#i dunno if the windows are recognizable as windows tho

[arlenianchronicles]

Throwback with a redraw! We’re returning to one of my favourite kidnap fam pieces, Fire and Smoke / Wrath and Grief, and giving it a revamp! (Sept 19, 2020 vs June 4, 2021)

With this one, I decided to show the Fëanorians’ eyes as a way to show their emotion, but hopefully also portray how the twins could potentially see them. I also went with an hourglass shape because ... Well, the Fëanorians must feel like they’re on borrowed time now, especially with the small period of respite that they have with the twins.

And I also think it looks cool! You can cover the top or bottom half and interpret the story differently, if you’re not already familiar with the Silmarillion loll (like Maedros holding a sword and looking murderous, as opposed to him carrying a child in the safety of his cloak -- and when you put them together, you get the Third Kinslaying lmaoo).

I also added closeups of the twins, especially for Elrond XDDD Gotta remove the cloak to show off his blob roumdness! :DDD

These will be up as prints in my Inprnt shop if anyone’s interested!

[dongiovannaswife]

Can I get a song fic? Affection by Amber Run... Maybe... I dunno... Abbacchio x Reader? He's remembering all the bad things/addiction issue he had, and his future gf Protecc him and he's afraid of being in love with her, but later he realizes he loves her and needs her and he finally accepts that he loves her and tells her one night while he's emotional and she's very gentle and caring even tho she's usually a badass and she just... it cute. -Rooster

SONG FIC: AFFECTION BY AMBER RUN /LEONE ABBACCHIO

Side note: okayRooster, I tried my best with the reader as a badass but I kind of ended up with amore soft reader? However, I think there are subtle hints to her badassside,,,, I really hope this is good enough *crying emoji*

CW: depression and self-doubttopics. Stay safe and DO NOT READ if you aren’t comfortable with this. 

Additional songs (mainly for inspiration): I’llbe good by Jaymes Young.

Word count: 1025.Btw, is late and I’m really tired so I apologize for any mistakes, I’ll fix them tomorrow. 

Under the cut for thetopics mentioned before.

How longhas it been since that tragic night? The night it all started.

How longhas it been since he drank until he ended up screwing his shoes? How long hasbeen since he let his hair grow, out of the careful style required for that profession?How long has it been since he felt genuine happiness? How much time has beensince he ended roaming the streets until some other drunk dudes beat him whenthey recognized him?

In fact,none of these questions has an answer.

These arejust questions around his mind, hurting him and keeping him drowning in thenumbness of whatever he’s feeling if feeling has a correlation to his perceptions:if feeling is something he still does.

Maybe thosehave an answer, an exact, bitter and realistic one. Still, Leone Abbacchio can’ttell, not when someone approaches him.

Years of traininghave been keeping him alive, just out of instinct. And sometimes, even if hedidn’t meant them to jump to the surface, he still could perceive things, eventhe smaller and inoffensive ones.

And eventhen, if he didn’t have the reflexes he has, he could still recognize her footsteps, the soft yet firm rhythm of her footsteps as she gets closer to him fromdown the hall. Stopping meters before him; Leone can feel how her eyes, thosepretty ey— burn into his back. The atmosphere is thick, as if she’s aware ofthe storm of thoughts going around his head, her voice screaming care and love;things he doesn’t deserve. Because in his experience, love comes with a price;as does affection and the good things. The price too expensive for a cheapheart to afford.  

“Abba, areyou okay?”

He tenses,fists closing and eyes glaring involuntary at the window, the wind making theplants outside move; Mista’s laughter echoing down the corridor and Narancia’sscreams bringing a certain sense of envy.

“… Yes.”

(Y/n) walksover to him, making it clear with the way she exaggerates her steps so he doesn’tfeel threatened. Even then, even if her intention is good, Abbacchio almostfeels like she’s coming to yell at him.

But he’smet with a gentle, sweet voice.

“You knowyou can count with me, right? There’s no need answering right now, I’ll bewaiting all the time you need. Just… Don’t forget yourself, alright?”

Sometimeshe wonders what it would be like, to wake up in the morning and instead ofbeing met with the face of his sadness and anger, find her face, see her eyesand hear her voice.

The sameold friends, sadness and anger, speak up: you don’t deserve her. She will neverlove you.

However,when he turns his head to her and finds her eyes locked with his, those two goaway. And suddenly all he wishes is to fall in her arms and scream a thousandtimes all he feels: for her, for the broken world and the broken system and hisbroken dreams. To let himself go, to get lost for a moment as long as she’sthere. Suddenly there’s the need to feel vulnerability once again, and be metwith kindness and love instead of rejection and bile.

She smilesand he snaps out of his daydream, punching himself mentally: thinking thatmaybe she felt uncomfortable with his glare.

“I’ll be inmy room, you can come whenever you feel like talking, okay?”•••

“She said I could come anytime.” He thinks as he walks down the hall inpajama, a man bun and no makeup. “…But it’s 3:00 AM.” Leone stops, narrowingeyes pacing back and forth as the male tries to take a decision.

“Leo?”

Her voice makes him jump: too lost on his thoughts, he didn’t heard herthis time.

She stands there with a glass of water, pajama and her hair in a mess.Still, for him, she’s beautiful. The world might be ugly, but she’s beautifulfor him.

Something seems to click then, “Do you want to talk?”

Abbacchio grunts and she nods, gesturing to her room, walking in front ofhim (Y/n) invites him to follow her.

When she closes the door and the glass of water meets the bedside table,she crosses her arms under her chest and then undoes the position, sitting inbed, patting the space at her side.

“What do you want to talk about, Leone?”

Leone Abbacchio sits at the bed and realizes, in the spot, how vulnerableand small he feels. Even then, he speaks; in a barely recognizable voice, butin the death of the night, she still hears him.

“I have something to say. It’s uh, It’s a— a feeling.”

(Y/n) nods, encouraging him.

A part of him feels the rage rise and inevitably, he spats. “Fucking hell,I love you, damn it.”

(Y/n) looks at him in the eye, serious.

Leone almost can feel his soul leave his body; shame, regret, fear—

“I love you too.”

Letting out a sigh and leaning against her and resting his foreheadagainst her shoulder, Leone Abbacchio allows himself a little taste ofvulnerability in the form and shape of a whisper. “What did I do todeserve you? Why are you still here for me, (Y/n)? Why do you love me?”Almost immediately, without realizing it or maybe in a little involuntary reaction,her arms circle his back and her face turns on his direction: lips pressing atender kiss against his skin. Then, as natural as the morning and the night, heleans back and her arms follow his way, cupping his face as they lock eyes.“You deserve me not because you have gained me, but because we were meantto be: even if it only lasts one moment or the eternity, you deserve me and Ideserve you. I love you because of who you are today, not for who you used tobe: I love you, simple as that. And I’m here for you because I want to be, andbecause you allow me to; and we will be here as long as we want.”

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #245

“i fell asleep at the wheel again, crashed my car just to feel again.”

What is your favorite condiment to go with french fries? Ketchup. What do you have a habit of doing when engaging in a conversation with someone? Obsess over the appropriate amount of eye contact I make. What color is your mp3? Hot pink. Have you ever laid in a hammock? Yeup. Is there a song or lyrics currently super-glued in your head? "Popular Monster" by Falling In Reverse FUCK What can you go a day without doing? Uhhh a lot? I dunno... oh, drink water because I suck at that gah. I've gotten a lot better than I used to be tho. What can’t you go a day without doing? Touching some form of technology. Who do you spend most of your time with? Myself. Do you have a favorite classical composer? No. What type of quality is a must-have in a friend? Treat others with kindness. Are you any good at reading someone's body language? I definitely think so. What type of art would you hang up in your room? Lol I have some of my own... but let's say it was a clean slate again. I'd put some macabre/gothic art of some sort up, probably. Of COURSE with meerkats making an appearance. What fruit is too sweet to you? Hm, I'm blanking. What was the last contest you have ever won: Uhhhh... I think the giveaway of two Silent Hill: Revelation things? That was forever ago. What was the worst hair cut you have ever had in your entire life: Looking back, the haircut I had before this one (short on the left, faded into still rather long on the right) I don't really like anymore. Looks fine in some pictures, but not most. What was the worst thing you have ever worn in your life: Oh I don't know. Probably some dance costume. Do you like any sort of animes: Yeah, a handful. I'd honestly like to watch more. Have you ever used someone for your own benefits: I don't think so. What is the worst cartoon you have ever seen: Oh boy, idk. There's some dumb ones, a lot that I've only seen peeks of. Do you like to type or write more: TYPE. Writing physically can easily make my carpal tunnel act up. I hated having to hand-write a few essays last semester... I had to stop frequently to roll my wrists and cringe and stuff. What color would you have your skin if you could change it: I'd like pale skin like I have, but I wish it was more flawless/porcelain-ish. SOOOOOO pretty ahahhhhhhhhahhhhhh Do you usually cook your own meals, or does someone cook for you: I usually have to throw something together in the microwave because Mom's barely home, but when she is home, she cooks. If someone cooks for you, do you always thank them for it: YES. YES. NOT SAYING ANYTHING IS SO FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL. What do you do during the day: Almost without question, SOMEthing on technology/usually computer. As for what I do on technology, boy, a lot a lot. I don't even feel like listing it all. When you are online what do you normally find yourself doing: ... Oh, lmao. Uhhh binging YouTube, writing on or just checking up on KM, dA browsing/cleaning my drowning inbox, Facebook, "working" at the SH and SotC wikis, playing games, roaming Tumblr, check my emails, uhhhhhhh,,,, What is the most hated item you own: I wouldn't... keep it if I hated it? Uhhhh yeah, I honestly don't know. What is your favorite item you own out of all the items you have: My iPod, really. I have over 1k songs on this old-ass nano that I've had since middle school. I guess my laptop is kinda tied, but idk. Like, I don't love this laptop itself, just that it allows me to go online at a decent speed lmao. I guess they're my favorites in different ways. So, do you think that you will get where you want in life currently: Not stopping pushing for it 'til I get it. Why is that so. May I ask: I'm "too" determined. It's been a struggle getting to even where I am, but FUCK, I'm getting there. Do you like Halloween: I can't fwu if you don't. Has a teacher ever flirted with you? Not to my recollection. Is it okay for friends to kiss each other, as friends? Personally, I think a simple peck is fine IF that's your thing and it's mutually understood that it's platonic. Ex., I know greeting kisses are normal in some cultures, and I see no reason to shame it so long you're not like making out. Is it okay for girls to hit boys? Fuck no. Unless you're like fighting off an assailant/defending yourself, NO gender hits ANYONE. Do you know a lot of attractive boys personally? I've never thought about it? I'm not gonna dig through all the people I know rn... What happens if you realized you had a crush on somebody? More than anything, I'd be scared of being hurt again, particularly if it's a guy. So I definitely wouldn't make the first move. Do you think you are attractive? No. Which two of your friends would have the cutest baby together? I don't know. How do you feel about your naked body? DON'T COME AT ME WITH THIS QUESTION GO AWAY Have you ever been called obnoxious? No. At least, not to my memory. Do you wish you had a bigger family? No, but a more close-knit one. Which friend would you kiss full on the mouth, no questions asked? Sara. If somebody smacks your butt, you automatically say: I wouldn't say shit, I'd turn around and smack them across the face. How often does your family life conflict with your social life? Pretty much never. Have you ever been emotionally abused? No, thankfully. Do small children like you? They seem to, I guess. If karma is really true, should you be worried? Not very. What makeup do you wear on a daily basis? None. Do you have anything hidden in your room? Yeah, some saved money. What do you wish you were doing right now instead of this? It'd be great to talk to Sara. If you had a baby, would you want to have it at home or in a hospital? Oh I'm going to the fucking hospital for that epidural fren. If I even wanted kids. What was the last thing you ordered online? Uhhh good question. Have you ever had a bad experience with anti-depressants? If so, what? Well, actually the entire time I was ON anti-depressants. Because I'm bipolar, anti-depressants actually ramp up the aggression of bipolarity symptoms. How, I don't recall the science of, but I trust every word that comes out of my psychiatrist's mouth for many reasons. That definitely happened. One also made me gain weight, and the worst instance was in middle school when I was briefly on one that made me SO fucking hyper and happy in the morning but I crashed into an absolute bitchy monster by mid-afternoon. Now a combination of mood stabilizers helps both my bipolarity and depression immensely and are the main reason I'm alive. Are you allergic to any plants? I mean, I'm allergic to pollen. Are you an outdoors person? If the weather is cool, I love it. Does your past bother you? Some parts of it. Do you take risks or play it safe? I tend to play it safe. What forms of art do you like the best? This is an absolutely impossible question. "Art" has such an incredible range of forms, and I enjoy like... all. I guess the one thing I don't particularly care for is abstract art. What forms of art do you want to try? HYPERREALISM IN DRAWING. I REALLY wanna be able to draw/paint/whatever and make it look so true to life, BUT I'd like to add fantasy aspects to what I'm making (for example, my characters). I'd love to do portraits, too. This isn't really a "type" of art, but one thing I desperately want in art is to actually develop my own recognizable style that isn't just a wobbly attempt at realism with shitty proportions. What’s your favorite planet? Saturn's dope. Has a medication ever made you itch? No. What’s your favorite rainy day activity? Cuddle with snacks and like binge a good TV show/YT videos, etc. BUT considering I'm single I'ma just take a nap if I'm actually tired and you can hear the rain on the window. Do you put creamer in your tea? I wonder how many times I'll tell surveys I hate tea lmao by the end of my life lmao. What do you think are some good names for twins? I don't care enough to think about this. What are three things that fascinate you? Animal behavior (particularly social), the paranormal, and genetics. Would you say you live more in the past, present, or future? Present, I think. Have you ever been a victim of a crime? Not me personally, no, but my family. We had our basketball hoop stolen from our front yard and I was mega tilted yo. Does injustice make you angry? More like it infuriates me. Do you have the bad habit of procrastinating? Very badly. Are you afraid of running into a certain person in public? I both am and am not afraid of running into Jason. I have a very strong feeling I'd start having a PTSD episode (by that I mean hyperventilating, crying a bit, and shaking at the very least), but simultaneously I just want him to know I'm sorry. Do you have anyone you avoid? No. Do you have the same dreams now that you did as a kid? No. Who’s your crush? I don't really know if I have one right now. My old friend Ian and I started talking, and he's a fucking hilarious dude with similar ethics to mine with great compassion, but I still don't know him well enough to say I like-like him. I'm honestly just happy to have an irl friend again that actually talks to me regularly. Do you trust the government? I believe in WAY too many conspiracy theories to even try to convince anyone I trust the government lmao. Who do you want to meet in Heaven? I don't know exactly what sort of afterlife I believe in (it's not the traditional Heaven though), but I do believe that souls can reunite. The first thing I want to see again is Teddy. Does your school take sports too seriously? Considering we're well-respected in the sports field to the degree we draw in a huge number of foreign athletes, guess you could say yes lmao. Most of the people I even slightly know here came for sports. If there are bruises on your body, how did you get them? There aren’t. Would you ever go back in time to do something over again, but differently? Yes. Where did you kiss the last person you kissed? The airport. Have you thought about your wedding in detail? Not great detail, no. Do you think you could ever really kill someone? In self-defense, I know I could. Do you like Papa John’s pizza? I couldn't even guess the last time I had it. I don't remember. Do you attend school? Yeah. Do you call it a crush, or do you just say you like someone? The latter. Where were you when the ball dropped? In my bed asleep lmao. Where are your siblings? Probably all at work. Waffles, pancakes, or french toast? French toast. Do you ever judge people based on if they believe in God or not? Not really, but I WILL wonder to myself if you believe in some of the bullshit just about every religion has somewhere. Are you sometimes scared to express your opinions in fear of what others might think? YUP YUP YUP! Mainly irl tho. Have you ever painted your nails on only one hand, forgetting about the other one or getting side-tracked? No. Have you ever gone to one of those parties where everyone is falling around drunk everywhere? No. Been to one where everyone was high, though. Are you “the good guy”, or “the bad guy”, or somewhere in between? I'd hope the good guy. Do you ever erase the numbers off of surveys just because they annoy you? Ha ha yeah. Do you think you will have the same best friend a year from now? Yes. Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one? Yes, all but one. What do you hear right now? "Another Life" by Motionless In White. Proud as fuck because this song was a MASSIVE PTSD trigger at first and even made me cry, but despite it still making me kinda uncomfortable, I can listen to and enjoy it now. If an ex said they hated you, what would you say? The only three people whose opinions would matter there would be Sara, Girt, and Jason. Sara and Jason would fucking break me, while I think Girt would of course make me cry, but I just. Wouldn't be surprised to lose another irl friend. I'd be so fucking hurt by any. OH YEAH, what would I say? I think Sara would have me speechless. I'd probably just choke out, "I don't blame you," to Jason. Girt, my first instinct pondering this was "are you serious?" because he's such a joker while my stomach dropped. What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship? I'd be happy for her, but still feel kinda sad that it wasn't me. What do you think when someone kisses you on your forehead? If I like the person, I feel very comforted. It like... makes me feel small, safe, and permitted to just let my emotions loose, ex. be "allowed" to cry. What do you usually do right when you wake up? Check my phone to see the time. Truthfully, is there someone you used to date that you miss? I don't want to answer this. Do the math. Have you ever gotten burnt by a cigarette? No. Do you brush your teeth right away when you wake up? No. Have you ever made someone laugh when they were crying? Yeah. Would you date someone three years older than you? Yeah. Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning? Actually as of recently, the morning. It's a nice way to start the day clean and energized. Could you handle living with the last person you texted? I'd love to live with her. Was the last book you read for fun, or was it for some type of assignment? It was assigned, but I loved it. Have you accomplished any goals you set for yourself this year so far? Not really? Well no, I think I'm being a less procrastinating student and also not fleeing so quickly from situations that invoke my anxiety. Are there still movie rental stores where you live or have they all gone out of business? SOBS Blockbuster come BACK we NEED u. What was the last thing to annoy you or make you upset? Eh, it was stupid and something that realistically isn't worth being annoyed by. I was SUPER bored and tired yesterday waiting for Mom to finish her field work while I waited in the library after classes, and I was so ready to go home, but she stayed longer than she thought she would. Do you think you would be a good match for your celebrity crush/es assuming you have one? Why? If you don’t have one, who was the last person you saw that you found attractive? Actually, not really. He's way too motivated and drawn to people who push forward and get shit done, and just in general at least from how I "know" him as a fan I could only realistically see us as friends. But a fangirl can dream ok just let me dream. When looking for something to watch on TV do you tend to pick shows you know you like, or try new shows that look interesting even though you’ve never heard of them before? I'll answer hypothetically if I watched TV: probably something I know I like. Might get adventurous every now and again and try something new, though, especially if it's on a channel I like. How old were you when you had your wisdom teeth removed? I haven't had to. I juuuuust slightly have enough room where I DID have them grow in. Where was the last job application you filled out sent to? Uhhh probably the deli, which I got and lasted for two hours my first work day lmao. Have you ever been fired from a job? No. What do people tell you your voice sounds like? I dunno, kinda deep for a girl and lacking an accent most of the time. What financial class are you? Lower. What poster is hanging closest to you? A huge Nightmare Before Christmas one. Are you more comfortable with men or women? Women. Would you go on a date with someone right now if they asked? Maybe if Ian did? Idk. It'd be a nice way to get to know more about each other, but I'd only agree to it after we talked a bit longer. Does your family keep tons of leftovers in the fridge? Not "a ton." Things we'll eat again though, yes. Favorite FRIENDS character? That is, if you like it. I haven't watched it. Are you thinking of getting another piercing? Where? Hell yes. Pretty sure next is collarbones if I could just lose a little bit more weight so they're more visible. Do you love when people remember little things about you? YES OMG!!!!!!!!!! Do you ‘bless’ strangers when they sneeze? Yes, I just think it's common good manner. Even though the reasoning behind it is whatever, it's a societal thing that I just go along with. How many phones have you gone through? Idk, not too many. Have you always lived in the house you currently reside in? No.