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[illusion-reality-steve]

things to do when u realize u feel shitty

so i have alexithymia (emotional blindness or challenges in recognizing, expressing, sourcing, and describing one's emotions) and i often dont realize why, whats causing me to feel that way, or even if its mental or physical shittiness. so here are things i try to do to reset.

so the first step is obviously realizing the feeling at first, is your brain making you feel bad about yourself? do you feel like theres no point in doing things? do you feel stuck? or has there been any drastic change in energy in a short time? these may look different for you, but learning to notice even something as small as do i feel Good or Bad, you dont need to get caught up in what specifically it is.

FIRST and foremost, medications. did you take your meds? vitamins? please do so if you can. if you've missed the time window that you are meant to or cant for another reason, no guilt please, its ok we all forget.

move! change locations. even if its just where you are sitting in bed from one side to the other and sit up if you can. i try to move to my desk chair. sometimes just sitting up can change the way you feel drastically.

this could also mean move as in take a walk around your room, stand up on your phone instead of laying down.

do a Task, or Activity. copy a journal spread from pinterst even if it takes like 3 hours. write some lists, make a bracelet, play a game. focus on something you like. very cliche advice i know but its great to allow yourself to do something you like.

get a snack/water. unfortunately hydration is important even tho its annoying. make it super cold, put some lemon or mint in there if you want. its all about making it a) more fun and b) different sensory experiences. if you are hungry go down a mental list of most to least effort meal and find what you can do (cook from sratch, add stuff to ramen, eat it plain, get a handful of nuts or fruits, etc)

open the curtains/blinds, let the outside in a bit. even if its dark out open them and look around and close again.

face feels gross? do some level of skincare, exfoliate your lips and put on some vasesline, brush and floss your teeth (love floss picks). if you have bangs wash them in the sink.

if weather + mental permits, go outside. even for 2 seconds to look at it

shower=full reset and rebirth. not a bath, a shower. let the water hit you and soak your hair. do as full of a shower as you can. use so much moisturizer (if you can) with a scent you love. sensory goodness is very helpful. this usually works for me to pull me out. often the reason why i feel shitty is actually just me not realizing my hair is dirty, or i need alone time, etc which is acheived by showering.

aligned with that, put on new clothes, either comfortable and lounge clothes that are good sensory, or you need a new fun outfit because you have been wearing the current one for too long and its irritating you in a way you dont notice.

clean something, same as the food go from most to least effort and find out what you can do. organize 1 drawer or your whole house. my go to is usually rearraging my bedside table top and drawer. because for me thats where i keep things like my journal, headphones, letters from friends, body butter, etc its a chance for me to help future me access this little self care station.

make your bed so you have a clean cozy place to lay and sit, unfortunately a made bed is more comfortable

in general, treat yourself like a littel guy, talk to yourself like a toddler even if it feels silly, the part of you that feels bad is basically a toddler throwing a tantrum tbh. silliness is often a precursor to feeling Good. these things feel so so hard but each time you do them despite feeling bad it will get easier i promise you, you will get good at what you practice so practice trying.

if all of these things seem too hard, or you cant do them, the main thing is thats ok too. and if you dont feel 100% better after doing these things, that is also ok. the truth is some days things will be hard and that is your body telling you to relax, or sleep, or that it just wants to have an off day. no day is wasted if you are still here to see it.

(a lot of these tasks can be made easier by doing prep when you are feeling Good, which is part of the reason why i made this list, but i might do another post on prep stuff. )

[illusion-reality-steve]

Hello everyone!

It took a lot longer than expected, and I really apologize for that, but the Chapters 1-50 recap is finally done!

You can view it and the end of Chapter 50 on FFN or as its own chapter on Wattpad.

Alright, unfortunately back to the hiatus for me. Take you!

[illusion-reality-steve]

Hiatus announcement

Hello! If you’re reading this post, this means the queue has run out of posts and the blog is going on hiatus as I take care of personal matters.

Quick update on RRFF: The Chp 1-50 recap is still in the works! Once it is done, I will quickly add it on Wattpad and fanficiton.net and announce that update on this blog. But after that update, there will be silence on this blog again. It will also take a long while for the next RRFF chapter update.

I'm very sorry for the lack of RRFF updates, but I am grateful to your understanding and patience. I have no estimate of when my hiatus will end, but I hope to return in 2025!

Take care!

[illusion-reality-steve]

Me, tired of using the word "portal" 1000 times in RRFF: It's sad that there aren't enough synonyms for portal.

Sabre in Rainbow Quest: *calls the portal an "access point"*

Me: !!!!!!!!

[illusion-reality-steve]

Not sure if I will ever write this, but here's my idea of what Time and Guardian's first encounter would be like:

From canon, we know that:

Elemental banished Time out of the timeline and Time came back during the Elemental arc of the Steve Saga.

One way to return to the timeline is to create a portal to the Spirit World and enter through it. This was how Sabre returned to the timeline in the Origin arc.

So if you put those pieces together, it's possible that Time escaped his banishment by creating a portal to the Spirit World. But since he was alone (Galaxy had Sabre to help him in the Origin arc), he possibly:

Used a lot more energy than Galaxy to create the portal and escape through it. He much passed out once he arrived in the Spirit World. That lead to Guardian finding him and going like, "omg, you're not a newly passed Steve. You're not supposed to be here, but you also look so tired. Let me help you recover so you can return to the Overworld."

OR called out for someone in the Spirit World to help him, and that person was Guardian.

However it happened, these two met when Time returned to the timeline via the Spirit World. He would rest in the Spirit World before returning to the Overworld. During that break, Guardian and Time would chat and befriend each other, enjoying each other's company. Guardian was the first person Time had talked to in a very long time, so Time was very appreciative. Despite Time's presence in the Spirit World not being allowed, Guardian still offered him kindness. He felt curious about Time and his noble goals and didn't know why.

For the second encounter, Guardian would head to the Overworld, wanting to talk to Time again. Time would find him and say, "Hey, thanks for helping me, so I'm returning the favor by asking you to leave. Elemental Steve and Nightmare Steve are out there and I don't want you getting hurt."

Not sure what would happen next, but that's how I imagine their second encounter starting.

[illusion-reality-steve]

Happy Ace Week my friends!!! 🖤🩶🤍💜

[illusion-reality-steve]

Hi! I've been meaning to read RRFF, but I usually comment the ever loving heck out of any Wattpad stories I read. SoOo I just wanted to ask if you're alright with me doing that since some people don't really like when I comment on every other line

AlsO, from what I've seen so far, RRFF is really cool! Plus, I really like the Galaxy family as well, so I was drawn to this

Thank you so much for reading my fic! I'm glad that you're enjoying what you've read so far! ;0;

That sounds good with me. Feel free to comment as much as you want on Wattpad! :D

[illusion-reality-steve]

Time Steve: Illusion Steve told me people are shipping us!

Guardian: To WHERE?!

[illusion-reality-steve]

"He was fishing for faces" was an ominous sentence to read in my rough draft out of context, rip. That one will definitely not be in the final chapter.

[illusion-reality-steve]

Illusion Steve, singing: ~~I don’t know what the fuck just happened~~

Illusion Steve, singing: ~~But I don’t really care. I’m a the fuck outta here~~

Illusion Steve, singing: ~~Fuck this shit, I’m out~~

[illusion-reality-steve]

Steve Saga AU where this was the ending of the Rainbow Pickaxe episodes:

Sabre: There, we turned you back to normal.

Rainbow Steve: Thank goodness.

Galaxy Steve:

Galaxy Steve: Wouldn't it be so funny if we trick Void Steve into going into this machine and activating it?

[illusion-reality-steve]

omg, that animation is amazing! I love Illusion's expression so much. Your first read of the sentence is great and thank you for sharing!

Have my favorite deleted line from Act 3

Without thinking, Illusion panicked and began shuffling.

[illusion-reality-steve]

Illusion, I am so so sorry for not remembering your birthday this year.

You would be mad, but you'd be even more mad if I forgot Memory's birthday. I will not make that oversight here.

Happy birthday, Memory Steve! Your debut episode is now six years old, and you're still loved by many Steve Saga fans! You will continue to live rent free in my head for many years to come!

[illusion-reality-steve]

Let me make you proud and Let me make you proud (reprise) honestly really fit the Galaxy fam.

When I was plotting out RRFF, I was listening to those two songs a lot, especially when I was figuring out Memory's plan to bring back Void >:)

Thank you for sharing!

[illusion-reality-steve]

Rise of the Guardians is one of my favorite movies. I think Jack Frost's dilemma of not being seen by anyone inspired me to give Memory the dilemma of always being forgotten by everyone.

[illusion-reality-steve]

Sometimes you have to hyperfixate on a 20 year old video game and that's just life

[illusion-reality-steve]

*through gritted teeth as I write "Memory's memories" for the 50th time* I will find a better way. I will find a better way to word this.