#my anxiety rules my life

[angelwings-crossbowstrings]

[cascadianights]

There's a perch right above the heater with a weighted blanket lying on it, and a view of the entire bed, waiting for my cats.

Its been open for weeks but they never used it. Then my senior cat went to sleep there, looking out over her entire family. She never woke up.

That day my other cat groomed my hair for 30 minutes straight, and has slept in that spot constantly since.

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

im not autistic but i believe in their beliefs (because i share like 80 % of symptoms typical for autistic women with yall)

[chanrizard]

anxiety is stored in your chest sometimes in your gut and sometimes in both places as a little treat

[altschmerzes]

it's just that sometimes you're so... impossibly happy and full of so much incredible joy that you gotta post about it on the internet otherwise you may get on the roof with a bullhorn yknow.

[clawsextended]

on a note to all: my plotting style is something i like to call i have adhd and if i see you on the dash and have an idea chances are i’ll im you about it. i’m an anxious little dude who isn’t always active in a broad scope, and it’s always been my nature to reach out to people. that doesn’t make me even remotely anxious. not even remotely expected to answer me — i totally get it, sometimes you don’t feel the vibe — but a general psa about how i work. i come from the dinosaur era where the only way to communicate with one another on any level was to directly talk to them and frankly i don’t even know how else you’re ever supposed to plot with a person otherwise. like… how do you write if you never talk????

[olibavee]

enda my friend enda...in an outfit i was mindlessly doodling

[whentherewerebicycles]

question: when you're starting a new job, what do you most want out of your first week of onboarding? what's most helpful for you to know/understand upfront? also... what's not helpful? tell me your onboarding nightmare stories too lol

[somewhere-rich]

at this stage of my life, I am my own therapist, I am my own psychiatrist, and I am my own counselor.

[giantkillerjack]

Ya know. I spent most of my life with horrible painful soul-crushing social anxiety.

And after about 25 years of continuous hard work, suddenly, people started pointing out - to my utter bafflement - that I had, in fact, achieved my lifelong dream of being charismatic. I'm 29 now; I feel comfortable in most social situations, and it is a very rare person whom I cannot make laugh.

I am, undoubtedly, finally, charismatic.

But do you know what I found?

I found that now that I have an understanding of which social rules serve which functions -- Now that I have an understanding of just how much damage my awkwardness was doing to people, well,

I found that, actually, my awkwardness never really hurt anyone at all. People were just judgmental dicks to me about it.

Now that I have the skill-level to (most of the time) creatively vocalize what is in my head as soon as I think it and without fear, I can confirm once and for all what I had always suspected:

I was worth talking to when I was quiet.

I was worth talking to when I was awkward, and when the words in my head took time and patience to hear, and when most of my jokes didn't land. I was worth talking to the whole time.

So I just... I hope that if you've ever wondered whether you are worth communicating with, the answer is yes. Absolutely yes. Each of us has a soul worth sharing - and if you and I were talking, I would happily wait for you to speak (or communicate in other ways) without condescending, and I would never shame you for that harmless awkwardness that so many people feel the need to violently stomp out.

You are worth talking to. You just are. And you deserve people who will speak to you with kindness, with patience, and with the basic immutable respect owed to all people.

(I talk about this with some frequency, both on tumblr and in real life. At some point, maybe I'll gather all my thoughts on the matter into one post. At some point, I wrote about my personal experience trying to build my social skill. But I felt the need to say at least a little bit tonight after seeing this other lovely post, and I'm glad I did. It will happen again.)

[katyobsesses]

It's 2:20am and despite my wants I didn't write anything. Did some edits though, which is kinda writing. But wow that stupid argument really leached all of my energy huh?

[lanaevyssmoved]

God Gake and empy threesome when

thinking.

thinking

thiiinkknkingngngg

i dont think theyd be into it

[koishua]

you either die a hero (deactivate) or live long enough to see yourself become the villain (me watching the k-tumblrina kids fighting and laughing maniacally on top of a tall building)

[killthefuckinglights]

finally got the balls to tell my therapist about my sex work today lol idk why I haven't told her. I've told a lot of people in my life, but for some reason, I thought she'd judge me even tho she's never judged me before.

literally all she asked was if I felt safe doing it, if I felt exploited doing it, and if I felt like I could leave it if i really wanted to. and then she was like "hey, that's great!!" and I just love my therapist so much 🥹

[barkingangelbaby]

okay but I'm so proud of myself for going to an event by myself :') made some pals in the merch line that kept me company for the last hour n a half which was very nice :) one of them actually went to my college for a semester so that was a wow! moment. now to decide if I'm still gonna wait here by myself in case the two crew comes out... hmmmmm..

[c-a-r-0-l-i-n-e]

being a person is so funny every day i wake up like oh god my life sucks and then i eat breakfast and go hey… wait a minute… life is beautiful