#how do we feel about a Mountain with dermatillomania?

[autumnblooms]

Still thinking about Mountain with anxiety and the weight of the world on him, but how he’d never let his pack see that. But all that energy has to go somewhere, and while beating the shit out of his drums helps, in down time he’ll often end up zoning out and picking the skin off his fingertips. Aether was always good at catching him doing it and would use a bit of quintessence magic to help snap him out of it, but with Aether gone Dew has been trying his best to look out for him. If he catches Mountain doing it he’ll just put a gentle, warmer than normal hand over his hands and give him a smile he doesn’t let too many see.

[ninokied]

Nobody tagged me but i wanted to do it

LAST

1) Drink: coffee

2) Phone call: one hour ago with my dad to ask him if i could borrow the car ^^

3) Text message: we shouldn’t go too high in the mountain cause there’s still snow

4) Song listened to: Sure Fire Winners - Adam Lambert

5) Time you cried: i... have no idea. Two weeks ago maybe? not too recently i’d say

HAVE YOU EVER

6) Dated somebody twice: certainly not.

7) Been cheated on: don’t think so. Considering the astronomical number of my dating experiences and my aromantism, i don’t think i would even care.

8) Kissed someone and regretted it: nah

9) Lost someone special: well if growing apart from friends counts, then ye i did. otherwise no.

10) Been depressed: yea. ummm approximately two months ago actually.

11) Gotten drunk and puked: nope

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS

12) Deep purple

13) any shade of blue

14) green emerald

IN THE LAST YEAR YOU HAVE YOU

15) Made new friends: ye

16) Fallen out of love: nah

17) Laughed until you cried: i think yes

18) Found out someone was gossiping about you: uhhh don’t think anybody would bother gossiping on me. But i found out someone was saying shit on me so i guess it counts

19) Met someone who changed your life: yes

20) Found out who your true friends are: well i already knew my true friends

21) Kissed someone on your Facebook list: lmao no

HOW MANY/MUCH

22) Facebook friends: 40 maybe??? i hardly care

23) Pets: 2 cats and 2 kittens!

24) Want to change your name: yes but only to write it differently

WHAT

25) Did I get for my birthday: money

26) Time I woke up: around 7am

27) Were you doing at midnight: reading fanfiction

28) Can’t you wait for: THE END OF THE SEMESTER!! also my possible admission to an engineering school. And for my mom to come out of the hospital

29) Was the last time you saw your mom: on sunday

30) Was something you wish you could change about your life: welp I wish i didn’t have anxiety&dermatillomania but heh! well let’s say i wish i could already pass for my gender. And also i wish i could change my assigned gender as “neutral” but that doesn’t exist. and changing it would be both terribly complicated and awful for my mental health. Fuck you France and your institutional transphobia. You suck.

31) Are you listening to right now: A Loaded Smile by Adam Lambert

32) Gets on your nerves: REGS, Straights, Cis and neurotypicals. THE FUCKIN GUY RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR CLASS

33) Talked to a person named Tom: yes

34) Is your most visited website: ao3 probably. followed by youtube and tumblr.

35) Elementary school/primary school: one in my home town

36) High School: one in my home town too

37) College: IUT of Grenoble

38) Hair colour: blue/green my guy

39) Long/short hair: very short

40) Crush: hAHA

41) Do you like about yourself: urgh i’m too lazy to list. I guess i like my looks sometimes? my hair is pretty awesome. And i’m somehow not too bad now at talking to people so. good?

42) Piercings: I WIsH

43) Blood type: no idea

44) Nickname: Ninok

45) Relationship status: single

46) Zodiac: gemini

47) Pronouns: they/them, iel for french people

48) Favourite show: i don’t know

49) Tattoos: i also wish

50) Left or right handed: right

FIRST

51) Surgery: I got stitches several times (over my cranium, and my chin, don’t remember the others) and also casts but i don’t know if it counts

52) Piercings: ear lobes, they’re somehow still there tho i never wear earrings

53) Best friend: a girl in elementary school, Lucy

54) Sport: gymnastics

55) Vacation: hooo boy no idea. we did a lot so ?

56) Pair of shoes: ???

RIGHT NOW

57) Eating: chocolate

58) Drinking: coffee

59) I am about to: cry and maybe work

60) Listening to: Sleepwalker, Adam Lambert

61) Waiting for: heh?

62) Want to see: nothing in particular

63) Want to get married: welllll for financial perks maybe

64) Career: software developer maybe

WHICH IS BETTER

65) Hugs/kisses: hugs

66) Lips/eyes: eyes

67) Taller/shorter: don’t care

68) Younger/older: i don’t care either

69) Romantic/spontaneous: spontaneous

70) Nice arms/nice stomach: who cares?

71) Sensitive/loud: sensitive

72) Hookup/relationship: hookups

73) Troublemaker/hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER

74) Kissed a stranger: no

75) Drank hard liquor: yes

76) Lost glasses/contact lenses: don’t need them so no

77) Turned someone down: yes

78) Canoodling on a first date: no

79) Broken someone’s heart: yea

80) Had your own heart broken: no

81) Been arrested: thank god no

82) Cried when someone died: for a fictional character ya

83) Fallen for a friend: nnot really since my feelings weren’t romantic

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

84) Yourself: sometimes

85) Miracles: no

86) Santa Claus: no

87) Kisses on a first date: if you want to i don’t see why not?

88) Angels: no

89) Love at first sight: no

OTHER

90) Best friend’s name: UMMMM ASHLEY I’M GONNA SAY tho it’s more best frond

91) Eye colour: brown

92) Favourite movie: dunno