i have been almost entirely off my tumblr dashboard for the last week and i've noticed an almost immediate, quantifiable improvement in my mental health, and i'm pissed about it
like, i'm pissed that 'social media addiction is rotting your brain' is a 'whiny' thing 'adults' always said that I always fought back against and it still ended up true. i'm pissed that even without the algorithm tumblr's format of 'everyones constantly saying and sharing things and you crave seeing all of those things' has led to an addiction. i'm pissed that tumblr literally pulled me out of one lonely depression spiral a decade ago and has been sinking me into a different one now
i 'broke' yesterday while i was bored at work and decided to let myself have 'just one hour' looking at tumblr and that hour passed in an instant. i wasn't 'done' by the end of it because the very nature of social media is you're never 'done', but i felt like if i had more time i could be, and i had to force myself to close the tab
i opened up tumblr again tonight and didn't really set a firm time-limit, and 30 minutes passed in the blink of an eye. i'm making this post and forcing myself to close the tab but like. i still check my notifications each morning. there's nothing there, because i haven't been posting hardly anything for people to react to, but i literally feel antsy wishing people were responding to me. i've also gotten so much work done this week! I almost finished writing the game I'm working on! i started reading a new book! but i still keep itching to open tumblr on my phone
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TW: mention of grooming & sexual assault Please dont read If this topic makes your uncomfortable
Quite of a long test ahead. Sorry
Listen, i dont want to sound rude or anything, but everytime someone on the murder drone fandom (twt specifically) gets outed as a groomer, sexual predator, or Just someone who has caused harm to other people in general MD fans on twitter always turn these types of situation into a:
"LMFAO murder drone fandom suck ass!! I hate you all!!!!!! im out of here for real!!!!!"
"i love murder drones But i hate this fandom"
And ...no... Please....dont.
I know these guys are all just teenegers just like me and may or not may have good intentions when they say this, But i have an awful truth about to say about these situations;
Those groomers and sexual predators are not on the fandom bc they are interested on the show and just happen to be groomers just because. They are on the fandom bc they know murder drones Its the type of show that attracts vulnerable teenegers and kids
Stop making these type of situations into a fandom thing, bc Its something serious. These groomers are not genuine fans of the show (most of the time) theyre here to make victims
And yes, these groomers are capable o spending months building their murder drones fandom accounts just to befriends the minors on the fandom, even If theyre not even acctually interested on the show.
Im tired of seeing groomers in the fandom getting outed and then some minutes after some corny;
"lmfao, in out here, im just gonna be a normal account now lolll"
"muted all the words related to murder drones <33333"
"wait??? Thad the cool guy is a groomer??? Cant this fandom be normal for once???"
tweets pop up taking the focus away from the real problem.
Some predators using the show to make their victims doesn't automatically turns the fandom into "an awful place full of disgusting people" and its because of that generalization that these events keep repeating themselfs.
Theres some assholes and toxic people on the fandom? Yes totally. I saw toxic envy shippers trying to turn nuzi into a """pedo coded"""" ship in real time.
But, this is difference, a groomer disguising themselfs as a fandom member is not a fandom problem or drama, and doesn't automatically makes the an entire group of people bad.
If the fandom knew how to handle these types of situations Instead of making;
"block this disgusting murder drones fan!!!!!!! Loll im so tired of this fandom, in out"
posts, people should make;
"therese another predator out there, Please everyone be carefull and block all of their accounts and i feel so sorry for all the victims"
(they do make these posts, but get quickly overshadowed by the fandom focused corny ones)
Things would be so much better.
Remember the murder drones strike thing? The fandom could make a campaingh similiar to that but focused on spreading awareness about predators that use murder drones to attract kids. Its a sad truth, But only facing reality is a way to make things better
Maybe that happens bc MD is the first fandom these people have ever been at, so they don't know how to react to these type of things but trust me i have seen fandoms that are much worst who have had terrible things happening out there.
Anyways, this is all i had to say, sorry if Its kinda confusing, english is not my first language, but i hope i made a clear point here a least
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I apologize if I sound stupid, but what’s mangoball? I hope I spelt that right
cheater cheater (known as mangoball) is a satirical social media fanfiction by twitter user mangobaii written in 2021 about the internet personas of twitch streamers georgenotfound and dream getting together after georges ex boyfriend sapnap cheated on him with dream. on paper it sounds fucking abysmal especially with what we now know about all three of them (ie. they should be publicly stoned) but its more or less infamous for the surrealist humour and the way it acts as a time capsule for stan culture of late 2021. the characters are:
george. a very very stupid british man who paid to get into college. his boyfriend cheats on him and he takes it really poorly
dream. a very very desperate american man who sucked sapnaps dick in a public bathroom and broke up his relationship. when he thinks things are over between him and george he runs away to disney land to become a goofy mascot, which george finds incredibly attractive
sapnap. a very very unpleasant man to be around. cheated on his boyfriend and when its clear theyre not gonna patch things up he resorts to just hanging around the main group and in general being a dick
now this is where it gets REALLY really good bc its unanimously agreed upon that while the dream team are really entertaining in this they dont hold a candle to the others
quackity. georges roommate. i would say he "favours the tough love approach" but that is putting it soooooo lightly.
kyle. georges other roommate. the designated "straight man" in that he is like a normal fucking person put into this insane world of crazy people. the catalyst for most of the events of the story since he is the one who saw dream suck sapnaps dick, told george about it, and encouraged george to rebound with dream. thank you rival cartoonrival for telling me that i called karl kyle on accident. it really goes to show how much of a normal guy he is
corpse husband (we dont know why he was included either). dreams roommate. hates that cunt and is actively praying on his downfall
wilbur soot. dream and corpse's neighbour. initially introduced as "guy who keeps stealing his stuff (and also knows george from england)" gradually devolves into "batshit insane, genuinely a threat to those around him, involuntarily gets them involved in his crimes for a 'bonding experience'". also he is kind of in love with corpse but that isnt ever expanded upon
tommy innit. a freshman that dream used to tutor for compsci (along with tubbo but hes not as relevant to the story as tommy is. SORRY TUBBO!) but he hated dream so much he started a space about it, which got bigger and bigger until it became a huge podcast (with individual episodes still named using space naming conventions) where he and various guests shit on dream. he doxxes dream. at one point it was sponsored by taco bell.
badboyhalo. mysterious man no one really knows (except i think its briefly implied george dated him at one point) who doesnt go to their college yet keeps interacting with them like they are all best friends. is actually quackitys estranged father he never met
there was also a christmas special where someone snitched on wilbur to the authorities and george got kidnapped and they try to figure out whos responsible while snowed in and unable to visit their families like they wanted
tldr: modern art
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You sent me Beefer what about Pico KEKW
YAAAY THE GUYYY
• favorite thing about them: tbh its kinda hard to not just say Everything JDHDHDH i like his issues,, even if they probably just were added to him for edge im also a psychosis haver and seeing that on a character i love so much makes me so happy.. I also like how he tries sooo hard to be Serious and distant but he will never beat the silly dumb guy that cares a lot allegations
• least favorite thing about him: I dont think that theres something i dont like that comes like. directly from him... this is just me bitching but im not a fan of when people try to make him all macho and angry and agressive all the time,,, he can feel other emotions guys,,, (<- this isnt directed at anyone and its gladly something i dont see often anymore!) Ive also seen some very poor handling/demonization of his schizophrenia and it makes me The Sadge... but again this isnt something ive seen since leaving twitter LMFAO
• favorite line:
This makes me laugh so hard every time JDJDHDH
• brOTP: i like them romantically too but i really like his relationships with Darnell and Nene too :] I'm a big NGtrio fan
• OTP: RGB !!!! THEY MAKE ME ILL,,,, /VPOS
• nOTP: i dont like picass.. no hate to anyone who does ofc, this is just a personal thing
• random headcanon: AUGH i have so many djdhdhd but i also few like i dont have anything new/interesting to bring to the table,,
But i think he unconsciously associates weight with comfort/safety bc of his guns and how hes been carrying him all the time since he was 13... i wanna do this to him
I also think he used to be a datahoarder when he was younger.. i think his computer his completely filled with flash games/stuff JZHHDHD
• unpopular opinion: scratches my head,,, i honestly dont know djdhdgd
• song i associate with them: AAGHH i suck at assigning songs to characters unfortunally..
I already said that this is a very RGB song to me, but when i listen to it i mostly see it from his point of view !
This one is more loose but it also reminds me of him
• favorite picture of them:
I love the way mindchamber draws him,,,
Not one picture but.. him baiting Darnell and instantly getting punched is just. wonderful JDJDHDHGD i also love how he looks on the weekend 1 cutscenes in general... hes so stupid
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friendly (maybe not so friendly reminder) that you dont have to read fic you dont agree with! you also dont need to sit their and lecture an author about the things you dont agree with or like in a fic! the block button is free 99 and anyone is welcome to use it
im not sure if its a new generation of fic readers or what but if you have nothing nice to say, dont say it at all when you're consuming free content on the internet someone put hours into just to share.
i read all the reblogs and comments on my fics. even if i dont respond i still read them! many of them i go back to all the time because i have some of the sweetest people ever commenting on my work
but stuff like this actually sucks to read
thanks for liking my fic, you wrote 200 words about all the stuff you didn't like and less than six words about how you liked it. you're reading fic. suspend disbelief. understand it isn't real life.
if you dont like something in my fic, dont put it where i can see it. talk about in private. block me. ignore my posts and dont follow me. idc.
but i do this for FREE. im not an author who makes my money whether you like my book or not. i spend hours of my free time writing and creating to share with people.
i have a catalogue of work at this point that you are welcome to read if you dont jive with one of my fics! i actively encourage you not to read my fics with themes you dont agree with. but dont read something and then come into my space and use it as a soap box
to the 99.9% of lovely people interacting with my stuff, thank you. to the anon that sent me the twitter post about baja blasts, thank you bc that cracked me up after i fell into this foul mood.
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