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confinesofmy · 2 years

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oh. cool. i have a huge cavity in the tooth that i most recently got filled, the one where the dental assistant didn't go in after so i wound up leaving with an unpolished filling and excess filling material bonded to a healthy tooth, both of which had to be fixed by someone else. so i'd assume he either didn't remove the entire lesion before filling or in his sloppiness he left a pocket for bacteria to gather in that couldn't be cleaned. that is so neat! *adds another piece of bad news to the 2022 stack and watches as it teeters back and forth but somehow doesn't fall* haha okay! 😃🔫

#i can't even worry at this point #i don't have any room left #i'm going to go to the dentist #i'm going to spend however much i need to spend or work out a payment plan if necessary #they're going to what they think is best and i'm going to endure it #and there's nothing more i can do #god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change the courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference #or. consider this. just give me a fucking break i'm fucking begging you.#adams year from hell #no but fr the entropy motif... i'm literally rotting. cavities don't just happen overnight so i've BEEN rotting. i can't stand this. 🙄

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anarchopuppy · 6 months

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Did nobody play Cadence of Hyrule??? I can't even find a decent walkthrough or wiki for it, and I can't remember the last time I had that problem with any game, including niche indies

This game is incredible y'all. No game I've played has felt more like the best parts of pre-3D Zelda, including games intentionally meant to and even the Link's Awakening remake. And it manages to do that while being procedurally generated, too. I've been having a gay old time with it

I get the impression that a lot of people bought Cadence of Hyrule and either didn't try it or didn't get very far, then forgot about it. I and a few of my friends did at least, I don't remember if another bigger game came out right after or what. Anyway, if that's you, give it a try, it's fun. And finish Tears of the Kingdom too, the last boss alone is worth it

#pops talks zelda #this isn't sponsored or anything obviously #just a psa since i'm having fun and want y'all to have fun too especially if you already paid for it #i really hope it gets a sequel somehow #there's a lot of potential left to explore in a zelda game like this #especially the dungeons - there's almost no verticality to them like there is in LttP #just stairs like in Z1 #having dynamic procedural interactions between floors with tiles falling out and stuff would be incredible #also more elaborate and multi-room puzzles - and give each dungeon more of a unique puzzle style/mechanic #there's some of that but not enough #making keys scarcer and dungeon-specific like LttP would also help make the spaces feel more interesting #i'm glad that at least one game in the time since Z1 has tried the 'keys as a global resource' design again #i think it was interesting and worth it - but for procedural generation i think it undercuts the design #makes the world feel kinda like a continuous blob rather than distinct dungeons and overworld #which isn't as fun #sorry for rambling i'm crossfaded lol <3 #WAIT i'm not done i know no one's reading this anymore but i don't care #i also love that there are distinct multi-screen areas like towns and lake hylia and death mountain and just random stretches of grass #but those areas don't really have a lot of variation between playthroughs if any #have random sections/areas within the multi-screen zones!#have different variations of the same zone of different sizes to swap out between seeds!#have towns and zones and even dungeons that only appear on some playthroughs #there are more than enough locations to reference just in BotW alone!#oh man cadence of hyrule 2 botw edition kinda like what they did with hyrule warriors would be so sick #spike chunsoft hire me i'm single ;)

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thenwethrowitonthefire · 2 months

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Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present)#multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way.#combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells.#this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing.#then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on.#my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?)#me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting.#Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism*#still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something)#me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room.#i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that.#the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk.#can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

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opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated

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unloneliest · 7 months

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the problem of the matter is i did internalize so much of what ex friend believed about me. even though i knew he was wrong and knew what was happening and tried to stop it and if i took more action to stop it would have been abusing power i held in a way i couldn't live with myself for.

#A BAD PERSON TRYING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE WOULD'VE GOTTEN YOU FIRED AND EVICTED IN WINTER IN ALASKA YOU MOTHERFUCKER. WHICH I DID NOT DO #he was renting a room from my dad. for cheaper than he wouldve been able to find anywhere else. his brother was too #his brother didn't pay rent for over 6 months and my dad just forgave him the debt because my dad knew how much of a difference it wouldve #made when he was that age. and i had told him ex friend was family to me & my dad applied that to the brother too. bc he is a good person.#and one of the strongest parts of my support system. and i didn't say a word to him about what was happening until i knew he already had a #plan for when he would be ending ex friend's lease. so there would be no subconscious impact on ex friend's housing either #mgmt at work straight up asked me if i thought ex friend should be fired immediately multiple times and i'm in retrospect livid they put me #in that position but told them to go by the strike system in the employee handbook and to follow policy that ex friend knew perfectly. that #it couldn't be on me as acting assistant manager to choose #and after 10 months of workplace harassment i got a different job to save my life. ex friend didn't get fired.#he did saw trap shit to my brain!!!!!! jesus christ #he moved cross country to live with his long time gf he called his wife despite never having met irl. to a way more conservative state.#despite being gay. and she left him this summer lol #hadn't checked his twitter in over a year when it got pulled up frm an old link and i saw that. and when he was already at a low point too #me voice. oh no who could've seen this coming. from how you behave in every relationship in your life #may delete this in the morning. but i have to talk about it sometimes #i'm never reaching out for closure both bc he wouldn't give me any and because i know it would trigger him and i don't intentionally trigge #people. unlike him :)#vampire pit #like. i have to talk about it sometimes. i have to talk about it.#jam posts

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feliz-navidad · 5 months

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vent post in tags

#have i developed a fear of going to bed?#i do not fear sleep #i just fear the agony of insomnia because that means more time for intrusive thoughts and loneliness #and i want to call my friends and be like 'long distance sleepover lol'#but at the same time #i know i can't ALWAYS do that or expect that from others #but i just.... don't want to spend nights alone anymore #I do read my Bible and practice devotionals and I do have good nights but sometimes it's just.... there are times when things get bad #anyway if any mutuals know how to counteract insomnia without drugs i would really appreciate the advice #part of me is also just begging God to bring me someone who will stay up all night with me #even just once #i don't even really pay attention to the plotline of Big Bang Theory but when mom turned it off tonight and said 'I'm gonna go to bed'#and left me alone in the living room i had to fight the urge to cry #it's just #i needed to say this #i don't expect anyone to message me but please at least keep me in your prayers because this has been going on for months and I don't want #to be silent about it anymore

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buppypuppy · 6 months

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#vent post essay ahead lol #having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad.#the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like #i mean im talking abou t me here obviously.#being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like.#it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help.#i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to #like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m #i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s #i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's #it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus #i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li #i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like #ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!!#because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know #and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like .#i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad.#my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik #my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine #makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS #it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well.#i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum #fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri #you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though #so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do #and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode #and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate.#i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day.#jane mary cry one tear

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tantamounttoflirtation · 2 months

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If they announce a s4 I genuinely might have to log tf off. I don't even want to see what sort of dumpster fire it would be. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I don't see much hope for it being good or worthwhile. I'm going to rant in the tags so if you disagree with my opinion thats cool you can just ignore me and continue scrolling :)

#h talks #I've said before yk maybe I'm wrong and there will be one and it'll be amazing but the chances are so so so so slim #what show can you think of thats been rebooted 9-10 years after it ended and been Good and didn't Fuck Everything Up?#cause I can't think of very many #reboots and remakes are the death of creativity and entertainment. some things need to be left alone as they are #like again if it was Perfect that would be great. but theres so much room for disappointment #to me there are very few plot points they could follow that would be Good #theres no point in having a plot about them being tracked down because they Shouldn't be caught. no one wants them in jail #and if they DO get caught? what was the fucking point . like it completely undermines the og ending #I don't see any reason to bring in Clarice. mostly because her character was blended with Will's a fair amount so they'd have to change her-#personality and canon plot a Whole bunch. which isn't bad per say but ... yk again whats the point of having her if she's not Her #so then ok maybe we focus on Will and Hannibal honeymooning together and killing and cannibalizing people and being on the run #Great Wonderful thats probably the best outcome. except.... its already been done so many times in fic that ppls expectations are HIGH #and do you Really expect something like that to air and not cause insane fucking discourse and then get cancelled?#do you WANT to invite an entire new group of even more annoying people into the fandom so we can rehash the same fucking debates about-#queerbaiting and age gaps and ethics? fuck no #ok end rant lol

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feytouched · 7 months

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i've been eating a super limited diet bc of GI issues for 2 weeks now and when i tell you nothing makes me wanna off myself quite as much as that. i mean it

#can't bake can't have a treat or even just a bit of hot chocolate to cope with the crushing depression. cool #doctor said it was not good that i lost nearly 9 kg in so many months #well im about to lose more bc i don't even wanna eat any more #sick and tired of rice and boiled chicken #anyway i take so many meds that there's barely room for food left #ką sako lapė

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fazcinatingblog · 21 days

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Oh man, the next time we play dogs, Trent could be a newly minted fully fledged dog

He'll be in the race with the other dogs passionately screaming and hugging Caleb Poulter and

#aflm #may 29th is the draft #i secretly hope he's picked up by Hawks #Just write a million fanfics about Trent being reunited with Ginni #Ginni showing Trent around the club all giddy with happiness #'this is where we eat lunch and we have our own designated spots and you can sit on my lap and #'this is the trophy room' and Trent walks in like 'damn i thought dogs had a winning culture but holy shit'#'this is the sock room and this is the nap time room and this is the candy room and this is the room where we watch bluey'#'this is the room where we get custom made sleeves made' Ginni beams 'sam installed it right after Clarko left #Ginni proudly showing off his custom made rainbow sleeves 'for pride round!! see i wrote a letter to the afl about it'#and his letter is just a page of writing in crayon with a drawing of him and Trent #please Mr AFL let us have a round of pride #shows Trent the locker room and Ginni's just like 'we don't have any spare lockers you'll have to share with me'#there's no extra towels either so that have to share #which is what they do anyway

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maranull · 1 month

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on my own that I am, I can do very little to influence the world and I think I'm well aware of it

but also I get this urge to care for every animal I see, whether I can reasonably support its needs or not

like, if I can help give this tiny creature the best I can, and if the best that I can is better than the animal's other options, I have to do it. don't I?

#personal #trying to convince myself not to adopt a 5th cat #the whole idea is stupid #she hunts and maims dogs and i do have an elderly one #she hisses at any kitten that's not her own #so how would she be with other adult cats??#even if she was chill with other cats i would have to keep her contained in my room most of the time #cause my dog is also indoors #and keeping her contained in my space would make my other indoor cat feel left out and uncared for #BUT I DON'T WANT TO LET THE CAT BE GIVEN TO THE FIRST RANDOM ADOPTEE #WE ALREADY HAD A BAD ONE THAT THANKFULLY DIDN'T GET HER #ADJGFHDASHJKFGDSHJAFGDSAJHFGAFDGNAKDGKSDAFHAS #AKGJFDHSGA;LJGA #FDHGH #GFHGF #HGFSHGF #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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pamesjatterson · 7 months

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how my mom feels after assuming I feel some kind of way then getting mad about her own incorrect assumption

#vinny vents #'you aren't the only one who didn't want to get up yet' that wasn't even why I was upset. girl what #I said 'i just hate touching oily dishes' and she said she didn't like having wet dishes on the counter so I put the dishes #in the sink so I could wash them after she left the room so it wouldn't bother her #but she got mad at me for trying to leave without finishing and wouldnt let me explain myself #then she said some 'you know I don't even have to cook for thanksgiving for you spoiled kids' girl I didn't invent the holiday #like. I don't care if we eat thanksgiving dinner. we can have Mac and cheese and yams any other day of the year too #but because she clearly knows my every thought. she's mad at me now

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immortalsins · 11 months

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moved into my new house on the 1st and we won’t have wifi until september ... i’m on campus rn for a teams meeting (24 hour library loml) and i might have to come back again tfor no reason other than to browse lmao i’ve really missed it. worrying

#and i'm fast running out of data #only reason i'm still in this city is for internship work but i haven't got news #so i might just go back to somerset and email my tutor saying sorry i have to do it remotely #since u didnt give me any information :/#anyway. my house has been a trip so far #imagine moving into your first uni house with your mates and not being able to blog about it sjhdbcjsd i've suffered #they(tumblr) don't know .... they don't know about the pinned up condom in the kitchen ........left from the previous tenants #they have no idea about my flatmate waking me up at 4am after locking himself out and me setting off the fire alarm and another flatmates #parents getting locked in her room when the lock broke off #the evil cat we are at war with etc etc ...#so much is happening and now i have to sit through a 2.5 hour meeting #:((#btw i can't even edit at home because i use vapoursynth #and u need internet for it #no way am i making anything without vapoursynth that's not happening #meeting starts in 5 minutes sjhdbcjshbd this has been microblogging from the uni library

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thatrandombystander · 8 months

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There is no experience more frustrating than trying to shop for clothes in-person as a non-thin person. Truly hell on earth.

#went to a vintage clothes market that was clearly catered for thinner people #so maybe 1% of clothes there would fit me. but nothing was clearly labelled #ONE stall had things organised by size and they had a dress i liked #but at that point i was so frustrated that the idea of going into a change room just made me go 'no.'#so I've left with nothing to show for it. i even had to pay an (admittedly small) entry fee.#this is why i have an extremely limited amount of clothes i actually like.#don't get me started on the specific hell that is shopping for pants when your waist and thighs are basically different sizes.#AND because I'm already complaining. my feet are too darn big for most nice shoes >:(#and i can't get any boots that go above the ankles because even if i get something that fits my feet. it's not gonna fit my big calves.#i fucking WISH had the energy to sew all my own clothing and/or the money to buy the stuff i like online/buy custom sized clothes.#anyway. it's barely 1pm on a saturday and I'm in a foul mood.#ramblings of a bystander

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binch-i-might-be · 1 year

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#i'm in so much pain el oh el #it's the second day of my period. at home the painkillers worked just fine. the INSTANT i left for work they stopped working #like i've taken four 500mg pills which includes my backup pill for work so now i don't have any more painkillers on me #it's pulling down into my calfs. i can barely stand. i can't sit #i'm legit about to burst into tears because my clothes don't feel right on my body and everyone keeps talking to me and i'm so overwhelmed #and everything fucking hurts i just want to lay down on my cold floor #currently eating a tub of ice cream in the break room and aggressively bouncing my knee to try and keep it together #it's over four hours until i can go home why is every day i'm here just an exercise in suffering #i was fine at home everything was fine before i got dressed and headed out i'm going to scream

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queerstudiesnatural · 11 months

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sometimes watching tv is good :) i've been watching home decor and home organising shows for the past couple of weeks, and today is my very first day of summer holiday (perks of being a teacher) and i immediately started reorganising and cleaning up my home

#i'm so excited #i'm an expert at depression rooms #my space gets cluttered there's stuff on the floors #actually you can't even see the floors you can't take a step without stepping on something #and i hate it i'm an organised person at heart i need clarity and i need designated spaces and i need a system #it's just that when life gets overwhelming i tend to let my home get that way too #i don't have the energy to clean and tidy up #and let's face it i tend to buy a lot of stuff #mostly yarn and other craft supplies #i have SO MUCH yarn #and it's taking over everything #including my bed #i barely have any room left on my bed to sleep it's becoming a problem #so i'm finding solutions #i'm buying clear drawers and coloured boxes so i can get my shit organised #but still have a cute and functioning home #utilising every bit of wall space in a way that's efficient and doesn't feel cluttered #basically i'm trying to get everything contained to the wall areas with new storage and repurposing existing storage #to free up the center of the room #i actually love cleaning up so when my space is a mess you know it means i am also a mess #the only thing i don't like is doing the dishes #oh how i wish i had a dishwasher #anyway. i'm excited to have a clean and tidy room soon #we'll tackle the dishes later lol #rain.stuff

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