#he’s ssooooooooo he’s \+ sooo he’s SOOOOOO

[soullessjack]

jack in the first four episodes is so special to me bc he’s like. [doesn’t know what he is, doesn’t understand his powers] [starts hearing disembodied angry voices screaming at him and freaks the fuck out] “will you tell them that i’m sorry for throwing the sheriff into the vending machine I was only trying to push her away,” [“listening to the guys argue about whether or not he’s evil] I’m right here you know.” “are you mad at me for almost unleashing demonic monsters from hell? 🥺”

[horrified that he is not dead after miriam stabs him clean through his heart and then stabs himself 18 times to make the wound stay open] [stares at his reflection with a shredded bloody shirt] “are you mad at me for stabbing myself? 🥺 I KNOW IT WONT HURT ME AND IM FREAKED OUT BECAUSE WHAT THE HELL AM I. I CANT CONTROL WHATEVER THIS IS I WILL HURT SOMEONE AGAIN.”

“STOP FUCKING STARING ME I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS STUPID THING ANYMORE.” “Dean sees evil in me and wants to kill me and maybe he should, maybe I am evil because I can hurt people without even trying to but I can’t even move your stupid fucking pencil to help you. you think im good and my mom thought I was good too but she’s dead because of me. all I do is hurt people because I am evil.”

“no im not going on this case actually. fuck you guys, you don’t care about me you just want to use my power like Asmodeus. oh my god wait you miss your mom too? 🥺 you just want to save her? 🥺 okay fine I’ll help you and be nice now because i understand your pain.” [directly disobeys dean] “I’m just trying to help, I’m not bad, I’m just me.”

[completely breaking down in the arms of not-his-mom] “I’m so afraid of being a monster I just keep hurting people but i never mean to do it but it happens anyways I know you want me to be good and I want to be good but I don’t know if I can I just miss you so much”