in them as they looked directly into your own pair . ” How do I know you mean this ? How do I know the very second things get hard again you won’t bail on me or more importantly Jackson ? “ . His eyes grow admiringly soft as you accidently tell him your sons name . ” Jackson? His names jackson ? “ . You nod hesitantly once again . You watched as Norman’s face lit up with such love that it made your heart yearn for it . ” Jackson “ , He says to himself , ” I love it “ . Clearing your throat , you repeat yourself ” How do I know? “ . He nods as he takes his mind off of your son ” Because you could ask me right now to quit my job and id do it for you and for him . You could ask me to take a month off just to spend time with you both or just you alone and I would . You could ask me to buy a minivan and to childproof every thing I own at this very moment and id go straight to a dealership . You could ask me to do anything right this very moment for you or for him and I would . Just test me “ .You dim your eyes at him and think of a way to test his promise ” Take off two weeks of work , buy the most ridiculously safe minivan you can find , and yes childproof everything . And I do mean your motorcycle also , even though he will not be riding it for atleast ten more years . You do all that and prove to me your serious about being a dad then I’ll consider making a way for you to be apart of his life “ .

” What about you and I ? “ He asks , trying not to push his luck . You stare at him for a long moment ” Jackson will always come first in my life and if you prove to me you want to be apart of his life you should feel the same way . As for you and I? After all his needs are met and he’s happy , then you can try to repair what’s broken . If that’s something you’re up for “ .

A smile like any other broke through his features ” If it takes my whole life to make this up to you I will . And you will come before anything else I promise “ . You smile at him ” I’ll keep you to that “ . Slowly he rests his head on top of yours and almost questionably wraps his arms around you . ” I wont kiss you just yet or even hold your hand . I’m gonna show you what you mean to me first “ . You let out a shaky breath as his hands rub your back softly ” Just don’t leave me again “ . He holds you tightly to himself ” I’d die before I let you go again “ . His words comfort you deeply and you start to laugh at what he says next .

” I’m gonna drive the shit out of that minivan “.