#i am done with being treated liket his

[hilli98215]

I thought I would explain why I was feeling like a failure of a teacher a few days ago. But first, thank you for the kind words and for reminding me why I'm in education in the first place.

But I am literally fuming and I understand why there is a teacher shortage.

I applied for 3 different English Language Arts positions at my school and was denied all three. I would have been in my field (English) and be able to teach either 7th or 8th grade. But by being denied 3 times I was then told that the teacher I worked with for the 2021-2022 school year would also be leaving. Everything was coming down on me and I was thinking of leaving my school. And this is a thought I was going to follow through with anyway but work at my building until the end of the school year. Then I got a phone call from my principal telling me there is a position open that is not only ELA but also ESE (working with students with learning disabilities though there is more to it). This position was going to be a challenge with me being a push-in for 2 periods (going into the classroom), a standard period, an inclusion period (where the students are half learning disabled and nonlearning disabled), and an advanced period. I would be responsible for the classes I would be teaching and that's it. It was my one opportunity and I was determined to take the challenge.

Notice the was in that paragraph.

Earlier Sunday morning I received an email from my principal asking me if it was true that I was out of field (teaching out of my certification) for ESE and Reading for the 2019/2020 school year. And that it would be impossible to hire me out of field once more for the same subject as per county rules. First of all, as many of you remember, 2019/2020 was the year of COVID and was a year of hell for me. That was the year where I disappeared from Tumblr due to being so busy and where I taught high school. It was terrible and not an experience I want to repeat. That was the year when every state was doing virtual learning for the last half of the year. The school I was at let me go and I had a difficult time finding a teaching job for the 2020/2021 school year and had no choice but become a teacher's assistant. Which I mean worked in the end since I was able to complete other parts of the certificate which included taking college courses and completing a portfolio for the state. Anyway, that was over 3 years ago. I can barely remember that year. But because I was already out of field once I can't be out of field again for the same subjects. It is also per Florida Statute and is something I can't fight. My choice is either take the tests or never teach those subjects.

I spent my Sunday crying and doubting myself. I was so sure I was going to get the position but was told that I can't.

By the way, my principal asked me about the position before asking Human Resources about my availability and told me she was going to check with me on Monday but sent me this email on Sunday. They did it backward and it took me several days to realize that.

Monday it was confirmed by Human Resources that I have to decline this position due to the Florida statute.

If I were to get this email before my principal sent theirs, I would have understood.

I am frustrated and have made the decision to leave the school by December for a teaching position. I am done with being treated like this and I am going to pass every test I need to be a teacher in my state.

I am done with being an assistant to the teacher. I am going to be the teacher.