#heart eyes x 100000000000

[unsaid-stardust]

JATP Week-”Holding onto You”

Prompt: Favorite character pov

Words: 1,462

Pairing: Willex 

“Ok wait, so you’re telling me that record stores don’t really exist anymore?” Luke was shouting. Well, Julie had done it. She cancelled practice before it even started. I exchanged a look with Reggie which told me that he was thinking the same thing. 

“I mean they exist, but no one ever goes. I haven’t even gone. It’s just easier to buy music online. ” Julie explains with a shrug of her shoulders. Annnnddd Luke will be gone in 3, 2, 1...

“What? That’s insane. We’re going to one right now and I’m not taking any protests.” He lifts his guitar strap over his head then and carefully sets his guitar down. He grabs a hold of Julie’s wrist then and even though she protests, claiming that we need to be practicing for our next gig, which we do, but I can tell that she’s just playing into Luke’s little flirtatious game, although Luke would never admit that was the motive behind this all. 

He’s so dense sometime that it’s actually painful. You know, Willie taught me this “meme” I think is what it’s called, of someone having the last braincell and I’m pretty sure that person is me. I really don’t think Luke and Reggie could live without me. Well, ok maybe that’s the wrong choice of words considering we’re, you know, dead and all, but my point still stands. We may be dead, but they still can’t exist without me. 

Julie and Luke disappear out of the studio leaving me behind with Reggie. It’s quiet when it’s just me and him. Sometimes, I wonder how we’re friends. Don’t get me wrong, I love the guy, he’s like a brother to me, but he doesn’t always think. But, when I think like that, I just remind myself that I couldn’t imagine myself without both Luke and Reggie. 

“Well, I think I’m gonna go hang out with Ray. He usually watches this weird cooking show at this time even though I haven’t really seen him cook. It’ll be the best day ever when he actually does,” Reggies poofs out of the garage, but I had time to give him one of my “would it?” looks that I find myself giving to Reggie a lot of the time. 

As weird as it is to see him hanging out with Julie’s dad, I get it to some extent so I’m trying not to be too judgy with that friendship from now on. While Reggie’s parents supported him, they were always fighting. The amount of times that I would find the poor guy huddled on Luke’s couch at odd hours of the night because they were too loud really makes my heart clench up. It’s understandable why Reggie would be attracted to hanging out with Ray. He’s such a good and loving dad to Julie which is one thing that Reggie and Julie don’t have in common. 

Being left to my own devices usually freaks me out a bit because it just leaves me to think about all these questions and what-ifs. Like what if we were sent here to protect Julie? And if so what are we protecting her form? Caleb? And what if Caleb comes back? He definitely still has it out for us. It’s just a matter of time that he reappears in our afterlives. 

Ok so being left on my own still freaks me out a bit because I still, and always will, have so many questions, but now I'm just preoccupied with a certain long-haired, dreamy-eyed skateboarding ghost. The one I haven't seen since the night of The Orpheum. And it’s been stressing me out. Like my anxiety level was already at a 100 because of the whole “we need to cross-over and complete our unfinished business which turned out to not be playing The Orpheum and now we’re slowly fading but oh! Julie saved us and we can touch now” thing, but now? 

Now it’s at level 100000000000 x 10000000000. Willie risked his afterlife for us. For me. Caleb already owns his soul so that only means that whatever punishment Willie gets, or has already gotten, could destroy him. And that hurts because he crossed him for me. If Willie had never met me, he’d be just fine. He’d be out here skateboarding at all his favorite places all over Los Angeles. Like that Justin Beaver’s house or whoever that was. I can’t just have that be taken away from him. Have his afterlife taken from him. I wouldn’t be able to exist with that thought nagging at the back of my head every single day and night. 

I’ve tried looking for him. Every day. I’ve gone to all of his usual spots. But he hasn't been anywhere. And I don’t know if it’s because he’s laying low or.....I just have to find him. There’s one place I haven’t tried yet. One place that I haven’t had time to go to, but do now.

The Hollywood Sign. He’s taken me there a couple times. I’m always afraid of falling, I mean I'm way past that, but that’s not what I meant. I have such a bad fear of heights, but when I'm there with Willie holding my hand or leaning into me or having his head on my shoulder, I forget that I’m even way high up from the ground. 

It’s different now. Now as I'm standing at the cliff on which the sign waits upon. My visions swirls as the city lights and sunset blurs together to create a scary abstract painting. Normally, I’d be entranced by the sight, in a good way, but with my stupid fear of heights, I'm entranced in a bad way. 

I shudder and get myself to step back from the edge. There’s no sign of Willie. I don’t see his skateboard or him anywhere. If he were here, I'd see his legs swinging from the top of the sign. I close my eyes tight, my right hand involuntarily making a fist before I send a small rock flying off the cliff with a kick of my foot.

 He’s not here. He’s not here he’s not here he’s not--he’s not here and it’s my fault and I'm never going to find him and he’s just--

“Alex,” A soft voice comes from behind me. I close my eyes even tighter, so tight that I can feel the aching pulse behind my eye lids. My fingers grip onto the hem of my sweatshirt. He’s not here. He’s not here--It’s just my anxiety making me believe--

“Alex, hey, hey,” And then I feel it. The strange mixture of warm and cold wrapping  around my body. No, it can’t be. I open my eyes to see that it is. It’s him. It’s really him right in front of me. 

“Willie.” I breathe and without even thinking, I launch myself towards him and fling my arms around him, pushing us both towards the ground, and bury my head into the crook of his neck. We stay like that, grabbing at each other to bring the other closer and closer, sobs and deep breathes between the both of us, for I don’t even know how long before I couldn’t hold my questions in any longer. 

“Willie I-you’re here. You-you’re--you’re ok!” I stutter, surprised that I could even form words and not letting go of the skateboarder in front of me. His voice shakes in amazement as he speaks.

“yeah, yeah I'm ok. Caleb he’s-he’s still mad, but I was able to get away. I’ve just been lying low. I wanted to come see you, but I didn’t--I didn’t want to bring Caleb and I thought...” His voice trails off then. I shake my head signaling to him that he doesn’t have to explain before I launch myself at him for a hug again. 

“But I’m here and you’re here and I just-” I tell him, my voice starting to give out. He nods against my shoulder, his hand placed at the middle of my back.

“I know. I missed you too, hotdog,” he says quietly into my ear, burying his head deeper against my shoulder. I can’t help, but hold him even tighter at the nickname, feeling relief for the first time in weeks. I was never fond of it, but I can tell you one thing: I’m fond of Willie. And I’m fond of this moment. This moment that I've been daydreaming about ever since the night of The Orpheum.

Don’t get me wrong. I still have a lot of questions (and anxiety). Where do we go from here? Are you free from the Hollywood Ghost Club? Does Caleb still own your soul? 

But for now? I think I’ll just keep holding on to him and never let go. 

[klanced]

thots on s5ep4 (which i am just now watching)

i am incapable of NOT giving my opinion but i will at least be merciful and try to contain my liveblogging to a single post.

the archivist is a cool ass name

the archivist

keith is still with the blades ResidentSleeper

tbh the concept of the kral zera is super de duper interesting, and makes sense considering galra culture emphasizes strength + power, especially in terms of leadership...

it’s also neat because most civilizations would, say, not have their greatest leaders duke to the death to determine who is The Best, but the galra are just like FUCK YES WEEDING OUT THE WEAK! they don’t care if they kill their greatest generals, because by their standards, it’s your own fault if you die.

wow, the galra are just like my dad!

i still cannot believe that they killed zarkon and then immediately brought back sendak like. where was he this whole time. how did the fantastic three even find him. was he still floating in his port a potty? 

where is my paladin revolution #OverThrowShiro #NotMyShiro

USURP HIM.

U HELPED LOTOR KILL HIS DAD, WHY WON’T U GUYS OVERTURN SHIRO’S SHITTY VETOES.

misuse of black paladin privilege FeelsBadMan

mfw the blades have no idea what the kral zera is.

voltron: (whistles innocently)

why is there no communication in this show...

i’m still confused as to why haggar insists on lotor being emperor. i mean, i know she’s got her weird maternal instincts going on, but still. there��s no way the galran people would except lotor as emperor lmao.

reason 1: he’s only half galra. 

haggar herself even says that only a galra warrior would be accepted as emperor, which is why she can’t take over.

and yet... we’ve seen a lot of slurs be thrown at lotor by other galrans, even when he was ruling in zarkon’s place back in season 3. there doesn’t seem to be a lot of respect for those of mixed blood.

reason 2: zarkon labelled him as a traitor to the galra empire

i’m sure lotor killing him immediately didn’t help lotor’s image lol

lotor is on the run, technically, which means he’s probably viewed as a coward and a traitor. both of which are pretty much death sentences in galran culture, which hinges on the slogan “victory or death” and “glory to the empire”

FeelsWeirdMan

AWWW SHIT HOT GALRA LADIES (lesbian mode: activated)

where were they in earlier seasons tho.... lol

the flame has burned for thirteen millennia... zarkon has been ruling for ten thousand years and was (presumably) the 33rd ruler.

so 32 other people ruled the galra empire during the 3000 year time span before zarkon started starting shit. interesting

sendak is over 1000 years old??? maaaan

i am LOVING hunk flexin his smart muscles. KING OF TALKING ABOUT THINGS I DON’T UNDERSTAND. i have no idea what he and pidge are arguing about but. hunk is right!

DID SHIRO REALLY JUST GO ON A LIFE-CHANGING FIELD TRIP WITH LOTOR SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP

“It’s also on my sword.” Goddamn, Lotor is good at those one-liners.

“RETURN THE BLACK LION TO THE GALRA”  SHIRO I AM REALLY GOING TO KILL YOU.

wait what is haggar..... saying. i mean that’s my argument but UHHHHH. WHAT

keith saving lotor -_-

“fire on the black lion” immediately shoots at the crowd LOL

i appreciate everyone taking advantage of the chaos to immediately try and assassinate anyone who’s ever annoyed them

sendak mentioned owning slaves. do the vld writers read all of your guys’ weird shiro fanfics??

(lauren montgomery voice) shiro/sendak 4life! *heart eyes emoji*

axca savin keith.......... is it out of obligation, or familial loyalty?!

wrow that stare-off. i wonder what the writers are trying to say *thinking face emoji*

sendak really is just a furry doomfist huh

lotor lighting the flame ResidentSleeper x 100000000000

oh my god the archivist (the archivist) is still just there. it really truly be like that sometimes.

lotor as emperor FeelsTerribleMan

why am i doing this to myself -_-

[electrvcfeel]

faultyhalo 💞

send in your url // ALWAYS ACCEPTING.

Do I Follow Them?:  HELLS YEAH I DO.

Why Did I Follow Them?: bc her writing was awesome and so did her character?!

Do We Role Play?:  WE DO.

Do I Want To Role Play With Them: DEFINITELY ! she is so patient when it comes to me replying too i’m 

An AU Idea For Our Muses: i think the one we have going is pretty deng awesome ;) and inspiration filled !

A Song For Our Muses:  OH MY GOD !!!!!!

Do I Ship Our Muses?: TO THE MOON AND BACK.

What I Think About The Mun: she’s kind and patient ! she sends me all the shippy, heart wrenching and painful things -    i’m pretty heart eyes over her tbh.

Overall Opinion: SHE IS SUCH A GREAT WRITER. SUCH A GREAT MUN. PATIENCE OF A SAINT. YOU ARE MISSING OUT IF YOU DON’T FOLLOW. ;3

Blog Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 100000000000 x

[jonghyunsfriend]

hi smellies i got tagged by @imhyunsk to answer some questions like a few days ago and i’m putting off some essays so enjoy

rules: 1. always repost the rules 2. answer 11 random questions posted for you 3. create 11 new ones 4. tag 11 ppl

1. Describe ur bias in 6 words or less without saying their name 

baby neoneun neomu areumdawoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

2. Which one of your biases is most likely to work at walmart?

i literally met hongbin there when i was like 5 cents short trying to buy new years decorations

3. The last song you listened to 

i like don’t know how to find that out but like i’m 1000% sure it’s super power by shinhwa

4. U only have two hands. which 2 of ur faves are holding them?

shownu and suho :////// bad question

5. Top 3 side tracks 

i’m bored btob super power shinhwa and giv u class. 2pm

6. Name a group and a color that comes to mind when you think of them 

uh shinhwa and orange but like if i’m being not facetious monsta x and like very dark purple

7. What was the first thing you noticed about your bias that made you start liking them?

i suppose i have to say something about shownu but basically i saw monsta x right now last year and then specifically in episode 2 where they had to do that stupid acting mission or whatever also when he wanted thai food while they were in hong kong then won that mission and also his english specifically “hi hello annyeong i’m shownu” and also the ipad selfie fiasco…. i could probably keep going but it’s been over a year since i found that binch…… and i guess if we’re talking about suho i literally denied liking him for like a year? then accepted it in like october 2015 then saw him at exoluxion and we made eye contact like .____. that like 3 times…. i’ll end with taecyeon basically i knew about that fuckie like since i got into kpop years ago then i dived into 2pm’s assholes for gentlemans game then i remembered he had long hair and also how he’s like kind of a dick and i love that in menand we got married on his farm shortly after i found out he had one….

8. if you only had 1 group to listen to for the rest of your life who would it be?

shinee no brainer every song is a bop i’d take why so serious over 2/3 of monsta x’s music any day

9. The first group you ever got into and the latest

shinee (1000 heart emojis) and shinhwa!

10. rapline, dance line, or vocal line?

leader line

11. the most embarrassing song on ur playlist

depends on what playlist we’re speaking about like every song i own is embarrassing… probably the like 4 big bang songs i have and the 7 bts songs i like…. is 30 sexy embarrassing?? also the fact i have like all of got7′s discography excluding turbulence

**FORBIDDEN BONUS QUESTION*** 12. give me a compliment or alternatively ur least favorite song from ur favorite album

i’ll do both WIWWY I WOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! you’re so kind and strong and beautiful i would die for you i’d do anything you asked i’m love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway i’d have to say miscons shinee is my fave album and on you i don’t really care for hitchhiking and on me i dont like why so serious :/

okay here are my questions smellies:

1. whom was your first group and whom is your fave right now? 2. do you have a favorite piece of merch? if not, what’s some merch you really want?? 3. what is your favorite thing about your ult? 4. do your biases have anything in common? 5. what’s your fave show/interview one of your faves has done?? 6. what’s the most embarrassing thing one of your faves has done? 7. what’s your favorite store and which of your biases would work there? 8. favorite non-titles? 9. if you had to spend the day with one of your faves, who would it be and what would you be doing? 10. your icon/the last fave you reblogged is the main character of the last show you watched. whomst is starring in what?? 11. post your fave pic of your fave (heart emojis)

okay i shall tag @sfgon @bicontaeyang @mblaqsbiggestfanandsupporter @1kyuhyun @gikwanghive @smrookiez @jongln @walkby @blackbolshevik @woohyun666 @leejinkigf if you guys all want to i’m love you!! (insert 100000000000 heart emojis)

[mainrappernajaemin]

let this flop idc

listen

they need to let my international fan ass live

so i’m gonna liveblog my reaction to limitless (nct 127′s second album and a work of art whatever u wanna call it)

under a read more bc i dont wanna choke yall unless ur into that (yes im lookin at u thalia)

aight we fuckin wit limitless

ive heard this before but it’s the Ultimate Bop so

YES BOIS DA HEAVY BASS

MBOY TAEYONG

FRICK YEA

BOTTOM UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHP 

JAEHYUNNIE

YES MY BOYS’ VOCALS ARE KILLIN IT

IM

YES

MARK

LEE

RAPPINH

FUCK

IM HONESTLY SO

IM NOT

I JUST

NO

WEEEEEEEEN WEEEEEEEEEEEEEN

MY BOI UPGRADED FROM WHOOP WHOOP

glo up

BABY I DNT WANT NOBODY BUT U

AIGHT ITS HT EINSGING IM READY TO BE SNCATHCED

taEIIIIIIIIIIL

BABY ITS U

IJASGEJSJAME IN ANKS

me singing in korean right there

appreciate it aight whats the next song

fuck

its good thing

ITS THE FULL VERSION IM

IM GONNA

YEAH BOI

I JUST WANNT FEEL GOOD

ALLNIT E LONG

INSUGA NI GOODTHNG

WOOOOOO

toarere wo OAHAHAHA

uri BAMsomethin

wAI T IST HAT DONG HYCUKS INGHING

M

IM

IM SNATCHETS

HELL YEAH RAP MAN SPACESHIP

STO P I FU CANT KEEP UP

yeah me in pe class tbh

jk im actually fit why do i say those things

listen im an intl fan

WAIT THE FUCK

IS THAT TAEIL

FUCK YEAH U GON FELE GOPD

WHAT IS THIS ELECTRIC THINGIE

LIKE

UH

bass drop yeah man good thing yeah rap man,,,,, cool

im going to listen to this song till i die you hear me

till 

i 

die oh fucc ITS BACK TO U

listen i kno mboy taeyong had a part in this

im ready

my body is ready

*pressing play*

ok phone call

piano

phone call + piano

OH FUCC IT ALREADY SOUNDS SAD

NANANANANANA WOOOOAH NA

IM NOT GOIN BACK???? WHY BB

WHTA HAPPENED WHY DO YALL SOUND SP SAD

OK BUT TBH

the drums(?) are givin me hawaiian vibes

like imagine em on a beach hula dancin to it

IM NOT GOING BACKBACKBAKCBAKCBKACBLABCL

I AINT RUNNING BACK U BINCH

HOW THE FUCK DOD THEY SEAMLESSLY JUST

PUT A RAP INOT THIS

IM

TAEYONG ND MORK SOUND 100000000000/10

TAEIL

OH MY GOD

HYUCK

IM FUCKING SNATCHES

IM

IM

IM

IM

IM NT GOJNG BACK

IM NOT GNF X BACK

I WANTTO

THROW MYSELFODFF A CLIFF

my foot is numb but im doin this 4 em

im p sure its jaehyun

he sounds great heartbreaker just like jaemin :-)

yeah man techno vibes 

yeah yeah cool

yall im vibin

IS THAT HYCUK

WHAT

THE 

FUCL

TAIEL

IM

YES

jaehuNY NJNRHHHDN

im gonna yell

HEARTBREAKAAAAAAAAAA

this could be abt something sad but elts

HYUCK

lets leave the tears to when eng subs come out

im fucking

listem

yall need t appreciate vocal line more

jaehyun is fucking amazing and lets not even mention taeil’s honey vocals

and fucking

lee

dong

hyuck

wait is this a vocal line song like without u????

wahat

im

listne its 12.18 am here im not ready for school 

MY FOOT IS NUMB

im

i cant move

eerything is

ow ok next up

baby dont like it

aight im ready

oh fuck

did mark just say baby

i want to

scream

he sounds so fucking good im

like it wheN WE GET CLOSER WHEN IT GETS RISKY UM

BOI

BOI

LEAVE ROOM 4 JISOOS CHRIST

unless its wit me boi

when im with you danger seems like a good thing

im 

so

attacked

im going to call the fucking police

juts

im so

im just

my back hurts

so does my heart

u what now for me girl

taeil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YO WHAT THE FUCK DO U MEAN BY MY BABY DONT LIKE IT WHEN YOU COME AROUND

BOI

I AINT GON BE THE THIRD PARTY

GET RID OF YO BABY OR ME BINCH

dangyunhaji is the only thing i understood

TAEYONG!!!

FRIKIN HONEST

HEARTBEAT

DID HE SAY MAMI???

I LOVE IT LOVE IT TOO

oh MY GOD HE SAID BEACH VOLLEYBALL

IM

YEAH

I PLAY BEACH VOLLEYBALL

YEAH

hit me up

I LVOE IT LOVE IT LOV RE I T

WHOOP WHOOP

im

deceased angel

time 2 cleanse myself of my sins

oh god this is so pure and cute

they could literally be singing about fucking each other in the ass and i wouldnt know

#intlfanstruggles

“open my eyes till you see me”

JOYONGHI OPNE RUR EEYES

WHS THE FUK IS SINGING IS IT JAEHYUN???

TAEIL’S HONEY VOCLS IM

areum da wooo ji

ill be your morning star

and you are my angel

youARE MY ANGELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

IM

HECK YEAH

gurl HAY

WHAT MY NAME???

VIVIENNE

ITS VIVIENNE

VIVIENNE LEE

U COULD B MY MOONLIGHT TOO BITHC

AND SUNSHINE

wait,,,, 

i gotta stay loyal 2 jae

how do u feel about polygamy mark

lets fly ah ah EYYYY

he kinda did the taeyogn thing

my back huRts

HYUCKIEEEEEEE

boi if ya saw an angel you should probably get sum help

unless ur talkin bout me then hell yea i gon be angel

hyuckekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

im so soft for hyuck ITS RIDICULOUS

MARK

YEAH

RAP MAN RAP

SHALALALALA

IM i’m so weak over hyuck