#i drew this in like ten minutes lol dont look at it too closely

[firedjinni]

is this anything

[lazarustrashpit]

Hello there, your blog is so amazing!! First I was wondering if you still did requests (the 5 min one for instance), and maybe if you would make a slightly sexy natsuki the way he runs after Syo, all innocently having fun like it's nothing weird about it, how he would run after his s/o probably for some gropies ^_^" does that even make sense? I hope so teehee otherwise sowwy. Second, do you have any practicing/inspiration finding advice for self teaching drawing?

Hullo anon! Thank you for the kind words! Unfortunately I'm not doing requests at the moment. I'm trying to finish all these Ran Rans lol, but I'll try to doodle something up sometime after I complete this current challenge. (Especially since there's been a fever for some sexy Natsuki coming at me lately lol).

As for drawing practice and finding inspiration goes... references, references, references. I can't stress how important it is to study something before diving in. I often look at photos and stills from movies to get inspiration and guides for lighting. I even take photos of my own clothes to see how fabric folds in certain positions, and have my husband pose for me sometimes lol.

Before I started drawing Utapri fan art, I studied all their faces from the anime to the games to official arts. I drew ten Tokiya heads over and over until I nailed down what I felt was right. You have no idea how many times I watched the Force Live video.

This same practice applies with anything honesty. Struggling with hands? Me too. Draw hands all day everyday. I actually practice anatomy drawings by referencing medial journals lol. Its important to learn and build proper foundations so that you can develop your own style as you grow as an artist.

But more importantly, be patient. It takes time to hone in a skill. We are all our own worst critics, so it's easy to get discouraged as you go along. I know I still do. Practice doesn't make perfect but you can get pretty damn close.

Oh and dont forget warm up sketches! I always take a few minutes to draw a bunch of circles and lines just to loosen up the muscles!

[kathillards]

misc morphicon stories

ok so i feel like i’ve talked FOREVER about all the wild shit that happened to us at morphicon (running into rangers at the car valet!! meeting chip lynn!! azim calling us his favorite ladies at the con!!) but i wanted to make a write up for all the stuff i haven’t talked about yet because i have to remember all this and i want you all to experience it too!! it was so fun oh my god if you haven’t been to morphicon... start making plans for 2020 guys it is legit INSANE best weekend of my entire LIFE

- ann marie crouch is AN ACTUAL PRINCESS SENT FROM HEAVEN we ran into her on our way back to the hotel one of the days and we were like omg it’s princess shayla we love you!! and she was so sweet and stopped and talked to us even though she was on her way out for a nap and she was in full shayla gear she looked so pretty! and we saw her on the way back too she had changed into casual clothes but still rocking it WE LOVE ONE MENTOR ONLY

- jessica rey is so funny and adorable omg we stopped by her booth to buy wild force pins (kat and abbey) bc the wf rangers come PREPARED w/ merch and nobody was there so we all just started talking to her and told her how we loved wild force and alyssa and abbey said she loved the ep where alyssa beat up the boys and she’s so cute and fun to talk to!! she told us about the shades of pink panel and i was like “is alyssa a pink or a white ranger” and she was like “lol i dont even know” also she had her handler take a staged candid of us talking to her because she loved us lmao. and then we were talking about white rangers and all of us were like “fuck tommy lives we stan alyssa only” and she laughed and immediately started telling us about what a dick jdf had been to fans the day before lmao (also for real...he’s a dick) and i was like YOU ARE THE SUPERIOR WHITE TIGER RANGER god shes so cool she loved us and didnt wanna stop talking but we had to move away cuz ppl were lining up for her behind us rip

- RICHARD AND ANGIE oh my god ok so i’d stopped and talked to angie on the first day and also the second day and i told her i’d come back later bc i wanted a photo w/ BOTH OF THEM and i did tell her how much i loved madison and vida like we are ROCCA SISTER STANS FIRST PEOPLE SECOND and shes so cute and she remembered us every time!! and then on the third day i finally got to talk to richard and he’s so sweet we talked about mystic force just at his booth for like ten minutes waiting for angie for the photo op, he asked us our fave episodes and i said dark wish and he actually remembered it so i think he might be the only actor at the con who watched his season. and we told him we loved the mystic force theme song AND HE STARTED SINGING IT. and someone had left him a green zeo figurine for...some reason and he told us “i dont even fucking know who that is” (but nicer lol he is very charming and polite) and we told him it was adam/johnny and he was like ohhhh lmao i love disney era actors not knowing SHIT about saban era. like he literally worked with johnny. i love him. AND THEN HE ASKED US ALL TO BE IN THE PHOTO and since kat paid for half of it we were like aight its a group thing and its the cutest photo i love disney era actors only

- i think i talked about meeting dwayne cameron already but god hes so sweet and i felt bad for him bc caitlin next to him had ppl she was talking to but he was all alone so me and abbey just went up and started talking to him and i told him i loved overdrive and i told him i recognized him as ethan’s bully and we talked about tyzonn and vella and just overdrive in general and hes so SWEET and he HUGGED ME SO TIGHT GOD i think he really enjoyed us like. actually loving overdrive and being able to talk about it. AND HE RAN INTO ABBEY IN CARS LAND AT DISNEY ON MONDAY AND GAVE HER ANOTHER HUG hes so cute (angie was also there with him I LOVE DISNEY ERA SOLIDARITY)

- met monica may and cerina vincent on saturday, not a lot to say bc i only talked to them a bit and took my photos but they are both so beautiful and elegant and classy and i told cerina i loved her in stuck in the middle :’) ranger ladies are so intimidatingly pretty god. also picked up this huge LEGIT spd poster and im gonna put it up in my room as soon as i can because oh my god its professional quality it looks so cool. we also talked to greg aronowitz bc kat wanted her poster signed and hes so cool we told him how much we appreciated everything he did for spd AND THAT WE WERE ON HIS SIDE ABOUT FEMALE RED FUCK DISNEY.

- god what else uhh we wandered around the toys section a lot on saturday/sunday bc we’d kinda. seen everyone. and there were a lot of panels on sunday so nobody was at the booths. i picked up those amazing rider/sentai prints from ceevee SUPER TALENTED SO WORTH IT. also got me a meteor storm figuart B) which i havent taken out of the box yet but i will

- HECTOR AT THE CAR VALET he literally announced he would be at morphicon the day before and then we saw him while waiting for our car and SCREAMED and he was so chill and cool and he came over and hugged us all hes so hot. AND THEN LATER WE RAN INTO SELWYN WARD AT THE CAR VALET and he also laughed when we squealed and came over and hugged us all and guys he smelled soooo nice i was like right up against him i could have died hes so handsome and perfect.

- we also ran into steve cardenas at the car valet like right when we were all leaving the hotel for the last time and we told him that we loved him and i said i was so excited that it was rocky coming back for the anniversary instead of fucking jason and abbey was like “justice for forever red!” and he was like hah i know right anyway every single actor in this franchise hates jdf lmao that was just the vibe of morphicon and it was valid

- fun fact we did not see jdf ONCE. not going to the con, not at the hotel, not ANYWHERE. just his crazy lines. he was like the douchebag cryptid. im glad tho he can stay that way.

- i talked about meeting andre on saturday night right??? hes so SWEET I LOVE HIM he was so happy when ben gave him his fanart of eddie and took a selfie w/ ben right then and there and also took a pic w/ me and abbey ugh i love him i told him he was so valid for being a power rangers youtuber and liking megaforce AND THAT HE’S THE BEST INTERVIEWER THEY’VE EVER HAD (i also told azim this, i’m very passionate about this subject, every other ranger interviewer sucks ASS)

- jason faunt at the elevators!! hes so sweet i told him how excited i was for the anniversary and he said yeah theres a lot more plot going on and told me to take a selfie bc they couldnt stop him here fhjggd i love that pic i love him AND THEN ALSO later we ran into NAKIA IN AN ELEVATOR AND SHES SO SWEET I SAID “WE LOVE YOU WE WATCHED ALL OF ZEO FOR YOU” and she was like aww thank you so much!! a literal goddess AND THEN LATER AS WE WERE CHECKING OUT karan walked by us to go to nakia and i was so excited i waved and said hi to her and she said “hi baby how are you” SHES SO WONDERFUL I LOVE MY MOTHERS

- i think i told the chris reid story already but like. hes so charming and was so nice even tho i interrupted his express checkout but like. i Had to tell him how valid ninja steel was i was literally like fuck the dudebros they’re so annoying you guys fighting w/ that one guy on twitter over the kcas was the FUNNIEST thing to EVER happen to this fandom and he laughed.

- we also went up to kelson’s booth later and told him how much we loved mick and all his roles!! and talked to him forever about all of them, told him we were kalish/disney era supremacists, told him HOW GOOD HE IS AT VOICE ACTING WE LOVE FLIT AND NORG IN THIS HOUSE he looked so happy :’) i feel like everyone just compliments him on boom which, no offense, but appreciate your voice actors guys. i told him we grew up on disney era and it was like new zealand only had twelve actors and he was five of them and he laughed and was like yeah. i also told him how we loved mick and brody’s father/son relationship and he was like yeah they ended up liking that a lot too which is why they sort of pushed brody’s real dad to the side so mick could shine more and i was like that’s LEGIT. i also told him the prism was brody’s mother and he agreed so that’s canon now. AND I TOLD HIM how fucking dark ninja steel went w/ his storyline literally being about slavery and human trafficking and he was like I KNOW RIGHT and we just talked about how dumb everyone is for being mean to ninja steel and chris showed up at this point too and we all laughed about it together

- ok and then tbh we just spent all of sunday loitering around the megaforce cast but it was worth it because they LOVE US oh my god we talked to them like all sunday about just. everything. azim’s gf jordan was there and she kept telling us to just stick around we talked to her a lot, we asked her about alex heartman and like where tf was he and she said he was working :( BUT AZIM AND ALEX ARE STILL CLOSE so victory. azim also told us a bunch of little stories like how he and the megaforce cast searched for a house to stay in together and ended up finding one at the base of a volcano and he and drew would race around the volcano in the mornings like the crazy people they are, we told him how much we loved andrew’s ACTING SKILLS and “do you see any tears” and he cracked up and said “they used to call me ‘freaky tiki man’ all the time because of that one line” and he told us about other fan encounters and things, we told him on saturday how we all met and became friends because we were the only ppl who loved and defended megaforce and he was SO TOUCHED HES SO SWEET GOD i would die for him. 

- cameron gave us (me and kat) all his money to buy him lunch from the food trucks and i guess just trusted that we loved megaforce so much we wouldn’t just run away with all his money????? and he was absolutely correct we got him teriyaki chicken with garlic noodles and he loved us. his handler also asked us to buy him food and gave us his CREDIT CARD dfhdgfjgdf like power rangers people are wild man. who just gives their credit card to random 20yo girls and just. trusts that they love this children’s show so much they won’t steal it??? i mean they were right and we didn’t but still. AND HE MADE ME AIRDROP one of my megaforce reaction pics to his phone because he loved it so much (it’s the one of jake and emma and orion looking super done, that i had ben redraw for me, so we showed them both pics and all three of them LOVED IT) and cameron even looked ben up on deviantart to see it fdgjkdfdg he loves usss. christina was telling us how they were talking about us at dinner and cameron told her that we were his favorite part of the con :’)) azim also mentioned that they talked about us at dinner because he said to kat “we were discussing that you look like that girl from 10 things i hate about you who was julia stiles’ best friend” LIKE IMAGINE. HAVING THE MEGAFORCE CAST. DISCUSS WHO YOU LOOK LIKE FDJGKDHFJGD they’re so cute ugh and azim and cameron hugged us all goodbye and john mark and christina said goodbye too and i just. love them. so much. 

- at one point cameron asked me and kat how old we were and she was like “twenties...as a group we are in our early twenties” and he was like “.... so old enough to know how a hangover feels right?” and we lost it dfgjfdkdgjh and i said “if i were an actor i would just be stoned the whole con” AND CAMERON JUST NODDED AGGRESSIVELY god the entire cast was definitely hungover and they’re so valid. except christina, we asked her and she said she only had a milkshake so maybe she was their designated driver. 

- andrew is so chill too (i mean i do think he is perpetually high but its fine) i think he just loves talking??? like he’s there for the babies (so many babies!! and they love troy so much!!! hes so adorable with them) and then he just wants to chill like we went up to him on sunday and he was like oh hey did you guys see this picture and he pulled out his phone and showed a pic of the megaforce cast doing a goofy zombie pose at their photo ops and he told us his backstory on each of their zombie poses like. who does this??? he’s so adorable.

- and ofc we stopped by christina again on sunday bc she’s THE FAVE and shes just so cuuute ugh and i told her i loved all asian rangers bc i am asian!! and she was like omg are you?? and i was like yeah i’m south asian and she was like omg so that’s all part of asia too OH I GET IT SO WE’RE BOTH ASIAN and i was like YES AND YOU’RE ALL MY RANGERS and she smiled at me it was like staring at the sun tbh. i love and would die for her.

- when we went to say goodbye to the megaforce cast cameron just looked at all of us standing around his booth and was like, so genuinely, “you guys are the best” and it still makes me cry thinking about it. AND AZIM’S FACE when we all said “megaforce’s defenders never surrender!” to him he had the sweetest smile god i really would take a bullet for the entire megaforce cast in a heartbeat. they are the sweetest angels & deserve the world. if any of you breathe a word wrong about jake holling in my general vicinity ever again i will fry your intestines and eat them for breakfast thank you GOODBYE.

[wesawbears]

Can u write jerejean where the trojans have an upcoming game against the ravens so a few select ravens who in particular have a bad history with jean show up to usc in their true cult fashion and try to psych him out in a way the trojans dont really understand but he (and jeremy) knows Exactly what they r talking about and when they leave he is just kind of stoic and scary looking and acts unaffected infront of his team but later when theyre alone jeremy comforts him and makes him feel better

I may have gotten carried away. I really liked this prompt lol. Thanks anon! It’s 1.4 k, so more is under the cut.

Warnings for mentions of sexual assault/slurs. Not graphic, but consistent with Jean’s past.

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Jean wakes with a pounding headache behind his eye. It was most likely because he hadn’t slept all day, but no one needed to know that except him and his therapist. Tomorrow’s date on the calendar loomed the way a prisoner’s execution date might.

It was the day USC was scheduled to play the Ravens in a wildcard game before the playoffs. Jean had been mentally preparing for it for weeks, but as the date drew closer, his heart felt more and more constricted in his chest. The team noticed in the way he checked harder at practice and Jeremy had been sending him concerned looks all week, but they all knew better than to ask.

Jean sighs and unlocks his phone so he could make a call. He knocks his head against the headrest of his bed, but clicks call all the same.

He taps his foot impatiently as the phone rang. Just when he begins to hope that he wouldn’t pick up, he hears Kevin’s impatient voice go, “Jean? What’s going on?”

As if he doesn’t know. As if the Ravens’ schedule doesn’t run through his head every goddamn day.

Jean sighs. This was a wretched idea. “I have to play them tomorrow.” A beat of knowing silence passes before Jean follows up with, “How did you do it?”

He hears Kevin exhale and what he assumes is Kevin sitting down followed by, “It was the court. They couldn’t hurt me there.”

“They can always hurt you. You know that,” Jean deadpanned.

“And you know them. Beat them at their own game.”

“I didn’t call you to ask how to win a fucking game.”

“Then why did you call?”

Jean tries to remember a time when the sound of Kevin’s voice didn’t feel like salt in an open wound. “It’s not as though I have an abundance of other options.”

Kevin laughs humorlessly. Jean’s about to hang up when Kevin says, “I’m sorry I didn’t take you with me.”

Jean closes his eyes. “You’re really not.”

“I’ll see you at finals.”

He hears a click to signal that Kevin hung up. Jean realized that it was the closest to encouragement that he’d ever get from Kevin. It’s enough.

Jean’s standing on the sidelines and he doesn’t want to move. He knows the second he steps on the court every Raven will be gunning directly for him. He knows this because it’s exactly what he would do. It’s exactly what he did do when he played the Foxes a year ago. It feels like another life.

He looks down the line and sees Jeremy and Sara and Laila and every other starting Trojan standing there with him.

He is not Kevin and he is not afraid.

When his name is called, he steps onto the court and walks unflinchingly to his place. The new Raven captain is an unremarkable player Jeremy’s age. He wasn’t part of the inner circle, so Jean’s memories of him are hazy. However, his memory is jogged when he passes Jean and murmurs, “Slut,” just loud enough for him to hear.

Jean’s blood freezes in his veins, but can’t choke in front of them, so he keeps his eyes forward. Jeremy’s too far away to hear what was said, but calls out, “Let’s have a clean game, shall we?”

Jean squeezes his eyes shut. When he opens them, colors dance across his vision, but he’s able to focus enough to have a decent first half. There are a few sloppy shots that get past him, but he’s learning to let himself be human. The second half goes better and the Trojans manage to win by 3 points. Jeremy beams at him before crashing into Jean for a hug. In the moment, Jean forgets himself and hugs back for a bit too long. Long enough to get the Ravens’ attention.

A group of five Ravens walk up to them in their signature V. To his left, Sara coughs, “Cult.”

The Raven at the front grins and says, “Worked your way into the starting lineup, huh?”

Jean’s smile fades. Jeremy takes the bait and says, “Jean is an asset to any team. We’d be stupid not to put him on as a starter.”

A player behind the captain smirks. “That’s adorable. Prince Charming come to save the day. Too bad he’ll get sick of you once he realizes you’re damaged goods.”

Jean grits his teeth to avoid drawing attention to himself. Sara steps into the guy’s face and says, “And your entire team is full of washed up has beens. You lost. Go lick your wounds off of our court. No one needs to see that pathetic display.”

The Ravens smirk at them before turning and walking off the court in unison. Laila lays a hand on his shoulder and Jean says, “Thank you.”

Sara snorts. “You’re family. We don’t let assholes talk to our family.” She pats his back and heads off to the locker room. Jean shrugs and follows.

--

The walk home is spent trying to keep his mood up amongst the adrenaline high Trojans, but the moment the door to their room closes, Jean sinks heavily onto his bed. He doesn’t feel on the verge of a panic attack, which is an unexpected grace, but he feels exhausted down to his bones.

Jeremy hovers next to his bed, unsure of whether his company is wanted or not. Jean pats the spot next to him and in a moment of vulnerability, he rests his head on Jeremy’s shoulder. Ordinarily Jean was wary of people above him in any context, but Jeremy’s body felt like a shield and for once it was comforting rather than frightening.

“You did great tonight,” Jeremy says, breaking the silence.

Jean’s tempted to list all of the mistakes he made that night, but he counts to ten and decides it’s a conversation better suited for practice on Monday.

“Thank you.” The underlying, ‘for putting up with me’ hung heavy in the room.

“You’re not damaged goods,” Jeremy says definitively.

“I know,” Jean says.

Jeremy frowns and a crinkle appears between his eyes. Jean reaches up to smooth it out. “I know, Jeremy.”

Jeremy pouts. “I had a whole speech singing your praises prepared.

Jean gestures. “Go on, then.”

Jeremy laughs. “Well...you’re funny, which I didn’t expect.” Jean chuckles. “And you’re one of the smartest people I know. I still don’t know how you read those giant philosophy books.” Jeremy turns Jean’s face up to look at him. “And you’re the strongest person I know. You’re stronger than all of them. Fuck what they have to say.”

“That doesn’t sound like Captain Sunshine,” Jean teases.

Jeremy laughs raucously. “Shut up.” Jean joins him until they wear themselves out laughing.

“Are you good to sleep?” Jeremy asks.

Jean nods and Jeremy stands to go over to his bed. He checks that Jean is settled before switching the lamp off.

--

Sleep was not Jean’s friend. As he drifts off, the Ravens’ words swim in his head, filling him with a mix of black memories and new images of himself failing, of Riko alive angry, of Jeremy, walking away with a pitying headshake.

When he thrashes awake, his hands are clenched in the sheets and he struggles to ground himself until he sees the glow in the dark stars Jeremy kept on their ceiling. He exhales. It was a dream, but the feeling still clutches his chest in an uncomfortable way.

“Jean?” He hears Jeremy stir. “Are you alright?”

“Yeah. Just a bad dream.”

“Do you want me to come sit with you?”

Jean makes a noise of assent.and Jeremy climbs in across from him and lays his hands palm up on the covers for Jean to hold when he was ready. They wait a few minutes until Jean lays his hands on top of Jeremy’s.and breathes.

“There we go. Do you think you can fall back asleep?”

Jean nods and Jeremy moves to return to his bed.

“Wait,” Jean says, keeping a light hold on Jeremy’s wrist. He was still feeling a bit raw from the image of dream Jeremy walking away from him. “Stay with me?”

Jeremy smiles and crawls into the still warm space next to Jean. “Of course.”

Jean uses the rise and fall of Jeremy’s breath and the constancy of the neon stars to fall into a deep, peaceful sleep.

[kookie-vith-suga]

You don’t own me part 8

Excerpt:

“Don’t stop”, you said quickly and opened your eyes. The both of you stared at each other before you quietly picked up his hands and put them back on your shoulders.

“Please continue.”

Word count: 1648 // Short. I know. I’m sorry.

Warnings: Angst. Not too hard but I cried for some reason.

Author’s note: So I do have to admit that I’m not really satisfied with the lastest part but I guess it was okay. I’m currently so looking forward to the end of the story not because I dislike writing it but I’m hoping to wreck all of you in the very best way. Does this sound strange? Well I don’t know how many parts are there to come till you can finally enjoy the grand finale but I hope you’ll stick with my pathetic ass till then :)

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Your teary eyes had locked with Baekhyun’s. “Help me”, you mouthed inaudible. His mimic fell for a second. Was that a hint of empathy?! His features got hard again and he focused on Junmyeon.

“You know as good as I am that either Jongdae or me will have the honour to end your life in the most brutal way if you dare to kill her”, Baekhyun explained calmly.

“Who said I would kill her? Jongdae ordered me to bring her back. Alive of course. And by the way what are some tiny bruises anyway when he will get his property back?”, Junmyeon clicked his tongue, “It pretty much only depends on you if I have to hurt her.”

Property?! Spurred on through a mixture of fear and anger you yelled:  “I’m far from what you call an object, which means I’m nothing to own, you stupid dipshit! Let me go! Now!” You twisted your hand carefully not to come in touch with the blade but there was no hope.

“Oh, are we getting cheeky now?” Junmyeon’s grip only got stronger and he pulled the arm behind your back a little higher. That caused already enough pain for you to let out a loud groan. Immediately Chanyeol raised his gun again and pointed at Junmyeon. He dragged you a little more into Chanyeol’s direction.

“Do you really wanna take the risk to shoot your master’s favourite girl?”, Junmyeon let out a sadistic laugh, “I bet you don’t.” Chanyeol’s gaze was furious.

Meanwhile Junmyeon teased Chanyeol more you looked over to Baekhyun, who’s eyes roamed through the room hastily. You could see he was struggling to find a solution. Suddenly his face lit up shortly before going back to its serious state. You had followed his eyes the whole time and when he looked at you, you were quick to understand. It was like you could hear his voice in your head whispering you what the plan was. You gave him secret nod to indicate him you knew what to do.

Baekhyun straightened his posture and took a step closer. “I would give you one last chance to let her go and I promise you won’t suffer from any major harm”, Baekhyun’s voice was full of confidence. His whole statue radiated superiority.

“Tsk. Do you really think I am that stupid? I’m not scared of you or your little companion”, Junmyeon scoffed.

“Well you wished for it then.” A devilish grin appeared on Baekhyun’s face as he winked at you. This was your sign. You breathed out. Before Junmyeon could question his interaction with you any further you had already lifted your right foot and drilled your heel with all the force you could bring up into his foot. Junmyeon cried out in pain, the pressure around your throat left and you heard the clashing of metal on the floor.

Within a second everything was over. You had turned around and pushed Junmyeon away not even thinking a second thought. Then you stormed away. Right into Baekhyun’s arms. He held you so close that you couldn’t breath for a moment. Then released you again and took your hand to lead you out of the room. Your head spun around as the door had closed behind the two of you. Chanyeol stayed behind. He pulled you further towards the parking lot and you could barely hold your balance. Besides that his steps were about twice as big as yours, your legs were shaking like crazy. Eventually he let go of your hand as you reached the black limousine and you couldn’t help yourself then falling down to your knees. You felt the hard asphalt tearing holes in your tights but this was not important at all right now. You breath was not to be taimed.

“Come on Y/N!” You didn’t moved. You couldn’t. You were somehow paralyzed by the shock. So Baekhyun’s arms sneaked around your body and picked you up. He placed you gently onto the backseat and shut the door. A little later the door on the other side opened and he sat down next to you. He gave the driver a sign to go and the car rolled from the square. His hand reached over your shoulder and pulled you towards him. You were leaning against his shoulder while he drew small circles in a soothing motion over your arm. You let the sensation take over. You head felt empty. Up. Down. Up. Down.

“Everything is alright now. You did so good. We are safe”, he repeated it over and over again. Every now and then he even pressed a small peck to your forehead. It really helped you. 

After additional ten minutes your breath had finally found a regular rythm again and you felt able to speak. You withdrew yourself from his touch.

“It’s kinda funny”, you scoffed, “I always thought I am a strong woman, who could take care of herself. Who could possibly defend herself against each and every man. But in reality all I did was lying to myself. I’m not strong. Not at all. I just didn’t knew what to do and if Chanyeol and you wouldn’t come along I…I..he could do anything he wanted without my resistence.” You felt ashamed of yourself and covered your face with your hands. The truth sounds way worse when you actually expressed it in words.

Baekhyun’s mouth went to a thin line. His hands wrapped around your wrists and he tried to pull them away. You turned your head to the side to avoid his eyes. You didn’t dare to look at him. You were sure it would make you even more aware of your weakness. Big tears rolled over your cheek.

“Y/N”, his voice sounded close to pleading, “Look at me, Y/N! Please! You are strong! Can you hear me?! You are the strongest and most beautiful person I have ever met! A person so different from what I’m used too that I think I may fallen in love with you.”

That was the moment Byun Baekhyun had confessed to you. Something you never thought people like him would do or better could do. You stopped shaking your head so vigorously. Your eyes slowly find his. You felt unsure what would happen as he simply cupped your cheeks with his big hands. His thumb trailed along your jaw before pulling you a just little closer. Close enough to allow your lips to touch. This was far from the kiss you had at the restaurant. Not hard and forced. This one was easy and gentle. Not too much but enough to take your breath. And your maybe even your heart…

You turned in your bed. Presumably for the twentieth time in that night. You were restless. Too much had happened today. Yifan’s funeral, the talk with Chanyeol, the incident with Junmyeon and of course the confession. You began to blush directly. You pressed a pillows onto your face and grunted in frustration. This has exceeded your capacities by far. How am I supposed to handle a man who probably had commited more crimes then the prisoners in the local prison combined?! You let out another groan before getting up. You couldn’t sleep anyway why not take a walk. You wrapped a gown around you before leaving your room. There weren’t any clouds which allowed the moon to light up the whole garden. You sat down onto the bench and started loosing yourself in your thoughts while starring at the moon. You sighed out loud.

“I see you also cannot sleep”,a voice ascended behind you. You jumped a little but calmed again as you regocnized Baekhyun standing in the door frame. You shook your head. 

“Too bad.” He left his previous spot and came closer. Your heart began to flutter unwillingly.

“Have you ever heard of the three signs of being alive?”

You shook your head again.

“It’a a technique I use to relax and reflect my current situations. It helps me a lot. Should I teach you how to do it? And May I?”, he smiled friendly and pointed at the bench. You nodded and slided a bit to the side to make more space for him.

“So the first sign of being alive is Breathing. Take a deep breath”, he inhaled slowly and you copied it , “Focus closely how all the fresh air is filling your lungs and giving you new energy. This keeps you going. This is keeping you alive. And now exhale. Let all the toxic things leave your body and only the good one remain.” You did as he said.

“How does it feel?”, he asked curiously.

“Umm…interesting”, you answered dumbfounded. He smiled.

“Good. Then the second sign of being alive is Feeling.” He reached over and took your hands in his. He was balancing them for a few seconds before guiding them around your neck. His stayed on top of yours.

“I want you to close your eyes for the last one.” A little hesitantly you closed your eyes. He fingers began to dance over your shoulders up and down your neck. They only took a hold every now and then to press down. You bit down on your lip. You had a hard time not to moan. The sensation was tingly and relaxing at the same time. All in all overwhelming.

“The third sign of being alive is Moving”, he withdrew his hands, “You have to try it now.“

“Don’t stop”, you said quickly and opened your eyes. The both of you stared at each other before you quietly picked up his hands and put them back on your shoulders.

“Please continue.”

Done..lol this got real weird. I’m not sure if I wanted it to be like this…I may take a little pause of this story to figure the plot out. I’m not sure when I will be able to release the next one..Sorry 😐 But I hope you still like this one♥

[vertigoambrosia]

ok back to last year’s 16 carat [just day 1]

we left off at will ospreay and shane strickland having a dance party and then being tired for a little bit

boys are dumb

i never actually listened to the podcast where ospreay apparently detailed how fucked up he is (i dont even know what podcast it was), but whenever i see him i can’t help but think about how someone needs to make this boy actually take time off to heal

HOLY SHIT they just landed on a guy! idk what i would do if a wrestler just flipadooed his way into my lap

oh man i love matches where people start countering moves

esp when i’ve never seen that counter before

and ESPECIALLY when the two guys have significant history

ok these ospreay kickouts are getting kinda dumb

i feel like some matches could or should be like, five to ten minutes shorter; sometimes it just doesn’t seem plausible that this person is absorbing all this damage and could mount a comeback

like, strickland winning after the stomp to the head would have been a ton more believeable

i aaaalmost felt that way with matt riddle at the end of the wwn title match, except that riddle was just barely kicking out and three quarters dead, and also he’s an actual mma fighter so it’s not hard to buy that he’s still kinda conscious

also riddle won by his submission, so it’s not like he had to really run around to hit a bunch of flippies or something

hah i love trevor lee’s bit where he makes part of the crowd get up like he’s gonna do a dive or something...and then just goes back into the ring

i’ve seen marty do it too

ok but back to what i’m actually watching

wow commentary can’t decide whether they want to say angelico with the spanish g (h) or the hard g they literally switched halfway through

silas seems like a weird choice to bring over but i don’t follow roh too closely

galloway is cool and i didn’t realize how big he was until i saw him wrestle in evolve; i wish he weren’t going back to wwe but alas

it’s weird cause he has an i quit match with riddle on the 23rd which...seems like a forgone conclustion? i’m not really sure i wanna seem them fight again anyway; they’re a good matchup but still

hahaha i love galloway getting the crowd to help him

tangent again: drew leavign for the ‘e is really strange because his gimmick in evolve has been all about bringing evolve to it’s true glory [he thinks that now it is slipping] and is really passionate about it even though he’s a jerk

so it’s really out of character

aw i didn’t notice drew has dimples

i’m not paying attention very well, am i?

ok i’ve been praising galloway but that silas roll/plancha was sick as fuck

heehee i love how stoked drew is :)

it’s so sweet when wrestlers are real happy about wrestling

haha more wrestler requesting help from the crowd

oh random note: apparently a former coworker of mine i follow on instagram is in a production of a play about wrestling

unfortunately it’s in florida so there’s no way i could go :(

ivanov mad sami might have killed his meal ticket

o here we go the match i decided i had to watch before continuing w/shotgun

god marty looks SO. STUPID. in that beanie

i want some lil ringkampf boxers/boxer briefs/booty shorts/whatever a comfortable version of axel’s trunks would be

lol marty ur handcuffs suck

hahaha ‘you are stupid’ when marty undoes the cuffs to chickenwing axel

lmao those cuffs really do suck

i feel like this match isn’t living up to the hype (or maybe just my hype)

maybe it’s just that the i quit stipulation gives the match a weird rythym that i’m not used to

ok when people chant for axel they say ‘axel dieter’ and then something that sounds like ‘oo gee oh’ what is it actually?

ok the finish is awesome though