#he makes smoking look sooooooo fucking good

[phaedra777]

[babiefries]

you answered that ask i sent about urb being a sweetheart perfectly & i agree 100%. also feel free to continue as much as you want, never apologize for continuing your thoughts! i have some below.

i think urb is the type to not believe in soulmates, but he meets u and then he can’t deny it, knows they have to be real. he felt his world shift when he met you. you’re so unbelievably special to him.

but also imagine him not knowing or realizing how much better/intense/etc sex can be when you’re absolutely in love & truly connected to the soul to someone until he’s with u. he feels insatiable all the time, fucking is so good and like nothing he’s ever experienced before, and it’s bc u both just feel so connected to each other. when u look into each others eyes when ur fucking it ends up being the most intense orgasm u both have had. and it’s similar with other close and intimate positions.

but when u start fucking without condoms its almost like another shift. it’s unreal how good it feels for both of u, it’s so intense and you can feel the soul connection between you both so powerfully. but urb feels so fucking good fucking u raw he can hardly handle it. like the best high he’s ever had.

he’d be insatiable when it comes to you. he just wants to make you feel good, like that’s his main priority. ofc he wants blowjobs and to fuck u and such but u have to cum on his face first almost every time. and fuck……with that scruff it would feel so good. makes me clench thinking about it.

and he just loves eating pussy so fucking much…has to have it on the regular. cause 1. he loves making u feel good but also 2. his main motivator is that u taste so fucking good on his tongue he just wants. loves tongue fucking u and making out with the pussy essentially and hearing those moans from u knowing he’s the cause. makes him so fucking hard he probably could come from that tbqh, especially when u start riding his face, he just accepts his fate that he’s gonna come untouched from that.

but yeah he’s a romantic at heart and also knows u inside and out, knows every favorite and least favorite, every goal and every fear, all the things about u. so he knows exactly what would cheer u up, motivate you, make ur bad days better. (i want something now about him helping his girl thru a bad day 🥺)

and u never meant to tell him everything, but it just kinda happened. u just felt so safe with him the one night u were talking that it just kinda tumbled out. also means he knows the best things to do for you romance wise and it always catches u off guard cause he’s that good at it.

i really love the idea of being each others safe place. u have always told him the safest place u feel is being wrapped up in his arms and he also just becomes ur safe person. it goes both ways too, urb knows he can tell u anything without fear of judgement or anything and he probably would end up telling u things that maybe jack wouldn’t even know. and imagine jack would want to get to know u so bad bc he needs to know the girl that took his best friends heart.

also yes i think he’s gonna be so goofy with his lover omg, she probably jokes that she can’t stand him but the look in her eyes says it all.

am confident urb would share his weed with her all the time, loves smoking and getting high with his baby.

also yes i agree he’s planning dates all the time around his crazy schedule and sometimes u go on dates while he’s traveling cause it’s a priority of his. and he always sweeps u off ur feet so to speak cause it’s just. he’s so good at it. but every date has a photoshoot. has multiple files of pictures of u. some before the date with just you then with him, some fit checks, a ton of off guard pics and also rated r pics.

would have post orgasm pics where u look absolutely fucked out, ones from during, with new sets of lingerie. actually he would probably do boudoir type shoots of u a lot, he has sooooooo many ideas.

def agree he’d look at her like she hung the stars and the moon. (would take her camping i bet too so they can watch the stars 🥹) she’s everything in his eyes, like his whole world tbh.

jack would want to get to know her so bad. urb would prob hide her away from everyone cause he wants her all to himself in the early months but eventually jack gets to a point where he feels like he needs to meet the person who’s stolen his best friends heart. ofc jack would love her cause she makes urb so fucking happy, but i think that they would be able to bond super easily regardless.

i’m glad you agree he’s a sweet boy, i believe in it so strongly. did not mean for this to be this long i just started and kinda couldn’t stop. 🫣

also — a note at the end. urb would slay at the met gala tbqh

Wow I agree with all of this word for word especially with Jack wanting to meet the girl that got his bestie so wrapped around her finger.Like when/if urban is finally in love and it’s in the early stages I can definitely see him being a bit on guard being that he is a now very well know photographer for his bestie jack that someone would try and take advantage of his liking towards them to benefit their selves into getting closer to jack.But as time goes on he sees that you really have true intentions at the start and are there for him in the long one and that his feelings are important to you that you wanna build a strong relationship.And Ik that other people are gonna have there opinion about how urban is with women being as some people like to be too in his business for a person they do not personally know at all but with what we have seen over time urban looks like he knows how have a good time for himself and others around him,he just seems like he brightens up the room with his banter and that the more that you get to know him that he can show you a side of him that’s more reserved for people he keeps close to his heart but also you’d get to see the side of him that loves and cherishes you so much.Like I said before once urban finds his person it’s game over like that man is locked in for life! Whether or not he has his relationship public people are gonna know that this man has someone waiting on him at home that not anyone can compete or compare to in his eyes✨😌I also feel like if he is a bit public about it that he’s definitely just gonna like spam post her randomly then go back to regular program 😂😭like there will not be a time when he ain’t letting his girl shine and have her moments like she literally got a professional photographer as her man he’s getting every angle and making sure his baby look good okay💅🏽😌

Urban would absolutely love smoking and just vibing with his girl(me personally I don’t smoke but I think I would dabble in the future)like I can imagine how goofy y’all would be together just high and being in the moment with each other and having one of those like “moments” where everything just feels so right like the universe is at a stand still and it’s just you guys ora coming together and making you feel whole with each other.

Sex would just be a whole new experience for y’all feeling that type of intimacy of being so close together like y’all are becoming one soul with to body’s and it’s just so intense that you both just get so lost in the feeling and how wonderful it is.

I would try and write more but my brain is just so distracted and I can’t focus on one thing😭but I think our boy Urban is and absolutely sweetheart and a romantic when it comes down to his future person he would buy her the entire galaxy if he could

[midasinc]

enjolras & marius?

yeahhHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!

enjolras:

-he has a really bad fingernail biting problem. they've been reduced down to stubs and he chews at his cuticles too. it's a mixture of stress and a habit he had as a kid that his parents never really noticed to correct. he's been doing it for 25 years, so it feels impossible for him to stop

-he also has hella cowlicks. im projecting bc i do too but it's so difficult for him to find a hairstyle that works because there's always a piece jutting out of place. in canon era he normally just tries to hide this with a hat and in modern era this man does not give a fuck at all. dude has the most insane hair just because he lets it stick up in its natural positions

-modern era enjolras is a pickles/olives friend. he loves briney stuff and picks them off of combeferre and courfeyrac's foods when they dont want them. he relishes in snacks like that and pickles his own stuff. it's a new hobby he just picked up and now his fridge is full of various pickled things

-he's a sagittarius sun, leo moon, taurus rising (just for funsies)

-enjolras's closet is full of muted colors. he wears very bland clothing but people don't tend to notice because they're focused on him himself. it drives some of his fashion-focused friends up the fuckin wall because they'll hear someone go "he's just so wonderfully attractive- that waistcoat looked so good" and whatever bullshit and they wanna scream because it's the most boring piece of clothing in reality

marius:

-idk how many times i need to push this onto my mariuses, but he loves miniatures. whether that be making little ships in canon era or planes in modern era, this guy loves miniatures. he also likes to unwind by watching videos of people making miniature scaled rooms. it's something he wants to get into, on top of the planes and such. something in his brain is such sooooooo scratched by tiny versions of big things

-he has a large birthmark on the back of his shoulder. honestly he forgets it's there until he's shirtless and someone is like "woah dude" just out of surprise. cosette likes tracing the shape of it when she can't sleep and just wants to relax

-modern era marius smokes weed for the first time with courfeyrac and enjolras when he's like 23. he's been raised with this very negative view of weed in general bc he's been scared into thinking it's like fucking meth. anyway this dude takes maybe 2 good hits off a pipe and is outrageously high (it happens). dude just ends up on the floor watching cooking videos for like two hours before falling asleep there. he doesn't smoke much after that

-he also has hyperactive sweat gland disorder. in canon era he struggles a lot with sweat stains because some days it goes through several layers and is visible. he likes to wear a lot of dark clothing because it's less noticeable on those days

-canon era marius tries sketching out his friends faces after everything. he tries really hard to remember and get it down so he never forgets. when he's unable to draw particularly well or cant get a feature right, it kinda breaks him. he just wants to get what courfeyrac looked like down on paper, but he's just not that artistically skilled to do it. it gets worse when he starts forgetting what his features were. there are a lot of stress-induced breakdowns with marius surrounded by crumpled sheets of paper and smudged charcoal on his hands

[michelexx]

I can’t help but think he just used me, and lied about it. Honestly I’m not even mad about it because I know I should be, but I’m not because I’m used to that. But I…. No I cannot say I was even surprised he lied about it either. That’s life.

People lie just to get what they want. And I’m not mad about it either because I do that too sometimes. So, in a way, I guess this is my karma. And I still haven’t learned and that’s probably why I keep getting the same karma lately too. I’ll gladly eat it all up. I did learns something things, but I guess not the right things.

That’s cool. It feels weird to not be mad at the world for once. Thank you spirit for helping me see clearly. Also, thank you spirit for showing me what a real “ aint shit nigga” look like. Of course I still need a lot to learn and I’m so mad at myself for barely figuring it out at my big age. I know I say this a lot, { and actions speak louder than words } but I’m done dating.

I’m not doing that again. Nope. You know what I just thought of ? We need more people like me in this world. And it feels real good on my conscious to say that too. I finally realized what everything is now, like within myself. Christy{ Christine}, is a lover girl and wants so badly to be in a relationship/married/with kids and is sensitive and can’t handle the real world at all; and Mimi{ Mixhele} is hardcore evil to put it simply.

She likes to party, she likes to drink, she likes to smoke, she likes to flirt with everybody, she likes to dress like a slut and is super fun and dangerous. I came up with these personas from a very young age because I always felt different. Maybe to put it in more simpler terms I can rephrase and say I never knew u was autistic until after becoming an adult. And it makes life make so much sense now.

But yeah as a child that’s how I labeled it. And the only people who ever knew about these two people *well maybe like 5 people* living in my brain were my mom and my two closest friends. I’m not friends with either of them anymore, and my mother never acknowledged when I would switch personas or try to talk to her about it. Now as an adult, I never told anyone that I’m on the spectrum of autism. Except for two people: one of my grown-up friends and my now recent ex boyfriend. The reason why I say ‘grown-up friends’ is because she’s older than me even though I’m grown and she’s way more mature than me. And I regret it to this day because after I told her I am autistic we stopped hanging out, we stopped talking and she stopped checking up on me.

Now I’m gonna start switching personas because christy and Mimi like to talk over each other all the time. That’s probably like the only thing those two personalities have in common. The rest of them I haven’t come up with names yet right now I just called them different versions of Mimi and cici. I forgot what I wanted to say. Okay I got it now. Christy is such a hopeless romantic and as much as it hurts to see her cry and sad all the time, that’s one of the many reason why I love her. Sometimes I wonder if I’m real or if I’m just made up in her head since she doesn’t talk to any type of normal person.

But whenever Christine let’s me out I make sure I defend her over everything…oh and sometimes I come out when she gets drunk and it’s sooooooo fun being out. I get her in a lot of trouble tho but she can’t get mad at me for it because she’s drunk and she won’t remember anything that I did from the night before. Which is awesome, I start fights with everyone around me and become everyone’s problem. I like it tho. It’s like fun for me because I don’t remember anything. Like one time Mimi slipped out when I was drunk with one of my ex-boyfriends and she started a fight with him.

I don’t remember it of course but I heard about it the next day. I still don’t know if Mimi is my friend or not because she just be fucking up my life sometimes, and I gotta come back and pick up the pieces and start all over. A LOT. It’s still a little hard for me to handle the fact that I’m on the spectrum. Because I get so mad at myself all the time over little things that don’t matter like that because I can’t do them or I fail.

& I beat myself up about it because I keep forgetting that I’m autistic. Like Mimi has to remind me that I’m autistic and she’ll tell me to calm down and to not get mad because I can’t help it and that’s just how I am. And she tells me to love myself because if I don’t go easy on myself sometimes I will literally hurt myself because I get so mad that I can’t do something or I did something wrong or completely misunderstood the assignment type shit. So she said if I don’t go easy on myself and be patient, then no other *normal* human being will. And she’s right.

That’s why I’m still learning. Christy literally can’t do anything by herself I don’t know where she would be without me. Probably kidnapped and sold for sex trafficking that is. And she knows that too.

I’m blunt I tell her everything even the ugly truth. I mean, she is the only other person I know. To be honest I have a feeling Christy is gonna let me be out soon. And stay out for a while. I’m excited.

Friday, October 28 3:58 a.m, 2022 💜

[psychewithwings]

Strip Tease | NSFW

Just some hcs for giving a STRIP TEASE to Kakashi, Shikamaru, and Naruto (NSFW NSFW… do I really need to say it?)

Kakashi:

-He had been on a very long mission and so you thought you’d give him a treat -You had gone shopping for the perfect outfit yesterday with Ino -She helped you pick out this very see through black bodysuit with a black garter belt and lace stockings... -Bishhhh you look so fire. Hot af -So Kakashi gets home and you have on a flowy skirt and matching top over your lingerie. -You’ve made him dinner, and let him eat, all the while asking him about the mission and telling him what’s been going on in your life -after dinner & talking, you ask “Do you want dessert?”

-then you give him a coy smile and say “why don’t you go sit on the couch and I’ll bring it out to you.” -He goes and sits down, expecting you to join him with chocolate cake on a plate or something -But then he hears the song (I imagine something like Arctic Monkeys kinda vibe) -He told you like a month ago he thought it was very sexy and that it reminded him of you -And here you were, clad in sheer black fabric, and not much of it, crawling towards him on the floor -This man is going OUT OF HIS DAMN MIND -Lust has consumed him -You sit on his lap and grind with the beat of the song before dragging your tongue up his neck -You then drop between his legs and palm his dick through his pants -He is DYING -Then you say, “now, there’s only one rule, no touching the dancer” -He is frustrated, he wants you sooooooo bad -Then you stand and prop your leg on his thigh and remove your stockings -Next, you face away from him as you take the straps of the body suit down -You’ll pull it down to your waist and face back towards him, holding your breasts in your hands -Pinch your nipples and moan, because it will drive him insaneee -He will look at you half annoyed and half sad because that’s his job! -He wants to be the one to make you make those sounds -Face away from him again, and bend over as you pull the body suit down your legs -Kakashi will be in heaven staring at your bare ass -That will probably be the end of the strip tease because this man will just devour you then and there -He will force your hands down on the nearest piece of furniture and eat you out from the back -He might edge you to get you back for teasing him -But he will make you cum 2 extra times because you danced for him -He will def want you to do it again because you’re just so beautiful and special to him

Shikamaru:

-This man is such a dom, I can’t evennn -Okay, so basically, Shika get’s home and you’re in the kitchen listening to some absolute tunes -You’re having a mad jam sesh so you don’t hear that he’s home -You are grinding on nothing but the way you twirling them hips is just “ugh” to him -When you finally turn around this bastard is sitting in a chair with a smirk on his face like you have never seen -“Keep going.” it’s the only thing he says and it is NOT a question -If you’re pretty confident in this he will just kinda let you do your thing -Tease him tho, you don’t get that many opportunities to tease him without getting in trouble ;) -If you aren’t confident, that’s perfect too, he will love how bashful and flustered you get and he will love showing you what to do -Sit on his lap and he will move your hips to the beat with his hands -But once you get the hang of it, you’re on your own -Just get ready for him to smoke while he watches you with that sultry glare -I’m just gonna say it again -TEASE HIM -Tell him there is a “no touching the dancers policy” -Then bounce. that. ass. -If you are flexible, make sure he knows 

-(he gonna wanna bend you in so many ways tho if you show him)

-Lay on your back, spread your legs, and touch yourself -Will turn into a teasing war -He will 110% get his cock out and stroke it -His soft moans will get you too wet and you’ll have to do something about it -Will throw your rule back in your damn face -“I thought there was a no touching rule?” he says with that smirk on his face -Well you gotta get rid of that smirk somehow… -Crawl between his thighs and tell him “I said you couldn’t touch me” -Then just start sucking his dick -Yeahhhhhh… that no touching thing is not gonna last -He can’t help pulling your hair and holding your head while you suck him -He will pin you down and have his way with you -Face down ass up cuz he knows how you can shake your ass in that position now -Will make you cum as many times as you possibly can because you were such a good lil dancer for him -This might be the first time -But it aint the last honey

Naruto:

-This starts out as a joke -You’re probably cleaning the house and listening to classic rock   -Pour Some Sugar on me comes on and you just push Naruto in a chair and start grinding on him -He’s laughing at first but as soon as you turn around and start rubbing your ass against his cock, he is NOT laughing anymore  -Strip off your shirt and press your tits to his chest while sucking on his neck -Give him hickies, so everyone knows you give the Hokage a good time when he comes home -Call him “My Lord” while you grind on him -He has such a pure and generous heart, he deserves all the praise -My boi is loud tho, like he loud all the time so… -Will say things like “Fuck! You’re so good at this…” but he will mostly be in shock -Once you’ve taken off your clothes and you’re showing off by like body rolling against the wall, all he can think about is how fucking beautiful you are -Will tell you you’re fucking gorgeous -Then for some reason he get’s all soft and blushy, then says “I’m so lucky to have you” -Well that’s it for you, and you just slowly take his clothes off too and press sweet kisses all over him when you take off an article of clothing -When you’re both naked, you’ll just sit on his lap again, and slip his cock inside you -Very soft sweet sex, with lots of kissing and whispering declarations of love -However, love is passion -And he will take it to the floor -He has to physically show you how much he loves you -And this man has stamina for so many days -Will fuck you until you have euphoric tears streaming down your face -You will probably cum at least 5 times

I got way too lovey dovey at the end haha But basically yes, I very much advocate for strip teases Key word TEASE (im such a brat ;p)

[shibarirobot]

Aizawa fic - CH 5 - Entrapment

 18+ ONLY! SFW (for now)

Shouta Aizawa x Villian!OC/Reader(?)

CH1

CH4

Okay this chapter kinda fucked me up. I got very emo while writing this lmfaoooo, but again sooooooo sorry that I’m so inconsistent, I care about this story and I want it to actually be good before I post ((also I have the shittiest laptop on the face of the planet so I can barely use it)) more like I just dont have the patience to deal with it XD, mais oui! le chapter is done! Please enjoy! x

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The chair I’m strapped to is stiff and uncomfortable at my back. I haven't been able to move for awhile and it’s driving me fucking insane. My back aches, my thighs are sore, I can literally feel my pelvic bone, not to even mention the cracked rib still throbbing and I’ve started to remember the broken nose I gave myself. It’s hard enough to keep my head on straight, I can’t really seem to focus on the questions I’m being asked, let alone my answers. I’ve been here for hours, maybe days. I have no clue. I have absolutely no fucking clue. This dumbass, Detective Aiko just comes and goes, sometimes followed by a short man with a clipboard and glasses. He just asks a few questions and leaves, I’ve lost track of how many times he’s entered and left as quickly as he comes. This time he comes in dragging another metal chair and flips it around on the other side of the table, sitting on it backwards, like he thinks he’s fucking cool or something. He’s large, I’ll give him that. His thighs swallow up the chair easily and I’m surprised he can actually sit on the thing.

I look at him with my tired eyes. We’ve been at this too long, I’m so fucking tired and I can hardly hold his eye contact. My lips are so unbearably chapped they feel like they might split open at any moment, they might have actually, I can taste iron. I’m parched. My mouth feels like it’s full of cotton. I’m about to crack, I can feel it. “Water.” My voice is tiny at this point, crackly from the dehydration. “I need water.” My eyes start to sag and I press forward slightly, straining against the straps on my torso, skin raw beneath them after so much of my writhing.

Detective Aiko blinks at me from across the table and reaches into his back pocket, pulling out a pack of cigarettes. He easily taps one forward and plucks it from the box between his lips. I can tell it’s a practiced movement, he does it without thinking. His habit has become muscle memory. He shoves the pack into his pocket again and retrieves a zippo lighter. If I was more conscious I probably would have rolled my eyes, if it didn’t feel like they might fall out of my head if I did. Of course he has a zippo, ugh. It’s like he learned how to be a cop from watching cheesy cop movies. He flicks it open and closed in a split second and the cigarette is lit. He takes a deep breath, sucking down the entire thing, inhaling so deeply that his chest puffs and swells almost double. He holds that breath for a long moment, releasing it slowly. I expect the smell of burnt tobacco, but there is none. The smoke pours from his nostrils in thick swirls, but it dissipates quickly, without a single trace that it had once been there.

I can see his eyes go glassy from the nicotine high, his shrouded eyes have barely left me. He stares at me like I’m a caged panther; cunning, dangerous, volatile. All things I might have been if I could possibly think straight. “You’ll get your water after you cooperate.” He shifts in the chair slightly, flicking the used cigarette butt to the side. It falls to the ground unceremoniously and I can only imagine how often he flings those things haphazardly and how many thousands he has personally littered into our environment. I’m instantly seething again. A moment ago, I had no capacity for anything really, and now I’m filled head to toe with rage towards this stupid fucking cop. This man withholding my fucking water, my fucking life source.

The thought that he’s actually killing me passes and I pull at the cuffs around my wrists. “Fucking water.” The chains scrape across the table and I can feel the blood on my mouth, my lips have definitely cracked in multiple spots, blood pooling between my teeth. “I fucking need water!” Now I’m just shaking the chains, trying to make enough noise to get him to give in, annoy him into submission. “Water!” His eyebrow twitches, he seemingly has a very short tolerance for my behavior now, no longer amused by my sass and antics.

He quickly rises from the chair and kicks it to the side, it goes clattering against the wall and loudly falls to the ground, tipped on its side. The sudden jolt silences me and the room is tense with the lack of sound. “Who do you work for?!” He yells at me, full chested. The same question Eraser Head asked me in the alley. Where my allegiances lie. There’s another moment of silence before I bust into intense, manic laughter. They still really think I work for someone?

My throat threatens to give out on me, but I can’t control the laughter. “Me, motherfucker!” I shout back, only not as full, my voice is dying quickly, my laughter soon falling with it, replaced by a hacking cough that I’m pretty sure just shredded the dry skin inside my very dry throat. That doesn’t really seem to satisfy him though. He just grunts and picks the chair back up, setting it upright, but not sitting down in it like before. He just stands there, so tall and trying to be intimidating.

He crosses his arms over his chest and scoffs at me just once. “So we’re gonna keep playing this game, huh?” He pulls out another cigarette and huffs it down just as quickly as the first, barely even savoring the drag. His eyes close and he shrugs. “I guess you don’t want that water.” He quickly strides out of the room, leaving me alone and tortured. I can’t move, my body is giving out, I can’t speak because of my hoarse, abused throat, I can’t do anything at all, but sit here. My mind flashes back to when I felt this way before, tied to a dining chair in front of my drunk birther. My eyes start to water and I am amazed that I even have the moisture left in my body to cry. The parallels are too similar and I can feel myself reverting back, the whimpering that’s beginning in the back of my throat. A couple tears start to fall and I’m slowly slipping into that mindset when I hear the door open again.

I try my best to harden my face, trying to mask the depravity that I had just been wallowing in, refusing to make eye contact with Detective Aiko as he rounds the table again and sits in that chair. He sets something on the table and I’m surprised when I look up, to see Eraser Head sitting in that chair across from me instead. There’s a water bottle on the table and I honestly have nothing to say. I’m overwhelmed by this change of events and the tears come faster now, silently streaming down my face. I feel so vulnerable and this man that I have only prodded and teased is the one here to help me. It’s like the universe is laughing at me, it feels like a trick, but one I’m knowingly and willingly letting myself fall into. I suck in a deep breath, hoping he won’t say anything about my tears. “They haven’t cleaned you up at all, have they?” His voice is low, but he honestly sounds concerned. I lamely shake my head, unable to tell him that I’ve been sitting strapped to this chair since the moment he left. He grunts shortly then stands, slowly grabbing the water bottle and cracking the lid open.

My tears lessen as I watch him, he’s looking at me like I’m a wounded animal and deep down I can’t blame him. All I’ve done since meeting him is lash out and hurt him. In spite of all that he reaches out to me slowly, the cold water bottle in one hand, the other gingerly gripping the side of my neck and tilting my head back. I look at him hesitantly. I’m just supposed to let him pour water into my mouth? That feels too weird, and intimate, and needy, but I can’t really pour the water into my own mouth, so I part my lips for him. He gently presses the rim of the water bottle onto my bottom lip, easing the cold, fresh water onto my sandpaper tongue. His fingertips graze the skin on my neck as the pad of his thumb softly wipes away my tears. It’s so gentle and intimate that I can’t help but cry harder. I’ve never felt such a sincere caress and it’s like my heart is breaking into a million pieces, astounded by the tenderness that I haven’t allowed myself to even realize I was missing. The silent resentment falling away for a moment and letting something new replace it. Adoration? Sympathy? Genuine gratitude?

I take in this new feeling hesitantly as I try to gulp down the water as quickly as he’s pouring it into my mouth. I relish in the feeling of the cool liquid on my tongue and into the back of my throat, soothing the burning I had endured for so long. The tears continue to fall even after the water bottle is empty and I realize his hand is still gently stroking my cheek in an attempt to calm my tears. He tosses the empty water bottle aside and peers down at me. I stare back up at him, my eyes starting to puff up from the tears I had just shed, cloudy with the residual moisture on my lashes. He’s even more beautiful now than ever before, caring for me so tenderly, and I think I understand now. I love him. I must love him. The way I was drawn to him before, it all makes sense. I’ve never felt anything like this before, no one has ever given me even a sliver of a second thought, but here he is. This man I don’t even know caring for a tortured criminal that’s done nothing, but awful things. It must be love. It must be... something at least.

I realize the moment’s been too long and I turn my gaze away, squeezing my eyes shut. I can’t help but feel embarrassed. Here he is helping me, giving me the water I so desperately needed and I can’t even choke out a ‘thank you’. Should I? Would he want me to? His hand falls away and I hear him start to shuffle to the door. Dammit. I’m breathing heavy, trying to catch my breath from the way I gulped down water like a dying horse. “I’m going to get a first aid kit.” I almost don’t hear him, but my eyes snap open. He’s coming back? To help me even more? Eraser Head is… going to tend my wounds… that I got fighting… HIM. This is all so bizarre and my head spins a little, but I can’t help the trace of a grin that tugs on my lips and the slight twinge of heat in my cheek.

I hear that knock on the door again, but before it opens I mumble out a small, drained. “Thank you.” My throat is still destroyed, but it’s enough that I hope he heard me. I guess I’ll never know if he did or even cared because the door opens and closes with no acknowledgment that I had said anything. Once again, I am left by myself, in this too bright room, strapped to a metal chair. As I sit here, it’s hard not to fall back into my miserable thoughts. Self loathing and what if’s come easily. What if that really was a trick? What if he’s never coming back? What if I just imagined the whole thing? What if he’s disgusted by me and just taking pity? I internally cringe at myself. That one is probably closest to the truth. He thinks of me like a charity case, someone who can’t help themselves. He’s a hero after all, that good ole savior complex will always rear it’s big, nasty head at some point. He’s helping me to make himself feel better, not to make me feel better. I sneer at myself. I almost fell into his trap, but no. I’m better than that. I was almost that dumb cunt I used to be, trusting people, needing others help. Fuck no. I promised myself I would never be that person again. I’m better now.

But then the indignation fades and all I’m left with is the reality of the situation. I do need his help. I’m broken and bleeding, strapped to a chair in an interrogation room. I start to cry again. It’s not a heavy cry, just one that makes you realize so much in such a short period of time. I cry as I realize I do need help. I need more help now than I’ve ever needed before. I’ve probably needed help this entire time and refused to see it, refused to ask for it. Asking for help never seemed like an option, it seemed like a burden. Yet, Eraser Head isn’t even offering me help, he’s giving it. Willingly. Of his own accord.

I continue to struggle with my thoughts on the situation far longer than I would deem necessary before I admit to myself it doesn’t matter because he’s simply not coming back. It’s been too long for him to have actually been going to get a first aid kit. He’s gone forever now. Poof. Might as well stop thinking about him. I can’t though. Can’t stop thinking about his perfect face, the way he touched my neck, the tenor of his voice, the scruff on his chin, the scar under his eye, the heat of his body behind mine. It all sends a thrill through me, but more than that, just a deep sense of longing. I yearn for him. I just want him to come back to me, I don’t care if he has the first aid kit he left for or not. I just want him to be present with me because everything just hurts less when he’s here. The open wounds mean nothing when he’s here. He’s the only reason any of my pain has ever been eased. I need him. I love him.

I start to allow fresh tears to fall, but my eyes are already welded shut from the fat tears I had shed earlier, too heavy to open and crusted over with dried tears because I still can’t wipe my eyes. The new ones gently come and allow me to crack open my eyes just slightly. I’m honestly on the brink of exhaustion, but my body has miraculously found a way to push forward. I’m taking a deep breath, trying to re-center myself. Get a grip on reality. Stretch my fingers and toes, get some feeling back in my aching body, crack my neck as best as I can. It’s not much, but it helps. I’m the only one that can do anything for me now. I start trying to survey the room to a closer extent than I had before, but honestly it’s still the same, too bright, all white room. I guess I can see a vent in the top right corner, but it’s too small for me to even think about escaping from. Not to mention, I can’t see a camera, so it must be in the corner behind me, watching, recording my every move. I grumble. There’s also the two way mirror, that I assume has had at least three people on the other side of it at all times. I’m completely under thumb.

I sigh, there’s not much I can do in this situation, and this dumb collar is still canceling my quirk. I’m chained up and defenseless. Fucking great. The door scrapes open again and I startled to see Eraser Head quickly invade the room, that wild look in his eyes again. The tips of his hair are flicking back and forth angrily, but not like it was before when he was erasing my quirk, more like… he’s just worked up. He’s breathing deeply, standing up straight and crossing his arms, a full 180 from his calm, gentle demeanor he had earlier. He’s actually quite intimidating like this and I start to shrink into myself, not knowing why his mood has changed. I didn’t do anything. He looks to the door and reaches out to flick his wrist in a ‘get the fuck over here’ motion. Detective Aiko comes into the room and unlocks my cuffs, releasing my arms from the table. He seems reluctant and I’m insanely confused by this sudden turn of events. My eyes are wide and I look to Eraser Head again, confusion evident on my twisted up face. “I’m taking you to the hospital. The collar will stay on and I will cuff you down when we get there.” He says it all so blankly and I’m even more confused that I was before he answered.

Detective Aiko doesn’t look up, he just grumbles out a gruff, ‘bad fucking idea’ before moving onto the straps at my torso, allowing me to pull away from the chair just a little bit. I struggle to force my muscles to keep myself upright, wanting to slump over and crumple to the floor. He undoes the one at my lap and I barely feel it because my entire bottom half has gone numb at this point. He lowers down further and unlocks the cuffs at my ankles, fully freeing me from the chair. I’m immediately elated to be liberated once again, getting overzealous and springing from the chair. Blood rushes to my head and my numb legs remind me how bad of an idea that is because I tip forward, falling into the metal table, the wind knocked from my lungs. I let out a wheeze and feel strong hands pull me back up onto my feet from my shoulders.

Eraser Head wraps an arm around my waist, pulling me flush to his hip to support my weight. I can feel his hero muscles swell as he pulls me off the table, shifting so we can shuffle towards the door. I’m still dazed and weak, trying to work with his movements instead of against them, but my legs can barely hold myself up and he ends up dragging me along with him more than anything else. My head is right next to his shoulder, tucked tight to his body and I press myself closer, nuzzling my cheek onto his collarbone. He feels so good against me. I’m so woozy, I feel like I’m dreaming. This all could be a mirage, I am dehydrated as hell. But it feels so real and so good that I just submit to it immediately. I press even further, trying to get up to his neck. Trying to be closer. The moment crashes around me in an instant as cuffs fall around my wrists. Damn. It’s Detective Aiko standing behind me, cuffing my wrists together and ruining the moment I was just having with Eraser. I glare up at him and he just ignores me, squeezing the cuffs tighter, too tight. I yelp, but he just looks over to Eraser Head like, ‘Really?’. Eraser grunts and holds his hand out for the key, he still has that wild look in his eye and I realize now that it’s pointed at Detective Aiko. HE’s in the doghouse, not me. Well, I am still arrested, but it doesn’t really feel like it when Eraser Head is personally escorting me to the ER, cuffs or no cuffs. Detective Aiko drops the key into his outstretched hand with an eyeroll.

Eraser Head spins me around, so I’m facing forward. My head is still dizzy, but my legs are starting to get some feeling back and I’m able to stand on my own now, even if I am a bit wobbly. He pulls me close to him again, gripping my bicep with one hand and supporting my weight with a hand on my hip. He’s taller than I remember him being. Glancing over my shoulder, I have to look up at him. His jaw is set, clenched with the anger he’s trying to hold back, silently seething. He’s still eyeing Detective Aiko with a menacing nature, I know his quirk is eye related, but it seems he also has a natural affinity for staring anyways. I watch him tuck the key into his front pocket, then grip my arm again, his hands are so large. I gulp, now realizing my ass is basically pressed up to his hip. He’s still taller than me, it's more like his thigh, but that doesn’t change the fact that my ass is on this man. My mind goes crazy as he holds me there, having some kind of stare down with Aiko. Neither of them has moved, but after a moment the detective shifts back with a grumble. Eraser Head grunts and guides me forward, supporting me as we exit the interrogation room.

Eyes follow us as Eraser Head leads me out of the room and down the hall. The receptionist at the front desk gasps when she sees me walking (semi) free. I can tell they all know who I am. I can tell they’re all scared of me. I don't need my quirk for that. I take advantage of the tense scene before me and grin, lurching forward at the woman sitting at the desk. Eraser Head is still gripping me firmly, so I don’t make it very far before he yanks me back to his body, but I do make it far enough to scare that bitch gawking at me. She screams and drops the phone receiver in her hand, stumbling backwards. I didn’t really expect such a dramatic reaction, did she really think I was gonna rip her head off or something? I’m fucking handcuffed… and doesn’t she fucking work at the police station? She should be used to this by now, why is she so fucking scared? Dramatic bitch.

Eraser Head pushes me forward, obviously still riled up from previous events. I stumble forward a bit, but his grip on me is so firm I couldn’t fall if I wanted to. We continue walking through the waiting lobby, until we reach two large glass doors. Outside the doors, it’s day time, probably late afternoon by the look of the sunlight. I take a deep breath, ready to take a step out those doors, ready to leave this awful fucking place, full of these awful fucking people. Eraser presses the handicap button and the door swinging open, the air is warm as we step out and it’s a little joy in this shitty situation that I bask in for a moment. When we step onto the sidewalk, I look up at Eraser Head. This protective stance, the hand on my hip, if I just ignore the handcuffs it’s like we’re a couple on a stroll. I smile up at him, thinking about how sweet he looks with his hair catching the late afternoon light. It’s golden hour and it settles on him nicely, highlighting his stark features. His eyes flick down to me and an expression of genuine surprise passes his face for a split second. He looks away quickly, a blush coating his cheeks, but his face returns to its stoic default.

We continue like this for a moment until we come up on his vehicle. I’m not sure what I expected, but a small wave of sadness washes over me as he opens the rear door, shoving me into the backseat. I didn’t really think he would put me in the front with him, but this feels so… impersonal. I guess that’s what we are. Impersonal. I mean, I don’t even know his last name. I slouch into the black leather of the car and pout to myself, feeling defeated. Eraser Head buckles me into the seat, leaning over me with his whole, big body. Heat floods my stomach and suddenly I’m feeling something… else. I huff, breathing in his scent, I can still smell the bergamot on him, but the other scent on him still eludes me. It’s sweet and musky, almost earthy. He pulls away before I can breathe in again, shutting the door on me, boxing me into this car alone again. He’s in the driver’s seat about 4 seconds later, but the silence of being alone again still stands out to me. I shake my head, and try to focus on the sounds of the car as he roars the engine to life and pulls out of the parking lot.

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[ramble-writes]

So here comes another valentine's gift for the glorious @franks-mixtape ! If y'all remember the 2 Franks that are brothers and werewolves that I wrote some time ago, this is going from that again because I thought about it randomly and felt like I then needed more of it sooooooo yeah! If you DON’T know, the gist is being that his Frank and my Frank are half brothers. Father being a werewolf to both which resulted in his Frank being a halfling, while mine is whole werewolf due to different mothers. 19 years apart until both came to Ormond where they met up and figured out they’re brothers. So there ya go!

Warning(s): probs just standard cussing, buuuut that’s it lol

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A Wednesday. Worst day for the 14th to fall on. Especially since it’s in the middle of the school week. Frank James Morrison sat there in the last class for the day, English. The teacher decided to focus on how Valentine’s day started from some dude who got executed in Rome or some shit. He wasn’t paying attention, finding it useless to learn about. Emerald green eyes lazily gazed around the room till they landed on his brother’s russet hair.

Frank Fenik Morrison was there a few seats to James’s left, amber eyes were trailing over the printed paper the teacher had passed out previously. As much as he was into literature, if he wanted to learn history on a subject of a man who was killed for trying to teach his religion to the Romans, he would’ve in his history class.

Fenik really was just idly taking his pencil to scribble a random design on a blank spot on the paper, the teacher’s voice seeming muffled in the background. Darkening some lines on the drawing, he felt a nudge in his mind, like someone nudging him with their arm. He lifted his eyes up and flickered to the side where gemstone eyes met and locked.

‘Dude. This shit is boring. Can’t we just.. skip out on this?”

‘I wish. But we can’t or shit’ll go down. Plus, they’ll know it’s us since we have the same exact name, minus the middle name.’

This made the raven-haired Frank sigh out loudly. He slightly scrunched his face up at hearing his other half chuckle both from a distance (thanks to his heightened hearing) and in his mind. Since figuring out the two had the same father, name, preference in tattoos, music, and other things, it made for the two getting along pretty easily. It resulted in a sort of bond to form. Since their father was a werewolf, it resulted in an animal like bond to form, that ran deeper than a standard sibling bond. Emotions, feelings, and thoughts were connected. It resulted in a mind link to have basically silent conversations.

‘Jesus fuckin Christ we have thirty minutes left of this bullshit. Feels like it’s taking foreverrrr!’

Fenik had to cover his mouth to stifle the laugh that bubbled up. Hearing him complain like a child made for lightening the boring mood. The internal complaining actually helped pass the time till the bell rang. Kids instantly got up with grabbing backpacks and shoulder bags alike and hurried for the door as the teacher called out that their homework from 2 days ago is due by Friday. Most likely, no one paid attention.

The two Morrisons waited at the bottom of the steps of Fairview, waiting on the other three of their odd pack in the snow. It didn’t take long for Julie, Susie, and Joey to come out. Julie adjusted her coat she has on as she hurried a bit down the stairs, being mindful of the snow-covered steps as she went over to the russet-haired Frank and planted her lips to his. This drew a very pleased growl from him as he kissed her back. Thankfully, those dreaded words to the holiday weren’t uttered.

“A’ight sluts! What’s the plan for today for shit to fuck up?” James asked, the name making Joey chuckle. “I’m lookin’ for chaos to burn down the grossness I feel from all this love shit.”

“I second that. There’s this jackass that’s been trying to feel Susie up in history when it comes to turning in work,” Julie huffed out. This made Joey look at the pinkett with concern on his face.

“And ya haven’t said anything?” Susie looked away at the tallest’s question which made him sigh. “Sus, ya gotta tell us when this kind of stuff happens..”

Her head only lowered before she pulled her hood up to hide her face. Joey had let out a sigh and draped an arm over her shoulders before looking at the other three. Amber, emerald, and brown eyes met and they all shared the same thought.

‘Trash the fucker’s place’

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To cut things short, finding where the guy lives wasn’t hard. They did the standard: Egging the house, toilet paper thrown and draped over trees and parts of the house. But the brothers took it an extra step by managing to get up on the house with wadded up toilet paper, where they then shoved it down the chimney to block it up since smoke was coming out of it. And they were out as quickly as they came with a job well done. 

They all split to head to their homes, hearing distant sirens meaning the house called the fire department which was sweet music to them. Of course, the russet-haired teen snuck over to Julie’s place after her father passed out for their... usual time together. Raven, as another nickname to call James rather than by his middle name like Fenik, was laying there in bed till about midnight he heard his name being called through that mind link.

‘Thought you were busy bangin’ up Jules.’

‘Shut up and get your ass out here.’

‘Fiiine. But I still wanna hear about your adventures in the pussy caaaave!’

James snickered when he bet the other was rolling his eyes outside, but he got out of bed to get dressed in his usual letterman with an extra layer underneath since it is midnight and it’s still winter. Out the window he went and onto the ground below where his brother is standing and waiting.

“Alright, whatcha want butt sniffer?”

“Don’t. Anyway, thought it be nice to hang out since school has been riding out asses with work to get us “prepared for college” which I could care less for.”

The raven-haired teen nodded. “Yeah. It’s a lot of bullshit. Ffffuck I hate being a senior.”

“I feel that,” Fenik agreed with a nod of his head. As usual, the two headed into the forest since it is their escape, and the only way that the wolves within the both of them can be let out. It’s a nice reliever since a lot of the times going out was never an option and it would make them feel cramped.

Usually, they don’t speak when out in the forest unless they do their usual practice. But for now, it was nothing but a run. Fenik in full wolf with James keeping up at an easy stride. Surprisingly, there was no clouds which let for the moon to shine bright in the sky and reflect off the snow, practically lighting their path. 

They didn’t know how long they’ve been running, but they did come to a stopping point when the two Morrisons came across a big tree. It was there they stopped and flopped down at the base at the big roots, James leaning on Fenik and a hand running through the rust-colored fur in slow strokes.

“Ya know... I’m a bit jealous you can shift and I can’t..”

“Seriously? I dunno. I’d be pretty happy with just the heightened senses n shit.”

This made for emerald eyes to look at the wolf, which in return, amber looked back at the halfling. Concern was felt on both sides. Concern for how one felt left out of things, and concern for how the other didn’t care if shifting was a thing or not. James scooted himself a bit close to be able to wrap an arm around the back of the head of the large wolf and pressed his forehead to his, letting silence overtake the quiet between he two of them.

Something happened since one moment the raven-haired teen was small in comparison to the wolf with clothes on, to suddenly not and... the same size. It was like his body just relaxed for him to suddenly shift, but the realization got for the two to jump up onto their paws and look at each other.

James now was suddenly the same height, same build. Black fur made him look like a shadow o the white snow. Vibrant green eyes stood out like unknown lights in the darkest parts of the forest. The two were quiet, before sounds of excitement left them and they became nothing but giant mounds of fur and limbs with barks and yaps leaving them.

What felt like hours of nothing but romping around in the snow, they both flopped down panting with tongues hanging out of open mouths and tails swishing in the snow. Two sets of gemstone eyes gazed up at the night sky, the moon nothing but a white orb to the side of their vision.

“I hate valentine’s, but this? This is the greatest fuckin’ gift nature let me have haha!” James boofed out, letting his paws stretch out in front of him. It felt like all his limbs were sore from being contained, and finally was allowed to be out.

“Oh trust me. Being this way is heavenly. Feels like what freedom from the system should be. And now that you can shift, we can do this a hell of a lot more. And no one can stop the hell we’ll raise.” Fenik let out a chuff, a canine version of a chuckle. The black pelted one chuffed as well before rolling onto his side and laying close to the rusted pelt one and pressed close.

They were content like that, black mixing with rust, emerald and amber. It took only a nudge from Fenik to say that it’s best they get going. James got up and shook the snow from his fur, waiting for his brother to get up. Both standing, they trotted off to the edge of the forest where they shifted back to their human selves.

“This weekend. Can... we go running again? And... maybe teach me some wolf stuff since now I can shift?”

“Hell yeah man! I’ll be waiting ‘round seven. Sound good?”

James nodded with a slight smile before it fell. There was hesitation, but Fenik could feel it and brought his brother close for a hug. He melted into it and hugged the other back. They stood like that for some beats before breaking it off and headed to their homes with goodbyes through the link. Days and nights for now on were gonna be different, but they were gonna be hella enjoyable and that feeling of being left out vanished. Everything felt right, just as it should be. 

[hey-a-wild-jojo-simp]

Stardust crusaders (Modern) pulling all-nighters headcanons

Kakyoin

He rarely does unless he knows he has a project that he won’t be able to finish without one

Definitely goes with green tea that’s caffeinated

This guy has one of those MASSIVE mugs that holds a good like, five or six cups of tea in it that gets refilled multiple times a night

Rewards himself for finishing sections with cherries or cherry candies

He definitely makes himself meals like he would if it was daytime

Allows himself to take breaks, but he does sometimes get in the zone

He never really intends to work through the whole night, but he’ll look up and be like, “Huh, it’s already getting light out.”

He prefers almonds as the snack he keeps with him

He works in an office (I don’t know if that”s a normal room to have in a house but I have one sooooooo) in a chair and at a desk with all of his work organized so he can find anything at a moments notice

He takes power naps or five hour energies the day after and never pulls two in a row

Jotaro

Pulls bullshit like this all the time 

Monsters and redbulls, he thrives off of them

No rewards, just consistent studying, no breaks except to piss

Probably eats like a fucking pig, chips, crackers, fruits, whatever he sees first when he gets hungry and goes to the kitchen at 02:00

He ends up with tea when Holly comes by in the morning

He’ll work until about 13:00 (1:00 in the afternoon) before he goes for a real meal

He works in his room, you can’t convince me otherwise, he likes to be able to spread his stuff out on the floor

To anyone else it’d look messy but it makes perfect sense to him

He regrets it the nights that he drinks too many monsters and ends up with his head in the toilet bowl

Otherwise there is zero regret

He does go out to smoke on occasion but he doesn’t smoke as much as he often gets in a groove

Does his best not to wake his mother

He has fallen or tripped over something on the third night of the three in a row all nighters he pulls without even napping in the day and ended up cussing loudly, at which point Holly makes him go to bed, albeit with a soft smile and motherly love

Polnareff

He drinks coffee with milk and sugar

But here’s the painful part

This monster drinks it from the carafe

He puts milk and sugar in the goddamn coffee carafe

He’s a total mess, he often can’t find things that he needs only to figure out he’s sitting on them

Probably eats instant ramen and chips and the like

Definitely gets sidetracked watching tiktok and looking at memes about pulling all nighters

Doesn’t get much work done

This bitch probably films a thirst trap or two to post for his like, 1mil followers, he’s definitely popular with the amount of cake he has

He probably gets a few small assignments done

A bit of, “Fuck how long did I fall asleep for?” mixed with a dash of, “Fuck that’s the wrong topic for this paper.” followed by the deletion of about fifteen paragraphs and frustrated mumbling, topped off with “How is it only 02:00, it should be way later.”

Spends some time with Iggy after he gets a few assignments done.

Rarely completes them because he realizes he needs sleep.

Avdol

Simple, he doesn’t, he gets his work done on time

Joseph

Much like Polnareff, drinks his coffee straight from the carafe, but he takes it black

This bitch doesn’t get shit done

He literally downloads tiktok so he can do anything but his work

He finds Polnareff’s account and you better bet this bitch is watching it

He decides to make and post a thirst trap

Polnareff finds it

Joseph literally gives zero shits about Suzie Q being asleep, he’s going to be yelling in frustration

He’s definitely eating jelly beans

I don’t know why he just is

Probably popcorn too

Maybe some sour hard candies

He manages to buckle down and get some work done so that’s good

He probably works really fast once he finds his rhythm

Definitely ended up looking at mukbangs

He got addicted to them

(kids, don’t procrastinate like me then pull an all nighter to get work done and just shit post on tumblr)

[kacchaneatsass]

Can I p l e a s e get some fluff + nsfw headcanons for Mina, Momo and just the main class 1a characters with their gf? (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ

Yeee yeeeeeeeeeeeeee imma just do everyone cause like wtf why not. They will be a little short tho, since I'm doing a bunch from 1-A + shinsou cause my bby boi deserves to be in here so

Kirishima Eijirō

He's so careful with everything

Always cautious of your feelings and makes sure you're doing well

Loves to buy you little trinkets

Keeps a jar of coins to break open to help pay for your inevitable wedding

NSFW

Will try using his quirk after you've been together a few times

It hurts so he doesn't do it again

Pampers you the entire time

So vanilla and soft

Will get rough if you ask him too

Bakugō Katsuki

Brat™️

Will constantly call you rude nicknames

You learn to see through him quickly

Call him Bakubitch and he'll actually laugh

Rough physical affection, will randomly grab your hand and drag you as his way of 'holding hands'

NSFW

Vvvvv rough

Prolly has a daddy kink

Let him spank you

Will spank you even if you dont let him

Vvv much a dom

Emits the big dom energy

Good aftercare tho, lots of candy cuz he gets soft

Ashido Mina

Peppy 100000% of the time

Always wants to go somwhere and do something with you

Will paint with you

Vvv much enjoys cosplaying

Take her to cons plz

Poor bby needs all the loves

NSFW

Super insecure at first about her skin and how she doesn't look like a 'normal girl'

Tell her shes perfect plz

Ends up having a praise kink and honestly she needs it

Is a switch so she'll take the lead sometimes too

Sero Hanta

Will 100% smoke weed with you

Likes Indica at night, but if you give him a joint with sativa or a hybrid he wont care

Will have late night talks with you about literally anything

Swears by essential oils and makes you put lavender on your toes at night for whatever fucking reason

NSFW

Again, super chill

Takes everything slow

Almost lazy

Loves giving head but will never turn down recieving

There is essentially no aftercare, will just wash the sheets in the morning

Kaminari Denki

Dumb Bitch Juice™️

Literally an idiot

Will force you to make tiktoks with him

Will also convince you to dye your head bright blue and jump off a bridge

Hes eerily coercive for a dumbass

NSFW

Lots of kisses

Always nervous even after your first time

Will shock you, be warned

Smaller then average but knows how to use it

Say thank you to porn for teaching your dumbass short circut boyfriend how to give good dick

Jirō Kyoka

Soft girl

Big punk energy tho

Will do your eyeliner

Will also convince you to get tattoos with her

Definitely convinces you to let her try and pierce your lip

It goes badly

Don't ask her about it

NSFW

Sooooooo fast

Shes there for the lovemaking, but to hell with it if she isn't gonna get off at least three times while shes at it

Vvv rough

Gets dominating if you give her the chance

Switch with big top energy

Midoriya Izuku

Ugh

So squishy

Will always hold your hand

Gets jealous easy

Always blushy

Cheek kisses for no reason

Lots of 'I love you's

NSFW

Lots of jealous sex

Is not afraid to bend you over a counter and take you from behind

Vvvvvvvv big top energy in the bedroom

So dominating

Always such a shy bby everywhere else but not there

Loves edging

Has a big daddy kink

Todoroki Shōto

So quiet

Actions speak louder then words

Won't tell you he loves you very often, but will bring you home flowers and set up little movie nights and kiss your temple

Loves you so much

Is so afraid to be like his dad

Treats you like glass sometimes but he cant help it

Wants you to have an amazing life together

NSFW

Again, scared to be like his dad to very subby

Best to be a switch

Can be a bratty sub sometimes

Probably will be a bratty sub most of the time

Such a good sub tho

Praise kink

Light bondage

Shinsō Hitoshi

Nap time x10

Worse then Aizawa

Will literally bring home every cat he sees

Have fun returning cats to their owners

Always messy with everything

Not just his hair

Everything

Messy room, messy notes, messy thoughts, messy eating

Messy boy

Cutie tho

Knuckle kisses all the time

NSFW

Will pound you into the bed

Literally a jackhammer

You have to cum 4 times before he can

Its just a rule now

Loves eating you out and taking head

Will accept you giving him head but likes eating you out better

Has a really hot ahogeao face when he cums

Like

Tongue out eyes rolled back

Cums really fuckin hard

Is usually exhausted after but will run a bath and make you two clean up anyways

Yaoyorozu Momo

Sweetest girlfriend ever

Will surprise you with little gifts all the time

Can just do that because of her quirk

Loves holding hands with you and cuddling

Uses you as a pillow 99.96% of the time

Forehead kisses are a must

Always wants to be touching you because shes not always sure that you're real and you're dating her and you love her

NSFW

Cums a lot

Like

A lot a lot

Have fun washing the sheets tomorrow

So sexually touch starved that literally just breathing right on her neck will make her cum

Loves taking on a dominant role, but is willing to bottom too

Typically a power bottom

Likes taking it slow but will get rough when jealous or asked to

[justine-the-guillotine]

5 Otome/Romance Game Men I Adore

Thank you so much @pseudofaux for tagging me! Also, thank you for saying that your own list was not in order or an exhaustive list because I often feel pressured to make a perfect list in these types of situations lol but if pseu was chill I can also be chill (EDIT: no there’s actually a lot of screaming below and absolutely no chill, I’m sorry, I lied.) 

I always talk too much and break too many rules when I do these things but that's just how I am lmfao so I'm gonna start off by saying IkeSen's Nobunaga Oda is my absolute favorite otome game man of all time... but I'm not going to officially include him on this list because I talk about him too much as it is already and I feel like enough people love him anyway. However, if anyone is interested in hearing me talk about Nobunaga ad nauseam, I will gladly entertain you. 

On to my list ~

1. Caramia, OZMAFIA!! - Ozmafia!! is my favorite otome game (MC be damned) and I love this man sooooooo much. His wedding CG has actually been the background on my phone for ages now. You know the "that's where the trouble began, that damned smile" meme? THAT'S FUCKING FOR HIM THAT'S HIM!!!!!!!!! That smile ruined my entire life in the best possible way and I have not known peace since. I guess I have a bit of A Thing for loveable, charismatic leaders. I just love a man who is full of power but big of heart ... and a little bit of a dumbass. Caramia is just like the total package...  He protecc, but he also attacc, and he also a snacc. Oh, and he can cook!!!

2. Fenrir Godspeed, Ikemen Revolution - Fenrir is really, really special to me and I put him in his own category entirely. In reality, Fenrir and Ray are actually tied as my IkeRev biases (and honestly I prefer them together; Alice is optional). Fenrir is actually so close to my heart that I refuse to even look at almost all fanfiction with him in it, with few exceptions. The fear that someone could "ruin" him by writing him in a way that even slightly disagrees with the way I picture him in my head (and I have seen it) is really too much for me to handle. Is this unhealthy of me? Probably, but I tend to avoid the situation all together so it doesn't matter. Not only do I self-insert in my games but I'm also not one of those people who separate fiction from real-life really well, so all of my biases are people I'd actually fall for IRL. And Fenrir is really special to me because he is actually the most perfect, ideal boyfriend in my mind but he is someone I absolutely do not deserve IRL and would probably run from for fear of ruining things. :'] So while any otome game man is a fantasy, he's like... top tier fantasy for me. He's just so perfectly easy-going, such a Prince Charming, Knight in Shining Armor, easy to read, so ready to love you, SO MUCH FUN... he's a Good Boi without being naive and innocent... he's like a wild-yet-safe adventure ugh he's like   p e r f e c t    I cry

3. Raymond, Blood in Roses - I don't necessarily think Blood in Roses is a great game; it definitely has its hits and its misses BUT it did grant me this one amazing man and therefore I will never uninstall it. I mentioned that I like lovable leaders but I also thoroughly enjoy being able to break down a brick wall of a man. Raymond starts off by being pretty cold to MC, caring really only for his duty (I love a loyal man), but takes MC under his wing anyway... and slowly realizes he has feelings for her and then of course becomes someone who is willing to die for her. This is peak romance, don't @ me.

4. Zen, Mystic Messenger - Zen is actually not my favorite to romance (that honor belongs to Jumin) but he is my #2. More importantly than the romance though, he is such a fucking good guy in every single route... ignoring all of Chertiz's little homophobic undertones of course (man do I wish Chertiz would rewrite Mystic Messenger so it's not so conservative, pleaseeee). He is willing to stand up for and protect MC in every route, not just his own. In all routes, he offers himself to MC as a shoulder to lean on, someone to cry to. He is always helpful to everyone!! Even though he and Jumin don't see eye to eye on most things, Zen is still ultimately supportive of him and wants what's best for him. ZEN IS A TRUE BRO. He's also super chill like he's all about his acting and performing... but he just also wants to drink beer, eat street food, and smoke cigarettes all day. I know people get turned off by his narcissism but fucking look at him okay he has every (!!!) right to be narcissistic. Plus, he doesn't let his ego get in the way of love and friendship and that's very important !!! In this essay, I will -

5. Leonardo DaVinci, Ikemen Vampire - I just want to type his name and send like 150000 weary emojis after it and be done with it. Honestly, it is at the point where I think he is on Nobunaga level for me. I have fallen very, very hard for him. I have two IkeVamp accounts and between the two of them I think I have done his full route about six or seven times. Every time I get to the scene where Comte suggests that Leonardo breaks it off with MC, I want to scream at the top of my lungs "BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM" like Ariel does in The Little Mermaid (Leonardo has his own moment where he internally shouts "I LOVE HER!!!!" so we're even tbh). First of all, HE IS SO FUCKING KNOWLEDGEABLE HE KNOWS SO MUCH AND HE KEEPS LEARNING THAT SHIT IS HOT. Also, I have seen people disagree with me on this but I personally don't think he's patronizing to MC. His MC, unfortunately, is written in that way where "ugh he's so mature and I is babey" so, of course, there are moments where he plays off of that but he literally has SO MUCH KNOWLEDGE and he never is like "wow I can't believe you don't know that you idiot" to MC even though the opportunity to do that is plentiful. He will tease her, sure, but that's totally different than being mean about it. The best thing about him being so intelligent is the fact he's also a fucking dumbass (I love me a dumbass, as you all know). He loves MC so, so much even though he doesn't show that in the smartest of ways all the time... but... he fucking walked into a dress shop and designed a whole ass custom dress for her?? He even picked out the fabric??? And then he pretended like it was Comte who chose it??? HELLOOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE HIM I'M ACTUALLY SCREAMING RIGHT NOW THAT'S WHY I HAVE TO TYPE IN CAPS I LOVE HIS MIND I LOVE HIM 

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) I'm gonna sneak in an extra number because I absolutely must.

6. Trash, Aloners - If you have never played Aloners, you really should because it is seriously an amazing visual novel (thank you @dear-mrs-otome  for casually mentioning this game like one time in a discord server otherwise I’m not sure that I would have found out about it). You can get it for free (or pay $5 for the redeux version), so there’s really no excuse unless you don’t have a computer. The love between MC and Trash is not the main plot of the story necessarily, but Trash is such a good man and he deserves the lovin'. Trash is like the perfect combination of sweet and snarky, respectful yet teasing, competent but dumb, has a good heart but doesn't always make the best decisions... in conclusion, what choice did I have but to fall helplessly in love??? 

This has been fun, I absolutely love screaming about 2D bois... I hope y’all don’t mind tags (also I haven’t really been around a lot so if you’ve been tagged already I’m sorry ;w;)  @luciens-one-and-only-sea-otter @lovingikesen @toonamifaithful @emeraldtawny @littlelady-blackwell @alloveroliver

[bo0zey]

Pick your favorite questions from the list.

i will do them all for u 0.o

1. Name cianna [see-ah-nah]

2. Nationality mexican irish german romanian hungarian french

3. Age 20

4. Birthday december 17, 1999

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) sun: sagittarius; ascendant: leo; moon: aries

6. Gender female

7. Sexuality uhhhhhhhhhhhh idk but i will willingly kiss either gender

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) /tagged/my-face or u could just google pictures of fat rats

9. What do you/did you study? I’m currently a sophomore nursing major!

10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I’m currently a microbiology TA and I love it :) My dream job would be something with animals, like a vet tech or veterinarian

11. Your birth order i’m the oldest!

12. How many siblings do you have? 2 younger brothers

13. Do you have good relations with your family? my mom was my best friend, my dad and i get along better now that i’m in college, my brothers and i get along pretty well & we’re staring to get closer now that they’re getting older n growing up n developing their own personalities lol

14. How many friends do you have? errrr idk this is a hard question. i have a lot of acquaintances but i’d say i have maybe like less than 10 real friends??

15. Your relationship status single :D

16. What do you look for in a SO? funny!!!!!!!!!must be humorous!!!!and sarcastic and a little weird w darker sense of humor so we can laugh n be dumb together!!!!!!! also i would like them to be kind to me and those around them bc mean ppl suck. also they have to like animals. also i would like them to be loyal and trustworthy and 110% in love w me. and for physical stuff idk kinda attractive but NOT CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE like i personally don't really like the typically ‘attractive’ person??? 

17. Do you have a crush? currently in love w the cute chinese boy who lives across from my dorm room even tho i have never even spoken to him n he is totally unaware of my existence!!!!!!!! hahah oops :D

18. When did you have your first kiss? i mean technically 3rd grade i think but that doesn't really count so like maybe 16????

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? i mean in the long term i would definitely like to have a serious relationship but at the moment i’m only into casual stuff bc my heart isn't ready to be broken again sknfkjdbnkjd

20. What are your deal breakers? errrr i’m not sure....cheating is a no no, ppl that are interested in fucking every single person they see is a turn off, DUMB PEOPLE like ppl you can't even have a proper conversation with bc they're so DUMB, and ppl who r mean/judgmental/arrogant

21. How was your day? ok! accidentally slept thru my math class but caught a glimpse of my crush across campus when he was abt to smoke a cig and i got chipotle n i online shopped a ton from shein

22. Favourite food & drink deep dish spinach pizza from giordano’s & orange vitamin water

23. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my left side hugging a body pillow

24. What was your last dream about? ate a braid of hair and inside the braid was bacon

25. Your fears not going to make it thru nursing school, not being financially stable as an adult, not having a family of my own, probably more but those r currently top 3

26. Your dreams i don't have any idk....maybe having like a house of my own and having as many animals as i want?? and i would like a loving partner with a daughter of our own

27. Your goals survive nursing school and lose 40 pounds and don't die before my cat

28. Any pets? i have a dog named cherry Cola, a cat named Leto, and a betta fish named Perc

29. What are your hobbies? writing stories about people in love, listening to music

30. Any cool places in your area? in my college town??? NO it sucks. in my hometown??? Not really it’s a small lil village with only restaurants and parks. but at home i’m near downtown chicago so that’s cool i guess

31. What was your last awkward situation? the first thing that comes to mind is my FIRST and so far ONLY encounter with my crush. we live in the same dorm building and i was wearing my nursing scrubs and had no make up on and about to go upstairs to my dorm, and then i heard footsteps and i was like ‘hahaha what if its my crush’ AND THEN HE FUCKIGJNG appeared from down the hallway to go back to HIS DORM [which is RIGHT ACROSS FROM MINE] and i literally STARED at him, then threw open the door and RAN UP THE STAIRS LIKE I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE DOOR OPEN FOR ME AND HE WAS LIKE SO CLOSE BEHIND ME I WAS JUST SO NERVOUS MY FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE TOOK OVER AND I FUCKING FLED I LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM I AHTE MYSELF SO MUCH IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!

32. What is your last regret? errrrr idk i regret a lot of dumb things.......

33. Language/s you can speak English n a LITTLE bit of Spanish

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) i’m really into zodiac stuff and i have got to say they are pretty spot on in accuracy idk

35. Have any quirks? ummmm ofc!!i am the quirkiest person i know hajnjfxbkjx like if u asked my roommates/friends they’d probably be better at answering this than me bc i don't see anything abt me as quirky but they always tell me i am quirky and do weird things but idk man I'm just existing 

36. Your pet peeves err idk currently its ppl that constantly brag about dumb shit

37. Ideal vacation somewhere warm with me + the ocean + the loml + unlimited alcohol

38. Any scars? yeah :D both emotional AND physical!!!!

39. What does your last text message say? ‘ok thats a more than fair statement’

40. Last 5 things from your search history how many carbs should i eat, chipotle bowl calories, is the grim reaper the angel of death, ceftriaxone adverse effects, red man syndrome

41. What's your [device] background? lockscreen is a peach-theme background i made and home screen is my weight loss goals

42. What do you daydream about? the characters in my stories.................and being skinny 

43. Describe your dream home pretty brick house??? flowers outside??? 3 floors--main floor, basement and upstairs??? 3 bedrooms n 3 bathrooms maybe??? master bedroom has its own bathroom!!! and open concept main floor. big kitchen and very homey n warm all around. as for like an apartment i want something cozy and aesthetically pleasing and warm 

44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion i don't have a religion but if ppl do have a religion then thats not my business

45. Your personality type entj but only bc i got 3% extraverted; i am very closely related to intj tho n i think i fit that one better

46. The most dangerous thing you've done uhhhhhh probably operating a vehicle while high out of my mind. definitely the dumbest thing i ever did 0/10 would recommend anyone ever doing that

47. Are you happy with your current life? its ok but it could probably be better. i want to be done w college and skip to the part where i have a successful career and my own home and i can lay up w the loml every night

48. Some things you've tried in your life alcohol???weed??gummy edibles....

49. What does your wardrobe consist of? sweaters/sweatshirts/leggings

50. Favourite colour to wear? black, maroon, peach, purple, gray, idk

51. How would you describe your style? oh jeez idk i wear whatever i want so like e-girl when i really try and basic white girl when i don't care

52. Are you happy with your current looks? no i hate everything about myself lol

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? more freckles on my face....also be thinner n have longer hair

54. Any tattoos or piercings? my nose and septum are pierced!

55. Do you get complimented often? kinda by my friends but i always yell at them to stop so they don't compliment like as much bc they know i hate it but they still do it sometimes idk

56. Favourite aesthetic? i wanna be an e-girl yo!!!!!!!!! 

57. A popular trend that you dislike nobody has a crush on me and i hate it

58. Songs you're currently obsessed with? pied piper by BTS

59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like. anything by BTS lol i used to like be embarrassed for how much i like k pop but now i don't really care lol #stanBTS2020

60. Favourite genre? rap/r n b/alternative

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? i listen to every genre except country sooooooo yeah i really like billie eilish, BTS, the weeknd, juicewrld, lil nas x, trippie red, post malone,

62. Hated popular songs/artists? i don't rlly like selena gomez or justin bieber or taylor swift

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 only - RY X i.f.l.y. - Bazzi novacane - frank ocean jungle - drake bang! - trippie redd

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? no and no

65. Do you like karaoke? no but i like to sing along to songs when I'm alone

66. Own any albums? haha noooo i got apple music son

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? errr RARELY i used to listen to r n b stations tho

68. Favourite movie/series? idk donnie darko?? i also just finished tharntype n that was really good. also i liked tokyo ghoul. AND GIVEN IS REALLY GOOD

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc i like horror/scary/paranormal/funny movies and i like love stories in books

70. Your fictional crush/es danny phantom, ken kaneki

71. Which fictional character is you? uhhhh idk...

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so frerard, ryden, taekook, mewgulf

73. Favourite greek god? idk they all kinda suck but maybe hades

74. A legend from where you live that you like i don't really know any:(

75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist? i like to look at art! i think van gogh is cool

76. Can you share your other social media? ig: ciannnna venmo: ciannnna

77. Favourite youtubers? i don't really watch youtubers but maybe shane dawson and emma chamberlain

78. Favourite platform? twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much time

80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite? i once played GTA5 that was fun!

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) idk i don't really read anymore:/ i was into the hunger games and the twilight series when i was young. now i kinda read online manga and i really liked BJ Alex and killing stalking. and like for online books the unholyverse series, a splitting of the mind, the anatomy of a fall

82. Do you play board/card games? no but i like to play checkers and uno and cards against humanity

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? nopee

84. Favourite holiday halloween is cool also christmas is alright bc gifts

85. Are you into dramas? i’ve been getting into thai boys love dramas lol sue me

86. Would you use death note, if you had one? um YES.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? everyone needs to be a little kinder and have a crush on me

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? absolutely not I'm not physically fit and don't have useful skills

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? vampire duh [or maybe ghost]

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? i want to see my mom

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? idk something cool ... i love the name Daisy

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? idk probably kylie jenner

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo idk the alien? 94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true -im very productive with my time management skills -my favorite color is purple -i don't get nervous when I'm alone in public

95. Cold or hot? cold

96. Be a hero or be a villain? anti-hero

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? sing if i’m good at it but if I'm not good then rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?immortal

100. ..... or .....? ......?

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STUDY:  John Constantine

APPEARANCE.

▸  Height: tall / short / average John is 5′11, occasionally cited as 6′0, but I prefer him being just shy of it because I like him kinda average because John is supposed to appear to be an everyman, if a very attractive one. 

▸ Are they okay with their height? Yeah he is, but if someone tries to lord their height over him, he might just roll his eyes.

▸ What’s their hair like? Generally portrayed as varying shades of blonde. Usually the very definition of tow headed. Some artists have drawn him with somewhat darker hair, but in a way that makes me think maybe they’re implying he’s a dirty blonde (eyyyy) or not been getting enough sun of late. He keeps it clipped short on the sides and longer on top. When he was younger, he wore it much longer and I’m very fond of the idea of him returning to that style as he gets older. 

▸ Spend a lot of time on their hair / grooming? Not really. Usually he’s a finger combing kind of guy and just let it do what it wants, although I will admit there’s a split between artists. Some draw him with very meticulously groomed hair, slicked back or carefully styled. Due to my fondness for particular artists, I tend toward the more tousled look on John.

▸ Care about their appearance / what others think? Okay, this is going to get a bit complicated. John doesn’t care what others think but he does care very much about his appearance (as a baseline, when he’s depressed or just in some other horrible situation, he doesn’t give a shit either way). He’s a con artist at the end of every day and is very aware of how he’s perceived.  I think this is why he stopped dressing in the punk style despite the face that he never truly lost the ethos. Counter-culture fashion has a very narrow place in mainstream society. You’re not only memorable but someone always has an opinion on what you’re wearing, and it’s rarely neutral. Nondescript clothing, a simple suit, as the relevant example, isn’t really going to get too much reaction, but at the same time, it’s welcome many more places. So to that degree, John is very particular and aware of what kind of image he projects, but also, he doesn’t care what people think about how he looks. Unless, of course, if he’s attracted to them and trying to hook up or date or whatever, but that’s more of a generalized concern than something truly notable.

PREFERENCES.

▸ Indoors or Outdoors: Indoors, more than likely, though he’s not opposed to being outdoors. I don’t really think it’s something he’s overly concerned with.

▸ Rain or Sunshine: Rain, mostly because it’s like his total aesthetic. 

▸ Forest or Beach:

God, I don’t know. Maybe the beach? Although there was that one bizarre fever dream issue that was a contemplation on pollution as John had this wild ass dream while he was sleeping on the beach. Fucked up shit has happened to him in forests though, sooooooo......N....neither?

▸ Precious metals or Gems?

Metal.

▸ Flowers or Perfumes:

Perfumes, I suppose, although he’s very specific about those too. He just doesn’t care for floral scents.

▸ Personality or Appearance:

Both, although if I had to be honest, I suppose appearance is slightly more important. Because like, for a shag or even a short term, casual relationship, he can deal with a shitty personality. That being said, it’s not like he has a very narrow preference when it comes to attraction. So I dunno. I guess I’m trying to say that he’s not some shallow asshole that only fucks pretty people regardless of their personality. It’s just you know. He’ll have sex with someone he doesn’t really like if he thinks they’re hot, but he’s not going to fall in love with them or even want to spend a lot of time with them that doesn’t involve sex. He’d probably hope they don’t talk very much before, during, or after sex...............................so okay, maybe a pretty person with an undesirable personality isn’t a good example. More like an attractive person that he finds boring or not terribly intellectually stimulating. So....yeah. Both.

▸ Alone or In a crowd:

Alone, but he’s very charming and he’s good at being social, but he’s more like. Alone in a crowd type of person.

▸ Order or Anarchy:

Anarchy !!!!!

Although I consider him an agent of balance, but there’s a certain amount of chaos to it because it’s not about doing anything but control the influence of either side. Magic and overall lot in life aside, John has a deep mistrust in authoritarianism and tends to subvert social norms. It’s not in his capacity to really understand stereotyping or particular social mores.

▸ Painful truths or White lies:

I would say white lies, because civility is built on lies, particularly the white ones. Yes, of course honesty is important to John, just as it is with anyone, but he’s keenly aware that brutal honesty isn’t always the best way to engender yourself to someone. Sometimes those small falsehoods are the necessary evils.

▸ Science or Magic:

Magic, naturally, but he’s not opposed to science and he’s not the sort of person to supplant scientific theory or fact with magical.

▸ Peace or Conflict:

Kinda gonna settle this in a grey area. John doesn’t care much for war and violence. Conflict as the difference of opinion or lifestyle isn’t something he’s opposed to however. Intellectual discourse gives rise to new ideas and ways of thinking. I think he equates peace as stagnation.

▸ Night or Day:

Night. Because magic nonsense and habit borne from insomnia.

▸ Dusk or Dawn:

Dawn, because symbolism and at the end of the day, John’s a bit of an old sap and idealist.

▸ Warmth or Cold:

Cold because his preferred attire isn’t exactly good in warm weather. God he must have been miserable in Louisiana......

▸ Many acquaintances or A few close friends:

A few close friends. Less people at risk.

▸ Reading or Playing a game:

Reading.

QUESTIONAIRE.

▸  Your muse’s bad habits? Lying, self-flagellation, forgetting to eat, chain smoking, isolation

▸  Lost anyone close to them? How it affects them? Preeeeeetttty much everyone he’s ever cared about or loved. It causes him to want to isolate and often he’ll avoid relationships. However, it never truly lasts because he’s very affected by loneliness.

▸  What are some fond memories they have? All roads lead to Ireland and the times he spent with Brennan and Kit. Likely time spent with Cheryl and Gemma as well

▸  Is it easy for them to kill? No...................................although he’s harder when it comes to causing indirect death, although it just kinda piles up as reasons to hate himself.

▸  What’s it like when they break down? Hooo boy. We talking a true, total breakdown or something more regular?  After Kit kicked him out, he literally ended up in the gutter trying to drink himself to death. However, that’s not a normal breakdown, although I suppose it’s really just a more extreme version. He drinks entirely too much, completely isolates, maybe gets into fights, and is just generally a self-destructive mess.

▸  Capable of trusting someone with their life? Yes.

▸ What’re they like when they’re in love? Love is good for him. He eats better, his worst habits are minimized, and he’s pretty passionate. Despite rumours or what people might think of him from his reputation for promiscuity and a string of exes, John is good at being faithful and even communicating his desires and what he wants from the relationship. He’s not afraid to be vulnerable with someone once they have all of his trust.

TAGGED BY: @strangcrdoctor Tagging: @stormweathered, @seidrborn, @youhavemyrespect, @cybervigilant, @twintailx, && you !!!!

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The Exam

Best Music Moment of 2019

BC: Three straight hours of this

in my Chapman Ryder Cup match with Code  -The Robert M. Chennault Playlist in my Ryder Cup match with Laser  -Vampire Weekend's "M79" with Parks and Rec theme interlude in Pawnee Peytonville with my babe  -Late night music game with JD and Chaps this Fall  -My kids competing for best air guitar solo to Daft Punk's "Digital Love"  -The Stones soundtracking Raceday morning with Counterfeit Kenny and the Kennel Boys 

Codem: -Picking up the keys after closing on #our house and listening to Arden's dreams for the pad while listening to the songs that brought us together in the first place. -Perched in the balcony of Park West watching Chromatics live and in person. -The Chapman format playlist that Brendon and I put together.  It was just one song on repeat.  Xtal - Aphex Twin -Plugging in my klipsch's for the first time in the new house to listen to elliott smith on the day of his death. the sound of his discography wafting throughout the whole house was a true delight.

Bronco: My 6-year-old discovering Green Day.  My 9-year-old discovering Metallica.  Both discoveries have awakened something in them that is hilarious and awesome to behold.  And seeing Tool was pretty flaming awesome.

JD: March: Realizing I’d never heard this Stones song, nodding along to the opening riff, and exploding into my biggest laugh of the year at the first line.

June: The Joni Mitchell performance in the Rolling Thunder Review documentary on Netflix. June: Catching the Thom Yorke Anima short film at the IMAX theater on the Upper West Side. July: Code and I getting a perfect 99 score on the greatest rendition of “Emotional Rescue” karaoke you’ll ever see. October: Playing the music game WAY too deep into the night with BC and Chap (look for the next day’s hangover on my worst moments list).

Chap: Patrick Stickles singing "I'm sorry dad no I'm not making this up" to his dad in the audience.

Nasty: Listening to music at BOB. Nothing but jams that whole weekend. Driving in with Laser - GOOGLE MUSIC JAMS. Trip to the casino - JAMS. Hanging out on the deck - JAMS. Driving to the course with Blazer Black - Fuck Buttons - Sweet Love for Planet Earth aka JAMS. In the cart with Code - JAMS. Driving Chappy and Sfreddo to the rental car - JAMS (but quietly).

Larse: Greta Thunberg speech dubbed to metal

Best Shows Seent in 2019

Nasty: The Killers @ Summerfest. Hot Fuss will always be an all-time favorite album and Mr. Brightside is the best pop song of our lifetime, IMO. Also, my wife loves them which is about the only band in middle of the venn diagram. 

Larse: The Lonely Island at Summerfest

BC: Dead & Company

JD: 1. The Rapture at Music Hall of Williamsburg 2. Viagra Boys at Bowery Ballroom 3. The Strokes and Parkay Boys at the All Points East fest in London with drunk lads screaming along to the guitar parts 4. B Boys at Union Pool 5. Titus Andronicus at Bowery Ballroom 6. Avey Tare at Market Hotel 7. Tame Impala at MSG 8. Weeping Icon at Elsewhere 9. Priests at Elsewhere

Code: interpol - chicago theater illuminati hotties - hideout it looks sad - subT downstairs robyn - riviera steve malkmus - art institute eleventh dream day - hideout colleen green - sleeping village swearin' - lincoln hall surf curse - subT shura - the bottle

Chap: TA was the only show I saw. It was great!

Bronco: All of them.  They were each great in their own way.  Aside from Tool I was able to interact with the band members at each of the shows.  One I didn't have a ticket for and scored one at the door.  One was in the tiniest venue I've seen a show at.  One had a surprisingly entertaining opening act.  And Tool surprised me with how much I enjoyed an arena show despite being so far away I couldn't see the facial features of the band members.  And there was SOOOOOOO much weed being smoked in the Garden that night.  And I was with a few good buddies.  And I was able to sell my fourth ticket for twice what I paid, simulatenously covering me and my fourth friend who had to bail because his life sucks because his wife sucks. 

Confession of 2019

Nasty: I consume more music at my cushy, suburban OrangeTheory workout classes than in my own free time. S/O to Coach Vanessa for having some Girl Talk on her playlists. 

Codem: i had more fun listening to stuff that i already knew about than stuff that was coming out.

BC: I saw a Yacht Rock cover band and didn't hate it -I succumbed to social pressure and saw DMB -I didn't realize until the last minute that my favorite album was released in 2018 (Wild Nothing). Removing it greatly reduced my loyalty to my list.

Bronco: I'm losing my edge.  I enjoyed way more lady singer bands this year than in any other year.

Chap:  Couldn't get my shit together on the tracks list so just posted a random playlist

Larse: Not really a confession but more of a TIL (today I learned), but Raphael Saadiq was an original member of Tony! Toni! Tone!

Biggest Disappointment of 2019

Bin: The National @ Summerfest. From the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel "the frontman was completely detached, even confessing at one point that he was excited to get back home to his family. The result was an incredibly depressing show — which, given the band's dour songs, is really saying something." ... Huge Bummer.

BC: Didn't see nearly enough shows with nearly enough of yous 

Chap: Sturgill Simpson... unlistenable!

Bronco: Baroness.

Laser: Modest Mouse opening for The Black Keys

Code: i was really messed up by dave berman's passing. i had tickets to see him play at the end of august. it was going to be my first catching him live and in concert. i had waited for this moment since i picked up american water back in 2003.  two weeks before he was supposed to come through town, he up and died.  also, much less of a bummer, the chromatics show in miami that Arden and i were going to attend got canceled two days before the show.

Most Overrated of 2019

Nasty: Kanye's shoes

Chap: LEGACY! LEGACY! – Jamila Woods seems to have been highly regarded? Not my thing

BC: FKA Twigs

Bronco: Baroness.

JD: Big Thief

Code: cancel culture

Larse: Mayor Pete

Make it Stop 2019

Chap: In my house, the Nutcracker Suite. It's great, until the 300th time that day.

Nasty: Cage the Elephant (but children, instead of elephant, and in real life, not the band)

BC: Lizzo 

Code: lizzo

JD: Memes

Larse: Trump

Bronco: News

Biggest TBH Regret of 2019

Chap: Can't seem to get to more than one show per year; Jessica Pratt in a church by my old place

JD: Missin’ dat Pratt yet Nick!

BC: Should've listened to the Kanye album.  Should've spent more time with the Deerhunter record.

Rotty: Skipping CHVRCHES at Summerfest

Code: another year with no fog party

Nasty: Not going to Indy 500. lol jk.

Bronco: I didn't buy tickets to a few shows I would've liked to have seen.  One of them I went to the venue and didn't get in.  That bummed me out, but I crossed the street and had a few beers by myself for good measure, so it wasn't a total loss.

Detective Murtaugh of 2019

JD: Everything.

Bronco: Shows that don't start until 10pm. That Girl Band show nearly wrecked me.

Chap: How much I loved Bruce Springsteen's adult contemporary western-themed old-man album.

BC: The ten seconds I lasted with 1000 GECS

Nasty: For the life of me - I cannot figure out how to operate the "play next" queue on these apps. 

Laser: Lizzo at Summerfest - lot of younglings running around; people were racist towards Lizzo's security guards, she vowed not to come back to MKE, one of the most segregated cities in America :(

Resolution for 2019 Status

Laser: — How It Went: Who can even remember this shit...I'm sure it was that I'd do better at keeping track or listen to more shit people suggest and I'm sure I failed.

BC: Listen to one new album a week; reboot the Classic Album Review Club How It Went:  Noooot toooo gooooood

Code: catch ovlov, pictureplane, washer, chromatics, EMA and colleen green live this year. How It Went: i saw chromatics and colleen green. last i checked .400 gets you into cooperstown.

JD: Greater consciousness of how I’m using my attention - an ineffectual and meaningless protest of the ways the world is burning down in pursuit of it. How It Went: Not bad! I especially nailed the “ineffectual and meaningless” part.

Chap: Learn Piano; Guilt Joe Dons into finally inviting me to a concert. How It Went: Learned some piano but got to busy for it... Couldn't guilt JD to invite me anywhere but I DID invite him to a show! The same one I went to! With him!

Bronco: Read more 'classic’ books. I didn’t read many of them, even in school (especially in school? Never could read a book I was told to read). But I’m leaning in the sci-fi direction of 'classics’. I just read Dune this summer, and wrapped up Fahrenheit 451 the other day. I’m feeling an unexplained need to beef up my nerd credentials and this seems the way to accomplish it. How It Went: Nope.  Fell back in to zombie-apocalypse genre series that I've been reading for a while. But I am currently reading arch-nerd Neal Stephenson's "Fall; or, Dodge in Hell". It's almost 900 pages, I feel like I've been reading for months now, and because I'm a stupidly slow reader, I read only before going to bed, and can only make it 10 minutes before falling asleep and hitting myself in the face with my phone, I'm only 25% of the way through. But man is it painting a creepy yet eerily plausible scene of the near future. Guy just knows how to write.

Nasty: Hope last year I was smart enough to leave this blank. (editor’s note: [removes shoes, pets cat, puts on slippers, retires to favorite easy chair, sips martini, slowly pulls reading glasses out of cardigan pocket, dusts them off, loads todaysbiggesthits.tumblr.com, scrolls to ‘Resolution for 2019’] “Nasty: I’m sticking with it - get to NY for a show with JD.”)

Resolution for 2020

BC: See Phish in 2020

Codem: i'm making it easier this year. catch ovlov, washer, EMA and colleen green live this year. bonus points: see dom's much anticipated return to the stage.

Bronco: Build a vinyl collection. I know I dumped on Brendon for suggesting he press copies of Carpet Affair, but my kid's getting way into music and listening to it on his own (via Alexa in my bedroom which is super fucking annoying), so we're getting him his own record player and I think it's going to be a cool activity to go record store diving for whatever classics we can scrounge up.

JD: Get to more shows. Take more aimless strolls spinning tunes.

Bin: Send an email about music on the TBH! thread. 

Larse: None

Chap: Eh I'm cool

Most Anticipated of 2020

Code: my man dom said that he is coming back to the world this year. i have to believe that he'll keep his word. i'm thinking 2020 is going to be the year for chromatics' Tommy.

Chap: TWOD, Perfume Genius, Jason Isbell

BC: Huey Lewis and the News, Tame Impala, Run the Jewels

Bronco: Kvelertak and Mastodon, maybe some surprise extra Tool material?

JD: Working Men’s Club

Nasty: Spotify getting Jay-Z's catalog back. 

[purplesurveys]

498

Did 2015 just fly by to you? Nah that year felt like eternity. That was the year I had to go through a breakup, deal with a grandparent’s death, and study my ass off for the UPCAT. Do you like platform shoes? I hate them. Like you can’t pay me to wear them levels of hate. How much black is in your wardrobe? Too much. It sometimes makes it a bitch to look for an outfit because my entire closet is mostly black and everything looks the same. Are you supposed to be doing something else? I’m supposed to be at a meeting right now, but I’m not as passionate about this project as I would be for others so I ditched and went to a coffee shop to do this survey instead lol. If you were with your favorite person right now, what would you be doing? I am with Gab rn, she’s just at school to settle her enrolment and that’s also a reason why I’m here at the nearby coffee shop.

Did you have a good holiday season? It was better than previous ones, mainly because extended family actually made an effort to see each other and have a reunion. It was also the first time I got to drink with my younger (and cooler) aunts and uncles and that was when I realized how awesome and easy they were to talk to. Anything special planned for today? I’m gonna be seeing Midsommar (as I’ve said for the zillionth time I think lmao) and, if I still have a budget, getting crab fat ramen today. Who do you really trust in your life? My best friends and my friend group in college. What do you think about "Justin Bieber"? Do we really have to put quotation marks on the guy??? LMAO. Anyway uh I LOVED his album Purpose, I listened to it for like 6 months straight. But he has his straight-white-man moments and he can get pretty problematic and rude and annoying. Do you wish you could change the past? No. I’d rather it be left untouched. What is your hot drink of choice? I hate hot drinks, but if those were the only things available I’d go for hot chocolate.  Do you own a gun? I don’t. I don’t see a reason to get one. Do you think people get the wrong idea of you? Nah, they pretty much have it spot-on most times. Have you ever cracked your cell phone screen? Once, in freshman year of college. I still remember it so well hahaha - Math class had just ended and my block and I were getting ready to leave the classroom so we could all go home. My phone, then with no tempered glass, slipped out of my hand and fell to the floor screen first. I’ve dropped my phone many times and just assumed everything was gonna be fine, then I flipped it around and it was completely FUCKED. It was the start of the end for that phone, truly lmao. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? I once wore shorts that didn’t feel loose until I was where I needed to be that day and had to start walking a lot. It was fine at home and in the car, so when it started coming down I panicked sooooooo hard hahaha. Luckily I had a cardigan that day so I just wrapped it around my waist to keep the shorts up. If you had to delete one year of your life, which year would it be? 2011 or the second halves of 2016/2017. What is your favorite article of clothing you own? Right now, it’s a green printed/floral jumpsuit that also looks like a dress. It feels very summery and looks sophisticated and I wish I could wear it everyday lol. How late do you usually stay up till? Depends on what I need to do the next day. Since I’m on a break right now, I let myself stay up from 11 PM to 3 AM. What is your favorite Christmas song? I don’t have any. What all have you had to eat today? Pesto pasta, cordon bleu, a chocolate-dipped doughnut, and a tuna roll. If your entire life was a movie, what would it be called? Meh. That could probably a pass as a title on its own though lmaoooo. How do you feel about "smoking"? What is up with the quotation marks?????? But to answer, you do you but smoking is personally disgusting. Blue or green? Blue. What's your current least favorite song? Anything by Lizzo, Billie Eilish, or Carly Rae Jepsen. Do you know how to play chess? No. I’ve watched my cousin play it since I was 4, but I never understood the game. What is something the world needs less and more of in your opinion? Less politics in every sense of the word. More equity. Do you know someone who is just so breathtakingly attractive? Kristen freakin’ Stewart. How hard is it for you to open up to others? Not hard at all. What is something that has really impacted your life? Getting into UP has opened my eyes to so many things I didn’t know I could open my eyes to. I learned more about indigenous peoples, the different sectors in the country, every political issue on the spectrum, every struggle the poor face, anti-poor policies, just how corrupt the government really is, etc. I got new friends who taught me and told me just how important it was to be aware, something I was barely taught in high school. I even learned that I hate the shit out of my course, journalism, after a whole decade of wanting to pursue it. UP has beaten me up and showed me harsh realities and has forced me to grow up, but I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I super super super love my school and will always be proud to have been from there.

[charlijo2020]

High

Smoked all night.

I haven't slept.

All I keep thinking is how did things come this far?

I notice things.

Simple little things.

1st, 2nd and 3rd attempts when someone puts an effort to get to know me.

Spaced out.

Daydreaming about why??

Why did I or you conform to society ?

Mounting pressures of the norms?

Allowing others to tell us what to do?

I'm a firm believer of non conformality.

But this time around I made that mistake of allowing my feelings cloud my logic .

Never ever conform !

I know for fact I don't conform as much because an entire party can hate on me all fucking day and night and I could give five fucks and blueberry muffin what the fuck they think! And still show my face.

If I did I would have left the minute I walk in.

I look past that.

Evidently I hang out with "chuckfuck rejects" sounds like a band name 😂

Well those "Chuckfuck rejects" are the fucking best.

Non conformality has taught me to not give a shit about the fake and also helped me wean out the weak.

It has taught me to accept the realest of people and probably the kindest people I ever fucking met.

I wish everyone happiness despite what they think or feel about me.

I don't have time to worry about those things.

I'm not even mad at him anymore.

I want to be .

You know just to be pissed about the chain of events but that wouldn't be me at all.

I forgave him yesterday in my heart

He didn't do anything to me at this moment other than making me fucking think and think and think.

Isn't it amazing when one person can have that much of an impact ??

No amount of advice or suggestions can change my perspective about him

He means well .

I can see that

I guess he's right..

He is.

Keeping myself from him...why?

I never keep anyone from anyone else.

I try to make those people get together.

I realized I can't just be "friends" with him.

It's so fucking hard but annoying as well.

I'll try to get over him by "moving on" etc.

And it's like the fucking universe knows and will tilt sideways and I can feel his glare a mile away from me and I swear creator is like " are you sure that is a good move right now?

And then I'm like "Noooo"

I don't want things to feel this unbalanced and it fucking sucks.

Are we healthy together , unhealthy apart..are we both obsessing over here and not doing a thing about it?

Locking looks and getting scared of what might happen if we feed into our feelings...when that's all I want to do more than ever.

I'm not worried about the judgement of the world because in my heart I know he's not fake just bugs the fuck outta me when I am trying to build him up only to be broken down...

Sabotage and run? I think it is our way to run away when things start feeling real..ughhhh I am to tired to chase anyone.

Am I going to avoid him? Nope.

Fresno people are so conservative and closed off .

That anything I do is strange .

When I was residing in Washington State , Bremerton WA to be exact I learned that people there are more expressive there then here ..why?

I'm moving next year in January I will be in Arizona to be with my family

I have nothing here waiting for me right now.

I think it's time for a fresh start anyhow

Make a new friend ...maybe .

I think my anger is also that my efforts feel unnoticed by him ...I don't give a fuck about what others think ..it's him..

...I worry about ... I don't want anyone to hurt him and the minute I felt that hint of "putting him in his place"

Really tripped me out!!

I was thinking "oh hell naw!!"

I wanted to reach through my phone and slap the shit outta this beezy.

It's one thing to go away from home and have a fucking plot to ruin all his good hardwork and all that person saw was his past.

You weren't here to witness his changes

I see the good work he has done so why did she play him ??

Why did he fall for her bullshit??

I can't standby and allow her to do that...who mindlessly stands by and allow that shit to happen...

Not me.

I refuse to "put him in his place" for what?

For being kind to me? For being there for me? For putting up with me?

I don't think so .

I have way to much unconditional love for that to happen.

I just have a hard time admitting that because I'm vulnerable.

I'm not afraid to be expressive because my biggest fear is leaving this Earth by any circumstance such as natural death , getting hit by a car, plane crash etc.

You get the picture.

Basically after Lehi's death I can't leave this Earth leaving people wondering if I ever loved them.

I do.

More than anything in this world.

I like spreading unconditional love and saying "I love you" .

I say it to my close friends and family all the time.

They respond back each and every time.

Man or Woman.

I notice alot of things.

I think as non conformist we forgive easily because we worry about their happiness and only want what's best for them.

When I'm alone with thoughts I can see clearly.

I'll lock myself away for hours on end.

Or I distract myself with my mental health mindful tools.

I used to turn to numbing agents.

I don't .

sooooooo... I feel everything.

Drowning my head with old 90s music ranging from all over.

Blasting music in my ears to escape long enough to write all this.

[boopydoopboopydoo-blog]

Society’s Boy

Sooooooo, I was dealing with this guy, so let’s just call him Ben (: Okay so me and Ben met on this dating app. Annnnnddddddd long story short I was on there for finding a guy best friend and ended up finding this guy. Now I know you probably think I’m those girls that cap about who they have sex with but let me tell you right now, I had sex with this guy. I know right such the regular thing to do. But well let me tell you what exactly happened. So it was the first night we hung out, I was super nervous right because this was my first time actually meeting a guy from that app since I last time I got on there. Now when I walked out to meet him he was already at my park and I met him seen him and I didn’t really get to see his face (by the way it’s night time right) so he tells me his car is parked down the street from the park and I’m thinking I’m going to have a regular encounter and that I am just going to make a new friend. Nope! We chilled in this spot I discovered about the houses I live in behind the houses is a big field of bushes and towers and power lines so ultimately we weren’t going to be seen. So we have many conversations and towards the end of the night I’m like we should go swimming and he was like “you not down” oh but I waaasssss! Mind you I had makeup on, lashes, the whole 9 and Yes ya girl on with that URBAN DECAAAYYY! as rico nasty says. But cut to the action this guy when I tell you he looked so freaking cute and he was when I say he was cute he was give me your babies cute anyways we end up getting in the pool and we end up getting all wet right but me I’m trying to keep my face above the water and This guy eventually picks me up and dips me under water!!!!!! can you freaking believe the audacity of this guy even when I just told him i spent at least 3 hours on my makeup so we swimming and I feel him getting hard when he’s swimming around me and then he ends up chasing me when I move away from him and then I was swimming right and he’s looking at my body and he’s making sure that I know he’s looking too and from there I started to swim to the deep end and when I got there he came from behind me and pushed himself on me and I was like “ooooooouuuuuuu isss about to go dowwwwn” kevin hart in this mf but look I’m not the type to fuck in a pool right but guess what tonight was the night that I become just that girl. He comes up on me and rubs me with himself then from there I left out a little soft moan and I got a little thrown off, I gave him a look real confident and real innocent like right here in the pool? and he was like “wassup” and I was BLUSSHHINNNGGG like a makeup palate and I was like “wassup” and he was like so you gunna let me or what and I had ignored him the first few times that he made the pass at me to have sex right? but this time I was feeling good and I was ready for him and I gave him that look of okay go inside. and he took it out and rub it on my lips and pushed it in and his dick was huuuggggeeee I didn’t even know what to do at that point but to moan super loud. SO theeennn he ended up pushed in deeper a couple more times before I moved away from him and teased him like I wanted it but I didn’t wanna have more sex in the pool so we end up getting out hours later getting cold and go into his car and then we’re in there chilling, we smoke while we dry off and then from there we went at it again. From there he was CLAAPPINNNNGGGG meeeeee I was like sitting there dying because I haven’t had none in so long and he was so big dude like big and I’m there with my little self just trying not to scream out and he was in there SWEAAAATTIINNNNGGGGG GIRRRLLL! sweating like he straight came out the gyyymmmm! I was like oh my gosh this dick will be the end of my life