#i cant be vunlerable unless i can do that. any all my smut would be same-y in that aspect ig | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

wooahaes · 2 years

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anyway if anyone wants like. a fluffy domestic thing that they typically see get turned into smut, hmu. like, the reason i originally drafted the bathing together reactions a few weeks ago was bc i wanted a soft domestic version of tht kind of thing.

it felt like every time i try to seek it out, theres sexual implications and maybe i literally just want to take a shower w someone and have it stay a shower. no sex involved or expected. i like the idea of being able to share an intimate moment like bathing together without the fear that ill get pressured into sex when my stressed ass just wants to be close to someone.

#wooahaes.txt #maybe thts why like. i dont really care much for writing smut outright. sex is something extremely intimate to me #ik its not the same way for everyone #i just have to know im not getting used again so i have to 100% trust the other person #i cant be vunlerable unless i can do that. any all my smut would be same-y in that aspect ig #like yes it should bd consensual from all sides but sometimes i just… get scared.#its stupid lol its just trauma victim brain speaking sorry #ill get over it one day and be more normal hopefully #or ill just die alone bc i doubt anyone would ever wait for me to get comfortable #i had a formwr friend tell me ppl on average have sex by the third date. i cant do that. guess ill just did alone-

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