#help i hate planes
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I had a shrink appointment today and while I could not see it I knew my doc was going through the five stages of grief while I explained my fool proof strategy for doing my t shots despite a crippling fear of needles: By abusing my vastly more crippling fear of being an inconvenience.
My mother and I play phasmophobia together every week. she usually has a pretty limited time to do this bc she's like. a doctor and a college professor whos always busy. So I asked her to just. hold me to doing them. We don't start playing until the shot is done. so my needle fear doesn't matter because now it's Wasting™ her time and I have to do it quick. Using one neurosis to defeat another.
It's a horrible coping mechanism because it's feeding the inconvenience fear, but it is definitionally a coping mechanism.
#im a 'has a panic attack during every injection or iv theyve ever gotten' type of scared of needles#no it genuinely has nothing to do with pain the needle itself is the fear not the using of it#like i told this story before but i have these sewing pins with lil bow ties on them and i had to get my dad to take all the blue ones out#because they were triggering the same part of my brain iv needles do#just the sight of them with the rest of my cute sewing pins was a problem#And the fear of being an inconvenience is so bad i cant eat around people or be in crowded spaces or talk at get togethers#without being paralyzed by fear of Being In The Way. its so bad ive been avoiding using my power chair bc it makes me take up#slightly more space than i would just standing. and i never took my manual out and about because i moved too slowly in it#and i dont take my crutches on planes despite using them everyday bc they cant fold up like my cane can and so are In The Way#one of the big reasons i dont use the chairs in stores is they have back up alarms. and i hate making noises in public#Yes this is part of the reason i want a Rottweiler for my service dog because i want people to look at the doggie Not Me.#I like people! i like being friendly and talking and making little connections with strangers!!! But i cant be the one to initiate or#be In The Way of a peaceful moment#dont look at me#this is also a big issue i have with making friends or changing the nature of a relationship because like. im autistic#I have Rules for social interactions memorized that i will follow. but moving people from one category to another#is difficult. It is too the point i had problems for litteral years talking to my boyfriend as though#he was a person i knew well and cared deeply for because i kept using the 'rando guy im flirting with on the Internet' script#I have commissioners i want to be friendlier with but my brain says No Stop that is an Impolite and Overly informal way to talk to#a customer™ despite them not being customers when they arnt in the commission process#im like thise huskies who are scared of carpet because its Different than the floor they're currently standing on#its Too different:(#and to be clear i am Completely aware of how none of this makes logical sense and is in fact deeply self destructive#That does not fix it. it is so ingrained in my head that im certain i could convince my brain to let me bite off my own fingers#before i could convince it to let me talk to someone at a help desk or ask my order be corrected at a restaurant
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so this happened
#because of course i would have a transformers oc#''but dante why is he a plane i thought you hated planes'' SHUT.#his affiliation? yes 👍#he's just some guy#my art#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#transformers#transformers fanart#tf fanart#tf oc#transformers oc#what other transformers tags are there help#maccadams#oc#original character#im gonna make him kiss starscream haha#(im not. transformers are so hard to draw. one was enough.)
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Hi everyone! So! Things are not going well for me here!
My mom's currently at the hospital with many health problems, one of them being cancer (and we don't even know wich one), basically paralyzed because of the severe pain she's in. Apparently we're not even sure she's treatable (the doctors are a bit lost, from what i understand). I really want to go see her, the problem is that she lives oversea and plane tickets aren't cheap.
So I made a ko-fi page. Not only you can donate to me there (even the littlest bit of money will be greatly appreciated!!), but I also made a commission page if you'd like to receive a drawing in exchange of your money! And if you can't spare a penny, then please consider sharing this post in exchange of my eternal gratefulness!
Thanks to everyone reading this and who are willing to help, no matter the way, shape or form!
EDIT because I see people are still reblogging this (wich i really appreciate!): I reached my goal, guys! And my tickets are bought! I'm keeping the kofi page up for now but there's no urgent need of money anymore, thanks!
#god how do i even tag this#ko fi support#ko fi commissions#ko fi donations#donations#asking for help#heavy topic#thank goodness we're not living in he US#otherwise i'd be asking for help to pay for much more than a plane ticket#i hate having to ask for money like this#maybe i wouldn't have to if finding a job wasn't so damn impossible to begin with.#trying to stay optimistic and hopeful but ngl#it doesn't really get better with time
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a little gift for my friend eleanor @bagadew who wanted to see thee girlboss of the skies herself, carolyn knapp-shappey from cabin pressure! i had a lot of fun drawing her and reminiscing about this great radio show (man, i should really relisten to it!), i really hope you like it!

#cabin pressure#carolyn knapp shappey#carolyn knapp-shappey#juli doodles#eleanorrrr i hope you like it! and you get a bonus ugly logo because i made it and i both hate it and love it so dfjkdhkj#man cabin pressure........i loved this show so much back then#i still think about that ep where they're in the desert and like they have to pay the airport and they dont want to#so they get that sports team to help them DRIVE THE PLANE TO ANOTHER AIRPORT. peak comedy it cracks me up so hard#i never actually finished listening to it just like with wooden overcoats cause if i dont finish it then it isnt over haha. ha. hah.....#anyway yeah thank you so much again eleanor :)
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Everyone shut up and lock in to help me find this Hamilton animatic that I swear to god existed because I watched it in middle school. I woke up in a cold sweat last night thinking about it and I cannot for the life of me find it
OK take everything with a grain of salt because this was so long ago but from what I remember;
-it was a modern au Hamilton and Lawrence
-about the song it’s a woman singer she describes accidentally running into a guy who helps her pick up all the groceries she dropped and then the guy ends up saying “I’ll be here next Thursday 8:00 if you wanna stop by” or something like that anyway she goes on to say like they fell in love got married (or possibly just engaged) and the she’s in the home that they share and the phone rings and she picks it up and then out of nowhere you figure out the dude was in the goddamn north tower???…as in 9/11…as in he dies in the attack
-I also feel like the dude‘s name was John but that might be the lams talking
- anyway the animatic played out the same way and I think ended with Hamilton at Lawrence’s funeral??
Anyway, this was ripped from the deep recesses of my brain, and I would really like if anyone had any clue that this existed or if I just made this up (also I’m not entirely sure at this point if it was lams or not I don’t care I just need to find it )
#hamilton musical#yes I watched Hamilton animatics in middle school show me a bitch on this app that didn’t#alexander hamilton#hamilton fandom#hamilton animatic#please find this#lost media#lams#help my sanity#help my brain#i woke up in a cold sweat#i hate it here#john laurens#animatic#this was like 2018#The 911 bit came out of nowhere too 😭#almost like the first plane#i mean whattt
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They're gonna have to make a new 9/11 after I get done with this woman I swear to god
#Because I'm gonna crash two planes into her fucking apartment#I swear to god She's fucking Insufferable#I spent the last FOUR FUCKING MONTHS trying to help her be better at communication#LIKE JUST BASIC ASS COMMUNICATION#LITERALLY JUST ''Hey it makes me upset when you ask me to leave the room during conversations'' LEVEL COMMUNICATION#and she has made NO FUCKING PROGRESS#''I don't wanna upset you guys'' ''I don't want you to think I'm mean'' GIRL FUCKING TALK ABOUT SHIT OH MY FUCKING GOD#LITERALLY I HATE YOU NOW BECAUSE IT'S LIKE PULLING FUCKING TEETH TO GET ANYTHING OUT OF YOU#IF YOU WANT TO LIVE AND DIE ALONE IN THAT APARTMENT DOING THE SAME FUCKING ROUTINE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE FINE#YOU GET YOUR WISH#I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY ALONE BECAUSE THATS ALL YOU'LL EVER BE#IT'S NO WONDER ALL YOUR FRIENDS LEFT THEY COULDN'T PUT UP WITH YOU BEING THAT WAY CONSTANTLY#I LITERALLY SPENT THE LAST 2 YEARS HELPING SOMEONE GET THROUGH THEIR COMMUNICATION ISSUES AND EVEN I'M FED UP
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im seeing blink tomorrow and the day after??? i have such massive fomo i feel like i missed so much on blinkblr the last month because i was too busy/sick to keep up with everything. all i know is that they polycule truthed on stage last night and seemingly brought a very *interesting* energy to europe. ((if theres anything that happend that i should know would be cool if anyone can fill me in lol)).
i'll try my best to record the banter and some songs (dont think i can stream while im there because i'll need mobile data for when i go to denmark next week). be warned i have shit seats both nights but they were all i could find. the venue has week wifi so i might pop on tumblr every now and then to give updates. <33
ready to see those old men
#im very excited i just lowkey wished there was less going on atm and my mind was less busy#uni hasnt even started but im helping to run events for new students#and then theres also the fact that i'll go on a plane for the 1st time in 4 years next week. which would suck less as a concept if i hadnt#been waiting for 3 weeks to hear back from immigration services. im too scared to check if they fixed the issue without telling me.#i hate being on a plane but im doing it all to see dan and phil so its worth it for me.#i guess the concerts are a good distraction#sage posting#blink 182
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#this is my new hyperfixation#fob#fall out boy#we didnt start the fire#memes#i like to think im funny#im making memes of myself#because i cant stop listening to it#send help#but dont actually#because then someone will turn off the music#and i dont want that#let me listen to it on repeat until i hate it#please and thanks#world trade#second plane#what more do i have to say#ugh#so good
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also. travel planning. terrible. awful. large amounts of money and logistics all at once. horrid. I’m doing it bc I’ve done it a million times before but I wish it sucked less
#I would hate it so much less if I were rich#then I would just book the $400 flight with all the guarantees and shit#instead of doing all the weird shit where you book flights with a self transfer and pay extra for luggage and other bullshit#so that I can take $250 off the price#I can’t spend $400 on a goddamn plane ticket for this wedding!!!! I also have to pay a cat sitter!!!!#Am I gonna play roulette with a fucking 1.5 hr self transfer??? maybe???#I have to also pack for like 1.5 people bc some of my partner’s stuff is also here??? Help I hate this#*agony agony agony*#cyanoupdates
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just need to win the lottery. not even the big one!!! i only need like…idk……30K??? 40??? to the lottery, that’s fuckin nothing! i just want out ;__;
it makes me sick that there are people in this world who could be like “oh you need 40k? here’s 50, go buy yourself something nice” and in two days they’d have made that money back+interest but nope instead they spend millions of dollars on houses and boats and cars and other stupid shit and then they have the fucking gall to try and justify why they deserve a 2 million dollar house in the worst housing crisis in american history
#eat the rich fr fr#oh u spent 2 million dollars on a house during a historically unprecedented housing crisis???#the worst housing crisis in american history in fact????#PLEASE try and justify that 2 ppl living in tents under the freeway#the mental gymnastics ppl will go through 2 justify y they deserve 100x the house they need#i fucking hate rich ppl#u could help ppl which is ur obligation in society#but NOPE buy another boat/car/plane/helicopter/house/race horse#i’m sure buying more things is the key to filling the empty hole in ur heart!!!! /sarcasm#life is meaningless? better buy a bigger car!
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There are people – some in my own Party – who think that if you just give Donald Trump everything he wants, he’ll make an exception and spare you some of the harm. I’ll ignore the moral abdication of that position for just a second to say — almost none of those people have the experience with this President that I do. I once swallowed my pride to offer him what he values most — public praise on the Sunday news shows — in return for ventilators and N95 masks during the worst of the pandemic. We made a deal. And it turns out his promises were as broken as the BIPAP machines he sent us instead of ventilators. Going along to get along does not work – just ask the Trump-fearing red state Governors who are dealing with the same cuts that we are. I won’t be fooled twice.
I’ve been reflecting, these past four weeks, on two important parts of my life: my work helping to build the Illinois Holocaust Museum and the two times I’ve had the privilege of reciting the oath of office for Illinois Governor.
As some of you know, Skokie, Illinois once had one of the largest populations of Holocaust survivors anywhere in the world. In 1978, Nazis decided they wanted to march there.
The leaders of that march knew that the images of Swastika clad young men goose stepping down a peaceful suburban street would terrorize the local Jewish population – so many of whom had never recovered from their time in German concentration camps.
The prospect of that march sparked a legal fight that went all the way to the Supreme Court. It was a Jewish lawyer from the ACLU who argued the case for the Nazis – contending that even the most hateful of speech was protected under the first amendment.
As an American and a Jew, I find it difficult to resolve my feelings around that Supreme Court case – but I am grateful that the prospect of Nazis marching in their streets spurred the survivors and other Skokie residents to act. They joined together to form the Holocaust Memorial Foundation and built the first Illinois Holocaust Museum in a storefront in 1981 – a small but important forerunner to the one I helped build thirty years later.
I do not invoke the specter of Nazis lightly. But I know the history intimately — and have spent more time than probably anyone in this room with people who survived the Holocaust. Here’s what I’ve learned – the root that tears apart your house’s foundation begins as a seed – a seed of distrust and hate and blame.
The seed that grew into a dictatorship in Europe a lifetime ago didn’t arrive overnight. It started with everyday Germans mad about inflation and looking for someone to blame.
I’m watching with a foreboding dread what is happening in our country right now. A president who watches a plane go down in the Potomac – and suggests — without facts or findings — that a diversity hire is responsible for the crash. Or the Missouri Attorney General who just sued Starbucks – arguing that consumers pay higher prices for their coffee because the baristas are too “female” and “nonwhite.” The authoritarian playbook is laid bare here: They point to a group of people who don’t look like you and tell you to blame them for your problems.
I just have one question: What comes next? After we’ve discriminated against, deported or disparaged all the immigrants and the gay and lesbian and transgender people, the developmentally disabled, the women and the minorities – once we’ve ostracized our neighbors and betrayed our friends – After that, when the problems we started with are still there staring us in the face – what comes next.
All the atrocities of human history lurk in the answer to that question. And if we don’t want to repeat history – then for God’s sake in this moment we better be strong enough to learn from it.
I swore the following oath on Abraham Lincoln’s Bible: “I do solemnly swear that I will support the constitution of the United States, and the constitution of the state of Illinois, and that I will faithfully discharge the duties of the office of Governor .... according to the best of my ability.
My oath is to the Constitution of our state and of our country. We don’t have kings in America – and I don’t intend to bend the knee to one. I am not speaking up in service to my ambitions — but in deference to my obligations.
If you think I’m overreacting and sounding the alarm too soon, consider this:
It took the Nazis one month, three weeks, two days, eight hours and 40 minutes to dismantle a constitutional republic. All I’m saying is when the five-alarm fire starts to burn, every good person better be ready to man a post with a bucket of water if you want to stop it from raging out of control.
Those Illinois Nazis did end up holding their march in 1978 – just not in Skokie. After all the blowback from the case, they decided to march in Chicago instead. Only twenty of them showed up. But 2000 people came to counter protest. The Chicago Tribune reported that day that the “rally sputtered to an unspectacular end after ten minutes.” It was Illinoisans who smothered those embers before they could burn into a flame.
Tyranny requires your fear and your silence and your compliance. Democracy requires your courage. So gather your justice and humanity, Illinois, and do not let the “tragic spirit of despair” overcome us when our country needs us the most.
Sources:
• NBC Chicago & J.B. Pritzker, Democratic governor of Illinois, State of the State address 2025: Watch speech here | Full text
• Betches News on Instagram (screencaps)
#he also announced banning phones in schools & a bunch of other good policies for illinois btw!#wish some very blue states in the northeast would take note & do more…!#this is the message btw#(read the rest of the speech - it’s very positive)#jb pritzker#us politics#long post#mine
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Planes, trains, or automobiles?
Planes, trains, AND automobiles.
#but on the off chance that this was a serious question#I hate flyin’#no planes whenever I can help it
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76 days is not enough time actually. I am going to tear off my limbs and eat them.
anyways! I might be desperate enough to open commissions soon.
#freaking ouuuuuttttt I HATE deadlines this is going way too fast#save me cool unofficial stepmom and help me pay for these plane tickets because I cannot.#raven rambles
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I have had the most annoying period nausea on this flight and I can’t wait to get off
#it does not help I could not get myself to eat lunch and have dehydrated myself on purpose because I hate peeing on planes#kate talks#tw period
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attempting to fly during this whole outage thing is a literal nightmare…my flight got delayed at least 10 times (ive been here for hours) but when we finally get a proper time and everything is finally looking up the flight is canceled?!? (only a few minutes from when we were supposed to board) and all other flights to our destination are canceled-the plane is literally at the gate-this is nuts
#they even rebooked me for a trip to Chicago on Wednesday??#my family does not have any time off hours left#delta i hate you#stupid planes#send help everyone#delta#flying#planes
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absolutely crazy disconnect btwn hearing typhoon fgr4's flying over my area and the protest my city held only last wknd...
#typhoons are deployed to help is(not)rael im pretty sure#like hearing that shit fly over my own house makes me feel so sick#hate hate hate makes me feel so tiny and insignificant and unheard#praying and hoping and praying they crash or smthn before they can make their way over there <3#like ive heard these planes before bc they sent out leaflets when they do training but they didnt send anything out and its literally 10pm#so i know theyre trying to keep this hush hush#fucked up !!!! fuck the raf fuck the army fuck the tories fuck the absolute demons running this country#!!!!!
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