#hshm

[krakqet]

He stings like he means it - he's mean and he's mine.

Moodboard for a wonderful ao3 fanfiction. Or, how i imagine it.

[thingintheroad]

read 'he stings like he means it' yesterday

@gali-in-distress thank you (⁠╯⁠︵⁠╰⁠,⁠) its so beautifully writtennnn

[gali-in-distress]

If you already read the latest chapter of "He stings like he means it (He's mean and he's mine)", then you've met my OC Diego. I absolutely love him and I would like to share some things about him.

First thing, I came up with the idea for him ages ago and even though he (sadly) only got one apparition in my story me and @laurelwen have talked lots about him. I love all my OCs (not you Enzo) but he's one of my favorites for sure.

The description of Diego's physical appearance in HSHM is heavily based on René ZZ, an Spanish YouTuber who's content is mostly dedicated to Tattoos.

He's gotten into bodybuilding so I'm mostly going for the way he looked a couple of years ago, much younger and leaner.

The two main reasons why I started thinking about Diego with René in mind were the fact that he's Spanish so I could imagine his accent very clearly, but most importantly, the Cathedral tattoo:

I just thought that Alex would love that

[warriorfujoshi]

BEST GIRL!!! …and tamamori 😑

[laurelwen]

This week on "He stings like he means it":

[potonuce]

where the fuck are the minatama extras???

[chocochococoffee]

did yet another frogman with boobs but i need to fix the color of his arms and his hand themselves so the true beauty will be revealed after i stop drawing like i was in a fever dream

[betaboks]

Doing oc asks over on Twitter (mister Yukio Amamiya is not mine he’s my good friend Taro’s)

[monsteradmirer]

Playing more hshm. Vince you are evil for that dn

[rueria]

hshm thoughts

things that fuck me up about tmmr (this devolved into just hcs lmao):

1. him dying 22 times to kws somehow. why. what. how did mnkm fail 22 times. like ik he was still a kid but like. 22 times.

2. him not knowing how to swim and just. letting himself drown when he's in water. at least struggle my guy

3. him not stepping on any puddles for 2 years bc he didn't want his shoes to get dirty (biting my fcking fist—)

4. him somehow not looking at any mirror for years to notice his eyes became blue?? i don't remember the reason for this one

5. him getting carried away in his hallucinations, this guy probably got into many accidents as a kid. (or not, since he's got ppl looking after him) (i think i remember apparently mnkm's the one who was always getting into accidents and tmmr would usually look after him)

6. him covering for kws. he wouldn't tell who the kappa was. and even if kws killed mnkm, he'd still cover for him. what. (ever think about how tmmr basically tried to let himself die in front of kws, knowing he'd stop him. ever think about tmmr going to meet that kappa despite the heavy rain and the midnight hour and mnkm's warnings) (in a way, you could say tmmr chose kws over mnkm 22 times) (maybe this is part of why mnkm is so reluctant to just fcking talk with him lmao) (and then their positions are reversed like ten years later...)

7. (maybe kind of a stretch) each route has him 'chaining' someone to him with smth more tangible than simply love. with mnkm, it's his stories. with kws, it's the hashihime. with hnzw, it's hell. with hks, it's his eye. (i don't wanna think about kaoru route sorry)

8. apparently it's bc of the hashihime obscuring his feelings for mnkm(?) but bro. guy just wants friends, man. he's too selfish and egoistic and dense to actually connect with people (which is why he's a perfect fit for the hashihime) until the shopkeeper literally had to force him to face his own flaws. but like. i want him to meet more people that aren't in love with him lol.

9. guy was asked to write about love, writes fcking hardcore smut, like. it's funny but also sad somehow?? brother.

10. if not his writings, then what else could another person love about him?

11. his feelings about his parents' deaths (also grandma's in mnkm's route). specifically how did he feel about his mother? for a decade, he thought "she left" and abandoned him, and it's only mnkm's route that he finds out what rly happened to her. is this why he's so desperate to cling to other ppl so they don't leave him—

12. and re: 4th point: is that why he never looked at his reflections long enough to realize his eyes literally became blue, bc looking at his face reminds him of his mom—

12.5. and knowing him, he probably didn't cry over his mother's disappearance or shown grief over it externally, and imagine how that would've made mnkm feel

12.6. "minakami really is a good friend. he couldn't even lie to his friend and tell him his mother will come back."

12.7. and did he think his mother left bc he did smth wrong? bc she was fed up with him? bc she didn't love him enough to stay?

12.8. "when my mother left, she took the umbrella she gave me, as if to erase any proof that she existed."

12.9. tmmr unconsciously trying to suppress all memories of his mother

13. him just being ridiculously and uncannily good at forgetting things in general.

14. sometimes i think about how unreal his dad's death is (being killed by a bear) and i wonder if there's smth more sinister that his mom and grandma just decided to shield him from

14.5 also the parallel of his dad getting killed by a bear and him getting killed by a kappa...

15. on that note. if you think about it, if the hashihime didn't exist from the beginning, tmmr would have really just died, huh. the only reason he's alive is that mnkm loved him enough to keep trying.

16. does tmmr have schizophrenia? or some form of psychosis? and schizophrenia is highly likely to be hereditary...

17. he hates himself and can't trust anyone who likes/loves him unconditionally... is that why hakase makes him uncomfortable afgsjdk

[ionights]

hshm pokemon parody...............2 !!!

[mxnsters-by-nxture-archive]

so....

(CW: Really harsh language ahead- I will be nothing but honest here, and, trust me, fellas; this bitch is gonna go OFF. Apologies in advance.)

oh and please don’t rb

time to answer some questions. Before I abandon this blog for good and leave it decaying in a river; exposing only half its flesh for the flies, maggots, and harsh weather as its preserved, soggy, gooey half in water remains as a testament of what has become of this blog and AU as a whole.

let’s just...get this over with.

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-Are you Yorsh/Yorshs/DumbPointyAnimeShades?

No, I am not, nor am I nowhere near associated with Yorsh and the development of Heinoustuck- though I have helped with providing details and resources needed for its fanmade continuation, Heinoustuck^2: Mutation Continuation prior to falling out due to drama within the server, as well as the archival of said information on epoch-of-transmutation and a now-defunct OC blog I once had.

While I feel kiiiiinda flattered by the assumption, I also feel like I’m robbing Yorsh of the support they deserve. So, go search for their socials and give them all your sweet messages. I’m the last person deserving of it.

-What has gone down in the HS^2 server?

Short answer: Slurs were thrown by the mods, and several users, myself included, left over it.

Long answer....that’s a private one. The details of what has happened is shared between my friends and I, and I don’t know if I really do want to make this information public.

What I will say is that after one of the mods, who is evidently young, said a certain slur, another mod, whom I will call “S” came to their defense; keep in mind that, iirc, S is a 22-23 year old, while the other mod is in their young teens. S went on to berate us- claiming that we need thicker skin and that “they managed to go through life by becoming like Vriska” and that we are all a bunch of Tavroses, while spicing their rant with the N-word (S is not a black person- they have shown us their selfies). It was after they called one of the users calling them out the same N word (but with the hard “r” this time), that I packed my shit and left.

I have even more details surrounding this, but, as I said, I’m not chill rn with sharing this publicly (though I will do so via DMs towards individuals whom I REALLY trust). However, in spite of S’ actions, please don’t direct your anger towards Ivanodery; they are a 13 year old kid on the net and, thanks to S’ influence, are bound to mess up. The LAST thing they deserve is harassment and harsh words thrown at them. What they NEED is GUIDANCE. If you REALLY want to throw fling some shit using a slingshot, direct it towards S.

-What will become of HSHM?

HSHM is now officially cancelled. Discontinued. Finito. The project is deader than dead- reduced to cracked bone shards piercing the earth.

I am no longer comfortable with anything and everything Pokemon anymore; its fanbase has always been a source of strife for me, as I often found myself in drama with other users on the net- users whom are almost a decade older than me, ever since G6 (when I was barely 13 fucking years old, yikes...).

It was after BringBackNationalDex, after witnessing the harassment my acquaintances faced from the movement and the subsequent anxiety attacks and fake memories that followed - literally believing that it’s best if I was dead than be surrounded by Dexers and get “eaten” by their vast numbers swallowing me whole - that it was enough. My attacks had my friends concerned, and they even begged me to leave the fanbase and franchise in a ditch for my own sake.

While it was a sad decision to make, and it wasn’t easy trying to get over a line of video games that was there for me ever since I was a child - i felt like there were chains of memories (no pun intended) keeping my bound to the games -, I’ve managed to finally stop giving a fuck about it all over time. Every news of a new Pokemon game being released only makes me feel unimaginable, deep dread, and I don’t want this to be my fucking eternity, damn it.

They want to keep on bowing down to a Poketuber who, time and time again, showcased deep-running transphobia, racism, cop-boot-licking, and even antisemitism (DISTANTKINGDOM)? Fffffffine by fucking me! I am just gonna stop myself right here, because I know I might throw in even less-tastier words the more I talk about this. Fuck me.

-Will you still be there in the Heinoustuck community?

I don’t know.

I just....I wish I had the answer, myself. It has been a part of me, but I also feel like it’s kinda best if I try to move on? I just can’t find the words for what I am feeling rn.

The archives will still be up, don’t get me wrong. However, if S finds this post and sends their widdle goons after me....guess it’s time to say “bye-bye” to it.

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I know these aren’t all the questions that you may have, and I am ready to answer more as long as they aren’t related to the AU itself- as I said, it’s discontinued, and I don’t want to return to it for the betterment of my own mental health and out of self-respect.

Hasta la vista, ya squares.

[gali-in-distress]

Nigel's camera roll:

Alex's camera roll:

Mostly in the universe of my story HSHM

[warriorfujoshi]

[laurelwen]

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Pieta (image comparison)

Song Gifs - Pictures of You Part 1 and Part 2

DVD Behind the Scenes Gifs Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

This is how I would die (cursed image/quote edit)

He is Trying to Kill You (image/quote edit)

I Will Never Leave Him (He Stings Like He Means It edit)

Josh = Bunny (The Secret History image/quote edit)

Love is a Blade (web weave)

Imagine: Alex Forbes (image/quote edit)

HSHM Chapter 1: More Than Life Has to Offer (fan edit)

The Sins of the Father (image/quote edit)

Nigel Colbie Expressions (gifs)

Drowning/Burning (image/quote edit)

Always in the Blood (image/quote edit)

Through Me (The Flood) (image/lyric edit)

HSHM Chapter 2: I've Got You Under my Skin (fan edit)

Let Me Go Mad (web weave)

Monstrous Love (web weave)

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