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hey, just recently found your blog and i gotta say your writing is nice!

tho idk if ur request box is open but if so, can i have a hc with chuuya, dazai, aku and atsushi with a yandere!s/o ? since its always been those yandere dazai this yandere chuuya that, yandere aku(?) there yadda yadda yadda

im looking forward for your future blogs!

(p.s i cant ask you anonymously for some reasons and im also new </3)

BSD Boys with an GN!S/O who is a Yandere

Characters: Atsushi Nakajima, Osamu Dazai, Ryuunosuke Akutagawa, Chuuya Nakahara

Word Count: 5398K

Warnings: Slight Spoilers about Dazai(Chuuya's Part), Manipulation, Gaslighting, Slight Descriptive Gore(?), Guilt Trip, Possessiveness, Physical Abuse, Stalking, Toxic Relationship technically, Slightly Suggestive(Aku's Part)

Author's Note: Hello there! glad to see that you enjoyed the fic that I made yesterday and of course my ask box is open! I was supposed to send it early but my dum dum forgor and ended up being on my drafts for a long while(´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

Again, I apologize if some of them may be OOC, and I also tried to spice things up on the readers part by making them "act differently" towards to them- and all... If you know what I mean. Anyways I hope you enjoy this HC!

Atsushi Nakajima

You were an uninteresting individual, you rather not waste anything in the name of feelings and love. You were devoted to the Guild and nothing else till one day, the Weretiger came in which he hesitated to fight you at first but ended up engaging so, all due to your pierce nature? No that's not the point.

After the Guild was lost, Lucy took you in with her in the Cafe Uzumaki unknowingly that it's also part of the ADA, just as you think, fate has given you another chance to interact with this boy and you should not fuck things up.

All those blank expressions, all those dull eyes of yours, and your unexpressive gestures — all came crashing down, now tainted with vibrant colors and warmth thanks to him, now you felt more alive than ever as you decided that you need this light, all for yourself, and only for you.

You were much more outgoing and bright than your OLD self, you learned how to blend in within the crowds, you learned how to fake a smile - a little conversation of you and him made something sparked on his heart and eventually drew closer and close to you.

Atsushi is rather... Naïve. That's what makes it so easy for you to keep him around you- even stopping his impulsive moments? Oh, please! You can just boost his confidence whenever you can in any way possible. While he only fought you, never did anything and that's it, but to you he saved your whole uneventful life. You were willing to do so much more for him the moment he gets to be with you

You even fell faster for him than the lightning could even strike on the ground, his determination... You sure do love that sight of a moment!

To anyone else, you two were such a lovely couple and to you, as it should be. Atsushi was such a lovely doll for you.

Kyouka however, doesn't entirely likes you and your behavior towards to him. That excessive obsession- she even caught you once that Atsushi was at the verge of his limit, saying that 'maybe if you tried hard enough to not let one of the others lives slip again, this wouldn't happen my love.'

Dazai already knew this, him and Kyouka were the main obstacles, the main course the moment they got your intentions all figured out, while the rest of the others remained oblivious to this tense situation happening around you.

Which Kyouka attempted to convince Atsushi that you shouldn't be with YOU. Thats unacceptable right? Dazai wouldn't directly act on this situation not until it's getting too dire for Atsushi's own good. Which he is now doing so

Atsushi does think that your controlling nature is a little bit too much, which of course you tried to reason with him that you only wanted the best for him, but you did try to tone it down or otherwise you might accidentally break your own darling, to the point he's not longer expressive to anything else.

Oh! There was even a woman who has an intention to flirt with your man? Like a awkward wreck he was, he tried to say that he's already with someone else's while the other didn't bought that reasoning. Being a responsible and endearing lover you are to him you had stepped right into the scenario, with an underlying threats on your light hearted statement while wrapping your arms around his shoulder, now patting it. Though the wan had scurried away after and checked up on him if he was still uncomfortable and tense about it, which you decided to take him out by taking on a stroll or buy him something, just for him to enjoy the things and even cherish every moment that you do for him. (After work that is)

...?

The moment he arrived in the Agency, Kyouka wasn't there and so is Dazai, and the controversy was heard within the agency office with Kunikida talking about this problem with his other colleagues, as he came in asking what was going on, only to be greeted with a dreadful news about Kyouka going missing and Dazai has been now confined in their Agency's infirmary, has been ambushed by some professionals.

He didn't take this ever so lightly, the poor boy had a break down thinking he wasn't there to protect him, he wasn't there early to look after for his superior or even Kyouka as he remained silent throughout the entire day until both of your works are now done, you already knew the reason why he was so silent but you still shot a question, you two were left uninterrupted for now. No more obstacles to come and ruin your plans.

While the two of you were walking home altogether with your hand squeezing his, now rubbing his knuckles as a little sigh escaped from your lips, maybe doing these kinds of scenarios would be risky and even made him sad- it made your heart ache. But again, it was for the best of him.

"Do... you want to talk about it once we get back, love?" Your voice coo'ed, you were aware that he was so saddened by the news of this while he temporarily stayed silent for a brief second before nodding his head, with that weak energy, all he can do is to do that while couldn't be able to muster up a courage to speak as of now. "Don't worry, I'll make you a hot cocoa if that's what you want as well, stay with eachother and cuddle all night- I'm sure they're strong enough, so have some hope."

Those sweet little lies of yours, has an poisonous meaning underneath that one certain word of yours, all you wanted was for him to be happy for now, at least you don't have anything else to worry as of now. Hiring a professional gang to inflict harm on Dazai, then take Kyouka to somewhere else where or even give her back to the Port Mafia on a meantime, something that Kouyou would enjoy even if both factions had already made a deal regarding to her. And that lady that talked to Atsushi? absolutely unforgivable. To think that she can just walk away after HARASSING your precious light of your life? She was found six feet under somewhere else, but not in the cemetery because she does not deserve to have a goddamn coffin with both of her arms cutted off, just for the safety measure she wouldn't broke out or anything(not that she could anyway). You were nice enough to spare his superior and that little because he was attached to them right to the extent, but he doesn't have the same attachment to them as yours, you were clearly the first one to be prioritized before those two.

But you didn't want him to entirely break either, he was the sunshine to anyones life despite being scolded on and on, you even wished to put a duct tape on Kunikida's mouth regarding to the stories that Atsushi told you about, but all what matter is that you can have Atsushi by your side, all undisturbed by their commotion.

"Sounds good...! I just want to cuddle with you- for now at least..." That... Little smile on his face, you definitely knew that he was lucky to have someone like you, there was no other girls like you to be this caring as you are.

You are a moth, and he was the light. But you'd do anything even if it's taking too far, even if he could burn you on accident you will always love him unconditionally.

Osamu Dazai

Knowing what he is for- a flirtatious suicidal mummy who is a gravely whole nightmare to the enemies, but has a good beneficial to the allies. The last thing you'd want is to get caught by this cunning man, ever.

But that doesn't mean you aren't sly enough to step up your games, anything for your darling. There was a lot of times where you nearly got caught by him, but saved yourself by those vicious cover up lies.

To be more specific, the only reason why he was over the heels for you is that, YOU pretended to be the type of person who is hard to get, he took this bait of yours and thought of it as a challenge unknowingly, because you were unpredictable from that time- he wanted to know MORE about you as you kept on reeling him with your mysterious tendencies. And you are aware that this man isn't that vulnerable either so you took the other route for extra precautions, after all you only wanted him to be all yours, and nobody else's despite his damned nature.

There was definitely a time where he flirted with one of the clients just to make you jealous, needless to say your facade almost slipped, almost revealed your true nature- it's possessiveness. As much as you hate seeing him with the other girls or people even, you still had the will to hold yourself back. But do not worry, you had something else up on your sleeves. If he only sees you as a overprotective little one he will let this slip because he thinks that it's cute, yet once he knows your true nature, it's all over for you.

You don't want your beloved to go away, right? You don't want him to flirt with any girls other than yourself, right?

All you were ever known for was a hard to get type of person- a reliable one. But his suspicions were arising when the moment with those ladies who he usually flirts around in the cafe or the clients of the ADA(to get a reaction from you, but it ended worse.) had actively flat out ignored him right on the spot, and those waitresses in the cafe uzumaki?

Pure Silence. Dazai decided to take a peek on you- the same as the others? numb and actively ignoring him as well? or were you just pretending so you can necessarily avoid him finding out your schemes? He tried all of his best to get your attention in any way he could, because we all know how clingy and touched starved this man could get, but your reaction is just the same as the others.

He had a whole suspicion that it was you who did it, but when you two got back home(with the whole entire walk just a silent one which it internally kills him on the inside) you tugged on his coat before you came in, crushing right into his arms, silently sniffling.

"I'm sorry." You apologized to him for what circumstances? To his eyes, you were are a perplexed individual but this doesn't makes things clearer- but you were trembling on his arms while not being able to bring yourself look over to him. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry- you we're put in danger because of me..."

(you are not sorry)

And this is the part where the guilt kicks in, for ever doubting you that you were the one who did it — he is not completely numb to emotions either when in fact he understands it, he didn't think twice to take you to your shared bedroom, stowing you down on the mattress while having you close to his chest.

This one, was your personal favorite part, where you few him with your perfect lies about an unknown person threatening every woman that Dazai interacted- not convinced? worry not, you had gathered a fake evidence that you have been receiving a death threats or even a piece of cutted fingers, with it's dried blood on the box that you only hid it somewhere because you claimed that you didn't want your beloved to see it or even worry for you.

And as for him? he rather felt GUILTY for doubting his loved one doing such a things like this while he murmured nothing but a sweet, little comfort words while trying to lighten things up

The two of you cuddled eachother close- embracing one another's embrace on this cold night, laying down on your shared bedroom while Dazai was stroking your hair through and through to soothe yourself from this ordeal

"My love, you have nothing else to worry about for now- you're in my arms now, it's alright." He said as he played with one of your hair strand, still kept one of his arms wrapped around your body as you did the same to him yet however... He couldn't get this suspicion off you, he already felt bad for assuming that it was you who done it, but does he have a proof to it? He doesn't... But the way you showed those evidences to him made him feel slightly off too. Again, he will never be sure whether it's actually you who done it. After all, it WAS you. Anonymously searching one of their contacts if they have ones if not you'd still send them an anonymous letter of a death threat if they ever try to interact with your Darling once more, Yosano and Ranpo definitely was looking out on your behavior and nearly got caught. If it wasn't for you bribing Ranpo away with some snacks seperatedly, then as for Yosano'e case you had to convince her that you were in the same line as the other clients and all. — then those dead corpses you threw on the river and kept one of their fingers to send it to the others?

You were aware, that you are trying to keep this former executive mafia all to yourself- who have condoned a lot of manipulation and all. You were ready to give everything what he wanted with a price of him only paying attention to you, only YOU. This would not happen if he only gives all of his attention to you and not waste it by flirting with those clients or other girls.

One can play a guilt trip for sure, a sly vixen you are.

Ryuunosuke Akutagawa

Out of all PM members, you chose to take a liking to this one ruthless 'Black Dog' of the pm, a victorian e—

That aside, you probably got transferred to the Port Mafia after your Boss and Mori had a deal to one another where you will be kept permanently by the PM, while they receive something else. It's not that you were interested because of how LOW they were paying some exceptionally skilled assassin like you. And, of course you cannot tolerate that at all so you weren't complaining about this whole thing.

Another assassin? In the Port Mafia? Gin wouldn't admit it nor she would ever will, but she's rather excited about you with how excellent your skills are, or that's what at least rumor she had heard about regarding to the underlings who was talking about you. You are quite the talk of the headquarters for now.

This doesn't amaze Akutagawa, not at all. It would take him a LOT because you are not the first one who's that good with their abilities, even if Chuuya took you as his subordinate and still trained you and your mobility. It's best to say that both of you started with a rocky path where you despises each others back. With those venomous insults(and if it wasn't for Chuuya who had to step in every time, you two might've had slitted eachother's throat by now) in all actual. Though this part of him was rather unintentional, maybe he sees his old self in you, covered up by some tough facade? It took both of you a good, ggooood while before you eventually had him wrapped around your finger.

The history repeats itself, where Akutagawa craves attention from Dazai- you are giving him the same treatment like from what his old superior does to him, you may never know him but all you know is that it's such a sore subject to talk about to him. He doesn't know what you did to him to make him feel this way and wanted to get more validation off you everytime — but of course you two don't show this side to anybody else, both of you are known as a ruthless couples and that was it. But(you may or may not intentionally become the typical duo of sadist and masochist) for Akutagawa he still kept on coming back to you after hitting him, sure he could've just fought you back with his sharp mouth but, maybe it's not himself that he gets reminded of, maybe he sees Dazai in you. But of course you wouldn't let your darling love you for not who you are, you had yet to drill into his senses that only you can love him for all eternity, and nobody else can do the same- even if you are harsh to him he cannot find somebody caring as you are.

Despite all of these harsh treatments that you gave to him, he still deserve all and every bit of your love, those little kisses and bites from you- well anything you'd do just to make him plea and on his knees. The two of you had your fair and share of the arguments but at the end, you always knew that he'd still come back home- come back home to you. He thought that it's unfair for you to pull that kind of treatment when he thought he's finally getting you, as you turn the tables around, it's him who'd be silently begging.

Gin isn't aware of this situation nor the other's, Hirotsu is somewhat suspicious and so is Kouyou.

Higuchi.

She cannot get the fact that the two of you are together now, yet still tried to pry sometimes because she definitely sees what you are doing to her Akutagawa-senpai. She want to speak about this to anyone else but ended up being silenced by you everytime, so to put this from the top, you are an enemies that always exchanges a death glare to one another. Some may tell Higuchi that she should just let go of Akutagawa because he's ALREADY with you. Of course she couldn't be able to tell the actual reason why you two kept on exchanging death glares, even if she's the misfit of the Port Mafia, you will still drove her away no matter how valuable she is to Mori's assets.

You had enough with her, sure even if you do such a thing to Akutagawa most of the times with those 'Dazai Treatment' you still give him those kisses and cuddles, those soft moments he deserved to earn from you and YOU ONLY. NOT. HER. NOT. H I G U C H I. Not anybody else. A little set up frame wouldn't hurt him, of course based on his actions towards to Higuchi you definitely think that it was a right choice, he shouldn't care about her other than you, you are his love, someone he should look up to.

On the following day where the two of you headed to the Headquarters, Gin immediately informed you two that Higuchi has been temporarily suspended due to the accusations that is actually true, that she has been making some shady deals to some other organisation but all thanks to you, the deal has been revoked- Mori decided not to punish Higuchi with those severe brutal methods for now, and for some reasons.

You had a short talk with Gin for a short bit, you wouldn't want his little sister to suspect anything about you two, do you? She even said that maybe you were the one who can thaw his frozen lakes on his heart or even have him to learn and love such a things, and she was even grateful that you did get to be with him after going a few trial that Gin attempted to put you through of course.

After Gin had went away, Akutagawa stood silent before you while only staring at you, who was bidding your goodbye at her as you eventually caught his gaze - the two of you agreed to not display a affections on the public because the two of you had some reputation. Only few of the others know that you are officially together, though Akutagawa was bothered by... Something, there is something unsettling about you for a odd reasons and why he's all acting this way towards to y—

"Yoohoo? You've been staring at me for a long time now. Is there something on my face?" You spoke with a low- soft voice since it was just the two of you in the lounge at the moment, as he abruptly looked away and scoffed.

"Always been so casual when it comes to these kind." Or so he commented while beginning to walk away, with you catching up to his side while chuckling. "That's you, not me. Who wouldn't worry about Higuchi disappearing? I know she doesn't like me but can't you at least show some concern?"

Oh, you already know the answer while feeding him with such a innocent questions, feigning it while it is full of irony and hate, it wasn't hard for you to ask someone who can make a mask that is identical to Higuchi plus it's voice changer, have someone take photos of the imposter and send it to you afterwards after paying them- and your favorite stage play is when you, reporting this to Mori regarding to her behavior which he didn't have to bought it at first because of the loyalty she had, till you showed those photos to him and had it reconsidered.

Nonetheless, Akutagawa only gave you a temporary silence again before speaking; "Why should I? I could finally have some less nuisance to deal with."

He's right, both of you had a less nuisance to deal with. While you take care all of the others who dares to oppose you and your love for your dearest, even if he can be so rash and mean, you will always give him that one treatment to make him all act up again.

Chuuya Nakahara

To start with this, the boss of the Port Mafia- Mori Ougai. He took you in when he found you as the only sole survivor o- no, correction, when one of the thugs held you as a hostage because of your ability. Now he pretty much took you in, introduced you to Kouyou first since the other 'Executives' are busy at the moment, you did not complain.

Despite your condition, you were definitely a troublemaker that already broke something on accident, on your first day too. So to be spared by the scary guys you had to behave around WHENEVER Kouyou is around, despite her assuming about your behavior(although you ended up getting scolded by her at the very end of the day, much to say she will teach you some manners and... antics.) the moment you settled yourself in the Port Mafia.

Day two, Kouyou agave you a tour around in the headquarters yesterday and had led you to your very own apartment(by yours truly, Port Mafia's enterprise.) which you have been asked to meet with her up once more, regarding to the introduction of this two individuals that goes by 'Osamu Dazai' and 'Chuuya Nakahara'. To you, those names didn't mattered to you at first because you'd be working for them in any way. Which, you were wrong. You found both of them to be annoying- yet fun to mess around with, mainly with Chuuya.

Several years after after Dazai's defection, it deeply affected this little pipsqueak right here and it still did, maybe you reminded Dazai a little bit too much so you decided to 'change' your behavior a little bit. Not just a bit, to be honest. All you know is that you were only having fun, not caring anything else aside from works and all - you we're irresponsible little shit that Chuuya always had to babysit as well, you and Dazai to say at least but now you adapted to be more responsible and caring for the poor darling of yours. He doesn't need more headaches now, does he?

Spoiling you rotten with his filthy Executive payments... Those expensive jewelries or items that you wanted, of course there are some times that you refused- he didn't understand why you would but instead you were rather shy about it and wishes that you could do the same(buy those expensive stuffs for him).

"Loving me is already enough."

That. Sentence. Kept on repeating on your head like a broken records that has been forgotten for about centuries? That won't matter, it sounded sweet to your ringing. You could even give the entire galaxy just for him and his happiness it should be just you, only you and him.

He's perfect, in every way. You will become god and reshape everything else in case if he was ever wrong- you'll make it right for him. His backstory, the Arahabaki. He deserves something better which is YOU. You trust him enough to not flirt with some other girls, have him always message you if he's gonna come home late(because of his responsibilities as a Executive) or about the mission, his words were always true and you know that because you kept a hidden tracker somewhere on his hat. Though, there was a time where he forgot to message you, hells was on a loose and you attempted to track him down with those tracking device of yours? You overthinked that he was hanging out with some other people other than yourself yet it was just him handling another mission. Once he returned home, he wasn't exactly in a best mood when you tried to confront him about the whole thing- making you "worried sick" about him as the argument ensues.

It was rather cold for the both of you, and you absolutely despises it. With both of your backs facing eachother's, with the two of you eating some lunch and breakfast either seperated or in silence because none of you are trying to talk about it. At. All. This tension was suffocating you so badly- if the two of you wasn't so stubborn enough this would've been prevented, perhaps another safety precautions should be added to this when he is going out and forgot to tell you.

Well, today is the day that you planned to get your loving darling back in your arms- in your embrace. You were planning to get that one expensive wine, he has a dozen collection of some wines but you were sure that in his penthouse, he didn't had this one brand just yet, maybe get back home early and cook him something he likes while preparing for you apology speec—

All of your thoughts was dropped when you were walking down on this one corridor, saw him talking to one of the people- they dare to make him smile instead of you doing it? It should have been you. We're you not enough? All you did for him was not enough? For your darling? You should've had resorted to doing this one severe method that you had planned on doing so for a very long time ago, anything to oppose that is a threats to your relationships. You stood there for a brief second not realizing that you both if your fists were clenched closed, harshly enough with both of your nails sunken in your skin before you had to cut your line of thoughts here, you didn't want to bother your lovely for now as you retreated back to your respective office, waited for the day before heading home.

You got home early- the others questioned you why? That's because you forgot there's this one "personal" thing you had to deal with back home and you need to have it fixed asap, luckily Mori let you go home early and so. What's the personal problem if you may ask? This one PERSON that took away all of the things you needed to do for Chuuya, your honey- your darling. You wouldn't let them just take away that genuine smile off him without your permission at all, absolutely not and you aren't going to accept it.

These vicious thoughts that flooded your mind isn't very nice of it, but it has been disposed by you, the one and only. You waited for this one particular person to head out of the headquarters that made your man laughed- it was rather a poisonous thought, you don't want to think about it again and now that you took them down, putted a super glue both on his mouth and nostrils while you tied him up— you took this one scoop, without any mercy at all you dugged the scoop inside of his eyes despite the person's screams muffled in agony, have it scooped it out of their system one by one before leaving them from one of the abandoned alleyway.

Oh those scene kept on repeating and repeating as you prepared the dishes, that juicy beef steak with a little bit of gourmets on it and had the wine prepared till you heard a wooden crack coming from the entrance, with both of your eyes lit up upon his prescence. Without any hesitation you headed to the front- you greeted him with a simple "welcome back" while getting the other stuff aside from his, now puzzled by your actions as you led him to the room, feeling a little bit fishy about your behavior for some reasons. But he still didn't gave you any attention or spoke with you at all

Playing hard to get now? You let go of his shoulder before heading to the kitchen, now unable to fully face him with your head looking down to the ground. Letting out a sigh of regret.

"I'm sorry, baby. I know it was an ass of me to push your buttons from that time so I wanted to make things up now." You rose your head up and whirled your whole body to him, with your gaze softened with a solemn regret that pleas for his forgiveness. Though, who is he exactly to decline this now- all of his loved one's set up, all he could do for now was to lower his gaze with both of his brows frowning. "No, I should be the one sorry for yelling." He tried to reason back at you, perfect. You made him say what you wanted him to say now. Even just by apologizing he does it so well, so perfectly.

"Don't be, it's understandable." A weak laughter came out from your mouth before approaching him and gave him a little smooch on his cheeks- you're making him tempted. He definitely missed this kind. "Although, perhaps you should go take a shower first, I already set the bathtub for you there." Again, you snuck another kiss but this time it's on his lips, he returned it back though and all he said was "Alright, I'll be back in the kitchen for about a minute doll" before heading up to the stairs, you your shared bedroom to go ahead and change now.

He still isn't aware. You're willing to do all of the dirty works to keep his image clean.

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