#i do rounds of the yard and gather any loose trash or string i think could maybe possibly hurt them
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There's a perch right above the heater with a weighted blanket lying on it, and a view of the entire bed, waiting for my cats.
Its been open for weeks but they never used it. Then my senior cat went to sleep there, looking out over her entire family. She never woke up.
That day my other cat groomed my hair for 30 minutes straight, and has slept in that spot constantly since.
#animals#idk it makes me happy but it also upsets me#i set up that perch for them knowing theyd love it and i was so confused they werent laying there#and so happy when she did - its warm and safe and looks out over the rest of us#she was always happier just a little removed from the direct chaos and cuddling#and now i see him there and i smile#but im also so scared#my anxiety rules my life#and its always fixated on the animals#if im doing enough for them if im keeping them safe#i do rounds of the yard and gather any loose trash or string i think could maybe possibly hurt them#i collect every hemlock plant and dispose of them#my cats dont even go outside#i have everything toxic locked away#but she never ever ate anything but her food#i keep going over it again and again what could I have seen what could I have done differentl6#but she was so fine#she was healthy and happy and had no changes in behavior and was asking for and happily eating food and asking for pets and purring a storm#she was healthy and happy and then she went to sleep and she was gone#i dont understand#i dont underdtand#and my anxiety - which has always been obsessed w this possibility and has nightmares about my friends partner or just dying out of the blue#is going off the rails bc if i can be so hypervigilant and check and recheck everything and she can still just go to sleep#and never wake up#whats stopping all the others from it#whats stopping my other cat from neever moving from thst spot again#i know she was old i know but i thought she still had so long i just dont understand#and if i dont understand how can i keep ot from happeniny again how can i oeep them safe
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