#i go through new fandom turmoil until i regain balance

[madraleen]

me: omg please tho, not actual author dazai's ending for dazai, don't follow the pattern, omigosh also me: but don't we literally start at the ending, surviving the river, another beginning, another chance? and aren't things generally reversed, eg akutagawa looking up to dazai vs their reversed real life counterparts etc? so, shouldn't that also be reversed, or at the very least not written in stone? also also me: girl, are you serious?! this is a 10+ years scenario, why are you even thinking about this? dazai is bsd, he ain't going nowhere any time soon. also also also me: ...meh, i've dealt with aot, i can deal with anything.