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qoldenskies · 5 months ago

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Hi so I'm binging all of Canary Continuity-

yes it's 00:30 but fuck it we ball

Anyhoo! Slightly dark note but Donnie is... relatable, with the apologizing. I always feel like I need to apologize for every little thing, especially since I complain about little (yet understandable, tbh) things a lot. And the way you wrote him, with the fact that he has a spreadsheet for keeping track of any social blunders, just sort of clicks, in a way. Like, I can understand the way he's feeling (obviously not... later on, but y'know. With the need to apologize for everything because of the crime of existing and taking up space)

Ok I think I've rambled enough about the unfortunate connectability so onto the real point of this ask! LAJFKLSDJFLKDSJFKLDSAJLAKJFDKSFJKLCJKDS IT'S SO DAMN GOOD

YOUR WRITING? HOLY SHIT! CHEF'S KISS. SWEET UBE WAFFLES THIS IS AN INCREDIBLE FIC (SERIES).

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fellow "i need to apologize for Everything even when it's barely obtrusive or a problem like at all" neurodivergents rise up,, it was a huge issue of mine when i was way younger LOL

anyways thank you very much <3333 mwah mwah mwah

#ask #canary continuity #you might wanna check out coming undone because the whole theme is about like #the pain of feeling like you need to ''earn'' your existence. to make up for it somehow #every act of service being just another quiet apology for being alive #tends to be how i end up writing donnie in general i think #but early in cc i think it comes from a more painful young desperation just to be liked #he feels emotionally disconnected and doesnt understand what he's doing wrong. so he IS apologizing without understanding #it takes him a while to come to terms with the idea that its not about what he does. its about who he is #and its not an unfounded conclusion to come to because when it comes to caged lungs unfortunately that is the truth #donnie is very convinced he can make up for what he is with what he does #because he is so convinced something is fundamentally wrong with him #his intentions are a little more selfish early in caged lungs (compared to cu at least) but i actually think that makes it more tragic tbh #he's just a kid ........

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