hotel room, tokyo.
oK ;3; fsnfjsdfnjs i hope you you have a nice trip back home tomorrow then! you really have to travel a lot for your job omg o3o i can see that being nice bc different environments and such!! o3o bUT YO. she's pushing his buttons and he's just "dONT TOUCH ME" like im shaken. i forgot how awful marie can be. JuLIEN MY SON THOUGH OHMYGOD. i can finally spoil that one of the few pictures seen in the dispatch post are them holding hands. and ofc the going in hotel. so there is one thing julien can cri over. IM SO HURT.
OUO thank you! It's nice to go home but lol it's a little perk. I told Beth I was like IM SORRY I DONT FLY THIS MUCH FOR WORK THEY JUST NEED HELP I AM SORRY FOR HIATUS AFTER HIATUS. Also ugh Marie. Julien will legit cry ok. Like he's so sad when dax is all drunk and "hahhh yeah he went home with this pretty little thing. don't be surprised if he looks exhausted in the morning, she was hot af." And Jules is just /strained smile "....o-oh. good to know. goodnight." and he's just in the hotel hallway in pajamas getting a drink from the vending machine ok, he was not expecting this. he just goes back to his room and curls up and cries bc /wow ok maybe I was looking too much into it and he actually doesn't like me in that way lol what did I expect why am I crying in bed/ and tbh had he been drinking he probably would have pulled a Jerome and called Jerome's phone and left drunken voicemails of him crying and blubbering something incoherent
BUT RIIP NNOOO oHMYGOD im SO IN PAIN. but at the same time. all those realizations. Like why IS he crying over the fact that Jerome with a girl. Like. WHY. if they were /just/ very close friends it wouldn't be like this. and omg. pulling a jerome. if he would still be at maries hotel he would feel his phone buzzing in his backpocket. if its during his cab ride back he cant seem to answer the phone, his vocal cords not letting him, nor does his mind. omg he'd listen to it probably the second he wakes up from his broken sleep because of his alarm he didn't turn off. He'd see the many missed calls and left voicemails. He'd swallow loudly and listen quickly becAUSE WHY DID JULIEN CALL HIM? DID SOMETHING HAPPEN TO HIM? DID MARIE JUST KEEP HIM AWAY FROM HIM? and he'd hear him crying. marie hatred intensifies because he couldn't be there for julien omg and jerome just rushes out of his hotelroom to juliens. he asks idols walking around were he is and then insert them seeing each other wow
TBH. He's devastated at Jerome leaving with a girl but also upset at the fact that he's so hurt over it bc WHY SHOULD HE BE HURT HE SHOULD BE HAPPY JEROME FOUND SOMEONE. And Julien would have great technique when pulling a Jerome ok. He cries into the phone and Jerome's inbox is full and Julien's battery is dead and he fell asleep but woke up a little hungover with puffy eyes. He would instead just clean himself up and throw on his glasses and blame his allergies and sinuses ("Julien it's autumn there are no plants out" "I said it's allergies >>") but he'd prob be holed up in his room until he needs to be at the stadium. Jerome would probably find him as he's opening the door to put the room service tray outside and it's just them looking like shit but looking at each other and Julien just "...." /sniffles and straightens out while looking at Jerome "what's up?" And he's trying so hard to act like he's unbothered, like he didn't just bawl into his cellphone a few hours ago
ohmYGOD. It's such a confusing time because Julien doesn't have his feelings sorted out as clearly as Jerome has. (which only grew after that night let me tell u) and these feelings hit him and omg. bUT the blowing up of Jerome's phone. You don't knOW. how far his heart is up his throat because of the notifications on his phone screen. and ugh. He'd be so panicked. He could almost faint. All this added pressure to his brain wow. But when they see each other, and Jerome is just stood there staring at him, noticing the puffy eyes, the sniffles, staring straight through the façade, before a snap, a switch goes off in his mind that makes him drag the other back inside of his hotelroom, a total disregard of asking for permission and the door isn't even closed yet Jerome is holding his arm maybe a bit too tightly, standing close as he talks "Are you okay? Why did you call me? Did something happen? Tell me." and he'd say that in a string of words without a breath being taken, looking at him so intensely that wOW. He's in a weird place in his mind rn so he's all on edge and that also means on edge with emotional things and CARE INTENSIFIES.
TBH Julien's feelings are all just a gray puddle. He can't even begin to sift through all his emotions he just knows that he needs Jerome in his life. His eyes would go wide, a tiny gasp escaping as Jerome pulls him back inside with the door shutting behind them. Julien would look up at him, tears starting to well up in his eyes a little but he blinks them away and clears his throat. He can't hold Jerome's gaze rn, bc he will prob end up crying again. "Nothing happened. Just got drunk and lonely. Happens all the time." And he'd he'd move to wiggle his arm out of Jerome's grasp, gaze to his feet while clutching his arm. "I'm sorry if I bothered you last night with my calls, I guess you really were busy." mumbling softly. "But you don't have anything to worry about." It's so out of character for him because he's usually the type to just address things and be blunt about it to clear the air but things are always different when it comes to Jerome.
I'm in pAIN. The fact that he isn't telling him directly what is going on is very reminiscent, only with the roles reversed and Jerome gets a taste of how Julien felt when he couldn't admit he was falling in love with him. And Jerome is scared, the string of voicemails left on his phone having him in a panic. There is tension in his jaw again, but not in the way it had been when he was eye to eye with his ex. It's in the way of biting back emotions, seeing his eyes turn teary before his gaze left him. "You don't just cry without a reason when you're drunk and lonely." He says, voice just above a whisper as he looks at him with such a caring look that Julien misses when he looked away. "I should know." Admitting this, he searches for his eyes as he counters Juliens attempts to escape his hold by taking a hold of his other arm as well. "Tell me." He demands but there is a wavering in his voice, allowing his voice to grow softer and a bit more desperate. "Tell me please, I already regretted this night, don't make me regret it more." And he says that without thought, "Tell me why you called. Tell me why you cried." Julien looks at him then, whether its due to himself or due to Jerome cupping his chin and tilting his gaze up. "Tell me why you needed me." oh wow i wanted pain anyways
TBH it's actually their positions in reverse and it's literally the same reason too I'm crying. And Julien hates that Jerome is trying to reason with him about it. "Well I was drunk and alone so I felt lonely," he'd counter. Julien would bite on his lip, blinking to keep his tears from falling even more, and his gaze would fall on the way Jerome's hands grip onto his arms. He just needs a little coaxing to finally let his thoughts escape but he's still stubborn and he shakes his head when Jerome first asks him to tell him. He shakes his head again when Jerome asks him to tell him why he called and cried. And finally the third time Jerome asks him and Julien can turn away his resolve finally crumbles, tears starting to fall and "I was upset that you left with her!" he'd reply, covering his face to try and wipe his eyes "dax told me you went home with her and you didn't pick up and I-" and he'd stop bc he's starting to shake and sob and "I was upset, okay? Is that the answer you were looking for? The answer you wanted?" And ok yeah pain it just hit me heaves
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do all the "send me a number, yo" asks!!!!!
You got it dude.
Under the cut bc its long!
1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?I’m afriad that im making the wrong long term career decision.
2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
No, but I wake up right next to her so we say it in person
3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
Nah as long as she’s safe about it.
4: Do you find it easy to trust others?
Depends on the vibe I get from them.
5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?
Playing BOTW
6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
Hopefully my partner
7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
I dont even know. I would be so crushed and angry.
8: Are you close with your dad?
Nope
9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
Yep! My girl.
10: What are you listening to?
My partner tapping her foot to music
11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
Blue gatorade
12: Do you like hickeys?
Love ‘em
13: What time do you go to bed?
Between 1 and 3am
14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
Nah
15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
Nope
16: Do you always answer your texts?
For the most part
17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
No. She’s the best thing thats ever happened to me.
18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
20 ish mins ago
19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
Ye, my girl
20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
“God my hip hurts”
21: Is anyone else in the room with you?
Yeah, several. I’m at school.
22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?
I hope it does.
23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
No. I was at the beginnings of a depressive episode.
24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
Sorta?
25: In the past week, have you cried?
Yeah.
26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
Maroon.
27: Do people ever call you by your last name?
Nope.
28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?
Not as far as I know
29: Do you have a best friend?
Several
30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
It’d be devastating considering I’m dating the last person I kissed.
31: Who was your last call/text message from?
Both from my Mom
32: Are you mad at anyone?
I’ll always be lowkey mad at my dad.
33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes, once
34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
23
35: How many more days until your birthday?
87
36: Do you have any summer plans yet?
Work
37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
Ye.
38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
Nope
39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
I dont think so
40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
Lowkey, but not really.
41: Do you think age matters in relationships?
To an extent, yeah.
42: Are you available?
Nope!
43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
Since it ended? One. And Im with her now.
44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
Probably a second lip piercing. Maybe tongue.
45: Do you believe exes can be friends?
Depends on the circumstances but yes.
46: Do you regret anything?
Yeah but not so much that I would want to go back and change it
47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
My health
48: Did you ever lose a best friend?
I feel like I sorta half lost one. We still chat, but its not like it used to be and its probably my fault.
49: Was your last kiss a mistake?
Not at all.
50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
I already did and it was a success. : )
51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
Several times
52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
Every day
53: What was the last thing you ate?
Apple slice
54: Did you get any compliments today?
Not yet
55: Where are you going on your next vacation?
God I have no idea. Maybe Idaho Springs?
56: Do you own anything from other countries?
I mean most things are made in China so???
57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?
Most of them are outside the binary, but lean towards female.
58: Where have you lived most of your life?
Colorado
59: When was the last time you took a long drive?
Can’t remember
60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
Nope
61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?
Nope
62: Who do you text the most?
Either my Mom or my partner.
63: What was the last movie you saw?
Would You Rather
64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
Idk, they love me I guess?
65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?
None.
66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
Yeah by like a year ish.
67: Do you curse around your parents?
I try not to
68: Are you happy with where you live?
Decently so. Its messier than I’d like, but 4 college students live there, so what can you do?
69: Picture of yourself?
Will post separately.
70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?
I prefer monogamy because I’m easily jealous, but under very certain circumstances, I’d be willing to try polyamory.
71: Have you ever been dumped?
Nah.
72: What do you most like about making out?
Tongue ;P
73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?
Kissed, yes. Made out, no.
74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?
I’ve only done it once, and I initiated.
75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?
The crease where thigh meets butt, hands, neck, legs lol
76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
My partner
77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?
Nope
78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?
Nope
79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?
When I wake up to her smiling at me
80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?
Depends on the age of said child
81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?
My current partner, yeah.
82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?
Nah, only like one person
83: Do you miss your last sweetie?
I always miss her
84: Last time you slow danced with someone?
Probably about a month ago in our living room
85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?
Nope
86: How can I win your heart?
Someone already has it. But personality is everything.
87: What is your astrological sign?
Libra
88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Getting ready for bed
89: Do you cook?
Not as much as Id like
90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?
Not really an old flame, but an old friend yeah
91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
Not single
92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
Monogamy
93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
Physical traits dont really matter. Its more a personality thing for me
94: Name four things that you wish you had!
A dick, the willpower to lose weight, a higher wage, another iced coffee
95: Are you a player?
Not really.
96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?
I dont think so
97: Are you a tease?
Yeah, but only with her
98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?
I think so. Probably at a con
99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?
Currently am
100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?
Only the gal Im currently dating
101: Hugs or Kisses?
Hugs
102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Most of the time yeah lol
103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Idk, voice? Smile?
104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
Ye
105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?
NOOOOOOOOO
106: Do you flirt a lot?
Kinda lol
107: Your last kiss?
My gal
108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?
Nope
109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
Ye
110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?
The girl to my left
111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?
Absolutely
112: Does someone like you currently?
I hope so!
113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
Yes indeed
114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Serious only. I dont see the point in a fling.
115: Ever made out with just a friend?
Made out, no, kissed, ye.
116: Are you happier single or in a relationship
It depends. Id say Im happier with her than I have been in a great long while.?
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