#hadiathoughts

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Dawn

The pain felt good. It felt right.

(or: a little blurb I wrote for Hadia that I probably will either not finish or will modify for a longer story! This just came to me, so I decided to write it down and share it. No content warnings for this work. Think of it as like a sneak peek into my drafts folder.)

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Eden had been gone from the cabin for three hours when Hadia woke up. 

The first thing she was cognizant of was just how utterly silent the cabin was. The wooden slabs creaked as the wind whistled through their cracks, low and slow and winding with nary a care in the world. The trees tapped against the window pane- not in an urgent way, but in a methodical way, as though contemplating each rap upon the glass unhindered.

There was no pacing on the floorboards, no heavy, lumbering footsteps shifting its gait too and fro in anticipation for her to wake up. No unsettled china and wayward plates, unfilled pots of coffee or the empty dissatisfaction of a breakfast not made. No crumbs to wipe and clothes to wash or chairs to rearrange back into their proper positions. No fuss, no hurry. 

Peace. 

The second thing she was cognizant of was how much her body hurt. Her head pounded with the rhythm of a drumbeat, red hot and sizzling underneath the shallow dust that always seemed to haunt the room. Her arms were limp and tingling, and Hadia spied circular lines criss crossing the hard skin. 

She must have slept on top of them last night, instead of her usual position cradled beneath Eden’s frame. Or she must have naturally flipped onto her side after Eden had left, tottering off back into the wilderness with his hunting gun and galoshes. The pain felt good. It felt right. 

In the early morning, Hadia’s neck felt tender and thin, rawhide just skinned and hung to dry. She knew there'd be purple bruises dotted on her skin, a leash of skin wrung in a tight pattern. After Eden claimed her at night, there always was. The bruises would lie tender beneath the leather collar. She had to wonder if that was intentional for Eden, a silent reminder, or instinctual. Predator meets prey. 

Whenever Hadia was left by her lonesome on those quiet mornings, she didn’t wear her collar. She didn’t put on her nightgown, or her cylindrical brassier or panties or the checker print blue-and-white dresses that hung in an endless, eternal row in her wardrobe. She’d topple the chairs and throw the careful baskets of bread and cheese and berries-hand picked and sorted and pruned for perfection- at the door and watch as they soiled the floorboards below. 

She’d throw the door open and stand in the perfect sunlight of a forest just beginning to wake, of the horizon sparkling and brimming with promise, then wait. The animals would awaken, hard and fast and cruel, and stare at her from the edges of the trees, and Hadia would feel their teeth on her neck as she closed the door and cleaned. 

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requesting 💭, 🔱, & 🤔 for the ask meme! :) (crosses fingers on both hands so that the asks may not evaporate into the ether)

CLAPS it didn't disappearrrrrr

💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — what is your oc's MBTI, enneagram, and/or other personality aspects (if known/interested in)?

(ok so, full disclosure, i haven't done MBTI in FOREVER nor am I particularly a fan of it, and every webbed site i've seen that offers enneagrams wants you to pay 20 dollars for access to your answers so uh. skip!! sorryyyy.)

🔱 TRIDENT EMBLEM — can your oc swim? do they enjoy swimming?

Dahlia: Do NOT let this woman get in the water. at most she can like, doggy paddle. swimming is her least favourite class at school, and she and Mason-who she often gets switched up with Morgan- have a ongoing petty feud. she's a proud member of the anti-swimmers union.

Hadia: She's not great at it by any means, but she can swim. as a kid she'd sometimes bring her siblings with her down to the beach on off days when their parents didn't need them on the farm-far and few in between- so she taught herself to swim. Pretty decent at it, but not something she gravitates to.

🤔 THINKING FACE — what are some of your oc's quirks/mannerisms?

Dahlia: really robotic poses and facial expressions at the temple- kind and polite, yet simultaneously very cold and off-putting. Plays with her hair a LOT, especially when she's thinking hard. If she stars getting passionate while talking, she begins to go crazyyyy with her hand gestures.

Hadia: taps her pen against a desk if she's sitting down, especially if thinking. really enjoys tapping her fingers, or rapping her knuckles against hard surfaces. if she has a bottle of something near her, she is SIPPING. a lot of tooth licking and lip biting.

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🎄🍰☕️🤓 <- for the emoji ask game!! both w hadia and dahlia if it's ok?

giggles and rubs my hands together in joy. MORE asks :33

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your oc's favorite holiday?

Dahlia: doesn't really give a shit, but if she was forced to choose it'd be halloween simply because of all the supernatural phenomena then. makes her job of hunting it down so, so much easier, and she can wriggle out of temple duties that day. when she was younger, her and her friends would throw their own makeshift halloween bash for the orphans, but uh. recent events have made it Incredibly Hard to do so. a bittersweet, yet functional holiday for her.

Her second favourite would be valentines day because the younger initiates at the temple throw gifts at her/ that's a good day for business at the brothel. of course, unless you're sydney or her three most liked friends, she's not getting you anything, but she likes being showered with affection from the idiotic rabble sometimes.

Hadia: does not give a singular shit, really. she'd probably just say whatever holiday she remembers off the tip of her head, but probably Guy Fawkes day would be her most common answer.

🍰 SHORTCAKE — what is/are your oc's favorite sweet(s)/dessert(s)?

Dahlia: huge sweet tooth, so when she gets sweets and time to eat, she indulges. really really loves rice puddings and agar agar jellies, they're delicious. unfortunately i'm not sure if agar agar is commonly found in shopping centres of small british towns.

Hadia: conversely, hadia prefers more savoury desserts, but probably commonly sucks on lollipops as a time passer. likes muffins though, particularly banana muffins. also fond of the all time classic bakarkhani (a sweet paratha). one of the only things her family kept over from the Motherland (bengal).

☕️ HOT BEVERAGE — does your oc prefer coffee, tea, hot chocolate, milk, water, or some other drink? how do they like to take this drink (ex. coffee with milk, hot chocolate with whipped cream, a specific kind of tea, etc)?

Dahlia: does her Nani proud by only liking chai, and very sweet. could probably be persuaded to down a very very surgary iced matcha though (to the point where you question if it's even matcha).

Hadia: tea and coffee connoisseur. she likes striking a balance between cream milk and sugar in her tea. artisanal blends and everything. same with coffee, she even makes her own cream to pour in it! (don't question why there's a uh bunch of cowgirls missing from town now, that's not important. hey take a sip of this cream tastes great right-)

🤓 SMILING FACE WITH GLASSES — is your oc chatty or quiet? are they at ease in social situations, or are they more shy?

Dahlia: dependent on the social situation, but all together quite chatty. i wouldn't say she's entirely at ease, but she's often playing a sort of mental calculus in all of the social situations she's in. not adept but is charming when she needs to be (how do you think she got to be a nun in the first place?) little manipulator whose incompetent elsewise.

Hadia: quiet in most social situations pre-Eden murder. post-Eden murder still not incredibly chatty, but she does talk much more. really depends on the social situation and what persona she wants to display. after becoming harper's assistant though, stops acting shy and becomes more charismatic and suave, for lack of a better word.

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ABOUT MY PC'S:

Dahlia the Redeemed/Paranoid: a beautiful, saintly nun at the temple. a cold, self-righteous, unpredictable and vindictive orphan. a charming dancer at the brothel, a manipulative yet well-meaning thief who escaped prison, a saviour. who is dahlia?

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Hadia the Bride: a shy, quiet girl, never quite belonging to the orphanage yet never quite disappearing from it's hollows. nice, well-meaning, docile. a schemer with only anger and coldness in her heart, a failed escape, a lovely wife who dreams of guns and poisons and control. who is hadia?

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