#i don't feel the muses anymore

[madamemiz]

sad: falling out of a hyperfixation

tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it

[angstyvylene-i]

[hoofpeet]

Sheepboy stuffs

[yeonban]

SO! Long time coming updates but here's how I'll roll from now on to hopefully avoid stressing myself out with big numbers all over again:

On Tumblr. 𓂅 01. I'm going to softblock everyone who hasn't attempted to interact ic with me since 2024 started! Huge numbers stress me out and as much as I adore reading you guys' portrayals, I unfortunately think my mental health will thrive more if I keep my dash solely to the people I actively write with. I'll start sbing people this Monday, so if you want to write with me you have until then to shoot me an ic ask or tag me in a starter or what have you! If you don't and I sb though, you're free to refollow whenever our muses mesh better and you think we'll write together, absolutely no hard feelings involved! Maybe we can't come up with any interesting ideas for our current muses and that's okay, who knows what the future holds! 𓂅 02. On the note of writing. I'm going to go through my inbox & drafts and clean out everything I don't have muse for, and then on January 2025 I might clean my inbox out entirely, which means whatever's still in there 4 months from now will likely be purged to allow me to focus better instead of constantly scrolling through hundreds of asks I can't bring my muses to reply to. Next year is going to be my last year of uni, so I'll try to declutter this blog as much as possible to help me remain active on here even while doing internships & writing my dissertation! 𓂅 03. I might delete some muses off my roster, namely those I rarely or never use, but if our muses are intertwined in any shape or form or if you ever feel like rping with them, I am willing to write them for/with you! The main reason I'll be taking them off the main roster (and maybe make a tiny list of muses I only write for certain people's portrayals so you don't think you're losing your marbles when seeing me rp muses I don't ~officially~ rp) is because I won't write them for everyone who follows me anymore. That said, if I take them off because I've temporarily lost muse for them (<-it happens sometimes), we can still talk about them/plot for them in dms! The dynamics I've built on here mean a ton to the both of us, so I'll ALWAYS be down to talk about them and help you shape your muse's main/verse lore if it includes/involves mine (i.e affiliates)! 𓂅 04. Now on my end of starting interactions, I'll begin sending people stuff more regularly! That includes prompted memes whenever I see any that fit the bill even if it means sending 30 memes in a row (you NEVER have to reply to all, or even any, if you're not feeling them so please don't feel pressured to! I just want to give people options to pick from if they ever feel a lot of inspo for a particular muse/verse/dynamic), unprompted memes if I happen to come up with scenarios that I'd like to explore (again no pressure to reply to them!) and random starters if I think the ideas I have would do better as threads than one-off interactions (these will probs only happen if we've plotted and I know for a fact that you're alright w the ideas I'm presenting, so expect me to manifest into your dms before I write any random starters!). I'll make sure to ask this of every one of you individually, but for those who are alright with it, I'll also start tagging you in things that remind me of our muses' dynamic, and/or (depending on what you're comfy with) have my muse talk about your muse in my interactions w others!

On Discord. 𓂅 01. I'll be deleting the people I haven't talked to in ages and/or who show no interest in talking to me! Talking includes both chatting/rambling and plotting, so if you want to escape The Purge you can shoot me a message with a cat video or a plot idea or whatever else's on your mind at the time! I know there are a few people I haven't replied to yet so dw you guys are NOT getting deleted by any meansdajsdh I promise I'll get to every single dm I owe before uni starts and then make a regular effort to respond in time to everyone! I just don't see a reason to keep hundreds of people on discord when I talk to maybe 20 on a good year. 𓂅 02. This isn't going to just be an one-way effort from your part! I'll make sure to pop into your dms on a constant basis too, from the moment the purge ends!

[seaoftales]

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[pvremichigan]

Whoopsie time

[raytm]

[visdiefje]

I'm pretty sure my experiences haven't changed from when I last asserted my identity labels but my view kinda has I guess

[angelicherubs]

it's exhausting to feel like you are putting so much effort into getting something to thrive and it's just not working

[dragonballmultiverse]

🐉

[inkyembers]

hey everyone. i know i basically just got here, but i think i need to take a break. i've deleted the tumblr app off my phone so i stop bombarding people with likes ( i am unfortunately a chronic liker, and i realize that it may be offputting to some. ) i just don't think i'm being healthy with myself right now. i am sorry that this has happened before i even really got back to roleplaying after the whole "other bunny" drama. hopefully some time completely away from the dash will help me get my head sorted.

if anyone wants to roleplay on discord, they can message me and i'll share it.

[yeonban]

*Permanent interactions call.

I've been thinking about it for a while now, but like or comment on this post if you're alright with me sending you asks either unprompted or from prompts you've reblogged ages ago whenever I feel like it & if you're alright with receiving random starters if I ever have the ideas for them! You're never going to be obligated to reply to them though, so they'll just be possibilities for interactions in case you ever have the inspo for them!

[lingeringscars]

i just think there is something about how nat could never forgive herself for javi sacrificing himself for her. she was worse than all of them because she let this kid, her somewhat boyfriend's brother, her own family, her friend, die in her place. it was supposed to be her, she heard the cries from javi and watched him die nonetheless.

but now she didn't watch. she didn't watch at all when it came to lisa. she stole the fish. she intervened with her family. she died in her place. nat healed a part of her when sacrificing herself for lisa. it wasn't right. it wasn't her time. she didn't want to go, but she got to finally pay forward javi's sacrifice in a way that she's never been able to do and always been punishing herself for. she got to heal her inner child by saving lisa. ( the irony is that it may not have happened had she not gone to try and save lisa to begin with. not tipped her off to something happening. these are the consequences of the girls actions. they wanted a hunt through the woods, they got one. they went after shauna and called off services, nat pays the price. misty tries to solve the problem the way she has been but she's not a perfect serial killer and she missed. they covered up the wrong guy at the end of last season. they killed the wrong person at the end of this one. ).

travis didn't break the pact, but neither did she. she did better. (btw travis was on the plane <3)

[starpros-sunshine]

I have no personality and am entirely uninteresting and I am most definitely too mentally well to be considered fascinating which brings me to the question of how do I become less of a nothingburger of a person

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

after this year i have decided i will ditch the muses for tartessos.

[luminarot]

f.all/out verses.

WESLEY CRANE: wesley grew up on his family's farm, out in the middle of nowhere growing crops and tending to their livestock. his dad built it all up from the ground up, even going so far as to dig a well on the property; unbeknownst to any of the Cranes, however, the water in that well was tainted by some kind of experimental chemical. and over time, each member of the family began to change. his parents were first: elizabeth, who slowly lost her memories with her hair and her teeth and her skin, and henry, a man who had always been angry, who became a monster that would attack anything that moved at the drop of a hat. wesley tried to carry on for as long as he could, tending to the farm and his mother, and trying to keep his brother out of trouble where he could -- but then jacob started losing his memories, too. subtly, just typical scatterbrained forgetfulness, but that's how their mom had started out, too. and then one night, wesley's dad kills him. he's in the ground for a week before he comes back - and he does come back, limbs and internal organs and skin stubbornly healing as he watched on in horror. it would seem whatever had changed the rest of his family had changed him, too; robbing him of death, of slumber, the hell of an eternal life. his family, however, had not survived his absence. elizabeth and jacob had gone feral, and what was left of henry rotted in misshapen chunks scattered across their field, his final hours a mystery wesley didnt care to learn. he leaves the farm the same day, searching the wastes for answers about what happened to him and his family.

BENJAMIN LOGAN: the logans were some of the "lucky few" who lived their lives in a vault up until the day they didn't. when ben was 16, all chaos broke out when rumors of sabotage and subterfuge led to a fully fledged revolt. he and max were able to get to safety, but their parents weren't so lucky -- and as a fire roared through enclosed hallways with no sign of stopping, benji made a choice. a choice to take his chances on the surface with Max, leaving everything they once knew behind them. nine years later, he doesn't regret it; from what he hears, there's nothing left of the vault they grew up in, every inch of it burned to a crisp or picked clean by raiders and scavengers alike. ALTERNATIVELY, Benji lives out his first arc as normal, but when he finally escapes the caverns of Hell, he finds himself in the middle of a post-war wasteland, with no idea how to get back to his brother or how to navigate a world that's entirely unfamiliar.