#hellsite design fr

[delirious-donna]

I really need Fairy Tail: 100 Year Quest anime to hurry up so I can finally have people to scream with about this handsome fucker… Mercphobia.

[illusion-reality-steve]

Here’s the quick reference sheet of Twitter Steve and Tumblr Steve from the Hellsite Steves AU.

Tumblr Steve’s Elder Blue design is inspired by zzoupz, sator-the-wanderer, meowthefluffy, vincepti0n, and tailsmaster’s Tumblr designs. I also took inspiration from Castiel, the character from that one show I never plan to watch.

Twitter’s design is inspired by tailsmasters, fr--thsedits, and calhanx’s Twitter designs.

And the idea of giving the Steves scarves was inspired by https://theinterwebsseries.tumblr.com/!

If any of the aforementioned artists find my post, thank you for all this amazing Twitblr chaos and the incredible designs that come with it! And if you’re not comfortable me taking inspiration from your designs, feel free to let me know through a message or ask, and I can adjust my designs.

Just to clarify, Twitter Steve was exiled from Twitter Town, the embodiment of Twitter in this AU. He got exiled after giving the new leader valid criticism. And because towns in the Steve Saga are connected to Steves’ energy, Twitter Steve is glitching and falling apart because the Twitter Town is falling apart. So that’s how he ended up like that. He thought Twitter Town and his life force would remain strong forever, and now he’s homeless and not having a great time.

I stayed up late on a Sunday night to bring these two to life.

[lilbluntworld]

Tumblr giving me a notification for liking a mutuals reblog of my post

Who’s the dumb bitch CEO of the hellsite

[yarns-alt]

@assigned-k9’s design! I am in love with this design, and there’s no way I could do it justice! This honestly helped me get out of a pretty rough art block, so thanks for letting me use it >v<

[klavierbi]

tagged by @ofcatsandstars aaa thank u!!

name: inara >:3

nicknames: oh boy... nya (thanks mish), narnar, banarnar (thanks aech), innoo just to name a Few

zodiac: leo (leo-virgo cusp but. technicalities.)

height: 5′3.5″ short king hours

languages: english >_<, urdu, french (but like really badly), i can phonetically? read arabic

nationality: american stinkeyyy

favourite season: summer i am Biased also no school is always a plus

flower: sunflowers :pleading_face:

scent: anything that’s either floral or spicy

fictional character: hinata (hq!!) and i are 5′3.5″/one brain-cell solidarity

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: TEA BY FAR!!! jasmine tea with honey is >>>. i like the taste of coffee but caffeine makes me conk out in like 30 seconds

average sleep: god i dunno like. 5/6-ish hours? my avg for this week is considerably worse lmao i slept at 6am and woke up at 7am twice in the past few days

dogs or cats: cats :3c

number of blankets: two usually, three in winter. i must be layered at all hours like an onion

dream trip: genuinely i don’t think i have a *dream* trip anymore but lowk i wanna see the netherlands... my parents almost moved to amsterdam before deciding they’d preferred nyc so i am Curious. might also be nice to visit pakistan again at some point once i get past that cultural detachment guilt y’know

blog established: march 19th 2018 apparently... tho i’ve been on this hellsite on my art blog since june 2016-ish

random fact: i’m the second person in my school’s theater history to have broken a family heirloom during a blackbox production. it was a trombone. the first person broke an antique table last year. i made fun of him for the table nearly every day up until the trombone incident. i will never live this down

gender: gonna steal emma’s “girl but with an asterisk” answer bc wow i feel that

current time: 7:11pm (blaze it)

fav music artist: BASTILLE!!!! i also adore mcr and lorde

stuck in my head: KABIRAAAA (it’s been on repeat in my head for the past 24 hours i...)

last movie i saw: on god i think it might’ve been the ace attorney live action movie at ffac night a month ago jshdkjd

last thing i googled: wordreference

other blogs: @emomacbeth (art), @ellesmera (insp/ref storage)

lucky numbers: 13, 4, 39

currently wearing: pajamas consisting of a normal t-shirt and bhangra pants whoops

dream job: town crier. fr real though definitely something art related! architecture or maybe game/character design would be ideal

favorite foods: ok this is gonna be very specific but my mom makes this one salan (gravy) with potatoes and eggs and by god it is my ULTIMATE comfort food with rice. i also have the HUGEST sweet tooth omg the amount of peach gummies i’ve consumed in the past week alone...

instruments: i play the piano + guitar but like at the most BASIC level. were it not for the laws of this land i would have been fluent in accordion by now.

favorite song: the answer always changes lmao but i’ve been losing my mind consistently recently over “strawberries & cigarettes” (troye sivan), “another place” (bastille), “and “khuda jaane” :pleading_face:

i tag: @paladin-of-fandoms, @jackofpantrades, and i can’t think of anyone else who hasn’t been tagged for this yet hdhsj so if you want to do this pls go ahead!!!

[bloosasks]

I know I talk about it a lot and never follow through with it, but I think I might actually leave Tumblr this time...

tl,dr at the bottom

This website took over a lot of my developmental years since I was allowed to do just whatever as a child on the internet (both my parents worked full time jobs to support us, so whatever kept me occupied while they were away was allowed). While I understand that is more on me than them, of course an impressionable child is going to enjoy the meme blogging website when they have zero other frame of reference for things and how they should/could be. It was at a time where everyone here glorified being depressed and spending all your time alone on this hellsite without question, pushing people away, being angry for no reason, etc. I often wonder what I’d be like if I never had been exposed to all this. 

On top of that it’s a fucking social media site designed to keep you refreshing and scrolling until your mind goes numb like all the others. Memes about ‘lol funny haha I wanna fucking die fr isn’t that funny :)’ and people who have just like. Given up. Screw the future, having plans, close friends, stuff like that. I know it isn’t just here, but damn if my dash isn’t full of it 24/7. Even after I unfollowed a ton of major offenders, it still weasels its way in.

While I respect the outlook of ‘I’m just here for the ride’ since, like, a bunch of stuff in life is actually shit, there’s a point where like. Your own inactivity and indecision is still your choice. You still have a hand in your life whether you feel in control or not. Obviously there are situations you can’t control (episodes, illness, trauma, disabilities, etc) but there is still a point where your own actions can make some kind of difference. All I see now is just a place to wallow in self pity. ‘Things won’t get better bc 30,000 people in the notes say it won’t’. ‘no one offers a scenario where it gets better so I should just stop trying even though I haven’t made an attempt.’

And I also understand that I can ignore it all. Not even look at my dash. Just focus on the side blogs and all that. But then again, what’s the point? It’s walking on eggshells to post nsfw as anything other than writing, and even the ask blog I feel has kinda... run its course? Not too many interesting topics left to talk about imo. As soon as tumblr became more restrictive, my passion for art kinda tapered off, too. Or maybe it’s just me settling down into other interests more, or focusing on my job more. I’ve finished the rough draft for the romance novella, so I know I wanna keep working on that. Maybe try to make something of myself as an author? 

Who knows, but it’s something I feel I won’t get to by staying here. Wallowing, reading through edgy depressive memes, and letting myself down by just like... essentially wasting my time just is no bueno. 

tl,dr - this place has become more bleak and I probably am just gonna leave for a long while bc it really doesn’t offer much to me beneficially anymore. I’m tired of being in a rut like I’ve been in for so long.