#i feel like you can tell which additions are mine and which are rain's haha

[them4lware]

opened ; michael afton npt pack ! target ; anonymous user . . .

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⚠︎ names charlie ; fitz ; schmidt ; drew ; ash ; ace ; rowan ; cain ; kye ; josh ; connor ; soren ; maverick ; anders ; reese ; dante ; rene ; winona ; genesis ; cyrus ; lawrence ; crowell

⚠︎ pronouns mask/masks ; rot/rots ; mech/mechs ; bot/bots ; exe/exes ; zom/zomb ; gho/ghost ; decay/decays ; soul/souls ; cor/corpse ; gli/glitch ; robo/robos ; wire/wires ; haunt/haunts ; grave/graves ; crow/crows ; lock/locks ; fox/fox ;

⚠︎ titles prn who is rotten inside ; the mechanical (noun/one) ; the (other) purple (noun/one) ; the night guard ; the technician ; the reanimated (noun/one) ; the possessed (noun/one) ; prn who is vengeful ; the pawn ; prn who was tricked ; the hunter ; the solution ; prn who was reborn ; the undead (noun/one) ; the unfortunate mechanic

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[shaekingshitup]

unintended part two

A/N: ALRIGHTY FOLKS! WE ARE BACK WITH SOME MORE ACTION FOR MR. JACKSON! As of now, the face claim for the reader is going to be Keke Palmer

But, if you’re anything like me. All I did was just post a picture of someone who wishes they were you and in this fic with you and Trevor Jackson haha. Whatever floats your boats friends. Please note that echoic memory is a real thing. It just doesn’t work how I described it haha. More like echoic and As always thanks to @glittermakesmesmile​ for giving me the first feedback and confidence to even post these things. Also big shout out to @twistedcharismaaa​ who helped me challenge myself to write more even if I don’t feel like it. So, this series will hopefully get some more chapters coming soon!

WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW:

Pairing: Trevor Jackson x Black OC

Warnings: NONE

Word Count: approx 2500

HERE WE GO!

^ Jayden’s Song Association Fit

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“Let me take my Black ass to the restroom while we got ourselfs a break. ROCKSY, what’s that cam’ra lookin’ like? We need another battery?”

“We’re good. Jayden, you want a snack?” Roxy redirected at their latest arrival. Jayden tried to sneak a look at the biggest one in the room and failed. He smiled at her. Her glance had caught both of them off guard and it made him feel giddy. It was the most beautiful and natural response she'd received from him-or anyone for that matter- in a while.

“I’m good.” she said hiding her own bashfulness behind her steely exterior. She maintained eye contact with Trevor. Roxy opened up a cabinet to pull out an assortment of Lays and refill the chip bowls that Trevor had demolished when he’d shown up 

“ Imma keep tryin. Venmo? Paypal? Zelle? CashApp? Damn, I can get it to you in Bitcoin if that’s what you prefer.”

“How have you done on the game so far?” Jayden again completely ignored his attempts to repay her. She wasn’t concerned about a few extra dollars. 

“I’m doin alright so far." He also refused to break contact first "So far Song Association has been the easiest game for me to navigate today.” Jayden blinked and conceded for now. Motivated by his win Trevor strolled over to the living room where she was admiring some of Terrell’s music selection.

“Clever.” she tossed over her shoulder as she reached for a vinyl. In one swift motion, Trevor had taken it from her mid-review. 

“Al Green?” He smirked. “ You’ve got taste J. Let me guess.. uh, track 5?”

“What?”

“That’s your single. I see it. No worries though. We can work on that.” he said just as he caught a glimpse of Terrell returning back into the room. Trevor placed the album back in her hands and returned to his stool, readjusting his mic. 

“Alright, Mr. Jackson. YA READY?! No more stoppin’ this midnight train to Georgia.” Terrell hollered. Jayden giggled at his silliness as she glanced at the tracklist for Al Green’s Greatest Hits. 

Track 5: Tired of Being Alone

Damn he cocky. Jayden thought. At least it wasn’t in an overbearing manner. It was a little endearing. He seems a little goofy. That smile was very telling.  But she wouldn’t show that just yet. Sitting back in her audience of one, Jayden watched them continue to play.

 “If I gave you the word “Never” what hits your mind?” Terrell asked the singer. Trevor starts going into a Jackson 5 single that Jayden honestly didn’t know. But, she knows that he is DOING IT. Her eyes go wide as his Michael impression is spot on and before she can even register her own body's movements, she's vibing with it. Music always had a way of helping her with her emotions and channeling a less.. “feisty”,as it had been put earlier, connection with herself and the rest of the world. She was moving around in her seat and doing her best not to spill her coffee over herself or her new friend’s floor.

"Oh shit!" she said clamping her hand over her mouth immediately. That was louder than she expected. Especially since it hadn't meant to leave her head at all. "I'm sorry," she whispered. 

"AHA HA" Roxy guffawed. "I tried to warn you. Don't worry Jayden.  We'll fix it in post anyways"

"Jayden you good girl. I had the same reACTion the first time I laid my eyes- I meant my ears on Trevor" Terrell stated taking a very pointed sip from his mug. Everyone knew he'd meant what he'd said the first time and it was causing them all to try not to break into laughter so they could push forward. 

"Yeah. Very natural response J. Hakuna matata" Trevor confirmed. Jayden playfully rolled her eyes. 

"What's the next word? He's a lil too comfortable" she spoke up.

Terrell nodded at Jayden and refocused on Trevor. "WAY. w-a-y" 

Without hesitation, he bursted into song. It was another that Jayden was sadly unfamiliar with. 

What is in this man's repertoire?

Soon enough Terrell explained that it was an original off of a project called Rough Drafts 2. At once Jayden grabbed her phone and opened her Spotify app. Creating a new playlist, she glanced up at the boys and locking in on Trevor she came up with an idea. "Thotful n Tired 💭" she titled it. She was adding damn near his whole discography when her ears perked up at the fact that he had an additional 200 unreleased singles on his computer at home. The more time spent in his presence the more the question of "Who the hell is this nigga?" rose in Jayden's mind. 

Trevor responded to Terrell all the while staring at Jayden and answering her unspoken question as well.

"So any fans that live in L.A. and you wanna just come and listen to new music not recorded.." he trailed off leaving an open invitation for Jayden and the rest of LA.

He really just said: Come find out

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Jayden was both relieved and saddened when Trevor was finished with his Song Association. In a very short time, she'd learned a lot about this person she'd never even heard of until that afternoon. As his song had promised, he truly had her beggin for more.  The way they interacted and the feelings she felt towards him had grown quickly but it was familiar. It seemed as if they'd already done this dance before. Jayden was trying to figure out how to rationalize this to herself but she couldn't. It was the way that she and Trevor had silently held private conversations  in a room with others.  Even as they were learning one another, a lot of the pieces already seemed to be connected. 

Trevor was filming his spot for Terrell’s outro. It took every ounce of restraint in Jayden not to cackle out loud when he said “I think we’re gonna queue the rain right now. Mm hmm. You feel that? This is not a joke. It’s a motion in your ocean.” 

Trevor had made her feel a range of emotions in their time together. Jayden had laughed, she’d pondered a topic or two she’d never fully considered, she’d felt sexy and above all else- she felt noticed. Truly seen.  It was a lot. But, the girl was a hustler by nature. So, she was keeping up with each curveball that day had thrown at her. 

“Imma run to the restroom” Jayden announced. She wasn’t certain why she felt the need to do so. But it seemed far more courteous than roaming through Terrell’s halls. 

“Alright we gotta get ready for you when ya done Miss Jayden!” Terrell called out. 

When she returned, there was no Trevor in sight. Just Roxy and Terrell. Jayden wasn’t disappointed for them being there. Although she was a little put off that Trevor had exited so quickly and without saying goodbye?  She wasn’t about to let that show though. Sure, she really thought she’d felt a connection with him. But, she wasn’t going to let it get in the way of the single calendar event of her year- outside of her birthweek of course. 

“My turn?” Jayden asked as she returned back into the kitchen where the green screen was.  

“Mmmhhmm” Terrell affirmed “I just gotta follow you to this res’room. I dun broke my damn seal. Plus,  we waitin on Trevuh to finish his call.” As if he heard his queue, the front door opened and Trevor came back in. 

“Oh.” Jayden let out. Trevor studied her as Terrell turned towards his restroom. Roxy was on the balcony getting some air and making a call of her own. 

She was feening her cool, unbothered mask. But that one syllable had given her away. “What? You thought I left?” he asked. 

“I mean you were gone. So, yeah.” Jayden said shrugging her shoulders and throwing her wrist back dismissively.

  “Huh.” Trevor stared back quizzically. “I can’t do that just yet. One: I don’t think it’s fair that you got to see mine and I don’t get to see yours and two: I still need to figure out a way to make sure we’re even.”

“Ahh. So you’re stayin?”

“I got a little extra time. Plus, this is definitely worth it. But look, promise me something real quick.”

“Yeah, what’s that?”

“Since you’re so gung-ho on not taking back the money which is owed to you. Let me pay my debt another way.”

“What if I like the notion of Trevor Jackson being forever indebted to me?” The smolder he returned to her made her feel that someone had pressed play on Puddles again. But she simply crossed her arms and cocked her head at him. They were in yet another staring contest. 

Trevor let a beat pass as he wound up his pitch in his mind. “Aight, how about-

“Okay. I hope ya’ll enjoyed.. Ya break,” Terrell trailed off as he walked in on the tension that occupied the room. Jayden took a small step back from Trevor. She hadn’t realized that they were all in each other's personal space. 

“Yup. I’m ready.” Roxy re-entered from the balcony and grabbed the mic Trevor had used earlier that day to affix to Jayden. “Feel okay?”

“It does.” Jayden said. All of a sudden all of that calm she’d felt left her. She was getting the nerves again. She wasn’t certain if it was because of the game she was going to play or the one she’d been entangled in since she’d laid eyes on Trevor. He himself was still trying to figure out this woman. She had a hard exterior and a beguiling sexual energy that he couldn’t detach himself from. When she sat on that stool allowing Terrell to compliment her outfit and introduce herself a little bit, she radiated. She also had a pretty good voice too for a Shits and Giggles winner. 

“I’m mad at you” Terrell said. 

“Why?” Jayden

“I hear it. I hear that there in ya throat box. You got them vocals.” Terrell said. “Why you hidin?”

“Ohmygod. Hush. I can hold a tune here and there. But I don’t know about them vocals. I don’t know how to control it.” 

Terrell squinted his eyes. “I don’t believe it. Sing that song again. Because you got the emotion. I can tell you feel these songs here. You haf’way there but you too worried about sounded perfect. Let that go.” 

Jayden was quick to adapt. She took that advice from Terrell and moments later you could hear the difference. Closing her eyes she tried again

Have you ever found the one

You've dreamed of all of your life

Do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to

Jayden tried her best not to get into her head about fucking up and pushed the nervousness down within her. Because when she became tense it would lock up her voice and she would miss her mark altogether

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

She exhaled from her nose and smiled because she’d clearly sounded better than the first time 

Have you ever closed your eyes and

Dreamed that they were there

Jayden opened her eyes and stopped. She may not have control; but, she knew her limit 

“Now I know you didn’t stop.” Jayden picked up some of the liquid courage Terrell had fixed her. Her coffee was long gone by this point. She couldn’t keep the fear at bay. She didn’t want to make that big of a fool of herself today and have her voice crack like a pre-pubescent teen. 

Trevor was taking it all in.  She was a whole party when put on the spot and she easily gave off a coolness that made you certain to never cross her. She was not one to be played with.  But it was obvious that music opened up another avenue to Jayden. Trevor had seen it when their roles were reversed. She was empathetic to the emotions of  whichever song he sang. 

Her music taste was eclectic as well. She’d come through with country, gospel, r&b, showtunes and she seemed to have every Chicago rapper’s discography down pat. Trevor was genuinely impressed by her ability to copy and paste an artist’s essence into her own. She was fucking up the game and had songs for every word Terrell threw her way. 

“RIGHT R-I-G-H-T” Terrell announced. Jayden glanced a look at Trevor and then she gave her undivided attention to Terrell. 

Just stand right here

Let me show you what I'm about

To do to that body

And come down here

Let me show you where to touch my body

Let the foreplay begiiiin

Bet you never had this before

Cause once I go iiiiiiin

I'm gone have you begging for more

Boy, I'm talking right now, right now, right now, yeah

Right now, oh

Can we make some love right now? 

Jayden laughed and when she’d finished, there was silence. It was like someone had pressed the mute button in real life. Then the room erupted with noise at once 

“UH UH”

“hOw?” 

“Whoa whoa whoa”  all crashed on top of each other. 

“What?” Jayden asked. 

“WHAT?! This heffa really just said WHAT? TUH!” Terrell hollered.

“Wait. You said you’d never heard of Trevor before,” said a very baffled Roxy.

“Before a few hours ago, no. I hadn’t.” Roxy said. Jayden gave a shrug in Trevor’s direction. 

“But you just sang his song?” Roxy asked

“Yeah. Because I heard him sing it earlier. 

“You mean to tell me, that you heard this negro sang that song one time half an hour ago and you committed it to your memory?”

“Yes. I have perfect echoic memory. Obviously I don’t always process this in a way where I can duplicate it perfectly. But, I can mimic it pretty close.”

Trevor finally spoke up. “So when you hear something you can pull up that audio in your mind and not only play it back for yourself but you’ve trained yourself to be able to mimic it almost dead ass spot on?”

“Yeah. That’s pretty much it.” Jayden said as if she’d just read rattled off the day’s weather report. “You’re pretty sharp.” The compliment rolled off of Trevor in his astonished state of mind. Just then, his phone vibrated in his pocket. “Damn” he muttered looking at the screen. “Aite y’all, that’s my cue.” I gotta head out. Just as his mother had done, Trevor said goodbye to everyone individually. He saved Jayden for last.  “Good luck Jayden. It was nice meeting you. Matter of fact, let me get your info so I can follow up with you to see if you really get that perfect score” He offered his phone out to her with the keypad pulled up. 

“Oh, you already know that I came to win today.” she tapped some buttons and gave him back his phone. Looking down, Trevor realized that she’d followed herself on his Instagram account.  She smiled but her eyes only said one word: 

Checkmate. 

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[sighingsiren-tales]

ZODIAC MEN

So, I haven’t really said it much here but I have been healing from something terrible and this was my way of healing. I love astrology and this is something that I may start permanently in addition to the fan fiction I write here. I hope you enjoy it~Kae

*Note, this is from the perspective of a Leo Sun, Aquarius Moon, Leo Mercury, Virgo Venus and Rising and Scorpio Mars. (I’m a female) 

ARIES

❌My middle school boyfriend. Ha, you still hit me up and tell me i look cute and how we’re gonna have kids from time to time, maybe even flirt with me here and there. can’t say i don’t like it the attention but that ship sailed long ago. Funny, a definite goofball, popular after his insecurity phase was over. 

❌one of the first guys i fucked in college. lol you were fun, fun as hell. you were always easy going, funny and matched my energy relatively well but you were most definitely a fuckboy (sorry) you just liked pussy and women too much for us to ever work, assuming you even wanted us to work. You still tried to hit on me when i had a boyfriend (who was your roommate) and when you had a girlfriend. Bold as hell and he was h u g e.

❌ah, one of the few of your kind that I actually like on campus. loud personality but actually very timid. always asks me how to seduce people and tells me that I get what i want relatively easy. a ball of insecurities and emotion. learn your value king and get over that. 

TAURUS

❌over emotional man child lmao sorry. you want someone to be your mother and hold your hand and i can honestly say no one has hurt me like you have. too self absorbed, needs reassurance, can’t be himself. drinks and smokes too much. navy dude.

❌one of my self proclaimed brothers. he’s a bit of a hard ass and a commitmentphobe but he has a big heart and truly acts like a second dad haha. i love him as a friend. caring, soft, funny, protective asf (especially of me), won’t let me walk back to my dorm alone. 

❌my little brother. a pain in my ass. acts tough and hard, uses a lot of slang. needs attention and reassurance often. loves hard but can be annoying. told me he cared about me when i ran away. needs a healthier way to show his emotions. we butt heads a lot as kids. stubborn as hell. love you though kid 

❌ahh, this one (he’s a cusp kid, 4/20 hehe blaze it). honestly a super hero. so caring and sweet but also kinky and your handprint is kinda still on my ass. i had a crush on you before you did. honest, respectful, loveeessssss his mom, has a lot of female friends (which makes me a bit jealous). anime buddy. patient, protective, a bit of a temper (it’s kinda hot), the best kind of man. can get me to open up but strengthen me at the same time?? my superman, the only man i don’t mind being vulnerable to. reminds me of an anime character. a warrior with a heart of g

GEMINI

 ❌fun while it lasted and i’m pretty sure i was your flavor of the month and you were mine as well. you were funny, and meshed with my energy well. didn’t last long in bed tho😬 your laugh was contagious. really good dancer. can’t hold a relationship for your LIFE. not good with emotions, a free spirit. kinda wishy washy. didn’t like it when i avoided hanging out. 

❌quiet, had an intimidating presence. everyone thought you were scary but you were funny, logical and very headstrong. strong silent type. always opened up with me but no one else. has a “lone wolf mentality” strongest man i know. made me happy with who i am, gave the best advice. unmovable, easy going. the one i stay with at all family functions. a big chunk of my heart. love you big bro.

CANCER

 ❌absolute trash lmao. always attracted drama and stuck his nose where it didn’t belong. ultimate instigator. i think you just need a diary and a xanax. everyone said you tried to break up me and my (then) boyfriend?? cute but annoying. an acquired taste (and that’s me being nice)

❌my little baby brother. the sweetest thing upon planet earth. always asks me if i’m okay, comes to me when he’s sad and cried when i told him i was leaving for college. tells me he loves my hair and nails and always protects his big sis. always excited to see me. so smart, a damn genius actually. amazing with technology. i love you so much little man.

LEO

 ❌ahh my first love. so caring, tender, sweet but had too many scars and wounds for us to heal together. we made so many mistakes with one another but you were always trying to be my own personal naruto and, for a while, you were. and for those few months you were my everything. kept me going when i wanted to die. kissed my scars all the time. always bought me food. loved to spoil me. had a temper and hid his emotions. put everyone before himself too much. things ended bad and our egos clashed. i hurt you. i’m sorry. the last words we said to each other were good bye and i love you. 

❌someone at college who wants to fuck me lmao. always hugs me really tight, stares me down in a way where i know he’s undressing me mentally. says love is bullshit but wants a happy ending and i know it. also also, you’re not fucking me lmao.

VIRGO

 ❌my summertime coworker. a party animal, mentally resilient and smart as all hell. we fooled around once lmao but it never got far. funny as fuck. never spoke about what he had going on but i know he was hurting. a perfectionist, a scammer. 

❌sweet in a weird kinda of way. always asks if i’m okay. always asks if i need something, always willing to help. trusts me to make my own decisions and encourages me to think for myself and watch my back. hard working, quiet with bit of a hardshell. never lets anything dictate who he is. love you uncle. 

LIBRA

❌my distant friends ex; wishy washy. not very good with commitment. really cute room and good fashion sense. pretty lips; respectful and honest fuck boy. made a move on me once after a party once. pops in and out of my life. 

❌invited me to a gala once. loved the attention of having me on my arm. hated my ex. smoked weed a lot, easy going and soft spoken. never got angry, went along with anything. probably in jail or in some legal trouble right now.

SCORPIO

❌you wanna fuck me. lol i know you do and you’ve made it clear as the only thing you want me for. came up to my room and tried to barge in after i told you not to. kinda creepy. quiet. doesn’t say much. always seemingly where i am. in my same major, soooo tall, soft spoke voice. 

❌oh boy. obsessive. possessive, jealous. we were good friends. then you fell in love with me. i didn’t think of you that way. you told me it was okay and then began to blow up my phone with messages, text my friends to ask where i was and blow up on me when i said we needed space and cursed me out. safe to say we don’t talk anymore. when i blocked you, you emailed me an apology and asked my friend to tell me you’re sorry and give me your letter. overthinks a lot. always needs to be in the know and/or control. consuming. reallll timid and unconfident. weed addict. total beta male.

❌you’re sexy. i’ll give you that. and you’re smart. you pop and out of my life. easy going. sweet. quiet, distant and a little annoying with your wishy washyness. i took your virginity 😬 lmao yikes. always around a group of females. nice hair, always played in mine. really funny and the times where you matched my energy it was magic. 

SAGITTARIUS

❌lol uh i knew you in high school. went to harvard. super super attractive, very competitive and very funny. had a pretty chill vibe. i wanted to kiss you. had perfect teeth, the valedictorian of the class before me. 

❌a hardass, lol. sees things like they’re black and white. has a funny side, hilariousssss but in a mean kind of way. doesn’t show much emotions but you know he cares. blunt. caring in his own way. took me to get my first tattoo. affectionate in a awkward pat back type of way. when he sees me sad, he helps best he can although that’s not always in the best of ways. helped me get through my grammy’s death. my dad. 

CAPRICORN

 ❌ah the fwb that turned into my boyfriend. we should’ve never happened. i care for you but a relationship was a bad idea. we started based off sex. was fucking a lot of girls when when with me (9 of them lmao yikes 😬) aloof, funny, dorky, another anime buddy. thinks he knows everything, thinks he’s a god (literally), an emotional baby when it comes down to it. made me his reason and told me he loved me. i regret telling you i loved you too. gas s god complex and wants things to come to him with minimal effort. 

❌ahh, you always had a thing for me. you and everyone else told me. held my umbrella for me while we walked in the rain. told me i was perfect, always promised that you’d marry me. pop in my life from time to time. down with anything. 

AQUARIUS

❌ ahhh the forbidden fruit. distant, friendly, charming, a liar. very sexual, always complimented me and once told me he loved me(yikes). really cute, made me feel special, has been trying to get me for yrs. not sure if it’s just sex or if it’s more but not giving myself the chance to be hurt and find out. sometimes i wonder what we could’ve been but the drama attached to your back makes me think otherwise. i still think of you from time to time. great kisser. 

PISCES 

❌my self proclaimed older brother. really knowledgeable, wise, sweet, loves his girlfriend with all his heart. encourages me to open up. supports me the best way i need, not always want lol. funny, a meme lord, hilarious in a subtle way. knows he’s that bitch. has almost all female friends but still retains his masculinity perfectly stronger than he lets on. an absolute blessing. helped me learn to love who i was and to be open to living others.

❌a wanna be gangster. lmao wants to fuck me but not happening. a big ball of unsorted through emotions. needs to get over his toxic masculinity but soft, caring. a big ass baby. unfaithful and childish. needs to learn his self worth within himself. daddy issues.

[canonicallyanxious]

this is soo selfish of me to ask but can I please ask what your thoughts are to how simon and bram find each other in the 'we fell like rain' au?? Like do you think it'd happen the same, because I guess they cant give away all that much away about one another without the other one guessing, bc they know a lot more about each other, being best friends? Like Simon could mention one thing about an oreo and I can imagine bram guessing it, haha. But Id really love to hear your thoughts on this! (1/2)

(2/2) bc that fic you wrote is sooo beautiful, I'm so curious as to how everything would play out in that world. I wonder if Simon might have been able to guess it in this verse?? Ahh, so many questions haha sorry! Love your writing

Hi friend! first of all thank you so much for your kind words and for thinking about we fell like rain!! It honestly means the world to me that you would want to know more about this verse like idk it’s just beyond amazing to me that anyone would want to?? second before i proceed i just wanted to say i believe very firmly in death to the author so if you have your own hcs and ideas about what happens next you are 1000000% free to have them and they are totally, completely valid - as I most likely won’t be continuing this verse, your guess is honestly as good as mine! having said that, here are some of the thoughts i have [with a cut bc yikes this got long]:

so first of all i think it’s worth mentioning that unlike Bram, i don’t think Simon would be quite as aware of his feelings for Bram; in simon vs, he’s very adamant about having a “policy of not falling for straight guys” in relation to Nick and so i feel like that would kind of carry over to Bram too if they happened to be close friends, especially considering Simon is much more oblivious and less self aware than Bram is; the feelings might be there, but would he recognize them as such? that’s harder to determine. i feel like he’s the kind of person who’d take his thoughts of how attractive Bram is and be like “but obviously everyone thinks that of him” kind of similarly to how Bram was with Simon in the fic lol

i can see it going a lot of ways, of course, but in my head the trajectory of the plot at least is pretty similar [at least in terms of their relationship developing through email, the blackmail plot, Simon being outed, etc.; one would have to imagine in addition to this their irl friendship would be developing, too - think of the pining!]. i’m not sure that i think Bram would figure out who Jacques was sooner than he did in canon [although you could maybe make the argument that he might have figured it out pretty soon in canon], mostly because he would probably try not to get his hopes up even more fiercely than in simon vs. i feel like his self-preservation instincts are pretty strong, so he’d be trying to protect himself from himself if that makes sense? in that sense, i feel like for him there would be an added dimension of, like, first of all trying really hard to get over irl simon [and maybe not being able to] and seeing similarities between jacques and irl simon as himself projecting his feelings onto jacques, subsequently resulting in lots of guilt and stuff. which could potentially cloud his perception a lot! but after a while i feel like even Bram wouldn’t be able to ignore it.

On Simon’s end, i’m not sure he’d be able to guess it either. It’s conceivable that he would! in my head though the fact that Bram actually mentioned the person he has feelings for in his original post would probably cause him to be even more careful about the information he divulges; it’s a big school but i’m sure Bram is well aware of the fact that most people would know who his “group” is. also there’s all the aforementioned not really in touch with his feelings and probably would make a conscious effort not to assume it was anyone he actually knew stuff

with all that in mind, in canon the emails were very much the one place these boys could be really open about themselves and talk about being gay, and that would still be a big thing in this verse, but i find the idea that the emails are the one place they can be open about being gay but not really much else about themselves to be compelling when juxtaposed with how Simon and Bram share lots of themselves with each other but they feel like they can’t be open about this one big thing. it would certainly be interesting to explore the feelings of that! 

and then you have to wonder how Bram would react to Simon being outed. if he hadn’t figured it out already he would DEFINITELY know then, but i don’t think he’d be ready to tell Simon that he’s Blue. there would probably be a lot of guilt there that he knows all this stuff about Simon that he feels like he shouldn’t know, because would Simon have told him if he’d known it was Bram [i mean, debatable that this doubt of Bram’s is all that founded, but you have to imagine the tumultuous heightened emotions of this situation]?? so maybe that would fracture their irl friendship too a little, if Bram was too overwhelmed with, like, the guilt of knowing all this stuff, plus the guilt of not being able to be there for Simon in the way he really wants to be [i.e - not posing as a straight ally], plus confusion over Simon potentially being into Cal. Blue pulling away in the emails - would Bram pull away in real life too? Hm. Maybe.

anyway, obviously i never got around to figuring out a proper outline so i really don’t know what else i would have changed if i had decided to continue with this verse [and honestly the fact that i figured the endgame at least would be the same made it easy to make the decision not to; i can’t write canon better than becky can!] but i like to think of the weight “it’s you” would have in this verse. like, maybe it wouldn’t have occurred to Simon before that very moment, at least not on a conscious level, but at the same time it wouldn’t surprise him at all. it would just make sense, on a level he wouldn’t even be able to articulate. and the relief that both of them would probably feel that they can finally be completely, 100% honest with each other? Fucking unreal, I would imagine.

in light of all that, i don’t think much would have to be changed from canon to make an interesting story. The interesting part [to me] would be how just this one change in the story could affect the complexity of their feelings. Same story, more or less, but a host of different emotions driving it!

Anyway. that’s pretty much all i’ve got on this subject. i hope this satisfies you, anon, though if you want to keep discussing this i’m honestly more than game. thank you so much for this opportunity to talk about this verse

[saeyounggi]

hereafter [saeyoung choi/707]

hello! so, here’s my first mystic messenger fanfiction! it’s been a year since i wrote an actual fanfiction, so i hope i’m not too rusty. also, i wanted to write for mysme back in october, but i lacked the time so hAHA here *throws fic at your feet* please accept this orz. ALSO, i might continue this as a series, if people like this one! it would basically be 707 actually using doing those actions and date ideas that he got from movies. we’ll see. if you have any requests, feel free to send them my way! i don’t own the characters; saeyoung was created by the cheritz team, and you own yourself ;) i hope you enjoy!

pairing: saeyoung choi x mc / 707 x mc

type: fluff (super high school level fluff)

point of view: second person / mc

summary: an early leave from work allows you to discover saeyoung’s rough plans for future romantic escapades. based on a headcanon of mine that saeyoung is actually a cheesy yet awkward romantic, so he is fond of googling romantic movies and romantic actions and makes notes of the techniques he likes. for the future, of course. ;)

word count: 2230

listen: Stop The World I Wanna Get Off With You by Arctic Monkeys

HEREAFTER

God Seven was no lover – this much you knew.

The beginning of your relationship started slowly, almost agonizingly so, but you couldn’t really blame him. He was a socially inept hacking prodigy, who spent more time talking to his RoboCat than actual people. You had to break down many, many walls just to get to his soft heart, and even then, he still felt guarded. Not that you minded, but sometimes it did feel like you were teaching a baby to walk.

He would shy away from your kisses, and your subtle fingertip brushes would immediately lead to him jamming his hand into his pocket. Your hugs would leave him a blushing, fumbling mess, and it would push him to awkwardly wrap his own arms around yours. Hell, he looked like he was about to have a heart attack when you first told him that you loved him.

Once the two of you had finally settled into the whole dating she-bang, Saeyoung began to be more comfortable at skinship. He would always take the time to profess his love verbally once in a while, and he would proceed to tease you about the growing blush on your face afterwards. He was still an awkward mess, yes, but he was excellent company (and an ahhh-mazing kisser at that).

Saeyoung wasn’t quite sure how to perform romantic actions and would often fumble with his attempts. More often than not, his attempts at wooing you ended in shared peals of laughter on the living room carpet. That alone was enough for the both of you. Besides, it was endearing to see a grown man struggle with the plights of dating. Oh, but when he put effort into it, which he always does, he definitely knew how to make you swoon.

Today, naturally, was one of the many times he proved his love to you.

Your shift at the local café ended early, allowing you to stop at a local convenience store to buy Saeyoung a beautiful pack of Honey Buddha Chips. Ever since you moved in with him, he had pushed himself to pursue a healthier lifestyle. This meant getting rid of the boxes upon boxes of Honey Buddha Chips and Ph D. Pepper. While you were initially against this, since you knew just how much he loved his daily junk food fix, he insisted he wanted to switch to a better lifestyle so he could live much longer with you. You easily gave in after that statement. (Plus his puppy-dog eyes were too much for your poor heart.) So, you settled with cooking him delicious and healthy meals daily and surprising him with a bag or two from time to time.

Your espadrilles-clad feet stopped at the front of you and Saeyoung’s humble home. Ever-since the RFA Party, Saeyoung had wanted to officially move in with you. Well, he technically begged you to live with him, which was an easy request to grant. After all, you wanted to be in his company as much as he wanted to be in yours. It was similar to living with him in Rika’s apartment, with all his shenanigans and jokes and the addition of a bit more amorous moments. Despite your relationship having a slow start, you knew the whole moving-in was definitely the right move for the both of you.

You fumbled slightly with your purse, reaching past the bag of chips to grab the house keys. You slid it in easily, and with a click, you entered your shared abode. You quietly took off your shoes and placed them on the rack. You grinned as you heard nothing but silence. Saeyoung was a homebody, so the lack of clacking keypad keys told you that he was taking his daily afternoon nap. His body clock was an absolute mess, so he usually spent wee hours of the morning working and the hours of the afternoon catching on much-needed sleep.

You stepped into the dining room, planning to stash his beloved chips away before he woke up. Instead of an empty dining area, however, you were greeted by the sight of Saeyoung’s vermillion hair and the bright glare of his trusty laptop. You stopped in your tracks, breath hitching in your throat as you surveyed to see if he was awake or not. The slow rise and fall of his chest and the hunched position he had told you he was fast asleep. You sighed as you slowly made your way towards the sleeping Saeyoung. You carefully placed your purse on the dining table as you looked over at him.

Sheets of paper cluttered half of the table, while a few wadded up ones had fallen onto the tiled floor below it. His bumblebee-colored eyeglasses were atop a stack of papers to his right, and the bright glare of his laptop indicated that he has fallen asleep not too long ago. Words were scrawled over the sheets of paper in your boyfriend’s rushed handwriting, and you couldn’t help but be intrigued with what you saw.

“ROMANTIC ACTIONS I CAN DO (´ ω `♡)” was scrawled quickly at the top of the first sheet of paper, making you stifle a laugh at the messily drawn kaomoji in the title. Your wide eyes scanned the paper, realizing that it was a list of sorts, with titles of romance movies scribbled at the side of each item.

“One, blast Peter Gabriel’s In Your Eyes on an old-school Boombox,” you mumbled under breath, smiling ever-so slightly at the clear reference to the movie, Say Anything. The list sported similar items to this, some with Saeyoung’s own notes jotted underneath it. The heat in your cheeks steadily rose as you read items such as kiss her in the pouring rain, take her stargazing (with or without a telescope), and going to a drive-in on the list. You were pretty sure Saeyoung had been taking notes from the recent romance movies that you two had been watching.

“Fifteen, serenade to her in public while running from authorities,” you said, trying to stop yourself from laughing at the very idea of Saeyoung running from people like Vanderwood while serenading to you. You could clearly hear his hearty laughter ringing in your ears as he belted out Frank Sinatra’s Can’t Take My Eyes Off You in front of a mass of strangers.

Your eyes drifted over to his laptop, eyes widening at the number of tabs open on his browser. All of them had the same topic: romantic locations for dates. There was a wide range of locations, ranging from beach resorts to adrenaline rides to simple lone parks for peace and quiet.

Your heart tightened in your chest, and you couldn’t help but burst into a wide smile at your boyfriend’s cute actions. You had wondered, after all, what he kept on doing on his laptop. He couldn’t have spent that much time programming and hacking, so you knew he had to be doing something as equally important. He must’ve put hours into planning and researching all this, you thought to yourself. The thought of him spending sleepless nights poring over every detail of these dates made you feel like you had fallen all over again for the meme-loving man.

You were pulled back to reality by the sound of rustling papers. You turned your attention to the dazed Saeyoung, whose eyes widened at the fuzzy sight of someone leaning over the table. “Wh-What in the-,” he started, before you pulled him in for a hug. He stiffened at first, unsure of how to react, but the familiar feeling of your arms around his was enough to make him relax underneath your touch. The lingering and strong scent of metal and oil told you that he had been playing around with RoboCat earlier that day. He truly felt like home. You pulled away, a dopey smile gracing your face.

Saeyoung reached out to grab his spectacles from the table; a smile gracing his own face at the sight of you. “Welcome home,” he yawned out, before his eyes widened at the realization that you had caught him in act. He stood up abruptly, stretching out his arms to prevent you from seeing his plans. A chuckle escaped from your lips, telling him that his attempt at hiding his plans were in vain. He sighed, letting his arms fall to his sides.

“I know I’m shit at this dating and feelings thing, but-,” he began, before you cut him off with a quick kiss square on his lips. His eyes widened, as his face began to flush into a deep red blush, a color you had grown fond of seeing on him. You pulled away, immediately shaking your head as your hand grasped his tightly.

“You are the best cross-dressing hacker boyfriend in the universe,” you tell him, interlacing your fingers together and bringing it up your lips for a gentle kiss. His gaze is intense yet gentle, and he lets out a chuckle as he brings your hands to his own lips.

“Of course! I’m known as God Seven for a reason!” he declares proudly, moving aside to show off the very thing he had planned on hiding from you. You rolled your eyes ironically, letting your own soft laughter escape your lips.

The both of you stayed like that for a moment, laughing with fingers interlaced together. Most of your life had become a montage of moments like these, pure and sweet, and while he did have rough days, like everyone else, you made sure you both went through it together. In the end, he always owned up to his mistakes, and you did too.

Perhaps that’s why you couldn’t see yourself loving anyone else but him.

“I’m sorry if I couldn’t tell you why I was more tired recently,” he explained, nodding over at the stack of papers. “As you can see, it was meant to be a surprise for you.”

“You are such a cheesy romantic,” you say, continuing to sport your wide grin. He blushed, huffing slightly as he squeezed your hand.

“Well, I can’t let my beautiful girlfriend steal the entire spotlight. Besides,” he paused to smile genuinely at you. He lowered himself to your height, planting a soft kiss at the top of your head. “If it meant making you happy, I would’ve been happy doing much, much more than this.”

Saeyoung slowly let go of your hand and moved over to organize the cluttered papers. You moved over to help him as well, catching names such as Paris and Japan in some of the printed papers. Your heart leapt in your chest as you let out a small happy sigh.

“What?” he asked, eyes tinged with curiosity. You shook your head, words slipping out of your mouth before you could even word them properly. “It feels like you’re planning for a honeymoon,” you say, eyebrows wiggling.

“Oh,” he pauses for a moment, as if taken aback by your words, before continuing. “Well, if I was planning for our actual anniversary, then I probably would’ve looked up how much it costs to rent a huge rocket.”

“So you’re telling me you want to have a honeymoon in space?” you said in mock surprise. He pouted at your response, eyeglasses slipping ever-so slightly from the bridge of his nose. Holy shit, how did you ever manage to score a guy like him?

“Of course! We’ll get married at a space station, have a honeymoon in space, and start a reality television show up there!” he says, pushing up his glasses in a stereotypical anime fashion. He lets out a chain of haughty laughter. “We’ll name it Space Soldier 707!”

“And I’ll be Space Cadet 606!” you say, forming your hands into a finger gun and mimicking shooting at him. He clutched his chest and fell to the floor, acting like he had been shot before uttering in amusement, “You’re definitely my Number One space partner!”

“Hah, correction: I am your one and only space partner,” you say, quickly moving to grab the bag of chips you had bought earlier before things could get even more ridiculous. “Well, at least I should be after buying you your beloved chips.”

Saeyoung’s eyes widened like that of a child, lips cracking open to form an exaggerated look of wonder. He quickly leapt up from the tiled floor and reached out to grab the lone pack from your hands. You readily gave it to him, and he looked like he could cry. You reminded yourself never to get in the way of Saeyoung and his junk food fix. “A correction, my dearest [Name], to your earlier statement,” he says, breaking open the bag of chips and grinning like a child on Christmas Eve.

“You are my one and only partner, beyond the bounds of time and space. You are my life’s partner.”

Your heart practically cart-wheeled in your chest from hearing that confession, and you made a mental note to grant him a feverish make-out session in the bedroom, after your usual anime binge-watching session. God Seven was no lover, indeed, because he was not bound to the earthly description of lover. No, the English language was not enough to define your man. He was your missing piece, the half of your whole, your one and only Defender of Justice.

[abigail-mcnatt-photography]

You know those days when you’re just waiting for something to go wrong? You try to make sure everything is running smoothly, but there’s only so much you can do. Well, Four Chord Music Festival 6 seemed to go exactly that way. From the issues with the ground covering and having to move the entire show to the Highmark Stadium parking lot, to the threatening rain, to the main act cancelling 5 minutes before doors, things started to feel like they were falling apart on the inside. Yet, as always, Rishi Bahl, the creator of the festival, still never gave up. The show went on, as the saying goes, and it turned out to be an incredible show. From the merch tents, the pro-wrestling, the tattoo parlor tent, and the music, it felt like the biggest Four Chord I’ve been to for the last 4 years. The rain nor the cancellation seemed to stop anyone from showing up.

Being that the festival was moved from Xtaza, where it has been held for the last 4 festivals, to Highmark Stadium, another difference this year was that it was produced by local promoting company, Drusky Entertainment.

With a large lineup of fairly well known bands, Four Chord 6 turned out to be incredible. So, let’s dive in and talk about the bands that played.

First off, we had pop/punk locals, Atlantic Wasteland. If you’re familiar with my blog, that name may ring a bell. They’re good friends of mine and I shoot their shows on a regular basis. They’ve got a great mix of pop and punk influences in their music and it’s very refreshing. I’ve seen so many of their shows, but I find myself enjoying each one better than the last. Ausinette (lead vocals), is like the hype woman because she’s everywhere and gets the crowd going. Sam (lead vocals, guitar) puts so much of himself in each performance. You can always tell from my photos cause I capture all his different facial expressions. They’re incredible. If you went to the festival and enjoyed them, they have another show coming up at Club Cafe on November 8th. They put their all into every performance and it’s great to watch.

Next up, and on the second stage, we had pop/punk Pittsburghers, Look Out Loretta. They are a very underrated band. They don ’t play very often, but when they do, it’s almost as if no time has passed since their last performance. Despite them being a small band, the crowd didn’t seem to care. Their energy during the performance was electric. The next time Look Out Loretta hits up a show, I strongly recommend you not missing it. These guys are excellent.

Back on the main stage, we had Fortune Cove, formerly known as Harbour, from Toronto, Canada. They have a sort of fast pop/punk style, which really got the crowd going, thus starting what would be a long evening of mosh pits and crowd surfing. They were a great compliment to the (new) headliners as well. They kind of reminded me of a more punk version of Fall Out Boy. Fortune Cove has played Four Chord in previous years, but under the name Harbour, so they were no stranger to the festival crowd.

Now we are headed back to stage 2, to talk about Keep Flying, an alternative pop punk band from Northeastern US. They’re unique for their inclusion of different and unconventional instruments, such as the saxophone and the trumpet, which were used during their performance. They blend the instruments together, almost as if they’re meant to be used. The crowd kept the moshing going, the drizzling rain not deterring them. Like Fortune Cove, they too have been seen at a few Four Chord Festivals.

If you’re a Four Chord regular, this next band will be very familiar to you, as they’ve played every year of it, since I’ve even been going. Patent Pending, from Long Island, NY, is the band who took the main stage next. They classify as rock/pop punk, and I really enjoy them. Joe Ragosta, the lead singer, is one of the most active and interactive lead singers I’ve ever shot. Every single photo I take of him is different from the last. Plus, he’s constantly moving, so he poses a challenge too. He crowd surfed during this set, which I proudly got some nice photos of. He also talked about being obsessed with the Pittsburgh accent and talked a lot about it, haha. Two of their catchiest, and most popular, songs are, “Douchebag” and “Hey Mario”. The crowd always responds so well to them; from crowd surfing, moshing, throwing their hands in the air, and screaming along lyrics, the audience was no different this year. They’re a bigger band, but they’re the example of a band stuck in their roots, enjoying and treating every performance like it’s their biggest yet, which was the case at Four Chord for sure.

Ping-ponging back to the second stage, we have another band from Ontario, Seaway. No surprise, but they are also classified as pop punk. I can tell you, with certainty, that the rain didn’t get the crowd’s energy down, quite in fact the opposite effect. They were moshing so much I couldn’t get a great spot for my photos, in the front, haha. They were a great adrenaline booster and addition to the festival.

Next up on the main stage, we have the man of the hour, Rishi Bahl and his band, Eternal Boy, local to Pittsburgh.

Let me side track for a minute and just talk about Rishi. This man puts his all into the festival each and every year. This show was no exception, and although it had its issues, it turned out to be incredible. So if you attended, be sure to give him a shout out on Twitter or something because he deserves some major recognition for his dedication and passion for this pop punk festival he created.

Okay, anyway, Eternal Boy. Although Rishi has a festival to put his focus on, his band doesn’t end up coming second. Their performances are always on par — festival or not. They played all the favorites, like “Katie” and “Awkward Phase”, of course. The crowd went wild for them and kept the moshing going. Joe, from Patent Pending, came in for a guest appearance, and to just mess around with the crowd and the band. They always put on an incredible performance, and they definitely didn’t disappoint for this show.

Up next, for the final time on the secondary stage, we had Grayscale, a pop punk band from Philadelphia, PA. I’d first heard them in the VIP event, with Atlantic Wasteland, playing acoustic and I really enjoyed them. They have some heavier vibes, but they aren’t hardcore, which is nice for casual pop punk listeners, like myself. I enjoyed their set during the acoustic session, and enjoyed it just as much when they played the full band set later on in the day. The crowd was insane for them. I was in the pit for about half a song before I gave up and went to photograph from other angles. It started to rain a little bit harder too. But the rain never stopped the audience from enjoying the day.

And now we bring it back to the main stag for the rest of the evening. Now we have Chicago based pop punk band, Knuckle Puck. If you’re an avid pop punk listener, you’ve likely listened to it already love them. If not, you may have at least heard of them. From a photographer perspective, they’re extremely fun. They’re all over the place. The audience was too, with crowd surfer after crowd surfer came through, sometimes two at a time. Knuckle Puck is exactly what you expect when you think of pop punk. They’re just on the cusp of being heavier punk, but are still a tad bit into the pop part of the genre. They’re heavier and definitely embrace their genre and have fun with it, which keeps the crowd on their feet.

Real Friends took the stage next, to continue our trend of heavier pop punk. Real Friends is originally from Illinois and are considered emo/pop punk. Like, Knuckle Puck, they’re a little insane too. But also very fun to watch. By this point it started to get dark and it really added to the effect of the genre. Real Friends have everything you’d ever want in pop punk music. Crowd surfers, yet again, cam multiple at a time. Crazy cool band to watch.

The next band on stage, hasn’t been active since 2014. Anberlin, a rock/alternative band from Florida hit the Four Chord stage next. I personally had never heard of them prior to the show announcement, but the attendees were extremely excited about their reunion show in Pittsburgh. They’d toured over the summer elsewhere, but hadn’t been to Pittsburgh in a good while. By this point in the night, it was pitch black out, but the energy of the crowd was still at an all time high. I barely was able to be in the pit shooting because the crowd was crazy. It was very fun to watch them perform, barely skipping a beat.

And last, but not least, we had our (new) headliners, Simple Plan, a pop punk band from Montreal, Canada. You know, in case you haven’t heard of them, which I don’t know how that’d be possible. They were incredible. They played a decent mix of fan favorites, oldies, and more recent releases. The audience was hyped up for the Four Chord headliners and had the time of their lives. You could see they were in a different world. There were a bit less crowd surfers, but they showed their love and appreciation by dancing and screaming along to every lyric. Since Four Chord, Simple Plan has released a single with State Champs and We The Kings, called “Where I Belong” and will be touring the country as well.

Four Chord Music Festival 6 was a success, despite all of the ups and downs throughout the process. I couldn’t be prouder of Rishi and how much work he puts into his festivals. I can’t wait to see what he’s got up his sleeve for Four Chord 7.

Grayscale

Seaway

Simple Plan

Atlantic Wasteland

Eternal Boy

Grayscale

Anberlin

Real Friends

Fortune Cove

Atlantic Wasteland

Real Friends

Keep Flying

Keep Flying

Knuckle Puck

Eternal Boy

Fortune Cove

Look Out Loretta

Knuckle Puck

Fortune Cove

Seaway

Knuckle Puck

Fortune Cove

Real Friends

Simple Plan

Grayscale

Simple Plan

Eternal Boy

Keep Flying

Look Out Loretta

Atlantic Wasteland

Anberlin

Grayscale

Knuckle Puck

Look Out Loretta

Seaway

Real Friends

Simple Plan

Simple Plan

Patent Pending

Atlantic Wasteland

Anberlin

Anberlin

Simple Plan

Patent Pending

Patent Pending

Look Out Loretta

Patent Pending

Eternal Boy

Seaway

Four Chord Music Festival 6 You know those days when you’re just waiting for something to go wrong? You try to make sure everything is running smoothly, but there’s only so much you can do.

[ambular262-blog]

Can I get a car please?!

For 10 years I drove a convertible. I drove a 2004 Limited Edition Ford Mustang GT convertible and a 2007 Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder GT convertible. Those were sexy cars and I did have pride in those cars. The Mustang was totaled in 2010 (another story). That is when I got the Eclipse. A couple of years ago I hit a really hard spot and my car got impounded because my insurance lapsed because I couldn’t make my payment. The car was a 120 days past due and needed a lot of work. So I called the finance company and told them to come and pick it up. They weren’t willing to work with me anyway. The guy at the finance company actually told me that he had never heard of a customer who had been so far past due and still in possession of the vehicle haha. This also occurred on the Friday of the last day of a shitty job that I had been working and the following Monday I was starting a brand new job that was awesome. My very generous roommate at the time helped me get back and forth to work for a couple of weeks until I was able to purchase a new car. I have really crappy credit (2 divorces) so I went to a Buy Here Pay Here place. I got an 06 Honda Accord with a sunroof. It wasn’t as flashy as what I was used to but it was a car and that’s all I cared about. Fast forward a month, I’ve just made my first payment. Its 4:30 in the morning, one of my roommates’ dog is outside, underneath my window, barking his ass off at the cat sitting at the basement door. I go banging on his door telling him to get his dog. On my way back to my room, I run into another roommate of mine (yes, there were many of us). She says that another roommate has just been kicked out of some girl’s house and has no way home and is walking and would like to know if I could pick him up or if she can borrow my car. He was only 15 minutes away and would be a really quick trip. Now, I’m a really nice person most of the time, but I am not a morning person. So, like a dumb bitch, I said that she could borrow the car. As soon as she left I had a horrible feeling. All I did was sit in the carport, smoking, waiting. At about 5:30 to 6 in the morning an ambulance and firetruck fly down the road. Now, I’m living in Cumming Georgia at the time so of course this means there’s been an accident. So, of course now, I’m filled with dread. About 30 minutes later I get the phone call from my roommate saying she wrecked my car. I asked her how bad the damage was and she said “well it went into the ditch so there’s some front-end damage.” I asked her if it was drivable? She said that she wasn’t sure, maybe. She was literally right down the street from the house. I called my other roommate, the one who was so generous to help me get to work, and asked if I could borrow his truck to go down the road to survey the accident. I get down there and find my car nose down in a ditch. I notify the cops that I was the owner of the vehicle and provided them with the insurance information. During all the commotion, I am standing with my roommates on the corner of the road, looking at my car. The windshield, shattered. The airbags, deployed. This car was an automatic total loss. My roommate was not on my policy. I flip out as gently as I know how to. I very loudly said to her I just got this car, I just made the first payment. She seemed to understand and didn’t down play the seriousness of the situation. Just to keep a long story short for the purpose of this particular entry, the loan was cleared, insurance took several months but it got taken care of. Roomie paid a good amount of money towards the loss. I could have gotten more from her but I didn’t feel the need to be malicious or unnecessary or over the top. So few months go by and I’m looking for a new car. During this time a co-worker of mine is helping me get back and forth to my work. I find the car I want at CarMax. It was a 2015 Kia Soul + green, I wanted (did) to name her Mary Jane. It took so much work to get this car that I almost lost my shit with my salesman. I have never had to jump through so many hoops and provide so much documentation for an approval on a car. Not even the approval actually, I had the approval. But, apparently the finance company needed specific documentation that had to be written a certain way or else it wasn’t acceptable. My salesman turned into an ass he even at one point made it seem like he was even going to pull my approval but I finally got the car. Man, I loved that car. It was cute, it was me, I loved it. I purchased this car in June, first payment was made August 15th. August 18th, driving home from work, going the speed limit (which was 50) and it had just finished raining. I had actually been thinking about how I thought things were going to be getting better. I had just stopped and gotten myself dinner, bought a new book from the author that I love, was going home, happy and hopeful. That was my big mistake. A kid, and I say kid because I don’t think he was more than 17, fails to yield and turns in front of me. Now mind you, I’m going 50 miles an hour, it had just been raining, and I was literally on top of this kid. If I had not swerve the way I did, I would have t-boned his car. If you were looking at the front of my car, you could see the vehicle’s front end shifted. I knew, because of my line of work, my car was totaled. Following the accident, I ended up with a rental for two months. The insurance company handling the claim dropped the ball and so I ended up getting a rental for two months, which is very unusual. I did have another vehicle that I was driving for a few months after. My brother had just passed and he had just bought a car so I drove this vehicle until the finance company located it for non-payment. For more than a month, I used lyft and the bus to get back and forth to work. And I use lyft more than the bus because riding the bus scared me. Of course, this is costly but, if you look at the larger picture, the amount that I paid for lyft equaled what I would have paid for a car payment plus car insurance. But, of course, I wanted my own transportation. I’m doing everything I can for months to get the money together for a down payment and get everything together for a new car. Everything had been laid out for the new car to be purchased middle March. Unfortunately, because of my brother’s car being repossessed, it threw me back a little bit. In addition to this, my medical treatments were causing me to miss a lot of work. This was causing a huge problem with getting a new car. I emailed my bodily injury attorney and explain to them some of the problems that I was having with the doctor’s office, which is another posting, and also the problems that I was having financially. I explained that I couldn’t miss this kind of work because of the procedures that I needed to have done. I even said at one point in my email to him that maybe we should just settle the claim with insurance company and get it over with. I told him that I knew that that was not the best course of action, however, I was at the end of my rope and I just I didn’t know how much more I could take. In response, he gave me the option of taking a small loan against my pending medical settlement and I could use that to help me with the vehicle down payment on the car that way you and missing the work wouldn’t be so bad. Perfect, now I had the down payment for my car. Contacted the guy at Carmax, got everything set up for Friday the 17th and it was supposed to be done. But anybody that knows my life story knows that, of course, it did not go down that way. I get to CarMax and apparently the salesman didn’t have quite all the information correct. The financial institution wanted a paid in full letter. We assumed it was for the Kia that had just been totaled. Apparently, they wanted a paid in full letter for the vehicle that I co-signed with Austin that he never refinanced. That’s the first problem. They brought me to my house to pick up a copy of my divorce decree that specifically states that the vehicle was supposed to be refinanced without my name and that I had signed documentation for Austin to do so. It proves I have no financial responsibility for the car. But they’re not sure that this is going to be sufficient enough for the finance company. This makes no sense to me since the vehicle they’re questioning is a Chevy Equinox and the documentation on my divorce decree says Chevy Equinox. It just doesn’t say Capital One so they're not sure the finance company will accept it. This is so fucking stupid. There’s no other Chevy Equinox on my credit report, what other Chevy Equinox could we be possibly talking about?! The second issue is proof of residency. I’m not on a lease, I sublet. I don’t have a utility bill in my name. All of my mail goes to a PO Box. Except, for medical bills that I received in relation to my car accident. This is apparently perfect for proof of residency however, it has to be within 30 days. Meaning, that the statement date has to be within 30 days. My most recent statement date is just over 30 days. Now, despite the fact that I have the same statement dating all the way back to October, going to this address, this apparently is not good enough for the finance company. So I guess we will find out what will happen tomorrow. I really have no belief that anything is going to come of it but I guess we’ll have to wait and see. I don’t really have any new documentation for them so I don’t see myself walking away with a car.