#guys the grip logicality had on me when i was in 6th grade….

[orbch]

mini comic: logicality battling remus’ nighttime habits. or like.. trying to i guess…

[luffysbasement]

didn't realize my last one was that long. Geez (this one is also fucking long, bare with me)

I feel like ever since elementary, all our teachers liked to talk about how the opposite of love isn't hate (there was even a text during 6th? grade about this whole thing.)

Tbh I haven't looked much into lore so I only know the gist of it(I'm such shit, but I know I will have literally no time to study if I get invested in the dsmp) so there may be wild guesses here and there down below.

The way Quackity's expressions ranged from stoic to a weirdly kind smile to aggressively scary and ruthless, it's all just so.. *gestures wildly with hands because I have no words* ..angsty. The grip on Dream's hair like he wants him to listen carefully but he is losing all patience and sanity and sympathy for Dream. The crazed look from Quackity(his last block) is just so cold and bitter and kind of filled with self-pity, like he's been there before (I actually don't know if that's the case lmao) it's the look from textbook villians(I know he's not one) when they become insane and starts spilling all that they know in the most poisonous way possible.

Also, again, last block giving me chills. Sapnap's glare and George just walking away with absolutely no care and no desire to turn around sums it up beautifully. Good work, really really beautiful.

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putting this on read more bc i will be ranting LMAO. buckle in, this will be long.

thank you!! :] i absolutely love seeing people see how i organized the colors and panels to be the way they are. and the expressions as well, i had fun making those!

i really like this one bc its short but it goes pretty deep into the lore. i had to think about the flow of the panels and the colors and poses of the comic since its only 3 pages and i dont have much to tell the message aside from those things asgssdfgh

i originally saw the concept (opposite of love isnt hate) from a tiktok HAHAH i dont think weve ever tackled that in literature or anywhere at school unfortunately :(( im a big fan of metaphorical/poetic statements too. tho its technically logical, but weve been so used to hate being described as the opposite of love that its just mind-boggling for me to hear that lol

i actually understand you lol im currently done with school at the present moment but a few months ago i barely even posted, even more drawn anything bc i was so busy with school. since youre still not done, good luck with that!!

but oh lord am i a hoe (a WH**E) for lore.

ive thought of this for a long time now but i just had to urge to get to drawing it when my twt tl starting going deep into c!dream's lore.

i just ABSOLUTELY love lore revolving around the dt. (maybe because im more attached to them whoops)

its just so fascinating to think about. (everything onwards is /rp and /character) also, you said youre not that caught up with lore so if you dont get these things or dont wanna bother/get spoiled, you can just ignore it lol i just really needed to rant about his character thats all, needed to get it off my chest phew

dream from the start had a plan: make everyone on the server hate him and build a prison for someone so strong it'll be needed. for me there is no way he was talking about tommy or techno then. no way.

he definitely had a fall to corruption. what he did with tommy during exile, that one is inexcusable ofc but the other things??? destroying the community house, siding with techno during his arrest, even destroying a whole ass country (this one might just be him reaching his limit against lmanberg, being the first and basically only country to defy him sm and stuff)

its weird and interesting in a way. what he did, the destruction, telling everyone he has no more attachments, not even sapnap and george, putting george on the throne then dethroning him not long after-- all these things just seems like it's part of his plan you know???

but like, what for? why? what does he want? earlier in the smp, he just wanted to build a home for them, one that will grow and be beautiful (theres a certain tiktok edit of this one, i am going to cry) he was such a good guy in the earlier days, he just wanted to take care of the server and take on the responsibilities expected of him but it just all... fell?

but even then, from the start, i cant help but think that he was already alone. sure, he had sapnap and george and the others but after everything: after sapnap was so quick to jump on tommy's side after ONE thing that dream said in the heat of the moment to threaten tommy (the 'i dont care about anything' bit), not trying to clear it up with dream and with george being so quick to side with other people's statement (dream dethroned him bc he hates him, etc) than dream's own (to protect george), its just so sad. not to mention even before everything, those two formed new nations without dream before; while dream was fighting for his own alone, they didn't really care enough. they did this again, with kinoko kingdom but tbf, the destruction of the community house felt like the end of the greater dream smp.

its just... sad and tragic, his whole character. his life is like the joker, baby. BAHAHAHA

anywaaaays

sorry about that, the c!dream apologist in me needed to breathe

glad you think its beautiful hehe <3

[prettiestsupersoldier]

Gummi Bears

AN: Hey! I felt bad for being so pissed off when I posted 'The Winning Team' so have this absolute sweetness i wrote in like half a day

Summary: Bucky is a THIEF!!

“Steve!” You yelled as you looked through the freezer for your candy. 

 “What?” He asked back at you from the couch in his room. He was watching a movie with Bucky and you yelling was distracting them both from the well choreographed fight scene on Steve's TV screen. 

 “Where the hell are my Gummi Bears?!” You put them in the freezer as soon as you got home so they could be nice and cold by the time you were ready to lay in bed and watch your favorite TV show. But they were fucking gone! 

 “How in the world would I know where your candy is?! Does that even sound a little logical to you?!” 

 “They were in the freezer next to the ice cream and now they're gone. Did you take them?” If he took them you wouldn't be that mad, but if he was lying about it you'd be damn furious. 

 “No I didn't take them. Why would I take them?” He just really wanted to watch this movie and the more you bugged him the more annoyed he became. 

 “You drank my strawberry soda last night! Or have you already forgotten?” You had been saving that strawberry soda all day to go with the pizza you would be having for dinner. It was gonna be perfect with your dinner.

 “No I haven't forgotten.” He sighed, he got chewed out by your dad that night about taking your soda and he still wasn't truly over that.

“So why wouldn't you eat my candy today?” You had taken just about everything out of the freezer looking for them they couldn't have just vanished like that. 

“I said sorry about that by the way, and for the last time no I didn't take your candy.”

Bucky sat stone still as he listened to the two of you bicker back and forth. A part of him admired your sibling-ship. Even though the Rogers had adopted you, you had grown up knowing them and treating them just like you had been born into the family and it was very evident in the way you talked to them. Just like he talked to his own parents with love and adoration, but more specifically the way you talked to Steve the same way Rebecca talked to him. You could go from being at each other throats to sharing laughs and inside jokes in just seconds. 

The Rogers had adopted you when you were 2 Steve was 3 and Bucky was 4. Growing up Bucky didn't have any particularly fond feelings for you. You were just Steve's little sister who would bring them juice and Rice Krispy treats when they played outside. Sometimes you would trip and fall over and cry and he would offer a sympathetic hug to get you to stop. Every single time it worked like magic and your parents would always laugh and take photos. But for the most part growing up you were just an attachment to Steve much the same as Rebecca was to him.

Somewhere in middle school is when a flip had been switched. You had gotten your first 'boyfriend’ in 6th grade, a friend of Bucky and Steve's, and Bucky hated his guts. Hated the way he would carry your books to class, hated the way he would walk home holding your hand, hated the way he would give you suckers everyday, Hated. Him. It wasn't put into perspective until he had caught you guys kissing behind a school building. He was pulling they guy off you in seconds. 

“We're leaving Y/N.” He shouted as he pulled you to walk with him. 

“Why? I'm waiting for Steve.” You tugged your arm to break free of him but couldn't. 

“Because I said so. Let's go.” He pulled you more and you stumbled trying to keep your balance. 

“No, I wanna stay.” His grip was tight and you couldn't get out of. 

“I said we’re leaving, or should I tell your parents you were kissing your boyfriend?”

“That's not fair Buck! You didn't say anything when Rebecca kissed her boyfriend!” 

“That's different you aren't Rebecca. Let's go.”

“I hate you Buck..” When you tugged one last time his grip had loosened significantly and you made a break for it to run home.

He was so jealous back then and it was so embarrassing to think about how he acted then. But it was even more embarrassing to think about how he never apologized to you for ruining that moment for you. That giant green monster had lead him to do something so incredibly stupid and had also lead him to hearing the words that had been his first heart break. 

You had always had a crush on Bucky. Your parents would tell you stories about how you often would run up to him damnedest and Steve played basketball and hug his legs before your cheeks got hot and you ran away. There was even video evidence of your crush on him from a barbecue. There had been some dance song playing you couldn't be bothered to remember the name of even though you’d seen the video hundreds of times. The video was just under 3 minutes long and it started with you crying your eyes out while you sat on bench in your pretty purple and white dress. Who knew why you were crying. Your family was absolutely no help in telling you what made you so upset with their jokes. Your mom had told you it was because you dropped your hot dog. Your dad would joke that you were crying because you didn't get to jump in the bounce house. Steve said it was because Bucky had been dancing with one of the other kids that your parents had invited to the party. It was kind of annoying how much you believed Steve.

The next thing that happens after you had presumably been crying for 5 complete minutes is Bucky running over to sit next to you on the bench. Almost immediately your crying turns to adorable snotty sniffles as he pulls you into a side hug and places a gentle kiss on your forehead before he pulls you up and towards where the giant booming speakers are to dance.

Your crush on Bucky progressively escalated the older you got. So much so that the only reason you dated your first real-ish boyfriend was because he reminded you of him. You were young and super dumb in 6th grade so you didn’t really realize how messed up it was to be basically using you him. He didn’t particular look like him but he was called James and he hung out with Steve a bunch and he was super nice. It wasn’t until you had your first kiss with him did it dawn on you that he wasn’t Bucky and he would never be him,but before you could tell him that you wanted to call it off he had showed up to drag you home. He was acting worse than Steve.

“...You didn't say anything when Rebecca kissed her boyfriend!”

“That's different you aren't Rebecca.”

He loved Rebecca he didn't love you. He only saw you as his best friends little sister and that is all he would see you as and it hurt more than your 11 year old heart could take.

“I hate you buck.” 

When you looked back on it know you felt like an idiot. For a hundred and one reasons. For being such a silly kid for, for using that poor kid even though really be was probably using you as well, but mostly for telling Bucky you hated him.

“Steve I don’t wanna ruin your movie I just want my candy!”

Bucky reached over the tiny couch tapping Steve's shoulder ever so lightly to get his attention trying his damnedest not to crinkle the empty Gummi Bear bag.

“Whats up buck?”

When he opened his hand the bag crinkled loudly and he closed his eyes waiting for Steve to yell at him. Like he always did when this happened.

“No.” Steve's replies as soon as his eyes drop down to the bag.

There's an almost hurt whine that comes from the back of his throat. This was a common occurrence whenever Bucky came over he would forage through the cupboards and fridge looking for snacks to munch on when he and Steve did homework and watched TV and somehow he'd always, subconsciously is what he'd tell Steve, end up eating your food specifically no one else's just yours. Your candy, your chips, your leftover chinese take out anything honestly. 

“Steve please!” He begged. They went through this regularly. He would eat your stuff Steve would take the blame and then Bucky would rush out and buy way too much of whatever snack he had taken and have Steve return it.

“No. I'm not taking the blame this time.” Steve had told you a long time ago that if a snack of yours had come up missing 99 percent of the time it was because of Bucky. It was starting to get on your nerves a little bit. You wouldn't be mad if he just told you he ate your stuff, sure you wouldn't be pleased but the least he could do was acknowledge that he was doing it.

“if you take the blame this last time I'll … i'll do almost anything!” He begs.

“Anything?” Steve questions with a cocked eyebrow. He really just wanted buck to talk to you for one god damn second.

“Almost… anything.” Bucky offers a correction because he knew his best friend and he would be damned.

“I'm coming up there to look and see if you took them!” You yelled one last time as you walked towards the stairs.

“Steve I'm your best friend and I'm begging you to tell her you ate the fucking Gummi Bears!”

“Why can't you tell her you ate the Gummi Bears?” Steve asked with a knowing look on his face.

“Because she’ll yell at me.” He said through gritted teeth.

“Has she ever yelled at you? I'm pretty sure she's incapable of that.”

Of course Bucky never told Steve about what happened all those years ago because he knew Steve would ask what his problem was. Steve liked your boyfriend at the time he was pretty alright for the most part and explaining to Steve that he had a crush on his little sister was not the way Bucky wanted to die.

“Not necessarily yelled. But I bet she would!”

“You're an idiot.” He shrugged before calling back to you. “Fine,” Steve replied to  as he locked eyes with Bucky, “I don't care come look.”

You made your way up the stairs two at a time. You knew Bucky had come over earlier today he was always over. You wanted to see him even if he wouldn’t talk to you, you could see him for a few seconds. When you had made it up the stairs you didn’t even bother to knock on Steve’s door he didn’t knock on yours it was only fair. When you opened the door you did a quick look around to see if Bucky was in there with Steve. But he wasn’t.

“So he definitely ate my candy right?” You asked as you made to lay across his bed.

“Oh yeah absolutely.” Steve said as he let his head fall back against the couch.

“Where’d he go?” You are flat on your back staring up at his ceiling a lot disappointed that you had missed him.

“Hopped out the window.” Steve hadn't looked at you yet.

“No way?” What the hell was wrong with your brothers idiot friend.

“Yep. Jumped right out of the window. Took a running leap even.” Steve was so tired of Buckys bull crap at this point he didn’t even care he had jumped

“Your friend is an idiot.”

“I told him that. Wanna watch this movie with me?”

“Hell yeah!”

You don't leave your brothers room until well past 1 am wanting nothing more than to lie in your bed and watch TV. Minus your favorite snack. You had assumed Bucky would have made his way back in that time but he hadn't. You and Steve had watched 2 entire movies in that time.  

You always enjoyed quality time with your brother it didn't happen as much as either of you liked but when you did get the time it was great. You get half way through an episode of Wives with Knives when there's a soft knock on your door. That was weird Steve definitely didn't knock on your door and your parents had long since been to bed. "Come in!" You yell sitting up just a little bit.

 "Hey." Bucky practically whispers as he opens your room door.

“Oh. Hey buck.” 

“Can I um come in?” he asked after standing awkwardly for a bit of time.

“Uh yeah sure come in. Have a seat. I would offer some snacks but Steve ate the ones I was saving.” With that he walked in the last bit of the way before closing your room door.

“So whats up?” You tried not to sound so surprised. 

“I uh .. I brought you some Gummi Bears because I ate yours earlier.” He said as he pulled the biggest bag of Gummi Bears you had ever seen out of his backpack.

You tried to plaster on the best shocked face you could, but you could feel the familiar tingle in your face of a smile. “You know Steve told me a few years ago it was you eating my stuff.” You said as he handed the bag to you. Opening the bag immediately you grabbed a handful.

“He did!” he almost shouted. “I mean really? He did, did he say anything else when he told you that?” He wouldn’t look at you instead focusing on your TV where it had been paused on a lady standing over her husbands bloody body. He didn't actually say anything else, but clearly Bucky was afraid Steve had told you something juicy and you wanted to know what that something was.

“Bucky.” You give him a look that screams really dude,“He’s my brother why wouldn’t he tell me?”

“I should have told you myself doll.” Doll?! Bucky only called his ‘best girls’ doll. You sat up straighter in your bed and leaned over to turn your TV completely off.

“You can tell me now.” You thought you sounded smooth but you genuinely couldn't be sure your heart was pounding. “So I can hear you say it and not Steve. Obviously.” You were so terribly bad at this.

He took a deep breath before he moved to sit on the edge of your bed. “I like you.” He had finally made eye contact with you at this point waiting for reaction.

You could feel the Gummi Bears in your hand squeeze together as your fist tightened around them “Pardon?” This wasn’t what you were expecting fuck if it wasn’t nice though.

“Haha. You just said Steve told you,”he lays back on your bed before he continues, “Or were you lying to me doll?” His head is in your lap now looking right into your eyes. He smelled like spearmint gum and you wanted to close your eyes to take it all in but he was so close you almost didn’t want to breath.

“Its only fair, how long have you been lying to me about my candy?” This had to be some sorta of trick or maybe you had jumped out of Steve’s window and fucking died. That sounded way more likely then James Bucky Barnes liking you.

“Sorry about the candy.” he said one last time.

Before you could even think about what you were gonna say your lips were moving. “Make it up to me with a kiss?”

Theres a smirk on his face just seconds before he dives in to cover your lips with his own. Buckys lips gently brush yours and they are so incredibly soft and everything you had fantasized they would be and some. The kiss is cut extremely short when you hear your door fly open and Steve is standing there. 

“This is cute but its 1 am and you're in my little sisters room.” He said as he grabbed Bucky by his shirt and dragged him out of your room and down the hall back to his.

[kajimotomiya]

Ultraman Orb is finished as of 12/10/2017

When I was a young lad, about the age of 5th or 6th grade or so, the Fox Kids section of Fox was removed and revamped to a new program on Saturday mornings: The Fox Box. It had many shows, mostly licensed by 4Kids (Yu-Gi-Oh, Pokemon, etc.), including Sonic X, Kirby: Right Back At Ya, Tokyo Mew Mew, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (a darker version than what the cowabunga cartoons were), and especially a dub of Ultraman. (Dub, not what Power Rangers, Masked Rider, or Kamen Rider Dragon Knight were...adaptations?) Most specifically, Ultraman Tiga.

How ironic that my first exposure to Ultraman would come back to me in the form of my first Japanese Ultraman series.

Having joined a forum called HJU, I met a friend who was an Ultraman buff (also a bit of an elitist), and learned a little bit more about Ultraman through him. I became somewhat interested in Ultraman Zero and that convoluted named movie he was featured in, especially that Black Ultraman who’s always smiling (I know his name, shut up). But being more of a Kamen Rider fan, I was very reluctant to try other things until I finally started watching some Super Sentai shows. I needed a reason to watch Ultraman, and not for the love of Kaiju people have towards this franchise, or the mechs in Super Sentai. I wanted what I got from Kamen Rider: intense rivalry, an unspoken bond between two warriors bound to forever clash blades. Upon following someone on Tumblr, I asked them about Ultraman suggestions. And while they gave me a lot to try out, they specifically offered me something I could refuse.

Unspoken bromance.

Ultraman Orb is about a wanderer who wasn’t all that he seemed. Having met the Searching Something People (I hate this name still), he eventually bonded with and started living with them. While protecting Tokyo from the threat of the Kaiju and other extraterrestrial terrorists, he would continuously cross paths with a man whose deep history he shared, both good and bad, and protect not just humans, but all of Earth, from his plans.

This guy.

As my first Ultraman series, I truly did love the fights between Gai and Juggulus Juggler (I still love this name). Although their ACTUAL insuit fight was rather anticlimactic and sort of unsatisfying, their offsuit fights were pretty fun to watch. I especially loved that Gai wasn’t this hot head or “teen hero” that Super Sentai and Kamen Rider would always expose me to. I love his cool, mature adultness. On the other hand, I could never get a grip on Juggler’s deal. He would be cool, menacing, calculating, with a voice so deep and sexy I’d question my heterosexuality. But then he starts going on fits of insanity with his voice shooting up five octaves (and his goddamn laugh), and I am immediately brought back to reality. Even now, I STILL don’t know what his deal was with Gai except he wasn’t chosen to be an Ultraman. So what is it? Did he just want to prove he was better? Did he want to kill Gai for taking away a power he believed was rightfully his? Did he grow psychotic from the powers of darkness? And then he’s saving Naomi all the time instead of actually killing her, and while we DO touch upon it, it’s been more than frustrating to see where on the evil spectrum this asshole lies. Speaking of Naomi...

I still hate them.

Maybe it’s just the acting. Normally I can’t tell the difference between English-speaking and Japanese acting, since in English I can TELL when someone is phoning it in. Because Japanese is just my secondary language, I can’t tell the actual inflections that are normally used or just hamming it. In this case, however, these guys were WAY too obvious. It was actually kinda of annoying to listen to. But let me at least get past that.

Naomi has been literally the damsel in distress all series. She gets caught in so much shit, especially with Juggler, that there were times I hoped she would kick some ass (like a certain sword-wielding cutie in the next show). She ended up serving to be Gai’s emotional motivator, when she “died” and when he was at the end of his ropes. Honestly, I didn’t like that about her. Maybe I’m just shallow thinking about it, but I wanted her to be a little more than a potential love interest (they never outwardly stated it, but it definitely was a thing).

Shin is like the smart guy, right? But there were times I just wanted him to just STOP TALKING. When he and Jetta just run off each other in seamless conversation, it’s just NOISE NOISE NOISE. I...I know his light in the series was with the Mecha Godzilla look-a-like, but even then I couldn’t really like him.

Jetta was..............kinda useless. I almost actually forgot his name writing this.

If there was anyone I liked out of this repeating cast, it was Shibukawa. He was your typical stupid ossan who knew how to dish it when needed. If there was a human hero in the story besides Gai, it was him. His episode where he and Gai were fighting their respective alien opponents in perspective shifts was iconically one of my most favorite episodes in the series. The man is hardboiled, but not like Shotaro Hidari “hardboiled”. But even then, I don’t understand his logic, like shooting at a giant alien with his gun. Also his acting sucks.

All in all, I actually really liked this series, though despite being only 25 eps, I actually had to take breaks. Maybe it was because of these guys I felt a little turned off. When you have these guys as the public face of the “hero in the shadows”, it’s...kind of annoying.

So what’s next after this?

I am currently streaming Ultraman Geed with a Discord server I’m in, making it the only time I’m watching it. The guys I’m watching it with have never watched Ultraman, so it’s somewhat educating for all of us, and I think the reactions are more genuine that way.

I also have Ultraman Orb Origin in my HDD, so maybe this will clear up some things about Gai and Juggler I’m missing. I also have X, that Ultraman Zero movie(s), and I THINK Tiga is also there. It’s a little hard for me to go Showa, but I’ll try at some point.

If there is anyone I want to thank for this, it’s @biomic. We’re not friends or anything, and I think I annoy them more  than I want to, but it’s because of them I started watching Ultraman and added another chapter to my Tokusatsu life. I’ve watched their liveblogging of Ultraman since I started following them, and I enjoy every bit of it. Maybe I’ll start Metal Heroes because of them as well?

That said, I enjoyed having a taste of Ultraman, and I can’t wait to rip through Geed as well. Until then,

あばよ