#hiii every now and again i remember the pure insanity of that show

[planetaryacceleration]

queerbaiting these days is so easy a man just needs a mullet and a single silver hoop earring back in my day they committed medical malpractice for each other

[lisxdumbr]

hello lovely human what do you think of nightclub's ending?? it was kinda confusing for me ;; but even so, i'm curious about your thoughts! :3

HELLO LOVELY ANON. I'm so sorry for reaching to this so late wahh but ok !! I actually have a lot of thoughts about this.. 💬

Nightclub is one of my favorite comfort stories ever so,, yeah, everything that happens there is very significant !! I hope you enjoy my insane rambling

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So, nightclub ending. Yeah, I get why you'd be a little confused, it's 2wink introduction to the !! era world after all.

Let's remember that the first event for every unit once Music dropped was supposed to introduce them to the new public, like a way of saying "hiii this is who we are and how we behave" but without scratching the previous background held at ! era, y'know?

Having said that, Nightclub introduces 2wink as the "perfect 2 in 1 unit" exactly like in the previous era, but with the difference that we have a struggling background now, being Setsubun in this case (since it's mentioned a lot of times through the story? I remember Mika talking about it and someone else but idk who--).

I want to guess that by "ending" you mean the epilogue, right? The moment after 2winks breakdown where they end up performing together "as always" but Yuu finds the truth about their dad as a background support.

This is,,, hwhehwjsj explodes. I could say so so so many things about this but I'll limit myself to the analogies the story itself gives us.

So, 2wink is in a "good place" after everything that happened at Setsubun, but none of them feel ok, none of them feel like they're actually achieving anything on their own. There are people manipulating the strings behind to ensure they live the "perfect and happy life they deserve" and that obviously leaves them with an uneasy feeling.

They're in a point where they're trying too hard to be the "perfect pair" they used to be, but as Yuta himself said, "you can't return to the past" so having to accept that people change, things change, and experiences change brings this,, old feeling to Yuuta. The fear of abandonment he always hosted, the fear of drifting away.

Hinata notices this too, that's why he gladly accepts Rinne's proposal of "escaping reality for a bit" and decides to join him voluntarily. Both of them are feeling the same distress but they cope with it differently, because as they end up recognizing, they're not the same person as before.

I think,, their dad situation is supposed to show this growth, this sectioning between them. Let's remember that they despised their dad because of all the mistreatment he offered them, calling them freaks and monsters and treating them as if they weren't his children. I think their hate is valid tbh.

So now that they're different, now that they've grown and they've found an identity and a place on this Earth (supposedly-) this father figure returns to show us that he's still there. That he cares and he loves them.

I'll never forget when Hinata said "maybe he worries for you the same way you worried for me back then when I ran away" BECAUSE. YES. EXACTLY. I love Yuu with my entire soul but I can't help but think that the bitterness he holds to his father is pure resentment.

Father taught them to hate themselves for being freaks, but the only one who learned from that was Hinata who proved it by running to the streets by himself. Yuta on the other side learned to hate his father instead, because of what he did to Hinata. It's the exact same situation again "he cares you like you cared me" but this time is "he hates you like you hated me".

Now, as for the actual finale, the reason why Yuta decided to keep up with his performance and show off to his father who he became. I know people tend to not mind Rinne's words because he's annoying half of the time, but doesn't his speech ring a bell? "Live for them. Don't succumb to the arson this society throws you at. Stand for yourself. Be yourself. Live for yourself and stop running from reality no matter how much it sucks."

Well, don't you think this kind of impacted on Yuu? Don't you think that has to do with the fact he was able to smile, stand on his ground, and basically thank his own father for making him the cruel monster he is, now? Imagine having the courage, the courage of embracing the problematic situation you got stuck into, make it yours, and still wink and be able to whisper to your biggest enemy and greatest fear "thank you" "I am worst and I'll continue to be so thanks to you".

Nightclub is,, extremely powerful, I'd say "I have no words for it even" but look. I've already written all this and I only spoke about a brief moment at the end of one chapter,, imagine if I tried to explain further than that.

ANYWAY, I really hope you were able to enjoy the experience as much as I did !! Both my winkies and the bees are extremely precious to me, and seeing my two favorites, my two sides, bonding and fusing in oneself of revolutionary souls was a dream that came true. I hope you keep enjoying them in the future !

[eventuallyfall-blog]

Hiii! Can I request something? If so... Prompt: pippa x reader. Pippa offers a back massage to her tired friend the reader, but then regrets it once she sees the close proximity it puts her next to the love of her life. So now she's almost shaking especially when she grazes her bare skin by her neck. You choose how it goes, but please let it have a romantic and fluffy arc. Thank you!

this took me some time to get to! hope you like it i was stressing over it but it’s really cute imoalso is it a drabble if it’s 1.7k words???no warnings apply i think

Here was the thing about Phillipa and you: the two of you wentback to Julliard when you two had been put together as roommates.She’d been in the acting program and you’d been involved a theatertech program. She’d gone on to get involved in something calledNatasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812 and you yourself startedpicking up odd jobs in various theater companies that needed help toput on a show. Occasionally you helped on her project, but for themost part you were freelance and not contracted out to anyone. Andhere was the thing about being involved in the behind the scenes workas a stage technician: it was exhausting.

You knew it would be exhausting yet you loved that about the job because it meant that not a single moment went to waste. Doublechecking lighting rigs, running around the stage to make sure thateverything was in its place… all it was pretty tiring. So it wasno wonder that you’d eventually developed a crick in your neck andyour back felt like you’d dropped a thousand pound weight on it. “Ithink my back is broken,” you complained to Pippa. The one thingthat hadn’t changed from Julliard to now was the fact you were stillroommates. The two of you just got along in way you never thoughtpossible. “I’m pretty sure I’m dying. Make sure my browser historyis cleared.”

She laughed, that same twinkling laugh you’d always loved. “I’mcertain you’re not going to die,” she said, plopping herself nextto you on the couch. She hesitated briefly, her eyes tracing alongyour neck and you didn’t eve notice. “If you like, I could give youa shoulder massage? I bet that’ll help.”

“A massage sounds great,” you said as you leaned back againsther with a bright grin, trying your best to ignore how nicely you fitagainst her. Phillipa was amazing with her hands, as it turned out.She didn’t need much further permission than that. “God, the stagemanager for this show was a real prick, too. He couldn’t make up hisdamn mind where he wanted one of the larger parts of the set – Idon’t even know how to describe it. And it weighs a good hundred andseventy-five pounds too. Carrying it was insane. And I would’ve hadit too – this stupid guy came along and stood in my way demanding Ilet him help me move it! So I dropped it on his foot by mistake causehe wouldn’t move no matter how much I yelled at him to get out of myway.”

You didn’t notice her eyes darting down to your bare arms or hercheeks turning red as she realized how close she was to you. What youdidn’t know was that Phillipa had been harboring feelings for yousince Julliard when she first entered the dorm and saw you assemblinga bookshelf on the floor of the dorm. And she’d been gone ever since.But she didn’t want to risk ruining the friendship. She’d rather haveyou as a friend than as nothing else. “Yeah,” she said, shiftingslightly as she thought about how you’d most likely be able to lifther up. “No wonder you’re so exhausted. You poor baby.”

You gave a soft sigh, nodding. “Very exhausted,” you saidsoftly.  Here’s what Phillipa didn’t know: you’d been crushing on herever since she entered the dorm room the two of you shared. Her kindeyes had drawn you in upon first sight. But you weren’t eager to makethings weird with a roommate situation the two of you would be stuckin and after the two of you became friends, you didn’t want to muckup that friendship. Her friendship meant the world to you. “Infact, all I can think is how some wine would be great.”

She nodded slightly, pushing you away to get up and rush over tothe fridge. “I just got this amazing shimmery wine,” she said,holding up a bottle with a red, shimmering liquid inside it beforeturning to grab two wine glasses. “I thought we could try ittogether.”

A shimmering wine with a  shimmering woman. “That soundswonderful,” you said, a slight hitch in your voice. “I mean, youcould tell me all about this musical you’re workshopping at thePublic. Rumor has it that whatever you’re working on is going to bebig.”

“Can’t really tell you much. But I can make sure you’re on thelist for previews come January 20,” she said with a light grin asshe handed you a glass full of the shimmering liquid and pouring aglass for herself. It was easy to get the guys who stood in your wayand treated you like some delicate little flower with her around. Shewas like pure sunshine.  “But when you see it, it’ll blow yourmind. It’s a bit wild, though. Most of this we’re literally learningthe same night Lin writes it.”

“That sounds exhausting,” you said as you took a swig of thewine with a slight grimace – it was much sweeter than you’d prefer.Then again, you thought as you looked at Pippa, maybe sweet wasn’t sobad. “Is that why you’ve been so busy lately? I feel I rarely seeyou anymore.”

“You’re one to talk,” she said with a slight smirk and youblushed – it was true. Between each of the demands of the plays andmusicals you’d gotten involved in, you were barely able to squeeze infifteen minutes to sleep. You were lucky the apartment the two of youchose was in the theater district – even if the main reason youwere barely home was to make rent. “I wish you’d let me pay more ofthe rent. I can handle it. It makes me sad to see you so overworked.”

You shook your head – Pippa was already generous enough when itcame to the rent. It was embarrassing enough that you barely couldcover your half. The idea of letting Phillipa pay more had came upseveral times over and the argument always ended the same way. “Ican’t let you do that. I mean, here you are massaging my shouldersand bringing me wine. I feel like I was taking advantage of you if Ilet you pay more. Maybe we should just get another roommate.”

You could never understand why Phillipa was so against the idea –the two of you clearly needed a third to cover the rent. What youdidn’t know is that Pippa didn’t like the idea of sharing yourdowntime with anyone else. “Absolutely not,” she said, farquicker than she’d like to. “We’ve talked about this already,”she started again, this time more gently. “I thought we agreed thatwe have… a sort of… chemistry and adding to the dynamic mightthrow the roommate flow off.”

Her cheeks turned bright pink at the mention of chemistry and yetyou barely noticed it. “It’s just that the rent keeps going up andwe never know if our next paycheck is going to come in. We work intheater for god’s sake,” you said in annoyance. “It’s not likewe’ve got steady television jobs going for us. Bringing in a roommatewho can be counted on to pay rent isn’t the worst idea in the world.I don’t know why you’re so against it! I’ll even have theroommate in my room if the idea of sharing a room is so awful toyou!”

“I’m not against sharing a room,” she said, getting up fromher spot on the couch and turning away from you. You hated when shedid that – it felt like she was doing it specifically to hidesomething big from you. “I mean, I’d rather share a room with youthen let some stranger be in your room where you could get hurt. It’sNew York City – I don’t want to share the place with someone wedidn’t know.”

Your cheeks heated up at the idea of sharing a room with Phillipa– you’d had nice dreams relating to that idea right there. “Well,with any luck, they’d be like us and we’d never see them anyway,”you said, standing up and setting your wine down. You realized yourtolerance must be lower than you remember – your head was alreadyspinning “We’re struggling, Pip. Having a roommate, even if it’stemporary until something pans out proper for us, will help. And thenmaybe I wouldn’t have to be riskin breaking my back carrying huge setpieces all over a stage!”

“It’s not that I want you to risk hurting yourself to make rent!Of course I don’t,” she said as she spun around her, her dark eyesthrowing you off guard – you couldn’t read them like you usuallycould. And she was so close, so much closer than you expected. Youtook a step back. “I just… I don’t… I don’t want to share,okay!”

“You’re being childish,” you said, reclaiming your ground anddrawing yourself up to your full height. “I mean, you share withme! What’s wrong with sharing with another person? What is the bigdifference between me and someone -”

You were cut off the minute her lips were on yours and your eyeswent wide. You thought the imaginations you had of kissing her wouldbe similar to reality but you realized very quickly you were wrong.You could taste the wine still left on her lips and traces of herlipstick. The shock wore of quickly as your own eyes fluttered closedand you reached up to cup her cheek, the other hand on her waist. Youquickly pulled her in closer. You weren’t certain if seconds,minutes, or hours had passed before the two of you broke apart. “Idon’t wanna share you,” she finally said softly.

“Sounds reasonable,” you said softly with a grin. “Though ifwe get a roommate, we can give them my old room and we could share aroom.”

Phillipa’s twinkling laugh was still every bit as beautiful –perhaps even more so on the other side. “I suppose we wouldn’t wantthe second bedroom to go to waste.”

[spheretale]

SphereTale! The Beginning

Mike Main Character

Sila Important/Girl

Marc Important/Boy

Cromoros Violet Monster

XYZ Black Monster

"It's a beautiful day outside. The birds are singing. The flowers are blooming. On days like these kids like you should go out and play with other children!" Mikes mother said to him. "no." Mike responded his mother. "you will go outside NOW!" his mom yelled at him. Mike just stare at her for a while. Blank. Completly empty and right into her soul. "fine."he answered and leaved the house and went to the park nextdoor but he didn't play with other kids like always. He never played with them. He just stared at the ground with no will to do something. One day a girl named Sila noticed Mike sitting and staring at the ground for a while now. She walked towards him and asked "Hiii! How are you?" Mike didn't respond. "I know you can hear me dummy. Stop ignoring me… are you alright?" "What are you trying? Annoying me? Make friends with me? Other things for no reason at all? Don't answer. I don't care." Mike said monotone. Cold as always. "Well yes. Me, Sila! Will be your friend by today. I won't accept a no!" She said full energy. "uh?" Mike was a little confused. "Wait. I'm such a dum-dum! What's your name new friend?" Mike felt a bit more happy for a reason he couldn't understand. "M-Mike. Mike's my name." "Awesome! I like your name. Let's play hide and seek together! You will like it!" Sila tried to convince Mike to play something."No… I don't know. I don't like doing something. You know! No will to do it." Mike felt more warm now. He felt confused and happy because of that girl. ("Is that what it's like to feel. To feel happy?") He thought. "Ugh c'mon please!" She asked with a cute face. "…Ok…OK I'm in!" His will grew. They played games all day and since then they played everyday. Every week. Then a boy named Marc came out of nowhere. "Yo Sila. Who's that?" "Oh this is Mike. Mike. This is Marc!" Sila introduced Marc to Mike. "uh…Hi Marc." "Yo Mike! So… wanna play Something?" Marc asked. "S-sure." Mike respond. Now They played every time. They even had a sleepover at silas house. They loved eachother so much. They were best friends and inseparable! "Guys…I…" Mike tried to say. "Ye Mike. Watcha tryin' to say?" Marc asked Mike. "Thank you both. For the best time in my life… Look at us! Almost six. Time sure went fast i guess… Were starting school in a month!" Mike said to them. "Aw yes! New friends! I CAN'T WAIT!" Sila shouted out exited. "Well it's late. So see you tomorrow guys." They went home. As Mike tried to sleep he saw some weird shadow figures. They starred at Mike. "what's the matter Mike? Are you scared now." "Remember as you didn't felt these stupid feelings you are happy about?" Mike heard two voices in the dark. "G-get out of my head!" Mike cried out. "You were so strong! Even as a child! Now you are weak and a emotional one! We liked you the way you were." "We were friends… but you gave up on us and took stupid. Emotional. Pitty children instead of us." The shadows became a grin that looked like a crack instead of a mouth. "What are you trying. WHAT!? I'M FINALLY HAPPY AND YOU JUST BOTHER ME? THESE ARE GREAT! BEING COLD AND BLANK WAS AWFUL! THERE IS NOTHING BAD IN EMOTIONS!" Mike yelled at the shadows. "Look how the five year old is talking. Just like a grown up! So smart but you are wrong my child." The shadow on the left starts laughing insane. "What if you lose them? Will you feel great after this? If yes then you didn't changed at all! If no congratulations! You just witness the bad side of emotions. You will feel miserable. Your life will become miserable because Life Is Miserable!" The shadows laugh and became bigger and bigger. "STOP!" Mike yelled as loud as he could and woke his mother up "WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING!" She yelled. "Don't do that again." She leaved the room and Mike felt asleep in tears. Next day he waited for his friends to show up but only Sila appeard. With tears in her eyes. "Why are you crying Sila?" Mike asked shaking. He rememberd what the shadows told him. "Mike. I'm here for you. I know you were not alright. That's why I asked you to be my friend. I tried all I could and made it. I'm still suprised but I was happy. I care about you Mike. Never forget that!" She said with a weak voice. "Where is Marc?" Mike sounded colder. His eyes where in tears already knowing what happend. "Marc… I… Mike…" She started crying. "Sila…I'm here for you…" Mike hugged Sila without a expression. He felt nothing for a time but refused. He felt sad and a feeling he never felt. He couldn't describe it. "Mike… don't leave me!" "I think we should go home. This place is full of memories… Funny huh? We are newly six and this is happening. What a bad. Bad. Bad bad day…" Mike and sila hugged each other and cried up for quite a time. As Mike entered his room he saw one violet. Massive creature with a long. Dragon like mouth and a black.Long and extreme slender creature with the crack as mouth. The violet one grabbed the kid. "Remember us? Remember what we told you!? HAHAHAHAHA-" They both started to laugh like maniacs. "What now? Maybe her too-" "NO! PLEASE!... Why are you doing this… to me… WHY ME!?" Mike cried up. "You know why? For our fun. Seeing you like this is just pity. You were such a strong boy and now you cry because you lost someone?" The black creature sounds angry. "Well enjoy the week kid." The creature let go of Mike and left through the ground. The black one left through the wall and left a trace of black goo. Mike fainted. As he woke up he ran outside to meet Sila. He played with her all the week. On Sunday Sila said "Mike. I know this was hard for you. I just wanna say. I love you. I will never leave you. Even if you will never see me again. I will be there for you. Forever!" Sila smiled at Mike but noticed he saw beyond her. She looked behind her. The two creatures where there. Listening while grinning The whole time. "So. You see them?" Sila looked serious. "What..!" Mike was shocked. "I wanted to met you because I felt them inside you. Mike. I don't…I don't have much time left. You know that. Right? You are very important. You are something you can't imagine… I want to tell you more. But my head…Mike…" She hugs Mike for the last time. Mike don't know what to feel. His heart was beating fast and his expression was mixed. He felt it again. The feeling he couldn't describe. Madness. "Mike. I go home now…" Sila looks back at Mike with tears in her eyes but still walked home. Mike was walking slowly and traumaticed in his home. "Hi Mike. I mead muffins…Are you alright? You look like you seen something terrible." His mom asked. Mike didn't noticed her and went into his room. Locked the door and sat on his bed. The creatures as shadows were behind him. Laughing at him. "NOW YOU ARE STRONG! NOW YOU ARE PERFECT!" They keep on laughing but stopped as Mike twitched. "h-ha….Hah-.Ha.Hahaha-HAHAHAHAHA-" Mike laughed insane. Without stopping. His mouth cracked up like the creatures. His mouth went through his whole face. Pure Black inside. His eyes glowing dark Violet. As he laughed black goo poured out his eyes and his mouth. A weird Dragon Skull appeared and looked at the creatures. He laughed and laughed and as his body was covered by the vantablack goo he fainted for 1 day. As he woke up. His emotions left. He didn't felt anything anymore. Not even cold. He was empty. Like a Void. To his suprise the time stopped while he fainted. The time is the same. Not even a second pasted. He sat on his bed until tomorrow and went out then. Sila or Marc didn't shown up. He gave up fast and went home. The year was over. He is now 6 years old. School begins.